#depression scrip

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

[akanemnon]

Uh oh, looks like Kris is starting to let out their frustrations on others, or maybe they're going through the stages of grief?

Either way, I'm very curious to see how things will play out with the overwhelming amount of new information put on to Kris in a short amount of time plus having to deal with common mortality and the little time they have to save their dad. Seconds are valuable, fighting would be a danger to their lives AND the life of Asgore. Loving everything about the comic so far, and I'm also excited to see how The Other Scrip will also play out!

The five stages of grief are more of a spiral in their case. They're continuly going up and down between anger and bargaining at the moment. Depression might be hitting at some point.

But yeah, we'll see how all of this is gonna affect them throughout the story. They just started to enter the Bargain-Bin Ruins. The unkown lies ahead of them.

[kangaracha]

5, 10, 17, 18

i love this ask game so much, they're such great questions. thankyou allie <3

(talkin about queenmaker and daybreak below the cut)

5. Do you have any writing superstitions? What are they and why are they 100% true?

not reaaally, the only thing I can think of is that I'm fairly sure I can tell within the first few hundred words if I'm going to like the finished product of a fic or not. i don't really have any weird habits, I just write.

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

everything that i've left unfinished? xD what does that mean to me, great question.

There's several novels that I know I'll finish one day, they just stay and stay with me because I haven't finished figuring them out yet - like Heart, which is 50% done at 100k and started innnn 2016? 2018? which sounds crazy, but it's still just a story that I'm not ready to be able to tell yet.

I think other things haunt me through different iterations of works - like Daybreak, which is essentially a new version of a scrapped disney zombies fic from 2022 that was about oppressed communities and essentially life in a ghetto, uprisings, the lives of young people in unsettled times. It was something that just got left behind as I focused on other things, but I always liked the idea and wished I could talk myself into coming back to it - now that I've written Daybreak, which focuses on oppression and police states and the life of normal people in times of revolution and change, it feels like that's settled, like I've done it justice.

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

you really think we've got all day huh. yeah okay daybreak. daybreak is kind of the combination of three things I've wanted to try for a while now: I wanted to write Minho from the DLC music video, I wanted to break the boundaries of ordinary smaus by writing something unique, and I wanted to write about ordinary people living in a dystopia, rather than the normal dystopian story that is based around a hero.

The whole thing came together pretty naturally tbh, all the scenes I wanted are in there. Minho plays as such a good personality for this darker type of fic - certain aspects of him are lost, of course, as they are in fiction, but he really has that darker alluring aspect to him of typical male leads, and clever wit to relieve tension when you need it. Y/N came into shape naturally; she's a character buult off a base of fear, and the human kindness it takes to want to be a nurse and an artist.

The rest of SKZ fit in really easily too, as you'll see in future chapters. Eunchae is a character that only became really clear in the final draft, because there were certain things I needed her to be depending on what events I kept and which I cut. The first version of her wavered between opinions a lot and only moved to serve the plot; now, she is there to show the citizen that is extremely lawful and obedient, the 'grin and bear it type'.

I looked at a lot of stuff for this fic; WW2 Germany and living as a German citizen, Jews who went into hiding, how Hitler came to power, current economics and the Great Depression (especially this photo), company towns and scrip coin, factories in the industrial revolution, the evolution of labour and health and safety laws....and then this post and this post and this poem.

The poem especially I looked at every time I wrote the major scenes between the two main characters because it described the dynamic I wanted so exactly - Minho is the moth, 'I would rather be part of beauty (the resistance/making the world a better place) for one instant and then cease to exist', and Y/N the cockroach, 'I would rather have half the happiness and twice the longevity' - but also, she wishes she could want the world to change so badly that she'd willingly die for it, like he would. That's what makes this relationship work so well too; she is so cautious and scared to act, but she has this heart that so clearly wants not to stand at the side while cruelty reigns, and he is brave and needs to stop before he pushes too far, and would be dead if she wasn't so cautious.

I think that's enough. I'll stop now.

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.

ummmmmmmmmm i hate you, makin me choose, god. let's go queenmaker ch 26. qm hasn't really been going exactly the way I planned (mostly because I did no planning at all), I wish everyone reading it would go and read daybreak to see that I can actually put together a cohesive and well-paced plot, but anyway this chapter in particular was supposed to help to highlight that Y/N is genuinely likeable and hardworking and putting up a face against the mean tweets, because there are a lot of mean tweets and I have been worried lately that it's too many and it's getting boring.

but also the continuous flooding of bad tweets even when you're sick of reading them is kind of on purpose because i'm commenting on the hate that idols get no matter what they do. anyway.

For several seconds, he just looks at you, unsure whether to laugh or not. "Have you done anything?" he asks, just to ask, ambling along casually beside you. "You have such a nice face shape." You contemplate your answer before you give it, your mouth opening and then closing again. "Maybe a little here and there," you say and let a little grin slip onto your face. "Maybe not. You know I was dropped from Midnight for being 'the wrong look', right?"

This moment re: plastic surgery was something that I agonised over a lot in writing, there were about three variations on these two lines of dialogue and I also did a lot of googling, reading shitty opinion posts, etc. because the side of social media that discusses whether or not idols have had plastic surgery is one I do not go near normally.

I don't know where I got the idea to include it from, I wanted to drop something about dieting in qm for a long time now (another thing I very carefully drafted into this conversation) and I think it just followed on from that as a kind of taboo topic for normal people, ykwim.

I drafted this conversation so much because there was a specific tone I wanted it to have - the scene is supposed to be very lighthearted, just another run of the mill workday and casual conversation even though the topics they talk about are like obviously there to play into specific themes. Using Changbin helped a lot for this. I wanted to just put in the idea that maybe Y/N had had work done in the past, and that it wasn't a big deal - I didn't want to make any commentary either way on plastic surgery, I just wanted to have it in the fic as a reminder that this is also a part of their lives that we don't see.

I was surprised actually in the end, that no one commented on it - I think I missed the balance I was going for and went the other way - not too strong, but not enough of a clue at all. I'm still happy with it though, because in the end I really didn't want to start a discussion on whether surgery is good or bad, and I didn't want it distracting from the actual aim of the scene or pressing an uncomfortable amount of tragic backstory on the character.

[graysongraysoff]

Starting to kind of understand how people get to the point of not wanting to be on medication tbh bc like while things are good when all my scrips align I feel like there's fucking always some horseshit with my refills that has me going a week or more without one or more of my fucking pills and since they're all for shit like depression and ADHD and hormones I'm just always fucking discombobulated in one way or another and it's like. I know logically that this still beats trying to rawdog it but some days I really feel like I mean but how much better is it though. How much better is it when every couple weeks I'm dealing with withdrawal symptoms because even with automatic refills turned on something is always holding me up getting the medication I was fucking prescribed no matter which pharmacy or doctor or system I go through.

[helphelpquesohelado]

if anxiety and the others successfully got back to headquarters how would the ending play out?

would it be like the sequel. with anxiety having the confront joy during her mania episode.

or would it end with joy returning to normal after being confronted by anxiety. but becomes so distraught with regret that she feels like she can no longer lead headquarters and disappears into the deeper parts of Riley's mind a day after the incident without telling anyone. leaving anxiety to reluctantly become their new leader.

I know the last one might sound a bit sad, but I do love a little bit of angst now and then.

also, I really love your AU. especially with how you tackled mania. as well as joy's decent into mania. from how she starts off looking fairly normal (aside from the eerie smile) as seen in the art with the new emotions trapped in the jar. to how she slowly grows into a tall multi-armed monster as seen in the comics. it's these little details that really elevate the AU for me in a lot of ways.

Thanks! ima give you a warning for a lore related ramble!

Yes I'd imagine both of those sanarios! they'd have to go find joy right after! I haven't written a scrip or something but yes that's how I'd though it would go \.

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Also, if ima be honest,

I'm scared shittless of presenting mania and disorders in general the wrong way, that's kind of why I'm afraid to make additions to this Au. the only real experience i have with disorder's is dealing with my mother's BPD and my own autism n' depression (sorry if i phrased that badly).

And as for joy's physical growth. that's mainly because of the disorder. for example, Anxiety looked fairly normal, but she would be "overgrown" and "monsterly" like joy if say, the person had an anxiety disorder. I want to make it clear that these things are serious and in need of external help to manage. Such as therapy or meds. If it was just a regular old attack it would be just a normal version of anxiety. I want to make it clear that disorder's like these are not to be tackled alone and external care is warrened ya'know.

(Like that one concept art where they presented anxiety as a dragon! i don't have an image but I'm sure you can find it!)

my ideas for these things were inspired by all the art of "disorder what if's" for Riley's emotions, depicting what happens when something ain't right in the body. such as depression, anxiety disorder, mania, social anxiety, etc!

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sorry if I derailed the subject, but I'm so glad you asked!

[skywarpie]

I've said it before and I'll say it again. I am so fucking tired of this country acting like Appalachia is the issue. If you would take the fucking time to actually research you'd realize we were fucking doomed to fail from the start. We are having to carry the generational trauma of poverty. It has NOTHING to do with us ourselves and you blaming us for that shit is so stereotypical it's vomit inducing.

Let's look at some facts

By the early 1900s several different coal companies owned land in WV.

New River Company: owned over 70,000 acres of land in Fayette and Raleigh counties.

U.S. Coal & Coke: owned over 300,000 acres in Pocahontas county

Before the Great Depression 99% of the state of WV was owned by outsiders. Meaning 1% belonged to native Appalachians . Over 90% of the state had men working for coal companies before the stock market crash.

When coal was discovered in the 1800s during the Civil War people realized soon after they could make money from it. These companies would try to buy from farmers that had these lands in their possession for decades. When they refused to sale, these companies took them to court. Where officials typically sided with WV natives. Eventually the companies hired their own men and they would keep taking these families to court until they had no money left and HAD to sell. Afterwards there was no other job than for them to work for these companies on land they had owned to mine for them.

Companies owned EVERYTHING. the miners weren't even paid in actual cash just scrip. It was so easy to literally put them under the thumb of the wealthy while the provided the country with the most coal.

When coal companies finally began to have to modernize, a lot vanished. It left so much poverty bc so many of these towns were unincorporated. Meaning they had NO businesses. Which means no jobs!

In the 80s the US government released opiods into these regions specifically to see how drug addiction affected poor regions. We now have the HIGHEST opioid issue in appalachia. And you know why they did it? Because who cares about a few dead hillbillies who can't even get fucking jobs to feed their families.

And don't even get me started on how the media portrayed typical Appalachian fueds like the Hatfields and McCoys as "barbaric" and how it added fuel to the fire.

Fucking educate yourselves goddamn.

[naamahdarling]

Today's roadblock is:

The Pharmacy; the doctors' offices. RESOLVED!

The issue is:

GAC/HRT doctor's office sent a prescription to the wrong pharmacy. Pharmacy screwed up a thing for my ADHD meds.

This problem was caused by:

Providers: Simple oversight. Pharmacy: Closing my location, so the prescriptions are being transferred and it's chaos, and all PAs had to be resubmitted.

The party likely responsible is:

I'm angriest with the pharmacy. Their issues caused the other issues. I'm assuming they had a reason for the closing, so I'm trying to be less angry. The other clinics, just whoever was putting through the paperwork made a small mistake.

The consequences/benefits to me are:

I'm tired from chasing this for a week. I have been without ADHD meds off and on for a week, which gives me BAD rebound depression. I got both issues resolved, however, so the benefit is that I get my meds and don't have to fuck around with it any longer.

The consequences to them are:

None, except the pharmacy employees suffering with a horrendous workload. The employees at the doctors' offices fucked up, but it wasn't part of a pattern for them. Everyone gets a gold star for cooperating today and promising to fix their shit.

I am feeling:

Tired. Glad I could fix it all. Slightly hopeful I will have all my meds this week. Perpetually disgusted that "I hope I can get my meds this week" is even a thing. Shoutout to the medication desk at insurance, who found the problem with my HRT scrip. Insurance as it exists now is survival gatekeeping and utterly repugnant (The Purpose of a System Is What It Does, therefore insurance -- even the nonprofit kind -- exists to neglect and harm people in the name of money), but these specific employees at least do their job well.

[freakykreepy]

Wes - HIBER ✒️

✒️ BASIC INFO

A silly character who just wants to have fun! He has loooong worms under his skin that feed off his blood a bit. Because of this, Wes is the weakest camp member physically. He has severe anemia as well, which makes him very tired, often short of breath, his limbs are gray and cold, and his skin is quite pale. You can see the worms in thin, long, blue/purple veins all over his limbs. Another weird effect these worms do is that they make Wes extremely tall. During hiber, he feels dizzy, too weak to even walk, and often just sleeps and naps all day.

Wes joined the camp to bring more chaos into a place he already knew would have heaps of it. He loves writing nonsensicle scrips for the indie film (and annoying Stephanie with them) and finds the parasite mystery intriguing, liking the vibes more than the research though.

🎹 SHORT BACKSTORY

He could never participate in sports or very active playground games with other kids when he was small, but he often disobeyed, hurting himself in the process.

Still, he had to stay inside most of the time. His parents sent him to piano classes, which he didn’t love but tolerated enough to fully learn. What he loved though was writing. When everyone else swam in lakes and ran around playing ball on warm summer evenings, Wes wrote eleborate, insane stories, where nothing normal ever happened. He was always proud of his stories, even when no one else really understood them.

He used to be very close with his grandfather, who had a bug inside his stomach, making him always hungry, but also giving him the ability to eat literally anything (gramps often joked that he was about to eat one of the family hamsters.)

Wes’ grandpa taught him all the traditional masculine things that didn’t need a lot of physical activity, like fishing or tinckering with objects. He was more like a father than his actual father.

The grandfather sadly passed away suddenly one night after a severe hiber episode and starved (hiber is not usually deadly, but can be, especailly in older, weaker bodies.)

After that, Wes fully transcended into the chaotic nihilistic/absurdist view of life and embraced the dream of "becoming a legacy."

(Child Wes below)

⚙️ INTERESTS

Wes still loves creating extravagant stories and writes them on an old purple typewriter to be extra. Tells everyone that he’ll be famous once he’s dead, because "great artists don’t get recognised while they’re alive." This is his goal. For people to argue about the meaning of his stories while he giggles in his grave.

Wes particularly loves the 30s-40s era and strictly has its style and things. Adapted a lot of mannerisms from this era as well, probably from his grandfather.

This guy is a natural at pranking and annoying others to get a reaction or attention. People are always a bit cautious of him. Wes is also an unapologetic cheater, especially in card games.

Other things he loves are the color purple, winter, giving and receiving presents (receiving more tho lol,) typical masculine things like cars, constructing models, tech, etc., peaches, and soda.

(Current 1994 Wes below)

☃️ PERSONALITY

He doesn’t take anything seriously and just tries to have fun, because, according to him, life would be too depressing otherwise.

Despite his worms, Wes is still lively, extroverted, confident, not humble what’s so ever, a show-off, and can be charismatic when he needs to be.

He rarely says anything he really means, often talking in jokes, quotes or old style phrases.

🥤 MISC

All his life Wes owned A LOT of hamsters that always died in the most bizarre ways possible. He liked constructing tiny vehicles for them. Still owns some.

Wes pretends his stories never have any deeper meaning and are just crazy and quirky for the sake of it, but sometimes they do. But sometimes they really are just him having fun and nothing more.

Considers himself a gay cis man

Wes and Remy found an infected tortoise on the camp ground and are currently both rasing him like he’s their son.

He would rather die than cry in public.

☀️ RELATIONSHIPS

(Relationship section someday)

📻 For more info what’s Hiber, click here! 📻

Thank you for reading these entries. As always, more information and characters coming!

[windypuddle]

watching The Grapes of Wrath for a class (not even an english class. a weather class) and it is strongly reminding me of Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler. climate issues resulting in a weak government that has to go back on its word and rescind programs, leading society to fall into capitalistic chaos as people try to leave and find jobs as their homes are destroyed, and there are many jobs on farms/factories controlled by big shots with private security and paid in company scrip/the only store nearby is owned by the same company you work for. But ultimately its less about narrative similarity and more about the circumstances; that kind of stuff really happened with the Dust Bowl and the Great Depression, and Butler saw history repeating itself if something like that (climate disaster) should happen again. really insightful books

[inspectorlyfra]

can I sue Meijer pharmacy for fumbling my antidepressant scrip 3+ times in the past week. it's like my 4th day without it and my brain is completely malfunctioning i am depressed and manic at the same time and i don't feel in control of myself and i fucking hate it

[cybrheartheart]

Seems they're really liking the 1870-1910s, the time of chaos and catastrophe that led to The Great Depression.

The ironic part is that history lessons neglected the run up to The Great Depression, the manufactured chaos that preceded the decline.

The lack of a secure federal bank, the housing busts, the loan crises, the foreclosures problem, the taxes increase on the poor and working classes, the increase in demand but lack of supplies, the price hikes on everything, the run on the banks, the lack of jobs, the tariffs, the Rockefeller's, JD Morgan, Astors, and other robber barons.

The ironic part about it all, there were signs throughout movies and shows. You had It's A Wonderful Life (the run on the banks), you had the Beverly Hillbillies (packing up the car with every piece of your belongings), you had A Christmas Carol (Scrooge penny pinching his workers while living in luxury, little Timmy and his family starve), Hatfields and McCoys (one fam was helping the robber barons while the other was trying to save the community and the clan), then you have O Brother Where Art Thou? (when the kid came out to greet the main characters with a shotgun and asked if they were with the Gov't who's trying to take their property, tax man or with the bank).

Sixteen Tons by Tennessee Ford talks about the company store, which is when a single company comes into a community, builds cheap homes, sets up a company store, and owns the whole town.

The company only pays employees in not cash, but company scrip that you can only redeem at the store they own. And if you get on the bad side of the company, you lose not only your job, but you get evicted because your housing depends entirely on being an employee of the company.

Not only did this make employees dependent on the company, hence forcing employees' loyalty to the company, but the companies usually enforced huge markups on prices. Instead of allowing employees to be able to save, they essentially are paying back their paycheck to the company and the company doesn't lose out on what they're paying out to their employees.

By 1938, it was illegal for employees to pay employees anything but good old cold-hard cash.

Then you've got the bank robbers of that era who were robbing banks because they were an easy way to get cash really quick since there were no sources of income except illegal ones, e.g. robbing, gangs/mobs, moonshining; Baby Face Nelson, Bonnie & Clyde, Capone, etc.

Remember, keep the cultural hints alive. Create new ones. Keep the old ones. Remember our history and remember we're living through that same history on repeat again, lets learn from our greats grandparents' era and stop it in its tracks.

Tax the rich. Abolish Citizens United. Recognize the class war. Respect all labor.

[emptymanuscript]

Ok but ser- ok, as serious as I can be at the moment - How is Musk such a douche on Ketamine? Like, I am on a teeny tiny dose right now - is cool, I have a scrip, not that I don’t think you should be able to take whatever you want - I mean fuckit, I’m with the libertarians on drug policy, you wanna do drugs, do some drugs, is cool, whatever, just don’t do them around me, you do you, let me do me, it’s all good K? K. But I am sitting - well, whatever the present tense of laying is, I’m not lying 🤥 I’m resting and English is dumb sometimes but you get it and yeah, I am high on my scheduled Ketamine for my permanent depression and everything is freaking - nah, fuck it, I wanna say fucking, we can fucking use the whole fucking language it’s ok, won’t actually hurt anyone -… what was I saying? Oh, yeah: everything is fucking hilarious right now. Because it’s late. I’m tired. I’m high. And I have a zombie book on tape. And life is good. And how does that douchey touché Musk manage to be such an asshole asshat on this drug??? That’s what I wanna know. Like… just enjoy the ride man. But no he’s gotta have a chainsaw for a dick and fuck everything up for everybody else. His bed has gotta suck. Like, what even is the point of being a dick???? Think of all the beds and pools you could have. You could just snuggle in to a whole stack of beds like a nest and then throw them in a pool and float around on your own private bed island of comfyness. And like… you’ve won. Why even cause trouble?? Shit, get a projector. Have movies night. Race a car. Do drugs. Whatever. I don’t care. You do you. Be happy. Just be happy over there. No. Farther. Keep going. Away. Stay zooming. Take a rocket. Shoot for the moon. Shoot for mars. Hell, go big or go home. Shoot for Andromeda. Spread them wings and fly. Away. Be king of the universe somewhere the fuck else. Leave everyone else alone. Your doctor is fucking up your dose. Feeling like God is supposed to be funny as fuck. We’re silly gibbons with itchy butts and stinky fingers that smell bad bouncing around like idiots. Take a gram instead of a damn. You know. Stupid Musk. The only reason people hate you is because you’re mean. Stop being mean and it’ll be ok, ok. Like, just fucking don’t TRY to hurt other people. I swear to God that’s like half the world’s problems fixed right there: don’t be a dick.

[zumpietoo]

Is Lili a Hypochondriac or does she have Munchuasen or both

She’s hard work with all her breakdowns and ailments.

<cracks knuckles>

First off, apologies for the 2 day delay in replying, I've been busy with work, etc......STILL recovering from my flu (pretty much back to 100%, but I notice I'm moar tired easily, still......or maybeeee that's just the extra cold weather/winter????)......anyhoooo, let's get to it, cuz the Peepster sure DID provide a LOT of snarkables over the past few days, amirite?

For starters, it appears to be a combo of depressed (again----and not making fun of legit issues, buuuutt.....I thought, her "spirituality"/SweatBoi had taken care of that?), desperately wants attention, over drama and an entitled idiot who remains breathtakingly unable to cope with life. Oh and looking to promote her latest low budget messy mess.....

Oh and she needs to probably just stop fucking taking bubble baths/wearing tight pants/cut down on caffeine because THAT'S why she's getting UTIs (and needs to pee after sex)----seriously, I used to get them all the time, too. I did NOT have some sort of exotic tropic disease, I needed to adjust habits.....AND it's like simply recurrent and needs to be knocked out with a stronger prescription (and she's probably managed to develop a significant tolerance, too)....

Anyhooo.....let's go to the direct posts, etc....with debunking for each. under a cut (already!) cuz lonnngggg.....

OML.......duuuuuudddddeee, you've BEEN seen for a decade, now! We're legit back to "you don't know what I'm capable of"????? That one's wayyyyy past its sell date, PP.....(and a shitty low budget movie isn't gonna change it).

Annnndddd......she made our country's descent into fascism all about herself. Gross. Especially since after KokeJ? She's the least politically motivated/most conservative person in the OG Plaiderdale cast. Plus duuddee, you weep/whine/whimper publicly all the fuckin' time....

Next, she uses the grandma she visited ONCE in over a decade's terminal illness.....KLASSSEEEE, Peepster!

And now we head into the pure dullness of "I have shitty health habits and don't properly address them or my MH issues, but instead trot this shit out when I want somebody to notice meeee"....And no, you're talking about "your health" because of you......(and already dragging your poor, dead grandma you DGAF about while alive into it. Ickyyyy).

Take some pain relievers, drop your shitty habits, dumbass.....also, funny how it's always her, with a new "trendy" condition, huh? I thought she had celiac disease/a likely brain injury/healed by reiki cult/something else????

Maybe finish taking all your bactrim next time, dumbass????

Ohhh....yeah, I forgot the alopecia, too. Ummmm.....dude???? Stop fucking bleaching and frying your hair. Seriously, it's all from your abuse of it. Go back to "honey blond" (or even single process dye it darker) and let it dry naturally curly. Once again, FIFY!

OMG!!! It's as if they probably all told you to take your antibiotics and change your lifestyle!!! Those BASTARDS! And turns out your dumb SM visit was completely irrelevant, as well....(which tracks).

Plus, again, what happened to your other ailments/"radiating and glowing with happiness and confidence", again????

Get a stronger scrip and finish it, moron!!!

No, one might say.....you have very bad lifestyle habits and refuse to apply basic common sense. AND get so many of these things you, yourself forget which ones....

The ER docs and nurses didn't treat me all speshul!!!!

I demanded they take me seriously!!! And paid XTRA $$$$ so they would!

Bet the speshulist prescribed double strength bactrim, hmmmm????

BTW.....fun fact, I used to get recurrent UTIs as a younger woman....AND ultimately, my gyno simply prescribed something stronger to knock it out, once and for all. He also advised me:

No sex during your period, always pee after sex, no tight pants/jeans, lots of fluids, limit caffeine, etc....dude, you are NOT speshul. SUCK IT

(wow she looks like crap)

OML.....it isn't remotely the same thing, you fucking moron. Also funny how you endlessly pretended everything was amazingly fantastic at the time, because you got enough attention then. Again, interesting how this ALWAYS comes out when you want/need attention, huh???? (and have a project to promote)....

Did you learn that from your cult, the other fake diagnosis your received or when you drank too much alcohol/mt dew???

Yes, because your barely managed a GED (if you actually even did) makes you soooooo much smarter and moar knowledgeable than someone who went through med school and residency....

Whelp, guess they didn't visit a "charming little German restaurant" together, then, hmmm.....Snorty???? Moar like a "charming little German ER".....

Also, he looks like crap and LBR, he's now her nursie (poor Cole) cuz she pays him....well, not $$$, cuz she doesn't really have any, but cents, I guess???

Also love this pic, cuz he's soooo not involved/bored/checked out....LMAO!!!

Errmmmm......no dude, you create "discomfort" for attention. And she's your mom, OFC she does! Also, you're mommeee's meal ticket, too. Love how none of her "besties" are mentioned, cuz guess they're too busy not wearing the slave collars anymoar.

Aww...there Peepster, now you've gotten attention again and can STFU. And not "wimmin's heath", but one woman being a crybaby....

[circularsnordersg]

Order in Respect of Jalaj Batra in The Matter of Vijay Textiles

That he prima facie indulged in creating false or misleading appearance of trading in thescrip of SCL, dealt in security not intended to effect transfer of beneficial ownership andinstead intended to operate only as a device to inflate, depress or cause fluctuations inthe price of the scrip SCL. Shri Jalaj Batra has thus prima facie manipulated the price ofthe scrip SCL and violated Regulations 4 (1), 4 (2) (a), (b), (e) of SEBI (Prohibition ofFraudulent and Unfair Trade Practices relating to Securities market) Regulations, 2003.

In the said interim order cum Show Cause Notice it was also mentioned that any objections regardingthe order may be filed within 15 days from the date of the order. The Noticee had soughtinspection of documents which was duly given to the Noticee. The Noticee, however, did notsubmit any reply on allegation in the interim order cum Show Cause Notice. The notices providingopportunities of personal hearings were returned undelivered and the Noticee did not avail anyof them. Subsequently, vide his letter dated April 30, 2015, the Noticee requested for vacatingthe interim order. The Noticee availed the opportunity of personal hearing on June 11, 2015 whenhis authorised representatives appeared before me and made submissions and sought time tofile written submissions. The written submissions were submitted by the Noticee on June 30

The summons sent were SEBI in the matter of VTL were never delivered to theNoticee and there is no acknowledgement of the delivery of the summons to theNoticee. The Noticee during the relevant period mostly stayed abroad and wastravelling and was never aware of the summons.

[triplegoths]

tw dr//üg use

damn. the fact that i only bought my first bag in late summer and now at the end of the year ive gone through over 10g of coke.... like some of it was shared with 🌘 bc. im a gentleman and she helped me get it. so i cant say exactly how much went just to me but. at the v least 10 on the dot

started with a .5 and then a g and then frm there it was "this 8ball then i stop" and i only stopped bc i had nobody. and then there were more hookups and... 2 more 8balls but... i got shorted on the last one and im p sure he only gave us 3g on the dot at the most (tbh. prob less than that) so now i will be taking my scale to the next time. bc theres GONNA be a next time.

im so cooked chat. sooooo cooked.

chronic fatigue and multiple disabilities and depression and other mental illnesses living alone with minimal support anywhere but finances is.... fucking rough. and when im on coke its almost bearable. at the very least bc i can KEEP WORKING bc if i wasnt on it constantly half of this year... with our schedule?? and the huge increase in customers at the shop? i wouldnt have survived. were STILL late sometimes even with the blow so like. how tf are we supposed to do this without it! kinda fucked unless i get diagnosed and get scrip addy. but nah its not rly any kind of option bc thats money i dont have and i have more important shit to diagnose if i was gnna pay for that. ill just keep wrecking my body. what choice do i have? i continue doing this bullshit or i go die in a heap bc i cant support myself

ive still been taking the 7ohmz this whole time. thats rly never gnna change for a long ass time bc. i cant function with the level of pain my disabilities give me. if i get off them and have to deal with EXTRA pain frm the withdrawl? i gotta have a genuine 2 weeks off if i want off of them. ive def cut down a lot. but like. im still maining the downers with uppers combo like its my job (basically is atp)

i need that shit

this whole experience has changed my entire perspective on this drug. both of them rly but mainly coke. very much a love hate relationship. bc i love her and shes the best. but also shes NOT fucking worth it and will destroy your life. but i would still do it all again knowing this. at least theres not rly physical withdrawls so. i rly CAN stop any time. but i dont fucking WANT to. bc the mental addiction is bested only by its cousin crack and their weird uncle meth (which ive never smoked. but i have taken speed pills many times. and i dont wanna lose friends bc. i would if they found out just on principle bc that is a clear boundary. but i rly fuckinf would. i made so much fucking art on that shit and was working SO hard.)

i just rly hope i get her back soon its been not even a full week im fucking DYING i need it for the rest of my shifts SO bad im fucking exhausted and im getting more sleep than i have like all year consistently too. still EXHAUSTED to the point of having to drag myself around and im sure the 7ohmz isnt helping me there.

ok post over

please universe if u dont want me to kms. get me that 8ball TONIGHT

[🎛]📹🍥🏢🗜

[yhwhrulz]

Charles Spurgeon's "Morning & Evening" Devotional for November 22

Morning

“We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed.”

2 Corinthians 4

The Second Epistle to the Corinthians was written by Paul from Macedonia, after Titus had returned from Corinth, and informed him how the Corinthian church had received his first letter. The news was of a mingled kind, and caused him both joy and sorrow. The apostle seems at the time of writing it to have been much troubled and perplexed. We shall commence our reading with the fourth chapter.

2 Corinthians 4:1 , 2 Corinthians 4:2

All underhand dealing and trickery Paul denounced. He said what he meant, and meant what he said. If we cannot spread the truth by plain speech, we cannot spread it at all.

2 Corinthians 4:3 , 2 Corinthians 4:4

If men do not understand the gospel, we must take care that the fault does not lie in our language; but wholly with their blinded carnal hearts.

2 Corinthians 4:7

The weakness of the preacher only shows the power of God when he uses such poor means to accomplish so great an end. Never let us refuse to do good, because our abilities are slender; let us the rather yield up our weakness unto the Lord that he may use it to his own glory.

2 Corinthians 4:12

Paul rejoiced that good came to them by his sufferings. He loved them even as a mother who strips off her own raiment, and exposes herself to the cold to screen her child.

2 Corinthians 4:13 , 2 Corinthians 4:14

He feared not death, for he expected resurrection.

2 Corinthians 4:13

His ruling passion was God’s glory, and this sustained him under sickness, depression, and persecution.

2 Corinthians 4:17 , 2 Corinthians 4:18

See how little Paul makes of trial; he calls it light and momentary; but how much he makes of glory! he labours for expressions, he cannot with the utmost exertion deliver himself. The way to live above trouble is to look up: we shall grow giddy if we look down upon earthly things, for they are tossed to and fro like waves of the sea.

Afflictions may press me, they cannot destroy,

One glimpse of his love turns them all into joy;

And the bitterest tears, if he smile but on them,

Like dew in the sunshine, grow diamond and gem.

A scrip on my back, and a staff in my hand,

I march on in haste through an enemy’s land;

The road may be rough, but it cannot be long,

So I’ll smooth it with hope, and cheer it with song.

Evening

“Willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.”

2 Corinthians 5

2 Corinthians 5:1

For we know not we think or hope only, but we know

2 Corinthians 5:1

Our clay cottage will come down, but our heavenly mansion is ready to receive us.

2 Corinthians 5:2-4

We cannot be satisfied here, for we are exiled from the glory land and compassed with infirmities. We await with expectation the summons, “Rise up and come away.”

2 Corinthians 5:5

God is preparing us for heaven, and has given us already a sure pledge of it in the possession of the Holy Ghost.

2 Corinthians 5:8

The exile longs to return, the child pines for his fathers house, and so do we pant for our own dear country beyond the river, and sigh for the bosom of Jesus.

2 Corinthians 5:9-10

With this is view, we cannot afford to trifle or to sin. Every day should be viewed in the light of the last day, and then we shall live as we should.

2 Corinthians 5:13

The apostle did everything for Jesus and his church, and if any blamed his actions, he bade them remember that love to them was the sole motive of all he did.

2 Corinthians 5:14

then were all dead or rather, all died

2 Corinthians 5:15

The death of Jesus for us has made us reckon ourselves dead to all but him, and for him alone would we exist.

2 Corinthians 5:16

Everything was spiritual, even his sight of Jesus with his mortal eyes was no longer cared for, in comparison with faith’s view of him after a spiritual fashion.

2 Corinthians 5:21

Are we thus made righteous? These verses are wonderfully weighty: do we understand them by personal experience? Are we new creatures, reconciled by Jesus, blood, accepted in the Beloved, and one with him? These are points which demand immediate inquiry.

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