#dir en grey fanfics

[that-fangirl]

Sudden wifey material- Toshiya x reader fanfic (mention of Die, Kaoru and George)

After a rather busy afternoon much to our surprise, night approached us. Mia-chan had given me enough time to go home for a short time and take a shower to wash away the sweat from running back and forth all day. Once I returned, I gave her enough time to do the same and use my house. 

You’re pretty dolled up for just another regular night, boss… - she teased me.

Just say what you mean to say…

Oh, I think you should! Go get him, boss. Sink your teeth into him!

Just go ahead and wash up. And doll up a bit too? So I won’t look thirsty? 

But you are though… - she said under her breath and smiled my way, wiggling her eyebrows.

I shook my head at her as she made a run for the door, giggling. 

From behind her, I recognized a tall slender frame. Toshiya had arrived, like he promised. Following behind him was Die, Sexx George and Kaoru. Mia-chan pointed towards me, smiling at Toshiya and I averted my gaze before he could catch me staring. I tried distracting myself by changing the playlist on the bar to something more nostalgic and chose Buck-tick. 

I’m back. - he announced with a triumphant smile, sitting in front of me. 

Hello, handsome. - I greeted him as usual. He smiled widely and giggled. 

He still had his makeup on, but was wearing his regular clothes. Die sat to his right, bowing towards me as he sat down. George sat to his left, also bowing and Kaoru followed suit, sitting to George’s left. 

I bowed back at them, saying:

Thank you for your hard work tonight. 

Time for some well deserved drinks! - George announced. - Right then! What you got?

That depends… do you want your regular poison of choice or something new, George?

Uh? - George-san was confused, looking at everyone for answers.

We have never been introduced but I must say I was quite looking forward to meeting you.

She’s here, she’s here! - Die announced rather amused, exchanging glances between us. 

Eh, don’t tell me? Are you a fan of mine? - George asked, blushing and combing through his red dyed hair. He looked around the boys for insight. None was given. 

Well, Toshiya talks about your antics so often I was curious to know who was my competition.

Toshiya laughed loudly, crossing his arms over his chest. Die giggled along and hit Toshiya’s shoulder playfully, whispering something in his ear. Toshiya nodded, giggling. 

Competition? - he repeated, leaning closer.

That’s right.

Eh?! Who do you enjoy to mess with? - he asked, pointing at the boys.

This handsome fella right here. - I said pointing my finger at Toshiya. He blushed. 

Oh-oh! Really?! So? How is it?

Quite fun, actually.  

Hoy! - Toshiya called me out, pointing his finger towards me as a warning. 

You know I can’t resist a bit of fun… especially if you’re in it. - I teased Toshiya, reaching for his finger and kissing it.  

He hid his face in his bangs shyly while George and Die whistled and smacked his back. 

He’s a tsundere, you know?

Oh I know. But I love that cold exterior. It just makes me want to peel off those layers to see what’s really underneath. Teasing, pushing his buttons, taming him… ah, fun! 

She’s an S. - Die warned Toshiya with a wicked smile. - Careful. It can be addictive. 

Toshiya laughed loudly, turning his back towards us to pull himself together. 

I think he likes the sound of that.- Die teased him, patting his back.

What’s there not to like about that scenario? Neh, Toshiya-san? Would you let me tame you?

Stop it. - he begged, not daring to look back and making the boys laugh.

But it could be fun for the both of us! We can change roles, too… I’ll let you do the same.

Die whistled and nodded happily with my reply.

It’s a good deal. It’s good, Toshiya. Take it! - he supported him. 

Wow. Hoy, you brat! Don’t turn your back on a lady!!! Especially one interested in you! - George educated Toshiya, making his stool spin back towards the counter. - You’re not getting any younger, you know? Don’t miss your chance now!

Toshiya’s shoulders were shaking from trying to contain his laughter. He hid his face in his bangs but I could still see his pearly whites through the dark strands of his hair. 

Die and Kaoru laughed loudly, enjoying to watch George scolding Toshiya. 

Show your face too! - he demanded, pulling his bangs back and exposing his forehead. 

It was now my turn to laugh. Toshiya was beaming red, trying to pull away from George’s hands.They all looked towards me as I muffled my laughter behind the palm of my hand.

George, you scold him like a father. - I remarked.

I practically taught this boy everything he knows! - he said, smacking Toshiya’s cheek playfully.

He didn’t even know how to use his hips for playing the bass. 

I’m very sorry. - Toshiya apologized, bowing. 

In that case… on behalf of the ladies, thank you George. 

Toshiya laughed loudly. 

Right?! - he got very excited, leaning closer to the counter. - It helps!

Thighs too… you do look like you got some thunder thighs, Toshiya-san… - I tried, lifting an eyebrow and looking down to where his thighs should be if I could see them.

Hoy! Don’t start it! - Toshiya warned me, smiling widely. Die smirked mischievously. 

Since you boys are all musicians and I have never been with a musician… - they listened carefully and laughed: - Tell me. Is it true musicians got skills on their fingers? 

Kaoru-san doubled his laughter, clapping his hands like a seal. Die looked towards Toshiya waiting for his reaction. Toshiya lifted an eyebrow my way and George smirked.

I’d be awfully disappointed if those long, deft fingers couldn’t play me like you play that bass. 

Toshiya was staring right back at me, with an amused expression. 

Are you seriously not gonna reply to that?! - George questioned him seriously, leaning into his shoulder ready to smack him. The boys laughed and Toshiya giggled nervously.

I’m thinking! 

What do you mean you’re thinking?! Of what?

A comeback!

No, no, no! No comeback! Just say: yes, you can! - George rubbed his face in desperation. 

Die and Kaoru were crying from laughing so hard. Toshiya giggled, hiding his red cheeks. 

What’s wrong with this dude? - George asked rather frustrated. - Say it!

Yes, I can… - he said almost below a whisper. 

More confidence! - George demanded, puffing his chest. 

Yes, I can. - Toshiya said, looking towards me with eyes that screamed forgiveness and embarrassment. I bursted into laughter. 

That’s a nice expression you got there, Toshiya-san. Go on: beg me to save you. - I teased him some more. 

The boys all bursted into laughter, smacking counters and leaning into each other for support.

She’s here! The S is here! Ah, this is fun. - Die said, massaging Toshiya’s shoulder. 

You are having WAY too much fun with this. - Toshiya warned me, narrowing his eyes. 

I am. Why? You mad? - I continued. The boys suddenly fell silent, studying his face.

I might be…

Are you choosing my punishment? - I tried, leaning closer to him. He didn’t avert his gaze.

Mmh. - he replied, licking his lips. 

Come closer. - I asked him. - Come on now. I won’t bite. Unless you want me to, of course.

He narrowed his eyes again, smirking but complied. I pulled him by his shirt collar, surprising him and put my hand around his neck to caress the hair at his nape. The boys watched from the edge of their seats rather amused by the turn of events and waited. George was excited.

Bend me over your knees and spank me, daddy… - I whispered in his ear. - It’s the only way I will ever learn. 

He gasped. I allowed my hand to lazily fall around his shoulder and chest as I pulled away. Toshiya’s eyes were dark with lust.

You like that, uh?

He nodded his head, smirking and giggling with excitement. 

Are the two of you going to share what just happened or… - George tried, leaning my way.

Why should any of you get a spoiler of what’s to come? Right… Toshiya-san? - I teased.

His eyes flashed with a glimmer of excitement and lust. He licked his lips and leaned closer. 

If you really mean that… - he started. - They may not get a spoiler but I want a preview. 

Oh, this is getting VERY interesting. - Die remarked, biting his thumb.

I thought you’d never ask, handsome… Tomorrow. After the show. 

Tomorrow?! - he questioned, clearly clueless as to why and how I had decided that. 

What? You thought I would just give it to you? - I teased him, caressing the tip of his nose. - A girl’s gotta play hard to get. Where’s the fun in just handing it to you on a platter?

I continued my journey with my finger down his lips towards his chin and down his neck. 

The boys laughed. Toshiya focused his eyes intently on me with a naughty smile on his lips. 

Going to make me wait, uh? 

Yes, Sir. My father always told me to make them wait. That way I could always tell apart the rotten apples from the good ones.

Alright then. I’ll be waiting impatiently for tomorrow. - he assured me. 

Since that is settled… - Die started. - Would you make us a couple of drinks, please? We worked hard and we ARE thirsty? Isn’t that right, Toshiya?

The boys giggled and Toshiya smirked my way. His eyes had a different glow to them. He was watching me like prey. Strangely I didn’t mind. It made me feel safe, treasured and desired. 

I was very much aware of his gaze on me as I went around the bar and prepared drinks for the rest of the night. The boys stayed until closing hour, chatting amongst themselves. 

Boys, you have all been a wonderful crowd but we have to close up shop. - I joked.

At least join us for a drink before we leave! - George begged, lifting his hands in the air.

I’d love to but-

Just one. Please. - Toshiya asked me, reaching for my hand over the counter.

They fell silent, watching us both rather interested in what would come out of it. 

Toshiya-san… are you drunk? - I tried.

I’ll be damned. She’s got him all figured out. - George said, crossing his arms over his chest and making the boys laugh.

A little. - he admitted, smiling with lazy eyes. 

I see… that explains why you’re trying to act cute with me. 

He also becomes clingy when he drinks. - Die warned me, smiling wickedly. 

So the tsundere flies out the window, uh? - I asked him.

Oh yeah. - Die confirmed, sipping his beer. 

Come on! Have a drink with me. - Toshiya begged, with lazy eyes. 

Oh my… did we become invisible? You really only have eyes for her, neh Totchi? - Die teased.

She’s my tsuma. - he said proudly, smiling towards Die. 

Your wife, uh? - I was rather amused by his drunkenness. - Well, this morning you did call me “dearest” and lately I find myself welcoming you back like a husband.

Oh-oh!!! This is getting good, right boys? - George laughed. 

It’s the only way I get to see you every day! - he whined, laughing. - I have to come!

If that’s the issue then why not just ask for my number, Toshiya-san? I’ll give it to you… gladly.

Uuuh, nice!!! He’ll take it! He’ll take it! - George cheered, smacking Toshiya’s shoulder. 

I reached out to caress his hand and Toshiya smiled, quite amused. I took my pen and began scribbling on his palm. The boys watched, sipping their drinks and watching the turn of events.

Call me… husband. - I teased him and winked my eye at him. 

Toshiya hid his face in George’s neck making everyone giggle at how coy he played suddenly. 

He will! He will. - Die and Kaoru guaranteed, shaking a stunned Toshiya. 

I’m counting on you boys… I’ll be waiting. - I promised, reaching for Toshiya’s neck to pull him towards me. I kissed his cheek, lovingly and they all cheered. He rubbed his neck and smiled from ear to ear, like a happy little boy. 

My phone started ringing. I took the day off to go to the show, but after last night I thought it wise to sleep until late since I was tired. 

I smacked the side table, palming for my phone. When I found it, I approached the speaker to my face and never asked who was it. I just waited for the voice on the other line. Until…

Hello? - I heard a familiar voice.

Hello, handsome. 

Did I awake you? - he tried also with a husky voice.

You did. But honestly it is a worse crime that you dare wake me up without being beside me in bed. 

Not even when you wake up?! You wasted no time!  - he said through giggles.

If it’s you, I’m always ready to flirt. - I tried, smiling to myself. 

Good to know. - he said seductively. That caused a shiver to run up my spine.

So… what is the reason for your call?

Eh? Oh, I just wanted to check on you and also… are you really coming to the show? - he asked slowly.

I keep my promises, Toshiya-san. I am going.

Oh… Good, good. I’m excited.

You should be. I am planning on kissing those pretty lips tonight. - I teased him.

Toshiya fell silent for a brief moment and suddenly laughed.

I see… That is, uh… Mhm.

By the way! How’s that hangover?

Ahah… I think I’m all healed, now that I know I’m getting a kiss.

Awww… look at him acting sweet. I could ALMOST fall for it. - I teased him.

I heard his boyish laughter from the other side.  

Mhm… that’s dangerous. - he concluded. 

We’ll see about that… - I teased him. - Well, handsome… I’d love to stay and keep on teasing you, maybe even get into some dirty talk over the phone.

Toshiya bursted into laughter on the other side. 

But… I have to go. I’ll see you tonight. Text me the details, will you?

Mhm… I will.

Such a good boy…

He laughed some more and wished me a good day. 

Break a leg, boys. 

We’ll work extra hard for you. 

Uff… 5 men all working hard to please me?! I like the sound of that! Yes, please. 

He doubled his laughter on the other side of the phone. I don’t think I noticed until that moment how much I really liked the sound of Toshiya’s laughter and giggles. 

Much to my surprise, somehow, Toshiya and George got me a ticket for a VIP section. I insisted that I should pay for it, but Toshiya was having none of it and claimed it was a present. So there I was, feeling somewhat nervous to hear them play. And to stand so close to them and see them so clearly. But mostly because I was now acquainted with Toshiya personally and didn’t quite know how to feel about his persona on stage. 

I was soon reminded of how much I loved his presence on stage: the palpable darkness and wild nature that pulled me in, the allure of his movements, the grace and the confident, almost royal like manner he walked around the stage, like he owned it. The proud smirk, the jumps and slaps to the bass… These were the moments I felt, I could see him shine the most. 

He looked my way and I felt my heart nearly jump inside my chest. He smiled widely and pointed my way, mouthing “This one is for you”. Toshiya… so you do know how to make a girl swoon! 

The boys started playing Yokan and Toshiya’s bass came through loud and clear just the way I loved it. He smiled proudly towards me and I saw Die come beside him to smile my way knowingly. Toshiya turned around hiding his face and Die giggled, happy for teasing him. 

Kyo-san wiggled his eyebrows towards Toshiya on his break from the song and laughed. The whole band was strangely aware of what was happening. So they took turns trying to embarrass Toshiya’s attempt to look cool in my eyes. He smiled widely while playing his bass. 

I felt someone tap my shoulder and when I looked back, I saw George. He smiled widely, showing me a thumbs up and asked me to approach him:

The boys are going into encore! Come with me! You can watch from the side of the stage. 

Oh, okay… - I agreed right way and followed George. 

He gave me a shoulder squeeze against his chest and said:

Did you see that brat?! He was trying to impress you, uh?

So it seems… little does he know he doesn’t actually have to go to those lengths to impress me. 

I heard Kyo scream “Last Sooong!” and suddenly felt butterflies flutter in my stomach. It was almost over. 

Oh, really? Eh?! - George was rather amused and surprised to hear me confess this.

Oh yes… I love the on stage Toshiya. I feel like I am in a trance when I watch him. I’m not gonna lie. I think he looks like pure sex on stage.

If he only knew!!! - George said through giggles, clapping his hands with excitement. 

After a couple of turns in what felt like a maze inside the performance house and we got to the side of the stage just as the boys finished up. They were waving to the crowd as if they meant goodbye and the crowd was going wild. Toshiya searched for my face in the VIP section and George approached the side stage to get his attention. He looked his way rather confused and George pointed towards me behind him. Toshiya widened his eyes and suddenly left the stage, moving towards me with steady steps; the Impulss bass tightly in is hand. I felt my heartbeat quicken with every step he took closer to me. He sprinted lightly during the last half of the way and taking my face in his large hands, he simply greeted me:

Hey.

He kissed me before I could even reply. He moaned into the kiss and I felt myself melt in his hold. He dipped his tongue into my mouth to deepen the kiss and I allowed him. He released my face to hold me close to him, the bass pressed between our bodies. His kiss turned into another kiss, and another more desperate and passionate, making me loose my breath. Taking quick breaths against the flick of his warm tongue, I moaned into his mouth. Toshiya sank his fingers into my shoulders, almost as if he longed to somehow melt into me, our bodies becoming one. 

Hoy! Hoy! - George called out for him. - Hurry back inside!

Toshiya broke the kiss reluctantly, out of breath. He brushed his nose against mine and pressed his forehead to mine, smiling widely. 

You have no idea how much I have been dying to do that. - he confessed against my lips and stealing a quick peck. - Wait here. Okay?

He turned around, smiling my way, feeling quite proud of himself and walked back in with an almost arrogant walk. He opened his arms wide at the crowd, feeling on top of the world and making them scream loudly. The rest of the boys teased him, throwing kisses at him and licking their lips. Kyo-san looked my way and shook his head, smiling. 

Sometimes, all it takes is the right woman beside you. And suddenly you feel like the whole world is yours for the taking. - George said, standing beside me and elbowing my side. 

I licked my bottom lip feeling suddenly aware of all the eyes fixed on me after what just happened. 

A tint heated my cheeks as George proceeded to tease me, for feeling shy and self-conscious when I hardly seemed to take notice of anyone before that kiss. 

The world just went away when he kissed you, uh?

In a way, yes.

In that case, just get married already! - he said quite serious. - You two are perfect for each other! You’re head over heels. You’re all he talks about. I’m tired of his ramblings! Just let me die in peace already, will you? I’m a tired old man! Look at the size of the bags under my eyes!!!

I couldn’t help but laugh at George’s pleas and complaints. 

[naughtycalamari]

Neues Kapitel: Fucking Rockstar Bitch 

 Chapters: 12/12 Fandom: Dir en grey, Jrock Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Die/Kaoru (Dir en grey), Kaoru (Dir en grey)/Original Character(s) Characters: Kaoru (Dir en grey), Die (Dir en grey) Additional Tags: Humor, Romance, Drama, Friendship, Past Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Road Trips, Friendship/Love

FINAL CHAPTER!!! 

[memory-and-sky]

i can write dir en grey fanfiction (x reader) if someone really wants it. don’t attack me i do what the people want (i don’t, i’ve been in a creative block for months)

[scarefox]

Asagi - Zero

Asagi - Anpusai

Asagi - Seventh Sense

Asagi - Shikabane no Ouja

Asagi & Shinya <3

[the-ravening]

9 People You'd Like To Get to Know Better

Thanks for tagging me @six-demon-bag, @zsparz, and @hiddenxplaces-blog!

3 ships: Winterbaron, obviously. Uhhh, I guess the other ships taking up the most space in my brain at this very moment in time are Helmut/Heinrich Zemocest and Stucky.

First ship: Daisuke/Yamato from Digimon was the first fic I ever read. First ship I got obsessed with was prob Paris/Kim from Star Trek Voyager.

Last song: I think the last song I listened to last night was Clever Sleazoid by Dir en grey

Last film: I kinda half-rewatched Captain America: The First Avenger with some friends on NYE while eating raclette, but the last new film I actually watched was probably Saltburn. Unless I'm forgetting something because Saltburn's taken over so much of my conscious thoughts.

Currently reading: Mostly fanfic, occasionally my Scientific American magazines that pile up, and I started listening to Lolita on audiobook a couple months ago but dropped off, though I'd still like to finish it.

Currently craving: We just finished the Tony's Chocolonely bars I brought back from Germany, and I wish so badly that I'd bought more of them.

Fav color: Blush pink & matte gold, preferably together in soft, glorious harmony

Relationship status: Not married, but not not married

Last thing googled: The spelling of Tony's Chocolonely. Before that, probably words to make sure I was spelling them/using them correctly.

Current obsessions: Zemo, Winterbaron, Daniel Brühl, Saltburn, and I've recently gotten really back into knitting again. Oh, and I started nostalgia playing Princess Maker 2 the other day and now I barely wanna do anything else, so I guess that also counts.

No-pressure tagging: @violenciorp, @tales-from-a-maphia-don, @thepiper0fhameln, @ex0rin, @unlikelymilliner, @shadowslament, @winterbonesthings, I can't even think of 9 people who haven't already been tagged, so anyone I missed who wants to join in.

[chevvy-yates]

💕 self-love time! talk about which ones of YOUR creations (edits, artworks, fanfics) you like the most then send to other creators to do the same 💕

I may chose my art for this one!

it's been a long while since I drew my last pic! (back in 2021 I think) – if at all, I drew once a year during the last 5 years bc it takes me ages.

I used to do a lot of traditional fanart back in the day (and during my studies), then I found a liking in drawing with illustrator (lol yes) and did digiatal stuff as in outliens in this programm and then went on coloring with photoshop (I never got into using ipad apps to draw).

But let's start with

OLD BUT GOLD – traditional stuff (I'm still proud of):

Phoenix, garuda fighting nagas and a Japanese Zombie Dragon yo!

I've been influenced a lot by Japanese traditional woodblock print and tattoo art and I love mythical beats and creatures. So these exist.

I'll put the two I did of Kyo (vocalist of Dir en Grey) extra including the songs I drew them for, next. He's perfect for art (I may have been influnced by his artbooks and album designs a little as well at that time).

and this stuff here is my most recent I did for a personal 960s au fic of an old tv western show I started writing when rona times hit (it kept me super busy, thankfully). Since I wanted to make more or less a book out of the chapters I decided to draw a bit for it as well, so have Gil, Rowdy and Rowdy's bike:

I miss doing illustrations sometimes and I often thought about drawing my pixel boys as well but tbh, I can take pics of them that almost look real to me at times and like I always wanted them to be, it costs me a few hours now instead of 3 days spending on an illustration like I used to do (I mean, look how often I lost myself in drawing details already in my traditional ones - the work behind it was often immense — I remember having parts of Lotus lyrcis, which were Japanese, translated into Siddham for the Lotus Kyo one! To this day I do not know if it is right or wrong, noone can read it anway i guess? lol

[wrathfulmercy]

4. what genre do you primarily favour? 5. what are your top five fandoms to RP within? 6. what are you top five universes to RP within? 12. what was the first fandom that you roleplayed within? 19. who was the first faceclaim you remember using, who for (canon or original)? 20. what age range do you most enjoy playing? 22. what have you learned by proxy of roleplaying and rp researching? 24. what faceclaim did you start off disliking, that you ended up enjoying or even playing? how did that come about? (non problematic, a personal preference) 25. what faceclaim did you start of loving, and now loathe? (non problematic, a personal preference)

Mun asks from here @wexarethewalkingxdead

4. what genre do you primarily favour?

Enemies to lovers, secret/forbidden relationships, slow burn, angst, horror. It has to hurt in a way and be dramatic :)

5. what are your top five fandoms to RP within?

TWD (even if i think the fandom itself is very toxic but that goes for most of them)

Game of Thrones / House of the Dragon

Peaky Blinders

Harry Potter

(Think I have no fifth one haha)

6. what are you top five universes to RP within?

Hmmm does that mean like the verses outside of fandoms? I hope so xD then…

Assassin

Mafia

Professor/teacher

Psychiatrist (for Alex)

Demon/dark wizard (for daemon and Tommy)

12. what was the first fandom that you roleplayed within?

Jrock fandom (back then everyone used faces of their favorite Japanese musicians which for me nowadays seems absolutely absurd xD how times can change)

19. who was the first faceclaim you remember using, who for (canon or original)?

Canon. It was Kyo from Dir en grey

20. what age range do you most enjoy playing?

Anything close to mine so around 30 but also beyond. I even like teenager stories sometimes when it connects to a story we write now

22. what have you learned by proxy of roleplaying and rp researching?

Definitely the way how rp in general works now or on tumblr. I also looked into other platforms to rp but this one is my absolute favorite. I found friends here to ask about formatting, terms, promos, tags and how u use gifs or whatever. I love that and appreciate every help any of you ever gave me cause it made me feel immediately welcome ❤️

24. what faceclaim did you start off disliking, that you ended up enjoying or even playing? how did that come about? (non problematic, a personal preference)

Matt smith. Never cared about him. Never watched anything with him. But then I saw him as Daemon and was amazed. Which is super funny cause I hated daemons character the first two episodes but as soon as he was covered in blood like Rick, negan and Tommy (yes that’s a pattern here), me and my friends were immediately like “I have to write that one”. The same literally happened about Cillian first. Never watched anything on purpose, never cared and I’m not into history or politics either so I thought I would hate peaky blinders. But then I watched it and was so amazed by his role that I absolute adore him now. Both characters were recommended for me to write tbh cause I always was like “hmmm can I do it” but my friends were very supportive so I’m very glad about these ideas ❤️ cause yeah, Tommy and daemon fit so perfectly to me and Rick and negan. Make them feral, psychopaths and covered in blood and I’m in 🤣

25. what faceclaim did you start of loving, and now loathe? (non problematic, a personal preference)

Generally musicians or anyone besides actors. It’s a moral thing for me. Like in the past when I was younger I didn’t really see a problem with using real faces and personas for rps or fanfics, but now that I’m older I have so much respect for everyone famous and their privacy, that I make a clear cut between actors (cause they play roles and I write these roles they play not them as personal human beings) and everyone else cause a musician might have a stage persona, but it’s still them so I can’t write them cause it feels like I might be doing something uncomfortable for them if they would read it. I don’t know if that makes sense but I hope you know what I mean. Also in the past i wrote fanfics with anime characters, but I wouldn’t do that anymore cause I only feel connected to real humans and not animated figures anymore. I’m also generally very picky about faceclaims as well cause I need to have a certain connection to their real persona and support their morals to write them.

[fonulyn]

what was your first ship/fandom?

i started out with jrock rpf when i stumbled into some dir en grey fics twenty years ago :'D before that i had no idea fanfic even existed lol it was a shock to say the least.

i know rpf divides opinions very strongly and honestly i'm not super into it either but it felt so different with jrock (and kpop) stuff because they all had such distinct stage personas and stage names and you didn't really know them as people, so it was easier to sorta make up characters based on them. idk if this makes sense to anyone but me but that's how i felt about it? :'D

[kindastressedbutok]

So I've got a confession to make - a year ago I tried to read fanfiction about Dir En Grey.. that's it, that's the confession.

Jk. So the fanfic was about Kaoru & Toshiya, and obviously it was gay (I'm embarrassed truly), it also contained all sorts of mature content ok? found it via an Instagram recommendation, read its description and thought it sounded intriguing (it involved time traveling n stuff).

Thing is that the fanfic involved song references in every single chapter and I've added a couple of them to my playlist since it turned out I kinda liked them.

Songs are: Joy Division - Atmosphere; David Bowie - Heroes. I stopped reading that fanfic MONTHS ago but still, whenever I'm listening to these songs - it pops in my mind all together with whatever things my imagination drew while reading it, AND I FUKING CAN'T MAN.

I'm sorry lmao, I just apologize, to all, Toshiya, Kaoru, David Bowie, Joy Division, sorry guys 😃

If ur still reading - keep doing it please, I got another reason to be typing this - Overall I don't regret staring to read that fic, it was interesting, all though I needed to detach the characters from the real people they are, so I that don't feel that awkward (fanfiction really isn't my thing). I only stopped reading it for a while for whatever reason unrelated to it, and when I decided to continue the reading IT WAS GONE. I literally couldn't find it anymore, anywhere :(

I tried so hard, like I got so far into it and the plot smelled like a good tragic love story, and I love whatever kind of fiction about tragic love :((

Anyway, if any of this sounded familiar to you, the fanfic was called something like 20th Century Boy, used to read it on Archive Of Our Own. IF ANYONE KNOWS IT - TELL ME PLEASE. Idk didn't try to find it lately, so it might be back there? Or something? I don't know! But if u got any information about this fic, or have read it and can tell me the ending - address me pls I'm SO curious.

[that-fangirl]

A gentleman and a dirty tongue- Toshiya x Reader Fanfic (Warning: SMUT)

The conversation between you was flowing easily and there seemed to be some chemistry, so you had some hopes that maybe you had found your match. 

You excused yourself to get some drinks and on your way to the counter you found a rather grumpy and angry Toshiya who was leaning on the counter and absentmindedly staring across the bar while he sipped his beer.

-Looks like the hunt is going well… - he retorted without sparing you a glance.

You looked towards the handsome bassist and couldn’t help but notice his tight jaw and rather angry expression as his eyes met your match. 

-Is there something you’d like to say, Toshiya-san? - you tried also getting rilled up. 

-He’s no match for you. - he affirmed staring back at you with a cold expression. Anger was swimming in his eyes. And so was pride. 

-Oh really?

-Oh yes. 

-In that case, do you happen to know a better match? - you tried, mocking him.

-As a matter of fact, I do. - he said leaning closer towards you with a smirk.

-And who is that? - you also leaned closer, staring directly into his eyes.

-Me. - he didn’t spare a second nor bat an eyelash.  

-You? 

-Mmh.

-Toshiya-san… come on. Don’t play with me.

-I can prove it to you. - he was quite sure of that. He trapped his bottom lip in his teeth as he stared at your lips for a millisecond. The truth is the image alone did cause some stir inside you. 

-Sorry, handsome. I believe I am taken for the night. - you refused him, while asking the bartender for your drinks. 

-You’ll regret it! - he sang, still staring directly at your face. - But you know where to find me… in case you wanna now what a real man can do to you. 

-I’m curious. What can you do? - you thought of giving him the benefit of doubt and tease him for being so cocky.

-Follow me. - he suggested, holding your wrist.

Toshiya wasted no time in leading you into the corridor towards the bathrooms and pulling you to the mirror stand outside the bathroom. It was quiet and still early for anyone’s bladders to rush there. 

He came up from behind you to cover your body with his. You felt the warmth radiate from his skin, his manly scent and his perfume filled your nostrils. He perched close to your right ear- your sensitive ear and you heard his breath against your lobe. It was enough to cause shivers down your spine. He looked at you dead in the eye through the mirror. 

-Do you really wanna find out? Shall I give you a taste? You might just crave the real thing after this, you know… - he whispered almost seductively in your ear. 

The shivers would not subside as he spoke. The delight of his seductive tone and ring of his voice was enough to convince you that he might just be right. His hand travelled up your shirt. You felt assaulted by a mix of anticipation and a shot of adrenaline due to the fear of being caught. 

-Don’t look away. - he demanded. 

You watched through the mirror as he grazed his nails against your sides, exploring that portion of skin up to your ribs and back down your waist line. He went back up again. The urge to close your eyes was stronger. Your skin responded promptly, goosing beneath his touch. A moan slipped past your lips, making you curse yourself. You felt your nipples harden. Like small pebbles beneath your lace bra. Toshiya took notice of this.

-At least your body is honest. 

His hand travelled up over your breast, grazing by your nipple so he could hear you moan. You did and so did he. The sound of his moan next to your ear was the closest thing to Heaven and your legs were like jelly. You held on to the stand for support with a strong grip. Toshiya held your chin with his palm completely pressed against your throat. The heat of his palm pressed against it gave you flashes of what could be. A firm squeeze as he f**ked you from behind like beasts. 

-Look at yourself in the mirror. - he demanded, whispering in your ear.

You moaned with want due to the image your mind conjured. Those words could have easily come up in that scenario. Toshiya smiled wickedly. You felt his lips stretch against the back of your neck as he kissed you there. 

You opened your eyes to find your nipples peeking through the shirt, hard and engorged. Lust danced in your eyes, your lips parted with anticipation for the next move. Your mouth parched. 

-Such an erotic sight… - he whispered against your ear. Toshiya rolled his hips against yours and moaned. - How I long to mess you up! Your hair disheveled and splayed around my sheets as I f*ck you hard. The salt from your sweat beneath my tongue. Your sweet voice echoing across my house, your back arching towards my embrace as you climax around me. 

-Stop… - you begged him as he left a trail of hot kisses on your neck. 

-I can’t wait to feel your walls clench around me. Hot like coals. That tender flesh… Aaah… I wanna lap at your juices like a thirsty man. Neh. Can I? 

-Toshiya… please. 

-I want you. Don’t you want me? Uh? - he fanned his breath against your ear. 

-Oh God… - you begged as a moan escaped your mouth. Unknowingly, you had rolled your hips against his the whole time. Toshiya was semi-hard. 

-That’s not the name I want you to call out tonight. - he demanded, biting your lobe. 

You heard voices approaching and Toshiya pulled you inside the bathroom with him. You weren’t aware how strong he was until that moment. He hoisted you up, his hands firmly holding your thighs as you straddled him. You wrapped your hands around his neck and he wasted no time. His lips smashed into yours as he rushed into the stall, his hot tongue exploring your mouth.

He pressed you against the stall’s door and rolled his hips against yours, making you moan.

-I could take you right here… right now! 

-Not here… - you begged him, trying to fight the haze around you.

-So you’re not denying me? - he tried, with a triumphant smirk.

-F**k you. 

-I wish you would, baby girl. - he begged, kissing you passionately. - Be a good girl and be quiet?

-Wha- why? 

Some young girls walked into the bathroom and were casually fixing their makeup, chatting away and giggling. Panic consumed you now that the situation became more dangerous.

Toshiya didn’t care however. He slipped his hand beneath your panties and sank his fingers into your folds, looking for the bundle solely responsible for your pleasure. You had no time to respond and simply gave in to the pleasure that suddenly flooded your body as he watched you with a proud smirk. You covered your mouth to trap the moans that threatened to slip from your lips. 

-Mmh…

-You like that? - he whispered beside your ear, setting a slow and steady pace in circles around your bud. - I can give you so much more, though… all you have to do… is say the words.

It was the promise, the confidence and blind desire that commanded him and he obeyed, offering you all your dirtiest fantasies, whispering them in your ear. You felt your body betray you further. All he had to do was move further down and he would find your body crying out for him, offering no resistance and prepared to receive him. 

-Please… anywhere but here. - you begged him through half closed lids. 

He kissed you again, continuing his assault. He was relentless and was settled in his mind that he would make you climax no matter what. 

He quickened the pace and proceeded to kiss you down your neck slowly. The contrast between the paces made you roll your eyes and bite your bottom lip. 

-Look at me. - he demanded. 

Here’s what your mind was capable of processing despite the haze of lust: clearly Toshiya was visual, he enjoyed dirty talk and he liked to have some form of control over his sexual partner. He wasn’t afraid to moan. And those wore mostly things you kept a mental note on for your list of things you looked for in a sexual partner. 

He opened your blouse to reveal your lace bra. He moaned at the sight as he pulled down one of the cups with his teeth. The image was enough to make you lose all reason and nearly voice your arousal. Holding back, you kept your fingers tightly pressed to your mouth just waiting for the next stage of his assault. And it promptly came. He rolled your nipple into his mouth as he pleasured you, the tension building in your stomach and the wave of pleasure intensifying. 

Outside the stall, the girls kept laughing. Suddenly you felt one of the girls press hard against your door. Your eyes shot open, but Toshiya quickened the pace a little further. The danger outside your door, made your orgasm announce its eminent approach and you feared for how much it could be a loud arrival. 

The Universe did you a kindness. The girls all rushed out the door and Toshiya laughed mischievously as he whispered in your ear:

-C*m for me, baby girl…

Unrestrained, you allowed yourself to fully enjoy the pleasure loudly, moaning inside the bathroom. Toshiya watched absolutely delighted. 

-Well… if that wasn’t the most beautiful sound I have ever heard… 

-I hate you. - you cursed him for giving you one of the most exhilarating experiences of your life. 

-Your body told me otherwise. 

You tried to recover your breath as Toshiya breathed into your neck, making you shiver. You were flushed, disheveled and spent. But Toshiya had other plans, he proceeded to leave an hickey on your neck and you almost snorted at how youthful and silly that looked coming from him. But you didn’t mind. He removed his hand from your pants and proceeded to lick his fingers, one by one.

He locked eyes with you, the lewd sight making you moan. 

-Wanna get out of here? - he suggested, kissing your temple.

He brushed your arm up and down, lazily with the tip of his fingers offering a tender and loving touch. To your brain that was a sign that he could do aftercare. Empathetic. You liked that. 

-You weren’t joking, were you?

-Look at the bulge in my pants and tell me if you think I was. - he demanded, smirking.

You obeyed. And there it was, struggling against his pants, demanding attention and release. 

You couldn’t deny that it was tempting. The thought of letting it spring free and just gobble it up. 

Toshiya seemed to understand your train of thought. He laughed mischievously and pulling your hair back, he whispered:

-I’ll let you suck it, baby girl. But I really don’t think this is the right place. 

-I never expected you to have such a dirty mouth. - you confessed.

-Just you wait… soon I’ll have it between your folds, lapping at your juices like sweet nectar.

So dirty. It made you gasp and he seized this opportunity to steal a fiery kiss from you, wrapping your legs around his waist. You moaned into the kiss, rolling your hips into his. Toshiya growled.

Truth is… you were sold. And you were ready to rip his shirt open and have a reckless and wild sexual experience with him right then and there, but he was right. It wasn’t the right place. 

-Let’s get out of here. - you agreed.

-Finally… - he spoke against your lips, stealing one last kiss from you, before putting you down. 

You tried your best to arrange your clothes and your hair on the mirror outside. Toshiya appeared from behind. He kissed your neck as he held your waist and whispered in your ear, looking at you through the mirror:

-Beautiful as ever… but you’ll look even better when I am on top of you. 

You giggled at his suggestion. He smiled wickedly before kissing your neck and taking your hand in his. 

-Should we make a run for it? Or just sneak our way out? - he asked rather excited as you looked outside the bathroom and proceeded to walk back inside.

-You know Die will love the gossip, right? - you warned him, pulling your hand away from his.

-Mmh. We better try to be cautious. - he said, smiling knowingly. - After you, pretty lady. - he said gallantly, motioning for you to go ahead of him with a bow. 

-Don’t mind if I do. 

-I’ll sneak out first. You follow behind shortly afterwards. - Toshiya whispered in your ear, looking towards a chatty Die. - Oh! I’m paying for your drink, baby girl. 

You had to admit: it came as a surprise to you that Toshiya was both a gentleman and a dirty tongue. But you liked it.

[naughtycalamari]

Neues Kapitel: Alles neu macht die Mai 

Chapters: 2/? Fandom: Dir en grey, Jrock Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Die (Dir en grey), Kaoru (Dir en grey), Kyo (Dir en grey), Shinya (Dir en grey), Toshiya (Dir en grey) Additional Tags: Humor, Romance, Drama, Anal Sex, Lemon, Anal, Blow Jobs, Kinks, Hair Kink, Long Hair, Creampie, Yaoi, Catfishing, Sexting, Betrayal

[hydewienydaidai]

Ahhh hai kyooo~~ chotto matte 🥺

Hurry up… die!

[pinkrelish]

knowing that you were on quizilla reading fics really warms my thirty year old heart

there are dozens of us! and this specifically brought back memories of me reading dir en grey & miyavi fanfics like pleeeeaaase i can't cringe hard enough. 😩

[irasciblempress]

I wrote another Die/Toshiya fic lololololol

[kimhargreeves]

Barriers-Kyo x Reader (Dir en Grey) smut

Summary: You are a famous rock singer in the U.S who decided to visit Japan, specifically to watch Dir en Grey. Kyo is also a big fan of your work and both of you spending some alone time after his concert, you speak just a big of Japanese and Kyo a bit of English. But not much needs to be spoken to when both your mouths will be placed elsewhere.

(I've had this idea in mind for about a year now and finally decided to write it. I've seen no Dir en Grey fanfic so I decided to write something, well, for Kyo since I love him a lot. This is set in present day Kyo since I prefer him over the first heard of the band. There will be mention of his side project too, Sukekiyo.)

(Warning: rough sex, oral male and female receiving, breeding kink, choking, spanking, etc.)

I stared in awe at the many posters leading me to the venue. Dir en Grey is performing today! I'm so lucky I made it time to arrive to Japan, my band and I are taking a small hiatus from playing so the first place I chose to have some fun and alone time is Japan.

Not only is it my first time here, but it's the first time I am about to meet my favorite Japanese artist, well, aside from Miyavi who is absolutely amazing as well.

I had an old friend of mine I met a few years back to pick me up from the airport, I didnt have a great nap on the many hours of traveling but I don't feel tired in the slightest.

"Welcome to Japan, (Y/N)." My male friend said when I stepped outside of my hotel room and the building I would be staying about for two weeks.

I don't know too much Japanese but I was extremely respectful to everyone who recognized me outside of the building and we're nice to ask me for some pictures. Some even knew I would be coming and handed me small gifts.

"Everyone is so nice here, I might as well move here permanently and marry a Japanese person."

"By person you mean Kyo, correct?' my friend Adam smirked and teased me.

He knows if my extreme love for Dir en Grey and Kyo's other band Sukekiyo. His vocals continue to surprise me, they are so clean yet raw and powerful. I'm still surprised on why he hasn't be caught by someone romantically, because he is in his 40's, way older than me, but of course doesn't look like it.

"Your management team did let me know at what time you were arriving, so a small group will be waiting for you and the band to meet before the concert starts."

Butterflies began to fill my stomach. I would be meeting my idol in just a few hours, i have to take a long shower and dress myself up nicely to meet them too.

My friend and I introduced me some beautiful places and ate lunch, before we knew it about two hours went by and we were getting late to head out and meet everyone from the band. Adam, my friend and your guide, hurridly ran off and told me to follow him once it was getting late for us. We had no time to leave my luggage at the hotel so we went straight to where the concert would be headed tonight.

I could feel my heart beating even faster when we reached the venue and went backstage, Adam began to speak to a few people in Japanese with me only understanding a few words. But I did make out some thing he was saying, he informed people that I would be staying here for a month or so.

Then I saw everybody else just ahead of me, and there was Kyo standing next to Kaoru and Die. Their other friends Shinya and Toshiya we're filling around.

Kyo was the first to turn around when he noticed me staring at him. I internally shrieked when we made eye contact and I was the first to break eye contact since I wouldn't be able to control myself. But he did extremely attractive today!

We all bowed our heads and I felt my entire face burning red. Everyone of us were now here, together meeting for the first time.

I noticed a smirk across my friends, Adams face. "Yoroshikuonegaishimasu. Watashi no yūjin wa anata no sakuhin no dai fandesu."

(Thank you for receiving us. My friend is a massive fan of your work.)

"Kanojo wa hontōni utsukushī joseidesu." (She really is a beautiful woman) I only understood parts when one of the members of the band said that.

I bowed my head again and smiled at the guys. "Iyoiyo oaidekiteureshīdesu" (It's nice to finally meet all of you) "I am one of your biggest fans." I mentioned too hoping my friend will translate that part.

Adam turned to the guys and translated the last bit. The guys each smiled and bowed their heads slightly and saying "Arigato"

"Watashitachi wa anata no bando mo kiite imasu." (We've also been listening to your band) Kyo said politely and I noticed Shinya smirking a bit and Die lightly nudging him.

All of us in the room continued with our conversation meanwhile the stage was finishing up for tonight. We all joked and began to laugh at our dumb conversations and I couldn't help but stare lovingly at Kyo, but many times I had to quickly look away before he did.

Despite the heavy makeup he had at the moment I did noticed his pale cheeks turn pink.

It surprised me of how open and nice they are when we've just met. Adam was drinking sake with the bands manager, having a friendly conversation.

I chuckled to myself as I watched them joking around. I felt someone sit next to me until I glanced over and met with Kyo's dark eyes.

His lips curled up giving me a warm smile and a hand raised up. "Kon'nichiwa, (Y/N)." He kindly said my name.

My entire body froze except for my hands which were shaking. He's sitting so close to me too!! I tried to not freak out and I gave a small shaky smile.

Kyo always look so intimidating up on stage, but I can tell he isn't the rough hard looking guy some people like to point out.

I noticed him holding a drink in his other hand along with a cigarette. "Tabi wa dōdatta?" He asked taking a quick sip. I tilted my head not understanding him.

Kyo hummed to himself when he saw my confused expression. He placed the drink down and thought hard before slowly opening his mouth to speak again. "How was..your trip?" He said in broken English but did really well.

I gave him a thumbs up and smiled. "It was fine! I'm already in love with Japan." I slowly said hoping he'd understand what I also said.

He smiled wide and nodded his head. Happy that I understood him well despite him not being fluent in English.

"Yoroshikereba ashita o mise shimasu." (I can show you around if you'd like.) Kyo said and Shinya helped him out with the English too.

"I would love that a lot, Arigato." I smiled back and I saw Shinya giving Kyo a flirty type of look. "I would also like to see your working on your other band, Sukekiyo."

Kyo and I faced Adam who happily translated back. Kyo smiled again and gave me two thumbs up. "Hai, o mise shitai to omoimasu" (yes I would like to show you around."

We began to talk back and forth along with my friends help. Kyo would also be teaching me Japanese meanwhile I'm here and I would be teaching him English.

By the time we were all enjoying ourselves, it was time for the band to play. We all walked out and saw them each go up on stage.

"Koko de matte daijōbu." ( Wait here okay?) Was what Kyo said when he rested his hand on my shoulder.

I thigh hard and slowly said the right words. "Watashi wa koko ni imasu" (I'm staying right here.)

It seemed that I had said the correct words because this made Kyo smile and wink at me before going up on stage, thank God it was dark and he didn't see my flushed face.

I stared out from where I was behind the main stage where everyone was either pacing back and forth getting ready to move some things on the stage or messing up with the equipment in the back.

They really have and immense and strong connection to their fans. I walked closer and saw the many many people in the crowd, it was crazy that this many people can fit in a venue.

The stage was quite dark with only a couple of yellow lights around the stage alongside with smoke coming from smoke machines. The band began to play Vinushka.

It's amazing how the band can play so well and have a deep connection with one another.

Over on the stage I could see Kyo passionately singing the lyrics to his own song. It's also so crazy how good he looks in each of the outfits he chooses to wear. His black dyed hair complimented his dark eyeshadow, lip piercing, alongside the long type skirt he wore with long sleeve shirt and harness strapped to him.

The song was quite long but I enjoyed every second of it. The concert went on for about an hour, not once did I move from my spot. The lights to the stage dimmed and once I thought the concert had ended was when I heard the familiar tune to my favorite song.

I stare in awe at Kyo who stared out and the crowd and I heard the familiar melody of a piano playing softly. My all-time favorite song of them.

The final song before ending today's concert.

My heart leapt and I felt my eyes getting watery when I heard the tune to their song "Ain't Afraid To Die"

Many will argue that the band has way better songs to play, but this one has always been special to me. How the song starts out so peaceful until it slowly builds up and by the end it's left with a bittersweet sensation.

My friend Adam stepped closer to me and I could see a smile across his face. "You know? Kyo knows that this is your favorite song. "

My eyes lit up and I looked back and him surprised and stared at Kyo lovingly. In a way I feel like he sang this one just got me. Adam smirked and patted my back muttering something I didn't quite understand in Japanese.

I was too distracted to even ask him what he was saying. I savored every minute Kyo what's up on stage singing my favorite song, I even caught him staring over on me a couple of times. This is definitely the best day of my life.

The concert had officially ended and once it did the first thing I did was hug Kyo. "That was do beautiful! Thank you all for this." I told him making sure that this would be a once in a lifetime experience. No translation was needed because they knew what I had meant.

Die had patted my back alongside Kaoru who gave me a big thumbs up.

By the time each of them went off to take a shower we were all now headed to get some drinks. We were all sitting at a table drinking away and eating the sushi we each ordered. Thankfully no one here recognized the band of they would have been swarmed by them.

"You were all so amazing!!" Adam told him in Japanese being already drunk out of his mind. the idiot just had to be drinking tonight! I was hoping he would be able to translate me a bit, guess I'll have to do the talking on my own.

"Kare wa hontōni yotte imasu ka?" (Is he really drunk?) One of the guys asked laughing a bit.

I nodded my head ashamed. My friend just had three small pints of sake and is already out of his mind.

"Adamu wa mawari ni iru no ga tanoshī hitodesu." (Adam is a fun guy to be around.) Kyo confirmed thinking I would be embarrassing them. Glad to know that's not the case.

I pushed small empty plates that once had sush away and I nodded my head at him. "Adam…is drunk. Want me to show you room?"

Oh my room right! Adam didn't have the time to show me where I'm staying. "I pay for this." Kyo quickly said when he saw me digging into my purse.

"Arigato! In return I'll treat you the next time." I added making Kyo smirk.

"Hai! Let's go."

Kyo and I stood up from the table we were all in. I waved goodbye at them hoping to see them tomorrow again, I was standing by the entrance when I noticed Kyo talking to them before walking back over to me with my luggage in hand.

We stepped into a car and remained silent while we watched the many buildings passing by. The car stopped once we reached a big beautiful hotel building.

I stepped outside and noticed Kyo carrying my bags again, he refused to let me carry them. "Are you also staying here?" I asked concerned by how late it is for him to head back.

His dark eyes looked back down at me. "Hai. The same corridor."

So he is staying here in the same spot I will be sleeping, well, it's nice to know I won't be completely alone. We made it to the reception area and Kyo of course did most of the talking, they handed me my key card, and we were off to find my room.

My room was beautiful and I soon figured out that Kyo was the one who reserved my room and paid for it. I'll have to do something nice for him, he's veen way too kind. We were in my room which was beautiful and big for a single person, I'm sure most of the rooms here are the same if not bigger.

Kyo placed my luggage to the side. "Come to my room after shower. I have a surprise."

This took me by surprise, he had something else for me? I did tell him that I was planning on taking a shower before heading to bed. "Okay, i will be there in fifteen minutes."

Kyo nodded his head again and left my room. As soon as he did I quickly raced over to the bathroom and took my clothes off, my heart couldn't stop beating fast. I dried up my hair and began to dress up nicely again, I didn't know whether to wear my pajamas or something else.

I looked up at the clock and it read 1:00 a.m. I took a deep breath and exited my room and headed to the one Kyo was in. I knocked on the door and heard him reply, so I opened it up and noticed Kyo was drinking another beer and had already finished another cigarette.

I also noticed he was watching something on the TV probably just skipping through the channels and landed on something a bit interesting.

"Tsukaremashita ka?" (Are you tired?) Kyo asked lowering the volume of the tv and turning to look up at me from his spot on the bed.

I shook my head and smiled back. "I'm not." I lied since I didn't want this day to end with him. I know I'll have many more days to get to know him, but I wanted more.

I slowly began to speak up again trying my best with my Japanese, "Dekirudake ōku no jikan o anata to sugoshitai' to katatta." (I want to spend as much time as I can with you.)

Kyo seemed a bit surprised which I thought he might already think I'm weird.

"Hen ni kikoetara gomen'nasai." (Sorry if it sounded weird). Quickly I apologized.

A chuckle came out from him which made me tense up when I also felt his tattooed fingers running through my hair his landed on the cheek.

"Awatete anata wa totemo kawaī." (You're so cute when flustered.)

I felt myself blushing even more when those words came out of his mouth, he looks so handsome even through the rough makeup and tired brown eyes.

I felt myself being pushed closer to him until we slowly started to kiss. The kiss took me by surprise but I began to enjoy every second of it, slowly I began to take a breath again when Kyo this time began to kiss me harsher.

Then this might mean that Kyo must feel the same for me? I this were to escalate then I don't want this to be a one time thing.

I moaned through the kiss when I felt Kyo lift me up to my feet, his hands began to lower until his hands landed on my waist and up to play with my chest. I pushed back and heard him let out a small groan when I felt his pants getting tighter.

His hands began to get rid of my shirt along with the rest of my clothes, the only article of clothing next was my underwear. I felt him kissing my neck as I felt his cold hands touching my chest while I felt one of his lowering down until he parted my legs a bit and began to play with my clit.

I moaned and bit my lip hard when I felt him apply pressure, one oh his hands wrapped around my neck while he continued to touch me. He began to whisper dirty things into my ear while making sure to pleasure me well.

"Anata wa watashi no yubi no mawari ga totemo kitsuidesu." (Fuck you're so tight around my fingers.)

I squeezed my legs when I felt myself closer to the edge. "K-Kyo..I'm." i didn't have time to finish my sentence when he applied pressure and made me come for the first time.

Kyo made me turn back to him while roughly kissing me and shoving his tongue into me. I moaned again and felt his wet fingers leave me and rest on my stomach. I jumped a bit when I felt one of his hands spanking my behind making sure to leave his hand print there.

I was made to sit on the bed and felt Kyo about to rest on top of me until I stopped him. "Chottomatte!"

Kyo seemed a bit confused at why I suddenly stopped him. I sat down on the edge of the bed and held onto his waist and looked up at him, asking for permission since he knew now why I stopped.

I felt Kyo's hand on my chin and he gave me a small nod. Kyo began to pull his jacket and shirt off over him, it was embarrassing but I began to admire the many scars, tattoos and how muscular he actually looks.

I've seen him many times, just met him and now I'm right in front of him already naked and about to pleasure him. This is now his i imagined my first night in Tokyo to be, but I don't regret it.

My hands reached out to grab at his belt to pull him closer, slowly I begin to undo the buckle of his belt, moving on next to the button and the zipper. I pull his pants down with surprising ease, and he steps out of them quickly, kicking them aside, I watch him quickly taking off his boots.

When he stands back up wearing only one more article of clothing, I freeze momentarily, my heart now pounding like crazy. Kyo's brown eyes makes my heart melt flutter again, and I shyly smile before hooking my thumbs over the waistband of his black boxers, slowly pulling them down, freeing his erection. Kyo kicks those to the side as well, I feel tm cheeks burning up and can only stare at his penis, that's how he looks like then.

Kyo must've sensed something was up with me since he cleared his throat, "Chiisai?” he lowly whispered now feeling a bit awkward at his own question.

"N-Not at all!" I quickly respond. "It isn't small at all." I stutter and could feel him hot and heavy in my hand when I wrap a hand around him, pumping him lightly before wrapping my lips around the head experimentally.

Kyo took a sharp breath and I felt both his grabbing my hair now going a bit rough on me. I moaned as I felt my lower region getting wetter. I hollowed my cheeks and took in more of him, I repeat the motions a few times and pull away, licking up along the underside, around the tip, and he's suddenly pulling me away his face flushed this time.

Kyo mumbles something I can't quite understand, but it doesn't really matter. He moves closer and laid me down on the bed, pressed against each other. He then removes my underwear and his hand slips between us.

Pleasure is sent ringing up my spine at the feeling of Kyo's fingers slipping past my lips again this time deeper, quickly finding my clit and wasting no time on working his thumb on it while a couple of fingers tease my entrance.

Moans escape my throat easily after he breaks the kiss, mouthing his way until the inside of one of my thighs, he bites and sucks on the skin there. His tongue is suddenly there and then against my clit, working around it before being replaced by his lips and my vision goes blank when I can feel him sucking on it.

"Kuso." Kyo curses when I reached my hand down to grip onto his black dyed hair hard. I moan louder when I felt him slowly licking back to my entrance and sucking me hard while his fingers continue to play with me.

His tongue plunged into my slit while his hand groped up my breast. His long fingers twisted and pinched at my stiff bud till I cried out.

I could feel him grinning against my cunt as he continued to eat me out. His nose would occasionally brush against my clit, causing my body to twitch and strain against him. Kyo's other hand continued to thrust his fingers inside me while he pressed his thumb against my nub.

"K-Kyo.” I moaned again. My hand continuing to grab his hair, tugging at it slightly, causing him to growl right into my cunt again. "I'm gonna-" I squeezed my eyes shut when he thrusted his fingers faster for me to come.

I felt a familiar knot in me when I began to get closer. The room was filled with the sounds of my moans as I came, when I opened my eyes I saw the sheets and my thighs wet, Kyo hummed and slowly withdrew his slick fingers and wiped his mouth. My cheeks flushed when I realized I had squirted.

Kyo hungrily kissed me. I moaned at the way I could taste my own essence on his tongue, "You're such a good girl." He said now through broken English and smiled wide and played with my hair and placed his fingers under my chin.

I blushed when I knew what was about to happen when he positioned me and parted my legs now stopping between them. He grabbed his length and began to rub it against my folds making me shiver and lightly moan and he did the same, slowly be pumped himself, a hand on himself and another on my hip.

He paused to look at me, "Let me know if it hurts, (Y/N)." I cupped his face and rested back against the sheets and gripped his tattooed arm.

Kyo nods and looks down before I can feel him against my entrance, pushing in slowly. I wrap my arms around his shoulders tightly, feeling his chest vibrate against mine with the low moan coming from him, replaced by a sigh once he sinks in completely. He starts moving right away, hips jerking experimentally before attaining a heavy and slow pace which doesn't last long due to how needy we are already.

I gasp and moan at how he thrusts in harder, wrapping my arms around his shoulders to hold him close and having my legs around his hips.

Curses and praises are breathed into my ear alongside moans from Kyo, somehow making the pleasure pool down in my lower stomach even more intensely, summed up to feeling his hands groping on my ass again, fingers sinking into the skin.

"Anata wa totemo kanpekide kawaīdesu. Ima, kono neko wa watashi no monodesu." (You're so perfect and cute. Now this pussy is mine.)

I moan when Kyo's hands wandered back with one hand on my clit and the other one playing with my breasts and nipples, he leaned down to suck and lick them roughly.

Kyo begins to pant against my chest when I feel his grip on my waist tighten. I began to moan louder not caring if there were others who could listen. His hips reaching a certain angle and, soon, the answer I had in my slips away from my grasp. My hands travel up to his hair, remembering how he reacted to it earlier, and tug on it in a form of response, though also wanting to hear how pathetically he moans at it.

"Kyo I'm g-gonna cum." I manage to say before being cut off by a moan, arching my back to him.

"Watashi mo, (Y/N)." he groans. "Amost there."

Kyo pauses adjusting himself again so a hand is under my thigh and another on the mattress for support and his thrusts are suddenly harsher. I throw my head back holding onto him tightly my fingers digging deeper into his skin, and it doesn't take long for all the pleasure that had been building up so far to unravel at once, it apparently triggers the same on him, considering how tight his grasp gets whilst a higher pitched moan comes from him when I clenched around him and came, I whined when I wrapped my arms around his tightly.

My head hits the pillow again now exhausted and so is he. Kyo stays above me and begins to slowly regain his breathe now slowly pulling out of me, I whimper when I feel empty. I can feel out juices mixed together now dripping onto the sheets

Kyo slowly pulls away and I'm only aware of him when he's lying down next to me, both of us breathing heavily and unable to do anything aside from staring at the ceiling for a long moment.

I just had sex with Kyo from Dir en Grey.

Glancing back to finally confess how I feel for him, I watched surprised when I saw him with his eyes closed, now fast asleep. I tiredly smiled and reached over to move his sweaty hair aside. I simply turned around to fully face him and gently I wrapped my arms around his torso and also fell asleep.

[rayshippouuchiha]

Hi I'm the anon with the ex friend in an mlm👋🏻

This happened in 2011 when we where 13 so the details may be wrong. Hold on time this one is long.

This girl and I were best friends and absolute weebs. We where drawing a tokyo mew mew inspired (copied) manga, obsessed with Dir En Grey, wearing cat ears and writing fanfics basically the whole nine yards, we were cringe but we where free.

At some point we watched OHHC together and then read the manga, I was super in love with the twins and saw a lot of myself in Haruhi (in retrospect I'm now a genderfluid bisexual in a poly relationship).

Around this time I started hanging out with other friends I made playing magic the gathering at a game shop, so I started canceling on plans with her a lot.

We had a big project worth around half or grade for a class and she didn't do any of her work during the month we had to do it so I ended up pulling an all nighter finishing it all by myself, she apolgized but I was still angry.

She also had a crush on a girl in her math class (even tho she never admitted it) who I got to kiss while we roomed together during a choir trip, and I happily told my friend all the details afterwards.

By the time the fanfic debacle came around we were already on rocky terms and had had a million of small fights.

She also loved OHHC but was very adamant that fans should stick to canon, so I started writing my basically self-insert fanfic that and told her about it it made her livid, she tried to change my opinion that day at school but I didn't change my mind. That night she send me a series of text explaining how my story undermined Hikaru's character development because he gave up on Haruhi for Kaoru's sake and then blocked my number.

In retrospective it was just teenagers being dumb and petty but I stalked her facebook after the message and she is now a conservative christian and trying to sell esencial oils to family, friends and acquaintances.

This was so much. Thank you for sharing it with us.