#diary2023

[lovelyazfuxc]

.𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑜 𝓂𝒾𝓇𝒶𝓇𝓉𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑜 𝒶𝓂𝒾𝑔𝑜, 𝒸𝓊𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝒽𝑒 𝓉𝑒𝓃𝒾𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝓊 𝒸𝓊𝑒𝓇𝓅𝑜 .⊹♪ ❥

[helpmycvmelanie]

What are your priorities?

Avoid letting the amount of time being spent to be the determining factor. The things you spend the most time on are not necessarily the things that you care most about.

Some of us don’t know what our priorities are and some can rattle off a list.

If you identify with not knowing the answer to the question, you could be operating on automatic pilot and feeling overwhelmed with your responsibilities. This can lead to emotional and physical burnout. Take today’s post as a sign to talk to friends and family to see where amendments could be made.

For those with a long list, there is no specific number to cut off from. It’s an individuals choice. To help with developing a deeper understanding of ourselves. It would be beneficial to conduct a review of them.

Our tip would be to identify things that you can’t be happy or successful without. It is personal and individual to us and should be in line with our plan for the future both professionally and personally.

(Photograph courtesy of Jacqueline Munguia)

[nagsusulatnamais]

A change of perspective = change of heart

I remember this quote from a blog long long time ago where her partner said non-verbatim "I would show you everyday that I am worthy of every ounce of your love, that you made the right decision of loving me."

That was a post by a single woman in her 20s. Now, they are married with two angels.

I know it happened a year ago and I should've at least gotten over it but with that experience it led me to a different path, the path of building walls again - afraid of getting hurt. I have completely changed lens when it comes to relationships.

Written last March 10, 2023

Always remember that you are only responsible for your reactions, you answer to yourself, you are capable of making sound decisions. And you make yourself a responsible person, Mace.

I have a dilemma where my morals when it comes to relationships doesn't meet my morals when it comes to my work ethics. Instead of making scenarios, crying thru my night shifts during work hours, maybe, I should divert and do a big focus on my career/work. I am not doing the best I have for the past 3 years in the company I am in. This is an honest review of myself to my employed self.

About the above post, some events in our life are just hard to let go because it killed something in us that we dearly valued. I’d like to believe that it happened because it's time for us to shift. To shift our perspective, throw away our old school of thought for a new one, be open to experiences because you're only here for a few years, forgive because you have to release the pain that's weighing you down.

As Dr. Swift said "Part of growing up and moving into new chapters of your life is about catch and release. ","Decide what is yours to hold and let the rest go. Oftentimes the good things in your life are lighter anyway, so there’s more room for them. One toxic relationship can outweigh so many wonderful, simple joys. You get to pick what your life has time and room for. Be discerning. "

I want to say that there are a few good things in my life, but it will sound that I'm not grateful as there are a lot of things I get to do. Which I should give more focus on. Just to name a few of my favorite good things, the list includes my Cat named Pity, my ever-loving Mom, my super Dad, and my favorite siblings in the world Ayie and Cy.

Aside from these humans, I get to do a lot of introspecting, using of my mind, and a lot of writing these past few days. There are also those experiences that I was just wishing to experience it — in which I get to do now. Growing up I thought I was adaptable to any situations, turns out I just didn’t have any structures, I'm just freelancing my way to life, however, now that I'm old and building some "structures" of my own. I find myself struggling to change some of it because I've established something aligned with what I feel right.

But, since this is life and it's ever changing like earth I have to change my views, thoughts, self, and some parts that are not working well with me, aligned with what I am in. It's hard.

Well, at least I'm doing something. It's time to do some change of heart.

Sharing some favorite quotes from Dr. Swift's speech.

“My experience has been that my mistakes led to the best things in my life. And being embarrassed when you mess up is part of the human experience.”

And so this may be hard for you to hear: In your life, you will inevitably misspeak, trust the wrong people, under-react, overreact, hurt the people who didn’t deserve it, overthink, not think at all, self-sabotage, create a reality where only your experience exists, ruin perfectly good moments for yourself and others, deny any wrongdoing, not take the steps to make it right, feel very guilty, let the guilt eat at you, hit rock bottom, finally address the pain you caused, try to do better next time, rinse, repeat.  And I’m not gonna lie, these mistakes will cause you to lose things.

I’m trying to tell you that losing things doesn’t just mean losing. A lot of the time, when we lose things, we gain things too. 

((Thinking about this quote above, when I lost my trust to the other person, I try to gain some for me.))

Anyway…hard things will happen to us. We will recover. We will learn from it. We will grow more resilient because of it. 

As long as we are fortunate enough to be breathing, we will breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out. And I’m a doctor now, so I know how breathing works. 

Too much writing today. I feel so alive. Good night.

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[bluenightfyre]

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[raisemeupdemo]

oi, ainda é dia 09/08/2023 e agora são 20:38.

Eu fui na padaria comprar algumas coisas, e ao caminhar minha mente foi invadida por pensamentos intrusos. Acabei chorando, mesmo dizendo que não ia, e agora me esforço para não dar continuidade, pois tive que controlar as lágrimas antes de subir as escadas e possivelmente encontrar a mãe sentada no sofá e ocorrer a seguinte pergunta: — o que aconteceu?.

Bom, eu não sei porque, ele foi tão importante assim pra mim. Não sei porque, perceber que eu não fui valorizada nos últimos anos e nem mesmo depois da nossa conversa depois do fim, me afeta tanto.

Por que eu queria tanto que ele me amasse?

Por que eu queria tanto me sentir validade por ele?

Por que eu queria mais do que tudo ter a atenção dele? Por que isso era mais importante do que eu mesma?.

Por que eu deixo me levar por migalhas de atenção, pra ter ele comigo?

Não é como se outra pessoa não pudesse me amar. Eu sei que eu sou amável. Eu sei que outras pessoas me amam. Por que ele importa? Se ele não se importa comigo? Se eu só sou importante quando ele bem entende que eu sou? Ele decide quando e como quer brincar com os meus sentimentos?

Pensar que me deixei levar aquele dia, me deixa triste. Triste por ter ultrapassado o meu limite, pra tê-lo ao meu lado mais uma vez. Triste porque não durou um minuto sequer, depois que ele conseguiu o que queria.

Triste porque quando eu era menor, e estávamos juntos, eu já tinha pensado que ele só me tratava bem quando falávamos sobre aquele assunto em específico.

Triste porque passei todos esses anos me esforçando pra manter esse relacionamento e mesmo assim, ele não me quis. Por que eu queria amor demais? Por que eu era carinhosa demais? Boba demais? Tola demais? Obediente demais? Agradável demais? Falava demais?

eu não acredito que estou chorando de novo.

de novo chorando por isso.

sendo que ele não deve ter chorado por mim nenhum vez sequer.

sendo que os últimos cinco meses deve ter sido os melhores anos da vida dele. Que eu fui um fardo a menos.

que ele “não era bom com palavras” mal se comunicava comigo e o pouco que falava me prendia no papo dele.

Eu estou triste por ter me deixado levar. Eu estou feliz por ter acabado com tudo o quanto antes, quanto mais cedo mais rápido termina.

Eu não aguento mais sofrer por isso. O lado bom de ter falado com ele foi parar de ter aqueles sonhos. Mas ele ter me ignorado foi algo que eu não esperava. Ele me deu todo aquele carinho pra depois pisar em mim como se eu não fosse nada. Porque é isso que eu sou pra ele, NADA.

E mesmo assim, eu tô aqui, chorando. Eu não quero nunca mais ultrapassar minhas promessas e limites por alguém. Eu quero ser capaz de parar de responder e de tirar a pessoa da minha vida assim que ela começar a me desrespeitar. Eu sempre deixei ele fazer isso comigo e fingia que não estava acontecendo nada. Que tava tudo bem.

Sinceramente, eu espero que isso acabe logo.

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[kanataillustration]

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[nagsusulatnamais]

Hi! It's Me, I'm the ____, It's Me!

This is an overdue writing. Apologies to no one but to my future self who's about to read this and make some adjustments to her writing or some comments or whatever! LOL

I don't know where to start but I'm just gonna share some life update.

1. My best friend secured a Mecca ticket to Eras tour. 2. I'm still obsessed with this German Nazi (IYKYK)

(A little interruption but I lost the previous writings that I did because I was crying, then I accidentally did the Control Z, I tried to redo it but no luck. I guess it's not for me!)

3. I'm not doing my best with everything that I have now. I'm not making the most out of the resources I have access to. 4. Taylor Swift just released her Speak Now TV album. Yeyy! 5. Practicing the Art of Letting Go and just accepting things as they are. 6. "Start from experience." A recent quote I want to keep repeating to myself. 7. About to make a list of things I want to accomplish before this year ends. I'm gonna do my best and make the most out of this *fingers crossed*

There's a lot going through my mind right now. But, one thing is vivid. There's only me that can only do what I'm meant to do. No one can. Only me.

Good night. Mace