#dkslfhdskfh if it does ill edit or rewrite this into a Proper Fic Author Reccomendation

[charterandbarter]

d’you ever just read fic from that one author and ur like “ah yes. here is the 12 page tightly written research paper titled ‘why the tragicomedy that is humanity’s capacity for love, fucked tho it may be by trauma or circumstance or plain old dysfunctional disaster gay syndrome, is ultimately proof that faith in people is not unfounded, and that yes, waking up every morning is actually a good thing: a narrative discussion’ that i requested. thank you for your contribution have my everlasting gratitude.” isn’t that the mood sometimes?

anyway everytime i read fic by @theinternationalacestation (yellow_caballero on ao3), especially her tma fic, i wanna cry. god help me, yes i will worship the awful, amazing, heartwarming power of love. goddamn my raisin of a heart, i will deeply examine how power and the lack of it perpetuates cruelty even in people who want to be kind. fuck you, of course i’ll mutter under my breath at 3am that goodness, much like faith and trust and writing a personal statement, is hard as shit but you can get better with practice. people can get better with practice, and guidance, and maybe the tragedy of life is we won’t always have others willing or able to help via either, but the beauty of life is that if things go just right, we *can*, and isn’t that worth getting up everyday? isn’t it worth it to have others to be worthy of? to love, despite the warning signs? also i Will support jonahelias’ right to eat shit via a cricket bat. now let me go so i can take my 50th lap around the house to calm the fuck down because i cant afford to weep over fictional characters in front of my parents or else they’ll think im spending too much time on my phone instead of watching fox news with them. you are a monster; a lighthouse and a warning and a beacon all at once. fuck you. i owe you my soul. goodnight.