#does anyone ubderstand me

[freshbaked-bread]

going insane

[chaoticgoodthief]

Fellas, does anyone mind factchecking these tags? I'm no expert so I'll leave tis one for y'all to educate me. Please no hate, I just want to try my best to ubderstand the full situation.

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[zukoromantic]

I wanna disclose something, i have no intention to get vcacinated against covid very soon. This is purely for personal reasons and not because i believe the vaccine should not be out there (i don't). I am not getting it soon because my body is always very sensitive to everything. Side effects that doctors tell me can't happen this way end up happening anyway and no one is ever sure why. I get vaccinated against things often, this is exclusive to the covid vaccines. They obviously didn't have to go through as much testing (long term testing) as other things, which is ubderstandable. But that still means there is a personal risk involved and someone like me is rather careful when it comes to that. Of course i care about not spreading the virus, wear masks and get tested when needed. Which is more than a lot of people who ARE currently vaccinated do. This is a problem.

The vaccine does not stop you spreading the virus.

Like it or not, you STILL have to be careful. You STILL have to wear masks. You STILL should get tested before events. I would like the vaccine to be a magical cure-all as much as anyone, but it simply isn't. It does work as well with newer variants and it does not prevent spreading the virus as much as you think it does.

I am not avoiding the vaccine at the moment because i don't care about the pandemic. I do care, but i also care about my own health and the "good" that getting vaccinated does for anyone else is so small that it is simply not a risk worth taking at the moment. This is my decision to make and not anyone else's. If you disagree with this feel free to unfollow me.

[mejomonster]

Oh man... rereading this just reminded me how much shen wei, in a way, uses lao chu as a surrogate for his own brother. Shen wei? Can't save ye zun, feels fucking awful about it. Shen wei finds ye zun NOW, and ye zun's in a pillar and dixing hates that pillar and does NOT want the bitch out. So shen wei sees this huge monument to his own failure: there's his little brother, right there, so close shen wei can even walk up and get yelled at by ye zun if he wants! Hear his little brothers voice! Hear how he failed, how hes still failing, because ye zun is Still trapped, is still the monster he's turned into since Shen Wei lost him as a child, ye zun is even more entrenched in being cruel and angry the more the years pass, and shen wei cant even bear to face ye zun.

Shen wei feels so guilty but fuck, especially when the show opens? Shen wei in the modern era is painfully aware hes stuck in a fucked up system as a perpetrator now. Gone is his youthful idealism of saving the world. He is now the tool Envoy dixing and haxing use to keep dixingren trapped in dixing, to enforce their own laws regardless of what shen wei thinks is just. Shen wei can bend a rule here and there, save someone and pretend he killed them, save a bit more as zhao yunlan likewise bends (and eventually breaks) the rules to do whats just. But shen wei, since waking up, is staying on earth pretending to be humam where he can ignore the fucked up situation that is his Envoy life, until hes called to do that other half of his life. That duty hes still burdened to, that maybe once was about helping but now he feels he is often just an enforcer of a fucked up situation (as does Zjao Yunlan as he gets more self aware, and zhao yunlan for a variety of reasons finds it easier to start resisting and openly opposing that system, whereas shen wei has been beaten down by it and sees it stretch out for so long a time period he feels its inevitable at the start of the show, feels he can only resist in minor ways and help only individuals).

Then enter chu shuzhi. Hes a criminal like ye zun, but hes younger than ye zun, hes less stuck in his way for ages (the way shen wei and ye zun are), hes got a brother he loves (and boy can shen wei relate). So shen wei can save THIS individual. Shen wei can provide guidance to this one, in a way he couldnt for ye zun. Shen wei can be a team with chu shuzhi and fulfill so many of his own needs: he can save someone imprisoned by dixing (and feel less powerless), help someone who could understand shen weis own pain (someone else with a brother whos gone through something like shen wei has), an ally whos just the Envoys ally NOT a tool of the system shen wei sees as broken (chu shuzhi is loyal to the Envoy, not to anyone else, and will back up the decisions shen wei makes and give him at least the reassurance someone else would be on his side), and shen wei in a myriad of ways is fulfilling roles chu shuzhi wants and needs.

Shen wei can do nothing about his situation with his own brother (and if he can, his own self guilt and pain at facing what he cojsiders his own fault, and his pain at having to confront that ye zun imprisoned is what the system wants and shen wei exists Inside a system that would villainize and hunt him the same way they make him hunt other dixingren who run-the way he ubderstands cause he wanted a life on Haixing too-a system that holds him up as war hero would throw him away and use as scapegoat if it was more useful, so shen wei feels trapped unable to do much). But shen wei can do sokething, take action, when it comes to chu shuzhi.

Okay so while I am like. Weilan as a ship? In my top 3 epic romances of all time (that I've seen in a show personally). Which is Xena/Gabrielle, Spirk, and Weilan.

But also like when I watched the show my fondness for chu shuzhi and Guo changcheng came unexpectedly and intensely and I'd almost say I was more invested in a way. Just in the sense that like, their dynamic intrigued me a little bit more. Weilan are intense and epic and everything I expect Of a grand romance for the ages. And also mature and relatable and well acted (and very xena/gabrielle category). But chuguo? It's the "I'm a cannibal don't love me" "I'm a double agent why am I babysitting a human especially a cowardly weak one" "this coward I looked down on is the bravest kindest person alive I know" "this man has nothing no talent no achievement and he's so strong to still want to do this, to be this dedicated" "I haven't let myself feel since my brother died and now I have a person I'm just as afraid to lose" (which honestly the chu shuzhi and his brother and Xiao Guo parallels to shen wei and ye zun and Zhao yunlan are IMMENSE, and it's fascinating to look at weilan as similar to Lao chu and Xiao guo... how Zhao yunlan gets shen wei to connect and open up the way Xiao Guo gets Lao chu to, i could go on). It's the way chu shuzhi in some ways was the "ye zun" brother, he was the criminal, the one shen wei pardoned and made his employee (and in some ways no doubt saw it as what he wished he could've done with ye zun but Dixing was never letting ye zun out), he was the one who didn't even like his own people and Certainly didnt like humans. He was the one who only served one thing, driven by his brother (revenge, living because his brother would want it, following shen wei as he reminded chu shuzhi of his brother etc). And here he is, completely cut off (in a way shen wei isn't because shen wei does make a home on earth with humans at least at a distance as a teacher). And chu shuzhi gets close to Xiao Guo. Who brings him to his FAMILY, who sees him as family, who grabs hold of chu shuzhi and doesn't get scared and let go (could you imagine if anyone did that for ye zun how different things may have gone? See my fanfic what makes monsters stop devouring lol). Just like... the ENTIRE dynamic of chuguo interests me so much

So like. I'm reading the novel and just waiting to fall into the deep end of getting so into chuguo again I neglect the leads lol ToT

[ladyotterton]

Geee I want to strangle my neighbor again -_-

She is an old lady who is used to getting everything she wants the instant she wants it. If she doesn't, she is having a temper tantrum like a three year old who wasn't allowed his popsicle.

Atm we don't have Internet or television or phone service because our telekom network broke down.

My landlady and I called yesterday and got an appointment with a technician for tomorrow. (Which is phenomenal considering the amount of customers they have).

My neighbor has an appointment for next week. When she heard we were scheduled earlier she started shouting and asked my landlady to call her when the technician was here.

My landlady just said to me after our neighbour was gone, that she would just pretend the technician never came to our house and just fixed the problem at the distribution panel for our street.

My neighbour does not ubderstand and refuses to get told how the wiring works or how much work is behind such networks. If things don't go her way she either belittles everyone ibbolved without knowing facts, throws a tantrum or is suddenly manipulatively sweet to get her way.

So annoying and stressing. Because she doesn't give a damn about anyone else as log as she gets want she wants