#depressionsux

[bartandthesimpsons]

manic bitches b like ughhh i miss mania #depressionsux

[parrotpolish]

#Repost @the_sarcastic_nailartist with @make_repost ・・・ Don't underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering. A.A. Milne Parrot Polish Gecko green Piranha Pink Holo Taco Scattered holotaco #gradient #reciprocalgradient #gradientnails #pinkgradient #pinknails #unhas #uñas #nailarttherapy #hospicenurse #hospicenursenails #nursenails #depressionisreal #depressionsux #anxietysux #holotaco https://www.instagram.com/p/CN0yfPws1i1/?igshid=fafocpe2eem6

[alyssaculp-blog]

After years and years of not being on this site I looked at all my old posts. A lot has changed. I still have depression that will never go away, but instead of being sad I’m just numb. I found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm a recovering alcoholic that still struggles weather to drink or not everyday. The hurt that I had when I was 18 when I used to write blogs all the time has dissipated. I was in an  abusive relationship that honestly shaped me to who I am today. I barely wear makeup because I just don’t care. I work at a resort as a Front  Desk Supervisor and somedays I am so strong as angry Guests scream at me in the face. I sometimes wonder how does this not bother me. Realizing I went through someone screaming at me not only when I was a child from my moms abusive boyfriend but also by my ex boyfriend I was with for 4 years. Guests just seem super funny to me. There are the days though that it hits me to the core and I can’t stop crying. These are also the days that I haven’t cried in months that I just break down. I feel like when I get into these moods that people look down on me but its not like I can help it. Maybe I should start blogging again but does anyone really even read these things?

[ima-r-tiste]

While watching the news I made myself a Super Sculpey finger puppet. First time super #sculpy user sitting in the dark watching #coronavirusupdate. #supersculpey #supersculpeyclay #supersculpeysculpture #supersculpy #sculpey #sculpeyclay #fingersculpture #sometimesyougottahavefun #allworkandnoplay #allworkandnoplaymakesjackadullboy #depressionsux #depressionsucks😔 #quarantineart (at Grand Prairie, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAVutJ2n0QH/?igshid=1kx7cz59uqopb

[my-bpd-khaos]

Yes! Here lately its been so bad that no matter how hard I try i cant even force mysrlf to get up. I lay here and just cry. Especially since I got my memory back. #DepressionSux #ImLost #ThisLifeHurts #ImTiredOfFighting #TheBattleNeverEnds https://www.instagram.com/p/BvtGYUJHYKO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nuxk1vwqcnqa

[schmo0oby]

calling upon a friend

Why is it that i feel myself longing for friendship and yet go to places like the bar, where you’re suppose to meet people and find myself wanting to leave or keep my hands busy, pulling out a book or pen and paper to write and it makes me look unapproachable. Is it because i need to learn to love what its truly like to be alone? Or because i have this weird way of saying something and it coming out in the wrong tone of voice and people think i’m just a freak show or a total bitch. To be comfortable and confident in my own skin? Or maybe its because i am so broke i cant make any commitments that include spending money, driving anywhere costs you and i feel like a burden when people pay for me to eat with them. i wish that people would be down with hanging out at the house, and having a fire or going to the park. Perhaps i’m coming to the realization that my life has parted ways from many many of my childhood friends either they grew up and got a 9-5, are married and have kids, or are on drugs or in jail. i however am stuck somewhere between angsty teen and enlightened “guru”. So where the fuck do i go to make friends that are like minded and have the knowledge that id like to obtain. i’m not sure about what id like to go to college for and festivals are expensive to attend to and hard to volunteer for. i’m tired of dead end friendships and i have this feeling of despair in my heart that nobody in this world really gives a flying fuck were all just selfishly claiming our selfless acts as if its really going to matter in the grand scheme of things. 

[bm420-blog1]

#stonedjams just fuckin around, it's been a long time #solo #lead #cantremember #😜🤘🏻😈 #depressionsux 🙁🤤#soundslikeshit

[fire-rainrider-blog]

So after getting a rev from the physio for not staying on track with my physical rehab (it’s been a shitty month with an increase in meds), Indie and I got out on the warpath today. So for the first time in over two years I walked the lake from home and back. I’m a bit knackered now (and so is the dog), and it wasn’t my target time either. But I did it before Christmas like I said I would. #peteandtheblackdog #iwillwinthewarwithin #maybeicangetfitagain #nicedayforit☀ #sometimesyoujustneedakickintheass #yesimstubborn #depressionsuxs #anxietysucks #ptsdsucks

[jordanjamescore]

You know what I miss about being a kid?

No one made me feel worthless and ugly while at the same time claiming to love me....

[torturedgirl83-blog]

Wishing💭 I had happiness😀 again!!! #Depressionsux #stuckinsadness #canigetabreakplease

[h2h0eeeee]

recently, i have fell back into my depression but have no clue what triggered it. everything in my life is going so well and i just don't know whats going on with me. 

[laurenmolina]

today i scanned some pages from this lil gridded book that i've been doodling in. i think, i guess, i hope it's helping me move towards where i want to go...but i also don't know where that is, really.

i don't understand what being 'creative' means anymore. it's a pretty commonly used description of and widely accepted way of life. i guess i don't feel special making drawings right now, but i don't know how anyone could feel special today.

[psycho1313]

BEING DEPRESSED

Just because your depressed doesnt mean you cant laugh. Smile. Joke. Its called hiding from it. Depression hurts. It really does. So we try to hide. Try to, be normal. Try to be happy. But we all now, at some point sooner or later, that it comes creeping back. Out from hiding.

[amyunicorn001]

Not Sure

I cracked the whip on my first 'free' day. I moved all of the clean laundry away from the side of my bed and moved one of the bookshelves up near the headboard so I don't have to squeeze past it to get into bed.

I did a shit-ton of dishes. Yes, I actually measured it and it was a shit-ton.

I discovered that my device is now linked to a new phone number. Someone has put their SIM card into my phone and is using it. I discovered this on my antivirus/security program. I was able to download all of my contacts but because I hadn't upgraded to Premium I couldn't lock my phone or wipe it. I called the phone number and a guy answered. It then located the phone on the map. I told him he was holding a stolen phone and I was calling the police. Now my anti-virus can't locate my phone so he's either ditched the phone or taken the app off of it. I sent all of the screen shots to the police. I called my carrier and informed them, and I called the carrier of the new number. I may never get my phone back again, but he won't be able to use that one. If I do get it back I can hook it back up np.

But I need a phone. It's not an option, since we got rid of our landline. I can't figure out what kind of phone to get. They're all pretty much the same (iPhone, BlackBerry, Android) performance wise. I'm concerned about the future of BB but I could get a brand new model for super cheap. I have no idea what to do. I like the look of the Samsung Galaxy but all of the reviews say the battery life is shitty. So I'm paralyzed by choice. First World Problem, I know. Anxiety inducing, nonetheless.

I have done all of the laundry except for one mish-mash load which includes blankets. I hate washing blankets. I'm proud of myself for how much I've done now that I have to walk a lot further to go to the laundromat. There's no sign of the one a few doors down being reopened. Hopefully in the Spring we can get new machines in the house instead. I now have a mountain of clean clothes to tackle and no energy.

I spent the rest of my energy yesterday on walking up to the grocery store that was having a dollar sale and carrying way too much home. I.am.exhausted.

I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I'm spinning in circles, figuratively and literally.