#dejan/šime

[longeyelashedtragedy]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

i was faux-tagged by @prosopopeya ! it was fun reading your answers!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

147...damn

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

434,625

3. What fandoms do you write for?

right now i only write "Men's Football RPF," but occasionally i have the desire to write in my previous fandom, and then never do.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

these are all a song of ice and fire/game of thrones fics from way back in the day

drabbles of ice and fire (does what it says on the tin)

captivated (arya/jaqen AU)

ends and beginnings (arya/jaqen university AU)

egg baby (arya/jaqen, au)

arya saves the day (arya/jaqen, the same university AU)

...as you might have guessed, i was THEE arya/jaqen BNF back then, lol. (if you have familiarity with the characters please note these are all AUs because arya is aged up in order to ship her)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i try, i really do! comments just get my executive function so snarled up and i wind up forgetting.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

that's most of them. how am i meant to choose? it's hard for me to get through the end of "i tore off the golden branch" without crying even to this day. "like a song on repeat, nothing has to end" has some nice sad transfer window angst, and as i've said, the ending to "visited upon the sons" really slaps. is it cheating to say mare liberum?--that ending only exists on my notes app, and it's more "tragic" than angsty i guess.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh, hmmm. i wanna say... "5.VII." poor dejan, always fearing he'll somehow be alone and unwanted, not good enough, and in that moment at the end of the fic those worries leave him.

“So...that means...these things...These things we do together...” Dejan waits impatiently.  No, he’ll be honest with himself.  He’s waiting nervously.  “We’re just going to have to keep doing them forever, right, brate?”  Dejan lets go of the breath he’s been holding and as he does, he feels those wings again, stretching out from his shoulder blades and shaking themselves out and giving him an incredible lightness. He could float away right now with Šime in his arms. They could float away together.   “Yes. I guess we will.”

8. Do you get hate on fics?

not really, i think they're so poorly written or strange that they just don't get much notice. i did see some "piquira" people back in the day talk about how my fic "soy loca con mi tigre," where shakira pegs piqué (RIP) with sergio watching them on video chat, was "weird." god, it must be painful to be that boring

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

unfortunately yes. i think it's usually pretty straightforward, but maybe not blunt enough to be grimy-hot. i don't like anything flowery. i wish i could write some m/f from time to time, but i have too many gender issues to feel comfortable writing about an AFAB body in a sexual sense most of the time. i am trying to channel this discomfort into writing a fic where jamie jamie jamie takes franko out clubbing to drown his sorrows and they pick up some Girls it is what it is!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i used to with my ex, we had an amazing AU where we crossed over a million different punk/metal/alternative musicians with some other rpf type people. oh, and not to forget--my first ever footyfics were crossovers, lol.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i sure have! it was shameless as fuck. however, justice was served because my version got more kudos and comments, so i didn't even bother to start shit. as they say, she thought she ate!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes, into russian, chinese, and persian. i have enough fics translated into russian on ficbook to have my own Author Page on there--a point of pride, because i love ficbook :)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes, many with said ex! i would love to do a collab again--anyone? hit me up

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

idk? rakidrić, šejan, movren, xhakarteta RIP, JAVEY from AFI, cersei/jaime, aged up!arya/jaqen. am i missing anything?

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

maybe my really long 'ivan rakitić coming of age' fic, where the running plot is "what is he doing to keep himself at barça even tho he's out of favor?" as you can see, it would be very outdated, plus it was never intended for a wide audience

16. What are your writing strengths?

not sure :/ characters' emotions, good use of repetition and parallelism (i like to think !) and good use of rhythm. i also think i write a good ending. my bff said "the way you describe love and loss is unlike anyone else" which i thought was nice!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

plot, pacing. good porn, being unfiltered (like--my writing feels too repressed lol)

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

it has to make sense so it doesn't feel like tokenization or fetishization and can't be cheesy. the only time i think i was going to include actual multiple lines of dialogue in anther language (spanish), i then changed it so the fic didn't have it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

the first like, true established fandom i wrote for was a song of ice and fire/game of thrones. before that i wrote a lot of bandfic, but mostly for bands and artists who didn't really have any fic or canons. like, 98% of it was private for just me and my ex, but a few of the pieces still exist online here and there.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

i cannot pick favorites. there's so many reasons why something would be a favorite. and i have 147 fics on ao3! plus many things that aren't. plus my unpublished bandfic was some of my best writing. i don't know!

i almost wonder if it's "his return: a story of ghosts" which...i initially wrote as a fic but then changed it up. it was a "magical realism" au based on my undergrad senior thesis, lol. (the most common remark about it in my advanced creative writing seminar was "uh, it sounds like you know what you're talking about.") it's so imperfect, but writing it was SO much fun, and i had a whole soundtrack i listened to as i wrote, and then a few years ago i did a massive edit of it which was even more fun and it's still very imperfect and can't figure out why. i also don't like daniel's name but i named him after 2 ppl i knew at the time and now i can't change it, lol.

OH AND ALSO: granit's first flashback chapter in dangerous AU!

if you write fic, you are tagged, but i definitely tag: @new-berry @protect-daniel-james @fanficburner @purefractals @colorsofmyseason @bsaka7 @arsenalgbt AND ANYONE ELSE I FORGOT please do it if you see it!!!

[zlaelic]

Dejan i Šime after the cup

Soo... I don't do this like ever but I kind of felt like it and maybe someone will like to read it so hear me out peeps:

- after celebrating with fans the whole nt goes to the restaurant together and Šime is trying to put on his usual party maker act and fool around but he's already feeling nostalgic and sad that he won't be seeing his friend anytime soon

- he realises that he's bummed the most about the fact that he won't be able to fool around like this with dejan

- I mean he has friends back home in Spain and all but no one gets him like dejan

- dejan always bringing light hearted fun to the table buut also being caring enough to know when to ask serious questions, and even though everyone thinks of them as the goofball duo, they actually talked a lot about deep shit late in the night

- Šime reflects on these past 50 days and realises he hadn't had this much fun in a long time and he doesn't want it to end

- being roommates for so long and then not even being in the same county, how will he cope???

- he thinks about that while giving Dejo the last hug, and they both don't let go for a while, Dejan being in tune to Šime's emotions after functioning together for so long, and knowing that Šime is worried, so while they're hugging real tight he says quietly: "Brother... This summer we party like crazy, right? You call me whenever you feel like it, you just say, Deki, I've got alcohol, and I fly to Madrid in a matter of hours. You call I come."

- and with that he let's him go and even though Šime is sad he knows they'll surely stay in touch, but he wonders how long till it's acceptable to reach out, beacuse he feels like he'll have a need for Dejan in a few hours 😔

- Šime waking up at 2 in the afternoon barely having the energy to get up but then he plays Marice marice and the mood is there, it's almost as if Dejan too will jump into this duet, he's kind of OK again

- after taking a shower, he sees dejo's simple message that says "esi živ bagudinoo" and he's not just OK, he's awesome

- they keep messaging, they keep @-ing each other their insta stories, and months pass

- it's the beginning of September and Šime is back in Croatia he wanted some time alone, and he got on his boat and sailed to the nearest empty beach, kinda meditating and thinking how he's getting older and still feeling like a child, feeling how this is the peak of his life and how he won't have it this good for much longer, but instead of using it he's alone, listening to the waves, what is he doing

- but nah thinking about this won't get him anywhere, and he doesn't usually let his mind wander around like this

- he takes up his phone and sees that Dejan is in Croatia too, a few islands away!

- he messages him asking to meet up, impulsivly

- of course he's there in no time

- two of them like good old times

- it's like minutes passed since they last hugged

- beers, beers, beers; so much alcohol

- and soon they're all over the boat, Marice marice is blasting, Dejan lost a shirt somewhere, and his balance too falling all around so they just settle on sitting after 5, 6 beers

- they played some UNO for a while but sime just kept taking the cards he didn't like and throwing them over board

- I'm not taking 4 cards Dejane, it's not how this game goes

- it literally is!

- Šime drumming with silverware again while dejan sings 90ies Croatian trash songs

- them commenting who's better Ronaldo or Messi lol

- deciding its neither

- gushing over luka again

- fencing with broomsticks

- somehow Šime fell over the board

- in a second Dejan is in panic, he can barely stand and he can't imagine Sime being able to swim while they're like this

- he's throwing shit at him, stuff he thinks floats, and Šime is laughing his ass off while he's holding onto a small children's floatie and obviously he's somehow less drunk than dejan cus he's successfully gotten to the part of the boat where he can get back up

- he can't pull himself up so Dejan is helping, he's gripping as hard as he can on Šime's tattooed muscles and they both find it hilarious, Dejan's pull is a bit too strong and he finds himself underneath Šime's strong warm body, and they're both wet now

- once Šime rolls off they just lie there and watch the stars

- dejan's upper arm accidentally brushes Šime's hair and he decides to brush his fingers through it

- it turns into a head massage of course

- Šime could just fall asleep like that because it's the most comfortable he's felt since he can remember. He closes his eyes and asks his friend, basically his brother, does he feel more like Saša, Tin ili Kedzo and Dejan bursts into laughter

- "you for real? “

- “I'm dead serious" he pulls up a bit and looks him in the eyes

- well I guess I'm more of a Saša, he was always the most popular one, no?

- yeah, bit of a dick too

- oh fuck off

- that's not a disagreement

- they fall again into a comfortable silence for a while but then it starts getting cold and sime asks dejan if he wants some chocolate cake and they dive in

- while sitting across each other Šime putts his leg between Dejan's legs, they kinda both want physical contact, it's reassuring and warm and it's weird for both of them cuz they call a lot of people their brothers but this is not exactly brotherly, this is different, and they don't know what it is, this free and wild ride they make each other take but they both understand that they will ways be there for each other

- "soo... When are you transferring from that shitty English league they don't appreciate you enough?" Šime says with a smirk. "You'd be much better off in some Spanish club you know"

- "We're litteraly an hour long flight away from each other, it wouldn't kill you to come see me sometimes dragi“ he says with a smile

- "I promise, you'll see me often this year" he says and looks away beacuse he can't take this much affection in Dejan's eyes

- they move to the couch, huddle together and fall asleep peacefully with their hands kind of touching

- it's the most contact they let themselves... at least for now. They're both married, and well.. they live in Croatia, it'd be best to just call each other brothers, and act like it's platonic, and maybe it is, who's to say that a soul mate can't be just platonic

- it's always been simple with them no need to complicate it now

- they're more than capable of channelling all their love through warm tight comforting hugs and that's what they will do

[lovren-la-vida-luka]

Police: you’re under arrest for dangerous driving for carrying three people on one motorcycle

Domo: I- wait, what do you mean THREE?

Police: yes… three…?

Domo: OH GOD OH NO

Police: Sir?

Domo: DEJAN FUCKING FELL OFF

[saint-dominik-of-zadar]

[mandzuking]

Vrsaljko and Lovren are back all is right with the world 😌❤️

[theboywiththedejantattoo]

Šime scores a goal in his first game since March.

Dejan is still buzzing from Zenit's victory over Spartak earlier in the day, but he'll always have time for his Šime.

[Rated E]

[hetapeep41]

I imagined how the team reacted to the hate Deki got after Watford Liverpool

They had all heard about Liverpool’s loss against Watford. They had read the articles, they had seen the tweets and comments on Instagram. Everyone was blaming Dejan : Jürgen Klopp, the fans, journalists… they felt bad for him. They hadn’t heard from him since the game, Šime had tried to call him a couple of times, but he didn’t answer so he called Davor about it but he just said “he feels sad about it”. Šime called Mateo about it knowing that they were the only Vatreni playing in the UK. Mateo said that he was gonna talk to him after Chelsea’s clash with Liverpool the 3th. After that game Sime called him, Mateo just said that he didn’t see him, that he wasn’t even on the bench. Šime called some of the others about it including Zlatko, Danijel, Mario and Vedran, they had all tried to contact him too, having the same luck as him. He had an idea he quickly told them about his idea. He then made a groupchat, with the whole Vatreni including Danijel, Mario and Vedran, if he saw their messages on Whatsapp they would force him to answer,

Šime : Deki please answer

Mario : come on idiot they are worried

Domo : he is too don’t think he isn’t worried too.

Rakitic : come on…

An hour soon passed

Luka : I will get Dalic if you don’t anwer soon

Danijel : Luka don’t

Danijel : but seriously answer fast

He didn’t open his whatsapp that day

Mario : if you don’t answer soon, I will come to the UK and kick your ass

Finally he decided to answer

Dejan : why would you bother

Ante : because you are our friend and our teammate

Dejan : why? Im a terrible footballer the fans are right, why do I even play

Danijel : stop that shit or I’ll hit you with a bottle again

Dejan : but its true, I should quit

Mario : for fuck sakes it wasn’t your fault, those assholes don’t know that you are a good footballer, they just need someone to blame

Luka : Mario is right

Domo : and if you stop we aren’t the idiotic defender duo anymore 😭

Šime : come on Deki, don’t listen to the ‘fans’ like you said about LLoris, those who blame people aren’t fans

Dejan : maybe you are right thank you guys

Sime ended up hugging his best friend when he saw them the 11th of march.

“glad you are back Deki” he said “good to be back was his response.

[addictiveramos]

the commentator: not in the foreground but-

šime: no it's not, it's a goal

the commentator: and he scores here for 4-0-

šime: this is worth four goals! let's go!

***

šime: *watches the match at home*

dejan: *scores*

šime: *fangirl noises* hE sCorEd mY bAby fUcKing sCoreD!! That's what I'm talking about, yes!

[freckles-arelife]

[longeyelashedtragedy]

mare liberum?

mare liberum is an old, old multichapter...i can't even remember the last time i posted a complete chapter, and i think it lost all but one of its regular readers (thank you zuzu, even though you're not reading this). i have no idea if i'll ever finish it, even though some of the remaining 7 or 8 chapters are already drafted.

mare liberum is an au set in fake 19th century fake lisbon, and it's a šejan with past movren. i know, i know, this is sort of vintage, as šejan is no longer a thing and its protagonist (dejan lovren) is sort of...out of favor in the world, but this is fiction and it's an AU so it's fictional fiction. it also features as side characters the 2018 croatia nt squad, and has a lot of really fun cameos from other players as well.

part of why i haven't worked on it is that the end is so sad that when i wrote it i started crying, and another part is that the main character is representing a part of me that i think has kind of been therapised into the past. which is good! in the fic, we have slutty gay Sailor Dejan, who's full of a lot of self-loathing and loneliness. he became a sailor to avoid having to be a gay married man, and whilst at sea his beloved younger brother died of ~consumption (it's the fake 19th century and a sad story, so this is obligatory). he becomes violent and an alcoholic to an extent and feels like he deserves all of this misery and pain, possibly because god is punishing him for his sexual orientation. after an extremely violent altercation with sailor sergio ramos over Mo, dejan has to escape his friends on the ship Anfield and Captain Klopp and miraculously finds the Vatreni, a croatian ship where he finds a happy home. or does he? something is still missing. when they dock in an unnamed city and are stuck there because of this unstopping rainstorm, dejan meets a strange and captivating man at the Gay Sailor Bar and Inn where they are all trapped during the storm. this man is šime, and dejan falls instantly in love with him, but there's just something...off about him that can't be named, and he travels with a crew of very alarming and off-putting individuals. dejan hopes šime's love will be the answer to his problems at long last, but as their feelings deepen and the rain doesn't let up, things grow stranger for sailor dejan. who is this šime--or what is he?

you can read the first 11 chapters here if you're interested. the major character death warnings aren't really for anything but the unpublished last chapter, tho there is some character death throughout. spoilers: in one of the chapters, cronald mcdonald gets gnawed to death by some sort of...mysterious creature.

[kovacissues]

No wonder Dejan got injured, Šime is back from injury...

[sejanscookie]

and then I just think about all those videos Šime has on his phone, but we never saw them.

Ahhh do I ship them?

[saint-dominik-of-zadar]

🤣🤣🤣

[mandzzukic]

[mandzuking]

Had some free time today- here’s some textposts of the boys

[theboywiththedejantattoo]

While on vacation in Italy, Dejan learns something new about Šime.

[Rated: very E, lol.]