#do i have to censor the vag word?

[kingdaddydaichi]

Just wanna say I love him. 🤍 👑

[callmearcturus]

I'm honestly very grateful to this bluesite for just demolishing my flinch reactions to cunt and faggot.

/points up. That may be the first time I've ever written those words without self-censoring them. And heads up, those words are going to come up a lot in the following paragraphs.

I remember the first time I reconsidered the term faggot actually. I was still following Cecil Baldwin (of Welcome to Night Vale) on Twitter (yanno, back when twitter was a thing) and he was on a flight or something and posted that he was reading a book called Faggot Wisdom and shared some excerpts.

And my immediate mental reaction, which thankfully did not leave my brain, was "I wish you wouldn't use that term."

And that stopped me dead in my fucking tracks because wow, what the actual fuck, self? Cecil Baldwin is a faggot, that is the term he has casually used in the past, and its something that he identifies with. He's an HIV-positive gay man who has likely been through shit I cannot imagine as someone who exists in that nebulous space of having enough fame to have a following and notoriety but not enough to, like, afford the insulation that celebrities have.

That was like the literally day and moment I decided I needed to break my flinch reaction to faggot. Because the people I care about are faggots, and to some (okay, many), I am a faggot. And the one thing I know from the bottom of my fucking heart is that whoever is being called a faggot is my ally and I will defend them.

/points up. All of that was still difficult to type and I'm resisting the urge to redact some of it, but I am also a conscious human who has control of my actions, so I will not. But the important thing is that I'm not flinching anymore. I currently lack the power and confidence to use faggot casually, but maybe I will get there one day. I will not, however, shy from it anymore.

The same goes for cunt. (Context, I am an American from the South/Midwest.) I grew up with the understanding that I would never ever in my life even think of uttering the word cunt to another human being, that is was The Big Misogynist Slur as it reduces women down to their use for sex and reproduction. And I nodded along to that for a very long time, it made sense.

But these days, I have... essentially no inclination to attach the vagina to women, lmao. Everyone is a work in progress, but I am fairly pleased and at peace with how my brain doesn't really make the boobs/vag = woman connection anymore. Someone's gender is mental and emotional and maybe spiritual, and their body is just the vehicle carrying all of that around, yanno?

So the Hip And New trend of tumblr using cunt in the specific comedic way we now do has been extremely helpful in decoding that flinch reaction to the word. It's a funny word! It can convey so much so quickly! And on this hellsite, it has no gender connotation. Everyone, regardless of their biology or gender identity, can serve cunt, and that's great.

I think I have to work a bit to get to the point of uses these terms myself, but. They are my terms and they don't need to hurt me, and I don't want to give them power to hurt others.

BIG SIGH. Anyway. Just something I was thinking about.

[baradorable]

My opinions on the current anime season. I’ll go over come popular shows and try to warm you up to some hidden gems.

Attack on Titan (Season 4)

I ended up liking this show a lot more than I thought I would. I ended up binging the first three seasons in like a week. Now I’m impatiently waiting for more episodes.

I will say that I’m kind of mixed on this one, though. Like I know they want to flesh out the country of Marley, make the war less one-sided and establish how villainous Eren is later, or whatever. I preferred it when the characters were fighting the enigmatic, monstrous force of titans. The political drama was like the least interesting parts of season 3. (That, and Eren being kidnapped for the millionth time.) Regardless, I’m still liking what we have so far, and there’s only one thing that makes me hesitate.

Gabi Braun. Fucking Gabi Braun. She’s so fucking obnoxious. She’s like Eren, except without the character traits that made him interesting. We have less reason to care about her, and her story is mostly just a retread of Eren’s. And I’d tolerate that if she wasn’t such an obnoxious cunt all the damn time. “But euuhughhg Gabi is a kid and she’s brainwashed! She’s actually really well-written!��� Yeah, but she’s still an annoying little shit and less sympathetic than the other Marleyans we’re focusing on. She shouldn’t be the main focus character.

“Did you see it happen?” BITCH. There’s being brainwashed and there’s being a fucking moron. And don’t give me that “Well, in real life, brainwa-” Yeah, I don’t care. She’s not real. The only thing real about her is the headache she gives me.

So she’s this unlikable kid who came in and killed a fan-favorite character. I loved Sasha. Everyone did. But I’ll live. (Unlike her.) But she just HAD to be killed by fucking Garbage Braun of all people. Honestly, if Falco killed Sasha, I’d get over it. He’s a way better character than Gabi. I could go on and on about how he works better on a fundamental level, but none of you are even reading this post in the first place. So whatever.

8/10

Beastars (Season 2)

It’s good. I don’t like it as much as season 1, but I’m enjoying it a lot. It’s not a show I actively wait for, but it’s always pleasant to see.

7.5/10

Cells at Work!! Code Black

I never saw the original Cells at Work, but this show makes me not want to. Because I don’t think it would be as good as Code Black.

For those who haven’t seen it, Cells at Work is basically about humanized cells working in a body. You follow a red blood cell as they deliver oxygen, and you encounter all sorts of issues and quirks you see in a body. From sicknesses, to infections, to even cancer, you actually learn a lot. It’s genuine edutainment.

Black is set in a body that’s incredibly unhealthy. The characters are scrambling to survive and keep a failing body going. There’s this growing sense of dread each episode as the body grows worse and worse. You get frustrated because these characters don’t deserve the Hell they go through, and you just want to shout at the human to eat healthy, quit smoking and shape up. Because you care about the cells and want them to have a better work environment.

It’s really fun and makes me feel guilty for my unhealthy habits.  

7.5/10. Maybe 8/10 if these last few episodes keep up the momentum.

Dr. Stone

I really liked season 1, and I’m liking this season so far as well. I prefer the set-up and use of tech in season 1, season 2 is kind of moving too fast with tech while the story is a little slow. But despite all that, this show is still great and is on track to becoming a classic. If it weren’t for Attack on Titan, it would be Anime of the Season for me.

8/10

Jobless Reincarnation: 

A 40-year-old NEET gets isekai’d into the body of a baby. You watch this child with an adult mind grow up and learn about this magical fantasy world. It’s pretty good, I like it. It has good humor, nice characters, interesting lore, and a fun magic system. 

If you ever watched Isekai Cheat Magician? (Of course you didn’t. No one did.) This is what Isekai Cheat Magician wishes it could be.

I give this show a 7/10. It loses points because it made me think of Isekai Cheat Magician just now.

Ex-Arm

No words. Except four words: Go watch this show.

Oh boy. This show is. This show is a doozy. If I had to explain, I would say it’s like... shit. Because it is shit. But it’s very entertaining shit.

The story and characters are cool, but unimportant. You just can’t get into them because the animation is the highlight of the story. It just blows every other aspect of the show out of the water.

What kind of animation are we talking about? If I had to describe it, it would be the visual equivalent of that girl on Tik Tok who made a video series where she plays a Jewish girl during the Holocaust. It’s like a present you would give your eyes, if you hated them and wanted them to die.

Some characters are 2D, but the rest are 3D. And not even good 3D, because this shit is worse than those bootleg mobile games with stolen assets that don’t fit together. They had to censor kisses because they couldn’t animate lips moving, and pushing their faces together would just make their models clip. One of the characters has a wide-eyed smile all the time, no matter the situation, because there’s like no animation for her expressions. This show makes the 3D Pokemon games look like fine art.

Another thing I’d like to mention is the opening song, if only because I can’t tell if it’s good or terrible. I genuinely can’t tell if I like it ironically, or unironically. Either way, it’s perfect for this show.

So yeah, I love this show. It’s such a fucking mess in the best way. It always brings a smile to my face. I just wish the story was bad, so I can have another level of awfulness to enjoy. This show never fails to make me smile. Anime of the fucking decade right here.

HELLO, HELLO/10

Kemono Jihen

It’s kind of like Inuyasha, except without the humans, Naraku has big boobs, the Shikon Jewel/life stones aren’t that important yet, Bakugo from My Hero Academia is on the cast, everyone is a 12-year-old with bad fashion sense, and it’s a lot more generic in premise and execution.

So, nothing like Inuyasha. Honestly it’s more like My Hero Academia in terms of vibes. I still enjoy it though. My favorite character is probably the little fox girl because I like her design. But I also like the little fox boy because I’m not entirely sure what game he’s playing, but I’m into it. 

6.7/10

Redo of Healer

It’s basically just rape hentai with a budget. Honestly, I appreciate the boldness of the show, if anything. (Aside from the fact that they don’t show any dick or vag. How cowardly.) The sex scenes are decent and frequent, so no complaints there. I’m not really into rape (been there, getting raped isn’t fun), but a true hentai connoisseur can still appreciate it.

Plot-wise, it’s neat. Making the main character a revenge-seeking rapist fighting even worse rapists is an interesting take. And there’s a lot of fun creativity in how he uses his powers, though I wish they explained them more. Like I get how he’s doing everything, but breaking it down would make them feel more intriguing. He’s also a broken self-insert power fantasy, but it’s nice seeing one that’s smart, evil and methodical. 

In execution, it’s a pretty generic story with generic settings and plots. The lead’s carrying the whole thing, though I can’t help but like the villains for being so over-the-top evil. If nothing else, the audacity and sex scenes make this show worth watching. Pretty entertaining.

Re: The harem. Setsuna is too young and innocent for my tastes, but I like her. The white-haired girl is cool, she’s my favorite even though she hasn’t really done anything yet. Freia’s meh, but I like the idea of her being a major cunt despite the memory wipe. 

I give this one five rapes out of ten. And if you like this show, I recommend reading that one Megg, Mogg & Owl comic where the characters become obsessed with rape-based puns.

Re:Zero (Season 2, second half)

I love this show. The first season was pretty good. The second half of season 2 was also pretty good, and the plot was shaping up to be great. But now we’re in the second half of season 2, and it’s meh. Which is really disappointing for such a great show.

Like, I get what they’re trying to do: they’re shaping up alliances, digging into the characters’ pasts, moving everyone forward, yadda yadda. But this arc is so slow now. It feels like we’ve seen nothing but flashbacks, characters standing around and talking, flashbacks, more talking, flashbacks. There’s so little action to break things up. The mystery and exploration from earlier episodes is gone, since we pretty much understand the important things. We’re just left waiting for the things they’ve been building up to, to finally happen. 

“AEUUGHG You’re Just an action anime fanboyyy, this is serious plot and excellent story!!” It’s endless exposition, flashbacks that go on way too long, and characters standing around and repeating the same points over and over. Compare how the story was delivered in the previous season. 

6/10

The Promised Neverland (Season 2)

Boy, did this show go off the rails in only a few episodes. What the fuck is even going on in this show anymore?

I ranted about this show on Twitter, but it pisses me off. Season 1 was a well-crafted, suspenseful show about these kids using their brains to unravel the mysteries around them, plan a daring escape from their captors and try to survive in a world of monsters. It was easily one of the best anime of 2019.

Season 2 skips about 80 chapters and off-screens tons of development. Like Norman fucking shows up in season 2, all fine and dandy with his own personal army of freaks. Also he lead his own escape, learned a ton of info AND found a way to auto-kill all their enemies, and we didn’t even get a flashback of any of this. Now Emma’s bitching about saving demons, even though they’re all assholes who probably wouldn’t change their ways even if they could. But she’s an iDeAlIsSTTT!!!!! But she was an idealist last season and had to learn how to compromise when faced with the reality of the situation? And the whole William Minerva plot, which was a major driving force in the last season, was handwaved away and unceremoniously dropped?

So yeah, I dropped it after episode 4 or 5. It’s not even fun to hate-watch I’d give it a 3/10 on its own, but it gets a -2/10 for ruining a great legacy.

Sk8

Free!, except they’re skating instead of swimming. It’s a well-animated show with an interesting premise: undergound gay skateboarding. The battles are fun, the characters (while cliche) are appealing, and it’s fun. And yeah. 

But I dropped this one because Langa is boring as a lead. Canadians, they don’t deserve representation. He’s a fine character besides that, but he’s gotten way too much screentime over the other protag, Reki. Reki was just pushed aside and the show quickly became about Langa. Which is sad, because I feel like this show would have benefitted from making them both stars. Especially since the characters’ friendship is a key selling point.

Ended up dropping this show. I read through later comments that they’re making a plot point about Reki falling behind, but even the fans are having their doubts that he’ll have a satisfactory story. And even if they make him a real protag again, the show’s been so imbalanced that I don’t think it’ll matter. Especially since we only have like 4 episodes left.

6/10

Yashahime

The sequel to Inuyasha, staring Sesshomaru and Rin’s twins, and Inuyasha and Kagome’s daughter. Except 2/3rds of the main cast are dull, and most of the stories are blatant retreads of Inuyasha plots, starring retreads of Inuyasha characters.

Think I’m kidding? The first episode was about Mistress Three-Eyes (Mistress Centipede but with three eyes instead of two) coming to eat the character’s magic sacred jewels. Rainbow fucking pearls, what the hell is this shit plot. Fuck you.

“Euhrghhghgh but they’re just paying homage to the old show!” Nah, they’re fucking ripping it off every step of the way. 

The most frustrating thing about this show is how Moroha, Inuyasha and Kagome’s daughter, is such a great character. She has great dynamics with other characters because she’s so lively. She has the best traits of her parents, while still being unique on her own. Then you have Sesshomaru’s kids, who are just Kagome 2 and Tsundere. The latter has more depth than that, but she’s  not that great anyway.

Guess who’s the focal point of the series? The fucking Kagome knock-off, followed by the tsundere. Moroha is a minor character who is often forgotten by the plot, or reduced to a joke. The already-boring plots are exacerbated by them ignoring best girl to focus on 

And I’m not alone on this, too. Read all the anime forums, pirating websites, and pretty much anywhere talking about this show. Moroha is the most popular character, far and away. People like her way more than the twins. 

4/10

[kaoarika]

As I was tweeting a few of days ago, I wish I was liveblogging my reactions to a webtoon that I’m reading (I mostly read from the LINE Webtoons site, and sometimes, SOMETIMES I check the Discover part of the website ...where I swear needs a better searching system? THERE’S A LOT THERE), because I’m mostly amused at it.

Long story short is that I freaking LOVE "Anne”, even though it gives me some overwhelming and uneasiness feelings around. 

IT's a VERY slow burn (?) romance story (I read material from 2015 up until now) and there are TON of things that haven't been resolved YET (and the in-universe time pace is "a couple of weeks" what).

I know it’s not a perfect story (and the characters are a mixed bag due to how they act), the art in general is fine,  but I’m a dork for romance shit with a fairly interesting plot (and the bonus is that the MCs are around my age... lol).

And, tbh, there are also two reasons why I stayed: one is that it was tagged as mature (and there are smut scenes, even though the free version has them censored -”free”, meaning the author has them uncensored through Patreon tiers... and DAMN... I’m tempted... but I’m not very stable either right now OTL - ), and the other one is that the male MC (Charlie) has an uncanny resemblance to Mage(*) and I couldn’t... let’s say... take my sight away from it >3> (It was... no, it IS weird, lol)

So, I started reading... and I was hooked. Link here (to read from the beginning). 

Due to possible spoilers, let me handle the read cut and start rambling:

Anne is 26 years old, works as a freelance illustrator and is mostly a shy and introverted woman who doesn’t trust too much in other people besides her friends and people inside her comfort zone (such as her sister). She gets invited to an Elementary School reunion, a time of her life that she isn’t very fond of (relatable af). The last person she finds there is the boy, now a grown up and very successful man, who used to bully her, Charlie. And things turn upside down from there on.

There’s things here and there that mostly gives clues to why she became the person she is in the present, or why she doesn’t trust that much to Charlie, who seems to have changed his life around as well... “Seems” is a very keyword here (due to how events have been going on). And I cannot really blame Anne.

Her friends are mostly shitty, tbh?. Mónica even more so than Sofía. Mónica has been her friend since Elementary School, but she is so self-centered and very manipulative to play things in her favor. It looks like it’s very intentional (or more likely, automatic... because she sends LOTS of mixing messages, even if she claims she cares for Anne... all due to missunderstandings), as it look like there was a tension building up right after she developed a crush on Charlie during High School and that ONE NIGHT incident that COULD have made her go into a more antagonistic route towards Anne. She does mention that their friendship reached a rift thanks to Edward... because, he is another piece of work thanks to the hints given around.

Sofía was someone Anne started to be friends with more towards her adult life, and at the same time, I don’t think she is the best influence in her adult life, either. I think she is giving her best support, and often acts like a mom towards her, but she is also very pushy in some situations (for example, she is the one who forced Anne to go to the reunion... helped Charlie to go to see her, even when she told her she didn’t want to see him again) that may not help that much.

Martha, Anne’s sister, looks like it’s the only one of her family that is around (their parents got divorced somewhere along the line, and looks like Anne doesn’t really get along them), even if she is overseas. She looked her up when younger (as she often defended her from Charlie) but she also has some issues around (mostly, she looks like a very impulsive person... I kinda understand why asking money and help to her sister is the only way (even though there’s little consideration about Anne’s own economical struggles, too?).. but gdi, I think most of her problems overseas could have been avoided if she wasn’t too impulsive... and I REALLY suspect there is smth more shady to her story in Japan than it has been shown (truth to be told, for one, I do know that living there is expensive... hence why I think that there’s smth shady around).

Edward... at the moment hasn’t shown up in front of the reader. But there are hints to make us think that he may be manipulative (if I trust Mónica’s words about that) and that his relationship with Anne was not exactly the best one (up until recent time, as he has been gone for months, and suddenly he appears in Japan saying that he is “coming back” soon). Like... maybe he is manipulative... (”best” case scenario is that he and Anne had a very toxic relationship, and their “break up” involved cheating... in other words... reason why she doesn’t trust men either)... but details are still in the dark. They apparently started dating since high school...

And then there’s Charlie. 

I’m not going to defend why he bullied Anne when they were younger, as there are always other things to reccur when starting getting along with someone you like. Personally, for every little bad thing he did, I think he should have apologized for that at the time (there was one time he accidentally closed her inside a janitor’s room when they were kids... it was a prank gone wrong), and eventually (more than a decade or so later) he does (she isn’t nowhere happy with that apology, though). 

He has a loooong story with Anne besides the bullying part, as they have been classmates all the way up until High School. It’s clear that he always liked her (to an unhealthy(?) degree of obsession afawk)  and has always been in a “we are not friends, but mostly acaquaintances” friendship (not sure if frenemies) relationship with her ever since... probably more in high school, where he was part of the popular crowd clique (he claims he didn’t like being part of it, though). 

That ONE night incident is part of this, too... but maybe it is problematic no matter how you look at it (not going too much into details about this, but WOW). The aftermaths are clear in many things, though (Anne feels embarrassed enough about this, even to claim nothing happened; this is just my theory, but Mónica probably is the one who started the gossip due to jealousy, and it doesn’t help that Charlie was popular, antagonizing Anne in a whole instead of “helping” her...)

Let me be clear, Charlie is not a saint, although he is noticeable embarrassed about a loooot of stuff he did in the past (and it comes out that the guy ended up being a dorky geek, too), many of which he ended making more enemies than friends. There’s still stuff that the reader doesn’t know that much about him (like his real profession... he is in a department of some kind of business and that forces him to take trips), however, and he claims he didn’t really had a steady romantic relationship with someone (he didn’t want to because “there was always a girl on his mind”, so past flings may be a thing... and he has a female stalker) until recent times -and they aren’t longer together, either-. His way of acting in the present is also not the best, I swear (oh, it is an improvement from his childhood and possibly teenage years, but he needs to improve much more).

Anne herself isn’t that much of a saint either, although I think I relate a lot of stuff she goes through (mostly relating to work and comfort zones)... I do wonder if I had friends like hers... but then again, that would be probably more toxic than positive in my own life.

And SO, things start to heat when Anne and Charlie  share a kiss and mixing feelings start to bloom in Anne’s mind and heart. That much (and amusing) that it allows to see some of her alter-egos (?), each representing a part of her (her kid self, her teenage self, her “professional persona”, her “heart”/romantic self -who still misses Edward, so it rises some questions about who he is, though...- and her sexual needs, ejem, literally her vag**a), lol. Similarly, Charlie has its own (although a bit different, at the moment?) - his professional persona, his teenage self (who I suspect may be his teenage wrath from the aftermaths of the night incident), and his sexual needs (? or so I think he represents it, lol).

There’s too much I want to talk about, and this post is getting too long already ;;.

But these all things also raise questions?! And I am so into it that? AHHHH!!! 

No wonder why I feel overwhelmed about it. Even with the usual that I’m reading in the main page of Webtoons (that have an established storyline going like Gourmet Hound, Assassin Roommate, or Kind of Confidential), right now.

Bless you if you read this rambling.. I swear it could have gotten longer. The series is ongoing... apparently there’s still too much to happen and like I mentioned in the first few paragrpahs, I’m even more amused this has happened in-universe in a couple of weeks (or at least a month?) during the past 3 years IRL.

(*) And I really want to think this was unintentional... hence why I mention “uncanny resemblance” (it’s mostly the form of their faces, and how they look with their hair tied up, most of the time Charlie doesn’t do this... you cannot imagine how hard was not thinking in this when I have one of my Mage keychains on my desk...

[nikiforoov]

asterisk anon is back with more asks! 1k words under the cut! ♥ (previous posts: 1 2)

Asterisk anon here: Thanks Alli. ;-; My other asks were full of typos and unnecessary repeatings. -So I wrote this out in full before I sent it, lmao. The other asks were very spontaneous and born out of a chaotic, very, very recent post-breakup mind. One of the reasons I felt so anxious and upset was because heteronormativity was part of the reasons my partner unexpectedly broke up with me. YOI is good escapism. And I guess being gay and feeling hopeless, it's a good series to look at and find peace. “I'll find love again one day. It will be ok.” 

But. I still stand by thinking that it's good to reconsider the implications behind how a character is portrayed, and how something that seems progressive on the surface can have some unintentional regressive implications. Such as over-feminizing gay men. -And feminine gay men are not regressive. Lord knows that’s a major reason for hate crime. It’s good to embrace it, please do normalize the gay men that express themselves in feminine ways.

But is it really all a gay man can be…? Is it completely impossible to consider that at times a man can be masculine too? I feel like gay men are put into two categories, most often: There’s the hyper masculine “man” of the relationship, and there’s the flamboyant “woman” of the relationship. Their sex lives goes accordingly.

My point about Yuuri exclusively being seen as a “powerbottom” when he is the “dominant” in sex, is perhaps a bit difficult to understand. Think of a dominatrix-wife making her sub-husband fuck her in a very specific way or otherwise making her vag seem like the "ultimate treat.” Yuuri does not have female genitalia. (Trans men often uses dildos, so my point stays.)

Why is his dick such a stranger to Victor? Why is Victor’s butt unexplored territory? Why aren’t Victor ever the powerbottom when he’s depicted as the dom? Is this a dick size thing? (Pls no, do not let this be an “Asian size" thing.) Why is Yuuri’s dominancy progressive for letting him be a bottom with no anal penetration, but Victor’s dominancy doing the penetration is just “the natural choice?”

Would Victor consider being the power bottom as less dominant than doing the penetration? I don’t think he would. Bottoming isn’t a personality trait. Are you sure you’re not making it one? (Individual authors aren’t the issue. Again, it is the trend and general mindset I’m trying to challenge, not pointing fingers.) I feel like never allowing gay men to embrace both their masculinity and femininity creates a very conservative portrayal.

And then of course, we have the problematic idea of how asian men are generally considered unattractive, unless they’re in drag or otherwise feminine. (Think of the sex industry in Thailand, for example.) Because Yuuri does embrace his femininity, but he is not feminine outside of his Eros program really, of what I remember. The Yuri on Ice program isn’t really playing with that. It’s just about Yuuri’s story as a whole. Outside of any performance, he dresses casually and doesn’t seem to care all that much about his appearance.

AND THIS IS NOT MEANT TO DISCREDIT LINGERIE AND MAKEUP IN FANART. He does have his feminine sides. He uses them to his benefit. It expresses a part of him. -A sexual one, not to mention. But as rant anon mentioned, Victor was the original creator of the costume. And he had long hair, etc. Completely ignoring the feminine part of Victor and ignoring masculine part of Yuuri creates the stereotypes of there being a man and a woman in a relationship. Which is completely backwards as to what same sex relationships fundamentally are. There are homosexual couples where there’s a fem and masc person. Lesbian, gay and all. But it’s just not how Yuuri and Victor are. I think it isn’t true to the characters. And the implications of assigning strict femininity and masculinity to either of them, -especially Yuuri, as a gay asian man, is something to keep in mind.

I’d also like to consider another reason Yuuri might be portrayed as more feminine than Victor, which is self-insertion fiction. This is something a lot of people in the fandom take issue with, because of homosexuality headcanons. But I don’t think self-insertion is such a terrible thing.

Victor is not real, and Victor is undeniably attractive. Lord knows he can impregnate both Yuuri and me with a single look, lol. But are you hiding the self-insert by making Yuuri more feminine? It’s not that you’re a bad person for doing that, its a genuine question. Because I don’t think you should feel guilty. (Yuuri probably wrote self-insert fics, so you have one thing in common there, at least. (^: )

If you have considered those things, but still think that your portrayal is what you see as more true to the characters, I have no problems. We're cool. You have every right to express art and erotica how you want. No one should censor that. I challenged your points and you stood by them. You’re not a bad person.

-Time to add my infamous aterisks* Other people’s interpretation is completely fine, and maybe they don’t see it as regressive as I do. And we're still cool, I’m not out to say anyone is a bad person for playing around with fictional characters. They’re not real, and no one is evil for have a kinky sexual fantasy or preferring a certain sex role in fantasies. They’re fantasies. I’m not the kind of person that will say it hurts reality, I’m trying to critique those that does consider their art to be progressive but are unaware of how something CAN come across to others or otherwise never were presented with the discussion. No one can know something if no one tells them, right? If anyone disagree, it’s fine. It’s about the trend, not one author out of many.

I hope I come across as trying to give constructive criticism and not telling someone what to do with their own interpretations. I hope I have made myself clear and gotten everything down. Otherwise I’ll clarify. I’ve eaten three tubs of ice-cream and two bags of cookies since my partner left me. But one day I’ll find someone to marry. :>

ahhhhh super great points again asterisk anon!! ♥

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

School in the Demon World with the Sakamakis [HCS]

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241 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#4

POV: The Triplets Made Subaru a Car

He’d be so mad knowing that they turned his coffin into this.

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253 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

#3

Y'all, I know he technically doesn't have family, but I think this could be his mom.

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314 notes - Posted May 24, 2022

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Their K!nks (SMT) HCS

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Sakamaki

Shu:

🖤Okay, we know that he is a very p*rverted guy and that doesn’t mean just outdoors. 🖤He, like the rest of his brothers, is an animal. 🖤But of course, everyone has different ways of displaying that and different k*nks. 🖤So anyway let’s get to it. 🖤Now he really loves a$$ and thighs so when you wear skirts, you have sold this man. 🖤Especially the loose ones like the skater skirts. 🖤Mostly cause he can look up under there and comment about it and he can also put his hand up there and play. 🖤Plus grabbing your thigh whenever he pleases is just a plus for him. 🖤He’ll do this even in front of his brother, Reiji. 🖤Although we all know he is pretty dominant when it comes to the bedroom he does like it if his lover rides him. 🖤Mostly because he can grab your chest or a$$ whenever he pleases. 🖤Plus he doesn’t mind the view of your b**bs bouncing. 🖤Although most of the time he is the one in charge, he’s usually pretty consistent with his moves and ideas but when things seem boring or you've provoked him he will try something different. 🖤Either by trying a new position, biting you somewhere different or going at a different pace than usual. 🖤And it’s all just to get you to be surprised, cause he really loves that 🖤He can do that no matter how many times you two have done this. 🖤He has a thing for mirror s*x and since he has such a grand bedroom he’d probably have some mirrors around. 🖤Likes to get caught—like he lives for that risk. 🖤After s*x, he likes it most when you stay in bed n*ked with him and he can trace the curves of your body. 🖤He does like bathtub s*x 🖤He likes curly hair on a girl so make sure to curl your hair ladies. 🖤A girl with sass and a mouth is a big thing for him. 🖤Will give you a hard time if your br@ has your b**bs spill out and shows a bit of your n*pple. 🖤Dim lighting.

Reiji:

🖤Okay, you want me to be honest? 🖤This man has so many k*nks, probably more than his older brother. 🖤And there are so many minor things that he really loves. 🖤Like he loves it when you cross your legs when wearing a skirt or a dress. 🖤When you're wearing a backless dress or top and he can see your shoulders and maybe a little bit of your spine. 🖤He finds it entrancing the way you hold things with your hands. 🖤How your eyes look around or when there is a glint of amusement or excitement in them. 🖤Or when you have meaningful eye contact. 🖤how you walk with your nice full figure. 🖤Even the way your l!ps move when you read. 🖤Is into BDS/M, like heavily.  🖤He’s all into the chaining you up thing. 🖤Corsets are a real go-getter. 🖤When you play chess with him and you have to strip each time you miss. 🖤Fingering, like, heavily. This man is a vag*na man! 🖤Mirror and shower s*x 🖤Even wall s*x 🖤After a ball, he likes to have s*x with you and f*ck you in that dress he picked out.  🖤Or just lifts up the skirt of your dress in a hurry and doesn’t give you much time to do anything. 🖤Is really into org@sm control and denial. 🖤Loves drugging your tea with s*x medications. 🖤Seriously he’s even invented his personal org@sm tea. 🖤So you’ll like org@sm for hours on end without even having any reason to, you’ll sit there and be wet. 🖤Which is something he can never get enough of because he gets to watch you squirm in this situation. 🖤And did I mention that he is of no help? He doesn’t feel bad not one bit. 🖤When you take off his glasses this really gets him. 🖤If you’re flexible he’d like to test the limits of that. 🖤Corruption k*nk, I think the virg*n on a unicorn song says it all, lol. Right @mikalara-dracula ? 🖤Hair pulling k*nk and undoing your hair.  🖤So like after a ball since you have your hair up or with a bow he likes to undo it and has your hair be down. 🖤Likes high heels on you. 🖤Choking, only sometimes. Usually, he wants you to be vocal. 🖤If you get the hiccups from being nervous around him he is all over for it. 🖤Idk what it is but he gets satisfaction from throwing you on the bed violently. 🖤Loves submissive women, or making them submissive. 🖤When you take off his glasses or whisper inappropriate things in his ear at a ball or at school he is hooked. 🖤Oral s*x, more on the receiving end (there’s been implied evidence on this) 🖤Realistically he is probably the type to use things on a bride that can be harmful but I’m not going into detail but medical devices may be used. 🖤Dim lighting 🖤He likes to have his fingers in your mouth too.

Laito:

🖤If a girl can dominate him he has been won over. 🖤French k!ssing. 🖤Shower s*x. 🖤He’d try out anything as we know it. 🖤Poly relationships 🖤And threesomes. 🖤N!pple piercings and tattoos. 🖤Hair pulling. 🖤Thigh-high socks. 🖤food play 🖤b|ood play? 🖤S*x while you’re on your period. (He doesn’t care). He has a thing for making abstract art on sheets anyways. 🖤Loves it when you get goosebumps. 🖤Has a thing for licking, (i’m not going into this) 🖤Toys, especially a vibrator. 🖤Oral s*x, mostly giving. 🖤N!pple biting. 🖤Fishnet stockings. 🖤Dim lighting/no lights 🖤Multiple partners/poly relationships 🖤Mini skirts 🖤Likes spreading your knees apart with his leg.

Kanato:

🖤Lights on. 🖤He is a dirty man so keep that in mind 🖤Is really into org@sm control and denial. 🖤Whenever he’s able to feel your cr*tch area and see you jolt. 🖤Likes giving oral and having you expose yourself to him. 🖤When you scratch his back or dig your nails into him. 🖤He likes how you eat cake and lick the frosting from your l!ps or fork. 🖤If there is cake crumbs or frosting on your cheek he will lick it off. 🖤He’s just so entranced by your l!ps that he’d love to bite them. 🖤Is really into the way you hum and probably has some choking k*nk. 🖤Loves small, pretty feet 🖤Traces your shoulders, calves, spine, neck, arms with his fingertips slowly to have you feel his touch. 🖤Loves if you’re flexible and would like to see you stretch in gymnastics or ballet. 🖤Because all he can think of is how he wants to stretch you. 🖤Really likes it when your wear babydolls and teddys, more specifically he likes it when you wear teddies. 🖤When you hiccup from crying or from being nervous. 🖤Likes it when you cry. 🖤Loves marking you! 🖤When he has s*x he wants to you be fully exposed and bare to the bone, no clothing stays on.  🖤So if he has s*x after a ball he will rip off your dress and all those layers of corsets and petticoats. 🖤He literally has the patience for it. 🖤Rose petals are scattered everywhere. 🖤Loves to play with your hair after s*x and wants you to stay n@ked with him. 🖤Likes to help you get dressed and k!ss every part of you. 🖤Loves eye contact to the core and he doesn’t want you to look away, especially during your climax.

Ayato:

🖤God complex 🖤Being messy with the sheets and when taking off clothes. 🖤He likes when your lipstick rubs off. 🖤B|ood play. 🖤(he uses tourer devices) 🖤He looks like he’d like wax play? 🖤Rough and aggressive kind of guy. 🖤He doesn’t have too many k!nks. 🖤Degrading k!nk for sure. 🖤Marking you. 🖤He likes red undergarments on you. 🖤He’s more so into giving you pain so there are not too many k!nks. 🖤Anything with your chest tho. 🖤Likes it if you don’t wear a br@, that’s for sure. 🖤N!pple biting 🖤Biting in general. 🖤Likes if you have dramatic makeup. 🖤He prefers to be in charge and likes to embarrass you.

Subaru:

🖤Shower and wall s*x  🖤Rough, very rough. 🖤Wants to get caught but also doesn’t at the same time. 🖤When your br@ has your b**bs spill out and shows a bit of your n!pples. 🖤Especially during s*x when he’s still getting your clothes off. 🖤N!pple biting. 🖤Having his fingers in your mouth. 🖤Clutching your a$$. 🖤If you hiccup because you’re nervous around him. 🖤Sometimes likes it from behind. 🖤Likes fighting for dominance with you. 🖤Ripping your clothes off. 🖤Scratching his back. 🖤When you try to be quiet. 🖤Loves it when he can get you to be loud and then will tell you you’re too loud. 🖤Likes to have s*x in risky places. 🖤Wants to break the bed. 🖤Pins your arms above your head. 🖤It’s weird but he thinks it’s a turn-on if you fall off the bed. 🖤Likes giving oral.

Kino:

🖤Mirror s*x 🖤Likes to get caught. 🖤He might try org@sm control and denial sometimes. 🖤When you scratch his back. 🖤When you k!ss his jawline. 🖤Marking you and showing off your hickeys. 🖤Making you louder and tea$ing you for it. 🖤Lights on. 🖤Breaking the bed. 🖤See-through clothes 🖤Lace undergarments 🖤Eye-contact 🖤Seeing you have shocked expressions. 🖤He might want try blindfolding sometimes. 🖤s*x cam and likes to rewatch stuff. 🖤s*xting and will send you audio messages. 🖤Likes nudes. 🖤Likes it if he’s really rough to the point where you’re hair gets messy because of it. 🖤Really likes it when you take charge. 🖤Likes twisting your words to have you get confused and admit something. 🖤Wants you to beg.

Mukami

Ruki:

🖤He really likes skirts a lot tbh mostly cause he can see your nice legs and he can finger you when he pleases. 🖤likes braids because it exposes your neck. 🖤He is into BDS/M, like blindfolds are his thing for sure. A black lace blindfold if I may add. 🖤Is really into org@sm control and denial. 🖤Likes the way you chew on the end of your pencil. It really gets him tbh. 🖤If you're somewhat hesitant sometimes by what he says he gets a kick out of it. 🖤Likes to screw you in the library and will finger you behind the bookshelf in your school skirt or in class. 🖤Hopes that someone will notice. 🖤He loves how it just leaves you with such a shocked expression. 🖤Loves to take your undergarments away as punishment and you go to school without them on. 🖤Likes to have you read to him while he’s taking off your clothes and biting you. 🖤He also likes to read to you when you’re just in your under/wear. It makes things more interesting to him. 🖤Slides your undergarments down with his teeth. 🖤He likes putting his fingers in your mouth. 🖤Biting your ear. 🖤If you’re flexible he’s really into that. 🖤Likes having s*x in the dark for surprises and a little moonlight is enough.

Yuma: 🖤He really likes it when you sit in his lap when doing something together and he eventually becomes hard. 🖤Especially if you’re wearing a skirt mostly cause he can slip his hand under there while you're trying to be focused on homework. 🖤He is always clutching, grabbing, or smacking your a$$ at some point in the day. 🖤Like you’ll get up from your seat when class is over and he’ll grab it since you've turned around and you’re embarrassed/ a little mad at him. But he digs that about you. 🖤He likes to carry you and when he does this he loves to grab your a$$ in the process which scrunches up your skirt and possibly shows a bit of your under/wear which can be annoying. But he likes exposing you like that. 🖤Will get really upset if you wear safety shorts for the day. He’ll probably just rip them off. 🖤Oh, he really likes it when your hair is in your face cause he gets to move it out of the way and smirk at you which makes you blush. 🖤He likes to walk in on you showering and will join (so shower s*x). 🖤And he likes to see you in the bathtub and prefers you don’t have bubbles covering you. 🖤He likes braiding your hair and this is mostly because after he’s done he’ll trace his fingers up the back of your neck and plant k!sses on it. 🖤Moves your legs apart to catch you off guard when your sitting next to him, just cause. 🖤When you garden with him he likes to have you wear a white dress to get you wet with water so he can see your body in the transparent fabric. 🖤He also likes it if you’re wearing a skirt when you help him and bend down too far. When this happens he just comes up behind you and smacks your a$$. 🖤He likes to bite your h!ps a lot and he likes that his hands are strong enough to hold your squirming body in place. 🖤Is into an@l but wouldn’t only do it if you were okay with it. 🖤Likes to throw you all around the room. 🖤Heavily into oral s*x too, both giving and reviving. He does like to receive but understands if his lover doesn’t want to bc either way he likes giving. 🖤And he loves to finger you, like it doesn’t matter where or when he’ll do it in class, during your ride to school, even in the garden. 🖤He likes to f*ck you up against the window that is by his garden so he can possibly have his brothers catch a glimpse. 🖤He really likes screwing you in the garden the most and this is also because you’ll have your shoes on (probably some little flats) and they end up falling off bc his thrusts are so hard. 🖤He leaves a lot of bruises but traces them over with soft k!sses later tho. 🖤After s*x he likes to watch you put your clothes back on, well if he hasn’t ripped them anyways.  🖤Other times he helps, mostly because he knows how unstable your legs might be. He tea$es you about it. 🖤“Little pigs should be able to stand on their own.” He’d smirk, having his arms around your waist. 🖤As he is helping you slip your underwe@r on he’ll sometimes tea$e you by slipping them down again and pinning you down on the mattress. 🖤Did I mention that he has ripped some of your favorite undergarments before? 🖤This is because he is eager and doesn’t care. 🖤Other times when you’re getting dressed he likes to pull you back by your thong and sometimes he’ll rip it with all his strength. 🖤You get mad but he tells you he’ll buy you a new one. But he never does 🖤I’ve headcanoned this with @mikalara-dracula that he likes to give oral underwater too. 🖤Lights on, all the time.

🖤Because it's supposedly believed that he is Romanian, he speaks Romanian to you only in the bedroom.

Kou:

🖤Likes it in the dark. 🖤Likes role play stuff. 🖤So lots of customs 🖤Cat Ears/Tail 🖤Knee socks 🖤Being dominated 🖤Trying new things. 🖤Lowkey into furry sh*t. 🖤Making his s/o wear a cat collar with his initials on it. 🖤Pastel garters with spikes. 🖤Bondage. 🖤Toys. 🖤And trying new things. 🖤Licking you just to catch you off guard. 🖤Likes it if you’re in charge and if you dominate him. 🖤Is definitely into riding—like, seriously.

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hi! could you do headcanons of how the sakamakis are at school? like how they are in the classroom, what cliques they might be in, after school activities etc. ? thank you!

Ryoutei High-The diaboys at school (s + m + t) hcs

Hi Love,

Sorry, this has taken so long, I'm really trying to put this together for you. I'm really glad you asked this because I've been wanting to talk about their school life for so long. Really hope you like it though. :)

-Liannelara

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General hcs (before we begin)

📚Okay, so it’s an academy and a night school, so just keep that in mind.

📚The name of the academy is called Ryoutei High School Academy

📚The town's name (not 100% sure) is Kaminashi.

📚High school in Japan is only three years.

📚School times are: 8:00pm/20:00 - 2:00am/2:00. Lunchtime is 12:00 am/24:00 (canon in a drama cd of theirs)

📚Like most schools, class is about 6-7hrs.

📚The school allows students of all grades to participate in things together.

📚It is a school with lower attendance than a regular school seeing it's an academy.

📚They have school festivals/field trips

📚Everyone who attends is from a rich family (I assume).

📚And you know everyone wears a uniform, but I do picture everyone does alter it to their style. We will get into that later tho.

📚The main school colors are Red, White, and black. Sometimes there are embellishments of gold tho. (not confirmed it just looks this way.)

📚I picture they have a basketball team and cheerleading team.

📚I know they have a music room, and I picture there to be a gym where gymnastics is practiced. 

📚I also see that ballet, art, and singing classes are offered.

📚The school has a lot of school festivals and assemblies for all grades.

📚They have school dances and parades too.

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P.s. I'm honestly so glad Kino's meme was in there lol. I'm honestly proud haha.