#directioner forever ❤️

[escapismqueen]

One direction was a huge part of my childhood. I loved them so much and they brought me so much joy as a young girl and even now when I go back and listen to their songs. It’s hard to know what to say in a time like this, especially in such complicated circumstances with such a complicated person. But he didn’t deserve to die, and my heart breaks that his life got cut short. My thoughts are with his family and friends. I won’t comment on his personal life and things he’s said or done because I don’t know enough, and it’s not my place, but I’m still so sorry that this has happened. One direction isn’t one direction without you Liam 💔 Thankyou for all the memories and for being the soundtrack of my childhood. Directioner forever ❤️

[random--rants]

It keeps hitting me randomly...

I'm telling myself whatever grief or emotions I'm processing is valid.

Parasocial relationships are weird but Attachment is Attachment even if it's one way. Grief is Grief.

This is how emotional dependance and gratitude works I suppose. It's not overreacting over some celebrity's death but the effect left is real to mourn for ages.

Unexplainable, a love that only we could understand as 1D said💯

Regret in other four boys' statement is what's getting to me...

"Wish I'd asked if you were okay one more time"

"Wish I could hug you one more time"

"Wish we could share same stage again"

"I'm finding myself talking out loud to you"

"Never thought it was our last Goodbye"...🥺😖

This whole situation sums up one thing again...

Appreciate the people around you, Validate their feelings.

Often tell the people you love that you love them.

Hold on to people who hold on to you

Let people know that you care, Slow down because it's just life and it'll be over before we realise.

Five years back, found these boys on a random afternoon, initial plan was just to know their names but....they changed the trajectory of a girl who never felt enough, who never felt belonged anywhere, who always thought she was a bad luck factor in her loved one's life, who had a constant subconscious wish that something should happen to her so she can disassociate from this world.

Sometimes obsessions save people... Atleast in my case. They gave me a sense of belonging and warmth, assuring that it was all in my head.

I've seen someone saying that the hardest part of being a fan is not able to save the person who saved you in your darkest times... 💔

And just like that I've lost one from my Safest HOME.

Payno...our Leeroy, if you are listening... You and boys will always be there in The Story Of My Life. My kids will grow up hearing The Story of Us, how their mum was healed by five random boys, how she got a Home far far far away from Home, how obsessed she was with them, how she'll be forever indebted to them and how One Direction gave her the right direction to love herself atleast a bit.

You'll be timeless Liam. You'll live till the last breath of the last directioner on this planet. Since you saved us you have a share in our souls right 🫂

May be in another life, we had a perfect reunion.

May be in another life, you'll get to see Little Bear grow up into a man.

Just wake me up from this or give me some tips to forget about it 'cause a knife to chest would hurt lesser.

Thank you Liam, Love You Goodbye 🖤

❤️💛🇨🇮💙💚

[stephstars08]

🤍✨Liam Payne Tribute🤍✨

It’s taken me a while to post about the passing of Liam and I think it’s mainly because I’m still in shock that he’s gone. I’m still in shock that the world loss a human who always wanted to share his love of music with the world. The loss of Liam has really hit me because he was such a big part of my life. The next morning when I woke up is when it really hit me that Liam was gone.He was a big part of all of people’s lives. Yes, I never met him but you don’t have to meet someone for them to mean something to you. I became a directioner when I was 11 years old. It was the summer of 2012 and I wouldn’t be turning 12 years old till October but my best friend and I, that summer of 2012 was just us singing and dancing to the songs from One Direction’s first album. One Direction’s music touched my heart and they were my comfort artists. My whole teen years all I did was listen to one direction when I was sad, happy, excited, angry. Whatever I was feeling I was listening to their music. I always felt like Liam was the sunshine of the group. He was always smiling in interviews and taking care of his band mates but he also took care of his fans as well. I actually was able to see One Direction play at M&T Bank Stadium in Baltimore, Maryland which is my hometown. I got to see them during their last tour together. I still have the ticket taped on my bed room door and I’ve been looking at it a lot these past days because that was a night that I’ve never forgotten. I still remember the day my parents told me I was going to go see them live. I cried my eyes out. One Direction was a big part of my life so to have to write a tribute post for one passing away, I never thought I would have to do it at just 24 years old. Liam, you still mean so much to not just me but people all over the world. You will be missed by so many and I just hope you know that. I hope you know that you are so loved and you are so missed. Liam, your legacy will live on forever and ever. You’ve gotten taken away from this earth far too soon. My thoughts and prayers go out to Liam’s family, friends, his son, and his band mates who weren’t just his band mates, but were his brothers.

I love you, Liam. Thank you for everything and I hope you are at peace.❤️

[luveurmilk]

Liam, I’ve been trying to gather my thoughts over these last 24 hours. It’s impossible to do. From the time I was 12 up until I was 17, you were a constant. Every day of every hour, One Direction dictated my life. I was bullied because my entire personality was One Direction. I wouldn’t change it for the world. Saying goodbye to you as Liam from One Direction wasn’t easy, but it was doable. But to say goodbye to you forever isn’t. I’ll always think of you as Daddy Direction, Payno, Leeroy. I’ll think of you as Liam. I’ll think of you as kind hearted, special, warm, and soft. You always thought of us Directioners in whatever you did. Wherever you have gone, I hope you’re happy. Whatever demons that burdened you, I hope they’re gone. I love you, Liam. Thank you for saving me. I wish I could’ve saved you. ❤️

[doehoney]

i had all the 1D notebooks & binders in school way back when ;-; i just don’t get how all the money in the world can’t prevent something like what happened…the term handlers is a little dehumanizing but where were his people?? hotel security?? it just feels like so many people must’ve looked the other way. not trying to blame anybody but so many places have impossibly high railings/glass…even if there was negligence, saying that isn’t gonna bring him back :/ how do you feel about all this?? hope you’re doing okay one directioner to another <3

I literally feel sick about it tbh. Fame destroyed him and turned him into someone none of us recognise, but the Liam I grew up with was so admirable and kind.

He was such a staple of so many women’s girlhood and this whole situation could’ve been avoided if people around him, whilst in the band and outside of it, cared about him as a person and not a commodity/brand that existed solely to make people money. I remember there was an interview he did where he said at the height of One Direction, to control the chaos that ensued whenever they were seen, their team would just lock them in hotel rooms and Liam ended up drinking the minibar dry because there was literally nothing else to do. I think it all went downhill from there for him and I’m sure there was opportunity at every step of his decline to stop it ending up the way it has if anyone could’ve just cared enough to help him.

I can and will never justify who he became and what he did to hurt people but I think I’ll grieve the Liam Payne I grew up with forever.

I hope you’re doing okay too ❤️

[comeunombranelbuio]

Tre giorni fa mi sono svegliata con una notizia: Liam Payne è morto. Non mi sono scomposta più di tanto, abituata alle solite ‘fake news’. Poi però le notizie a riguardo aumentavano, e diventava sempre più una certezza. E mi si gela il sangue. Il primo pensiero è andato a te, alla mia Chiaretta,alla persona con la quale avrei condiviso questa notizia, e con la quale ho condiviso negli anni la stessa musica,il primo loro concerto a Milano, emozioni,sogni. Una lacrima mi riga il viso.

Inizio a leggere gli articoli,inizio a fare ricerche per capire cosa sia successo. Resto shockata. La mente fa un salto temporale, torno a 14 anni fa. Ricordo ancora i provini fatti ad X-factor,ricordo la formazione della band, i video diary che aspettavo ogni settimana, ricordo le risate e la piccola me che si sforzava di capire l’inglese.

Ricordo quella ragazzina, e il suo vissuto, e riaffiorano tutte quelle sensazioni, o forse non se ne sono mai andate, con il tempo e con l’età uno ha imparato solo a gestirle, ma certe ferite,certe cicatrici ti sono cucite addosso, te le porti per sempre.

Il tempo sembra essersi fermato, indosso le cuffiette,schiaccio play, chiudo gli occhi. Ho 11/12 anni, sono alle medie, e loro sono i miei compagni di vita. Ho sempre vissuto la musica a mille, come una cosa che ti appartiene e ti arriva da dentro, e cosa voi siete stati per me allora e cosa continuate ad essere oggi non si può spiegare. Ringrazio i miei genitori, per avermi fatto vivere quell’esperienza quel 28 giugno 2014, che mi ha dato così tanto. Ricordo ancora perfettamente ogni dettaglio, di quando all’uscita piangevo come una disperata, perché era stato tutto così bello e surreale, e da allora ho iniziato ad aspettare il prossimo. Poi quel 25 marzo 2015 Zayn lascia la band, e nel 2016 voi vi prendete una pausa. Da allora non ci sono più i One Direction, niente più musica. Sono passati 10 anni e ancora aspetto e ci spero.. come ricordo le riprese per girare il video del 1D day in rappresentanza dell’Italia e poi un’intera notte sveglia per potervi seguire in diretta dall’America conclusasi rigorosamente con un’english breakfast. Ricordo la fan page che creai: I’m a Directioner, che mi ha fatto conoscere tante persone, per assurdo prima era così semplice fare amicizia, eravamo una famiglia, ci riconoscevamo e sembrava conoscerci da chissà quanto , ricordo delle storie che pubblicavo su wattpad e su Efp fanfiction,dei raduni che facevamo. E di essere finita al tg, sopra una transenna a cantare allegramente. E non a caso il mio primo viaggio l’ho fatto in Inghilterra..

Chiaretta non c’è più da 6 anni, e ora Liam, sei volato via anche tu. Ma io lo so, che quando indosso quelle cuffie,e chiudo gli occhi, siamo di nuovo tutti insieme. Io e lei sotto a quel palco a cantare a squarciagola, guardarci e piangere ma felici come non mai, perché stiamo vivendo il nostro sogno, e voi 5 insieme su quel palco, a cantare le nostre canzoni preferite.

Ho temuto, che perdendo te, io debba dire addio a quella parte di me, così come ho dovuto dire addio a lei.. e invece no, vi prometto che non perderò mai questa parte di me,che custodisco gelosamente. Come mi batterò sempre per l’importanza di un’idolo, l’appartenenza ad un fandom.

Prima nato morto, poi con un solo rene, successivamente vittima di bullismo. Poi il successo, che ti travolge.

La salute mentale è alla base, e chiedere aiuto è la cosa più difficile, ed è così bizzarro di come tu stesso Liam sia stato l’ancora di salvezza di così tanti ragazzi.. io ancora non me ne capacito..

Sarai sempre una parte di me Payno, e ti vedo proprio lì accanto a lei.

Ci sentiamo tra le note. Oggi, da 14 anni e per sempre.

Infinitamente, e fieramente la directioner che è in me,forever ❤️

[bbyblue1317]

Forever a Directioner ❤️

forever. ❤️

[inthedayswhenlandswerefew]

I need some people to understand that we’re are not condoning all he foul have done wrong or justifying he hurt other (and himself) with his actions; we all made mistakes in our life; nobody is fuc**** perfect, we’re humans (and so was he); yea he did bad stuff but those are free of sin cast the first sntone is what the Bible says, he need some much help and i have human empathy (the one that makes hurt for 🇵🇸🇱🇧 and all of those who suffers for stupid wars) and is sad to me that he have such a dark period and could sadly not got the help in time; this is a lesson to all, the only one who can save us is ourselves; just how Matthew Perry said is hard realizing that the one who hurts us the most is ourselves.

We are sad four his younger self, the boy he was, the one who was part of some of our best memories when young, what all of those five boys make us feel, how they connected the world through the fandom; we are sad for that a person from our past sadly took bad decisions and ended like this, a person that when I was 13 reminded me that I was beautiful and worthy with the music they have, they tried to give a good message through their art, is sad that he helped so many and he himself could not get the help

Remember the good times, who in the fandom doesn’t remember 1D day, seeing all their funny videos , that is not forgetting the wrong, but I’m a religious person, I believe that there’s is a God and that He is the one who know can judge him for whatever he did and I hope Liam can find the peace he could find on this life, I hope his little son is protected from all this, I hope his family can find peace and is also protected.

Sorry for the rant but the 13 year old directioner in me had to let it all out

❤️

Yeah I totally get where you're coming from, Liam clearly went through a lot and was struggling with unresolved trauma and addiction. He became wildly famous when he was SOOOOO young and vulnerable, and I'm sure what the public knows about how the 1D boys were treated is only the tip of the iceberg. It's so sad that 1. Liam's deep suffering led to the suffering of others (as the saying goes, "hurt people hurt people") and 2. he didn't get the help he needed, and so now his family and friends have lost him forever. It's terribly tragic all around 💔

[dorotheataylor]

My favorite parts from some songs I like:

Ladies and Gentlemen will you please stand? With every guitar string scar on my hand, I take this magnetic force of a man to be my, Lover...

My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue, All's well that ends well to end up with you, Swear to be over dramatic and true to my, Lover...

And you'll save all your dirtiest joke for me, And at every table, I'll save you seat, Lover...

Damn, I love the Lover era of our Queen Tay. And this whole song is soo soo good. I literally couldn't choose any one specific part but this one was something I couldn't ignore. And I’d definitely want this song to be played at my wedding😌💕

Darling, just hold my hands. Be my girl, I'll be your man. I see my future in your eyes...

I love this whole fucking song but this part is just✨ Like it’s the man here is indirectly promising her to love and cherish her forever if only she gives him a chance. Damn, another very perfect song for a wedding🤧 And this would also be a perfect one to play while dancing with your s/o and look at them with all love and happiness. Ed Sheeran did a really great job there. I would literally make this as 'our song' with my future man.

I have loved you since we were 18, Long before we both thought the same thing. To be loved and to be in love...

-Louis's solo = heaven

As a big directioner, I'd definitely say this song is soo beautiful. Well every single song of them is, but this is just soo, ah I can't even explain in words. And this part is soo nostalgic for people who have experienced this.

One night he wakes, Strange look on his face. Pauses then says, "You're my best friend." And you knew what it was, He is in love...

Another masterpiece by Queen Tay. 1989 era was super cool too. I love each and every song of that album but this song and especially this part of the song, stole my heart.🤧❤️ This song gives me best friends to lovers type vibes. What do you think?

And I get the feeling that you'll never need me again.....

That damn high note! Ugh, this man is literally trying to kill me. And the emotions in this song- I can't even describe it. And the emotions on his face in the MV. All I want to say, this song was one of my favorite from Fine Line album.

(gif not mine!)

But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself 'cause someday, I'll be everything to somebody else...

This song is so painful like every other one in SOUR and the feelings I have after listening this part. I can't say it in the words. And I like how, in spite of being deeply hurt, she's sure that she'll get the love she deserves. Everyone will. Eventually. But I'm not so sure about myself :')

But how could I hate her? She's such an angel. But then again, kinda wish She were dead as she Walks by...

A perfect song for someone who's experienced or experiencing unrequited love. And especially when their crush likes someone else. It's such a painful thing to see. I love how Conan Gray has put so much emotions in this. And this particular part sometimes gives me chills. Like you would want to hate your crush's crush, but then again you can't. Why would you? You've no reason to. They are smart, beautiful and so kind. But then again, you can't help but feel they weren't here, or they could just disappear or just dead. And then 'why would you' part, that always gives me goosebumps. The whole 'Kid Krow' album was good but this song will be my all time favorite from it.

You never want to know how much you weigh, You still have to squeeze into your jeans, But you're perfect to me.

I'm saying this again, but this song is just soo beautiful. Like you're full of insecurities about yourself and your body but your s/o reassures you that you're beautiful and perfect to them and they'll love you endlessly, no matter what. And the way this whole is sung using only one instrument. I want my future man to sing this song for me or I'm gonna sell him in the black market😤 And when he does, I'll give him the biggest hug and kiss. Oh my, I'm already tearing up thinking this😩❤️

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And this is where I'll stop coz my list can go on for decades and I'll never get tired. And if you liked this, reblog with your favorite parts of your favorite songs and your opinions about them. Or ypu can say your thoughts about the songs I talked about. I'll be really happy to know them :)

I‘ll maybe post a part 2 too.

[scarletwitch1918]

Happy 12 years of One Direction 💙💚🇮🇪❤️💛

When I joined this fandom in summer 2019 I never expected for the band to change my life forever. I’m so glad to have found 1D and our community of Directioners as well 💛

[mirathedirectioner2328]

These guys are the reason i'm still alive

They are my family no matter what

Directioner forever !💙💛🇮🇪💚❤️