#does this count as a vent post?? idk

[nikothebookdragon]

but I love!!!! my friends!!!!! they make me feel alive!!!!! again!!!!!

[chibishortdeath]

I was at one point gonna make an actually colored nice finished drawing for this, but I’m not feeling it and the trend will probably be completely dead by the time that I do if it isn’t already ugh. So you get doodle Miku now :3!

Anyway uh weird middle of absolutely nowhere in the rural US Midwest Miku. I’ll mini rant about it a little bit under the cut 👍

I literally had to look up my own culture for this cause I couldn’t think of anything 💀💀💀💀💀. Especially not anything that actually applies to me, if that makes sense. Minus the fishing pole, this is the closest to my current experience I could get. Her expression is very reminiscent of the experience of being out here tbh.

Apparently ranch dressing is a thing???? I didn’t know cause I really don’t like ranch. Same with casseroles. Fishing is a local hobby, but I don’t have a fishing license and don’t like being around water. So is fixing old cars, but I’m not strong enough to do any of that. There isn’t a consistent accent or slang here, it’s just a bunch of stuff from everywhere else. Not really distinct clothing. A couple bands are from nearby states, but they’re not associated with them much. Uh some sports teams I guess. I don’t watch sports. Everywhere for miles looks the same cause it’s all corn and closest place to do anything is in a big faraway city and involves spending money you probably don’t have and shouldn’t.

There’s not a whole lot tbh.

Idk, this whole experience was basically “wow Miku around the world? So cool! I wanna draw Miku :D!!!! Oh hey wait, where I live is very bleak and bland actually—“ 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

[toashesireturn]

absolutely insane take from the priest this past sunday but apparently he doesn't consider marriages only carried out at the courthouse and not through the church as real marriages so if you got married and didnt get a specifically catholic marriage then having sex is still a sin. absolutely baffling take along with the rest of the purity culture bs he was spouting

[so-i-macedup-abit]

apologies to the inbox on the fil ask blog and mine

[nyuheartbreak]

having social anxiety SUCKS!!!!!! I WANT TO INTERACT WITH PEOPLE WHO ENJOY THE SAME THINGS I DO!! BUT I END UP QUIVERING AND SHAKING LIKE A LITTLE WET CAT!!!! im just a wittle guy.... im only one apple tall.... the struggle is very much real

[undercoverangell]

rambling in the tags incoming

[corvidaenightcrawler]

I have a Professor clone. A puppet, one that I made, not bought. He was $90 and days of my time. But goddamn does that little thing mean the world to me. He transcended blorbo into full THAT IS MY SON territory. If you cope about stress and trauma with plushies or characters from your hyperfixations I highly recommend having one of him. I treat him like my own damn child. I cradle him in my arms and rock him like a baby, I hold him all the time and put him in nice places around the house. I put him on my head as I do chores. I dress him up and pamper him and spoil him, because he deserves it. I want to treat him better than anybody ever will. He's my baby. My little guy, my son, even. I often feel desolate and even just LOOKING at him gives me such an intense and powerful rush of every emotion AT ONCE. This is the most pathetic post I will ever make. He is my comfort. He's my baby. I don't want kids, I don't want to be a dad. But being able to bury my face into this lil guy's fuzzy blue self is the best healing thing. He is my BABY. I think I'm insane. I really am insane. He's special to me.

[hauntedpotat]

it's incredibly funny to me that on tumblr you can post the best thing you've ever drawn and it gets like. 3 notes. And then you post a silly doodle from some random surface that you made in like 6 seconds and it's your top post for a month. Why

[justcrayzstuffs]

This is kind of a Vent post... Maybe?? Idk

Im in a bit of a trouble, maybe???

So, i really like transformers

BUT

I have never been able to watch any of the series, the most new ones?? Completely

I mean about, Transformers: Prime, Transformwrs: Robots in disguise. Cant remeber if i did or did not watch Transformer: Cyberverse, and may or may not watch Transformers animated when i was like 5??? Oh, and also, the kids show, Rescue bots, i really used to like this one when i was 8

The thing is, i wanna watch this series again, and if possible all the shows, but i can't find all the epispdes of the ones i mentioned, and i just want a bit of lore to read fics dude, not that is actually necessary but i still wanna watch them

And i really would like to start drawing some characters , cuz i really wanna learn to draw Mecha and all of that

but u know what is the worse thing man??

IM FROM LATINO AMERICA, AND THERE IS NO STREAMING SERVICES THAT HAS THE SERIES THAT I AM MENTIONING

Netflix used to have Transformers Prime and Transformers Robots in disguise, but they, like a lot of other movies and shows, removed them. And they weren't even all the episodes in there, or not that i can remember.

YES, there are some other shows of transformer like the trilogy of War for Cybertron and EarthSpark ( i just checked this, is only this ones), and some movies

And yeah, there is an "official"(?) Chanel in Youtube that has some of the shows, but again, is not all the chapters. Managed to find rescuebots entirely tho, but not the other shows

And i can't remember shit of this shows at all cuz i watched them when i was a child, and my brain decided to erase most of those memories, so...

And of the only two characters that i will always remember cuz ofc i will remember Bumblebee and Optimus Prime, cuz ofc... MY BRAIN COULDN'T KEEP ALL THE INFO ABOUT THE OTHE CHARACTERS

AND I JUST REMEMBER I REALLY CONSIDER THEM COOL

And i remember the name of Ratchet(?), but idk if it is a character or not, or if it is the ambulance autobot, or if it is from one of this series. Is not from rescuebots, i know that pretty well, and if it appeared once that i have no fucking idea if he did.

WAS THERE EVEN AN AUTOBIT THAT HAD AN AMBULANCE DESIGNE???!!!!

Just end me, dude.

[scoliosisgoblin]

gyat damn it dude, I joking called my friend's drawing Peter (cause he had a round head) and bro said he was gonna play me a video going over the allegations of Fuboo and her fucked up husband????

[chibishortdeath]

I got a new sketchbook since I filled one recently :3c. Shout out to suddenly getting a ton of energy and drawing bizarre fanart at 1 am 💀💀💀.

I’m putting the more violent ones under a cut even if the post is already tw tagged because of the subject matter being a bit dark d(^^ ).

Along with explanations for all of them of course!

⚠️tw for self harm and burning past this point⚠️

First one (before the cut) is just some pose practice. Simon’s just sitting, all sad and mopey. There’s also a little chibi doodle of him in the bottom corner and a little pose armature in the top corner for a pose I didn’t even end up drawing whoops lol. I feel like I drew his face a little differently than I usually do in this one :O. Idk how that happened lol.

This one is to show the differences in anatomy between each game! The curse takes a lot out of him, poor guy, so he’s a bit less jacked than usual 😔. Well, more specifically he doesn’t have as much of a layer of protective fat anymore. And he’s also very tired :(. But yeah, this is just a reference I’ll look back at to keep this detail consistent! I was going to put scar reference on it too, but I completely forgot and eh it mighta made it kinda hard to make out anyway d(- - ).

I drew this side profile of Simon while watching a video talking about lost media stuff. I think the image I based it on was something Saki Sanobashi related, idk I just liked the vibes of the hair being blown back by wind and got inspired :). And yes I know that Saki is probably a hoax 💀💀💀💀💀, I didn’t have much interest in it tho tbh, besides just hoping something lost gets found in general. Lost media videos are honestly great for putting on as background noise when drawing :)

Simon is totally me when I have a crisis and cover my face with my hands, but make sure one eye is visible and miraculously out of shadow for dramatic effect!!!

Ok spookier stuff time, first of the below the cut drawings. This one is based on how sometimes vampires are depicted as being able to drain someone from long distances or beyond the grave. Dracula is mean, and Simon is suffering from the curse, the usual. Augh I actually need to do things cause I keep thinking of a cool scene of Simon having a weird Dracula nightmare and then waking up to see it wasn’t a dream, and that’s tropey as hell, but it’s spooky!!! Do you see my vision?

This is a depiction of like what happens with a game over or something :O. Like an absolute worst possible outcome: Simon dies and Dracula is unsealed and fully regenerated. I basically just took is Simon’s Quest design and then rehydrated it and tada, Dracula is no longer a skeleton— He ends up looking way more like Vlad the Impaler in this outfit hmmm. Also, unrelated, but a friend of mine mistook Dracula for Jesus in this drawing 💀💀💀.

Oh boy, edgy depictions of uh a lot of not being very kind to yourself themes. Idk how else to describe this one other than ya know when you get really mad at your past self for making a mistake or the wrong decision that you could’ve only known about in hindsight? Also in part the fear of actually becoming a vampire at the end of all of this? And I guess a bit of feeling like it’s your own fault, you’re the one that keeps shooting yourself in the foot, but I feel like he’d also attribute getting hit by Dracula in the first place as his fault too… hmm just a lot of very sad things going on, this one was definitely a later 1 am time drawing, maybe 1:40 or something. I think what I draw at night is further proof to not trust you when you’re tired; I get weirdly existential at night and then it’s totally fine in the morning. Simon! Just sleep! Stop overthinking!!! You’ll be ok!!!

This one I debated putting up at all cause it’s graphic and not finished (TwT ;). But it was a rare drawing of Simon smiling that didn’t look uncanny, which is kinda ironic because Simon this is not the time to be smiling—! That is also wayyy too far for just the Dracula ritual, you really only need a tiny amount to open the seal, but I’ll cut him some slack cause he is a bit at wits end by this point. I’d say maybe he’s smiling because he thinks he finally won, but tbh I thought of it more like when things are just so bad you start laughing. Like Dracula just rose from the altar and the morbid irony of it all is just so absurd, the irony that you did everything right and fought tooth and nail (Dracula’s to be exact lol) to stop it and here it is happening anyway. I wanna give this guy a weighted blanket and a bowl of warm soup—

These last two are based on what could’ve happened to him. The Grey ending is pretty much usually considered the “worst”, but they’re all nearly interchangeable, especially in the Japanese version. For example: the western release really makes the Blue ending seem like he died and didn’t kill Dracula, but it’s a lot more that he just died doing it in the original, which is to say that it’s kinda like the Grey ending just with a different eulogy— Anyway, the Grey ending is the only one that doesn’t show Simon at Dracula’s grave, so I’ve always taken it as he didn’t make it out of the castle basement. And well, setting Dracula on fire is a pretty common way to kill him so uh um, R.I.P. I’ve got a couple ideas for alternate comic endings to say the least. I might honestly just depict all of them and leave it entirely up to the reader which one happened because it doesn’t change much— Though this also has me thinking of how him surviving would work now. The curse would definitely have left some lasting effects, you don’t just magically stop having been rotted, sleep deprived, and whatever else it did. Idk I picture him being like Renfield levels of lost it afterwards if that makes sense… that could also be a pretty solid explanation for why his story isn’t told correctly and the cycle repeats with Maxim later; it’d be a pretty traumatic thing to talk about tbh. Ok but yappersvile over, next doodle 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

Aside from the burnt doodle that’s uh same explanation as the above (R.I.P.), the other two are just a little head angle and expression practice and one tiny one towards the top that’s Dracula being all spooky ghost vampire, but I didn’t like how it was looking and gave up on it 💀💀💀. It’s very hard to draw a vampire attacking someone and not have it look kinda awkward or unreadable. Tbh I struggle putting two characters in one image anyway because I have to draw the anatomy lines for both of them and they end up getting really hard to tell apart when one is behind another, one character suddenly isn’t proportional compared to the other, or you find out one of them isn’t tall enough for the pose you had in mind (>~< ). So anyway Dracula was accidentally way too short all of a sudden and I couldn’t figure out how to draw his torso without making a completely incomprehensible blob behind Simon oof.

Okie, it’s lunch time, bye :3!

[nikothebookdragon]

you ever just have those moments where you suddenly realise. oh. maybe my friends don't all hate me. and like,, actually want to spend time with me.

wild concept but I'm so here for it

[cha1cedony]

Sigh. Tomorrow. I'll do more. tomorrow 🥲

[thelextheluthor]

Sometimes I find it scary how much I love.

How much beauty I can find in things.

Like- I love people so much.

I love so much it hurts.

I love how one of my friends has braces that show whenever she smiles.

I love how she has acne and its scars all over her face as if they're painted onto her.

I love how another has a big, hooked nose and curly hair and she always squints when she laughs.

And I love how she laughs like there's nothing wrong in the world.

I love how one of my other friends has a button nose and the most expressive eyes.

I love his curly hair and the way he shows his creativity.

I love how yet another has long, straight hair, and a rounder face and body and the softest voice.

She's the gentlest person I know; a picture of serenity.

I love how my best friend is the greatest person to be around and how we have so much in common.

I love how we never have dull days and how he's never failed to make me laugh.

This love for people isn't sexual or romantic and I doubt it ever will be.

If I'm attracted to them, it's like being attracted to an airborne melody in a busy, crowded place.

There is so much going on around you, you should have more important things-

but you find yourself wanting to chase that blissful song.

Where it goes, you follow.

It can be scary for me sometimes.

How much I can love people.

So I think it is easier sometimes to express my love for other things.

I love colors and nature and all sorts of things that are okay to love- a concept I've never gotten, because why on Earth would you only ever care for some things? - and I love them all so deeply .

I love how I can express myself.

Through letters that make sentences and sentences that make paragraphs and paragraphs that make stories.

Stories of love and loss and people and places and fictional fantasies that I think of and share.

And they are real, because I feel them.

I love how art is everywhere and how people can show others how they feel.

I listen to music in languages I don't know and look at paintings from countries I've never heard of.

It's beautiful how emotion has no borders.

I love simple things too.

But how can anything be truly simple?

Everything has a bit more to it.

I love the sound of rain and the smell of candles and the way both feel like home.

I love how I hold my pencil when I write and how my hand cramps up when I do it for too long.

But for some reason, love- deep and unconditional love- is seen as foolish and gullible.

It's for teenagers who believe in soulmates and children who believe in fairytales.

I know how this world works. I've been hurt by it more times than I can count.

I will keep loving it anyway.

I will love the world until my heart stops beating.

I'm not religious- but I'll love it from beyond the grave if I can.

This is a broken, hurt world. It needs tenderness, compassion.

I don't care if others think it doesn't deserve it.

So, yes. It hurts me to love people.

But it hurts me more to see them unloved. People are my world.

So I'm writing this, hoping that maybe someone can see their world through my heart.

And if you are seeing this, I love you too. No matter what. Don't forget that.

[karmic-epiphany-archived]

I'm starting to think some people aren't bad at tagging, and that they're just assholes

this isn't about anyone on here btw

I just need to complain for a moment, because if I search for fics with "no archive warnings apply", and exclude Mature, Explicit and unrated, that means "I don't want to see any Mature or Explicit content, and I wish to not see anything related to the archive warnings"

And I know it's not just them not knowing any better

because they then put "major character death" in the additional tags

and do the same with graphic violence.

And don't tag your fucking smut as General audiences. The ratings exist so one can filter what they want to see.

Anyways, sorry about that.

This'll probably be the only thing like this I'll make, I just needed to complain rq.

Back to- not this, I guess!

[lesbianspeedy]

going thru it