#do they have names yet you ask? nopeeee

[phlavours]

doodle of my children

[chuuyas--boo]

BIRTHDAY FIC FOR MY BEANNNNN

(short ish?)

An: I APOLOGIZE IF I SLAUGHTER ANYONE'S PERSONALITY ESPECIALLY LUCIAN'S @onesheart101

"Rileyyy~! Wake upp!" Lucian said in a sing-song voice, gently shaking the ginger. Riley blinked, letting her eyes adjust to the light and sat up, looking at the fluffy, white haired boy who was smiling, showing his little fangs. "Happy birthday~!" Riley tilted her head, her ginger hair messy from sleep and hadn't been brushed yet, fell into her face. "Birthday..?" "Did you forget?!" Riley hesitated and nodded. "I never really knew when it was..." "ahh! Don't worry about it!" Lucian grabbed her hands and led her out of the room.

Riley ran her hand through her hair, smoothing it out the best she could without brushing it and looked at Lucian. "What're we-"

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!" Eddie and George cheered in unison as they both jumped out from behind furniture.

"Yooo! Happy birthday!" Carl chirped, jumping up as well, Eddie shot him a glance as the three boys ran over to Riley and hugged her.

Riley stood between the four; Lucian, Eddie, George and Carl, blushing heavily from embarrassment, surprised anyone would've remembered.

"Wait... where's Al? Do you know where he is?" Riley asked, eyes gleaming with concern.

"Nopeeee!"

"Nu-uh!"

George giggled when Riley's face turned bright red, as hands gently grabbed her waist. "A-Albert!"

Tears started to well in her eyes, not because she was sad, infact it was quite the opposite, she was extremely happy.

"H-hey! What the hell're you crying for? You're gonna ruin the day before we've even done anything if you start crying idiot!"

Riley turned and hugged Albert, who in turn blushed heavily.

"Crying? Hey what's wrong?!"

"Did we do something wrong...?"

"N-no! Ahh, sorry.. It's just I've never had my birthday celebrated before..and didn't expect anyone to remember."

Albert gently wiped the tears running down Riley's cheek and hugged her tightly.

"Shoo! We've gotta decorate!!"

Riley glanced at Lucian and giggled quietly, then went to go change. She changed into a white dress, and brushed out her hair.

❀

Each of the Bros and Lucian took turns doing things with Riley.

Carl played video games with her, George played murder with her, she, Eddie and Lucian had gone outside and ran around and played in the yard, Albert played piano for her,...and now she sat wearing a flower crown in the yard, watching the dogs.

"I haven't seen Henry at all today, that's weird...whatever!" She giggled to herself, knowing Henry had left her, and everyone else alone all day.

Suddenly a darker thought crossed her mind. She hadn't seen any of her family, of course they were dead, but the thought still bothered her.

"Riley...you scared me...it hurt... why'd you do that? It hurt a lot... why'd you kill Lexi and momma, and daddy too...?"

Tears started running down her cheeks, and she started shaking violently, sobbing.

"S-SHUT UP! I HAD TO! THEY WERE GONNA–...I had to..." Riley's voice shook as she spoke, not to anyone in particular, there wasn't actually anyone there.

"You didn't have to do it...Momma could've just stayed in jail, you didn't have to kill Lexi or daddy either...so why'd you do it?"

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! I HAD TO! I DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE!" Riley's hands slowly balled into fists, holding the skirt of her dress in her fists.

"You always have a choice Riley."

"No I don't...they needed to die by my hands, not anyone else's. I had to be the one to do it... or else it would've hurt them more..." Riley's gaze fixed on a pale, ghostly figure deeper in the forest and her heart sank, it was Jack. She'd seen him...or his ghost at least before, but it seemed different, he seemed angry.

"Anyway...Happy birthday." The pale figure slowly faded out of view

"WAIT NO! JACK–" It was too late, the ghostly figure was gone. "god I'm so horrible and stupid..."

"Rileyyy~!.... Riley!"

Riley glanced back to the house, and noticed George standing at the door, wiping her face, she ran back towards the house, the dogs followed her.

"We need y– Heyyy! Why were you crying? Who were you yelling at?

Noticing the resemblance between George and her dead brother, Riley stood there silent, the resemblance was sickening, she loved them but they looked a little too similar.

"I wasn't crying..don't worry about it."

George looked up at her, blue eyes shining with worry but he grabbed her hand "Close your eyes!" Riley sighed, closing her eyes and then the two of them went inside.

"Don't peakkkk!"

"I'm not!"

Riley could hear Eddie's giggle, the one she'd heard so many times before, Eddie whispered something but Riley couldn't make it out, but she heard Albert's name and assumed Eddie was talking to his older brother.

"Open your eyes!"

Riley hesitated for a moment before slowly opening her eyes, once she did she gasped.

"Y-you guys– You guys didn't have to do all this!"

"Tch...Yes we did! It's your birthday, idiot!"

Riley still looked shocked, the entire bottom floor was decorated.

Lucian ran downstairs, carrying a box with holes in it.

Riley choked on her emotions, unable to speak.

Albert walked over to her, using up all his confidence, picked her up and held her close to his chest.

Riley's face flushed deep red as Albert held her.

"Heyyy! Put her downnn! We gotta hug her!"

Albert glanced at George and just rolled his eyes, taking a deep breath and then missed Riley on the cheek. Riley's face turned a darker shade of red and she shut her eyes, flustered.

Letting out a small huff, Albert put Riley down, everyone else ran over and hugged her, Lucian handed her the box, which shook a little.

"You did not...I- no...YOU GUYS DIDN'T, DID YOU?!"

"Hehe~! Open it and find out!"

Riley sat on the floor, with the box on her lap and carefully untied the ribbon, took the top off and gasped. There was a white puppy in the box with a blue ribbon loosely tied around its neck in a bow. Riley grabbed the puppy and hugged it, tears started to slowly toll down her face again, but she wasn't sad anymore.

Unable to speak, Riley say there, hugging the puppy, who licked her.

"I– I don't know what to say...THANK YOUUU!"

The brothers giggled, Albert looked at her fondly. "I'm glad she's happy..."

"I guess you like it huh~?"

Riley nodded. "Hehe~ Good! Marigold and I picked her well then!" Lucian looked proud of himself while Eddie nervously fiddled with his scarf.

Shanon came into the room, looking at Riley worriedly, she had heard Riley yelling outside, but was relieved to see the girl smiling.

"We have some more gifts for you dear!"

Riley looked up at Shanon, shocked. "R-really?!"

"Yep yep! Lots of em!"

❀

The rest of the day felt like a dream, Riley had finally had a proper birthday.

[lovemesomesurveys]

Can you say you are fully happy right now? No. My mental health and my mood and everything has just been extra bad lately and I thought it was bad enough as it was. I haven’t felt truly happy in a very long time.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No.

Is there someone who stopped talking to you for no reason? Yes.

Did you ever get called horrible names like (whore, skank, bitch)? Only jokingly with friends.

Where did you sleep last night? In my bed as usual.

Ever slow danced with anyone? No.

Ever cried in public? Yes, but only a few times. I don’t like crying in front of people.

Ever feel safe in someone's arms? Yes.

What would you do if you were pregnant? I can’t get pregnant, so.

Are you afraid of letting anyone in? Yes, very much so.

Do you like cuddling? I don’t have much cuddling experience to be honest.

Ever cry in school? No. 

Who is the last person to send you a message on facebook? My Nana. She sent me a photo of her Christmas tree she put up.

Do you look decent when you wake up? I don’t look decent ever.

Have you ever been given roses? No.

Had a long distance relationship? Nope.

Does it bother you when people never answer their cell phones? If I need to get ahold of my parents or brother for something and they don’t answer, yes. 

Do you care what happens in politics/your government? I mean, yes. It affects all of us so we should care at least somewhat.

Ever been called babe/baby? Yes.

Have you ever witnessed someone else engaging in a sexual act (not necessarily sex)? No.

Where did you get drunk last? It was at my hotel birthday party 7 years ago. I had an awful experience with alcohol and I decided I was over it. I haven’t drank since.

What’s your relationship with the last person you texted? He’s my brother.

If someone went through your pictures, would they find a dirty one? Nope.

Do you want to see anyone right now? No.

Have you ever fell asleep in someone’s arms? When I was a kid.

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night? It really varies.

How many pillows are on your bed Twelve lmaooo. I only use two, though. I just love throw pillows.

When’s the last time you cried? A couple of days ago. It was one of those days where I was just on the verge of tears all day and literally anything could open up the floodgates.

Is it cute when a guy buys you flowers? Sure.

Will things change in the next month? I don’t see anything major happening.

How did you do on the last test you took? Pretty sure I did well.

Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Plenty of times. Are you afraid to grow up? I mean, I’m 31, and sometimes I still don’t feel like I’m grown up. <<< Saaaaame. But also yes.

Are you busy tomorrow? Nope.

How long have you had the shirt you’re wearing? A few years.

Do you give out second chances way too easily? Yes. I give out many chances.

Has anyone told you that you’re amazing? Eh, something like that. I’m most definitely not and I’m sure they realized that.

How many black shirts do you own? A lot.

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? Nope. I honestly can’t imagine myself in a relationship. I definitely don’t see it happening anytime soon at all.

How come you’re not going out with the person you like? There isn’t anyone I like in that way.

When you feel cold does eating warm food help you feel warm? Yeah.

Do you want to diet? I need to be on a high protein and caloric diet.

Are you a patient person? Nopeeee.

Are you unsure about your feelings for someone? No.

Who did you last hang out with? My family. It’s been a few years since I’ve hung out with anyone else.

Would you take $40,000 or a brand new car? $40,000, please. What song are you currently listening to? I’m not listening to any music right now. I’m listening to an ASMR video, as per usual.

Are you happy with your relationship? I’m fine with being single.

Who was the last person to smoke something other than a cigarette or weed in front of you? I’ve had friends in the past smoke a vape in front of me.

Does anything on your body hurt? Of course.

If the last person you kissed were calling you right now, would you answer? No. I would be shocked and curious, though. It’s been a few years since I’ve seen or talked to him. It would be so out of the blue.

In the run of a week, how many times do you straighten your hair? Zero.

Are you mad at someone right now? No.

Last thing someone gave you? My brother bought me food last night.

Who woke you up this morning? I haven’t gone to sleep, yet. 

Who is your favorite family member on your mom’s side? My mom.

What do you do in your spare time? I have nothing but spare time nowadays...it’s sad. Lol. <<< Last few years, but same.

Who was the last person you were under a blanket with? No one.

Where is the last person you kissed? I have no idea.

What was the last thing you ate? Ramen.

Which of your friends is the most likely to get pregnant right now? I don’t have any friends.

Do you remember the meanest thing the last person you kissed ever said to you? He didn’t ever say anything mean. He said things that were hurtful and upsetting, but not things directed at me in a mean way if that makes sense.

What does your last outgoing text say? “Whaaaat. Of course. :/”

Have you ever been called prince/ princess? Yes.

Waiting for something? I’m looking forward to giving my family their Christmas presents.

Have you kissed anyone when you’re single? Yes.

What are you doing this weekend? Same stuff I do everyday.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? It’s been 31 years, so I certainly could. <<< Same again. I have zero interest.

Have you ever kissed someone who was in a relationship? No. Where is your biological father right now? At work. Where is the biggest scar on your body? The vertical one down my entire back. How late did you stay up last night? I’m still up at 8:33AM... :X

Have you had your birthday this year yet? Yes, back in July. You had to kiss the last person you texted, would you? No, that’s my brother. What would you call your body type? Underweight. Are you a morning person? Kind of since I’m often still up early in the morning. I’m not if I’ve gone to bed and have to get up early, though. Have you ever been to Target? Countless times. Do you like iced coffee? I’m a hot coffee gal year round. It’s so much better. When is the next time you’ll be at work? I don’t have a job. Has anyone ever hacked your accounts before? Yes. Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart? I tried to be. It’s definitely not easy and ultimately didn’t work out. Ever made a prank phone call? My friends and I did that before in middle school. We were dumb. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you’re sleeping? No. Have you ever been in a car accident? No, thankfully. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? Nope. Or any kind of physical fight. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? Not physically. Have you ever had stitches? Several. Name a time when you had to be strong. Numerous times. Certainly not these past few years even though some might think that. I’m weak. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting or any kind of abuse at home? No. Have you ever lost someone close to death? if so, how many? Three. Have you ever had any volunteer jobs? Yes. Have you gone through a lot emotionally growing up? Yes. Has a boy/girl ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend for you? No. And I wouldn’t want that. Do you want to see someone this very minute? Nope. Are you happy with the way things are going? Absolutely not. Are you a forgiving person? Yes. Maybe too forgiving at times. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace? I didn’t have to as an adult, but I still did (I say did cause I never go anywhere anymore unless it’s with my family, but if I did I would). That’s just how my family and I are, we let each other know what’s going on. It’s not asking permission, it’s just letting each other know. Like my brother, who’s 21, will be like, “Hey, I’m hanging out with so and so tonight. We’ll probably just grab something to eat” or something like that. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I don’t have any friends. Describe how you feel about your life in the past month using one word: Frustrated. Would you like to go back and change any part of your life? A few things would be nice. When will your next kiss be? I have no idea. Not anytime soon, I know that much. Last person you saw other than your family? My doctor. Will tomorrow be better than today? It’s still too early to say how today has been. Are you feeling guilty about anything right now? A lot of things. What’s going through your mind right now? I’m getting hungry. I’m tired. I have to call my doctor and reschedule my appointment. When’s the last time you had fast food? Last night. Do you believe that there’s good in everybody? Not everybody. Is it okay if you kiss people when you’re single? If they’re also single and consenting, sure. When was the last time you saw someone attractive? I see Alexander Skarsgard on my dash pretty often, ha. What was the first thing you did when you woke up? I haven’t gone to sleep, yet, remember?

Think back eight months ago, were you single? Yes. I’ve been single for several years. What do you carry with you at all times? I always take my phone and wallet. Depending on how long I’ll be gone I’ll take my medicine, too. Oh, and in today’s world I always have a mask and hand sanitizer.  Are you okay with the life you live? There’s a lot I wish were different. Do you have a Tattoo? Nope. What other piercings would you get other than the ones you already have? I don’t plan on getting any more. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? Nope. I think it was in his car. Have you ever been to Disney World? No, but I’ve been to Disneyland a few times. If so, how many times have you been? Does grammar and capitalization mean anything to you? Absolutely. I’m big on proper grammar. Are you good at wrapping gifts for others? I’m not the greatest, but I still enjoy doing it. Do you have a dirty clothes hamper in your room? Yes. Do you enjoy big holiday dinners? Yes. We haven’t had one in years, though. Is your vision good? With my glasses, yes. ha. Is your present hair color, natural? Part of it is. I’m sooo overdue for a dye job. It looks awful. What was the last thing you ordered online? Christmas presents. Have you ever worn color contacts? Nope. Or any contacts. The idea of putting them on and taking them off freaks me out. If you have a significant other, how long have you been together? I’m single. Where are your parents as of now? My mom asleep, my dad is at work. Do you follow a certain religion? Yes, I’m a Christian. Do you have any family members who live out of town? Yeah. Do you consider yourself short? I am. What room are you in? Mine. Do you listen to any country music? Yeah. Do you ever watch Lifetime? Very rarely. Would ever consider having children in the future? Nope. Have you ever lived on a farm? No. Do both of your parents have jobs? Yes. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state, would you? Ummm. Maybe. What is something you’ve always wanted a boy to do for you? Commit? What food are you craving right now? I’m already thinking about Wingstop for dinner lol. How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa? Like 7 or 8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? Numerous times. Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell? I have my family I can do that with. Would you ever get someone’s name tattooed on you? If I did it would be a loved one who passed. I don’t plan on ever getting any tattoos, though. I’m too big of a scardycat.   Does your family have family picnics? No. If your doctor said you were pregnant, what would you say? I’d say you have my chart mixed with someone else cause that’s impossible for a couple of reasons.

[silv3rclouds-with-graylining]

10-30 for asks 😏

Hahaha fine, Anon! After all, I did ask for this 😂😂😂

10. Biggest turn ons: Confidence, whimsical/playful, teasing, causal physical contact, open-minded

11. Age: 25!

12. Ideas of a perfect date: Definitely depends on the day but right now I’m imagining walking through a park while chatting and enjoying the autumn foliage. Then a nice dinner at a restaurant (I’m thinking Thai). And then turning to one of our places to watch a film and cuddling. Damn it....now I want this right now. 

13. Life goal: Director of an academic library

14. Piercings i want: None for me pls

15. Relationship status: HELLA single

16. Favorite movie: Iron Man is easily a top choice!

17. A fact about my life: I have yet to break a bone *knock on wood*

18. Phobia: Actually none come to mind!

19. Middle name: Sure, it’s *redacted*

20. Height: 5′11″ (180 cm)

21. Are you a virgin? Lmao nopeeee

22. What’s your shoe size? 11 US men's I believe

23. What’s your sexual orientation? Straight and I believe poly

24. Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? I have smoked weed multiple times but don’t do it often. I do drink but haven’t had a drink in a couple months

25. Someone you miss: My friend Kat from Scotland for sure

26. What’s one thing you regret? There are a few things. One would be sleeping with a friend

27. First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: Surprisingly Kristen Bell was the first people that came to mind (not that she’s not super attractive, just surprised she’s the first one I thought of)

28. Favorite ice cream? Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked ( Chocolate Fudge Brownie + Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough )

29. One insecurity: Not having a flat/defined stomach 🙈

30. What my last text message says: “Sounds good!”

Anyone else got any for me??

[goingmarigold]

WAS TAGGED BY: @ryuzakki (tysm!!! <3)

TAGGING: @bakvbitch, @sapphicbnha, @keenma, @midoriyha, @shoouto, @terwki, @paladiknightleorio, @plisesky, @kacchanswife, @akinakamii, @kahgeyamas, @bnhalesbian, @bakusuki, @jiroukyoukas, @shoto-s, @togashimiko, @izukus, @heroicshinsou, @aizawashoutah, and @atsumus

RULES: ANSWER THESE 85 STATEMENTS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE

THE LAST

1. DRINK: water 2. PHONE CALL: my mom 3. TEXT MESSAGE: also my mom lol (i promise i’m not that lame omg; i do have friends, but my mom’s been communicating with me a lot since i started college) 4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: stay with me by colbie caillat 5. TIME YOU CRIED: just a couple of days ago actually; i got really stressed out over trying to change my schedule and adding a class  6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: nope (i’ve never even dated before in general haha) 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: again, nope! 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: nope 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yes, recently in fact 10. BEEN DEPRESSED: i think? i’ve suspected that i might have depression and consistent bouts of low mood for about the past year, and i’ve started group therapy sessions at my college, so yeah i guess you could say i’ve been depressed... 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: nope! don’t care for alcohol one bit

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. blue (any shade except neon) 13. light purple/lavender 14. pastel pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yep! and i’m still making more of them; being a brand new freshman at college kinda forces you to haha 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: no 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: yes, absolutely :D 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: nope! or at least not in any sort of negative way 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: yes ^_^ 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: i’m in the process of that right now haha (at least in terms of college friends) 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: nope

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: pretty much all of them; i don’t accept requests from strangers lol 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: a labradoodle named bandit and a rescue named jazz (we’re not really sure what she is lmao) 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: not really 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: hung out with close friends at a fun theme park 26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: i woke up at around 9:30 am 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: i was just arriving back to my dorm from my college’s student organization fair 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: getting to learn new music in choir and learning about more challenging concepts in my music classes 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: a little over a week ago, after she moved me into my dorm 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: i was listening to music on my spotify, but now i’m not really listening to anything 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: yes, and quite frankly i don’t really like him at all 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: it was that scheduling issue i had before, but now i’m not really that annoyed about anything 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: youtube, crunchyroll, tumblr, 9anime, any college website really haha  35. HAIR COLOUR: dirty blonde/light brown 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: somewhere in the middle 37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: ...maybe 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: my voice (kinda), my personality, my smile 39. PIERCINGS: none 40. BLOOD TYPE: i actually don’t know whoops 41. NICKNAME: i don’t really have one?? 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single as a pringle 43. ZODIAC: virgo 44. PRONOUNS: she/her 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: bnha, the office, natsume yuujinchou, and hunter x hunter is slowly becoming a favorite rn 46. TATTOOS: nope 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right 48. SURGERY: not yet, but i’m going to get my wisdom teeth removed during my winter break (lol fuck meeee) 50. SPORT: does singing count? lol 51. VACATION: what does this mean? dream vacation? if so, i guess it would either be to go to japan or back to switzerland or germany (both of them are such gorgeous countries alksdgj) 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: ???? ??

MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: pringles 54. DRINKING: water 55. I’M ABOUT TO: go to bed, bc i have to wake up early tomorrow haha 56. WAITING FOR: idk?? i guess for the next break so i can go home and see my mom and the rest of my family again 57. WANT: books, motivation and focus, an adequate amount of self-esteem, all the volumes that are currently published of bnha rn, more free time 58. GET MARRIED: idk maybe! 59. CAREER: hopefully helping kids and giving them a sense of belonging as a music educator! 60. HUGS OR KISSES: i really like both, but i’d probably have to go with hugs (they’re so warm and they make me feel so happy inside <3) 61. LIPS OR EYES: eyes 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: doesn’t really matter as long as they’re p close to my age and not a minor ^_^ 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: nice stomach 65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: no 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nope 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: i don’t have any 70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: nah (no one’s ever asked me) 71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nopeeee 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: i don’t think so? i hope not anyway... that would make me sad 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: kinda

74. BEEN ARRESTED: hell no lol 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: lol no 78. MIRACLES: i did, i’m starting to lose faith in them now though 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: yes, to a certain extent 80. SANTA CLAUS: no

81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: maybe?

82. ANGELS: i guess

OTHER:

84. EYE COLOUR: green/hazel 85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: this is hard... i’m gonna go with howl’s moving castle for now. either that or the entire harry potter series heh

[haphazardstudy]

70 Questions Tag

Tagged by @theravenclawstudyblr! Thank you! 💛  (most answers are under the cut)

01: do you have a good relationship with your parents? yes! honestly they act like children a lot of the time, and my dad especially can make me cry with laughter. they’re both very important to me.

02: who did you last say “i love you” to? probably my puppy or one of my cats, not gonna lie...

03: do you regret anything? not really. yes, there are things that I did that weren’t ideal, but I believe in the idea that everything that happens in life has a reason, so if the stupid things I’ve done have led me to where I am today then I don’t regret them at all!

04: are you insecure? oh absolutely, incredibly so. I struggled with really bad acne (and I mean SUPER bad, to the point where I was once asked if I had chicken pox) from the age of about 10 until I took medication for it when I was 13/14. that helped a bit, but the years when my acne was really bad completely ruined my self confidence and self esteem, and it’s been hard to try and build that back up over the past few years. I’m getting better though! in fact, I was just hanging out with some friends and didn’t put any makeup on before I went, which is a big thing for me as I still have some spots and have lots of acne scarring. so yeah, I’m insecure, but aren’t most people?

05: what is your relationship status? very very single

06: how do you want to die? yikes. probably in my old age, knowing that I had my chance at life and that I made the most of it. this is sad.

07: what did you last eat? I ate most of a bunch of grapes at my friend’s house just now, as well as a chocolate biscuit lol

08: played any sports? I used to play netball in primary school and I absolutely loved it because I got to be goalkeeper as I basically hit puberty early and was much taller than anyone we played against, so my job was really easy!

09: do you bite your nails? only if there’s a bit that needs to come of.

10: when was your last physical fight? I don’t think I’ve ever had one? my brother and I have likely hit each other in the past but I don’t have any specific memories of physically fighting.

11: do you like someone? nopeeee, I never really have

12: have you ever stayed up 48 hours? no but I did about 30 hours once and wanted to die so DON’T DO IT

13: do you hate anyone at the moment? no. there are people who do my head in, sure, but I don’t hate them.

14: do you miss someone? a little? I haven’t seen some of my friends in a few weeks because of the summer holidays, and I miss them!

15: have any pets? yep! 4 cats and 2 dogs

16: how exactly are you feeling at the moment? SO SO TIRED.

17: ever made out in the bathroom? nope! you could take out “in the bathroom” and my answer wouldn’t change lol

18: are you scared of spiders? jfhsdkjf yes I hate them so so much they’re so creepy

19: would you go back in time if you were given the chance? nope, I’m stressed enough just living in this timeline thanks

20: where was the last place you snogged someone? nowhere, ha

21: what are your plans for this weekend? I’m going on a summer team on saturday! so tomorrow I need to pack for that, saturday I have to travel down and we’ll get everything organised, then sunday we’ll properly settle in and get to know each other.

22: do you want to have kids? how many? as much as the process as childbirth scares me, I think so! just 2, a boy and a girl would be good, as that’s how my family is and we get along well.

23: do you have piercings? how many? no piercings for me, I don’t really see the point

24: what is/are/were your best subject(s)? I used to absolutely slay at art up until I did it for GCSE and suddenly there was too much work and I couldn’t put in as much effort as I used to. I’ve always been very good at English, and physics is probably my best these days!

25: do you miss anyone from your past? mhmm maybe a little 26: what are you craving right now? I could really go for some more grapes tbh

27: have you ever broken someone’s heart? not that I know of! 28: have you ever been cheated on? nope! can be cheated on if you’re never in a relationship, right?

29: have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? n/a lol

30: what’s irritating you right now? a tiny tiny fly keeps landing on my leg and I keep thinking it’s a spider

31: does somebody love you? platonically yes, romantically no

32: what is your favourite colour? YELLOW and also light pink yesssss

33: do you have trust issues? a little bit??? honestly I had a rough time from the age of about 12-14/15 and it’s left me with a whole host of issues

34: who/what was your last dream about? I was at harry potter world in orlando, and I overhead an evil plot to destroy one of the rides or something. but I completely disregarded that pretty quickly, as there was a dog that really wanted to go on one of the rides, so of course I took him on it and we had a great time.

35: who was the last person you cried in front of? I cried in front of my brother yesterday, but it was mostly crying of laughter that then kind of dissolved into not being able to stop crying lol

36: do you give out second chances too easily? no. if someone does something that makes me uncomfortable around them once then I’ll never be comfortable around them again.

37: is it easier to forgive or forget? for me it’s forget but that’s just because I have an awful memory lol

38: is this year the best year of your life? mhm not really. I’ve had some really really rough times mixed in with really amazing ones.

39: how old were you when you had your first kiss? n/a, have yet to have my first kiss (i don’t really like the idea of kissing tbh ew)

40: have you ever walked outside completely naked? uhhhh no ofc not ????? I’ve never even left my room naked

51: favourite food? biscuits. I could eat biscuits all day long. oh, and grapes!

52: do you believe everything happens for a reason? yes absolutely!

53: what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? write in my journal

54: is cheating ever okay? no. not ever.

55: are you mean? only sarcastically and affectionately! I lightly bully my friends because that’s the sense of humour we all have

56: how many people have you fist fought? none

57: do you believe in true love? yeah I think so

58: favourite weather? COLD PLEASE I have such a low tolerance for heat and I hate wearing shorts etc I wanna live the jumper and cardigan life all the time 59: do you like the snow? yes!!!! it’s so pretty

60: do you wanna get married? It’s not one of my priorities but I don’t hate the idea either ((I’m just leaving @theravenclawstudyblr‘s answer here because SAME))

61: is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? ehhhhh sometimes? mostly I find it kind of cringey.

62: what makes you happy? lots of things!!!! cute animals, my family, hanging out with good friends, watching happy films, singing, watching my favourite TV shows, eating nice food, getting random genuine compliments from people, ahhhh so many things!!!!

63: would you change your name? no, but I wish I’d had a different one! like I wouldn’t change it now, after having it for so long, but if I’d been given a different name at birth that would have been nice because my name is so incredibly boring

64: would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? yeah - they don’t exist

65: your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? well apparently I completely miss all the signs because I am Very Asexual and have little concept of what is platonic and what is romantic (up until a certain point, obviously)

66: do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? again, the insecurity thing lol - I don’t think I’m ever fully myself with anyone tbh

67: who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my friend’s cousin (he’s also my friend at this point tbh)

68: who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? yikes, it’s been a while! probably my best friend

69: do you believe in soulmates? mhm not really. I believe in destiny, loosely, so maybe soulmates kind of comes in to that? it’s too late at night for me to think about it, sorry

70: is there anyone you would die for? my parents, my brother, my grandparents and my closest friends. I love very strongly and would much rather die than have any of them die.

I tag @seatudying and @stevenstudies ! And anyone else who wants to do this!

[negativevirgo]

Harrie Thing

Rules: you must answer the question until the end and then tag another ten harry blogs to do the same. You can use videos/links/photos/gifs to answer the question! Thank you so much for tagging me @harryandlana ! These are tons of fun to do! :) Favorite look: iconic Also, when he wore that red & blue button down with the flamingos. Mmm. Favorite tweet: the “ripped jeans, cracked screens” tweet. he should have just hit that @ button. Favorite interview: don’t remember what it’s called, but it’s the one where him and Niall are acting a fool and Harry asks him, “Who’s the last person you had sex with?” That interview kills MEEE. Fav stage moment: I’m horrible at this alkakdhsa i don’t remember the show date but it’s when he asked the audience to throw everything they’ve got at them to get it over with and he immediately regretted his decision. Hair style: honestly, his short hair killed me and brought me back to life. But when his hair was shoulder length… @god help me. Family member: Nopeeee. Cannot choose between Anne and Gem. Won’t!!! 1D bromance: I’m Narry TRASHHHH Celeb + harry: AHH. WHERES THAT POST ABOUT HARRY AND RIHANNA?! I can’t find it. But yeah. HARRY & RIH. Favorite tattoo: The cross on his hand. Quote: “Don’t eat yellow snow.” Instagram post: jus’ cuz it was the day of my OTRA show!!! Music video: Night Changes 24/7. Another man photo: grumps Your name: Karolina Age: 22 Where you live: California. Have you ever seen Harry live in concerts or met him? Any special moments? Just on June 9th in San Diego at the OTRA show. Special moments between H and I? NOT YET BINCH!!!! Your favorite thing about Harry? He’s so unapologetically himself and compassionate. So many people aren’t now a days. He’s just..one of a kind. Favorite lyric/line of Harry’s in a 1D album? “The fact that we can sit right here and say goodbye means we’ve already won, the necessity for apologies between you and me, baby, there is none.” What is a song that reminds you the most about Harry? AHH. This is hard. But.. Medicine by the 1975 & Seven Wonders by Fleetwood Mac What is the movie that reminds you the most about Harry? One Day and Titanic lol How long have you been a Harrie? 3 and half years I think? Where were you when the Dunkirk trailer came out? Honestly don’t remember… I’m a fake!harrie lakahdja but I can assure you I was losing my shit. What do you expect for HS1? I have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA! But it’ll be good, whatever it will be. What are your tags for Harry on Tumblr? I don’t have a specific tag for him since my whole blog IS him…but on my personal, it’s lil pup because, well. Y'know. Who is your favorite Harry blog? I love too many to choose one! Pffft. Thank again to @harryandlana for tagging me! This was fun!!! I tag @kalelube , @harryfuckingstyles , @trulymadlysydney , @pdqt , @issakayla , @yellow-audri and literally ANYONE ELSE WHO WANTS TO DO IT!!!!! I wanna see all your answers :-)

[lovemesomesurveys]

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last ? Girl.

Name something you are doing tomorrow? Same stuff as always. 

Do you sleep on your stomach? No, I’ve never been a stomach sleeper. That would be super uncomfortable for me.

Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow? Here.

Last time you saw fireworks, with whom & where? Last 4th of July from my driveway with my family.

Are you missing someone? I’ll always missed my loved ones who have passed away.

Do you like horror or comedy? I enjoy both, but more horror and psychological thrillers. 

Who did you last share a taxi with? I rode one with a friend before years ago while on our little vacay. 

Dogs or cats? Dogs.

What were you doing at 12 this afternoon? It’s only 4:41AM. I’d like to try and get up around that time, buuuuut we’ll see. 

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? Nope. Or anytime soon.

What’s your favorite season? Fall and winter.

When’s the last time you did something you knew was wrong? I know I should be taking care of some things, but have yet to do so and keep putting them off.

Do you hate being alone? I need some alone time, but I like spending time with my family as well. It’s a mix of both. 

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you? My mom knows the most about me.

What about a guy? My younger brother knows me pretty well, but there’s a lot he doesn’t know. 

What color shirt are you wearing? Rose gold.

What are you listening to right now? An ASMR video.

If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first? I’d pay off my debt as well as my parents’ and brother’s debts first. 

What was the last thing you bought? Food and coffee the other day.

What’s your greatest fear in life? Losing my loved ones, never getting better/getting worse, never doing anything with my life and just wasting away. :/

Who was the last person to see you cry? My mom.

Who was the last person you hugged? My mom.

Do you think you would be a good parent? I don’t want to have kids. 

When was the last time you cried? A couple days ago.

Who was driving the last time you were in a car? My mom.

Does any part of your body hurt right now? Of course.

Who was the last person that text you and what did it say? My mom answered me back about something.

What was the first thing you thought this morning? My first thought tends to be, ‘what time is it?’

How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average? I rarely talk on the phone. It’s definitely not a daily thing. If I do, it’s a quick call from one of my parents or brother to ask me something, tell me something real quick, or my mom calling on her lunch break to talk for a few minutes. 

Do you like your bed? Yes. Good thing since I spend most of my time in it.

Do you like your life? I like parts of it.

When did you last talk to your brother or sister? A couple hours ago.

Do you ever wanna know who you are going to marry? I don’t plan on getting married.

How much cash do you have on you? Zero.

Who are the 3rd and 7th texts in your phone from? It depends on which thread you want me to open up... <<<

Are you tanned? No. I’ve only been leaving the house once a month for almost a year now for my doctor appointments, so I’ve hardly spent anytime outside. But even pre-Covid I didn’t spend enough time outdoors to get a tan except for my beach trips during the summer. I didn’t get to go last summer. :(

Are you upset with anyone? Bleh. 

Did you get any compliments today? No. 

Have you ever gone to court? Nope.

Do you get jealous easily? No. I haven’t felt jealous in quite a long time.

How good is your eyesight? It’s good with my glasses, ha. Otherwise, I can’t see for shit.

Would you ever want to swim with the sharks? Uh, noooo.

What time did you wake up this morning? I haven’t gone to bed yet. It’s currently 5:19AM.

What are you doing Saturday? Same stuff I do everyday.

What is in your back pocket? My leggings don’t have any pockets. I never use pockets anyway.

What were you doing at 3am this morning? I was eating ramen and watching YouTube videos.

What do you usually do first in the morning? I check the time and take my medicine.

What color is your room? White.

Are you any good at math? Nopeeee.

Any plans for Friday night? No.

What did you do last weekend? I do the same thing everyday haven’t you caught onto that yet?

Do you have a little crush on someone? Nope.

How old is the last person you kissed? He just turned 30 last month.

Why did you last cry? Blah.

Why did you kiss the person you last kissed? Because we wanted to.

What's his name? Joseph.

How has this week been? Monday I had horrible stomach cramps and bloated-ness so that sucked, Tuesday I had a doctor appointment, which was whatever and then I got takeout from my favorite breakfast place and a Starbucks (my coffee was not good that day for some reason so I was upset about that and wasn’t able to go back and get another so I was just SOL), yesterday I was having a flareup... we’ll see how today and the rest of the week goes.

[lovemesomesurveys]

What is a recurring thought on your mind today? lol it’s 5 in the morning and I’m thinking about getting more egg rolls for lunch. I had been craving them for awhile and finally had some last night and now I want more. Have you had any confrontations with anyone lately? No. What is the last charity you donated to? A cancer research charity. Do you feel all fuzzy and good when you do a good deed? It does feel good to do good. Don’t ya just hate foot cramps? I wouldn’t know, but I get stomach cramps and they’re not fun at all, so I imagine a foot cramp isn’t either.

Would you say you have an infectious laugh? I don’t think so.  Shouldn’t you be doing something else right now? Sleeping, but c’mon when do I ever go to bed before 7 or 8AM anymore? Do you have anything planned for the summer? Couldn’t do anything this summer. I’m so glad we’re in August though and summer is almost overrrrrr. What is something you worry about often? Health related things. Constantly. Are there any mountains nearby where you live? No. Did you like to collect frogspawn as a kid? No.  Do you walk fast or slow? I’m a fast wheeler I’m told. Do you keep birthday cards or throw them out? I keep them. I don’t get very many anymore, though.  Would you consider yourself healthy? Both mind and body. Nope, not in any way. Do you play any team sports? Nope. If so, which position do you play? - Does sitting in waiting rooms drive you insane? Yes. I’m very impatient and the waiting just makes me more anxious. What form of public transport do you use most often? I don’t take any public transportation anymore, but I used to take the bus sometimes in college. Would you consider yourself an adrenaline junkie? Ha, no.  Do you ever go onto ‘failblog’? I’m not familiar with that. Have you ever been arrested? If so, why? No. Do you ever put sticky notes around the place to remind yourself of things? No. I use the reminder app on my phone and/or write it down on my marker board. Would you eat a spider for $50? Absolutely NOT. Nopeeeeeee. Would you rather be a kangaroo or a koala? Koala, I guess. What is a common slang word from where you live? ”Hella” used to be a very Californian thing, but everyone says it now so I don’t know. Do you keep your fingers on the home keys when you type? I don’t type the proper way. I’ve been on the computer and typing since I was a kid, I even took a typing class, but I still don’t type the proper way haha. How I type works for me, though, sooo. *shrug* Are you easy to talk to? People have told me that. Can you juggle with more than two items? I can’t juggle. I couldn’t even tell you the last time I tried to juggle. Has anyone ever assumed you can’t speak English? No, but people have assumed that I speak Spanish. Do you live in a rural or an urban area? Urban. At airports do you ever worry your luggage won’t arrive? It crossed my mind. Do your parents ever call you ‘pet’ or ‘sweetheart’ etc? Not those two specifically, but other terms of endearment. We have our own that we’ve made up for each other as well. If so, does it annoy you? No, not at all. Do you like jalapenos? I loved ‘em, but I can’t eat spicy food anymore. :( What other windows have you currently got opened? Just this one. What woke you up this morning? I haven’t gone to bed, yet, but when I get up it’ll be well past morning. I don’t even go to bed until the morning. :/ Who else is in the same building as you? My parents, brother, and doggo are home as well. Would you like a penny farthing bicycle? A what? Your name? Stephanie. Would you ever consider visiting Ireland? Sure. Would you like to visit Venice? Yes. Did you ever eat leaves when you were a kid? Uh, no. I wasn’t the kid who played in leaf piles or played with/ate dirt or anything.  What is the largest body of water near your hometown? California is near the Pacific. Do you have any flags in your house? Yes. Are there any ‘keep off the grass’ signs where you live? Not in my neighborhood that I know of, but yeah some public places in town do. Have you ever walked on the grass with such a sign? No. Are you double-jointed? My thumbs are. At school which area of science did you prefer: biology/chemistry/physics? I managed to get by in science, but it wasn’t my favorite. Which did you prefer between geography/history? History. Have you ever had a main part in a play? No. Are there any musical instruments in the room you’re in? No. Can you name a difference between RNA and DNA? Uhhh. I’m blanking. Do you know anyone who owns a farm? No. Have you ever driven a tractor? No. Does the smell of the countryside bother you? It’s quite pungent, ha. I guess if you live out there you get used to it, but anytime I drive through the country I just gag. Do you drink more water or juice? Water. I don’t drink juice at all.

Sweater weather or tank top weather? Which do you prefer. Sweater weather, most definitely.  Have you ever kissed a Zachary? No. Do you hate when people try to embarrass you? Uh, well yeah. Do you like in October when a bunch of haunted places open up? I don’t go to any, but yeah. I just love spooky season in general. Did you tell someone you loved them today? Not so far. Do you watch the show Ghost Adventures? No. My dad watches it, though, so I’ve seen parts of it here and there. What color are your curtains in your bedroom? Dark blue. Are you superstitious? I do the knock on wood thing, but I think that’s really just out of habit. Is there a cat in the room you’re in right now? No, I don’t have a cat. What’s your favorite thing to do on the weekend? I don’t do anything different from weekdays. All my days are the same. Do you have your license? No. Do you still watch cartoons? I still watch Rugrats, Doug, and Hey Arnold. And animated movies. Do you like to cook? Only ramen. Do you drink? Nope. Do you smoke? Nope. Where do you buy your clothes? Hot Topic, Boxlunch, Adidas website, and Kohl’s.  Do you enjoy going to the movies? Yes. I miss being able to go. Are you still in school? Nopeeee, I’m done. Do you like cupcakes? Yes.

What makes you sad? A lot of things. I’m also just a sad, sleepy, sensitive soul as I like to say. Are you an animal lover? Yes. Are you hot-headed? I’m not quick to anger, but I do get irritated and frustrated quite easily. Do you have any siblings? I have 2 brothers. Are you afraid of snakes? YES. Do you have any pets? Yes, I have a doggo. <3 What color are your eyes? Brown. How bout your hair? I dye it red, but it’s naturally dark brown. How tall are you? Like 5′4. Who do you live with? My parents, brother, and doggo. Is there anything you want to ask anyone right now? No. Do you have kids? No. Do you love your family? Yes. They’re my world. What color hair do you prefer on the gender of your choice? I don’t really care. How bout eye color? Blue and green eyes are gorgeous.  Do you have a job? If so, what? No.  What is your dream job? I don’t have one. :/ What did you “wanna be” when you were a little kid? A teacher. What’s your favorite kind of movie? Psychological thrillers, horror, drama, romcoms, comedy, some action/adventure, /sci-fi... I like a variety. Are you gay, straight, bi, lesbian, asexual, or not sure? Straight. What kind of music is your favorite? I like variety. Do you play any instruments or sing? What kind? No. Have you ever been to a concert? If so, what was your favorite one? Yeah, several. I enjoyed them all, concerts are just awesome. It’s a cool experience.  Are you more negative or more positive? Negative. Well, for myself. I can be positive for others. Have you ever been depressed? I have chronic depression. How are you feeling, dear? Tired and crappy. Mhm and how’s the weather where you’re at? It’s 6AM and it’s already 64F.  Okay and have you been healthy lately? No. Are you in middle school, high school, college, graduate? I’m done with school. What is/was your favorite class? English was always my favorite and then in college I was able to take psych courses, which is also what I majored in, so I liked those. Have you made any life altering decisions lately? No. Where is your favourite place to get pizza? This local place.

Do you have any physical traits that are bothering you lately? My hair.

What is the closest store to you? A grocery store. Do you have any songs currently stuck in your head? Not at the moment. Have you made a CV? No. I had to Google what a CV was.  Where is the last place you applied for a job? (If you have) I haven’t. Are you photogenic? Nope. Are there any concert venues where you live? Yes. Are you annoyed at anyone these days? I’m always annoyed with myself. Which continent would you most like to travel to and why? Europe. There’s a ton of places I’d like to visit. Have you ever/would you ever do volunteer work? I’ve done a lot of volunteer work. Do you know anyone that has died in a road accident? No. Do you know which career path you want to follow? No. Are there a lot of tourists where you live? No. There’s not shit to do or see of interest here. My state is a touristy state, though. Any plans for your next birthday? This year I obviously just stayed home, but my family made it nice. My brother got me coffee, breakfast, and a coffee cake from my favorite place, my mom, brother, and I watched this new creepy movie, You Should Have Left, then we just hung out until dinnertime, which was my fave, Wingstop, and then I opened presents.

Do you have to use public transport often? Not at all anymore, but when I was in college I had to take the bus sometimes. Does your house have an alarm? Yes. Have you ever asked someone out on a date? No. Whose grave did you last visit? My dog, Brandie, is buried in our backyard. My dad made a really nice gravesite for her. What’s something someone can do that makes you melt? A guy that can play the piano. What are you listening to right now? An ASMR video  If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first? The first thing after paying off debts would be a new house for my family and I. What’s your greatest fear?  Death, disease, bugs, clusters. <<<< SAME. Gaaaaah the last one just made my skin crawl from seeing the word. Those are just a few of many fears for me. Has anyone upset you in the last week? Yes. What’s the best thing about you? I like my cheesy, corny sense of humor. What’s your favorite drink? Coffee. What are you going to do tomorrow? Same stuff I do everyday. What are you craving? I want more egg rolls like I had last night. How did you sleep last night? I don’t ever feel like I slept well. I never wake up feeling well rested. Does that really happen for people cause I can’t relate.

What was the first thing you thought this morning? I haven’t gone to bed, yet.

If your favorite food gave you pain, made you have acne, etc., would you still eat it? I’d just have to eat it less often and less of it. Unless it made me really sick or something or was very intense and unpleasant. Like I can’t have spicy food at all anymore except for the weak hot sauce that has like less than 2% of anything, but even that I can only have a little bit of. I can’t drench my food in it, just light dips. It sucks cause I used to be obsessed with spicy food, and I used to eat really spicy stuff.

Have you ever been judged on something you wore? Yeah.

Are you a timid person? Yes.

Think QUICK what word begins with c? Coffee!

Are you a funny person? I think I have my funny moments and now and then and trust me, when they happen I make sure to own ‘em cause they’re rare haha.  Be honest, do you go for looks more or personality? Personality is the most important, looks only go so far. Personality goes on a much deeper level and who a person is matters a lot more to me than their looks. That being said, I can’t say looks don’t matter at all. I also want to add that a good personality can add to someone’s attractiveness. 

Ever been so upset but didn’t understand why? Yeah. I get these moody moods that are sometimes triggered, but there’s a lot of times where they seem to just come on out of nowhere. I suppose it’s the depression, but like I can be having a decent day and then suddenly I’ll feel my mood changing and nothing in that moment changed that would seem to cause the sudden change. I just feel it coming on and once it does, I can’t stop it. My emotions very much control me. 

Are you a flirty person? No. I can be if I’m interested in someone and I’m comfortable around them enough to be flirty. Though, it’s probably subtle. 

Are you homophobic? No.

Ever had a rumor spread about you? No.

Has anyone ever pulled your pants down in public? Nooo. 

Ever had the ‘birds and the bees’ talk with your parents? Yeah.

How would you react if someone said you ruined their life? Wow. I would feel extremely bad and shitty to say the least.

Are you a sympathetic person? Yes. I’m also very empathetic. 

Ballet dance or hip hop dance? If I could, I would have tried hip hop. What’s currently bothering you right now? My stomach. 

What is the most athletic you’ve done? When I had to participate in my adaptive PE classes. That’s literally the only time.

Do you remember the first conversation you ever had with the person you currently have feelings for? I don’t have those kinds of feelings for anyone at the moment.

Do you like to drink herbal tea? Yeah, now and then. I’m not a big tea drinker.

If you’re home alone, do you still close/lock the door when you use the bathroom? No.

What your favorite thing to have on toast? Butter.

Has anyone ever hung up on you? Yeah, but only like telemarketers and wrong numbers.

Have you ever been to a concert? Several. Hasn’t this come up a couple times? Maybe I’m getting the surveys confused, I’m tired.

Can you speak more than one language? If so, what other language(s)? Not fluently, just some Spanish.

Are you talking to anyone right now? No.

If so, how do you feel about them? -

Do you know anyone who skateboards? Not anymore.

Do you ever sing when you’re alone? Yeah.

What’s the stupidest song you’ve listened to today? I have’t listened to any stupid songs. I don’t listen to music I’d consider stupid. Are you listening to music, currently? No.

How do you feel about the song? - When someone teases you do you frown or give an amazing comeback? My family and I playfully tease each other and sometimes I’ll come up with something funny and clever to say, but there’s times where I’m just like             -____- and say like, “har-har very funny” haha or something lame like that. Do you think you can sing? I know I can’t sing well at all, but I still like to anyway to myself.

Do you have any talent? No.

Do you think you’re better looking than some other people? No.

Do you like dancing? I like head bobbing and moving my shoulders/arms/hands, ha. And sometimes I attempt (very badly) to do some TikTok dances haha. Privately, though. I’d never recored myself and share it with the public, major yikes. 

What’s your favorite zoo animal? Giraffes.

How is your hair currently styled? It’s up in a messy bun. 

How long are your showers (on average)? Like 30-40 minutes.

East or West? West.

What did you do last night? Binged some Step by Step on Hulu until 1AM-ish, then I made my ramen and watched some YouTube videos while I ate, then I played some Animal Crossing for a bit, and then I scrolled through Tumblr for awhile, and then I did some surveys and listened to ASMR, which is what I’m still doing now.

Do you like your music loud? I like it at a comfortable volume. Some songs I have a little louder than others, just depends.

What are you allergic to? Tangerines. I also have seasonal allergies.

Do you ever stay up late just to be awake I have insomnia, but yeah I do stay up later than I should. Like, I could attempt sleep a little sooner than I do.

What do you want to name your children? I don’t want to have kids.

Would you ever write a letter to someone you haven’t met yet, like your future spouse? Nah.

Did the last movie you watched make you cry? No. It was a psychological thriller, it was trippy.

Are you a good swimmer? Nope, I can’t swim.

What are you always thinking about? Health stuff. 

Is science your favorite subject? Well, psychology is a science. When you’re really worked up, what do you do to relax? Listen to ASMR.

Would you rather spend the day watching movies or on an intense hike? Uh, watching movies. Definitely. I can’t go hiking anyway, but I wouldn’t want to do anything intense or outdoors.

Did you ever try the cereal Special K? Yeah, there’s nothing special about it.

Think of the last person you kissed, was it memorable? Yeah.

You have the choice of being poor but happy, or rich but miserable. Which is it? Poor and happy. 

Do you think girls with short hair are less good looking than those with long hair? Uh, no? There’s a lot of beautiful people with short hair and there’s a lot of beautiful people with long hair.

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92 Questions Tag

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

I was tagged by the lovely lovely @seatudying and @colbystudies (and I feel like maybe someone else too? ahh sorry!), please follow them if you don’t already! 💛

I’m putting most of this under the cut because it’s SO LONG and also I feel like I always tag the same people in tag things so if you’re someone who likes to be tagged in things then please let me know so I can tag you!!!!! I don’t want to spam people who don’t want to be tagged!

Last: 1. Drink: teaaaaaa 2: Phone Call:  my mum, calling me to come get her and the dogs from the park because she didn’t want to walk the whole way home again 3. Text Message: my granny, asking if she needed anything from the shop lol 4. Song you listened to: teenage dream (glee cover bc EW katy perry) 5. Time you cried: I cry from laughing on a fairly regular basis tbh sooo yesterday, but if sad crying then I can’t remember tbh

Have you: 6. Dated someone twice: this implies I’ve even dated once lol 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: ahahahaa kissing... 8. Been cheated on: nope 9. Lost someone special: yeah 10. Been depressed: honestly not sure but I think so 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope, no drinking for me thank yoouuu

List 3 favourite colors: 12-14: warm yellow, light pink, teal

In the last year have you: 15. Made new friends: yes!!! 16. Fallen out of love: nopeeee gotta be in it to fall out 17. Laughed until you cried: oh definitely! see number 5 18. Found out someone was talking about you: not that I remember 19. Met someone who changed you: nah 20. Found out who your friends are: what ???? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I’ve never kissed anyone lol sorry to disappoint

General: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them except like 4 ppl I’m friends with and talk to loads but haven’t met irl 23. Do you have any pets: yep! 4 cats and 2 dogs 24. Do you want to change your name: eh, sometimes, because it’s so plain 25. What did you do for your last birthday: literally nothing wooo summer birthdays when everyone is busy/on holiday are just great 26. What time did you wake up: like 7:30 probably 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28: Name something you can’t wait for: going to uni!!!! basically getting to start a new and independent life 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: about an hour ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I’d love to lose some weight but lol I’m so lazy and exercise is hard 31. What are you listening to right now: a clock ticking lol 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: nothing atm 34. Most visited websites: tumblr, youtube, twitter 35. Mole/s: I got plenty (really tho I have loads of moles) 36. Mark/s: the dark mark 37. Childhood dream: I don’t think I ever rly had one lol how sad (maybe to be a singer? that’s still my dream tbh tho) 38: Hair colour: dark brown 39: Long or short hair: longish ??? 40. Do you have a crush on someone: nopeee 41. What do you like about yourself: idk I have good morals? like I don’t even have the capacity to understand why someone would do or say something mean or cruel 42. Piercings: none! 43. Blood type: I actually have no idea 44. Nickname: one certain friend calls me softie, my dad calls me dufus or snowflake 45. Relationship status: single 46. Zodiac: leo 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: currently BBC Merlin 💛 49. Tattoos: not interested tbh I have a low pain tolerance and I’m indecisive so tattoos don’t sound like a good idea for me 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: no[e 52. Hair dyed in different color: no but I’ve thought about dying it like ginger or something lol 53. Sport: literally nothing how sad 55. Vacation: I’m going to London in August ye buddyyyyy 56. Pair of trainers: what ???? whatever idk

More general: 57. Eating: I’m not great at eating tbh like I have a small appetite generally BUT I could eat entire packets of biscuits and I rly want some cookies rn 58. Drinking: always water # don’t hate hydrate 59. I’m about to: answer the rest of these then GO TO SLEEP 61. Waiting for: my birthday wooooo 62. Want: books 63: Get married: I will eventually but not for a good few years yet I hope 64. Career: not sure tbh but I’ve thought about teaching physics

Which is better: 65: Hugs or kisses: HUGS ALWAYS. GET UR SLIMY KISSES AWAY FROM ME 66: Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: whatever 68. Older or younger: older ??? but like not much either way 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms probably idk 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive pls 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: who would even pick troublemaker? are you okay????

Have you ever: 74. Kissed a stranger: nope 75: Drank hard liquor: nope 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I lost my glasses for like 5 mins one morning bc I woke up and couldn’t see that they’d fallen under my bed somehow 77. Turned someone down: does it count if we were like 8 lol 78. Sex on the first date: no dating so no 79. Broken someone’s heart: not that I know of 80. Had you heart broken: nope 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes ofc 83. Fallen for a friend: no

Do you believe in: 84. Yourself: I try to!!! 85. Miracles: yep 86. Love at first sight: ehhh probably not 87. Santa Claus: no :’( 88. Kiss on the first date: I mean, yeah, people can and do do this

Other: 90. Current best friend name: I have like 3 best friends leave me alone 91. Eye colour: blue/grey BUT I have some goldeny brown in one eye wooo 92. Favourite movie: GIFTED 💛  Chris Evans and McKenna Grace are my favourite people and I sobbed like a baby for most of the film