#dense edit

[tomfool-tabbycat]

i love the limited mental health in the friendlocke series, it's so charming

this was once again meant for my tiktok, if this accidentally Posts twice my bad lol

@saltydkart-reblogs

[oddestishottest]

[nabaath-areng]

" Did you even listen to me, or is your skull too thick to take in anything I ever tell you? " " I— " " I told you to be careful. Simple instructions really, and yet... "

Magnai/Ieeha AU, Endwalker era when neither fully understand what's going on between them and the unavoidable proximity seems to make things more confusing rather than clear as in even worse than the last time they were stuck together

[fbisgayesttrio]

Just Skinner hopelessly in love with his two favourite agents

[enniewritesathing]

wink

[redsodaz]

something horrible has happened and i now find myself inclined to ask if voltron is still popular on here

[windsofnotos]

I know it’s pretty par for the course but nobody’s soldier is the one hozier song that makes me actually disgusted and enraged when I see people making it about their fandoms.

[zoeflake]

I love this shot so much! The dark center is a copse of trees in an otherwise empty field, against a backdrop of distant mountains... taken while we were driving through dense fog. It was like driving into a pastel Mark Rothko painting. —LunaLadee

[hopecomesbacktolife]

thinking of rereading the entirety of HoME again. for my health

[leon-on-the-froggy-chair]

not to be controversial or anything but how tf you gonna be a RE fan and then pro-capitalism and defend corporations and governmental greed and shit

[rukafais]

"third edition dnd lore was so good" Ah yeah you mean the edition where it got deeply intensely bioessentialist and so intensely hardline about alignment that it shat out things like the Book Of Exalted Deeds? That one?

[tomfool-tabbycat]

guess who finished friendlocke violet last night!

@saltydkart-reblogs

[i-still-mask-because]

i still mask bcuz i dont wanna move closer to my family just to give them a deadly disease. it is really lonely living in a city that's already moved on. i cant even hang out with my best friend more than a couple days a month without risking an infection (i cant afford to take rapid tests constantly, she geniunely has had a hard time getting back to masking) i have faith that looking forward to longterm happiness will be worth it in the end

😷

[fern-mage]

dragon tier kofi reward for october :D

[finalgirlminamurray]

another plot twist of sorts that i totally missed was in the descent, when we're supposed to infer that juno had an affair with sarah's husband when beth gives her the necklace that juno had. i don't know if i was just dumb and not picking up on the obvious but i just assumed the reason she snaps and starts seriously trying to kill juno when she sees her next is because...she killed beth. (well beth wasn't dead yet but juno thought she was, and she lied about it.) i suppose that was also part of it but still, i was kind of disappointed when i found out that was supposed to be a reveal because i felt like it was an unnecessary barely-a-subplot that kind of reduced this desperate, feral fight for survival between two women to "they're fighting over a Man, of course"

i fucking love this movie by the way, it's extremely good. i just prefer my initial interpretation of that part of it

[ozfi]

newbie chainsaw man thoughts (started writing at ch31) - from discord. character analysis via transgenderism, as ever...

lets assume denji has had pochita.. what. 10 yrs? i forget if he was given an age when his father died. but this is about puberty.

pochita is denji. does this make sense? pochita is the part of denji that wants to stay alive. survival instinct, brain, hope. call it anything. because denji should have died the day after his father did, at the hands of the debt collector, but pochita came out, shivering and injured, and denji said ill stay alive for you, so you stay alive for me. and in that way he was denjis will to live, and denji managed just to hold on, just by sacrificing a little tiny bit of himself

not that pochita is inherently malicious, which. i dont think he is. but i think a will to live and a survival instinct will naturally have you doing things you dont want to. before pochita literally became a part of denjis body denji was eating cigarettes for a pittance of yen, and now he turns into chainsaw man, and by sacrificing more of himself (blood, the chainsaws literally digging into his flesh, he died and became this) so pochita is trying to keep denji alive At All Costs, but... the cost is high. now denji is functionally immortal, but he is constantly hurting himself to stay alive.

now. why am i saying this?

i am saying this because Chainsaw Man (denji) is transgender as fuck

what sense does this make? well. all of it. here is my reasoning:

chainsaw man becomes a part of denji as he grows up, having to embrace masculinity via puberty and social pressures as one gets older

"but thats hurting him! thats keeping him alive, but its hurting him!" and: well... yeah? hes never been in a situation where he can analyze such things. he doesnt have a mother. hes been surrounded by scummy men his whole life. all he knows is scummy men and pain, and the world around him made him be hyperviolent just to stay alive even before chainsaw man became a part of him, so its only natural he thinks this is the only way. and consistently he is shown that it is. in this way the armor that hurts him keeps him alive. it is his only path forward. in that way even if he could transition, so that he wasnt killed, stealthing is the shield that keeps people safe in situations where they would not otherwise be

pochita-as-denjis-will-to-live keeps him safe by giving him that armor, a way to hack and claw, but this safety wont make him happy in the way he necessarily wants, even if he is already living a better life because of it (and isnt being a cis man a ticket to comfort in a way being anything else isnt?). pochita is like.... adrenaline, in certain ways. where otherwise you would be flat on the ground, but somehow you keep finding something that lets you keep standing up. literally, in fact, in the case of devil blood regeneration.

having a will to live isnt inherently bad, but clinging to a survival instinct definitely means something is wrong. and i know being chainsaw man just makes things worse for denji! there is a chainsaw IN HIS SKULL! IT IS SAWING HIS BRAIN! pochita himself as the only thing thats ever truly loved denji (and thus, denji himself) [TO THIS POINT] isnt a bad thing to have, but the way that will to survive is manifesting and is percieved to need to manifest as is self harm

naturally, when you look at the evidence, a lot of people who need change most are the most scared of it, and tend to isolate or act out when faced with life-shifting calamities, including gender dysphoria. it makes me think about when denji wondered if accepting pochita as a part of him meant that not only the physical organ but his emotional human heart died as well...

and, its not necessarily a good thing, but denji learning women can be just as awful as men and no longer idolizing them is an important wakeup call for him to be able to move forward into a more realistic and happy life, where he doesnt follow women around like a dog and isnt entirely averse to being around men in every capacity as if theyre inherently subhuman and not just a type of person with the ability to make their own choices

the first devil he faces after becoming chainsaw man, the muscle devil, is there to use his bias against him, saying the little girl was being abused by her father and that the devil saved her. having total black-and-white thinking leaves you to disadvantage and unable to see the world clearly

+ the race for chainsaw man's heart and the usage of emotional manipulation for that futhers denjis ideas that people only like him if he has something to offer them. "im only worth something if i have something of worth", in denjis case it is being chainsaw man/having chainsaw's heart. / "because i am the way i am, only bad things happen to me and the people i love"

[ch 40:

[5:34 PM] ok i was off comp for 2 seconds and i thought abt

[5:34 PM] how kamen rider this setup is

[5:35 PM] youre turned into the same kind of monsters as you fight, and though it gives you that power to fight, what is the cost? what will you do with that power? how will it change you ]

+ but it is essential to remember the survival instinct, the will to live- all of it relies on hope. the idea that tomorrow will be better than today, and that it's worth staying alive for. while the current result of denji+pochitas united strength is dangerous and painful, pochitas true purpose is to keep denji alive to see a future worth living in. pochita loves him. pochita is hope.