#do I tag all of their names... I don't know if I wanna
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Thank you sm for the tag! :D
This post was the whole reason I decided to create a WIP folder. Hooray for organizing! Welp, get ready for the dumb names I give my WIPs
(First two are discontinued, the other two aren't)
Feel free to ask about any of them!
1. ZELDA INFECTION AU YIPPEEE ANGST TIME
2. DARK LINK HAS INFESTED MY MIND so random story without a plan time
3. Twilight Dealing with stuff idk lol
4. Angst fic based off crack sentence
5. ISAT X TLOZ brainstorming
6. FACELESS SHRIMPO LOLL L BOZOOOO
...That last one isn't Zelda related at all loll
Tags! @baileyboo2016 @zarvasace @aurora-boreas-borealis @twink-between-worlds
And I know you've been tagged multiple times but @musical-chan, I wanna tag you anyways
(I had to do a bit of searching through the discord for a couple of those Tumblrs. So, sorry in advance if I tagged you and you don't know who I am pff)
Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
i was tagged by @starwolfie! thank you!
my wiplist as of 30/8/24:
the cursebreaker
the primordials
strawberry
sing me to sleep
fruit bats (series)
lu hunger games au (series)
yestermorrow (name pending)
RIV DONT ASK ABOUT THIS ONE
stationary point
darkling i listen
out in the woods we rot
peter parker on reddit
200 hyoi pears
sepfember (yay!)
fan joy july (sadly i dont think it will ever be finished)
before the rain stops
cursebreaker!spirit
uhhhhh.... those are all my wips i guess..... hit me up if you wanna chat about them xx. i might have to be cryptic for some because of spoilers though... im gonna go grab some breakfast now and then get back to working on ch20 of cursebreaker hohohoho. love you guys 💞💞
and now for tagging time! the fun part! i can't remember who has already done this or not, so! no pressure to respond! @rosehipandroots @crazylittlejester @noorahqar @savimatteo2810 @jellyfishvibes @not-freyja @musical-chan @zarvasace @tashacee @a-manicured-lawn @artemistorm @serbii @nancyheart11 @across-violet-skies @needfantasticstories @elle-rosewater @anime-obsessed @hotcheetohatredwastaken .... if any of you are working on some juicy wips right now, please consider me SUPER interested 👀👀👀
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Have I posted any of my stupid ass troll sprites... Here take a bundle of them I just made some more
Credit for the bases goes to: Farrago Fiction!
#homestuck#fantroll#sprites#do I tag all of their names... I don't know if I wanna#lucius loffei#fennek snuzek#trinet snuzek#nonemu#zedroi telcho#cosmia mantra#tetraz nevves#farrow takshi#veictr loffei#armane cedroc#bwugh#I have to resize a bunch of them to fit with the others#Zuzu is WAY too big next to everyone else#Real of them honestly
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i just think it’s so funny that zoro does not even wanna comment on the usokaya situation when usopp explicitly asks and he very pointedly looks away when they kiss and yet he proceeds to butt in every single time sanji flirts with a woman or implies he knows about romance to redirect attention back on himself like god i wonder where your interests lie…
#also the goading sanji into talking with him and just commenting on every single thing sanji says... ok!#zoro is patient 0 of terminal sanji-itis#this is the live action but i mean... this is also animanga zoro and zoro in the movies at times is it not LMFAO#but while they were fighting and then even when he was asking for seconds of the dish and sanji finished his dialogue and zoro CONTINUED#do u want his attention or smth? are you happy you have someone who u can bicker (flirt) with every day and can hand ur ass to u and u him?#also sanji just BEAMING and smiling whenever they bicker is just insane INSANE like yeah they're enjoying this... wow...#also obviously zoro has all the weird UST charged dialogues with multiple MEN like i truly don't know how u can see him as straight lmao#anyways... i just needed to ramble anyways... i fear s2 will be insane with new pet names and arguments I'm actually so hyped#like oh i wanna see the look on sanji and luffy's faces when zoro calls out his finishing move LMFAO (let him be a loser pls)#OK RAMBLING OVER FR... i just like talking about zosan idk#zosan#zs#opla#tagging for spoilers ish#sanzo#zorosan#sanzoro
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GENSHIN IMPACT ANGSTIEST SHIP STATISTICS
(A ship appearing here does not mean that I ship it. Please do not harass me.)
Based on % of AO3 fics tagged as angst per ship. It's only the top 50 ships in the fandom because I'm lazy. (x reader excluded)
#if you wanna know about a specific ship just ask I don't bite#ive actually done this before a few times i just never posted it on tumblr#genshin impact#ao3#fanfic#fanfiction#ship stats#ship statistics#GUILI#KAZUTOMO#WRIOLETTE#CLORIVIA#EIMIKO#XIAOVEN#YANTAO#KAEBEDO#KAZUSCARA#JEANLISA#XINGYUN#CHISCARA#RANNETT#ALBETHER#CHAEYA#XIAOBEDO#ALBEROSE#XIAOAETHER#ZHONGCHI#HEIKAZU#tumblr wont let me tag all the ships so the top 20 will have to do#sorry if i got any ship names wrong i don't usually go here
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First off, happy holidays if you celebrate! Second: I don't know if you're interested, but I had a head cannon I had to yell at someone, and since you enjoy MASH, I thought I'd share :)
So, throughout the series, we see Hawkeye and Margaret's relationship growing from total animosity and antagonism to definitely dear friends by the end. And there's also sparks of attraction there, too (and not just Hawkeye making bawdy comments)! Realistically, I don't know that I could see a full-on relationship either during or after the war. They both seem to want totally different things in life.
But... what I like to think is that they kept up correspondence after the war and maintained their very close friendship (that is akin to friends with benefits but kind of more? Like very emotional too?). They are the one person the other can lean on in times of sadness, anger, and frustration, but also joy and happiness and delight. Also, but... they totally are so passionate when they're together.
For example: Margaret gets married again. Things don't work out. She retreats to Maine to get away, and when they're together, Hawkeye totally takes care of her (if you know what I mean 😉 ).
Maybe alternately, Hawkeye has a bad breakup or something sad happens in his life. Margaret is there for him and they're soft and tender with each other.
So, tldr: Hawkeye & Margaret are besties that have a physical relationship when they need someone to hold, and they love each other dearly!
OUGH, this is such a dear series of thoughts and I'm so tender about all of them!!! ;v;
Honestly this is the way I most often see their relationship going postwar, that deep queerplatonic love for one another, colored warmly by them no longer being afraid of their mutual attraction. It's true, they might want different things in life, but they were two of the few people who were in that hellscape together from the very beginning. They've witnessed each other's growth in ways that they never could've fathomed happening when they first met. It's impossible for them to pretend that there isn't a part of their souls that are intrinsically linked now after surviving all of those horrors.
I really do believe that regardless of where either of them might settle down after the war, their orbits will inevitably make them meet up over and over again. They can be catty and playful with each other in a way that is difficult for them to find with anybody else. And god knows them entering into the era of free love will provide many delightful opportunities for them to hook up without as many judgmental eyes on them for doing so.
Anyway, sorry, I'm rambling, but I am tender :) Thank you for sharing!!
#i don't wanna tag this as their ship name because i don't want people who adore this ship to think that i'm like#minimizing the ship by implying that i don't see them settling down and having a monogamous life together do you know what i mean#though i also certainly don't think that making a ship queerplatonic or nonmonogamous is doing it a disservice augh#but i do very much want to save this#maybe i'll change my mind in a few hours and circle back and tag it so i can find it later on all the same#my ramblings#headcanons
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Okay so this'll be the last post I make regarding Critical Role until c3e119 airs since while the antipathy and, for lack of a better word, deflation revolving around 118 has been a little disheartening, I do want to throw a few things that continue to bounce off the inside of my head out there before we get to the next episode;
I don't think it's needed (as someone who very much wants them all to survive - including ones I like less than others - and be able to continue figuring themselves out) for BH to die or be betrayed or be subject to additional punishment to justify what's happening. This fight IS their punishment, their consequence, their Finding Out after Fucking Around
Also, if the gods refuse to help BH - if asked - it proves Ludinus right. Refusing aid would indicate that they really are picking favourites out of self interest, plus the taking on Predathos option was only proposed to BH by one of their own, so it'd be double scummy
Campaign 3 has still had some great, funny and heartbreaking moments that we shouldn't forget about just because these current events are fresh, plus C1 and 2 weren't perfect - worth reminding that too
Honestly, if FCG were alive the same thing would've happened anyway; Matt would've made the coin flip be indecisive so the cast could make the choice and Imogen would've chosen the same way
While we definitely could've built to this better, this fight will provide the floor for BH to confront a key character motivation; be it preventing the overtaking and corrupting influence of a malicious or feral psyche, having to decide whether to trust that their ally can overcome it or follow through with what a superior entrusted them to do as a countermeasure, or simply trying to protect and prevent another friend from dying - which, alongside the likely map change and expected unique minis, is actually kinda exciting
Just, let's go into 119 with an open mind, okay? They have to earn it for sure but it's not over until it's over.
#critical role#c3 spoilers#c3 speculation#bells hells#predathos#fcg#exandrian pantheon#I know you guys can't help it because it's in your head and has to get out but we're all in the same boat with that#idk I guess I just feel a little guilty over how harsh we're being when I imagine how the cast feel seeing it all#though for all we know they may also be quietly waiting in anticipation for next episode to silence these doubts and I'm just being soft#soft fretting panicky & everything else XD I really hope it works out and it exceeds expectations - I don't wanna entertain the alternative#I mean they have been doing this on stream for nearly 10 years we can perhaps not jump the gun just yet#I'm sorry I just don't have a lot of people to physically talk to about it - nobody at my office follows CR so I only really have tumblr#I reiterate that I don't think the criticisms are invalid - I just don't want it to overshadow everything before we get to the ending#what name did we pick for Imogen? Because Predogen sounds like a Transformer but Temathos sounds too much like tomato#Imothos/Predult/Premult doesn't click either - Predathogen is wordy (and like a virus) and simply 'The Vessel' is too generic#regardless the plan has never been to kill the gods and Predathos hasn't yet been released - the final outcome has yet to be determined#see I have to ramble in the tags or else the post itself will be pages long and even less people will read it!
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Tragic!: Local Artist Trying To Make References For Their Billion Current OCs Can't Stop Making New Ones
(They also spent too long drawing this too jkdfgkjdf)
#oc: bean#sona tag#the new clone does have a name - or names rather - but they're still in beta and subject to change so no tag for them yet#I really wanna do af this year so I want good refs!!! so many of them are outdated as hell jkgkj#I know I can't post all the clones bc there is a limit of 100 (?) characters but I still would like to have a good selection of them there#along with other characters too#so don't mind me as I post some older guys with fresh looks in the coming weeks hehe
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I might have OCD actually
#idk i can't tell if its ocd or paranoia#but all my life these “share this text to 10 contacts or your mum will die” always made me unreasonably panicked#and more and more because of posts like “donate now or you are a horrible person” make me deeply unwell#i feel so selfish because i know it's not their fault#im not blaming palestinians reaching out for help more like the people who share the posts and then guilt trip everyone#and i really dont wanna block the tags because it'll make me feel even worse and i still want to be informed#i have so many asks pilling up but idk what to do because I'm useless i can't help in anyway i dont have any reach and no money in my name#and i dont wanna close asks because i do enjoy ask games#but also idk what to do#because when i reply its so hard i feel miserable because i can't help but as soon as i reply i get 20 new ones and it's incredibly overwhel#overwhelming#but when i dont answer my brain is screaming at me “if you dont reply your while family will die in a car crash”#and it's a simple mental image to think of the more asks i answer the more i get the more my brain tells me awful things#I'm sorry to any mutual i may have unfollowed because they shared so many guilt tripping posts i genuinely can't do it anymore#and i feel terrible#and I don't wanna leave Tumblr because it's my only social platform left lmao and thevother ones are all awful its the inly one i like#I'm just not in the right mental state to constantly see “donate or you dont deserve to live even if youre poor” kinda posts#it's not even triggering its just making my “ocd” worse than it ever was#all day long my brian been telling me “you will die today because you didnt answer the asks!!”#it's genuinely horrible idk what to do and eother way i feel like a piece of shit i feel like i dont have the right to feel this way
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Unexpected side effect of being Turkish:
Was daydreaming trying to visiualize a breakfast scene for a fic I will never write. A kid charachter was adding sugar to his tea thelephatically while his mom was adding cold water again telephatically and it was like oh to be raised by people whom understand our powers and nurture them. To see the effects of big things in small, natural ways.
Then I realized they are American, they wouldn't be drinking tea and the kid for sure wouldn't be drinking tea and I was left with the hole a well written meaningfull scene I cannot put in left behind.
#I am not going to tag this Turkish cause likke ı don't knoe#though#Tea#I am grapling with the realization that the hole tea would leave behind in me would be much bigger then I anticipated#Now I need to find something like that#I though of like a sandwich but like it is not the same#Cause like#Tea is shared with the whole family right#and tea with sugar and cold water is like consiously including a child in a tradition they wouldn't be able enjoy in a way they can enjoy#It wasn't just about powers#it wasn't just a mother caring for their child and helping them#it was also someone being included#I don't know okay#I just wanna write like a series with Kon getting thrown into several multiverses#and meets different versions of himself and people related to him#and through them settle parts of himself#Like a version whom uses the name luthor#A Kon after losing a lot has stoped being a superhero#A (grown) clone baby raised with his legacy#A child of his urged to show her age cause people forget you are a child when you are powerfull but you are a child#A version of him that figured out the limits of TTK can do nuclear fision and is a god in all but name#and a female version of him whom went to university got married is a mother but is still a superhero as well#a future he never imagined but now that he has seen it#he wants it#it is female Kon cause I have female!Kon brainrot#She is married to Tim btw but she doesn't tell and Kon doesn't realize
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Hello Stray community! After two months of work, I'm excited to bring your attention to this video!
Someone by the name of "Балвд лыжыэфэф" on YouTube extracted over six hours of music and ambience from Stray's game files. This is an amazing resource, full of extended tracks, ambience, and cut content.
What it lacked, however, were time-stamps. The description included a list of all the audio files that were extracted, but nothing to indicate when a track ended or began, nor where it played in-game.
So, I did all that! Almost every track in this video is now time-stamped, with listings that show where everything plays in-game. I made a comment that listed everything as it appears in the video, and one that lists everything as it appears in-game. I also made a list of some motifs. I couldn't help myself.
This was a lot of work, and I'm so thrilled to share it with you all. If you're looking for a song that was never or only partially included in the OST, you'll find it here! And if you find any mistakes, please let me know! Enjoy!
#I listened to six and a half hours of Stray audio so you don't have to! (But you should. It's all great.)#(But maybe you shouldn't listen to all of it. It's a lot of audio.)#(But listen to some of it!! You won't regret it. The audio is BEAUTIFUL.)#(Now it's just. Easier to navigate! It was such a mess when I found it.)#Did I mention that this video is ad free? I don't think I could've done this if it wasn't.#Stray game#Stray 2022#Text#Stray Rains#Yeah that's my personal Stray tag now. For when I post about Stray. Which is never.#But I will! I will. I must.#Feel free to send an ask if you're having trouble finding a certain track! I'd love to help you.#I already have a chunk of the file names memorized..#Speaking of file names! Some of them are weird! And disturbing! And strange!#Like this one track is called Cult for seemingly no reason. Curious.#There's quite a few others. But I'll let you discover them yourself.#Also! If you just wanna. Talk about the music. With somebody. I would love to talk about the music with you.#Please talk to me about the music.#I'm full of the music.#Do you know how long I've been listening to the music. Do you even know— *is dragged off stage*#Okay ramble OVER. Back to lurking. *disappears*#Youtube
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Controversial take but i watched all of jjk, in subbed, so it had my full attention 100% of the time, and i am of the opinion that it just fucking sucks.
So me and my wife were talking about it, and we were trying to figure out why people like it and we've come up short. I do not understand what's so appealing about this show for so many people. Can someone PLEASE tell me.
#yes the animation is phenominal and honestly i would have stopped watching after the first episode without it#MAPPA creates some beautiful art like just gorgeous#but the constant force-feeding of every minor character's backstory was hellish for me#had me rolling my eyes every time they did it (every three seconds)#the vast majority of characters are unlikable or bland or dead#often all of the above#choso is the only character i actively liked?? like i understand him i reallu do#i liked mahito? he's a freak so that's a given#i liked that one old guy with the weird still frames power#uhhh i like sukuna's weird obsession with ripoff sasuke#edit i member: i liked megumi he deserved better#oh i also REALLY liked nanamin or whatever his name was (it's been a while)#i think yuuji's suicide mission that he didn't think through is super interesting#alright heres my most controversial take of all#i don't care at ALL abt gojo. he's so mid there's like a million characters exactly like him#and he's UGLY why do people say he's attractive bro is UGLY A HELL#the intros are baller tho i sat through them every episode no skipping that shit#gorgeous animation as i'd expect from this studio#like! there's so many little drops of things that i liked about this show! which is why it pissed me off so much every time they did boring#ass exposition dumps on characters that are gonna die in five seconds. or worse-they are gonna live and continue to bore me to tears#and when i tell you i physically couldn't read the manga because of how fucking BORING it is#i got caught up and was like 'okay ill read the manga i kinda like what's currently happening n ive made it this far might as well keep goi#g' nah man i couldn't even read a whole chapter. jjk is king of exposition dumps#i do think the powers and how if you tell your opponent what it is it gets stronger is rad#and it drives me insane because i know they know how to drip-feed information about a character! and when they do that they do it SO WELL!!#but they just force feed you all this information the rest of the time like BRO ITS TOO MUCH SLOW DOWN AND JUST LET THE CHARACTERS DO THEIR#THING AND IT WILL BE MORE SATISFYING#anyways not tagging this because i don't wanna put hate in the main tags#just like. if you see this please explain to me what im missing PLEASE i want to like this show SO bad
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Hey y'all. I saw a few too many Orpheus and Eurydice posts and drew this. Idk what to do with it now but. Here ig. I know the perspective isn't accurate I just eyeballed it and stairs are bullshit to draw but yeah
#art#can I tag this as oc art?? I want it to be I just don't know who to draw#drawing base#ig#i really wanna do mythological parallels in my comic#but idk how to fit them in#not bothering to make the cropping nice it's just a sketch#I would ask who to draw here but I'm the only one that knows how the story goes#and all the characters names#and which two would make this the most painful
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once again i am on the playlist lol
#just me hi#my strange brain concoctions back at it again lmfsh#i've been workin on it by bits and bits for the past 2-3ish days and i think i've almost got what i mean hfvbs#yea... mnmnm...#//outta the Lagoons into the Blues !! what a transition hkfshv#i mean i Have found that i actually really really like the shampoo we've been using for like 5 years hghfsv#but also i've had to switch from that one to a different one anyway cuz my hair? is grezy ghfbshv#it Is soft now though which is cool :D cuz the old soap didn't get it quite well and i was using dish soap sometimes to strip it so Lmao#which btw the dish soap worked p well. however it Did feel stripped kgfhsv#/what else what else uuum#i've developed more world stuff for pi.e which is also very epic and neat ; like the 3 Cities + radiation towns + Sanctuary cities +#Sanctuary zones + how they interact w/ each other lol :)#i have these weird lil creatures that i'm calling Rascals rn but i think they need a different name pfshv#and also cuz i made the general world bigger that means i have defined more of the plot just by. scribbling some points for towns on paper#yea :D this thing is maybe just a little bit daunting but i'll prolly get it figured out lol ; roman 3#/oh i Do really wanna draw more pi.e stuff to post hfh :>#cuz despite it all i am still v shy abt my stuff and that's kinda silly so !!#/sometimes my brain gets into these weird paper jams where i'm doing one thing but then i see and wanna do another thing (easy transition ?#but then i see another thing and then another and now i have 4 different things and i feel bad just focusing on just one because. ??? ????#when i was little i used to humanize objects Just before they were thrown away and i think that sort of carried over in a weird way bfhsvgj#balance in all things !! wait no not like that w-#//oh wait wait did i ever mention i learned to make stir fried rice w/ egg#prolly not that big of a deal but i'm STILL happy abt that lol :D#maybe especially cuz i was doing most of the cooking while my picky-cook brother was helping and he thought it was good so like YAY#though tried to make it a second time and i let my ma put the salt in the pot and she oversalted it by Far TwT#it was fine though just really salty lol :)#//mnm also getting into classic vehicles a lil bit#just a bit! cuz i don't know where to start and i just really like that one bike i doodled a bit ago#also i'm a bit spooked that my dad will find out and he is Overwhelming when he finds you might like smth he knows smth abt gfvsgh <3#//Oh i'm outta tag space pfshgv - Toodlesssss ciao :3
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#joe trohman#okay not to be THAT GUY but like#the situations probably don't line up exactly or anything and I don't wanna pretend they do when I'm not that well researched#which is why this is in the tags lmao. I'm not making claims#I think it might be a little telling that when a certain member of a band has old band related stuff and wants to get rid of it they mark#it all up and sell it for crazy amounts#and then there's joe. who's like. imma give some shit away !#FHDSJKGHDHDFHGH#tell me your fave smfs track lol! that's it!#yeah it's a totally different scale I'll give him that but yknow. it just. yknow.#joe's not giving out That much but one of the things is literally a beat up guitar from like fucking VAN DAYS?!?!#people WOULD pay for that. but as far as I know it's just the giveaway?!#DOES ANYONE HEAR MEEEEEEE#don't tag this post w/ the other guitarist's name btw I don't want his stans getting pissed lmao#this is not a space for fr*nk stans. I don't like him <3#you can rb (I will never have an unspoken ''don't rb'' rule because I hate those)
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ANOTHER DEATH BY INMOLATION???? ENOUGH!!!!
#really happy about being wrong about oden. normally when you see something is badly written it is true but here oden being alive being bad#writing was a trally a gotcha moment.... well unlike with pell and laki and wiper..... and conis' dad....#ashura....... and kanjuro is still alive...... this man deserves an execution#is this orichi??? the beheaded one was a kanjuro drawing too???? jesus#orichis fruit is a dragon with a lot of heads.... maybe he can regrow them lmao....#omg double hakai.... goodbye my brave soldiers.... ZORO?? ENMA IS A GODSEND YOU OWN ALL YOUR LIVES TO HIYORI....#zoro got hurt and luffy is on the offensive again..... exactly..... YES RED ROCK!!! BUT DON'T MISS!!!#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1025#oden and kin on a flower field..... okay......#luffy stopping the attack meant for zoro.... oof#kaido's face knowing this was gonna hurt....#kid and traffy catching luffy too..... everybody loves luffy.....#how can luffy just stop kaido's attack like that's insane....#the others attacking big mom... that was such a big brain move.... they made teams here... luffy and then the brains (everyone elseÑ#jesus. that was something else#luffys giggle and smile when kid and tragfy catch him... he is so happy when people are there for him..... he loves fighting with friends :)#episode 1026#OMG GOODBYE BIG MOM!!!! SHE IS IN THE SEA I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!!!!#TRAFFY RATHER LET THE MISSION FAIL THAN ONE OF THEM DIE??? OMG#HOW IS PROMETHEUS IN THE WATER?????? FUCK OFF!!!!#they are bullying zeus lmaooo INTERNAL FIGHTING!! INTERNAL FIGHTING!!!#luffy knocked out and atill looking at kaido again.... ooff#this is insane. luffy just saved zoro and told him he wont need to die and here he goes again. oh this time i migh fr die. take care goodbye#the bleeding... oof THE SCAR JUST AS THE ONE HE HAS.... goodbye zolo..... rip bozo... don't fall like that man..... ass up like sanji...#he got a 2x1 hit..... goodbye law too.... kaido's eye when he notices luffy is up again.... also haoshoku..... i dont wanna look it up.....#nvm is the conqueror's haki.... i do not remember the og names AT ALL#episode 1027
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anxiety started to spike high (from pre concert excitement and nerves) but for once!
i was able to snack a v little bit (u know my anxious ass is worried abt bathroom access/locations as usual lmao so I'm trying not to consume much until the show is over), got my Lamotrigine taken (bc god forbid i miss a day, then i have to start back at square one and take my dose down to the lowest again which doesn't feel 100% true? but im not arguing with the doc lol)
And let myself have an edible and like. i can feel the anxiety and nerves just under the surface, like milk on the oven boiling and it gets that thin skin over top? it's like the anxiety is little spikes trying but failing to poke completely thru the skin so far (why are there spikes in the milk in this metaphor? don't worry abt it bc i don't know either, this is just where it ended up; we took this journey together)
and like yeah that's not perfect but. it's such a lovely difference, even if I'm still more tense and prone to an anxiety attack rn than I'd like to be. But even this is so much better than it was off the Lamotrigine, and it's nice to see it might be working again (tho i also attribute Housemate's help and going with me to the concert tonight with helping me on this, it's like. if my brain sees i have someone new to the event who might need my help navigating, it lowers the Anxious Mode and heightens the Caretaker/Dad Friend Mode enough for me to be braver than usual. I want aer to have as good a time as possible, and we're keeping it v low key with like. not being up in the main pit, staying to the back and planning to hang out some in the venue halls while the openers play, so the GA/pit doesn't overwhelm either of us, tho it seems the metal scene out here is p chill from what we can tell? But yeah. I can't always be brave for myself, but i can do it for a friend. and also partially for the fact that I'll be in the same room as Avatar for at least 2-3 hours aksnfkfngn)
#text post#long post#tagging that to be safe bc i think the remaining anxiety is showing up in me being overly wordy#even compared to usual lmao#if the guys do a by the bus mini meet and greet like they sometimes do I'm trying to make myself be brave enough to walk over#just to say hi thank them for the show and for coming out here and for the music in general#maybe attempt small talk bc i actually would love to know how they like this area of the country#i just find it interesting bc musicians go a fuck ton of places so they have a different perspective on it#idk if I'll manage that tho bc i also don't want to bother them at all#anyway if ur in the state and going to the concert tonight and wanna chat/talk abt it at all pls msg me#it would be lovely to know if there's anyone from Tumblr we might run into. a familiar name to put a face too u know?#...i need to stop typing the anxiety is showing thru far too much here thank u guys for ur patience with me lmao
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