#do you wnat trump for them?

[corviacore]

@nbphosphophyllite for your consideration.

y’all are gonna vote Kamala now that she’s called for a ceasefire and has condemned Israel’s actions, right? you’re going to vote for her because she’s said she hears the calls for a ceasefire, right? or will you find another excuse to now do your civic duty for this country that directly affects you and everyone around you. i am begging you to please vote in this election because we are literally between a man who has been charged with 34 felony counts, had more on the table, and wants to become a dictator if hes elected on day one and a woman who is sane, rational, and competent at her job and supports everything this man is against. if you want Palestine to be free, you’re going to get off your ass and vote.

[the-firebird69]

Sam & Mikaela Car Scene | Transformers So it reminds me of what happened. I first got in the car He started to gibberish. Then he stopped. And he said, I'm kind of messing it up. He's looking at me like he likes me. Yeah. And I know I'm not as good at looking as she is here. on purpose. And then it's kind of a It's kind of a nuisance, shall we say, he has to go through a certain thing But we I did it on purpose. And I'll tell you he responded. OK, and it reminds me of us when the first road in it. And we had a little conversation. And we're talking about school and things like that. And we're talking about how is driving was and it was. It was a similar conversation. And I thought it was gonna clock out a couple times. and it didn't But I wanted him to take me home and he drove me home. And it was dark out. And I said, I'll see you at school and I like. going out with you. And she was excited and really depraved. But we went ahead and we met again. And I was pretty happy with that too.. And he's happy. I was happy with it. It's hard to get feedback, he says.. LOL. So it's kind of a recreation a little bit, but this is. a new car and it's a transformer and they're writing in it. And it changes somehow. Some of them can do that, but not this one We don't think. And they go ahead and Get involved Get involved in all sorts of things. from that point. But this girl is not after him for some reason, and I'm not sure what it is. He doesn't know either. He thinks it might be because they think a little like and a lot of it might be they know about the secrets of Giants. and things like that because of Dave. I found that's like the major reason. And they're little people and they know what they do to these Mac proper and It's pretty intense. OK, they're rather hooked, and they can break through what regular women can. And they smile and then say, that's nice, and it's incredible. He's really surprised that they even are looking at him. So they watched like Hawks too. It's like ATV show to them. But this is a hot car, and it's Paul Cassanelli's model. It's not the same car, and he says he thinks that the engine is a transformer motor, and it's not really a transformer yet. And I have to agree with him. so he's driving along, and I'll tell you what so he's driving along, and I'll tell you what, I don't think he hit the gas. and it didn't, he didn't try it. He should, though, because it might be his only opportunity to. and he said, what do you mean? I said, there's probably no human being who's ever been in the seat and is able to use a transformer motor that might be ours. So I hear a story Frank Castle, hard castle says he pinned it almost, and it just kept spinning the tires. So he backed off, and he said, it's got a lot more power than I thought. And it works for awhile, and then it stops Says, what is that? It says it's similar to a transformer. And he said, no way. So he. did play with a little on the same. That's got so much power. I don't know what to do about it. And he tried. and he tried to study it and he couldn't change. And he said, well, that's ridiculous. and changed when he was outside of it and said now you're in trouble because I don't know what happens when it transforms. And he started laughing and said I'd be inside and I should probably figure that out.. But really, this is a moment in my life when I met my husband again.

jen m

hah ok ok we owrk now see it. you cant beat us andno way not in a matchbo we will and strt it right

a dream ok and we cut him in somehow and if we cant ok we see it

wnats one an good

trump again

andwe do this now

dave

we meant it 

now i see it

sarah

Olympus

[bisluthq]

I mena it's a weird way tho. Liek we're not supposed to wnat people get better? being self aware doens't mean shit if you're not working in. And we all should. Just like Iley should work on biting her tongue sometimes. Demi should think before starting things and Taylor should not compromise her integrity for a man. I don't mean to amke them the only ones flawed here. Again we should work on ours mistakes too. You know? I'mnot crazy wanting to see a positive change.

I thought I answered this but yes I agree with you completely. I just think it’s unfair of us to claim to be fans of people and like act SHOOK when they do things that align with their flaws. Not because I don’t think we should hold them to a better standard. I am MAJORLY disappointed re Grammygate, I think it was straight up wrong and it has 1000% affected my view of her because it DID seem antithetical to stuff she stood for but eh being a simp for her man is in character so like clearly THAT trumps her values/ideology and now we know.

I’m not saying Demi and Miley shouldn’t be pushed to be better but when they are predictably shitty, as they often are, it’s IMO unfair to be like “HOW COULD THEY!?” like it can be a “my goodness AGAIN” but... ya idk.

I know I say celebs aren’t our friends but think about it this way: if you become friends or start dating someone, and you know they have major flaws, you can’t expect them to change those. You can pressure them to be better but ultimately that’s like... the package you signed on for. And you can unsubscribe if it’s a dealbreaker but they are who they are idk.

[evilelitest2]

If Bernie does actually win this thing, would the DNC give in and will Democrats fall in line or will everybody be this stupid right up to November? I really hope it is the first one but we've never been in this situation to my knowledge so I don't know.

Ok, so we need to understand that the DNC is not a monolith, there isn’t a vast council of like 12 shadowy democrats sitting around being like “Which candidate will we give our support too” its a vast organzation with a bunch of factions and conflicting desires and interests .  In 2016 they largely sided with Clinton, but that was a 2 person race and Clinton had 16 years to get their loyaties, which...just isn’t the case for anybody in this race cause of how fractured the race is. And the DNC is separate from the Super Delegates.   The DNC’s goal is to beat Trump, generally speaking they don’t particularly like Sanders, but they also clearly don’t view him as like...a threat to their existence, they can live with him.  

If Sanders is the nominee, I think the DNC will put all of its efforts into defeating Trump, because they genuinely think that Trump is a threat to the country and also personally hate him.  I don’t think Sanders will face problems from his own party if he is the nominee.  

Bloomberg on the other hand...that worries me more, i am scared he won’t support the winner if his feelings were too hurt.  

Now the bigger threat to Sanders (or any nominee for that matter) is not the party supporting them in 2020, its the nomination itself.  If Sanders wins like 50% or more of the votes, then I think he can just sail to the nomination, cause the DNc wouldn’t want to cause a civil war.  But what if the voting ends and he has a plurality of 32%.  Ho should the nomination go to?  he has the most votes but 68% of the democratic party didn’t even vote for him, so is it correct to call him the frontrunner?  Of course, many of those 68% might have him as their second choice or be perfectly ok with him as the leader, but that can’t really be judged.

This is the problem with this primary, it was designed with the idea that after Nevada, there would only be like 4 candidates left at most, and instead we are days way from South Carolina, and 8 of them are still in this damn race.  When you have a field this crowded, it is really hard to determine who actually deserves the nomination.  And then the question is, how much does everybody else have?  Like if Sanders has 32%, Biden has 30%, Warren 20%, and everybody else 10%, then you could argue that 52% of democrats support a progressive and Warren could give her delegates to Sanders.  Or Sanders could win 32%, Biden 20%, Warren 20% Bloomberg 15% and everybody else holding the remaining then that implies that Sanders deserves it more.  Or if Sanders has 32%, Biden 30%, Bloomberg 30% and everybody else 8%, then Moderates clearly got the majority overall.  That is the problem with this primary system.  Also what about second choices

Like lets say Pete drops out after Super Tuesday, so his nomination total is 5% of the vote.  Should those votes go to Biden cause he is a centrist?  Should they go to Warren because they were competing for the same votes?  Should they just not be counted because he dropped out?  

Now if Sanders wins with a plurality of like 44%, then its a bit more clear cut in my mind that he deserves the nomination and Warren should turn her votes over to him.

BTW, do you wnat to know how Primaries should work? 

There are three votes held across the nation.  On at the start of February, one at the start of March, and one in mid April.  The first two votes are “ranked choice” So you pick your first three choices.  Anybody who doesn’t get at least 5% in the first vote is automatically eliminated.  Second one requires at least 25%.  Third one is just majority.  

That way no state gets preference and the candidate who wins will have at least some degree of popular vote.  (thanks to @randomshoes for the idea)

[sennakoshiba]

Thanks for the links, replying in numbered bullet-points, one for each link:

1) Yeah, that sucks and is indicative of her being a bog-standard politician. But, again, it's not worse than the other option.

2) I'm gonna be saying, "this sucks" a lot, because it does. However, her goal isn't to throw asylum seekers in cages (even if Obama and Biden did that, it isn't their stated goal, like Trump's). Immigration is a topic that she's losing on, based on a pool of voters that actually intend to vote. If we showed the dems what we want via these surveys, that we're the majority, we can get the slimy fuckers to pander to us. There's voting with your dollars and then there's just regular voting.

3) I just read this one this morning! As was said earlier; she still supports trans people, but is pandering to those that are actually willing to vote, leaving us with lukewarm words. Again, that's better than a nigh inhuman bastard that wnats trans people legislated out of existence.

4) The article cites an interview with her talking about her, "denying care to trans inmates" when in reality it was people under her/ her responsibilities as a lawyer. She says that she had to take part the case even though the stance she was arguing went against her beliefs. I don't care for lawyers and I could never personally relate, but that was what that was. But WOW who the fuck are, "America's trans bourgeoisie"?? Maybe back in the 1980's like the article suggests, but I do not know a single trans person that makes bourgeoisie money.

Additionally, the article you gave me also argues plenty for voting for Kamala:

While the article slaps in other ways (talking about the fucked up state of affairs with US officials having meetings at Israel's torture prisons), it fails to completely address the fact that; Trump will be worse for the US.

They also make a bunch of claims about trans bourgeoisie and liberals trying to shrink the trans population without a single source, so 🤷‍♀️

5) Like I've said, she's reaching across the aisle to get more moderate or right-leaning people, because they'll actually vote. Why pander to the kids that won't vote that're too left leaning? Then you lose the right-of-center, the centrists, and left-of center voters. It's a sick, awful numbers game that we need to change, as the two-party system is a fucking joke.

We don't win by letting Trump (who is OBJECTIVELY WORSE than Kamala) be president again. I'll protest as much as it takes, but I think we'll get further under her than the guy that unleashed unmarked secret police forces on protestors, essentially kidnapping them.

Lovely how libs has spent a year going "yeah well Harris is gonna back and fund a genocide but at least she will stand by trans people in the US" just for her to come out as not giving a shit about trans rights lol

[vylette-takeda]

Things that you will not tolerate?

What do I not tolerate in RP...that is a good question. Truth is I tolerate a lot. I am pretty open minded to people’s ideas and it takes a lot for me to just walk away. There are a few things though that will make me want to. Longish answer to follow!1) All Powerful masters of all - I do not enjoy roleplaying with people who have no sense of scaling. I think we all have encountered this (And some like it, I just do not). A character who takes all of their ooc professions and makes them ic. They are master warrior, healer, omnicrafter,ninja, white mage, black mage all at the tender age of 26. IT is in my opinion, ridiculous and immersion breaking. It immediately sucks me out of character and reminds me that I am a nerd typing on the internet. That is not why I rp. It has the additional downside of making everyone around them redundant. If you have one character that can do everything, what is the point in you even being there? If Captain America had all the abilities of himself plus Thor, Black Widow, Hawkeye, Iron Man, the Hulk etc. why bother to have the Avengers? There is no need. This brings me to a closely aligned cousin to this...2) Spotlight stealers! Quite often people make overpowered things because they want to be the star, the hero, the anti-hero..whatever. That is well and good and RP is a fine form of expression to explore your fantasies. There is just one teensy little problem..everyone else you interact with. You see, they ALSO want to explore and RP and at times feel important. If you are always consistently making things about you you are disrespecting those you make stories with. No one wants to feel like an NPC. No one wants to have a ship where they are essentially a Skyrim wife. The people you write with wnat to share in the adventure and have their turn as well. The same way when playing a tabletop game a good DM will construct an adventure where all the characters have their moment to shine, players need to do this in a self regulating way during RP. If the spotlight is on you for a while, let it move over to someone else for a bit. Let them explore their character themes, ask about their story, engage them about what they want to talk about and/or do. if I RP with someone who consistently treats those around them like NPCs I no longer want to play make believe with that person.3) Being a dick to people out of game. This is a big umbrella and I don’t want to belabor it. If you are a bigot I doubt we will mesh well.If you are an elitist or exclusionary based on who someone is ooc I won’t take that. IC is different..if your character does not like someone else's fine. If you trump up stupid reasons not to like them ic for some ooc reason or create thinly veiled rationales I will call you on it. (Note this does not apply if from an ooc perspective you two avoid each other because of whatever past drama. That’s fine, just be adults about it). If you are cruel or make fun of someone because of their RP style that upsets me. If you are a jerk or exclusionary to new players or starting rpers I will be upset about it. Basically, we all have to play in the sandbox, there is no reason to be a jerk. If you don’t like someone, go to your side of the sandbox but do not try to make their experience miserable.Thanks for the ask @of-sea-and-forest!

[dazedtrains]

1-65

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

All the time, which most of the times leads to panic attacks. :/

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2.4 because I have to shut the door of the room I’m in or I can’t sleep because if someone breaks in they know I’m home. AND THEN I DIE, which leads to panic attacks when I sleep in the same room as my sister, Kayak, who has to sleep with the door open or the monsters that she imagines will eat her pancreas.

3. The person you would never want to meet?

My next math teacher.

4. What is your favorite word?

murder. just say murder and I’m listening, though not as many times as @madeyesims has used it *those eye emojis that everyone in the PP discord love*

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

A dormant one.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

I look like a congressman in crisis.

7. What shirt are you wearing?

A Jurrasic park shirt.

8. What do you label yourself as?

A distressed congressman, but with less rights and no will to live.

9. Bright room or dark room?

dark. except when im trying to take photos, im talking to you mother.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

WHY DO YOU WNAT TO KNOW? 

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

probably 16 because I’m finally being the gender, or rather making the transition into the gender, I’ve always believed I was but wasn’t allowed to be.

12. Who told you they loved you last?

Probably Kai.

13. Your worst enemy?

AHAHHAHA I have so many of those things.

14. What is your current desktop picture?

We dont talk about that.

15. Do you like someone?

@utopian-sims AKA MY LOVE

16. The last song you listened to?

Pray by Sam Smith

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

UGHH THERES A LONG LIST BUT ILL START WITH WHO EVER MADE THE NET NEUTRALITY PROBLEM SO MY BABE COULD CALM DOWN

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

Donald Trump

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

Alex Høgh Andersen, and so many things. I may be asexual, but it would be so many things.

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

Um, my eyes, because they turn orangey in the sunlight.

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

HOW DOES THIS APPLY TO ME? But since im technically and legally classed as female right now, I would say hot and a lot of things, probably send selfies to my babe with really cheesey pick up lines.

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

I can knit without looking.

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

no spaghetti.

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

its going to be spaghetti, with garlic bread as the sandwich bread.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

probably put it in savings because im broke, but only after getting some BBQ.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

Canada.

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

Everyone is equal.

29. What is your favorite expletive?

Cunt

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

my laptop, because i have the level legacy on here and im not remaking them all again.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Any father daughter bonding time that i was forced to attend. AKA the only time.

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

Canada

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

Maxine.

34. What was your last dream about?

I married a sock and socks took over the world and i was forced to raise my sock children with the forced sock beliefs and attend sock temple.

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

Boy. and yes.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

Yes.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

No. D:

38. What is the color of your socks?

im wearing blue socks with little rainbows all over them.

39. What type of music do you like?

most. except the one where its just screaming and country.

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunsets. sunrise means the sun will be there and i hate squinting.

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

CHOCOLATE

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

my dad likes the redskins, and im kinda just supporting them so i can continue to live in this house

43. Do you have any scars?

yeah, like on my finger, i chopped a small chunk off on accident in math class and my teacher didnt beleive me. now it kinda looks like a scale so when im around little children i claim to be part dragon.

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

a Speech Language Pathologist or a therapist of the gender sort.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I THINK THIS IS VERY OBVIOUS

46. Are you reliable?

yeah. i mean i hope i am.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

are you accepted?

48. Do you hold grudges?

OOOHHH yeah

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

A sloth unicorn

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

i have so many thooo

51. Are you a good liar?

i think i am

52. How long could you go without talking?

4 days 6 hours and 10 minutes.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

long.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

yeas.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

country, confused.

56. What do you like on your toast?

cinnamon and butter or peanut butter

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

my teacher, Mr. Mungo, you can check it out on instagram, my handle is artbythecactus

58. What would be you dream car?

the camaro in my papa’s backyard. in it’s original paint aka bumble bee

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

i daydream.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

sometimes. you should never ask my dad this question.

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

yes.

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

F

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE GOD DAMN IT

64. What do you think about babies?

they should really get out more. and that if i ever spawn they are only wearing costumes until they can tell me their pronouns.

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

YOU DIDNT ASK ANY THING OMLLLL

[frontbottoms-babe]

the 411? grant does fucking magic tricks? um hello. ETHAN did magic tricks. i feel like it’s the mark of a player. and he lost his virginity in college. who does that? its all very questionable. mercy and tyler keep saying they could see me with him but i just can’t comprehend that. i was in a relationship that i wanted to last forever like TWO weeks ago, and now this is an OPTion for me? no sir. no thank you

i was drunk and grant was playing with my necjlace and i’m still al ittle drunk and i’m MAD that i even let him touch it because its so valuable and breakable. you know that song breakable by ingird michaelson? so good. “ingird” i’m laughing. earlier this night we played “asshats and cool cats” (i think) and I WON. because i have such good intuition. i’m asking for that in my stocking this christmas so when i host my SRUNK MARIO KART COMPETITION we can play that afterwards. and i shall win. again.

tomorrow is secret santa!!!!!!!!!!! yesterday i was so drunk i wandered into lucas’ and alex’s room and i told alex he was my secret santa and then called lucas the king of the man whores:( i’ve gotten drunk consecutively for at least 5 nights or maybe i’m losing count but hey i’ve made questionable decisions and that’s so good (as harrison would say).

finals??? nah. fuck spanish!

also tyler and i had a really deep talk about favoritism and hierarchy and wow i just love tyler a lot. no matter how i feel about other people in the group, i really really love tyler in a super special way. there’s just something about him that reminds me of a mix between charlie, joe, and jacob. also wtf i cannot believe oliver sent me that STUPID trump thing but hey at least he admitted it. and at least i was too drunk to care

anyways, henri (henry? idk “manchester”) walked me home in the snow and he said he’s never made love to someone he’s loved before. i’m so pissed about that, and the fact that nobody i know has seemed to have had a good, loving, sexual encounter with a true lover. that shit is so beautiful how could you deprive yourself? i know i’m not going to deprive myself. i hate waiting. i’m so impatient. next person i fall in love with, the second i realize i love them, boom, panties off. that song about moving your hips so your underpants pass your thighs? so good. i wnat my earbuds:(

ALSO i just want everybody to know i’m hurling myself off a cliff due to the INSANITY that has progressed today, december 8th 2017. i want to kill one of my friends’ exes, i want grant to tuck me into my bed but also to never go near my panties because now i’m terrified of ever getting intimate with anybody ever again, i want tyler and noah to stop being weird, i want nicole to feel included, i don’t know what to do about sophie, i don’t want to go home because i’m afraid of reston. . . .

fuck. fuck fuck fuck. three wishes? ok go

1. i want aidan to leave me alone

2. i want my mom and i to be happy

3. i want to be healthy emotionally

goodnight, good luck, farewell

[makeupbybridgette]

So I have this friend and he supports trump nd all and you know being the great person I am I support him and don’t talk abt my beliefs or opinions (I’m independent political wise). Once he and some of our other friends were at my house (two other girls), and he was being an ass so we somehow got to the point that I said “you do realize that your in a house full of feminists right?” This caused one of our friends that was there (girl) to ask what a feminist was now he had the audacity to cut me off and say that their the cancer of the world. Now why the fuck is that a thing. I’m 14 and terrified to grow up bc of how people treat women. All the fuck I want Is to be able to safely walk down the street, yeah a 14 yeah old has to worry abt that shit. I was almost raped. And he has the audacity to say that to me. I wnat to be seen as equal to men not to overpower them, just fucking equality. Is that so hard to do?

[mbrl]

a giant update!

 posted first here bc yolo

roadmap-

the stuff i bought from forever 21 today c:

other stuff i did today!

closing the chapter to january (the worst month i’ve had to deal with for awhile?)

things i look forward to in the future: march, april, may, summer.

oh my god i got really cute things from forever 21!! finally ordered a white/light grey windbreaker with swordfish pattern all over it for $20. also got white dolphin shorts (like dolphin style, not literal dolphins) with rainbow stripes on the side. and a dark-ish pink/blush off the shoulder dress with ties on the arm.. it’s kind of weird but was on sale for valentines day & idk how off the shoulder styles look on me... we’ll see ig! it’s really cute and flowy. and another dress, but maroon and long sleeve and floral, kind of in a baby doll fit. it’s lowkey mockneck so the reviews are like help i can’t fit my head through but .. hopefully it fits! there’s some really small lace parts on the sleeve :). and a white flowy vneck top with a bunch of pink flowers on it and a tie in the front. bell-ish sleeves with lace on the upper shoulders and parts of the back! oo and a light weight grey hoodie with kinda cheesy but still cool cool-toned floral embroidery on the hood. it’s p unique but the quality probably sucks and isn’t soft. lastly a peach mid-maxi skirt that has some sheer parts for the bottom half!! it’s like those ballet rehearsal skirts style. 

okay clearly i really like dresses and i think i’m going to start wearing more pink/color because i’m totally over winter in general and how drab that season is. honestly just light warm colors that kind of are reminiscent of furniture fabric/granny aesthetic is totally my vibe. like i want to look like i don’t give a fuck, but not in an emo way but more in a.... idk. i actually don’t know how to explicate my vibe but its like laid back and californian and whatever. hypebeast/grandma/passionate napper/hiker/couch appearance :) also i’m really happy to just sorta word dump and get my thoughts out again because they’re finally good vibes and i feel super excited to share it with my ... laptop screen & whoever’s reading! like getting outta funks is so nice and lowkey reminiscent of a few months ago when i finally got over this stupid boy

anyway okay. today i woke up at 9-10ish because i slept at 3am yesterday :( i felt really weird (ig you can describe as anxious) because of something i did, and i tried to do that thing where i imagined trump spouting all the self hate/angsty vibes i was telling myself, but i didn’t really purge the angst all that much. also i had taken a nap after school + drank boba the day before... (and 2 days before then i slept at 2 bc i had half a cup of green tea in the evening...) also i got angry at myself that i couldn’t sleep because it’s just annoying. it’s 12 am right now and i didn’t take any naps today but i’ll definitely be content & ready to sleep after i right this. so after i woke up, i spent like a few hours cleaning out my room-- i fixed the organization of my desk drawers so it could be more efficient and less cluttered. also the night before when i couldn’t sleep, i hung up all my clothes so that was nice. then in the early afternoon, i finished math hw (literally had 2 problems left, one of which i didn’t know how to do....) and did some japan bowl studying! i also started chatting hella people to ask for interest regarding a possible speaker event that intersections (my social justice club) is hosting... it’s about asian american health disparities, so i got 9 total clubs interested??? now i gotta email the presenter to update them but i’ll do that tomorrow. then from 3-5pm i had a really fun japan bowl meeting that was super untoxic and just productive. this year we have less frequent meetings, but i think we spend the biweekly meetings with... healthier vibes. it’s a lot more fun, and honestly no amount of shame expedites self-studying better than just having a safe and nice environment. we did some practice rounds & i knew the answers to some questions!!! it was fun. i’ll definitely be studying more ahahah this week’s meeting was kind of a throw away but it was good bonding? we also did reading practice.

then i went on tumblr/online shopped/youtubed for 2 hours or smtg..then finished bio hw (3 sections of notes!!!!) while watching gaming streams after eating dinner. then chilled and took a shower, went on tumblr some more, and here i am now! i feel like i didn’t do much but whatever. it’s okay to be leisurely and like.. i just have a worksheet for aplac and a few emails to write tmrw, and i guess that’s it? chill weekend.

okay queue the giant cbt paragraphs:

january was a giant mess mainly because of tasp application... it’s hard for me to take the experiences that i know are invaluable in building my character, and trying to relay that in a effective, understandable way. it made me feel secure because it was almost like i was selling myself/commodifying my experiences, but i was doing it in the course of a 3-4 weeks. it was annoying when i got the diction and syntax just how i wanted it, only for my editor to be like no this is weird. it’s weird to have someone who doesn’t know you try to word your experiences and push you into a template. thank god said editor actually got fired and isn’t my college counselor-- now i have this really tall and goofy friendly white guy (who majored in sociology so you can imagine he’s not the typical yt).

another thing was just friend stuff, but not in a way that points a finger specifically to anyone, it’s just... junior year will literally suck the life out of people and push them to extremes. for me, when i needed support from my friends, it’s not like i could receive it-- partly this is just normal though because normally i don’t confide in them anyway because my life is pretty easy anyway. most of the time/100% of the time i’m initiating the how-are-you type thing and listening to rants and giving advice or playing devil’s advocate or trying to empathize and validate. and when i needed someone to do that for me, i didn’t know how to ask for it? and my friends wouldn’t have the capacity to care for me bc i don’t think they actually know the background of my problems that well. i mean only i really know that and that’s fine bc it’s not really practical for other people to take the time to (1) understand and, (2) care... also it’s not worth it to me to expend the emotional labor explaining to someone. so this really isn’t to sound self sacrificing, it’s just that i consciously don’t expect my friends to be my therapist, but since i have amateur skills & pretty decent emotional intelligence, i’m glad to take that role for my friends. this just blows up in my face every once in awhile when my own problems resurface or smtg and i just turn inward and whatever. thank god it’s over!!! that was basically my january.

someone i kinda know also had something really egregious happen to them. and i can’t talk about it bc i’m making this post public bc i want a record of this on my studyblr blog. anyway i was alone in helping this person with the egregious thing because it’s not the kind of thing i can share (it’s not my story) and also sharing the information can force people to do things that ... wouldn’t be favorable. the stress from that time made me really upset for a few days and i was so angry that the egregious thing even happened, and i’m definitely not the person to get angry.

also had to get my physical for track from this gross pervert of a doctor who uses a stethoscope to touch breasts :\ and i felt really disgusting and gross and it happened and just yuck so cringe ijaijsf don’t wnat to talk about it

ugh okay another thing that i recently came to realize is that fat is really underrated in attractiveness because flab plausibly makes for super comfortable cuddling? basically other than in the context of a fatphobic society (and this isn’t to thin shame), there’s nothing definitively more beautiful about sharp angles or hard muscles compared to soft curves? someone i sit next to in a class wears hoodies and sweatpants almost everyday and they just look like a pillow/perfect big spoon. okay but at the same time food angst and body image stuff is lowkey resurfacing, but in a really lowkey way against myself :(. part of the reason why i got angry last night at myself was because i didn’t like how i drank boba at such a late time, and how i was basically on a sugar high at 2am. so i’m trying to limit my processed food intake as a means of control. i’m pretty safe from relapsing into fullblown AN but a lot of shame associated with certain foods is still there. also i still dislike my thighs and back flab and i didn’t run hard enough to be ready for track and i feel really out of shape :(

a few days ago i went volunteering and was utterly exhausted and not in the mood of being understanding. i don’t think i was being impatient, but i was being more curt than usual when working with somebody. i was really annoyed and dwelling on my irritation and letting it consume me. on the car ride home, i was thinking through all the reasons why i could be so pissy, so i had to think through all this angst and grossness in january. i was always hoping that i was just pmsing when i was feeling especially down during that month, but i think the stress made me skip that month :\ so idk where my period or pms went but goddamn ig i was just especially moody that month if hormones can’t explain it lol

during january, intersections was passed and that was such a big victory. but i didn’t really care about it. i honestly didn’t even want to do anything for it or hope that i’d go well. part of insecurity for me is that i doubt myself so much (sUBCONSCIOUSLY, which is especially annoying bc idk what i actually feel half the time) that i get frustrated easily.

but the stress of the summer app and distancing myself from the stressful things has allowed me to recover, and i’m really happy and my normal self (which i’m really happy about!!!) i’ve literally been writing for 40 min so i’m going to start doing lists for the remaining stuff i said i’d write about

things i look forward to!

feb: planning for intersections, week of break = cramming for jbowl, light school work load

march: starting my club, leadership conference i’m part of, almost time for jbowl

april: jbowl!, spring break, api healthcare disparities presentation?

may: giant speaker event with an alumnus possibly?

summer: lead a free program for low income students around where i live? there’s a lotta red tape and logistics that come with this one though... will be thinking about it for a long time.

okay i’m sleepy bye

[the-firebird69]

we go ahead and put a restraining order on john r and takehim out. he is the jerko doing most of it. and we put it in today.

he is unrealistic inhis endeavors. yes.

Alex Cross (2012) - IMDb

you have a very buetiful wife he says. and thus shoots her. and she does not die fully.

however

was in mexico and murdered by john remilalrd

and was murdered in eighty four by scott mckraken same girl same guy and it is trump who did it. and he did expose kennedy whom he thought he got rid of. had him do it. is a slime and low life.

she died early in scesario the day of el soldado yet comes back. however does not explain my tie to her there isnt one.

Zues Hera

good. should be but no. isnt

emly blunt and yeh i go through it ok

you said you were me and hadme so your out

camilla

no yo say it is yo to stop him from a joy ride etc

emily blunt

funny ok so what you die youir bike goes to john r and laughs no but others. now it is true and then she is an auntie rosemarie mb and yes. is her and she is in az and called me once or soething and truetoo brought mac back. now this is curious. we do see it a bit

ken

uh oh rosemary and me yes. and now ti is on i hate youall and you you booger and ok im an asshole. true too. hahaha lol. but you dont get the bike and tht is your fathers shit well grandmother lol and ok the saound similar and off i am. hear it. switch boides with them to be them. say it is them and it is not. good.

but he mixes it up with them to tkake the cars and they ahve meaning adn are firsts. good

he says for you clan this is a boon and find and ok you jerk is but not. an not not a flesh wuond and im out they get you the trike and other and then im back. character gone my plan gone. so i hit and wnat th apartment and hahah lol i get it free and yeh but ok i see

emily blunt

ahhaah my hubby pretens he is dancing w them in club looks sees who it is keeps his hands up and dances out arms andhands not moving but up and lol hahaah yeh okaaaaay im outa here lol

Hera

no no we dont do it on purpose lol nope

emily blunt

fgood luck grandpa another live one

Zues Hera

you are all huge losers you shit s you hear losers for all of us now we die all and your the cuase

biden

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[the-firebird69]

florida hrricaine in mid atlantic - Google Search

a huge force is gathered at teh antiles and surrounding. sits waits for the ship and shitheads...and to deflect them. and the force is comprised of mostly trump. he will try. and advice is to fire when they see it. and ok good. send up stuff break it up. and he agrees on top would be good if bja can but nope so float stuff and he says it and fomt he sea he uses the turbine let him suck it up and we shall allf this guy. and we ck ahv stuff. need it now. tons of tings did not wrk need stuff that works and we look at records. some should i say

trump

we shall

trumpsters

good

bja

cant gte there w y ou all there

...

print now

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the fleets heat. stoneships hot too. and we hit. and we still wait they turn are hit try weapons arehit. and ok ok in boston she approves they cook a head looks like the bullsfinch and reps them and it was tommy f and he is onetoo a fag ok. loser. and the psuedo empire wont engage wit all three shps there and he says ok i ck. good. andyeh the fleet is being destroyed tommy f helps it. we hit about 10% another 10% in a few minutes....they are heting up another 20% up to 60% soon. and are. now thi means they all will heat. they see traces of weapons heating and slowly are cooling htem. and they give the order shortly and in moments.....we see...we wait. the order is out. and we open fire now. tons of beams and rockets and more they try turning we toast them tons of stuff at them huge barrages. tons of it. massive numbers of hits. they fall. 20 percent out and now forty yes. the rest heated..and are up heating weapons we fire on them now. and hit. and they are being barraged by tons of stuff. and mean stuff. their stoenships are class b and c mostly tons out. and we focsued on the claass a and only a hundred thousand. they are firing no try to and cannot awe hit them at their weapons ports. this is hell ok we fire on them non stop now toomany are aimed at us and clear ports. tons of it and we see them cutting. what odd people and they are stuck there thoug. had no choice. and feel it. and die. now. too.

most are out and we clean it up an advance some do now tons and we are in fast push them too

Thor Freya and pursue the ones you wnat all after to thier deaths yes

we shall

we see it

Nuada Arrianna

we are permitted to regain our honor good

Savage Oppress

we do it too ok now must these idiots dont say that to us no nor the other idiots

Zig Zag

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[the-firebird69]

NYCC Cosplay Spotlight - NEW YORK COMIC CON 2015

and  he has a movie idea.  he is big when he grows up. to teenager size huge..too huge.  toddler to you he would be a giant.  at about 7 or 8 foot.  nd yes that large and wiegh the same as Hulk no but about 2000 lb and yeh that is a ton....and mb what the bible says and macs wrote it.  they were astonished. said this. he stays here is not accepted in society and the girls went nuts need one of my own and loyalty and more. and saw you grow up sees how.  an we can gt big hemp your mother now. and tons say it need to see it need it.  and the idea sticks and fun cordon off a section of the bilding and solid and  some find it hey nothieng here overhere but there outsdie and mb offices and fake offices and a facade and they go in and find him. tlaking and meeting calls them and they find hte signal and say it cooly and quietly he is the phantom....the phantom of comicon.  and request his help and he does and fun ok this weill be fun and yeh dan can do it and tos like it and big show the bad guy  iwll play a mac well is one no almost but is a rival.  and yes psuedo empire. loves it.  and andre an come back and dan or andre which is which.  and ok.  cool idea.  and then comicon again and they act normal but know he and they are supeheros

Thor Freya

a bit corny yes and we  like it

andre

and yeh ok hahah lol 

prince

fun we do that now

prnce  bride 

has tobe me no he is thenut here

big show

not a nut an idea i switch out at comicon holdhim lol and for ideas stuff and hostage lol and hahah ok has to be sizable lol good.

dan

i do it and the har way. nope too harsh and stupid and nobody wnats it trump they say it and oh

trump

we procee good idea ll

mac dady

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[the-firebird69]

as things go it will get better we say it. and the water is receding now. one more hour and the tide begins to go out now it slows. and will be seen shortly. here. and all over sw florida. these are tired beaten down beleagured see the psuedo empire at all the new finds. and are disgusted and slow mean and it is their fault they fight for some need it now. and trump hogged it failed.and hat e hm now and after him for stuff and mining equipement now too.

-he is a goner ok done. he is threateniing our son constantly and is a pig loser. tons of pplhate him wnat him off the ballot. and the movement grows and tons see it petitin to rmove him from the natinoal ballto due to his threats on our lands in the usa. only. and they say it you dont thretten us buddy you fn out now. and he vows revenge and he will be killed a lot now. tons asy it we hity o now not him and why woul we ht him your the shmuck holding him prisoner to hit his and they are no more. due to you and yor fubmling and lousy thinking and hit you now we shall they say now

good the two say and htier children and in law children good for us yes. and great.

-we have a lot today to do and we ar in part of it on puprose. drilling and testing now after scanning. tons of it. and exxploratory and all over earth at similar locations by the psuedo empire tons of it shorlty. now they cleared out most of the shorline in fl and will move on afer a few more miles about ten. they leave wiht this.w e need tommy f out and wrote why. nw they see it and hate him badly. and they used charges needeed to. and now a few more go off. we hear them thud thud. and see it here no. are out there plowing away at teh last run. shorlty will go off the table and into the deeper water and not much and hardley noticable but will drag out the muckand water now. not for days.

--and this is rightous they say. mean no. we needed that ok. and we see

-tons of morlock dead no sat. looking. and got excted need it cant move. and tons sthought on it whhite gold cadmium they take tons form us now. and moved and work and are quiet. trump is lost and hits the macs is gone soon knows it not

-we see macs n the bunker in the day the earth stood still some were recognizded and they take it in the movie we se it

Thor FReya

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good

Hera

me too good

SAvage Oppress

[the-firebird69]

lord of the rings mining scene dwarves arkenstone - Google Search

and i see it we are dwarves we minemust go down now

dan

we shall and for our honoor and dignity and ok has only been a day but is easy going ahahahah lol hwe is a giant and makes jokes fast ok

the King

we do this now and im one of them am Picard ok bja

bja hahah ok again but no Gandolf and fight trump Sauromon and no he is not Sauron and your ring and you ry oto take it and we see the others wnat it too. dang it ok

Olympus

an we speak us our tribe. this boy has brought it back well soon wee see and there in disney and the other park near it. our wands the Dragon and more. it will happen and soon we love it ok we do. hate it too but yes you see.

Thor Freya we handeld all the problems now are fast furious too many need ours and to sign on now we need you oh our people now please come and help us and ours Freya

and we shall

Gods people now too and Goddess right that too lo no no you wont say that and leaders ok snap to

hehe wehelp see it pow and good we tell ours

[the-firebird69]

we have news now

=we are at war an need to be on alert here often and much more often we use the terror sscale then and good.

-there are oftent hings wrong with our son. need not pick on him no they do. and heard it he is scoffing at us. and no. wnats it done. is the boss. and heard it today....and are you getting it done. and no and some talk and her ok. and then this. we do it now. see it he is under diress pushes buttons we must help and thank youi an we work now as a unit. ton say it we have this issue here. and dont stop them. it is angering. he is angry nees them off but holds it off us sees hteym and why still needs work done i see it always as do mine an d Olympus all must train yes need ppl here now.

-thee are issues with the way he is handled here and treated it is very bad and worsens not better as morocl go he saatated why ion this site and we see it tons of ours. and we are in shortly and saw it but need tons not only those i assign. now too and repot all to your co. and now

-tonss see it is hard ok they attack him threaten we do use it need tons out too many on earth. an w e work now.

-the car doeswell an tons of them up and out. we build and match thier 500 trillion a week. now too. and wow what a number. will be satisfied soon and yes treu. and differetn models soon. and a huge huge followng ok and you can see it in Mr Incedible in the background he is a hero to many of his and mean to our son. and they like it. we dont and he will pay shortly badly and disgusting death.needs it ok and his higher ups die horrible deaths onscreen for all to see. threatend him so much.

-the ohter cars ok good. bikkes good Daveys Harley all wannt the original and seek it. and cannot find one we shall begin to model it. and yeh they look cool. and are intense ok. cruisers are ast sleek and cool tons ofmodels no a few about ten. including the huge ones no. and several big ones the size of Boss Hoss and yes are Big Boss. we like ti too. and moreve use them a lot need it out. and it rides beteter handlse better and cnsumes a lot less fuel can tow and more. tons say it cast framses and yes huge following soon. and of these bikes. tons shall try to make them we gobble them down. and then we see. will buy them use modlds and we work good ideas now too.

and moerver we won a victory today

court closed in on trump. made him talk yes. and pushed. out came this i lie as i dont want to go to prison. and i t is not my place i was president. and it is your job to keep me out not me. and they said your nuts and in a paagraph. he bent over said your allgonna get it. and got bak up. and htey said you need to see we can hear ou dont you. and said yes theat would begood and saaid this balif play it back and did. and they said we hear it all. and he got up and said ifor the record i am angry and cannot holdmytemperand are not meant for you to hear. and then sat down. and the court said we had the doj investiaagat eyou and it is evince and playd him listenig to taps of hismelf and said where did you and he said it is a sercret investigation and haulted him. the judge was incnenced and da and atrorny and more tons of dog were there no lsiening heard it. sent in agents and took in trumps ppl he is an overt anarchist we seee it and why and haeld him for hours.now theyfiel a fomral complaint

Thor Freya

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