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Kim Seungmin x reader.

bestfriend!seungmin, idol!seungmin, idol!reader word count: 1,5k warnings: fluff. petnames. i didn't proofread it. tags: fluff, friends to lovers.

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April 9th, 2023.

A week has passed since the Maniac tour ended, meaning that today you will be able to see your dumb best friend at the company after a long time.

"Excited?" Kia asked with a smile on her face

"Why would I be, unnie?" You frowned at her question

"Kim Seungmin is coming back today. All of them are coming." She kept that smile on her face

"You're annoying. It's not like I haven't been talking with him all along" you rolled your eyes and she laughed at your reaction

"I just stated facts! I didn't know you would be upset about seeing your boy best friend after so long"

"I'm not upset" you held back a laugh and pushed your leader lightly

"Are you excited or not?" She asked again

"Are you excited about seeing Chris after so long too, unnie?" You fired back

"Hey, that's not funny" that smile disappeared from her face

"How to forget the night where Kia unnie was so drunk that she threw up on Chan Oppa's bed" Ski said, getting into the conversation

"Yeah, what were you doing in his bed again?" Lu teased

"Back to practice. Now." Kia turned on the leader mode and the seven of you got into position.

"Yeah but actually..." a curious Haneul spoke from her place "I never knew the reason behind you being there" her angelical aura couldn't make Kia mad.

"I was just wasted, and he's a gentleman so he offered his bed to me so I could sleep and sober up a bit" the leader explained while looking at you all through the big mirror in front of you.

"Yeah, I am" a voice came over from the opening door and the seven of you bowed at Bang Chan.

Kia turned absolutely red.

"No need to be ashamed Kia, we remember it with laughs" Jisung joked and bowed back.

Your eyes were trying to be x-ray, trying to find your best friend in between all the people that were entering the place.

"Sweetie" Seungmin made his apparence and left you speachless.

"Kim Seungmin" You rushed towards him, wrapping your arms around his neck, and he wrapping his around your waist "I missed you"

"I know, you were annoying me almost every day" he smiled, letting his brand new smile be seen. Wordless. "You're staring, weirdo" his sweet little laugh came out of his mouth

"I'm sorry" you blinked a few times, trying to organise your thoughts. "You didn't tell me you took your braces off"

"It was all over twitter, I thought you already knew" he raised his eyebrows in surprise.

"I haven't been using it for a while" —because you were all over my timeline and it made me miss you even more— you thought, but didn't say.

And again, when you looked around, realized that just like old times, you and Seungmin were lost in your own little world. The rest of the members from both groups were fooling around, screaming, running, singing, jumping, dancing.

Actually, you missed the eight of them.

What caught your eye was how sweety Lee Know was looking at Haneul when she was talking to him and Jeongin.

"Hey," you called Seungmin and made a movement with your head to make him see what your eyes were looking at.

"Yeah, but look over there" he pointed at Jisung and Manee being an absolute CHAOS.

"Looks like I was not the only one missing a Stray Kid." you smiled

"I missed you too" he rubbed your back from the side where he was standing. "And don't get used to it"

"Not at all" you made a disgusted face, just to see how his smile appeared again.

There was something about him now that was making you go insane. Like, after the time you guys had apart, he stopped being a rebellious teenager and became a man. You couldn't take his eyes off him.

"Okay, everyone, let's gather here." BangChan called all of you and you obeyed.

He and Kia started talking about the Collab stage that the groups had, talking about how they wanted it to go and asking for ideas too.

"I think, we could go in groups and showcase our positions. Like, dance line, rap line, voice line" Felix suggested

"Yah, you wanna kill this one" Seungmin pointed at you

"I might be in both my voice and dance line, but I'm not a rapper" you couldn't help but smile every time that man spoke to or about you.

"You are as much as a rapper as I am. And I'm a fucking great rapper" he let out a cocky smile

"Actually, Stay wants Seungmin on the rap line" Changbin joked

"She's a great rapper though" Ski smiled

"I hate to interrupt such a lovely discussion but we need to get back on subject" Kia stated, leaving the conversation out of mind.

April 23th, 2023.

"You did amazing, sweetie. You look gorgeous" Your friend smiled at you

"Thank you, Seungmin" you answered shyly and hid your face looking to the floor

"No, no. Don't hide" he took you by your chin and make you look at him "Those diamonds on top of your freckles look stunning"

"You're making me blush, asshole" You pushed him

"See? I can't be nice to you" he crossed his arms on top of his chest, making himself look taller than he was

"Just get married already" Minho said rolling his eyes while passing by with a bottle of water in his hands "Awesome job, Y/n. You were almost as good as me" he said with sarcasm and you laughed.

"He's unbearable" Seungmin denied with his head too

"Either are you" You teased him and you could see how a little smirk wanted to appear on his face, which he repressed.

"Little shit" he looked away, hiding his smile

"Hey, don't disrespect me. I'll make you call me noona"

"I'd call you noona anytime"

"You're being weird" You said, closing your eyes halfway.

"y/n-ssi, Seungmin-ssi sunbaenim" Yeonjun came by

"She's also your sunbaenim" Protective Seungmo was activated and he placed himself right by your side, looking at the other male

"Hey" you slightly blushed, trying to not make eye contact with the idol.

"I just wanted to congratulate you both"

"Thank you." Seungmin cutted the boy off.

Yeonjun bowed and left you alone again.

"You were kinda rude" You looked at him

"Oh, c'mon girl" He rolled his eyes "I just can't stand him"

"That's 'cause you're jealous" you smirked at the guy

"He took you away from him for a long amount of time. So, it's safe to say no, I do not like him."

"That face, Kim Seungmin" Hyunjin passed by and laughed at the expression in Seungmin's face "What's got you all mad?"

You just pointed at Yeonjun, a few meters away from the conversation.

"Trying to steal ya' girl again? Damn, gotta talk with Changbin hyung"

His girl? Again?

"He's friends with hyung." That's all he said. Hyunjin just laughed and left

"Sorry, what was that?" You asked

"That was nothing. Just Hyunjin annoying us" he answered fast

"You're blushed" You laughed "Seungmin... Do you like me?" You took his hand, making him look at them

"Of course I like you. You wouldn't be my friend if I didn't."

"Ok, fair" you sighted "Let me reform that... Do you have feelings for me?" he opened his mouth to talk and you cutted him off "And don't give me the same fucking answer 'cause I will hurt you, I swear to god Kim Seungmin" You added and he laughed

"So... Technically speaking... having like... romantic feelings?"

"Yes, he does. Kiss her, you fool!" Hyunjin came over again and pushed you both, making you crush into his chest.

You looked up at his eyes, as he looked down at yours.

"I kinda romatically like you, yes y/n" he took a few strands of your hair out of your face

"I kinda romantically like you too, Seungmin" You smiled back at him.

He slowly leaned down, making your lips meet for the first time in the five years that you've known eachother and been friends.

You placed your arms around his broad shoulders and his hands took place in your waist.

"FINALLY" you heard Ski scream from the top of her lungs.

"FATHER AND MOTHER GOD" Jeongin screamed at the same volume as Ski

"I took the most beautiful picture" said Hyunjin and he was... Sobbing?

"Yah, that's enough. You're disgusting" Minho came all the way here and separated you, making you both laugh

"You're jealous you can't kiss Haneul like this" You fired at him, and for the first time in ages, you left Lee Minho speachless.

"SHE'S RED!" Jenny jumped up and down while looking at your member be flustered.

"Y/n" Seungmin caught your attention again saying your name in the sweetest way ever "Do you wanna go out with me?" his sweet voice didn't change at all, making you melt inside

"Of couse I want" You got in your tip toes and kissed briefly his lips.

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Moonlight

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-> Word count: 3.8k

-> Relationships: Yang Jeongin/afab!Reader

-> Rating: 18+→ Mature/Explicit

->Genre/Tropes:  Non-Idol au. Romance au. Fluff au. Night walks au. Coffee Shop. Smut. Other Additional Tags to Be Added. (Spoiler tags: Friends to Lovers.)

-> Warning tags: Alcohol, Explicit Sexual Content. Other Additional Tags to Be Added.

-> Synopsis: Everyone has secrets. Jeongin has two. One, he loves reading rom-coms. Two, he has a crush on you.

Everyone has secrets. Jeongin has two. One, he loves reading rom-coms. Two, he has a crush on you.

He sat by the kitchen, looking toward the other side of the party. Why? Because Jeongin, the foolish boy who used to say "fuck those fairy tales and happy ever after," is in love.

And right now, at the party of his best friend, Changbin, he only has eyes for you. The prettiest girl at the party. Singing along to your favorite song while sitting in the middle of the room on one of the giant puffy pillows with Changbin and Jisung.   Nothing else he wanted to do but wrap his arms around your waist and drag you out of this party.

Like a rom-com, his love story has a beginning. He has liked you since the first time he saw you in the park on a Sunday.

You were sitting on a bench next to a cotton candy machine. Reading a book. A rom-com. And, coincidentally, one that Jeongin has recently finished reading. For Jeongin, it was love at first sight. He approached the cotton candy guy and asked for one just to buy him more time to look at you. You were beautifully concentrated in the book. If you were a painting, Jeongin would stare at you all day. He wanted to know your name but didn't have the courage to ask for it. I'll look like a creepy guy. 

When he was about to walk away, you said, "Are you enjoying the book?"

He came to a halt and turned to face you. Wide eyes, open mouth. He couldn't believe you were speaking to him. Gorgeous smile and pretty curious eyes staring at him. He was holding the new book of his favorite writer.

"Yeah, but the one you are reading is way better." He said this, trying to look like a decent person even though he was freaking out inside. 

Then you asked him if he was busy, and Jeongin shook his head at you. You smiled at him and said, "Want to get a coffee with me? Talk about the book."

You two quickly became friends after that. And Sunday's afternoons in the coffee shop became the setting of his love story. 

Jeongin was too scared to take the next step and ask you out on a proper date. He wasn't brave enough to express his  feelings for you. 

The day he decided to introduce you to Changbin, who kept bothering Jeongin about how he was being stolen every Sunday, was the day Changbin invited you to a party he would give. 

Jeongin knew you didn't like to party that much, but he still had hopes you would accept. Maybe after a couple of drinks, he could have the guts to ask you out on a proper date. He almost jumped out of happiness when you said yes. 

Now, he was looking at you from afar, like the coward he was, as you laughed at something Jisung and Changbin said.

Then, you look at Jeongin's way. His heart beats faster the moment you wink at him. He smiled at you and watched Changbin say something in your ear.

Jeongin gets up with a sigh to get a drink. One more drink, and I'll go to her. It would be a good idea to get him something to help him relax. He grabbed the cup when hands on his waist spun him. 

"Do you want to get out of here? I'm kinda bored."

You. Always you doing exactly what he wanted to do to you. Fuck, I go anywhere with you.

He couldn't contain his smile, and, holding your hand, he said, "Come on, let's go for a walk."

He couldn't stop smiling and had to force himself to walk properly instead of  giving slightly little jumps every step. Until he realized he didn't know where he could take you out. 

Jeongin wanted to impress you, and not even a few minutes after they left the party did he begin to regret taking the lead. His mind didn't stop wandering with places he wanted to take you. He wanted to take you somewhere that no one else would, so it would be just you and him. He wanted to take you somewhere special so that you could both remember it fondly.  He wanted to take you to the moon and back and make both of you fall in love in the moonlight. But for him to even have a chance for that to happen, he must confess to you tonight.

In the end, you two went to the coffee shop. It was a cozy setting with a sweet aroma of what he assumed was a blueberry  muffin.  The walls were painted in green and brown with poetry phrase writing on them. It was a little empty, just a couple and a student. You greeted the barista first and went right to the table by the window, humming the song from the radio and analyzing the menu. You always asked for something new on the menu while Jeongin stuck with his same old choices. An iced Americano and two toasts with cheese. This time, you opted for expressino and the blueberry lemon muffin. Opposite.  Hopefully, we might attract each other. Jeongin chuckled to himself.

"I’m sorry for my friends. They can be too much sometimes."

"Your friends are nice," you said, with one hand on your chin. "We should hang out more with them, and I can introduce you to my friend once he gets back from his trip."

"Is he the one who just broke up?" 

"He didn’t take the break up well. But he is with his best friend. He’s in good hands now." Jeongin nodded as you continued, "Sometimes I wonder if love is worth having our hearts broken."

Broken heart. That’s exactly the reason Jeongin didn’t like being in love. The fear of being in pain, of suffering because he was a fool.

"Maybe it depends on the person we love?" Jeongin said, his voice getting lower and his shoulders shrinking.

"And how do we know if the person is right?" you ask, staring right through him.

"That’s up to fate to decide." He said, feeling totally bare. 

He knew right then and there that fate had decided your love was worth every piece of his heart.

When the food is served, you incline your body toward him. His heart skipped a beat.  You take the napkin close to him and a pen from your pocket, smirking at Jeongin. He kept the desire to question why you went to a party with a pen to himself. Jeongin just quietly waited for you to do whatever you wanted. He loved this unexpected side of you. Doing whatever comes to mind. Even if it was a simple thing like writing something on a napkin.

A few minutes later, you gently put the napkin in his direction. "Read tomorrow morning. Alone."

Jeongin arched his brow. He could feel his stupid smile, which appeared only when he was with you. What were you planning?

"Promise me," you said, squinting your eyes, and Jeongin wanted to kiss you right there. You're adorable. 

"I promise," he said.

And you smiled, tilting your head with a satisfied nod.

Once you both finished eating and paying, Jeongin felt your hands on his, and you guided him back to the park. You started to talk about other coffee shops you visit here, including one with a bookstore and others that change themes every month. Jeongin didn't know if he should pay attention to what you were saying or for the way you were saying. You're fascinating in every way.

He felt his arms brush against yours and something shift in his chest. He felt safe by your side, and yet there’s a pain in his chest bothering him. Would you accept his feelings? Did he have a chance with you, or was he delusional? If you let him hold you, would his pain go away? 

You two sat on a bench, looking at the river. Your head on his shoulder. Jeongin tried not to breathe too deeply as he felt the scent of your perfume.

A lady carrying a basket of flowers walks next to them. An idea sparked in his mind, and he knew it was the most cliche thing to do, but you mentioned once that you bought a vase these days and needed a flower. So he thought, why not?

"Wait here," he said, and got up to the lady. He chose a yellow rose. 

He came back with a cheap smile, and when your eyes met, butterflies fluttered in Jeongin's stomach. He liked being observed by you. 

"For your vase," he said, offering the rose. 

You made a thoughtful face while analyzing the flower. Your head tilted. "Did you buy it for my vase?" you asked, and you went back to look at him. "Or for me?"

He stiffens. What was he supposed to say? Should he confess to you now? It seemed like the right time, but he just froze in place until you laughed and took the flower from his hands.

"I'm just messing with you. It's beautiful. Thank you," you said. You gently place the flowers close to your nose to feel the scent. "So, I didn't tell you earlier, but I found a new apartment."

"Seriously? Where?" he asked, recalling that you've been busy recently finding a new place to stay that was larger than your previous one in order to make it your workplace as well.

"Not so far from here, actually. I want to share with someone who doesn’t mind about lost brushes all over the place." You stared at your feet. Jeongin felt his head bend, looking for your eyes. "So, it’s only me for now, and I was thinking if you'd like to go there," you said. Jeongin frowned as you spoke quickly, and if he wasn't so close, he would barely have heard you. Were you getting shy?

"I'd love to," Jeongin said, cleaning his sweaty palms. You turn to him, smiling with eyes that shine brighter than the moon.

When he got there, he would confess.

 It’s a promise.

Your apartment was closer than he thought. A few streets away from the park, next to a laundromat.

It was a big loft on the 8th floor. The view of the river and the city was breathtaking. The living room was crammed with paintings, canvas, and brushes of various sizes. There was an open kitchen in the right corner, as well as a small hallway leading to the bathroom and two other rooms.

You led Jeongin to your bedroom, which was full of shelves and books on the floor, along with some bags of clothes. He wonders if that's all you have or if the room is still waiting to be decorated. What type of person are you? Jeongin wanted to know all your sides. 

"The other one is an empty room," you said, walking back to the living room.

"This is incredible," he said.

"I was lucky to find the place. It's worth every penny," you said, going to the kitchen and taking two wine glasses and a bottle of Barolo.

You smirked at him and quoted your favorite book, the same one Jeongin devoured in one day, simply because you liked it. 

"Want to pretend we are in France?" 

At that moment, he wanted to devour you. 

You grabbed his hand and pushed him out onto the veranda. The night was peaceful, but Jeongin's heart was anything but.

You two were comfortable in a big, puffy deck chair. Thighs touching and your head is resting on his shoulder. Jeongin wanted you to sit in his lap, chest against his, so he could put his face in your neck and kiss you until you were out of breath. Now feels like the perfect time to confess. Would you feel the same for me?  

"Feel like what?" you said, turning to face him.

Jeongin's entire body freezes, and his eyes sting from widening so much. Did I say that out loud? He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. His stomach turned. This is the time. It's either now or never. He took a deep breath. The words he had been rehearsing in his head for weeks were gone, and what came out was, "Like my heart, it's going to explode every time our eyes meet. Like I can't breathe properly with your slightest touch, like I can't think every time I hear your voice. As if I'll go insane if I don't see you—"

When he saw your bright eyes, he forgot what he was going to say. His brain shut down. Your body is so close to him that your lips are just a breath away. 

You chuckled and got even closer to him. "Is that your way to say you like me?"

"No." Jeongin says as he places his hands on your neck. "That's my way," and he kissed you. Finally. The moment you kissed him back, Jeongin felt euphoria throughout his body. He dreamed of this moment. And he needed you to feel all of his affection for you. He broke the kiss, only to whisper, "I’m in love with you." 

You kissed him harder, your soft lips tasting wine. He wanted to taste every single part of you.   Your body was pressed against his, and his eyelids fluttered when he felt your hands on the nape of his neck.

The world around them disappeared, and all he could think about was you. He pulled you into his lap. Everything felt so right that Jeongin feared it was all a dream.  

The kiss became more desperate. His hands were on your thighs, slowly rising. You gasped when his fingers cupped your ass, making him smile against your lips. His lips went  from your jaw to your neck, your hands tangled in his hair and your crotch pressed against his, making Jeongin even more aroused.

 His hands reached beneath your shirt to grab your waist, giving a soft squeeze that made you moan quietly. His kisses grew rougher, his hips grinding against yours. And when you moaned under his touch, he couldn't help but want to have you right now. He couldn’t hold himself back anymore, so he said against your lips, "Can I have you tonight?"

"And all nights," you said, smiling and slowly kissing him. 

You both head to your room in between making out and tripping over furniture.

Once inside, he tried to press you against him, but you backed away and slowly sat in bed. He remained frozen in place, gulping, as he watched you lay in your bed. You were so gorgeous that his body felt like a flame. He climbs on top of you and,  while undressing you slowly, he gives you sloppy kisses. Your tongue is warm and sweet against his. 

Jeongin stops his movements when he sees your hard nipples. He squeezes them as if they were made for his hands, drawing a moan from your mouth.

You take your time undressing him, taking in every detail. He shivered with your hands tracing his chest and even gasped when your nails grazed the side of his lower back.

He bent to you and began to trail soft kisses across your shoulders, down your neck, and to your breasts where he took between his lips, tongue brushing and softly sucked, loving the sensation of your nipple in his mouth. When he felt your hands palming his cock, he let out a groan. Jeongin slowly rolled his hips. Fuck, he felt so loved. He suckles your nipple even harder as his other hand cupping and teasing your other breast with his thumb. You gasped as he touched you again, making him grin against your skin.

He trailed down your stomach until he reached your core, leaving kisses around it, teasing you. Your breathing quickened when you felt his tongue trace a path over your clit,  "Oh, fuck," you whined, pulling at his hair as you moaned.

Jeongin smiled against your cunt, taking you again. "You taste so good," he murmured, licking your clit faster and faster. He felt your hand pushing his head  against your cunt, until finally you came undone, crying out Jeongin’s name, and he grinned.

He gave you enough time to catch your breath, and with lips brushing against yours, he asked, "Do you want to continue?"

And you let out a "Yes, please," making him chuckle.

His hand moved lower, and you arched your back when his fingers touched your pretty pussy. He smirked at how wet you got for him before sliding inside, loving how responsive you were to his touches. Jeongin couldn't be more smitten with you than he was right now.  He leaned over  your breast and licked your nipples, swirling his tongue around them. 

Your eyes rolled back into your head, and you let out strangled noises as he moved his fingers deeper inside you, feeling the warmth of your cunt and how it clenched  around his fingers.

"Fuck, I want to be inside you so bad." The sight of you made him so hard it hurt. "Let me make you come again," he whispered.

You grabbed onto his shoulder, your body tensing one more time. "Yes, yes, oh god, please."

He curled his fingers as his thumbs circled around your swollen clit. You moaned loudly as your release hit you. Jeongin was far gone by now. He wouldn’t last any longer.

"So wet and stretched for me." He said, nuzzling your neck, and you cupped his face and drew him to you. Lips crashing slowly, your tongue exploring his mouth, licking and biting his lips.

You wrap your legs around his hip and pull his body close. You looked at him with pleading eyes. "Fuck me, Jeongin, I need you, please." 

Jeongin’s cock twitched at those words.  "Anything for you." He positioned himself, aligning with your entrance, and slid inside you. He groaned quietly at the feel of your walls tightening around him. 

You whimpered when you felt him filling you. Your legs tighten around his waist. You buried your face in his neck, saying, "You’re so good, baby."  

He closed his eyes, something in his chest building up with those words.

He thrust into you slowly. You sighed, gripping his back and pressing yourself against him. 

He felt like his heart was about to burst out of his chest. He wanted to be lost in you. You were the best maze he'd ever seen. 

Your hips started to move in sync with his. The noises of your wet cunt taking him made Jeongin lose his mind.

"I—I'm close," you said, your breath hitching.

He groaned as he watched your body writhe underneath him, your moans of pleasure echoing through the room as he fucked you.  Soon he felt an intense pleasure overtake him. He clenched his jaw and held you tight. "Fuck, baby. Your so-" 

He growled against your neck, thrusting you faster in a messy rhythm, letting go of everything else except for your bodies pressed together.

You cried out his name, holding him tightly as you both came undone. 

When the waves subsided, he pulled out of you slowly, and you sighed deeply, closing your eyes, and running your fingers through his hair. He kissed you slowly before getting up to dispose of the condom and clean you up with a towel on your bathroom counter.

You shied away, and he chuckled as his heart squeezed at how cute you were. He hoped to hold you until sunrise one day.

He found some clothes in one of your bags for you, and when he turned around after putting on his boxers, he saw you smiling at him. Jeongin approached you, pulling you into a hug and kissing you on the neck. Butterflies were all over his stomach again. Jeongin didn't want to let you go. 

He was about to say goodbye when you stopped him.

"Don't say goodbye tonight. Sleep here. It's late," you said. A warm feeling spread through his chest. He definitely must be dreaming. He nodded. 

Jeongin walked to the window to open it, letting some cold air into the hot room. He went back to your bed, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you closer to his chest.

He nuzzled your neck and inhaled your scent, content.  He heard your breath hitch. "Goodnight, baby," you murmured sleepily. He chuckled against your skin, kissing your cheek. "Night."

The sun shone brightly through the curtains in the morning, casting colorful beams of light around the bedroom. Outside, there is a faint sound of songbirds. A few rays of sunlight filtered through the curtain and landed softly on your face. As you slept peacefully next to him, your breathing was steady and slow. He smiled as he remembered last night. It wasn’t a dream.

He got up to make coffee and breakfast, but in his way, he saw his pants and a little napkin.

His eyes widened. He looked back at you. Still sleeping. Jeongin quietly got out of your room and went to the kitchen.  Even the breathtaking view of the morning city couldn't take Jeongin's attention away from the napkin. I’m alone now.

He opened it, and when he read the words, he closed his eyes, laughing and shaking his head.

Let the moon be the judge of the worth of our love

Let fate decide the path of our hearts

But oh, my true love 

I hope tonight we can cross paths and fall in love in the moonlight. 

In this napkin, I write 

To my true love, oh I

Hope we can be characters of a romance for one night.

But, my love, if you wake beside me after the sunrise 

Then fate and the moon won’t matter 

As long as you kiss me and love me until—

(Sorry, I'm horrible with poetry. I love you. Be my boyfriend?)

Still giggling, Jeongin went to your bed. You were already awake, but he laid beside you and hugged you from behind. You look at him, and before you could do anything, he kisses you deeply. 

"I love you,” he said, seeing you smile at him, but before you kiss him back, he said, brushing his lips on ours, “and yes, I'll be your boyfriend." 

You laughed and closed your eyes. He could see you were embarrassed. “Don’t tell anyone about the poem. It was so bad,” you said as your hands went to your face. He kissed your knuckles and took them off of your face and said, “It was perfect.”

Everyone has secrets. Jeongin has two. One, he loves reading rom-coms. Two, his girlfriend sucks at poetry.

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| 03. HELP ME JUNGWON

growing up, yn and jungwon were inseparable due to their moms being best friends. the public knew them as the ying yang duo since they were born.

jungwon and yn have had their ups and downs but they always stayed friends. they are so close they both ended up choosing the same career path even though they’re still enrolled at alchemy high— which is a school full of idols where they would actually get privacy and a break from the public eye.

it had been a whole week since yn showed up to school due to schedules, a whole week since she’s seen jisung. in that whole week, him and yuna became official. yn was heart broken and she knows jungwon feels a type of way as well.

yuna and jungwon dated for a total of two years before breaking up due to yuna being unfaithful. so, it wasn’t surprising when jungwon found out that yuna and jisung had a little thing behind their backs.

monday 7:30am — alchemy high 2-1 classroom

yn walked into the classroom, she could feel all the eyes on her. the news must’ve gone around that she’s been cheated on.

yn felt her face heat up due to embarrassment, she sat down next to jungwon. he had a warm smile, reassuring her that everything will be fine.

“how are you feeling,” jungwon whispered as he played with her hair.

the girl just sighed and layed her head in between her arms, “i don’t know, everyone knows about what happened and its not the best feeling.”

“i know but you’re strong stop being a pussy,” jungwon replied, snickering.

yn kicked jungwon’s leg, he made a funny face at her that made her snort.

“it just sucks how we have to act like were okay because were public figures.” yn paused, “LIKE WHAT IF I WANT TO CRY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET. I CANT EVEN DO THAT.”

“yn, jungwon, stop talking!” the teacher yelled at the two, making everyone look back at them. the duo nodded and stared blankly at the students.

monday 12:30pm — alchemy high lunch room

“jungwon you remember how you owe me,” yn said as she sipped on her strawberry milk.

jungwon nodded back at her, he was also drinking strawberry milk. the duo were alone since their other friends had class at this time. they all had different lunches.

“we should fake date.” jungwon spit out his milk all over yn’s uniform.

“JUNGWON!”

“dont jungwon me, what do you mean fake date?” jungwon was flabbergasted, he thought yn was out of her mind.

the girl stared at boy, she didn’t want to sound like she was jealous of yuna and jisung but she definitely was.

“because, i want to get back at jisung and yuna.” yn replied, wiping her uniform. “please jungwon, YOU OWE ME AND ITS A FAKE RELATIONSHIP. its not like were going to for real date.”

“okay, say we fake date, then what? there not going to care, at least i don’t think they will.” jungwon replied, “and what about the media, what if someone from our school snitches on us and then we’re all over socials because of our stupid fake relationship. do you really want to risk all that?”

“they will care! jisung used to always be on my ass about you, he was jealous because he always thought we had something going on.” yn put her hands on jungwons shoulders, shaking him. “PLEASE YOU OWE ME. ITS ONLY THIS ONE FAVOR.”

jungwon sighed, “no.”

yn hit jungwon’s shoulder. “you’re such a dickhead—”

“hey guys!” a familiar voice spoke. the two turned their heads at the voice.

“yuna? what do you want?” jungwon spoke, staring at her.

“i just wanted to say hey, you dont need to be so blunt.” yuna crossed her arms. she was very uptight. the only reason why she came here was because she didn’t like the sight of jungwon and yn together alone.

“well if you don’t mind, i’d like to be alone with my boyfriend.” yn said smiling proudly, locking arms with jungwon.

jungwon’s eyes widen, turning his head at yn. she must’ve gone crazy.

“boyfriend?” yuna scoffed as she rolled her eyes.

“yes? is there a problem?” yn fired back, pulling jungwon even closer.

“well then you two have fun.” yuna walked away fuming. she did not expect that at all.

“yn what the fuck, why would you say that,” jungwon unlocked their arms, he became paler than usual. he didn’t think yn was being serious but its not like they can just take back what they said.

“IM SORRY IT JUST CAME OUT,” yn defended, “just go with it please jungwon, YOU OWE ME NO QUESTIONS ASKED ANYWAY!

“fine!” jungwon huffed out.

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ONE FAVOR that yang jungwon owed sato yn. one favor he had to obey by no matter what. jungwon and yn are childhood friends that grew up in front of the media due to their famous parents. luckily for them, they were both talented singers so, they naturally became idols. but, one day jungwon embarrassed yn real bad on live television when they were younger, he owed her big time—no questions asked.

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If Nari Was A Teen Mum

Summary: Brief introduction to if Nari was a Teen Mum while being a Kpop Idol A/N: THIS IS NOT PART OF THE MAIN STORYPLOT OF NARI, THIS IS FROM THE 'What If...' SERIES.

[2014]

“You’re what?” Taeyong exclaimed.

“I said I’m pregnant!” Nari threw the pregnancy test so it landed in front of them as they sat across from each other in the empty practice room. He peered down, seeing the two lines.

Nari was pregnant…

“What…who…why?”

“I was getting stressed recently cuz of the evaluations, you know?” she mumbled quietly, tucking her knees to her chest, holding them firmly. “I met a guy at the convenience store, we started talking…”

“Nari, having sex with strangers shouldn’t be a way to relieve stress!” Taeyong almost shrieked, beginning to panic.

"Yeah, I kinda realise that now!" she exclaimed back, burying her face in her hands. Taeyong's hands flew to his hair, tugging at them roughly.

“Do you have his number?!”

“...yes…”

“And did you contact him?”

“Yeah…”

“And…?”

“He blocked me.”

“Oh, my goodness…” Taeyong sighed, rubbing his face with his hands. “We’re going to be debuting soon…what will we do?”

“We?” Nari lifted her head up from staring at the floor. “What do you mean, ‘we’?”

“What, you think I’m going to leave you alone with this problem?” he frowned.

“I mean…”

“Why did you tell me this in the first place, if you weren’t looking for help?”

“Because you’re my best friend…” she replied quietly.

“Right,” he nodded firmly, “And best friends help each other in anything. I’ll help you with this.”

“You don’t have to, it’s my fault -”

“True friends don’t leave the other alone in their struggles, true friends help each other out no matter what,” He grabbed her hands in his, rubbing the back of them as she sniffled. “We’ll be okay,” he promised, “We’ll figure something out with the others. Together.”

[Late 2014]

“He looks so adorable!” Johnny cooed as he gently cradled the tiny infant in his arms, Mark peered over his shoulder out of curiosity and awe. Nari smiled tiredly from her place on the hospital bed, leaning on Taeyong’s side who sat beside her.

“Good,” she grunted, “I popped him out of me, you have better said he looks good or else -”

“He’s adorable, don’t worry Noona!” Mark assured quickly. Nari smiled proudly.

“I see more of you in him than the douche of the father -”

“I know you guys don’t like the father, but don’t say bad words in front of my son,” Nari giggled, cutting the American off from his sentence. “Thanks for being at my side throughout the nine months, though, guys.”

“Of course, we will!” Doyoung chided from the other side of Johnny, lightly resting his chin on Johnny’s shoulder to gaze at the sleeping baby. “We’re family.”

“Despite the situation, we’re very happy about this new addition,” Jaehyun added in, holding his hands out eagerly to have his turn of holding the baby.

“I’m surprised SM has been supporting you in this,” Jisung commented, everyone agreeing instantly.

“They know you’re too talented to be kicked out,” Donghyuck bragged.

“Is this your way of trying to become the godfather?” Doyoung accused.

“No!” the younger member protested. And then after a short pause, “Is it working?”

“See? We’re going to be fine,” Taeyong murmured to the Teen Mum as they watched the others fight for the ‘godfather’ role. “We’re going to protect you and the baby for the rest of our lives.”

“Thank you, Taeyong, really,” she whispered, grabbing his hand to squeeze lightly. “I wouldn’t have been able to do this without you.”

“Anything for you,” He leaned down to press a kiss to her forehead, Nari leaning into it with her eyes closing instantly in bliss - the two oblivious of the feelings they had for each other.

[A Few Years Later]

Balancing motherhood and idol life was difficult at first, but as time went on, it became easier.

At first, Nari would bring her child wherever she went, and her mother - even other members’ mothers - would come and help look after the baby. So, when it came to debuting and performing, Nari’s child was in many safe hands.

And in a way, after having her baby, Nari was more motivated to do well for her and her baby’s future even though she already had enough money in her family to help them - but as a mother, Nari wanted to support her son by herself than depend on people.

The challenging part was telling basically the whole world that she began life as a single mother at the age of 19.

Many people judged her and criticised her for becoming a single young mother, some people even demanded she should be kicked out of SM for being ‘irresponsible’. Despite people’s demands, nothing happened, and she continued to debut in 2016 with NCT.

As a way to get people to warm up to her somewhat, Nari would sometimes feature her child in some content - only in content that she was comfortable with. For example, when filming behind the scenes for music videos, or recording their songs, Nari would always be seen bringing her child to the set with one of the many mother figures in her life to help look after the adorable infant. Also in the videos, you would see her along with other members of NCT coddling her child with love.

Basically, Nari’s child became the new addition to the SM family, because even their sunbaenims would occasionally mention her and her baby - sometimes even be featured in videos together. Everyone could see that they were ALL a family.

One thing that caught people’s attention, however, was how much of a parent duo Nari and Taeyong were especially. In most content, it would be just Nari and Taeyong looking after the baby. It even began some rumours: was Taeyong the father, since Nari never revealed who the father was? It didn’t help that there were some similar characteristics of Taeyong that could be seen in the baby somehow. But nonetheless, Nari never spoke about the father, and never confirmed nor denied the rumours around Taeyong.

Out of all rumours and scandals Taeyong received in his life, this was the only scandal he didn’t mind too much. He rather saw it as people complimenting him for being such a good father figure. He didn’t care about the people’s opinions when it came to Nari and the baby, he was glad to be in her and the baby’s life.

Taeyong helped so much to the point that if Nari wasn’t around, her baby would only be calm and comfortable if he was in Taeyong’s arms. If neither Nari or Taeyong were present, the baby wouldn’t be happy. Taeyong meant that much in their life.

It took a few years, but eventually, most of the fans have grown to love the new addition - it’s not like they had a choice anyway. It got to the point that the two members were nicknamed, ‘The Parents’.

They did have an important conversation though.

Because as years went by, they began to discuss the little one’s future - education, career, lifestyle, etc. But what was the most important conversation was what Nari’s child would call Taeyong - because let’s be honest, he has been there from the beginning, helping in everything before and after the pregnancy. Taeyong was an important person in their life, and the baby was beginning to see Taeyong as the father figure in his life.

“I mean, he’s already accidentally called me Dad a few times,” Taeyong shrugged. “I don’t mind being called it by him, to be honest.”

“Are you sure?” Nari bit her lip nervously. “I know you’ve done a lot for me and him, but if you’re uncomfortable about it -”

“I really don’t mind, Nari,” he assured her, reaching across the table to hold her hands. “I actually really like it that he’s seeing me as a father figure to him. I’m basically that to him, right?”

“Right,” Nari gave in. She squeezed his hands gently. “Taeyong, you have no idea how grateful to have you in our life. You’ve helped me so much…”

“Well, I had some practice with my nephew,” Taeyong shrugged casually. “Anything for you, Nari, really.” They were silent for a while. “The two of you mean a lot to me. Life isn’t complete without the two of you.” Although Taeyong didn’t confess directly, the two of them knew what he meant.

“Life isn’t complete without you, too.”

[2020]

SuperM were absolutely smitten throughout their hello82 interview with the kids, as it was not only cute, but it made some of them think of a certain child they knew personally.

Taeyong smiled gently as he waved goodbye to Baby Kai, his thoughts wandering to two people that meant the most to him.

“Hyung, he was so adorable, right?” Mark interrupted his thoughts. “He reminded me of Noona’s kid!” Nari perked up at the mention of her son.

“Ah,” Baekhyun sighed, hearing their conversation. “That kid is adorable.”

“Expected from the adorable mother,” Taemin agreed. He quickly looked to the NCT leaders with his hands raised in surrender. “I don’t mean it in that way…”

“It’s okay, hyung!” Taeyong laughed, hiding his face in embarrassment while Nari facepalmed at their sunbaenim.

“Okay, the last person!” the staff member called out. The members looked at one another surprised.

“Oh, one more?” Ten repeated. “I thought we were -”

“APPA! EOMMA”

“SHOI-MING!” Taeyong almost squealed with Nari, hopping out of their seat to swoop the six-year-old in his arms, making the toddler giggle. The other members hopped out of their seats with screams of joy, greeting the toddler as well.

“Yo, Shoi-Ming!” Mark cheered, ruffling the boy’s long chin-length hair. “What are you doing here?”

“To do what the other kids did, of course!” Taeyong’s mother’s voice came from behind the camera, eventually revealing herself with a grin. “Surprise!” Taeyong’s mother grinned, walking up to the young parents to press a chaste kiss on their cheek in greeting.

“Good surprise,” Taeyong giggled, pressing kisses all over Shoi-Ming’s face, making him laugh out loud that had the others join in as well.

“Was the flight here okay?” Nari asked Taeyong’s mother worriedly, running a hand through her son’s hair.

“It was fine, don’t worry,” Taeyong’s mother assured the younger mother. “Shoi-Ming was well-behaved on the plane.”

“That’s good!” Nari grinned, kissing her son’s cheek loudly to make him laugh again.

“Let’s have him show the questions!” Taemi suggested, all of them getting back to their seats, Taeyong’s mother retreating back behind the camera. Instead of sitting on the designated chair, Shoi-Ming was sitting on Taeyong’s lap while holding onto the giant sketchbook that held the questions.

“Mingie!” Ten called out the boy’s nickname. “Can you show us the question?”

“Jjang!” the boy cheered, flipping the book to their question. They all cooed and cheered for him.

“What is it like looking after Shoi-Ming?” Mark read out. They all oohed.

“To be honest, we only play with him most of the time,” Kai answered after a few seconds of thinking. “I think maybe once or twice I’ve ever looked after him? And it wasn’t much, just holding him in my arms and making sure he didn’t run off or do something he was not supposed to. But he’s a good boy! He doesn’t do anything bad!”

“Although,” Baekhyun recalled with a small shiver. “There was that time when Shoi-Ming wouldn’t accept to be held by anyone except Nari and Taeyong,”

“Oh yeah!” Taemin exclaimed. “It was like when he was maybe a few months old? When he was one?”

“He’s used to being around only Nari and Taeyong so when he sees us, he didn’t like it - would have a big tantrum if either of them left the room,” Baekhyun remembered. “That’s when we really believed the nickname ‘The Parents’ for Taeyong and Nari. Like, me, Kai, and Taemin, we didn’t really see it until we started working with them.”

“Yeah, they’re officially the parents in SM,” Ten snickered.

“Ey…” was all Taeyong could say, burying his face in Shoi-Ming’s hair while Nari smiled shyly.

They moved to the next question.

“What is the meaning of Shoi-Ming’s name?”

“It means ‘life of sunshine’, or ‘light up your world’,” Nari answered proudly. “It was when I was a few months in on the pregnancy and wasn’t feeling well mentally because of criticism and the hardships. So I spoke with Taeyong and the others and realised that after nine months, everything will be okay because Shoi-Ming will light up our world, he will be the life of sunshine for me.”

“Wow…” everyone murmured.

“And it’s true,” Taeyong supported, ruffling the boy’s hair. “He really brings light to us all.” Nari beamed at his words, kissing her boyfriend's cheek quickly.

And then the final question.

“How would Taeyong feel about adopting Shoi-Ming officially?” Mark read out in English, freezing and choking on air as he processed the question. The others who didn’t understand looked at Mark confused. Ten’s mouth was gaped open, looking between the NCT leader and the mother of Shoi-Ming with wide eyes.

Nari smiled sheepishly, though nodded encouragingly.

“Uh, hyung,” Mark cleared his throat. “The question is, uh, how would you feel about adopting Shoi-Ming officially?”

“Eh?” Taeyong peered down at the sketchbook in the boy’s hand, slowly reading the question and spotting that the username was NCT 127′s account. He looked up quickly, connecting his eyes with Nari’s glassy ones. “Nari?”

“I thought about it a lot,” she mumbled, grabbing her son when he held his arms out for her. “And I spoke with Shoi-Ming and your family and mine, and well…” Nari accepted the folder Taeyong’s mother gave to her, [OFFICIAL ADOPTION PAPERS] stamped on the front. “What do you think?”

“Appa?” Shoi-Ming looked up at his father figure innocently.

Taeyong sniffed, trying to blink away his tears of joy as he leaned towards Nari and pulled her into a passionate kiss as his answer. Everyone around them started cheering and clapping, and Baekhyun yelled, “FINALLY, THE TITLE OF THEM BEING PARENTS IS OFFICIAL-OFFICIAL!”

“Are you sure?” Taeyong sniffled. “I mean, what if I’m not a good father -”

“I think you’ve been doing well the past six years, no?” Nari giggled at the sight of her excited and nervous boyfriend, pressing a quick kiss to his lips before focusing on their son. “How about it, Mingie? You want Taeyong to officially be your Dad?”

“APPA!” Shoi-Ming cheered, wrapping his arms around Taeyong’s neck to bring the older man into a cute hug.

“I will do my best to become the greatest father for him, I promise,” Taeyong vowed, looking deep into Nari’s eyes. “I won’t let you down, I promise,”

“I know,” Nari smiled, leaning her forehead against his. “I know…”

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I Like The View Chapter 2

Summary: Minho and Felix both want to get a cat to have in the dorm. Hyunjin and Seungmin want to get a dog. Jeongin, Changbin, and Jisung don’t really care, they just want a pet. Bang Chan isn’t sure about either idea as he doesn’t see them having the time to take care of a pet. However, can Bang Chan resist the idea of a pet, or well a hybrid, when the cute little bunny hybrid stands before him? 

Disclaimer: In this fic, none of the members have their pets. So, Hyunjin doesn’t have Kkami, Minho doesn’t have his cats, and so on. They have had pets when they were young but now they don’t hence why they want to get one.  They all live in the same dorm but they all have a room of their own, so they don’t share a bedroom with anyone else. 

Warnings: mentions of bruises, mention of past abuse (not exactly how but mentions like ‘she’s probably been abused based on her behavior’), mentions of cuts,

Wordcount: ≈ 4.3k 

Chapter 1, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7,

As (y/n) heard someone raise their voice she became worried for the nice, handsome man who had helped her so she left the room to find another man with an upset look on his face starring at Minho. She had heard his words and she didn’t want him get in trouble so she ran to stand in front of Minho, with teary eyes. Bang Chan was stunned as he now saw the bunny ears on the girls head and the bruises on her cheeks. Minho hadn’t brought home a random girl, he had rescued a hybrid... 

(Y/n) was shaking in fear as she was afraid that the man in front of her would do something to harm either her or Minho. The tears began running down her cheeks but no sound left her mouth. “Please… please don’t hurt him,” Bang Chan’s heart clenched with sympathy at the hybrid’s words. Minho stood up from the couch and walked around (Y/n) to calm her down. “hey hey, no one’s going to hurt anyone. (Y/n), this is Bang Chan my hyung and the leader of the idol group I’m a member of that I told you about. He was just upset with me because I had brought someone with me to the dorm, we’re not supposed to do that, but he won’t hurt me or you,” “Oh, and Bang Chan-hyung this is (Y/n)... A hurt bunny hybrid I found yesterday,” Minho gave Chan an innocent smile. “Okay, you are going to explain this to us all. So while I go wake everyone up, you fix some breakfast because I’m pretty sure our guest is hungry and so are the rest of the guys gonna be as well,” Chan gave Minho and (Y/n) a tender smile before he turned around to walk to the other rooms and waking everyone up. 

Minho brought (Y/n) with him to the kitchen and prepared some breakfast. (Y/n) didn’t know what to do, no one had ever cooked food for her. Or cared for her the way that Minho did. “What should I do?” (Y/n) asked a little timidly, she’s used to having her owners telling her what to do but Minho had said nothing. “Oh? You don’t need to do anything, you’re covered in bruises and cuts and those must hurt. So, just rest for now. Oh, and don’t be startled when the others come in here, we’re kind of known for being very loud,” (Y/n) was waiting for Minho to suddenly stop smiling and start screaming at her, but he only continued cooking. Suddenly slight yelling could be heard from the living room along with some stumping. (Y/n) flinched at the sound but it went unnoticed by Minho as he had his back turned to the bunny hybrid. 

“YAAA! GIVE IT BACK!” “NO WAY!” “HYUNG!!” (Y/n) had no idea who the voices belonged to but even though they were screaming it sounded more like friendly banter. “That’s just Jeongin, our maknae, and Hyunjin one of our… I would usually say idiots but I guess I’ll just call him a chaotic member. This is a normal morning, my guess is that Hyunjin has taken Innie’s phone,” (Y/n) couldn’t help but feel a tugging sensation on the corners of her mouth as she did her best to surpress the smile that laid on the edge of her lips. The twitching of her mouth didn’t go unnoticed by Minho though and he himself couldn’t help the smile that accross his face at the cute action of the bunny hybrid. “Will they be upset too? With me being here? I don’t want to cause any trouble for you because you saved me and I would hate to cause discomfort for you or anyone else and if you have to kick me out it would be okay you saved me once and I am used to being abandoned so I wouldn’t hold it against you and I-” “NO NO, no. Don’t say anything else, we are not just gonna kick you out and it’s never okay to just abandon someone, especially someone in need of help. Bang Chan is the oldest, he’s the leader, he worries about everything that’s why he was a little upset. I’m the second oldest so that’s why he was a little extra upset with me as he didn’t expect me to be the one to take such a big risk. The rest will be thrilled for you to be here, they will ask a lot of questions, especially: ‘can we keep her? Please’, they will whine and beg until Chan-hyung agrees and says that we can. So, no they won’t be upset,” As Minho imitated the younger members he made his voice high pitch and made a funny face that made (Y/n) let a soft and genuine smile spread across her slightly dry lips. A detail that Minho just noticed. She must be dehydrated, Minho thought. He immediately brought out a cold water bottle from the fridge, opened it, and handed it over to (Y/n). “Here, you must be thirsty,” The bunny hybrid carefully took the bottle from Minho’s hands, and then she drank a few gulps. The sensation of finally drinking water, clean water was so quenching of the thirst she had suppressed that she began gulping the water like a child who hadn’t seen water for a week. Except she wasn’t a child, she was a hybrid but she hadn’t seen clean and fresh water in over a week. “Easy, there (Y/n)-ah, we have more water don’t worry,” At Minho’s words (Y/n) calmed her drinking down but she finished the water bottle quite quickly but somehow she still felt thirsty. (Y/n) didn’t understand why she had drunk more water now during these five minutes than she has during a week or two combined, so how come she was still so thirsty? Maybe because this was the most she’s been drinking in over two weeks… Minho noticed her disbelieving look as her eyes darted from the empty bottle in her hand to himself, she wasn’t sure if she could ask for another bottle or anything at all. Minho walked over to the fridge and took out another bottle before he walked back to the bunny hybrid, stretching his arm out to hand the bottle over to her. “Here, you can have as much water as you want. Drink calmly though, so you don’t end up making yourself sick. If you want more water, don’t hesitate to ask me or any of the others,” Minho was surprised with himself, he wasn’t usually this caring. He does care about others, of course, but he usually didn’t show it like this. He’s someone who cares about others through subtle actions, like buying snacks for everyone - without saying anything, he just refills the pantry - the thing he does that’s most obvious that he cares is when he helps the other members if they are struggling with a dance move. Minho only ever showed this much emotion to his cats that he had when he was younger. Do I care because she’s part bunny? Or do I care because I think she’s cute? Definitely the bunny thing, it has to be… Lee Minho you cannot tell anyone that you think (y/n) is cute… A few minutes later the food was ready to be served. The door to the kitchen opened and another boy walked in, one (Y/n) had never seen. The boy was below average height, he was dressed in a pair of light-washed ripped jeans paired with a white t-shirt as well as a purple cardigan, he had dyed blonde hair, the detail that really caught (Y/n)’s eyes though were the freckles. The boy’s face was painted like a starry night sky except the stars were freckles. This boy was breathtakingly beautiful. Minho was as well but this boy was like an angel, (Y/n) had never seen someone who looked so soft, so nice. A soft and gentle smile rested on his lips but it quickly turned into a bright, inviting smile as his eyes landed on (Y/n). “Hi, I’m Felix,” His voice was very deep and as it was unexpected (Y/n) slightly flinched, Felix felt a little hurt but he understood. He knew his voice could be scary, especially to someone who probably has been abused. “I’m sorry if my voice scared you, I didn’t mean to do that,” Felix tried to reassure who bunny who had stepped a little closer to Minho after hearing Felix introducing himself. “(Y/n), Felix might sound scary but he’s a soft baby. He loves hugs and he finds any and every excuse to have skinship with someone. But, he’s also my favorite of the maknae line because he reminds me of a cat I used to have when I was younger,” “Hey, I’m not a cat,” “You purr if someone plays with your hair,” “Okay, I give up. At least I’m your favorite,” “Yeah, yeah. Now help me bring all this food out,” “Haha,” A short and soft giggle left (Y/n)’s mouth as she saw the interaction between the two dancers who both whipped their heads in her direction as the sound left her mouth. She looked down at the floor, worried she had done something wrong, “I’m sorry!” “(Y/n), I told you. No one’s going to hurt you. You’re allowed to laugh, laughing is good,” “Yeah, we laugh at a lot of things in this group. And even if some of us can come off as intimidating we are all super soft inside. I mean, Minho-hyung is the most intimidating of us all and he’s being super soft with you, so you have nothing to worry about,” The two boys gave her kind smiles as she lifted her head and met their eyes. “Thank you,” She whispered but the dancers heard her and just nodded in acknowledgment. The two boys carried out the food that Minho had made, (Y/n) followed behind them out into the living room where six other boys were sitting down either talking or using their phones. “Breakfast is here, but before anyone starts eating I have someone to introduce, the rest of the explaining will be done as we start eating,” Everyone looked up as they heard the voice of the dancer, even though Minho wasn’t the leader of the group he still had an aura of authority so everyone listened to him. Minho is after all dance leader in the team, as Chan has said before he might be the leader but he doesn’t do it alone. He has Minho who takes care of the dancing, Changbin who always helps with the rapping, and all the other members who help out where they can and where they are needed. They are a team, they don’t do anything alone they help each other. And this time, Minho was kind of hoping that they would extend this sense of family to the timid bunny hybrid who was hiding behind him. “Everyone, this is (Y/n), (Y/n) this is Bang Chan who you have already met, Changbin who’s the shortest of us, -” A huff was emitted from the guy that Minho pointed to as he said the comment about height, it made (Y/n) smile a little though she was scared as Minho moved a little so he no longer covered her. “Hyunjin who’s the tallest and one of the ones who were shouting earlier, Jisung who’s a little shy sometimes, Felix who you’ve also already met, Seungmin our dandy boy and finally, Jeongin the youngest and another one who was screaming earlier,” Seungmin gave a disapproving look to Minho after his introductions of the boys. The boys all let ut a chorus of hi, hey, and hellos to the bunny hybrid who shyly waved to them in return, accompanied by a timid “hello,”. “(Y/n), come and sit down and eat. But don’t eat too much, it will give you a stomach-ache seeing as you have been without food for a while,” The bunny hybrid followed the man who had been her savior, the one she trusted the most right now. Felix being second, although she had only met him 3 minutes earlier than the others, except for Bang Chan, she found herself having warmed up to the freckled boy as he had a calming aura to him. She sat down as close as she could to Minho without touching him, but close enough to feel safe in his presence, slightly shielded from the others. And so as they ate, Minho explained how he had found her. He made sure to emphasize that he found her littered with bruises and cuts, that she was dirty, dehydrated, and weak. He did everything he could to awaken sympathy in the other boys. No one else said anything, they only ate and thought about what to do. 

Once everyone had eaten what they wanted and now felt full, the boys knew they needed to have a meeting to speak about what to do with the bunny hybrid. The only problem right now was having said bunny hybrid in the room with them. “(Y/n), do you want to take a nice and relaxing bath? You were apparently dirty yesterday and even if you’ve showered, taking a bath can help with just feeling cleaner even though you already are clean. Also, now after having a meal it might be nice for your muscles and your body to relax a little,” It was Felix’s idea and so he introduced it to the hybrid. “Yeah, baths are super nice. You can borrow more soft and fluffy clothes from some of us, Felix can show you around and you can pick out any clothing you want to borrow. Okay?” Minho gave Felix a look that literally said ‘this is why you are my favorite,’ and then he turned to the bunny hybrid who was giving him a curious look. She did love the sweater and the sweatpants Minho had given her yesterday, she had never worn anything so soft before. “I’ve never taken a bath before, only cold showers as it’s a waste of warm water to use it on a hybrid. That’s what I’ve always been told,” All boys gave her sad looks as she told them a little of her past. Minho gave himself a mental note that he needed to tell the others about what (Y/n) had said in the kitchen, about her being used to being abandoned and her tendency to flinch when they moved, she was obviously used to being beaten. “Warm baths are really nice, I think you would like it,” This time it was the boy who Minho had pointed at lastly during the introductions, the maknae, Jeongin, who spoke. He gave her a bright smile and (Y/n) found the boy endearing, his facial features were sharp and he resembled a fox hybrid she had met before, a desert fox hybrid to be exact. Although he resembled a predator (Y/n) found herself warming up to him as well because of his smile and bubbly aura. Maybe she could really trust all of them. “Then, I would like to try one please,” Felix stood up from his spot on the couch and walked over to (Y/n), he stretched out his hand carefully to her. “If you want, you can hold onto my hand while I show you around. But if you don’t want to then that’s okay,” He gave her a beaming smile and (Y/n) couldn’t resist the urge, the want, to hold his hand. To feel the warmth of someone who wasn’t out to hurt her. To feel the touch of someone who was kind. Minho had held her hand the night before but this time she was offered the skinship on her own terms, she had the power to decide something for the first time in forever. She slowly stretched her arm out and put her hand into Felix’s hand, it was soft, warm, and small but still bigger than hers. She was given an even big smile from the freckled boy in return. “Okay, let’s go pick out some clothes then I’ll help you with the bathtub,” And so they were off exploring the dorm. The others busied themselves with cleaning up as they waited for Felix to return. 

Felix showed (Y/n) around the dorm before heading into the rooms to check the closets. He began with his one, he opened the doors and drawers for where he kept t-shirts, hoodies, cardigans, and sweaters. (Y/n) looked around, she found herself being drawn towards a fluffy beige hoodie. She reached her hands out to the hoodie because she wanted to feel if it was as fluffy as it looked. It was fluffier than she thought. “Do you like that one?” (Y/n) had almost forgotten that Felix was standing beside her as she was so focused on the heavenly beige hoodie. “Yeah,” (Y/n) gave a little nod of her head as she let out the soft answer, Felix found the action endearing seeing her long black bunny ears flop as she nodded her head. “Do you want to wear that one then? It’s one of my personal favorites for the winter period. It’s so warm, fluffy, and cozy. I think it would look cute on you,” Felix took a hold of the hoodie and took it out of the closet, he held it in front of him to show the full thing to the bunny hybrid. “I shouldn’t if it’s your favorite… what if I ruin it?” (Y/n) looked down and shook her head, her voice laced with worry and sadness. Once again, Felix found himself focusing on her ears flopping left to right as she shook her head. “Don’t worry about it, the hoodie would survive an apocalypse. I’ve spilled many things on it and then just thrown it into the washing machine and once I’ve taken it out the stains have all been gone. I think it might be magical actually,” His last attempt at a joke made the bunny hybrid giggle. Felix’s eyes were drawn to the little smile spreading on her face, it was bright. Filled with hope. His heart skipped a beat. (Y/n) was so cute, so beautiful. How could someone have treated her so badly? She was lovely. How come others couldn’t see that? “(Y/n), if you want to wear the hoodie than you can borrow it. And I promise you that even if you managed to somehow ruin it then I won’t be mad, besides I can buy a new one if something happens to this one but I don’t think anything will happen,” (Y/n) carefully took a hold of the hoodie and as Felix let go of it she brought it up to her nose and sniffed at it a little. Its sent consisted of a mix of brownies, a flowery detergent, an earthy perfume, and Felix’s natural scent. The scent brought her a feeling of safety, the scent had a homey feeling to it. “Thank you,” (Y/n) lifted her head and met Felix’s eyes for the first time, Felix saw many emotions swirling around in her beautiful (e/c) eyes. Fear and uncertainty being the main ones but he also noticed happiness as she seemed to have found comfort in Stray Kids’ dorm. “Alright, well if you see nothing more you would like to borrow from me then let’s go to the next room,” Felix turned around to leave the room and (Y/n) hurried after him, she jogged to catch up with him and as soon as she reached him she took a hold of his hand. It was bold. Something she wouldn’t do with anyone, not even someone she’s known for a year or more but something about Felix, Minho and all the others just made her feel safe. Felix gave her a beaming smile as she took his hand. Once again, his heart skipped a beat. He continued showing her around in the rooms and she ended up borrowing a pair of sweatpants from Jeongin. Jeongin’s room was the second one she went into and at first she didn’t pick anything but as they went into more rooms she kept thinking back to the sweatpants. So once she had checked everything she went back to Jeongin’s room and took the sweatpants. Felix then brought her to a bathroom, it wasn’t the same one she had showered in the previous night because in this one stood a fairly large bathtub. Felix showed her how everything worked and also put out some bath bubbles, shampoo, conditioner, and everything that she might want to use. “Okay, that should be everything. I’ll hand the towel here so you should reach it from the tub but I’ll also lay this smaller one on the floor so you don’t slip when you get out of the tub. And, if you need anything just shout and Minho-hyung or I will come help you. Okay?” (Y/n) looked down at the floor and gave Felix a tiny nod as answer to his question. Felix gave her a quick hug before he walked out of the bathroom, (Y/n) was stunned. Felix hugged her. Felix himself didn’t think much of it as he usually gave people hugs but he realized what he had done as he reach the living room where the others were waiting for him. (Y/n) shook of the shock as she realized that she didn’t hate the feeling of the hug, it had been nice, comforting. She almost wishes that the hug had lasted for longer than just a second or two. (Y/n) then did as Felix had instructed and began filling the bathtub with warm water. 

In the living room the Stray Kids members where ready to hold their meeting. “Alright, Minho. Shoot, give us the rundown of the situation” Bang Chan handed the word over to Minho quickly as they didn’t know for how long (Y/n) would stay in the bathtub. “Well, yesterday on our way home I heard some noises and then I thought I heard someone calling for help and I felt the need to check it out but I didn’t want to bother you guys about it so that’s why I told you to head home. Once I found where the call for help was coming from I found (Y/n). She was shivering in the cold, she was littered with bruises, cuts and dirt. She was terrified of me at first but I managed to calm her down and I took her with me here. From the way she acted and looked yesterday along with how she reacted this morning I think it’s pretty obvious that she’s been abused. She also said something in the kitchen earlier that I’m still trying to understand. She said that she’s used to being abandoned so it wouldn’t hurt too badly if we did too. She was so worried about causing discomfort for any of us with her being here. I just, I couldn’t let her stay out there in the cold and if we can’t keep her here I’ll try check if my parents can adopt her,” Minho gave them all a quick rundown of everything that had happened. “You really care about her don’t you?” “Yes, hyung. I do, I know it’s weird,” “Minho-ah it’s not weird. We know you care about us and many people. Okay guys, here’s what I’m thinking. We talked about getting a pet a while ago and I said that I didn’t think it was a good idea. A hybrid isn’t a pet in the same sense that a cat or a dog is but for people like us it is easier to adopt a hybrid for company than an actual pet. When we go on tour we can bring her with us, we can bring her to the company, it won’t be as hard for us to take care of a hybrid as it would be with a dog. If any fans notice her we can just say that we adopted her for two reasons: 1. emotional support and 2. to help someone in need of a home get one. So let’s vote. Everyone in favor of us adopting her, if she wants that of course, raise your hands. Anyone against the idea, don’t raise your hand.” Bang Chan explained his take on the situation, how had he not thought of a hybrid earlier? It would solve their endless dispute on the topic of pets. And so they counted to three before raising their hands, Bang Chan counted. “1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9? Jisung even if you raise two hands only one will be counted and besides everyone are holding their hands up so you don’t need to try and make up for anyone who would have been against the idea,” “Sorry hyung, I got a little too excited,” “Well, I guess we better talk to her then and ask if she wants to stay with us,” After their little meeting they all began talking about other things. Minho went over to Felix and sat down beside him, “Thank you for taking care of her Lixie,” “No worries hyung, she’s so sweet. I don’t understand how anyone could have been mean to her,” “Neither do I, but if she stays with us. We can protect her and make sure nothing more can harm her,” As their conversation came to end the boys heard the door to the bathroom open and so they all got ready to ask (Y/n) if she wanted to stay with them. ~ to be continued ~

[sailorhyunjinz]

Do you write yandere? If so, can I request skz yandere headcanons on how they would react when S/O rejects them because she doesn't wanna deal with whole drama that would come with dating an idol?

i mean kinda?? i have a seungmin yandere fic in my drafts sooo BUT YEAH

oh also, requests are not open but im just gonna do this one cause headcanons are kinda fun BUT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED <33

also why is the felix one so short-

Warnings; yandere!skz, rejection, k-dnapping, slight gaslightning or like manipulation, restraints, threats, aggression, mentions of masturbation, stockholm syndrome

Chan

nobody rejects him. nobody.

you two were friends from school and you were sooo happy when chan made it as an idol, finally persuing the dream he had been yapping on about for years. 

but in the midst of that he realized that he had feelings for you, he missed you all the time, just wanting to hang out with you and maybe explore the things he had on his mind. so,, he decided to confess when you guys were at a cafe.

“look y/n,,, there’s something I wanna tell you” he started to which you tilted your head

“nooo,,, are you guys going on a tour again,,, i wil miss you sooo much channie” you said with a pout but the boy shook his head.

“i like you y/n” 

your mouth stood agape, this was not what you expected and truthfully,,, not what you wanted. 

“chan,,, y-you know thats not possible” you said with a frown, looking at him straight ahead.

“of course it is,,, why wouldn’t it be? w-what are you trying to say y/n?!” his voice started growing louder, you looking around in order to see that people werent turning their heads towards your table. 

Minho

you have made a big big mistake my friend- 

wont even hesitate to keep you hostage in his basement LIKE IM NOT JOKING-

might just tie you up and like,,, not even do anything to you, just talk to you and admire you, maybe tracing your facial features and cuddle closer on the cold floor

just wants to keep you as a pet or smth and you are scared out of your mind cause you cant move cause of the restraints, you cant speak because you have silvertape across your lips that he only removes to feed you but if you start screaming you wont get any so you deicde to just stay calm and quiet before someone saves you and play along. 

i mean you do,,, kinda fall for him but you know you cant,, but you cant help but to fall for him and miss him whenever he’s out on schedule things

he always returns to you and you get so happy when you see the little crevice of light from outside when he opened the basement door

whenever he lies next to you, you put your head against his shoulder and take in his scent the best you can

he told you everyday that he would let you go if you agreed to date him but you shook your head,, maybe cause you liked being his prey. 

Changbin

he’s more of the threatening type of yandere,,, like,, not that he’s violent but if you try to block his number he will create new ones and keep on sending you messages about how you have betrayed him and how he wished that you loved him back and all that,,,,

you guys often meet because you go to the same college and are students in the same department sooo,,,, avoiding him is pretty impossible 

he stares a lot at you,,, you guys have a couple of classes together and he just stares the entire time, his eyes are just filled with revenge, he somehow wants you make you his, own you but he doesnt know how yet, for now he can just look.

watch this fucking message conversation just be this;

[why did you talk to him during class?]

[you could have just asked me]

[nobody loves you like i do. no one y/n]

you are never getting rid of him basically,,

he’s gonna get to you first ;))

Hyunjin

i feel like he goes more to the stalking route than the kidnapping and drugging and whatnot- 

ok,,, you rejected him,,, but that doesnt mean you’re getting rid of him.

ohmygod what if he turns into a peeping tom- cause he obviously knows where you live. 

like yall were not even that close?? he just saw you backstage at one of the concerts and thought you looked good so he decided to go up to, you werent an idol so no problem he thought.

but he gets a bit too,, hasty with his decisions and often falls for people randomly and so when he politely greeted you and gave you his number you simply shook your head, explaining that this wouldn’t be possible since you worked in the same industry and you needed to stay clear out of any scandals in order to keep your job. 

no was not answer in Hyunjins mind. 

luckily he managed to catch your full name by flickering through some papers in an office and also saw your full adress there, knowing exactly what he was going to do on his free time. 

Jisung

if im being completely honest,,, i have no idea-

like,,, he gives me kinda pervy yandere vibes,,,

what if youre like his ex before he became an idol and now he wants to get back together with you-

oh,,, he masturbates to your pictures-

i feel like he always thinks about you, wondering what you like and wants to write songs about you but he doesnt do much-

but when he finds out that you have been hired by the same company as him to work as a like,,, economics accountant thingy he is all of a sudden vEEERY interested-

always asking the manager of when the group will have meetings with the accounting team,,, although they had nothing to do with them-

he just wanted to be in a conference room with you (and think pervy things about you in your tight office skirt and white blouse)

you went to the toilet on day and you saw him lurking around the same floor,,, WHICH ONCE AGAIN WAS NOT CONNECTED TO THE GROUP AT ALL- 

and idk,,, probably sneaks in with you and locks the door before you even react that theres someone else in the toilet- 

i feel like he’s pretty mild,,, but when he’s alone with you he is aggressive broooo

probably pins you to the wall and threatens you or smth along those lines,,,,,

(writing this is what my life has become to-)

Felix

“what do you think you’re doing?”

you turn around again, you had just thought of just leaving with a vague answer to his question but he was not having it. 

“answer.” 

his words sounded cold, his dark voice making an entrace, the exact one you’ve heard on many of the songs you listened to.

“felix,,, you have to understand,,, u-um,, if we date theres gonna be some issues” you said but he just stared at you with cocky eyebrows and a dark gaze, running his tongue on the inside of his cheek.

“do you think i care? would i ask you if i cared?” he said to which you shook your head automatically, what more could you do?

“you get until tomorrow to think and if i don’t get the answer i want well,,, we’ll see what i’ll do to you.”

Seungmin

he plots shit behind your back yk?

he’s more of the sneaky type of yanderes (oop spoiler to a fic heh)

like he makes this like fucking year long plan where the objective of the mission is to make you obssessed with him-

he starts kinda subtely,,, first its going to the same gym as you and like,,, knowing where you placed your stuff

and then he starts putting small notes like under your waterbottle when you went to grab something that say like “i think youre cute, call me” and then his number

you obviously dont react,,, because why the fuck would you contact a stranger at the gym 

BUT THEN you realize that its him, its mf kim seungmin. yo,,,, u didnt know he went to this gym,,, that was not,,, the best-

of course you got a bit interested,,, you wanted to know how he was off camera,,, like just in his everyday life and i meeean,,, he was attractive but obviously you should stay away bc,,, he’s a celebrity but seungmin didnt want to stay away

he notes somehow started to get more aggressive,,, suddenly being like “why are you ignoring me?” and such,,,

and one night you were left alone in the gym with him,,, it was sooo quiet, only the sounds of your strained breaths as you lifted a dumbell

here where the plan came to play ;))

Jeongin

he’s obsessed with you and you are not going anywhere, even if you rejected him. 

he’s more clingy?? LIKE HE WILL NOT LEAVE YOU

ok sure,, he falls more into the stalking category too,,, 

also veeeery much a obssessed kinda yandere,,, like his mind is not thinking about how to like capture you,,, more about how to make you soooo comfortable and fool you into loving him despite the circumstances?

i just imagine that you work in a cafe and jeongin often meets you there when he buys coffee and you are already in awe when you see fucking yang jeongin enter the coffee shop on your shift but you were even more excited when he leaves his phone number on a napkin and slides it over the counter before leaving. 

you thought about it,,, contemplating multiple times but,,, you decided it would be best not to since well,,, safety purposes 

but he would visit you and every day his face got more and more perplexed cause he wondered why you didnt call

mf would not leave you alone, he would even wait outside the coffee shop until you finished your shift and walk you home,,, so now he knew where you lived- 

and then do the same thing over and over again until you talked to him.

does. not. give. up. 

[pwarkluv]

❝ idk you yet ❞ - p.js

park jisung x reader | angsty, fluff | 1.6k words 

WARNINGS | TW: mentions blood, abuse, drug and alcohol abuse, smoking, lowercase au, non-idol au, high school au, badboy!jisung, mature language/cursing, reader is like an angel sent from heaven for him, jisungie just in need of love :(

SUMMARY | being an outcast has him wondering if he’ll ever be happy. cue you, the new girl, stumbling into his life (literally).

AUTHOR’S NOTE | inspired by the song “idk you yet” by alexander23! also AHHH this is my 100 followers special fic :) THANK U LOVES FOR 100 IM SO SHOCKED CJSBFKEJD <33 the writing is a little crappy because i’m currently on my period and my patience for sitting down and writing this went down halfway through lol but I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, ENJOY THIS JISUNG FIC BC JISUNG MY BABIE AND SO ARE YOU GUYS!

whenever anybody thinks of park jisung, they think of the chains and dark clothing he wears. they think about the faint smell of smoke and men’s cologne that follows him wherever he goes. 

they think of the boy who grew up on the wrong side of the tracks. 

but what they don’t think about are bruises on his face he fails to hide whenever he walks into school, the dejected look on his face whenever random people give him disapproving looks, the way his smile slowly faded into a permanent frown wherever he went. 

jisung quickly accepted his reputation at school and in their little town, not having enough energy to feel insecure about it like before.

the only group of people that even remotely cared about the boy were his best friends in the whole entire world, nct dream.

they were outcasts just like him, the most “fucked up group of boys” in their town (the people’s words, not theirs).

see, they were your typical bad boy group straight out of your typical fanfic. bad grades, smoking in their free time, getting into fights, always being late to class; not a single person had hope in them.

but behind their scary and intimidating facade, all seven boys were big softies with misunderstood hearts and difficult backgrounds.

people were just too dense to look into it, only judging them based on their looks and personality on the outside. 

❝ how can you miss someone you’ve never met ❞

love was a foreign thing to jisung, the only form of love he’s ever felt being from his friends. his parents were… interesting to say the least. 

jisung’s father was a hard-core alcoholic, his mother being a major druggie. with no siblings in the house, jisung was usually their main target to push around and beat up.

and so because of this at a young age jisung learned to distance himself from other people and found different ways to release stress.

he started smoking when he was 14, the warm and hazy feeling of the smoke entering his lungs comforting him.

if jisung humored himself enough, maybe smoking could count as his first love. it was always there for him, never leaving him alone even if he wanted to quit. 

he relied on it knowing it was the only constant in his life. 

now of course the boy has heard of proper love, love like in the movies or shitty romance songs he hears on the radio.

and he won’t lie, there were moments he thought about what it felt like to be in love. but he knew that would never happen, at least not in their small town anyways. 

he just wanted to be loved. 

jisung would never admit it but sometimes he’d be jealous of the old couples walking down the street in their own world like it was just them two against the universe. he was jealous of the happy kids running around, their mother’s and father’s fondly smiling at their child. he was jealous of all the “normal” kids in his neighborhood. 

jisung wanted that, craved that. 

but most importantly, the boy wanted love.

❝ cause i need you now but i don’t know you yet ❞

everything hurt. 

his head, his body, his mind, his heart; everything was in pain.

jisung walked down the empty streets of their city, a trail of blood following behind him as he accepted his fate. the boy was 99% sure he had a concussion and at the very least had a few broken ribs. 

he felt like this was the end, and he was ready.

-

wandering aimlessly around town, you decided to take a late night walk to familiarize yourself around the area. you had just moved into the city a week ago, spending all seven days trying to help your family unpack and rearrange your cozy new home. 

now that you were finally free of the smell of tape and the dust of the boxes, you decided it was best to get to know the place you were living in. 

the autumn air seemed to settle at night as you shivered, cursing yourself for not bringing a jacket of some sort. the sight of a convenience store up ahead of you brought you relief as you rummaged through your pockets wondering if you had enough money for ramen.

your steps became excited as you found a couple dollars, fondly thinking about what type of ramen you should buy. you became so lost in your thoughts you didn’t even notice the poor boy who was staggering in front of you, or the trail of blood he left behind. 

-

jisung pushed himself to reach the convenience store a couple feet away from him, in desperate need of supplies to at least try and fix himself. 

if it didn’t help in any way then oh well, maybe death was indeed an option. 

grinding his teeth though the pain, he did not expect to feel a small body bump into him. had he been at his regular health, jisung would’ve easily been able to keep still but because of how much blood he was losing the boy was knocked down like a bowling pin.

“holy fuck.” jisung cursed the feeling of the concrete floor colliding with his ribs. he didn’t even notice the girl who had bumped into him sitting on the floor dumbfounded, freaking out over his state.

“oh my fucking god.” the girl said, capturing his attention. jisung glared at the stranger, mentally acknowledging the fact she was pretty. 

but her being pretty won’t get you anywhere, he scolded himself. she’ll leave you just like everyone else.

“a-are you okay?” she said, eyes glancing at his black eye. jisung rolled his eyes, already annoyed. “does it look like i’m okay?” he replied, his deep voice catching the girl off guard. 

“just, fuck off.” jisung said closing his eyes as he laid back down on the floor, knowing he couldn’t force himself to get up anymore. he didn’t even have to open his eyes to know she left, hearing the sound of her footsteps walk away.

the boy sighed as he laid idly on the floor, wondering what sin he committed to lead him to where he is now. not even she wanted to stay, the tears threatening to fall as his thoughts buried him alive.

“why can’t i just die?” jisung said out loud, asking no one but himself.

“because i won’t let you.” a voice replied as jisung forced himself to sit up in confusion. it was the same girl he had bumped into, but this time she had a first aid kit with her. he gave her a lost look despite knowing what she was here to do. 

jisung’s mind just couldn’t wrap around the fact that a total stranger would even bother to help him. 

“now sit up.” she said softly as she bent down to open the box, the boy slowly followed her instructions. “i’m sorry this might sting.” she said though jisung didn’t mind because she was much prettier up close.

-

the next ten minutes were you trying to fix his wounds against the shitty chairs outside the convenience store.

jisung didn’t even bother mentioning his broken ribs, not wanting you to freak out. you cleaned up what you could and the boy was beyond grateful for that.

you subconsciously rubbed his back in a comforting way whenever you’d apply alcohol to his open wounds, trying to ease the sting. you held his hand for him to hold and though he was a big boy and had a high pain tolerance, he still gave it a squeeze just to keep your hand there.  what the actual fuck is this feeling, jisung asked himself as he watched your determined figure work on him.

it was cold and in order to better work on his wounds, the boy offered to give you his hoodie which strangely had no traces of blood on it. you gladly accepted, the faint smell of blood and his cologne engulfing you up. 

the sight of you in something so big and so him made his chest swell in pride.

jisung couldn’t even formulate a sentence as you cursed at the time once you finished patching him up, fleeing the scene before he could say anything with a small smile, his hoodie still on. 

❝ and can you find me soon because i’m in my head ❞

the thought of your soft hands on his, your voice, your whole presence; everything about you couldn’t seem to leave the poor boy’s mind. it was now monday, and waiting for his class to start already made him want to go home.

if only i got her name, jisung daydreamed with his head resting on the palm of his hand. the classroom was loud and bright, people occasionally giving him looks but the boy didn’t mind. 

“jisungie~ did you hear we have a new kid?” jaemin asked, poking the boy’s cheeks. the boy only gave him a pointed look before sighing. 

“hyung i don’t really care.” jisung replied, looking back out the window. 

jaemin only gave him an offended look before grumbling a bit. “i don’t know maybe you will.” he muttered under his breath as their teacher walked into the room. 

❝ yeah i need you now but i don’t know you yet ❞

their homeroom teacher stood in front of the class, jisung tuning out his voice. the boy once again sighed as his teacher called for their attention, explaining they had a new girl in their class. “now make her feel welcomed,” he said before turning towards the door.

“y/n, please come in.” the teacher said and jisung almost fell out of his seat when he saw you walking through the door with the same smile you gave him a couple days ago.

“hi i’m y/n and i hope we can get along.” you bowed to the class, a familiar hoodie you were wearing catching his attention. 

isn’t that mine, jisung thought to himself as he bit back a smile knowing you kept it all along. 

[hitsujixx]

stray kids are getting a lot of hate now so i decided to make this little thread to show you guys that they're literal angels and don't deserve to be treated like that

#1 they always produce and writes music to help others to go through hard times

they're aware of mental issues and other global issues for example they wrote songs about insomnia, depression and anxiety. there's too many songs that bring up these kind of topics but i will give you a few examples:

#2 chan goes live once a week so we don’t feel alone and so that we have someone to talk to & just relate to

channie's room became a safe space for a lot of fans

#3 not only chan goes live to help stays but the others do too

- hyunjin once asked for stays problems to see if he could give us advice and help us. he even read out a stays concern in english and tried his best to reply in english

- jisung went live to help stays fall asleep by reading a story

- changbin and jisung taught stays how to rap during one of their vlives

- minho goes live to teach fans their choreographies

#4 they support lgbt

- they attended new york pride in 2018 after kcon and met some fans there

- felix and changbin wore nike shoes that were designed to celebrate pride month

- felix talked about his ideal type and included a girl and boy type

*cough* someone's whipped for changbin *cough*

- hyunjin talked about the song "1-800-273-8255" and said that he cried while watching the mv (the mv is about about lgbt and suicide)

#5 they respect everyone no matter what race or skin color

- chan showed us that he's educated on the n word (3racha - p.a.c.e)

- he even said on his recent vlive that no matter your age, race or skin color stray kids concert is a safe place for everyone

#6 they open their hearts to us and show us that they're humans too and even kpop idols sometimes feel lonely just like everyone else

changbin in his solo track "streelight" talked about going through problems without being able to tell someone and encouraged people to trust others and open up. he used the streetlight as a metaphor for how someone may look bright in the darkness but are actually sad and alone.

he even included 'the blue project' in his mv. the blue project is to help raise awareness on mental health, helping to encourage people to open up. the blue plaint was inspired by jayden whyte who painted a tree blue on his parents' farm as a joke. he took his life in november 2018. after his death the blue tree took on a new purpose: “spread the paint and spread the message that it’s OK to not be OK.”

#7 they donate to charities regularly

minho buys his jewelry from korean brand wing bling. the percentage of every purchase is donated to wwf. he helped polar bears and supported snow leopard conservation through that small gesture

he also supports a child living in africa through unicef but the child doesn’t know that he’s an idol. but he said that if the opportunity comes one day he would like to invite that child to watch him perform (arena homme interview with minho&hyunjin - april 2020)

#8 chan once said that he wants to get tattoos but he isn’t because he won’t be able to donate blood regularly

okay but imagine chan in tattoos. we wouldn't survive that 😳

#9 they ended gender stereotypes by wearing unique outfits

they wore crop tops many times and jeongin once said that pink is for boys

#10 they made a series where they give advices to viewers on various topics (honey-tips)

jisung talked about depression (ep.4)

“You don't know what happiness is if there's only light so depression needs at least once in order to know how to recover. The deeper the depression is, the stronger the light will be. The light is definitely there."

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the list is already so long so i will finish it here. i hope this little thread will help you realize that all those hate comments aren't true. they're literal angels and no one deserve hate.

please reblog so more people can see it

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[update] just to make it clear. by haters i did not mean black stays. i meant all those people who used that situation to spread hate on the boys and send them death threats. i believe that educating them is the right solution, not spreading hate :cc

i even saw people bringing back that 'daddy thing' and getting mad at chan, thinking that he's telling underage fans to call him that when first of all he didn't mean to turn it into sexual matter and secondly underage stays shouldn't even know that's a sexual thing 🤡

they really don't deserve that

[pastelracha]

I need to rant sorry 

but since when idols’ sexual identity became such a topic ? I don’t care if they are gays, bi or even heterosexual and neither you should .. I see so maybe theories about how Felix is gay or Minsung is REAL (as in a real couple) .. I mean why would you care ? you are here to listen to music not proving people him and chan or bin are fucking like for real 

idols have a on camera persona it’s a fact ! (I know Peniel or BM (I can’t remember soz) said they are the SAME in front and behind camera) but still !  people legit writing theories on how and time lines of their relationship, if Felix rolled his eyes at that moment it’s because they fought and he so done ... ARE YOU Felix ? nope .. do you know what happen behind closed doors ? I don’t think so .. 

just look back in the days when Mark & Jackson were so close and delulus thought they were a couple .. what happened ? they created a distance between two friends .. 

I don’t care about their sexualities. I am here to stan a group, listen to their music, watch their content .. not debating if one member is actually fucking another .. (I know I write smut about them but still ..) I don’t give a single fuck if the guys want to have an orgy in their dorms it’s their problem ! 

and showing Jisung some member x member fanant (kissing each other if I remember) sung was like the fuck is this ? yeah you do fan art good really but know the limit please .. 

sometime I just feel so uncomfortable for them, yes you can ship the FRIENDship but as a real couple, just know your place ! 

[stray-kids-react]

Their girlfriend is curvy and thiqué

Masterlist

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Bang Chan

° If you wear ripped jeans, he will 100% slap the skin that shows through it. Rubbing it afterwards and then slapping it again. Unless you tell him to stop or if he notices it becoming too red.

° If you have stumpy squishy fingers (Like me), Chan will always be seen playing with your chubby cute fingers, sometimes playfully biting them.

° Loves falling asleep on your chest, he once called them his favorite pillows. Your chest is also victim to most of his hickeys, soon buying at least 10 different turtle necks after you notice the purple marks across your cleavage.

° When he is turned on or just wants to tease you, he will pinch your butt in public. Always failing to hide his sly smirk and small chuckle. You either get him back and return the favor or simply lightly slap his arm.

° Doesn't like when you feel self conscious over your curves and fluffy body features, since he loves every inch on you from head to toe. Will usually stand you in front of mirror and correct you on what you think is 'Ugly'.

"I don't care if you are size 0 or over 300 pounds, I love you for who you are inside and out. Never forget that."

Lee Know

° Will randomly squish your cheeks together until you form a cute pout, always kissing the pout even if he is in public or not. Calls them his little steam buns because they heat up from blushing and are squishy like buns.

° Falls asleep on your stomach when he is really worn out from practice, tickling your sides for your attention when he eventually wakes up.

° Rubs your belly like a cat when he's tired and wants affection, usually rubbing his face into your neck to get comfortable. You were at first a bit hesitant about it since you didn't really like your stomach, but you now beg for his belly rubs when going to sleep.

° Loves when you wear ripped jeans or a tight dress, showing him that you are confident in your looks and embrace your curves. But if anyone looks at you sensually he will block there veiw with a sharp glare.

° Never understands how you can see yourself as anything but a goddess. When you pinch your fluff and whine, he'll kiss your lips to stop you from saying something bad about yourself. Shows you how beautiful you are through kisses that lead into something more 9/10.

"You are nothing less then a goddess that any guy or girl out their would die to have in their arms. And whoever denies that is lying to themselves."

Changbin

° Before you two dated, he always wished he could squish and kiss your adorable cheeks. And now that he can, he won't stop... It has officially became his way of saying hello and goodbye to you.

° If you ever where a skirt or a dress, he will cover your legs with his jacket when you sit down or go up and down the stairs. Because those butt cheeks belong to his eyes only.

° Wakes you up by gently pinching your thighs, running down the hall screaming if he ever pinched to hard. But his screaming is also a mix of laughter because you are too cute to be scary, even if you are legit about to beat his ass.

° When showering together, he will pat a song on your butt. Always ending his "Songs" with an extra hard smack, rubbing it afterwards because he feels bad. Grips your chest in the shower, but not in a sensual way... Kind of like a stress ball to squish.

° If someone ever makes fun of your weight, they won't be able to finish their sentence because he would've knocked their teeth out by then. VERY protective over you because he knows how self conscious you can be.

"I love you so so so much, live isn't even a stong enough word to describe my feelings for you. They are just jealous that they don't have an ass like yours."

Hyunjin

° You are pretty self conscious about your weight and always tell him how heavy you are. So to prove you wrong, he will carry you everywhere until you get the point that you are beautiful and are never too heavy to carry.

° Randomly spanks you just because he can, will become a bit shy if another member catches him though. But if you are alone or if a member didn't see, a sly smirk spreads across his face.

° Praises the hell out of you when you two go shopping together, and if an item you really wanted isn't in your size he blames the store for being shitty. Feels his heart melt when you look at yourself with admiration for once in the mirror.

° Is towel ready for when you come walking of the pool, full aware that a wedgy almost always occurs when you step out of the water. Doesn't mind if you two are alone when it happens though.

° His savage side comes out harsh if someone ever insults your curves, he will not hold back one bit. Once made a guy who was a foot taller than him cry, making everyone who witnessed it realize he will protect you no matter what.

"People suck. You are a beautiful fairy that anyone should be grateful to lay their eyes on. I love you, so let's go home and cuddle."

Han

° Everyone's cameras are out when you two eat, just because both of your cheeks look so cute and puffy when you do eat. You two are nicknamed the chipmunks because of it, which you actually find cute.

° When you are alone he will literally suck your cheeks after he kisses them, always leaving you laughing at how weird it feels. Sometimes he will also breath on your cheeks if your face feels cold.

° Like Hyunjin, he will praise the hell out of you when you go shopping. He's just 10× more loud and hyper when doing it. Once brought strangers over to tell them how absolutely stunning you are, and will pretend to be papparzzi while asking for you to pose.

° Likes being the little spoon when you cuddle, so he can burrow himself into your chest and keep warm. But when he is the big spoon, he will stroke shapes into your stomach and burrow into your neck.

° An mc once talked to Jisung about you, saying how you are uglier than him. Jisung's playful manner quickly faded into serious rage, warning the host to not talk about the love of his life in such a disgusting manner. Stay & Skz backed up Jisung and forced an apology out of the MC.

"Don't listen to that idiot, he clearly doesn't know what beauty means. You are a stunning princess who deserves only love."

Felix

° Your chest means one word to him... Pillows. Whenever you cuddle, you will always see his head laying against your boobs. He never thinks of it as sensual, unless you want it to become smexy time.

° Felix will attack you in a huge koala clingy hug, trapping you in his arms before continuously drumming his hands across your butt. You would smack anyone else who did that to you, but you know he's a precious sunshine who means no harm.

° When you two are chatting alone, he will randomly just squish your cheeks with his small fists. Usually rubbing his nose against yours while giggling cutely, making you wonder how you scored such an adorable angel.

° Likes to bite you playfully, whether it be your arms or thighs you know his teeth will be attached. You weren't surprised when he first did it since he is quite playful, but it honestly melted your heart because you found it so cute.

° Deep voiced taekwondo master Felix comes out to play whenever someone insults you, your sunshine kitten will immediately switch into a deep voiced six pack aussie in a matter of seconds. You appreciate how protective he is, always repaying him with your love.

"You don't have to repay me princess, I do it because I love you. And when I love someone, I won't let anything hurt them."

Seungmin

° Soft boy is shy when it comes to PDA, So he always reminds you how beautiful you are with words. Coming up with your favorite nickname 'Pumkin', it is a common cute nickname but it's the way he says it that makes you melt.

° When you two are heading in for the night, he will sit you on his lap and wipe your face from any remaining makeup or dust/dirt. He loves how no matter how gentle his swipes are, your cheeks always cave in and squish you lips into a pout.

° Finds your plump belly absolutely adorable, constantly wrapping his arms around your stomach. Seungmin doesn't like how insecure you are about your body, so hugging you is another way for him to express how beautiful he thinks you are.

° Whenever he is on his phone or reading, you will block his veiw with a pout. He always replies by squishing your cheeks and pulling you in for a sweet but short kiss. When you feel satisfied enough with his kisses, you'll go back to whatever you were doing.

° Doesn't bother talking to idiots, instead he worries about you and makes sure you aren't listening to those stupid assholes. If someone won't stop picking on you he'll tell them off, but if they back off after a while he will just stay and confort you instead.

"They don't know what they are talking about, you are amazing and they are just crazy hateful people."

Jeongin

° Thought you were the most precious girl he has ever witnessed, and his love for you only grew over time. Even though you denied that someone so attractive like a kpop idol could like you, he proved you to be 100% wrong.

° His favorite thing on you is one of his Tshirts on you, because they fit your curves perfectly but also look loose due to the height difference. If you want cuddles immediately, simply wear oen of his shirts.

° Gets flustered whenever you wear a button up, since the gaps between the buttons are always opened slightly to reveal your bra. But he is too sweet and shy to ever point it out to you, because he doesn't want to embarrass you.

° Helps you with chafing burns, always feeling bad that you get them so easily. But you reassure him that it doesn't hurt overly bad, but that won't stop him from applying lotion to the burns on the inside your thighs.

° Isn't the type to get up in someone's face and threaten them, but will instead reply in sarcasm when someone insults you. Telling them to get a life and not to bring someone down to try and get their anger out. You are amused by your soft boyfriend's sarcasm.

"They are just trash, don't think about what they said for one second. You are stunning and the best girlfriend on earth."

[lostnct23]

Noona?

Pairing: ? x Reader Word count: 2974

Summary: You are the new SM staff whom other members can’t seem to shy away from your charm. But there’s one person who’s more than eager to get you all for himself.

Warning: Slow burn. Possesiveness. Suggestive Disclaimer: This is a pure fiction. There’s is no way that the portrayal of the artist’s character mirrors the artist’s actual true self A/N: Please do not repost this other on social media platform without the consent of the author. Feedbacks are always appreciated and if you have any request or scenarios in mind, I’d be more than willing to entertain your ideas. 

All rights reserved.

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Recently, there has been this SM staff who suddenly became famous among to other staffs. It’s no secret that she’s been the content of the mundane talk of other people within the vicinity. Well for one, it’s because she was extremely talented, new, graduate from abroad and the most infamous one was because, for once, Jisung the ever-shy boy around girls is very comfortable around you. He’s not even very subtle at hiding his adoration towards you.

Ever since you started working in the company it was no surprise that you were extremely approachable despite the fact that you were extremely shy at first. People really adore you for your sincere nature and your genuine heart. That’s why it’s not even a mystery why the NCT maknae was so drawn towards you, however, with that being said, so does the other NCT members.

At first, it was Johnny who was very blatant at showing that he found you adorable, and considering that both of you are very familiar with what is it like to live abroad you quickly click and become comfortable with each other. Then there’s Jaehyun who has his ways of charming people towards him, and then Mark Lee who was unquestionably very friendly and comfortable to be around. Despite the fact that many people swarm their way towards you, you are good at keeping your safe distance, never going beyond what is considered unprofessional which is why you perplexed one person in particular.

He noticed how despite being friendly and tending to other people, you have your subtle way of putting lines between you and them. It’s like you can read other people’s intentions without making them uncomfortable of knowing what was their agenda, that’s why he kept a safe distance from you. Not because he doesn’t want to be close to you, but because he wanted to be able to pass through the walls that you built around you.

With that being said, he just quietly observe from afar, silently studying what he should do, what were these people doing wrong, why despite their attempt you still have that tall wall around you, how should he do things right to win your favor without a single restraint as you have with others.

“Noona!” the maknae exclaimed after seeing you emerged from the curtain behind, today you were assigned as their photographer, it was one of SM’s marketing strategies for their upcoming comeback and you couldn’t be more excited to work with all of the members. They were always with their units, but today, SM decided to have all of them merge. 

“Jisung-ah!” you replied and gave the youngest a warm hug, which doesn’t go unnoticed by the brooding man at the back, silently throwing daggers towards your direction, his make-up artist is not so fond as well at his sudden long face expression. “ Have you been well? “ you asked adoringly. 

“Jisung-ah!” you replied and gave the youngest a warm hug, which doesn’t go unnoticed by the brooding man at the back, silently throwing daggers towards your direction, his make-up artist is not so fond as well at his sudden long face expression. “ Have you been well? “ you asked adoringly. 

“Yah, what this eyebags, you stay up all night didn’t you?” you playfully scolded him. Jisung suddenly grew embarrassed and even a little guilty at disappointing you.

 “ 밥 먹었어요?” (Bap meogeoseoyo) you asked the boy. He just shakes his head as a no and you scoffed at his answer. “그래, 알았어, Let’s eat after this, Noona’s treat” (Grae, arasseo) you said then patted the young boy’s back which earns a delighted smile at his end. On the other hand, someone was not very happy at the scene that unfolded before his eyes. How come, that the ever wallflower Jisung managed to win you over, the only women he laid eyes who doesn’t flatter at other people’s advances towards her. Even the oh-so-great flirt Yuta didn’t manage to have you swoon over your feet.

He was snapped back to life when other Dream members started to tease Jisung because of his encounter with you. Jaemin was the loudest to utter ‘Our Jisung-a is no longer a baby boy huh” Jisung only rolled his eyes and utter how they don’t make sense and how other members were saying the most rubbish, and weirdest non-sense ever. Starting from that day he started to make his own move at making his effort of getting close to you. Doesn’t matter if he can’t break your walls because he’s more than willing to climb it just to get to you.

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Weeks have past and he can already see the progress within your relationship, you were warmer to him than before, you would even greet him first when you do happen to crossway in the hallway. He was also almost confident that you favor him an extra bit more than the others. You were usually shy with other members, would wait for them to acknowledge you first but with him, you would say hi first once in a while. He even became more confident when you asked him first to help you get to know the city when he’s free until it became your thing to invite one another to visit a shop that has only been open recently. 

The keyword was almost.

Once their photoshoot from last month was initially released you were relentless at showering Jisung with a compliment. Telling him how proud you were with him, how handsome he looks at some shots. The breaking point was when you told him that you will treat him, AGAIN, with a meal.

“Let’s celebrate this, there’s this restaurant that just open, we should try it” you beamed happily to the boy, even snaking your hand around his right arm. He couldn’t bear the sight, he knows it’s wrong for him to feel hostile towards the youngest member but at this point, he is beyond his rationality. “I want to come to!” he said way too loudly and too aggressive than his normal tone.

All eyes were now focused towards him, shocked at his sudden outburst. But the thing that’s been running in his mind was the fact that he can’t let you be alone with another man that’s not him. He was only starting to build his way at winning you, he can’t let other men have an advance in his game. 

Meal with a new restaurant was our thing.

Midnight stroll in the city was our thing.

Going out to visit a new store was our thing.

He’s missing something. Do you like younger boys? Was the problem was his age? Was that it? Was that the reason why you always pin over Jisung despite other members pine over you? He thought you were getting along. He almost even thought that his feelings towards you were starting to cease from being one-sided.

“Oh sure, no problem with that Taeyong Hyung, you can always tag along whenever,” the young boy said, completely oblivious to the way Taeyong’s eyes were raking your form as if he would take you right there and there. You on the other hand found his outburst peculiar and very out of character.

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Starting from that day, Taeyong was more obvious at dropping hints towards his affection. He’s no longer subtle at giving you compliments. The members were not oblivious to this, the moment that Taeyong made his affection towards you obvious, was the moment the other member took it as a cue to back off. They never really saw their leader took an interest in anyone, he’s always too busy to take care of everyone that he always neglect to fend for his own self, so when started to become all puppy eyes whenever you are around, follow you everywhere you go, do everything just to get your attention from bringing your files for you up to the littlest things and reason just to be with you, they knew you were now a serious deal.

Taeyong may have made things obvious, but whatever it is that’s going on between the two of you, it was never confirmed nor denied verbally. 

Taeyong always made sure to be pinned in the hip with you whenever he had the chance. May it be the time where you visit their practice room to disseminate some information, may it be the time that they’re free and just casually chilling at the cafeteria, Taeyong would even bring you a drink every chance he got, staying at your station just to casually hang around in a place where you were doing your own things, so basically you were dating without actually being said to be dating.

People around the company started to suspect that there’s something going on between the two of you. Interns who have shown their interest towards you were always warned that you were already Taeyong’s and it would be in their best interest to find someone else than bother you because Taeyong might be the sweetest guy, but boy was he possessive as hell.

There was even one time where an innocent intern was too close to you for Taeyong’s liking and behold, it was the first that everyone witnessed his possessiveness. He wouldn’t keep his hand off of your waist. He would constantly be glued at your side, towering whoever comes in your way, intimidating every single employee who would just approach you. He might not verbally tell them to get lost, but his intimidating aura alone is enough to send them off.

And that was the time that everyone knew better than jeopardize you and Taeyong. It might never be officially stated that the two of you were an item but he’s an idol, and they would never vocally nor announce publicly that they were dating, even if it’s only inside the company. Nevertheless, the way he was behaving around you was enough to show that you were indeed his, and his alone.

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Everything was well, the day was bright, everyone was just having fun, well that’s until someone was having TOO much fun without HIM being by your side. Taeyong doesn’t appreciate the fact that Jisung’s hand was around your shoulder and that you were laughing way too loudly for his liking at to what the maknae was saying. And the fact that you were bare except for your beachwear right now doesn’t make anything better. Seeing other people, especially men, holding your skin like that irks him in so many ways.

“Jisung-a, we’re having too much fun here are we” the innocent boy can only smile towards his Hyung completely oblivious to the sarcasm that coated his statement. 

“Oh Hyung, annyeong!” he greeted. “Neh, I was just telling Noona about that time where we skipped and spent all day in the city” he laughed. “Pretty much risky, isn’t it Noona” the boy beamed looking down on you. You on the other hand catch a glimpse of how Taeyong was basically shaking and gawking his eyes on the hand that is around your shoulder. 

“Jisung-a,” you said sweetly, which made Taeyong even more annoyed than he already is. He narrowed his eyes and gritted his teeth and it shows with the way how his jaw clenched. “Neh?” Jisung responded, almost too endearing if you asked others' perspectives. But Taeyong’s foul mood is too palpable that you can’t help but acknowledge it. “Maybe you should find Chenle first and...” you haven’t able to finish whatever you were saying because Taeyong basically tears you off from Jisung’s arm and drag away from the shore towards one of resort’s room. 

When you’re completely away from the eyes of anyone you were surprised when Taeyong pin you harshly towards the wall, eyes were almost popping from its socket, his boba eyes which everyone adored were replaced with something predatory. 

“Were you really oblivious towards what I feel even after making it too fcking obvious or do you really just want to play all too naive and innocent? What are playing Y/N?” he said while carefully caressing your cheeks, despite the fact that he does it so gently it feels like it’s burning because the way of how he’s body is basically restricting him from losing control all at once. You can feel his breath fanning the side of your cheeks.

You gulp loudly not expecting that this is the way Taeyong would finally burst. “Or are you just nasty and enjoyed being called Noona?” he said lips almost touching yours but not enough to actually have contact. His hand slowly traveled towards your delicate neck. “I can also call you Noona you know” he said, almost like a growl. “If that’s what you want if that’s what I’ve been missing all this time, so tell me Y/N, why do you always have the knack of pissing me off through Jisung”.

You on the other hand were too lost with how close your body is with his and the fact that he’s basically manhandling you right now. You wanted to chuckle at how unreasonable he is but at the same time also too aroused to actually compose a coherent answer.

“Answer me or I will force it out of you, you minx” he tightened his grip on your neck. Part of you want to test his patience and the other just wanted to submit, you decided to choose the first one.

“Maybe you haven’t marked what yours properly” you answered hoarsely and Taeyong’s eyes darkened because of your answer. He quickly smashed his lips to yours and one thing lead to another. The last thing you know he’s already giving your neck a hickey, a big and very prominent one you can tell with the way of how hard he was sucking and biting your neck.

Before things can go too far a figure appeared in your peripheral vision which caused you to push Taeyong off of you. Taeyong on the other hand looked too perplexed but when he saw the person cause of your awestruck state, he grew smug. 

“Eww, Noona! I know you and Taeyong were now basically a thing but” Jisung exclaimed pointing at your neck looking dumbfounded, “good luck at telling Appa where does that thing came from because I’m basically not telling that my sister is doing the dirty with my leader Hyung” he said leaving the two of you. But even at the end of the hall, you can both heard him murmuring to himself how he can’t believe that his Noona is not as innocent as he thought you were. 

Meanwhile, Taeyong looks so perplexed, he just looked at you with a puzzled expression silently begging for an answer. 

“Jisung is my dongsaeng you know, I can’t believe you just got jealous of my baby brother, and the maknae of your group” you scoffed. Lightly fixing your dress. “And definitely don’t expect that of all people he would be the one to walk in on us” Taeyong on the other hand look so lost, you can see in his feature some trace of regret, humiliation, guilt but you can only smile at his dumbfound state.

“To answer your question earlier, it’s not like you don’t make things obvious, it’s just that you don’t make it vocal so it’s not like I can really say anything other than what you show” you shrugged trying to bring him out from his dazed. 

“Hello? earth to Taeyong?” he remained silent. You decide to say something to finally snapped him out of it. “Since you have already stolen a kiss from me, which is, by the way, my first kiss, and you as well basically already mark me, are finally going to ACTUALLY ask me to be your girlfriend?” still none “or should I finally take that carnival date with Yuta?” that might have done the trick because Taeyong held you by your waist with the blink of an eye. Looking at you hungrily before giving you another kiss, this time it’s sweeter and more sensual than the first time. 

“You are only mine, jagiya” he said, and you wonder how can he look so feral just a moment ago, and now he looked so ethereal and cute with his toothy smile.

Fin.

[binniesthighs]

hello stranger | reader x changbin |

a/n: we are getting to the “height” of the conflict, therefore the angst is gonna start amping up-just as a reminder! This fic talks about self worth and healing from past trauma so please read what makes you comfy! In this chapter, the majority is implied, but still, please read the warnings ahead of time :) 

Part 4 

Pairing: self insert, female reader x seo changbin, female reader x han jisung 

Genre: strangers to lovers, fluff, smut, angst 

Tags: (of this part) college au, rapper!changbin, rapper!jisung, establishedfwb!jisung, artist!reader, explicit language, fluffy growing feelings, mentions of food, hello yes I just wanna give this changbin a huuuuge hug 

CWs: implications/discussion of past toxic realtionship, implications of negative self-worth and self-sabotage 

Word count: 4.8k 

Chapters: 

PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 3 | PART 4 | PART 5

Popcorn flew into the air in slow motion and approximately four hundred multicolored skittles scattered the floor like the shattering of glass. 

“Yes...yes...FUCK YES!!” 

Felix launched his small body into the air with a victorious screech, turning his controller into a projectile. The clump of black plastic thumped into the torn up corduroy couch missing Chan’s arm by millimeters. 

“HOW TO YOU LIKE THAT?? WOOOO!!” 

Your friend took a victory lap around the tiny living room that was a mess of winter coats and boots with melted snow dripping to the hardwood floor. 

“Felixxxxx, you made a mess!” Chan sighed out deeply and solemnly at the array of rainbow colored candies on the floor. 

“I never win. You gotta admit the way that I finished that off was extra disrespectful. DID YOU SEE the way that I down-B’d you to pieces??? That was fuckin’ awesome.” 

“Good job ‘lix.” You pulled a Twizzler by your teeth and dished out a little wink for him. 

“Hey! I haven’t been playing for nearly as long as you two have. I see this as a complete win.” 

“Well, Chan and I were at each others throats the whole time, so, we kinda killed ourselves off for you.” 

“I still won!!” 

“Alright, alright, good job.” Both you and Chan took turns patting his poofy blond hair. 

“Ahhh our Lix’ is finally growing up.” Chan sighed, mockingly looking out in the distance to some far away place. “But...now you’ve gotta clean this up. Lucky you’re the one that paid for the Skittles, not me.” 

In his fit of happiness Felix didn’t even care about getting down on his hands and knees to pick up the pieces like Cinderella. 

Chan took a gulp of his electric green Monster. “Feels nice to have you back around here Y/n. It feels like it’s kind of been a while.” 

“Mm, it has. You know how it goes, stuff gets busy and all that.” 

“~And she’s been hanging out with someone else~” Felix’s words came out in a cutesy little song. 

“You have?” 

You slapped Felix right upside the head to which he whimpered out with a much more dramatic “owww” than was warranted. 

It was likely a mistake that the two of you had kept Changbin a secret from Chan. Chan basically idolized him, and you felt that it was best not to...complicate things. Every other hour Chan would bring up one of Changbin’s songs, talking about him as if he was some kind of lyrical genius. He had half a plan to meet him at the last show, but had gotten too shy and pulled you both before he could get second thoughts. 

For it to be so easy for you...it felt somehow unfair. 

It was definitely a mistake. 

“Who? Jisung?” Chan rolled his eyes a bit like he always would when spoke of that boy.

“No...” Your voice became small, then you shot deathly glares at Felix who tucked his tail in between his legs. 

“Chan...”

Felix’s eyes widened to full moons once he had realized what you were about to do. You curled yourself up into a ball slightly, sweaty hands grasping at your controller. 

“Its...Changbin.” 

“CHANGBIN?” Chan shot upright from his seat. “Changbin?? Are we talking about the same Changbin?? Changbin-from-the-show-Changbin??” 

“Yes.” You steadied your thumping chest. 

“When did that happen??” Chan turned his body towards Felix who cowered into the mess of Skittles. “Did you know about this?” 

Felix made a little grunt that could have sounded like either a “yes” or a “no”-- it was likely his safest bet. 

“Why didn’t you tell me?” 

“Because I knew it would be kinda...like this...” 

Your eldest friend sat back down his his palm firmly slapped against his forehead. “Sorry, I’m just having a hard time piecing this all together.” 

“It happened after the show that one day. I was walking home and I fell and got kind of scraped up, then he took me back to his place...” 

Simply bringing that night back up again sent you spinning into your pool of memories: and they had a particular tendency to make you just as flustered as the night when they had first occurred. There were dozens of little things about him that had stuck with you, even if you wouldn’t admit it out loud. 

There was that stupidly confident smirk of his, that little scar on his chin, how his fingers looked in those silver rings, his hooded grey-black eyes, those faint little stretch marks on the backs of his arms, and the way that his Adam’s apple would bounce when you kissed into his neck. 

“Well? Chan’s voice snapped you back. “Does that mean...you aren’t seeing Jisung anymore?” 

“...Jisung?” 

His name hadn’t occupied your thoughts for weeks, and you hadn’t taken much notice of it. There were unread text messages from him that had fallen to the bottom of you message list, and missed calls that you hadn’t returned. Creeping inside of you was a sick and sticky feeling: the kind that you pushed deep down inside yourself to the place where things would get forgotten. 

You didn’t know what you wanted from Jisung. 

It wasn’t the way that he would kiss you roughly and needily, or how he would take greedy hands to every inch of your body. It wasn’t how he would fill praises into your ears or shake a little when he would finish himself off on your belly.  Months ago, it would be all you could think of, then immediately forget after it had happened. That was what made it easy. 

Changbin wasn’t easy. He wouldn’t give himself up entirely to you just because he could. He made you earn him, and he made you seek him. 

You belonged to neither of them. 

In your lap, your hands trembled with a memory of long ago: snowflakes in your hands burning with the cold and your throat scratched from all the yelling. 

“Y/n?” Chan softened. 

 A sob had caught in your throat which you swallowed down with effort. “I-I’m still seeing Jisung.” 

“Wait, you’re seeing both of them?” Felix popped up from the floor. “You didn’t tell either of them?” 

“I don’t need to. I’m not tied down to either of them.” You had said it as confidently as you could, almost like you needed to convince yourself. 

Both of your best friends eyes carefully held yours. 

“Doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t tell them.” Felix nodded. 

Chan nodded too in agreeance. 

“But we’re just fucking around?? Its not like I’m cheating on anyone.” 

“Y/n, you’re missing the point.” 

“What? Don’t I have the right to sleep with whoever the hell I want to? Don’t you think that it’s kind of backwards that I should keep everyone in the loop when I’m just--why would I--” 

Chan’s hand snuck over to yours which had started shaking even more violently on your leg; you hadn’t even noticed. The sobs that you had held in your chest started to overflow, bubbling and spewing from your surface. They felt choked in your throat, and then burned hot tears in your eyes. Both of your friends got to work, scooting in right next to you and sandwiching you between their arms. 

“You don't have to be afraid.” Felix whispered softly. He smoothed his hand down your back. 

“I-I’m not.” You clenched the words between your teeth. “Why-why are you guys drilling me like this??” You squirmed a bit between them. 

Chan hushed, “We’re not.” 

“Then why does it feel--” 

“--You're doing it again.” Felix simply sighed, and rocked the three of your bodies to the tune of your messy sobs. 

Chan let out little “shhh” sounds. “Stop digging yourself in that hole Y/n. You know that you’re doing it. Its more than just messing around.” 

A tangible and thick silence held the air where your two closest friends held onto you tightly, almost like you would slip away. You fucking hated them for reading you as well as they did, but you also fucking loved them for being as good at it as they were. Being sandwiched like this with them was all too familiar. They had also done it on that same night: the night when your world had collapsed. That night you had been so weak you could barely hold back. 

“It’s not gonna happen again.” Chan said at last. “I know that you must think about it all the time, and I’m so sorry that you do. You’re never gonna be stuck in that alley alone again.” 

Felix quickly added, “We’ll be there--even if it does--which it won’t.” 

“Stop dragging yourself through it okay? I know it’s easier said than done.” Chan took his black sweater sleeve to dab at your tears. 

You were completely engulfed in your friends love, the unconditional kind: the kind that would part the seas and walk through flames for you. You don’t know how you could have forgotten how it had been there. 

“Maybe its one of them or the other, but, I think you should tell them. You don’t deserve to tear yourself up like this over it all. It’s not good for you, or for them.” Felix laughed a little. “We’re not blind you know.” 

Fat, thick sniffles clogged up your nose. Your subconscious and consciousness mudded behind your eyes and those memories of both boys: Changbin and Jisung became indistinguishable. You had sought them out for different reasons, but you hadn’t known why. Now, it was all becoming clearer. 

“You like him don’t you?” Felix took his turn dabbing at your eyes too. “I can tell.” 

“N-no...” 

Felix didn’t even need to say who “he” was for you to understand. 

“No?” 

“I just...go see him sometimes.” 

You would. You would see him, think of him, call all the little things about him to your memory: that scar on his chin and the faint stretch marks on his arms. 

Snot dripped down your nose and over your quivering lips and you didn’t even care. 

That voice rang in your ears just as you had remembered it on that night when he had dragged you out there, alone, furious. You didn’t even know what you had done wrong. 

"I don’t want it to happen again.” 

The words tore from your lips freely, finally. The fear that you had held so deep inside, the fear that would plague your every other thought. The fear that kept you from answering questions or giving answers. The fear that brought your feet to Jisung’s doorstep and the fear that kissed away words on Changbin’s lips. A massive weight like heavy metal chains that had wrapped around your body started to loosen. 

“How are you going to let yourself have a chance at something good if you don’t try, right?” Chan and Felix exchanged hopeful little smiles. 

Felix patted your hair to fix where you had frizzed it between them. “You know what you need to do.” 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

[11:18] 

changbin: this friday? yeah, I don’t think that I have anything else going on. 

its been a little while.

everything okay? 

...

i’m sorry if i overstepped that night

you just looked 

...

fuck 

 you’ve got me thinking of you all the time 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

Snow fell on your walk to class. It was the same early morning one that you shared with Minho. These days, the two of you had seemed to have gotten much closer. Even though you hadn’t been over in nearly a week, Minho still talked to you as if he saw you there every day. He would complain about little things such as how the rest of his roommates would leave dishes in the sink or socks randomly on the floor. 

What the two of you didn’t talk about much was Changbin. There was some unspoken understanding now that the two of you had promised. He didn’t want to know much and you didn’t want to tell him; and it stayed that way. It was odd now considering that you had been quiet before so he couldn’t hear. 

Admittedly, that did give you a chuckle or two from time to time. 

Today, the snowflakes gathered in clumps and hugged each other while they floated down the the ground where they would melt instantly. This was the kind of snow that wouldn’t stick around. For this, you were grateful. In the first week of February, you had just enough of winter and longed for the green grasses that would peek from the melting white. 

The tip of your nose and ears were warm as you marched onward with eyes squinted from the flakes that would get caught in them. In some ways, you were thankful. During the lectures, you would often prefer watching the blanket of white dancing in the windows behind the professors head. 

Something you still had to learn however, was picking the right shoes. Your toes were frozen in the same canvas shoes that Changbin had scolded you for wearing. You pulled out your phone the check the time: eleven minutes early. It was somewhat of a personal best. 

You smiled with a little pride, missing the body mass that was walking right past you and collided with your shoulder. 

“Oh! Sorry, I’m so sorry, I was--Jisung?” 

“Y/n?? Holy shit--” 

Heartbeats rang in your ears and you felt as if you could hear the very blood pumping in your veins. 

“I-I’m late for class, I gotta--” 

“--No wait!” Rather than looking angry as you expected, that wide smile of his spread across his rosy cheeks. “I’m just glad that I ran into you.” 

“Jisung, really, I need to go--” 

His gloved hand reached out for your arm. “I’ve been trying to reach you but I think something must’ve gone wrong with your phone. How are you doing?” 

“How am I doing?” 

“Yeah, I was kinda worried, it was like you dropped off the face of the earth.” 

You clawed your arm away. “I’ve been fine.” 

Jisung sucked at his teeth, “Listen, after your class, can we talk? I borrowed my roommates car--I can drive us back to my place--” 

“--That’s what you want to do? Talk?” The simmering anxiety that washed over you turned into irate heat. 

“Yeah?” 

“No its not.” 

You slung your shoulder bag high up your arm, and walked on. 

“Stop stop stop.” Jisung threw his body in front of your path. “What’s been going on with you? Hm? Did something happen? What is it? Your-uh art or something? You still do that right?” 

Jisung had seen your paintings decorating the walls of your bedroom and the sketches that piled up on your desk next to colored pencils tied up together by rubber bands. He had seen them, but he had never looked. 

“Why the hell do you care so much?” 

“Baby--” He scuffed after your determined steps towards the business building. “Listen, I-I missed you okay?” Jisung yelled into the winter air: “I missed you. Alright?” 

“Jisung, it wasn’t me that you missed.” 

He stammered, and huffed up those puffy cheeks of his. In one final attempt, he approached you carefully with those cute brown eyes that you would often let slip into your daydreams. He reached out for your cold hand and took it in his. Had it been several months ago, you would have killed for him to hold your hand like that. 

“I’ve been doing some thinking lately, especially when I hadn’t heard from you. I just...got this feeling like had done something wrong and I couldn’t figure out what the hell it was. Now, I know that I did. I...don’t like seeing you mad like this. Tell me what it is? I wanna see you at my show next week. I just want things to go back to the way that they were.” 

The way that things were. 

The way that things were was simplier. Easier. Just like he was. Jisung didn’t ask questions and Jisung didn’t take you out to noodle places just because he he felt like it. 

The way that things were would have been easier and his hand did feel pleasantly warm in yours like you had imagined. 

“I have to get to class Jisung.” 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

On that Friday evening when you marched up to the front door of Changbin’s apartment building, he stood hooded under the tin awning turned to rust brown with age. He huffed out a little under the dinky light of the old building, but as far as you could see, his cheeks and nose had blushed with pink. You wouldn’t have pegged him it for it, but he had draped a thick black scarf around his neck in the same place where he would usually display that thick silver chain. As soon as you locked eyes, he gave you a little wave with knees bouncing. 

“Shouldn’t you be inside?” Your breath vaporized into thin, white, visible droplets in the air.  

“I thought that I could meet you out here rather than have you wait in the cold. I realized I did that last time.” 

“Oh. Uh-thank you...I guess.” 

Changbin cracked out a little smile, then announced, “Come on, let’s get going.” 

“Get going? Get going where? Did you want to get noodles again?” 

He chuckled, then stepped out into the lightly falling snow. It tangled up in his curling locks and got caught in the fabric of his scarf. “Hm-no. Not this time.” 

Changbin looked over at you with his stormy grey eyes, something that hadn’t come to you as easily as before. Something in him had changed since you had first met him when he was standing on that stage as if it was the edge of the world. Before, you had felt as if you were drowning in the way that he carried himself, or the way that his gaze would bear down at you as if to test your strength. The aura that you once thought to be crushing had now turned into something much softer. 

“You coming or are you just gonna stand there?” 

One of his hands which he had tucked into his parka coat wiggled out to beckon you behind him. 

“Come on. Take it.” 

“Wh--” 

Changbin made the choice for you then shoved both of your hands into his pocket. “It’ll be warmer this way.” 

You scoffed at the gesture: it was the oldest trick in the book. “Really? Is it?” 

In the cramped pocket filled with lint, his thumb rubbed up against yours. You obliged, and he tugged you close to him with each and every finger interlaced between yours.  

“See? Feels better now doesn’t it?” 

Flecks of salt crunched under both of your shoes when you turned the corner lit by a single streetlight. Both of the fabric of your coats squeaked standing this close to eachother. His scarf was pulled up all the way to his chin, and his hair bopped with each and every step that he took. 

“You’re not going to tell me at all?” 

“Can’t you just let this happen? I’m trying to surprise you, damn...” 

“...Surprise? What...?” 

Changbin lead the two of you past another corner to a much busier street in the nighttime: it was bustling with cars and taxi’s and it was lined with little shops on each side that leaked out tantalizing smells. 

“Are we getting food here?” 

“Quit asking questions.” 

Two more blocks, and Changbin’s hand tugged at you all the way down the stairs to the subway where he used his own card to swipe you both in. Down there the sides of the walls were dirtied with old newspapers and cigarette butts, and the walls were of an aquamarine blue hue. 

“The subway? We can’t be going too far...right?” 

Still, he said nothing while he brought you right over the the waiting area, and the two of you stood amongst the businessmen in their best shirts stained with food smears and beer splatters as well as the nurses still in their scrubs after a long day. 

“I said stop to asking questions.” His sentence trailed with a bit of an edge. “Here, stay close.” 

A group of particularly raucous businessmen fell all over each other in a little pod closest to you and Changbin. It was as if it was instinctual for him the way that he wrapped his arm around your shoulder to pull you in to his chest where you stood on the subway deck. A dank smell of wet coats and the sweating bodies under them wove to the air once you had entered and mingled with the rest of the passengers. It was rush hour, and the capacity of the subway was near limit, so no seats could be found. You had to bury your face partially into that scarf of his as he held onto one of the straps dangling from the ceiling of the car. Both of your arms wrapped around him in a type of hug as you clung to his frame to keep your balance.

“Only a few more stops,” He assured you. 

The lull of the car drew a heavy and sleepy film over your eyes, and you found yourself nuzzling into his warmth and clinging to the fabric of his coat just a bit tighter. You had never guessed, but there was an odd sense of intimacy about holding on to one person on a speeding train in a crowd of people. 

“This one.” Changbin nudged you lightly, then pushed a few bodies out of your way bodyguard-style at the stop. “Watch your step.” 

He swept your hand back up into his, then he led the both of you to the staircase and the sound of the city that was much louder and obvious than it was at the stop by his home. His smug smirk only grew the higher and higher that you ascended. 

“Now are you going to tell me?” 

“You’re horrible with surprises. Changbin nudged you with his elbow. “I’m never surprising you again.” 

The skin of your cheeks were once more assaulted with the bite of the winter, and it took you several moments to figure out where he had taken you. 

“Look over to your left.” 

Just past a hectic intersection, there was the soft glow of lights: the first ones that you could see were yellow-white, and they were all tangled up in the branches of tree branches: making them appear as if the leaves had never fallen, but were instead replaced by these luminescent ones. You looked further past them to the entire park which was illuminated by similar string lights of all kinds of different colors: green and red, blue, pink and orange. Every single tree in the park was decorated with them, and they shone upon the area in a rainbow of colors. 

“Christmas lights?” 

“The last ones that they take down I think.”  

“I mean...I wasn’t expecting...this” You gestured to the sea of lights before you. 

The stoplight across the street blinked on to the little “walk” symbol. 

Confident as ever, Changbin didn’t falter. “Let’s go.” 

╚ ——————————————— ╝

You followed after Changbin under the canopy of spiny winter fingers and the lights that were spotted in between them. The passageway of the park was lined with benches on the side of the path and little groups of families, friends and couples each passed pointing out at the whole display. Christmas had been long gone, but somehow it still existed here in this little corner and the joviality it held with it. 

He motioned for you to sit and brushed off the remnants of snow caked on the wood. 

“I’ve got one more surprise for you.” 

“I thought you said that you weren’t going to surprise me anymore?” 

“Well, you’re in luck because I planned this one already.” 

From his pocket he took out what looked like a thin aluminum container with hinges on the side. The metal was cold in your hands when you popped it open and inside was a small sketchbook with dotted paper and a set of double-sided colored pencils.

“I thought...you said something about colors the other day and how you liked them so I thought you would like it here with all the lights and maybe you could draw it? If you want?” 

“Changbin...” 

The wooden pencils were of a waxy quality; likely the kind that you could get at a corner store but that wasn’t nearly what mattered the most. 

“Thank you. I mean it. I’ll draw something.” 

Your heart always skipped a beat the second that you brought your pencil to the paper, and this was no exception. Across from you, there was another bench, identical to the one you sat on, and behind it, was a tree wrapped in pink lights. You set to work quickly, copying the picture as best as you could, not even caring for the little mistakes you could make. Changbin watched you from your shoulder, but you had barely taken notice. Once you had finished, you scribbled your signature at the bottom habitually. 

“Here, I want you to have it.” You tore out the page. “It’s a thank you.” 

He turned it over in his hand, then lightly brushed his fingertips over the way that you and woven the tree branches together and how it looked like the bench was dipped in the symphony of multi-colored lights. Beyond the tree line, you had drawn a few of the skyscrapers crowning the scene which he traced over too. 

“Wow...um, thank you.” He hid his tiny grin after shoving it in his pocket. 

Together you both sat, saying nothing, but rather taking in the scene together just as you had done at the noodle shop. It was peaceful simply existing next to another human being like this. 

Your knuckles cracked in your lap while you recalled Chan and Felix’s urgings looking over at Changbin while he too wondered around himself. 

Its not good for you. Or for them. 

The man next to you rose, “Do you want to walk around a bit more? Or--”

“--Changbin...I need to tell you something.” 

“What is it?” Under the pink glow of the string lights, his skin appeared softer. 

“There’s something--I haven’t told you something and...you deserve to know.” 

“Know...what?” 

His head titled, examining the way that your face had fallen and became twisted up in the words on your tongue. He reached out to hold both of your cold-bitten cheeks in his hands, rubbing his thumbs to soothe you. You thought to yourself, there was something oddly intimate about standing out in the open with him like this: bearing yourself as such for the whole world to see, and how the tip of your nose rubbed up against his. 

The words stung in your throat with a pain like acid. 

“During this time when we were...there was also-I was also--” 

“--I know what you’re going to stay and I want you to stop.” 

“What?” 

Changbin scoffed. "I should have guessed anyway but, it’s not my place either since we never really said exactly what this is.” 

Your voice wavered, “I’m sorry. I’ll understand--” your arms fell to your sides. “--if you don’t want to--” 

“--I said stop. Do you need me to say it again? I don’t own you or any dumb shit like that, and you don’t owe me anything either. But, I appreciate the honesty though.” Changbin pulled your forehead to rest against his, exhaling out visible breaths. “What are you going to do now?” 

Just as he had done before, he reached down, all the way down your arms to wrap them around his waist. 

“I-I don’t know. But--I do know that, being around you is...different and--” You sniffled, “--I don’t want to give that up yet.” 

“Okay then. 

You held your eyes closed, but you could hear his one and only smirk in his words. 

“I wouldn’t mind sticking around either--but--you know what this means then?” 

“What’s that?” 

“You’re coming to my show next week.” 

“Ugh, fine. I’ll go.” 

Both of your breathless giggles filled the space between you both. 

Your chest shook with a sigh, the kind that had been trapped, or maybe just held in for too long. 

His lips were cold under the array of twinkling lights, and he delved himself into you carefully with his focus on nothing other than you. The way that he kissed you was terrifyingly beautiful: as if you were the way that each of the colors from the lines you sketched intersected and became one with the other. The heat of skin and the tip of his tongue filled your mouth with his promises that he had been composing for you since he had met you, and you could finally hear it for the first time. He had never changed the way in which he had done it from that first night.

He kissed you like he loved you, and maybe he really did.  

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»•» CHAN

the relationship had it’s highs and lows, yet it was everything that you could ever ask for - chan was loving, gave the best advice, and was always there the second you need him, but none of that has been shown as of late.

for a few months on end now he’s been hanging around late at the studio, overworking himself and coming home, instantly falling into bed; otherwise he’d go out with his friends for a few drinks and come back even later than before, making him more stressed and frustrated when you’d try and talk to him about anything the morning after.

“chan, would you please just listen to me?”

“who are you to think that you’ve got a say about what i do with my life?”

his job was always the priority, which was understandable from one angle, but that meant he neglected everything around him that mattered, and everybody that mattered, too.

finally, after dozens of useless arguments and fights, you’d have made up your mind, and nothing could change it.

“you’re not as ready for a relationship as you thought you were,” would be your last words to the man, who was left shattered on the floor with his heart in his hands after realizing just how much he lost.

»•» MINHO

it was all because of a party, and a stupid lie.

minho asked you if you’d come with him to his high school reunion get together and you cheerfully agreed, not having been out to a party in a while. 

you were having such a fantastic time and getting along with his old friend group when suddenly, a tall, attractive woman would join the group, and you saw minho’s eyes glaze over in discomfort. you squinted your eyes at him a little, something you’d do to non-verbally ask ‘what’s wrong’, but he just shook his head in response.

it wasn’t long after that when she’d start making moves on him, and dragged him out to dance. being the kind man he is, he muttered a hushed apology to you and went over to the dance floor, where he was getting pulled closer and closer until you spotted how the woman’s lips forcefully connected with his.

you were left in shock as your boyfriend pushed her away and rushed over to you, explaining how she was his ex and nobody knew about his new girlfriend - you. no, he didn’t want the kiss, no, he didn’t enjoy it - minho felt guilty as your lip trembled and you both left the reunion.

the next few weeks were strangely rough - every time you looked at minho you kept seeing his ex and comparing yourself. the boy would constantly remind you of how much better you are, and his ex was a complete waste of time, but he soon got tired of reassuring you, and you couldn’t handle the jealousy and guilt.

“i’ll wait for you, for when you’re ready..” minho said finally after spending hours convincing you to stay, but he couldn’t change your mind. he was so in love with you and so desperate to make you see that, but a mental barrier stopped you from enjoying your relationship as much as him, so with a quick kiss and a few more pleading cries from minho you were out the door.

»•» CHANGBIN

sometimes, being nice wasn’t a good thing, and changbin definitely made that clear.

you’d often come to the studio and hang around at the backstage of award shows, and whenever changbin wasn’t around, some other trainees and even idols would try and make their moves on you, you only disregarding their flirting as kindness and proceeding to make conversation.

it got on changbin’s nerves, it really did. he was so fearful of losing you that he became overprotective, and lead to his own downfall.

he’d be more judgy of your friends, more needy when you’re not around, and much more in love than ever before, making his fear so much more prominent.

it wasn’t something you could handle, but you really tried. you tried to distance yourself from the people that had been keeping contact with you solely to flirt, and tried to spend more time with your clingy boyfriend, but this was your life, not anybody else’s.

you were tired.

“changbin, i’m sorry,” was the only thing you could muster out after a fight, before leaving the man stranded, enveloped by his worst fear.

»•» HYUNJIN

right at the start of the relationship it was sailing all-so-smoothly until you had to leave korea to study in an american university. of course, neither of you were confident about you long distance relationship skills, but you were willing to try.

hyunjin did his best to be the most amazing boyfriend ever, he really did, but the physical distance between the two of you made the emotional distance appear as well. 

god, both of you tried so hard. he loved you, undoubtedly, and you loved him too, just not enough to be with him, and that’s what hurt the most.

when you had no choice but to phone him and tell him that you’re both done, he bought the first ticket over to your state and got to your place as fast as he could, only to be let down by an unanswered door and a cold break up.

»•» HAN

you had a life before jisung, which was obvious, but oftentimes a lot of people from that part of your lifetime would leak into the current one, like your close guy friends whom you’d hang out with quite frequently.

han wasn’t one to control the people you were friends with, but he got more serious about his asks to distance yourself from them after hearing those guy friends call you by nicknames han thought were reserved only for him and you, and for when you’re too drunk to come home and would stay over at their place.

deep in his heart he knew you’d never cheat, but nevertheless it bothered him, as it would with anyone. those guys kept flirting with you right in front of jisung’s eyes, and you didn’t even notice. 

your boyfriend’s sweet demeanor always faded when they were around, so not long after, you also got sick of being around someone so gloomy and cold, and the love in the relationship faded by itself, hurting both of you in the process. you’d go back to hanging out with your guy friends to make you feel better, and he spent his time healing with minho, a friend who was also always by his side.

»•» FELIX

chan was your best friend, and the one responsible for introducing you to felix. it was one of the best things he'd done, but being your best friend and all, you would be lying if you said you sometimes didn’t prefer chan over felix.

i mean, chan was your go-to for most things, especially during fights and felix’s busy days, and felix would also be lying if he said he didn’t feel neglected at times. he thought chan was more important to you since you met him first, and he’d get so moody and distant every time you’d mention chan that it got on your nerves.

“he’s my best friend, felix, don’t you get that!?”

“and i’m your boyfriend, y/n! that’s a little more than just a friend, isn’t it?”

either way, neither of you were happy about the way the other reacted during these kinds of fights, so you went ahead and told him the truth.

“felix, if you’re gonna be like this every time, then i’m sorry, but i can’t be with you.”

felix was left speechless, and after felix’s shrug and roll of the eyes, you realized the best decision was simply to leave, not knowing how heartbroken felix actually was.

»•» SEUNGMIN

seungmin was one of those boys that showed his undying love for you through protection, and it was oh-so-romantic and lovely at the beginning, but he got so overprotective with you that he’d judge your clothes, your social media, and your friends, too.

“don’t wear that out tonight, you know the boys will stare,” he’d say.

“i know it’s a big ask, but could you not hug jisung like that? it’s a bit too..much,” seungmin would critique.

it’s like whenever you made any move, said any word, he’d be watching and judging.

perhaps it was a misunderstanding between the two of you, or simply bad communication skills, but you thought he was controlling you for the sake of his image, and not for the sake of losing you to someone else.

either way, it always ended in an argument - you had to put your foot down at some point, didn’t you?

“i understand this is your first proper relationship, seungmin, but that’s not how relationships work,” you’d finally sternly approach him about it and he’d sink his shoulders, guiltily pressing his lips tight at your words. “and if you think this is what you call a healthy one, then i’m sorry, but it’s not for me.”

»•» JEONGIN

he’s young, and you knew that, so you were a bit more forgiving and lenient with the boy. obviously there wasn’t much you could complain about - jeongin is everyone’s little sunshine - but he had so much going on that often you weren’t one of the main priorities in his young mind.

he was forgetful, and never picked up on the hints when you were upset. he was just too inexperienced with romantic relationships, but you decided to give him time nonetheless.

it’s been several months, and after numerous times when you’ve brought up what was upsetting you, he’d just smile with a nod and say a quick ‘sorry’ before continuing to be as before, and all that was building up inside you.

he wasn’t accustomed to change, and got too comfortable in the relationship - too much for you liking, anyway - so you decided to break it off before you sacrificed yourself any longer. this wasn’t how you wanted to be treated.

*look, i know the gif is of him smiling but let’s pretend he’s on the verge of tears lol*

[not-reagan]

milf: man i love forests

pairing: deforester boo seungkwan x frat boy mirror demon han jisung (side pairing reagan x rainbow)

genre: crack, strangers to friends to lovers, non-idol au

warnings: cursing, brief supernatural elements, i don’t know if this applies but all lcase, and i listened to christmas music and abba while writing this

word count: 2.7k

authors note: happy birthday @miyuuraiura !! i am so sorry about this monstrosity being your birthday gift but you asked for it so it's your fault entirely. i was gonna include some context on this story for those who are not rainbow and i but actually i don't think i will.

seungkwan did what he could to get by. he loved nature, he really did, but sometimes you have to make moral sacrifices to survive. he was a college kid strapped for cash, and when he saw a sign reading “GET RICH QUICK, INVEST IN DEFORESTATION” in the summer going into his freshmen year, he jumped at the opportunity. sure, he would have rather been a freelance singer, hired for bar-mitzvahs and children's parties, but that job market was flooded at the moment.

jisung, on the other hand, had no care for nature. actually, he didn't care for any human things, apart from “banging parties, booze, the boys™, and bitches”. he hated quite a bit about earth, the worst of all to him being college. as a demon, he had no reason to attend university, but after he was summoned in the bathroom of a frat house by the school’s power couple; rainbow and reagan, he felt obliged to follow the two around and keep them company.

for seungkwan, his main job rarely required in person work. he usually just chose plots of land to demolish, and sent plans to local managers. the only time he actually had to knock down any trees himself was during his summer break. he has a part time job of course, but it didn't provide him enough cash to survive. for someone with a job as a deforester, he truly did do what he could to save the environment. he joined his schools environmental club, becoming vice president his sophomore year because of his work with them. he kept his job a secret, not even telling his parents where the influx of cash was coming from. he kept a low profile and went through the motions of life. he didn't have much of a social life, with his small amount of friends being from the environmental club.

han jisung found joy in witnessing his professors and fellow students lose their minds over his lack of effort in class. he did the bare minimum and still passed with flying colors. most of all, it angered his seatmate in earth science, who happened to be none other than boo seungkwan. seungkwan was a hard worker in everything he did, particularly in school. he didn't get the best grades, but by no means was he the worst. averaging a steady B+, seungkwan spent most of his nights studying or working, rarely going to parties and enjoying himself only through one person karaoke rooms.

this fact upset jisung. he didn't know why, but seeing seungkwan so tired every day made him feel sad(? jisung wasn't sure what it made him feel. it was an emotion he had never experienced before. rainbow told him it meant he had a crush. to this he threw an empty soda can at them). not to mention seungkwan’s upsetting karaoke addiction, which he knew all about the danger of because of reagan, who spent most of her weekends drunk and singing. jisung didn’t know why he took such a liking to seungkwan. what he did know was that he was ecstatic to find that they would be paired together for a project. a project that required quite a bit of teamwork, and a lot of after school work sessions.

seungkwan liked to think that he didn’t hate anyone. he hated evil people, like hitler and stalin and jyp, but he didn’t really hate anyone besides the worst of the worst. that was until he experienced jisung. he wasn’t sure why jisung always talked to him when he was trying to take notes in class. he especially wasn’t sure why he was so excited to be partnered up together for the project that was worth 25% of their grade. seungkwan was less than happy to have to cooperate with jisung for an extended period of time, and he was not looking forward to letting him into his dorm room, or going anywhere near jisung’s frat house. seungkwan had no idea what he was pushed into.

they planned to meet at the cafe on campus at 5:00 pm after class. seungkwan was less than happy. jisung was thrilled. when jisung arrived seungkwan was sitting at a table drinking an americano and working on an english essay. he wasn't sure how to approach him, slowly walked closer before tapping on his shoulder. seungkwan jolted in his seat.

“jesus fuck jisung. you scared the crap out of me,” seungkwan gasped. jisung’s ears flushed as he brought his hand to the back if his neck.

“sorry,” he started, pausing for a second before starting again, “why don't we get started?”. he swung his bag down to the ground as he took a seat. seungkwan offered a small, non genuine smile before pulling out the project’s guidelines.

“let's try to finish this as quickly as possible. im pretty busy and don't have much time to fool around.” seungkwan said. jisung felt his heart drop. did seungkwan really think that little of him? granted, he always dozed off in class but he got his work done on time and in an orderly fashion. he felt his mind begin to wander. if seungkwan felt this way about him now, how would he feel when he found out that jisung was a demon. would seungkwan start to like him if he knew him better? jisung couldn't figure out why he cared so much about how seungkwan perceived him. he had never had an issue with others opinions of him before, so what made seungkwan so different? for some reason, jisung felt the need to connect with seungkwan. if not for himself, then at least to help him let loose.

after working silently on each of their portions of the projects for 3 hours, jisung finally spoke up. “do you want to maybe come to my party next month? well, it's not my party, it's for rainbow’s birthday. i know you're not one for social interaction but it would be cool to see you there. i’ll give you the details if-”

“i’d love to go,” seungkwan cut off jisung’s rambling. to be honest, he wasn't exactly sure what he was agreeing to, but he knew it would shut jisung up, and seungkwan valued his peace and quiet. part of him also just felt downright bad for the other. he seemed to be trying awfully hard to become friends with seungkwan, and he wouldn’t admit it, seungkwan had started to warm up to the boy. he really wasn’t as much of an issue as he had thought before, and was actually really respectful of seungkwan’s wishes. maybe i’ll give him a chance, seungkwan thought before going back to his work.

over the next month, jisung and seungkwan continued meeting to work on their project. seungkwan was less short with the other, and jisung was still red faced every time seungkwan decided to talk to him, which became quite frequently over the next few weeks. jisung was starting to realize that the feelings he had for seungkwan were not simply platonic, and that he didn’t just want to be friends with him. with the help of rainbow and reagan, he had come to the conclusion that he really, really liked seungkwan, and that he was going to do something about it. remembering that he had invited seungkwan to the party, he devised a plan to not only tell seungkwan about his whole “i’m actually a demon” thing, but also about his true feelings. it wouldn't be easy, but it was what he had to do.

a month later, seungkwan still wasn’t exactly sure why he had agreed to go to jisungs frat house at 9:00 pm on a saturday night. yet there he was, standing on the front porch of a large house, wondering if he should bite the bullet and walk in, or spare himself and leave right then. he didn't get a choice, however, as rainbow and reagan stepped out of the house giggling while clutching onto each other. both stopped in their tracks when they saw seungkwan. the couple and seungkwan stared at each other for a good minute before seungkwan shook himself from his trance.

“hey rainbow!” seungkwan started, “and reagan too. i know we aren’t super close, but jisung invited me and i thought i’d just drop by and wish you a happy birthday.” he passed her a birthday card filled with $50 bucks and then turned to leave. “i’ll leave you guys now. have a great birthday!” before seungkwan could get very far, however, rainbow grabbed him by the arm.

“hey, i’d love if you’d stay! at least go say hi to jisung. i’m sure he’d like to see you,” she said, silently making note to have jisung pay her back for being a great wingwoman.

“he’s probably hiding in the second floor bathroom. if you don't see him in there, just say his name three times in front of the mirror. he’ll appear.” reagan explained. seungkwan thought she was joking. how wrong he was.

following his entrance to the house, he had to refuse not one, not two, but three different people who were looking to give him bottles or cups of something which seungkwan presumed to be various types of alcohol. navigating through the house was difficult, reaching the stairs to the second floor only after running into numerous people borderline fucking on two large couches in the living room, a smoke circle taking place in what seungkwan assumed to be a dining room, and a very aggressive makeout session against a wall. once he finally reached the second floor, he had some difficulty finding the bathroom, accidentally walking in on reagan and rainbow, who had miraculously made it upstairs faster than he had.

“if you don’t stop shitting constantly i am going to break up with you! also, stop taking feet pics! it’s weird!” he heard rainbow shout.

“at least i can eat seafood! how does it make your head hurt? you’re the weakest link! that fucking seafood platter was delicious. and you know what, i’m glad i didn’t have to share it with you!” reagan responded. seungkwan quickly shut the door, not wanting to get involved in whatever drunken argument was going on there. after a bit more searching, he finally stumbled across the right room. knocking first to see if anyone was in there, he entered, and to his surprise, nobody was there. jisung was nowhere to be seen. seungkwan reviewed his options. he could a) leave the party, or b) continue to look around the packed house. but there was another option. he thought about it for a second.

“what's the harm in trying,” seungkwan thought out loud, before staring directly into the mirror.

“han jisung, han jisung, han jisung.”

nothing happened. that's what seungkwan thought, until a minute later the lights in the bathroom flickered off and the mirror began to glow. “what. the. fuck,” seungkwan managed to squeak out before falling backwards into the tub. first a leg emerged, then two arms, and finally the rest of jisung’s body.

“i feel like the genie in aladin every time i have to get into a fucking mirror,” jisung complained before seeing seungkwan toppled over. to that view, he jumped down off the counter and moved to help him up. seungkwan, aside from falling, seemed to be reacting well to the whole situation, at least in the sense that instead of freaking out he seemed to be in a state of shock. jisung took this as a good sign, and lifted the motionless body up onto the toilet seat.

“hey seungkwan, you there?” jisung waved his hand in front of seungkwan's face as he slowly came to his senses.

“what kind of twisted party trick was that?” seungkwan asked, pretty seriously. jisung just laughed.

“you summoned me from the mirror. i’m like a funny version of michael jackson except i'm a demon and not a man in the mirror.” jisung explained. seungkwan just stared. “are you ok kwan? do you want me to get you some water?”

“it was… kind of sick.” seungkwan stated. he didn't know why he wasn't scared. under any other circumstance like this one, he probably would have shit his pants. for some reason he felt comfortable around jisung. he felt warm. he felt seen. it was something he hadn't felt before. that's when he realized. he wondered why it took himself to long to figure it out. he never hated jisung. he just didn't know what to do with the fact that he made him feel special, and that he felt as though he belonged when they were together. it had hit him why he was so nervous the whole night, why he had wanted to make such a good impression, and why he was willing to embarrass himself by calling out jisungs name as opposed to just choosing to go home. it was because he loved him.

“can i tell you something?” both of the boys said at the same time. jisung giggled and seungkwan flushed red. **authors note! bonus starts here**

“you first,” seungkwan offered. he wasn't exactly sure he would be able to make it through a sentence without getting any redder than he already was.

jisung took this opportunity to finally get his true feelings out into the air, “i like you… uhh like, i like like you. i have since we first became seatmates. well, i think that's when i've liked you since. i knew whe-”

“you're rambling again,” seungkwan told him. jisung flushed a dark shade of pink. “it's a habit of yours. i think it's cute actually.” seungkwan wasn't sure where his sudden surge of confidence came from, but he was glad it came. he was standing up now, holding jisungs hands in his. jisungs heart was racing a mile a minute as he looked down at their intertwined hands and them back up, catching seungkwan looking directly at his lips. “can… can i kiss you?” seungkwan stuttered out. jisung couldn't find his words, so he opted to just nod.

when their lips connected, seungkwan could have sworn he heard fireworks. he did later find out that someone was setting off a firework in the back yard, but it was the thought that counted. their lips melted together perfectly, and seungkwan wondered why it took him so long to admit his feelings to himself. he could have been kissing jisung for a month before this.

once they finally parted, seungkwan spoke softly, “i like you too. i think that's pretty obvious now but just in case you didn't know.” jisung had the dumbest, most confused face on, and seungkwan had the brightest smile he'd ever had. seungkwan had rendered jisung speechless, for once in his life. not long after, they started kissing again, content with their emotions and their new relationship.

seungkwan was never one to believe that good things were permanent. he was overdramatic, stubborn, and hated interacting with people outside his small social circle. that was until han jisung came along. he was starting to think that maybe, just maybe, he could let someone else into his life.

jisung was a simple man. well, not a man, but he was simple nonetheless. he liked banging parties, booze, the boys™, and bitches. well maybe there was one more thing he liked. he knew for sure he liked boo seungkwan. maybe he loved him. maybe seungkwan even felt the same way.

-fin

**BONUS**

reagan and rainbow leaned up against the door to eavesdrop on their matchmaking work.

“holy shit!” reagan gasped.

“what is it?? tell me what happened. you're hogging up the door!” rainbow hissed.

“our boy is so grown up,” reagan pretended to cry. “put your goddamn ear up here.” rainbow felt her ear connect with the cold door just as jisung confessed his feelings.

“i like you… uhh like, i like like you. i have since we first became seatmates. well, i think that's when i've liked you since. i knew whe-” his next words were cut off on the girls side of the door as reagan squealed.

“shut your mouth! seungkwans saying something!!” rainbow said, obviously annoyed that reagan was obstructing her ability to hear the exchange.

“can… can i kiss you?” they heard seungkwan say. both looked at each other in shock.

“oh. my. god.” was all rainbow could say.

“i think we should give them some alone time,” reagan suggested as she tugged rainbow down the hall.

“i think we need some alone time for ourselves,” rainbow said as reagan pushed her into a random room and locked the door behind them.

[itsarealshitshow]

Stray Kids’ reaction to falling in love with a fan secretly

Requested by anon

Pairing: Stray Kids x reader

Warnings: None

Author: Admin Wiki 

Scenario: Each member has a secret fan account to keep up with their fans and to secretly interact with them. Eventually they make friends with a fan online who thinks they’re just another fan. However, now that the members have fallen in love with you, what will they do?

Bang Chan (Bang Chan or Bang Chris)

Chris already knew that stays knew about him having a secret twitter account. He started it as a way to stay connected with his fans and to see what they thought about recent comebacks or what concepts they want to see. But now he mainly uses it to talk to a special fan that captured his heart. You’d messaged him first wanting to become friends and mememates. At the beginning of the friendship, both of you agreed to keep your identities anonymous. However, it wasn’t too long before Chan was head over heels for you. 

To be honest his first reaction is just staring at a wall thinking about the situation he got himself into. It seems unreal that he’s fallen for a fan he’s never even seen or met in person. He’ll want to come clean about his feelings but because you guys are anonymous he thinks it’d be weird. Chan will slowly start hinting that you guys should video call or show each others photos of yourselves. Eventually when you reveal your face, he will too. 

He’s all like “let’s go on skype to see each other for the first time. It’ll make it special” and bam his face is on the screen. You were so confused and when it finally hit it was over for you. He’ll confess his feelings to you that same night and hopes that you like him too. 

i mean if chan appeared on my screen i’d piss myself and be so flustered. i would definitely say yes to him. y/n is always living the life i want 😪 

Lee Know (Lee Minho)

He’s literally only ever on his secret accounts once a month. He probably never remembers about them until Felix sends him something and is like hyung please look at this. However this one time, Minho noticed he had a DM from someone other than his members. This intrigued him and made him look at it. He quickly becomes more invested in the platform that his secret account is on. 

He’s literally only on that certain platform for you. He hasn’t seen your face but your personality and mannerisms definitely ensnared him. Which is also something his members quickly realized. Felix teases the hell out of him about the fact that he only ever checks the app to see if you sent him something. 

This also makes him realize that he likes you. Someone who he’s never seen, never met, never spoken to. It makes him question himself and his feelings for a little bit. bc to be honest with you guys talking to someone online is way different than talking to them in person. especially if you like them Without a doubt he tries to keep it secret from the members, but Chan figures it out way too fast. Chan being the absolute dad that he is, encourages Minho to confess to you. Chan’s encouraging works because Minho plans on confessing to you as soon as you know his real identity. 

Seo Changbin

He’s both the person who never goes on his secret account and the person who’s always on the app. It stays the same even when you guys start talking. He can be on it for a week straight or he won’t be on it for a month. But of course when he’s on it he’ll take the time to actually respond to your texts. You always text him theories that you’ve seen and funny memes that other stays have made. 

It’s before one of their comebacks when he’s writing songs that he realizes that he’s fallen for you. It’s something that helps inspire him during his slumps and that makes him happy to feel. He’ll keep it to himself for a long time but after his realization he’s definitely going to go on his secret account a lot more than usual. He won’t disappear for a month and will start to talk to you consistently. He can’t believe that he’s fallen for a fan. To him it seems like something that rarely happens and that he should appreciate. 

Huang Hyunjin

He definitely has like a tiktok or instagram account to see what the fans are up to. I feel like he’s really good at blending in with his account, not making it too obvious it’s him. Cause Felix or Jisung would accidentally confess their real identities. He’s the one who started to talk to you first, wondering how you felt about their recent comeback and what you think their next one would be. You’d send each other memes, crack videos and so much random shit. 

Eventually you’d be the one to ask if you could send each other photos of each other or maybe go on a video call because you’ve been talking for a while. You’re just curious and if he’s okay with it you want to see each other. He’ll send a photo of himself and be like ‘I don’t think you’ll believe that this is actually me’. So of course you’re like ‘Send a photo of yourself with Chan and the both of you with toothbrushes and teddy bears’. Something specific like that and he’s like 😐  girl I’ll just video call you. 

He already had a crush on you before seeing you, but after being on video call together he quickly realizes that he needs to tell you how he feels before someone else snatches you up. He doesn’t care that you’re a fan because in reality you’re just a regular person who idolizes him. A while after you guys started to video call more frequently and he’s certain you’re good and the one for him, he’ll confess his feelings.  

Han (Han Jisung)

He’s not as bad as Felix but seeing as they were literally born a day apart, they’re pretty much the same. He’s definitely got a secret twitter, instagram and tiktok. He’s on them as much as he can because they’re all really fun but we all know that he’s also writing songs and in the studio all the time. 

When he starts talking to you it’s both of you clowning stays. You’re all like “hii I know we haven’t talked before but I like the stuff you post so here’s something I think you’ll like.” AND NO CAP HE’S PROBABLY ALREADY FALLEN FOR YOU. You guys talk a lot after that and there’s multiple times where he’s revealed his identity and that you just sit there all confused. He’ll quickly be like “haha I’m joking.” 

Finally there’s a time where he suggests you two do a video call and you accept. But mans forgot that you’ve never seen each other and he answers your call both of you just sit and stare at the screen like 👁 👄 👁 . He’s “ahaha yeah um, hi. I’m Jisung, what’s your name.” He kinda panics about liking a fan but soon after that video call you two organize to meet. And when you finally visit him he’ll confess. 

Lee Felix (Lee Felix or Lee Yongbok)

Felix knows that we know he has a secret twitter and tiktok account. It’s so painfully obvious. Of course none of us have found it yet so maybe we’ve already unintentionally interacted with him. 

In not so new news, there’s a clown right here. When he first started his account he started talking to a select few people and quickly became friends with you. On multiple occasions he’s accidentally said things like ‘What did you think of my comeback?’ or ‘What do you think of my new hair colour?’ and send a photo of himself that hasn’t been posted yet. He quickly realizes his mistakes and covers them up by changing the sentence and posting the photo to the Stray Kids instagram. 

It takes him a long time to realize that he likes you. It’s Chan who makes him realize it by asking questions about you and seeing Felix’s reaction. Every single time Felix immediately smiles which makes Chan tell him that he should confess. This causes Felix to panic. You were a fan and he was the idol you adored. Would you be with him because you genuinely liked him? or just because he was an idol? 

He decides that he has to confess either way or else he might start drowning in his feelings. 

Kim Seungmin

He doesn’t seem like one of the members who has a secret stan account. Like Chan or Felix stole his phone and downloaded it so they could scroll on it if they didn’t have their phones. One day he gets a notification from one of the apps Chan and Felix downloaded onto his phone. Curious, he opens it and sees that it’s you sending a meme and are like “Your comments are super funny here’s a meme I think you’re gonna like.” Seugmin was like “Oh uh sorry it’s my friend who uses this account I’ll show it to him for you though.” Quickly though, Seungmin starts using the account for himself and starts to befriend you. 

It’s not until Felix accidentally looks at the texts you guys have been sending each other that he realizes just how he feels. He realizes after he gets mad at Felix and telling him it’s an invasion of privacy to just read these intimate texts. i mean it is but i’m more relaxed with people reading some of the texts that my friends and i have sent. He’ll want to confess to you pretty soon after that incident. To him it doesn’t matter if you’re a fan or not because he likes you for you. 

I.N. (Yang Jeongin)

He’s like Felix and Jisung. He’s on his secret account all the time but no one really notices because he doesn’t make references all the time. He loves being on his secret accounts and talking to fans secretly. It makes him feel closer to fans when comebacks are close. 

You direct messaged him first which is what made the friendship blossom. You two send each other memes of his members and of just random things, like shows you two watch. It takes Chan talking to Jeongin about you to make him realize how he feels about you. He gets super nervous about the fact that he likes you. This insecurity comes from the fact he feels like if he were to reveal his identity you’d like him because he’s an idol you like and not for him. He’s not going to want to confess anytime soon sadly because of his worries.