#dkskdj

[enragedbisexual]

so what , u mean 2 tell me *im* gonna have 2 be the one 2 write the first poly / ot3 fic 4 the horror comedy malewife + girlboss comical GENIUS show that literally got canceled 5 yrs ago???? ugh . y must i always carry the burden 😪

[crimeronan]

okay now that i'm calmer i can constructively discuss one of the things that made me lose my temper earlier. guys Please stop being weird about indigenous actors. in doing digging into the ~*~controversy~*~ tonight, i've yet to find any proof of ian ousley having committed any crime except belonging to a tribe that isn't federally recognized. (the thing about the tribe being a fake business venture or only having existed since 2012 has, as far as i've found, been debunked.)

federal tribal recognition is based around historical treaties, and you NEED to not base your idea of who is "actually native" on who the colonial occupying government says is native. if you didn't know this stuff and didn't feel like fact-checking prior to sharing then i'd recommend you pause in the future before reposting stories that make you mad.

this is close to my heart given that one of my partners is native american with a long family history on the rez and a lot of strong feelings about anti-colonialism. i Desperately don't want to have to blacklist atla entirely because i love it so much (the original cartoon, at least - haven't watched the live action yet), but like. I Need You Guys To Stop. For Real. Blease 🙏

[maudiemoods]

When it rains the backyard floods and a LOT of frogs meet up and have babies so there's also a ton of tadpoles which is really cool but also listen to this dkemkdje they're so loud

I love themmmm they're so fun to listen to

[yasimcocukk]

bi ara deli gibi kemençe istiodum getirseler şimdi önüme koysalar dokunmam bile noluo abee

[lyriumsings]

thought the beginning of the year would be super lax but we’ve had back to back appointments these last three days for everybody so i’ve been all over the place like damn

[lattehearted]

👀 + yasu, if you could, would you rather save shuji or saburo? (SORRY DKSKDJ)

The silence after the question echoes into eternity. It covers her like a worn blanket, familiar and cold. It may look, to the untrained eye, as if Yasu hadn't heard the question. But the way her breathing shallows and her fingers tap against the table beside her show all too well how affected she is.

"...Saving only one is futile," she answers at last. "They're both support beams. It's only a matter of time before I crumble if I lose one." She takes a steadying breath and exhales more shakily than intended. "But...Shuji would never see himself as a building block, however integral. He's the king. But you can checkmate a king without losing the queen. I think he may be prepared to sacrifice himself...but a small part of him may not be prepared to lose me. Foolish. And yet, I cannot fault him for it."

"...Saburo has never been prepared to make that choice. He's never had to ask himself if he'd be okay sacrificing himself if his ambitions were still achieved. And I hope he never does. So...though it hardly matters because I'd go shortly after, I'd have to save Saburo first."

@ahsterism and @fablewrote / interrogation time

[flujo-de-protones]

Buenas tardes, en que se parece un cuervo a un escritorio?

buenas tardes sombrerero loco dkskdj, no lo sé tú dime

[hopxlessopus]

as vezes me sinto boba por ainda ter todas essas mensagens, e me sinto mais boba ainda porque sempre tem alguma vez no ano que eu paro pra reler algum pedaço aleatório de conversa, e aí eu me pergunto o porquê de fazer isso, o porquê dessa autossabotagem. passei muito tempo pensando que só me sabotava com isso, só cutucava ferida só que agora eu vejo as coisas por uma perspectiva diferente. você costumava me chamar de chorona e naquela época era mesmo, só que não sou mais assim, agora é o oposto. eu não choro, não extravaso, não demonstro sentimentos e acabei me escondendo dentro de camadas e camadas que pesam meus ombros, me escondi em um buraco dentro de mim mesma. eu não desabafo a não ser aqui, não sei mais me expressar e evito ao máximo falar sobre o que sinto pras pessoas, simplesmente me escondi. só que chorar as vezes faz bem, lava a alma. descobri que eu busco reler essas conversas antigas pra conseguir chorar com algo, pra me sentir viva. meu peito doendo agora de tanto ter chorado ao invés de me deixar mal me lembrou que eu ainda sei sentir e eu precisava ter minha alma lavada, mesmo que com lágrimas de nostalgia e arrependimento. ler aquelas declarações também fizeram eu me lembrar de que pelo menos alguém me amou logo quando eu nem conseguia amar a mim mesma. sinto falta disso, de ser amada, de ter alguém que dizia que eu era o amor da vida. acho que eu disse com tanta convicção que queria que você fosse o amor da minha vida se eu pudesse escolher que até hoje essa frase me assombra e não sei se é ela que me impede de amar alguém de novo. eu tenho medo de nunca mais conseguir amar assim, de ser sempre vazia ou de chegar na velhice e dizer que tive o amor da minha vida aos 20 anos e segui o resto da vida sozinha. eu achava que era questão de tempo, mas já se passaram anos e eu ainda tenho esse buraco por mais que na maioria das vezes eu consiga esquecer que ele está aqui, ele sempre dá um jeito de aparecer. costumo arrumar desculpas pra me sentir dessa forma, antes era por ser depressiva, ou por não fazer nada da vida e achar que a mente vazia oficina do diabo que me trazia pra cá de novo. só que hoje eu estou bem, não sinto mais vontade de morrer, eu consegui levantar daquela cama e aos pouquinhos eu me reergui e comecei a ter objetivos na vida, a ir atrás deles e conquistar as minhas coisas. eu saio, trabalho, vivo a vida o pouco que consigo mesmo com a rotina corrida e não costumo ter tempo pra pensar muito nesse buraco vazio que ficou, mas ele ainda aparece as vezes. já se passaram 5 anos mas ele ainda insiste em aparecer mesmo que eu tente tanto fazer ele ir embora. enfim, lá vim eu escrever um monte aqui de novo, só que de alma lavada agora, me sinto mais leve pelo menos por agora, e se você ainda chegar a ler isso por favor não ache que eu sou uma doida que não consegue superar você ou que sou obcecada dkskdj sou só doida, um pouquinho.

[meersspace]

oh okay okay dkskdj

GUYS ANGUS MCLAREN FOLLOWED ME

[sapphicsupremacist]

after a full week of stress dreams about it I finally got my placement confirmation and I'm going to be teaching at an elementary school in grade 7/8 :)

[little-mari-on-a-roof]

local dumbass accidentally clicked to see a spoiler post thousands dead millions injured

[crimeronan]

the raven cycle wasn't exactly my thing but i read it cuz the way you and your friends talk about it is beautiful and deeply funny. also reading your blog reminds me i can be an asshole and wearing the Happy Smiles Everyday mask all the time is bad for me

this last bit made me Laugh Out Loud. yes absolutely you can be an asshole. it's perfectly reasonable to be choosy about where you spend your emotional energy & to set hard boundaries to avoid overextending yourself. i'm glad this space is a good reminder of that!

also thank u for reading trc even though it's not really your thing dkskdj. i am in fact impassioned about it as are like 90% of my frens.

[punkpresentmic]

y’know?

[stix-n-bread]

R2 with from the kiss meme with draal and @thehoneymushroomhealer’s oc locket!

sorry for the wait, though i hope you like it :D

(the meme, no longer accepting)

[squishle-love-forby]

My god they don't all fit on one shelf anymore

[glennmillerorchestra]

picking random ones from the list without looking: 16 49 55

hi maddie!

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

considering i sit like hawkeye pierce, i would have to say just constantly shifting positions is how i'm most comfortable. i find myself slouched back, one leg up on the seat, and one hanging down most of the time, but i get tired of one position pretty quickly lmaoo

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

what else could i say but "food and love- which is of course the same thing!"

i think i could also go with "you win a few, you lose a few" because it's something i started saying jokingly, but it kind of became 'my saying' over time. pretty basic advice, but something that's important for me to remind myself

55. favorite fairy tale?

mmm, i was definitely a big fairy tale kid, so it's hard to pick just one, but i think my favorite was (and still is!) snow white and rose red, because i loved the color scheme and the pretty girls :) i also liked sleeping beauty as a kid, mainly because that was the book i learned to read with