#def very trippy

[mayuurx]

Happy (late) birthday Cuckoo!

Cuckoo x The Main Character (Will Wood) just fit like a glove.

Keep doing whatever the unholy hec you're up to. Cause just maybe, it's all about him in the end.

No text version under cut.

[trippygalaxy]

Dream daddy au but its all the dads/dad figures from different LOZ aus

(Ideas in the tags)

[freeuselandonorris]

as a pretty much complete stranger to kinks I ask this with genuine and open curiosity: what is it with piss? like what's that kink all about? admittedly I've been wondering about it and I consider you my local expert on the matter (plus your writing has compelled me to enjoy things I never thought I'd dare to touch so I trust your judgement). is it like a marking/possessiveness thing? or a "that's Me" sort of idea? or something else entirely? I'd like to hear what appeals to you about it if you don't mind indulging me

omg anon if i don’t MIND! this is my dream ask lmao especially on a night where i need a good distraction ty 🙏

below the cut for anyone who followed me for the fanart and light romcom fic and not the hard kink 😭

okay SO. i think piss is one of those weird kinks where there’s a lot of different sub-kinks to it and a lot of motivations for it — like, there’s being pissed on/pissing on someone, there’s drinking it (incl forced drinking) which can also have sub-kinks like some people only like to drink “from the source” whereas others like it from glasses or funnels or bottles or don’t care at all. then you have wetting (pissing yourself, basically), which could be just doing it wherever, in certain clothes, in semi-public. there’s omorashi/desperation, some people really get off on the pain of being desperate and holding for hours. plus there’s stuff like diaper play which is very linked to the ‘little’ space and isn’t something i fuck w personally so i can’t comment on that. but basically what i’m saying is there’s no one motivation for people to be into it and different types of piss play will have different appeals, even to the same person.

personally i am generally pro most kinds piss but my real kink is wetting, specifically while fully-dressed and preferably in pale clothes so the wet patch shows up. that’s something i developed an interest in super early — i can remember being a kid and taking the opportunity to piss through my swimsuit after going to the pool lmao. i think the appeal there is the inherent wrongness of it; it’s very linked to shame, humiliation, degradation and also there’s a lot in there about doing things that are forbidden and go against social conditioning. it’s an insanely trippy feeling to do it in front of someone in particular, personally it’s honestly comparable to drugs in how much of an endorphin kick it gives me.

i do also love pissing on/being pissed on though! and that’s def more what you were mentioning about a sense of possessiveness, although for me it’s more linked again to humiliation, particularly when i’m bottoming for it. i’m a huge fan of bodily fluid play in general and there’s a lot in there about feeling marked, about being a receptacle for someone’s waste fluids, about being objectified — one of the hottest piss scenes i’ve ever experienced was a cnc scene where i had a pillowcase taped over my head and then that got pissed on without warning (we had this kind of play pre negotiated!) and there was something about the combination of being made ‘faceless’ and then that happening to me out of the blue 😵‍💫 there’s a kind of devotional aspect to it, like yes i WILL get on my knees and willingly cover myself in your piss because i adore every aspect of you!

andddd finally there’s just the sensory aspect of it! piss is hot and wet and that can feel really good on your skin when you’re turned on 🤷 and honestly if the person you’re drinking from is well hydrated it doesn’t taste or smell too bad, it’s just kinda salty and a bit umami… it kinda reminds me of miso soup at times lmao. if they’re not hydrated or they’ve had a lot of coffee/beer it can be a bit intense and honestly i have gagged and spat it out sometimes! but that’s kinda hot to me too 🤷

whew that was fun lmao. sometimes i feel like i should start a specific blog for this stuff bc i LOVE talking about it! ask me more kink stuff pls!! anyway anon i hope this kinda explained the appeal to you a bit, ty for the respectful and open minded q 🫡

[youremyheaven]

https://www.tumblr.com/youremyheaven/752744430326448128/hey-i-was-wondering-what-you-said-about-nodals?source=share

Omg! I'm the Mula Sun anon. I haven't experienced this but I sure as hell would want to atleast once in my life. So far no one's been interested in me and def not like that but damn! You're really good at painting a picture like that! 😭

Also pls elaborate if you want to I would love to know more. 🥺

I hope you do <333 you deserve that and more <33 (the fun, healthy part not the other stuff)

and hehe thanku 🤪its my 13yr old wattpad author self coming out lol

idk if you meant elaborate on Nodal chemistry or about my experience with the Swati stellium guy (im assuming the former lmao)

I'll share some experiences I've had with different Nodals

I had an Ardra friend with whom I'd chill with after class and literally for like 5-6 hours, we'd just buy snacks and sit around yapping 😭😭I don't have a clue what our conversations were about, they were just about ...everything..?? time just flew by and we were always laughing :')

A Shatabhisha Sun guy used to be obsessed with me throughout uni,, he was so shamelessly and openly obsessed and even made fun of himself for being that way,, idek but he was really funny and weird af,, he was also UBP Moon so there was some Saturnian weirdness going on but when he got a gf, he asked ME for MY approval??? and he tried his damnest to get me and his gf to properly meet each other and wanted me to give him my honest thoughts??? mans was crazy 😭he was in a long term relationship and was known for being a gentleman but he was sooo weird about me,, i lowkey feel like i shouldve snitched on him to his gf but oh well

Swatis oh lord 😭😩

I know many Swatis and I've always had 🥵🥵chemistry with them

My ex was Swati Sun and oh lordy lord,, when i tell you, that man was like crack cocaine to me. i have never felt that way about anyone and i hope i never will because it was sooo foggy, so dizzying, so unstable and sooo trippy. i literally felt insane and manic. we did have 8h and 12h synastry so it could be that too??? but oh my good lord, i needed him to breathe, i needed him like air, being with him was like having oxygen pumped directly into my bloodstream 😍

The Swati stellium guy from college with whom i also share 12h & 8h synastry 🤡 we had a very obsessive kinda bond but it was different?? instead of feeling foggy, I felt like I was on fire?? prob bc of his other placements,, like 🔥🔥🔥my heart would pound whenever he came around, and THE LOOK IN HIS EYES 😩😩😩I WANT 2 SCREAM

ive actually had meh experiences with Maghas ik irl so I wont get into that (nothing horrible, just meh??? nothing noteworthy)

i havent known too many Ashwinis either 😬but Mulas 😩😩I feel like every Mula I have known has held me in high regard. they've been soooo sweet and kind to me 🥺they've really taken care of me. i'm lowkey not the best at walking (i just trip a lot, idk im clumsy 😭😭) and 2 diff Mula friends from 2 different friend groups always made it a point to hold my hand when we walked??? 😩😩idk if its the dog yoni but Ardras and Mulas have always been so sweet and affectionate to me <33 the Mula girlies were always SOOO considerate and thoughtful<33 love them and wish them well.

[highladyluck]

Season 2, Episode 6 Liveblog

Elayne is getting a puzzle! :D this is such good enrichment for Elaynes

Rand’s secret little smile at ‘you can fight anyone’

“It needs to be healed” creepy but I kinda love it in a fucked up way

Not the pitcher :(

“That’s almost nice” WTF that’s so dehumanizing and so Seanchan

Well that’s almost entirely by the book

Compare/contrast these two chained up figures

Importance of chosen names

This is a much more effective mindfuck then whatever TGH Selene was attempting

Psssst Rand it’s bad when your new girlfriend separates you from your support network

Min you are harshing the vibe

“She broke the 3 oaths?” “Every single one” (Elayne took notes)

Names are a theme

I don’t think I want Lanfear doing me favors

“Many paths through the dark” I do appreciate leaning into the Lanbiguity

Suroth, if the Empress saw how you were toying with her Gardener she’d be very upset, those are Imperial property

Loial, have you considered: Stab them with the plant

We are about to have pitcher problems

The way the a’dam prevents a damane from using things they think of as weapons is a weird twisted echo of the 2nd oath. I’ve wondered if the Oaths would prevent Aes Sedai from making a’dam and I think it would depend on what the Aes Sedai termed a weapon that someone could kill another with.

Yeah this is pure book although the ‘you’re not a person’ line is an extra ouch

“Pour a glass of water” echoing horribly the water-cleaning from the tower

When you deal with the devil, that is actually how it works, I’m afraid

Temple of the Forsaken??? Y’all I need some fic set here. I need Dark Raves honoring Asmodean. I need therapy sessions that make you worse sponsored by the Acolytes of Graendal. I need Moghedonists whispering the sacred crypto wallet keys to each other.

Siuan is probs putting out diplomatic fires in Caemlyn now that they lost Elayne? Or attending Gawyn’s birthday party I guess

Oooh is it the trippy ~TGH dream sequence?

Lmao she calls him Ishy

“See the world as it really is in the World of Dreams” what a fascinating take

Do not ask about Egg!!! this is Lanfear she will make Egg into a flesh balloon for touching you

Smart Rand would be like ‘oh now I know you’re lying [about Egwene being Ishy’s]’ but Idk how smart he is

Oh this is heartbreaking she found the lost sister

Ooooooh are we going to see Bayle again so soon?

Nyneave like ‘I’ll allow it” but only because Elayne is saying what she would have

Elayne is getting a puzzle! :D this is such good enrichment for Elaynes

Awwww what a nice nosy boy who will repeat the contents of the letter

Watch she doesn’t stab you when you look away

Mommy issuessssss

I like the air knives

Because you want a legacy!

Ooooh lesson time. Everyone is barfing in this ep

Rand’s secret little smile at ‘you can fight anyone’

Oh god [MY BOYS!!!]

KISS!!! -ok moment’s gone

Mat and his lil grabby hand on Rand’s shoulder, my tactile boy

‘Some of the damane can sense people channeling’ guess we def changed the lore about how channelers sense each other, mildly annoyed about that, but it’s consistent within the show

That’s smart, trying to see the catch in the water like a mirror

Exercising power

Oooof that’s a new twist “I hope they told you at your White Tower how special you are”

Renna are you going to make her set it on fire??? The thing that comforts her? [post-ep I was thinking about the contrast in how the Seanchan command Loial and his tree powers- they are uncomfortable with it and have to ruin the moment. They don’t have the same power over him without tools.]

Well that was an uncomfortably sexually charged moment of excited panting [please tell me it wasn’t just me]

Proud of you, Egwene <3 Hah you made Renna mad good for you

Elayne: “I need a bestie real bad”

Mat gets it because Mat also has The Depression

RESCUE TIME

Min is like I am here to give you bad news, as is my fate

Mat’s good at bullshit detecting & does not handle betrayal well

This is very sweet but I feel like the subtext is “You will be eaten alive as king”

Pope hat

Oh my boys they are so sad

It’s time for… [Alanna and her posse corner Rand] OH SHIT IS IT HAPPENING?

I don’t think Nyneave does modulation

“It needs to be healed” creepy but I kinda love it in a fucked up way

Ooooof next time we see Ryma she’ll be with my Most Problematic Of Faves I guess 🫣😬☹️

This series loves to hang characters and if it can’t get Mat than anyone else will do

[Renna pours out the cup Egwene just filled] Oh fuuuuuuuck you Renna

You still won. You’re still alive

Our lost Blue Sitter coming in at the clutch

[ravetaper]

Mark Farina Halloween 2015 Live Set

This is a 3-hour audio recording of Mark Farina Halloween 2015 live set recorded in Orange County, California, on October 31, 2015.

Mark F'ing Farina. Easily in the top 5 deep house dj's. Probably in the top three. Maybe in the top 2?

Come on. I've never heard someone deliver such deep funk so consistently. Every. Single. Time.

So this is an interesting recording. It's not from my archive of classic rave recordings, nor something recorded recently. This is the audio counterpart to a live video stream I did all the way back in 2015.

Today, post Covid, the mention of live streaming elicits not even a yawn, we are so desensitized to it by now. For obvious reasons, the real streaming revolution happened 2019-2021. So I consider it a little feather in my cap that Rave Tapes was running good-sounding, multi-cam streams long before the trend took off.

The event? A cozy Halloween party hosted by Swerve Underground, the monthly event hosted by producer/dj Wally Callerio of Dufflebag Recordings and partner/dj 1st Nature. Wally has been a respected producer for years and had the right connections to pull some amazing names down to their Orange County venue, an hour south of Los Angeles. Names like Dereck Carter, Doc Martin, and other titans of the deep house movement.

So when the opportunity came up to do a live video stream of their Halloween party, taking place in a cool bohemian art space, with special guest Mark Farina? Pfft. It was the chance I had been waiting for, lol!

So, miraculously, the whole thing went off almost without a hitch. I say almost because I believe power was cut to the decks at one point. But considering it was a 2+ hour set, we forgot about it almost instantly after power was restored. Otherwise, the internet connection was good, my gear held up. It happened. In fact, here's the video evidence:

So this is the audio to that. While the audio in the YouTube version sounds unbelievably clean, this sounds even better. I finally went back and properly mixed the four audio channels, left-right stereo pair from the dj decks, then left-right stereo pair from the room mic.

It sounds absolutely pristine, if I do say so myself. I had to decide how loud to keep the mic levels vs the feed from the dj mixer. I think I am happy with these levels but I might change my mind and update the file at some point.

The content? Well, it's good ol' reliable Mark Farina. Of course every dj has a "look" and Farina certainly has his trademark glasses and scruffy chin. But man, when you see that familiar visage behind the decks and hear the funky bass line over the system, you know you have nothing to worry about. You know you're in for a good time.

Last time I saw Farina was EDC 2022 Bionic Jungle stage. It was very late Sat night. Actually very early morning Sunday about 4 am. Still dark and trippy.

Saturday. Hump day. People are grinding in more ways than one. And Mark is closing out little Bionic Jungle. I don't mean little in a condescending way. Actually, the inconspicuousness of the stage is what made it so great. It was def an intimate space and you could get right up close to your favorite deep house dj's. My only issue that night was that it wasn't going to yield a complete Rave Tapes recording. Yes, I recorded while I danced there. But knew I was arriving late because of another set, and I knew I was leaving early because I don't like getting stuck in parking. While there may have been an hour of material, the other issue was there was a nasty buzzing coming from some vibrating stage rigging.

So that's probably why I'm mentioning EDC here, because it's a good opportunity to discuss it since there will never be a Rave Tapes recording from that night to link it to.

I guess my point is, be it at Swerve Halloween 2015, EDC 2022, or the other times I've heard Farina play, Farina always, ALWAYS, delivers a top shelf performance.

While I'm always eager to bring these live sets to you for the sake of your listening pleasure, truth be told, I get excited when posting these because in most cases it's the first time I get to have easy SoundCloud access to the mixes, too.

And with this one, I'm over-the-moon thrilled for completely selfish reasons ;)

Nevertheless, please enjoy!

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[atzfilm]

wonderwall is SOOOOO good!!! i’m def in love

i will say tho, it is VERY trippy seeing my name in a story about fae (i’m a witch in real life, and my name is Solaris!!)

OMG !? the coincidence is crazy actually 🤭🤭 THANK U FOR ENJOYING ♡♡♡♡

[destinyc1020]

lakeith stanfield has a limited series releasing next week he could get some buzz, I think colin farrell has something coming out with apple I think called sugar. Though i actually think the biggest competition for tom might be mark ruffalo whose starring in all the light we cannot see which is a ww2 netflix mini series and we know them ww2 shows get very favourable nods.

Oh! I've seen the trailer for that new Lakeith Stanfield series coming out. Looks trippy!! 🤣

Looks interesting, but yea, def not what I expected lol 😆

I wasn't aware of Colin's project.

Anything with WW2 is going to get some nods rofl 🤣

But some of these might be in various categories. I won't worry about it. But it should be a good awards season! 😃👍🏾

[manonamora-if-reviews]

Boing! by tumbolia

A Single Choice Jam entry.

Entry - IFDB Note: this seems to be the author's first game

Break the cycle This last-submitted parser for the jam is a bit of an intricate puzzle, requiring the player to read the prompts very carefully to find the solution... or they will be yoinked back to the start. The game is built in one room, where the player can do different action in hopes to reach the end - a sort of Aisle meets escape room, where there is only one true action to solve the puzzle. And so, you are an investigator (maybe?) stuck in some sort of loop (if you could remember why you are here, it would be greeeaaat), in a subway station, next to a vending machine, surrounded by some critters... and plagued by very strange and prophetic dreams (you really should take note of those). The twist/explanation of the ending is kind of nonsensical and very trippy, very on point from the rest of the game. It is both confusing and hilarious. I'm glad I played this last.

I think it could do with a little walkthrough or maybe hints :P I def needed help to get to the end, though I had been thiiiiis close with one of the command...

[anosci]

(256-270 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19])

names and thoughts below cut

256/ BLÆRG - Solace Vertex (2016) feel a little like a groovier kind of chrome cylinder. unfolding perhaps. "The Dodecahedonist" ez standout. love the spacious vibes.

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257/ VA - Nocturnal Edge 3 (2023) this. is trippy. psy without the trance. check out the bass in "Reina"! the dist in "bizarre invention" god damn "yag si urowak" will rinse your brain. it feels a bit like how breakcore felt when the genre was new to me.

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258/ Juggernaut - Immortal (2023) some mixtures of adjacent clubby genres honestly pretty cool even if it doesn't entirely vibe with me. the one track that really stands out to me is "Invoke", for how it brings the guitars. its kinda like an alt reality retro infected mushroom

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259/ Super Shrimp - Popcorn Shrimp (2023) (listening first track) oh this is silly. yeah its a playful little thing. imo there are two reasons to tune in: "It's So For You" for a bit of a juke throwback and "leaves" for its soft beauty. that one's my favorite, ez.

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260/ VA - Atelier Tunes vol.5 (2023) a variety of clubby tunes. "condemnation!!" stands out to me. nice vocaloid tune with the DISTEST BEAT. good shit! i admire the plucky flavor that "Angelic Mirage Field" brought to (ostensibly) dnb

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261/ C-Show - C-Show House Collection Vol.1 (2023) houzzzzzzzz "Let It Drop" touches all the fun bases: M1, sax, wob. that's prolly my fav track but its all around good vibes in here

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262/ icesawder - 新生生活DREAM (2023) i love the attitude in this. it's loud. it packs a punch. the coring of my breaks in "axex" :') the massive chords in "abrandnew…" !!! the push-pull in "dori-min" :O this whole album is a standout among M3-51 imo. banger after banger

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263/ Phasma - H-N Label Sampler (2023) this brings some 00sidm-ish clicky beats + floating pads rly not what i was expecting from "hype nation" but it's lovely "AxSQ" like cmon. this could be from merck. "New Pattern (Phasma Remix)" sounds like smth youd hear on warp today.

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264/ VA - Aquarium (2023) lush tunes with a smooth future sound. the mix of soundscapes (plinky arps, big bass, orch stac, and pitched vox) in "Wastmundia" stands out as a sweet fav to me. even tho dnb lol "Orca" has a really cool vibe. fresh. "Challenger" is… fzgx if i may.

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265/ 7mai - Colorful Palette : Gray (2023) rly shiny and bright tunes! "Pearl" is so good. SU vibes in a cool cool way. piano & midtempo beats. ez fav of the bunch "CUTE-Mythology" is a close second but like. u cant beat that sweet piano sheen

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266/ Aice room - IT's U (2023) the last two tracks here are where its at. "Miss U" clicks with me idk why. its good ok lol but then "Need U" goes hard. also specific shoutout to the mingling of the chord textures and melody at 34s

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267/ Current Value - Beneath the Sonics (2023) challenging my "i dont like dnb" stance with rly good sound design and nrg. "Monster" god damb also…. whatever tf you call that wonky vibe in "Against". A+ fav

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268/ Nathan Micay - To The God Named Dream (2023) really weird: this reaches into trance vibes (and timbres) that i just dont like. but only sometimes. "Fangs" is very much my personal highlight: cool vox! call and response! breaks! "It’s Recess Everywhere" runnerup

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269/ Aphex Twin - London 19.08.23 (2023) 3 new tracks out of nowhere! "Soog E" is simple but effective at grabbing a sort of analog afx feel. analord feel? fav. "Body Pads" is wacky for its tonality, close 2nd fav. that only leaves 1 other track lol. its alright. a lil empty imo

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270/ SDEM - IIRC (2019) "i want more like autechre" and this delivers while being its own thing. kinda wish "Kaelie" weren't so high pitched bc its good otherwise "Pranging" is def my fav here, despite "Usens" being the bangeringest.

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[strangcbchavior]

( michael cimino / 23 / cis man / he/him ) — did you see HOPE'S MERCER'S BOYFRIEND'S BROTHER, CHASEN KING-REYES, wandering around the mercer hollow today? i heard around town that the BIKE MECHANIC/STUDENT is QUICK-WITTED, and PERTINACIOUS, but also RASH, and CAGEY. people say that they remind them of THE SOFT FLUTTER OF TURNING PAGES, RUNNING RED LIGHTS, and BATTERED LEATHER JACKETS, but how well can you ever really know someone in mercer hollow? ( jay / 26 / mst / she/her)

✧*･ﾟ𝒃𝒊𝒐𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒚

up until he was eight, chasen was cj king. the only people that were ever allowed to call him that were his parents: marian and waylon king. his mom was a physics teacher at the high school two blocks away from their cute, little two-story house in the suburbs. his father owned a landscaping company and planted the azalea bushes underneath the tree house he built with chasen the summer he turned six. it was pretty close to perfect—and then his parents died in a car crash.

the only family he had left was his grandma with early-onset dementia and his uncle with a drinking problem, so he went into the oregeon foster care system. after bouncing around from home to home for a few years ( no family waned a sullen selective-mute who liked percy shelley and edgar allen poe for long ), chasen was dumped into the place for all the old and unwanted kids like him: a group home. he learned pretty quickly that you couldn’t be the kid with the extensive poetry collection in a group home—and you couldn’t cry, not even quietly into your pillow at night. chasen wasn’t interested in being anywhere in the food chain, but he wasn’t going to be the kid who got pushed around, so he laid a kid out with a punch to the gut on his third day there and kicked him until he stopped smirking. he lost his privileges for a month, but it was worth it to be left alone.

when he was fifteen, a strange lady showed up at the home with an even stranger man. apparently, his father wasn't his father. trippy. looking back, it was kind of obvious. people always asked the white couple where they adopted their brown son from. but his dad was his dad, and mr. reyes was just a rich guy who his uncle tried to extort. for a long time, chasen wished that mr. reyes would've just payed his uncle off and left him alone, but things got better slowly. his siblings were...weird, but his dad ended up being kind of cool.

chasen did very well in school, despite transferring so often as a kid. his only friends were books, and he liked it that way. he got a full-ride to liberty after graduating first in his class, and he never looked back.

thanks to his mom, chasen had an early relationship with science. he liked working with his hands and figuring out how to take things apart and put them back together again. it was only natural that he went into mechanical engineering. he started fixing bikes at the local garage for spare change while he worked on getting his masters.

✧*･ﾟ𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕

character inspo: ron swanson ( parks and rec ), oscar martinez ( the office ), jason todd ( dc comics ), jess mariano ( gilmore girls ), buttercup ( powerpuff girls ), bob belcher ( bob’s burgers ), louise belcher ( bob's burgers )

chasen likes to keep to himself. if you don’t bother him, he has no reason to bother you, but if you poke the bear...watch out.

he has a quick-temper, but he always tries to punch a wall instead of a person lmao. progress is progress, okay. 

he’s usually pretty quiet, and he unfortunately ( or fortunately in his opinion ) has resting bitch face. when he does speak, he is usually being sarcastic or deadpan. def not a people-person, but he’s weirdly good with kids and great with animals bc they lack any pretense lmao.

is a little shit around people he knows well. classic baby of the family shit.  

loves poetry and literature ( the romantic, victorian, and modern eras, specifically ), but he doesn’t talk about that lmao. he’s a lot more likely to talk about the cars he restores in his spare time or video games.

not a sports person, but he works out religiously for “health reasons.”

he hates being in charge, but he also hates being told what to do. his ideal work environment is being given a task and a deadline to complete it by without any instructions he needs to follow lmao. he’ll get it done, but he’ll do it his way. 

he’s used to people having a certain perception about him, so he usually keeps the smart thing to himself. bc. no one expects anything from an idiot with anger management issues. 

oh yeah. he has major anger management issues. in fact, he’s currently IN anger management rn for punching a douche at his dad's last gala 

has a v ‘eat the rich’ attitude from growing up lower working class, but now he is rich, so. it's weird. he doesn't like it lmao. 

he as a not-so secret soft side if you ever see him with kids or animals.

most of his bluster is a giant show for the people around him, and that’s why it’s so obnoxiously loud.

[authoralexharvey]

Hi Alex!! Happy WBW!!!

When we were doing sprints the other day, we were talking about Fantasy Drugs, and I've been curious ever since about what kinds you've made for the world of ASMLP+ (and any of your other worlds)!! What does it feel like with the mind link drug?? Are there any weird side effects to it?? How much of the mind is linked - like can you feel the same sensations? Is it just the surface level thoughts? If one of you thinks in images and the other in words, does the drug "translate" the thoughts?? And are there other drugs you've thought up??

I hope you have a lovely rest of your day!!!

- @magic-is-something-we-create

For obvious reasons, content warning for drug discussions--both real and made-up.

Hey Pax! Happy WBW! I'm excited to talk about this.

So the drug taking center stage is called Serenity. It is a viscous slime that can be dried and mixed into things or drunk outright--but it's not the most pleasant substance to consume. Nadia often mixes it into tea or pudding (chia seed pudding is a similar texture) to make it tolerable.

In legal circumstances, it is a drug used in psychiatric spaces that is prescribed by therapists to help their patients SAFELY explore memories. Best results happen when all parties have consumed Serenity, but it can work if someone takes a high enough dose and gets close enough proximity to the person whose mind they want to answer. This can be difficult, however, especially if the person whose mind they want to explore knows how to shield their own thoughts--magically or otherwise. The dosages either way are closely monitored. There aren't many effects aside from the ability to... blend thoughts, as it were. Serenity dulls the senses some, there is some research to suggest it can be a very mild antidepressant as well as a mild pain reliever.

In illegal circumstances, however, things get more interesting. People in these circumstances tend to take it at unregulated dosages, so the effects are more enhanced. Going back to Nadia, she takes it because at higher levels, all the effects get enhanced... including the whole "mind melding" thing. Because it is, effectively, melding minds. For until Serenity wears off, you and the people with you can... essentially enter each other's bodies. I actually just finished writing a super trippy sex scene with this in mind. It's mostly uncontrollable--in said scene, Nadia blinks in and out of being within herself, being within Simone, and some odd middle ground. They also pass each other thoughts like classroom notes lol all together it's... well, it's a trip.

I based a lot of it off the one time I did LSD to be honest. It was an absolutely bizarre experience. Severe dissociation, a sensory nightmare, felt like I was understanding something about the universe that I can no longer recall and that if I just pushed a little farther, I could leave myself for a while.

(also, a secret no one wants to know, Serenity is derived from the same miasma that makes monsters.)

I haven't yet thought of other substances--I'm kinda attached to this one tbh--but I def want to think of some more especially in religious settings. Something something trance work to get closer to the Gods.

[judasofsuburbia]

⭐ on to a world where madness craves

omg hey alex!! i sent u one of these too so lmk if u didn't get it<3

to a world where madness craves

SO very obvious from the title to references in the dialogue, i drew a lot of inspiration from twilight BUT i craved a darker supernatural aspect like the upside down and the emotions of eddie being "left behind". i struggled a lot writing chapter two (hence why it came out like two months after the first one lmao) bc i wanted eddie to be hesitant around steve but still have this intimidating supernatural presence about him. that's why i wrote steve begging encouraging eddie to kiss him anyway even if he thinks he'll hurt steve. steve is def not one to victimize himself or be the vulnerable one in a group but he is a fighter so this is the little dance that they do:

“Do you like being my prey, little lamb?” Eddie whispers huskily. Steve whines. 

Eddie drags his thumb down so he’s gripping Steve’s chin, forcing him to look up. Eddie takes a deep breath and smiles like a shark. “That’s new. Oh, Stevie, I can smell you. I can smell how turned on you are, if the pressure up against my thigh wasn't enough.” Eddie’s other hand trails down to rest on Steve’s bare chest, right over his heart. It’s beating like it wants to come out of Steve’s ribs and into Eddie’s hand. 

Eddie hums, contemplative. “Steve Harrington, unafraid of the big, bad wolf.”

“You’re not bad,” Steve weakly manages to get out. 

“Keep telling yourself that,” Eddie huffs through a laugh. 

“Can’t…can’t be bad if I want you to…” Steve stammers, pushing his face up to try and kiss Eddie again. 

“If you want me to do what?” 

“Touch me. Hurt me. Take me,” Steve admits, a blush warming his face. 

Eddie sucks his teeth, his fangs , and tilts his head. “Let’s get you to bed.”

it's one: yes, he's in love with eddie but also two: he wants to prove that he's strong enough to handle eddie like this so eddie feels better about himself and won't run away from his newfound safety.

if we go with the twilight analogy here, it's like steve is bella saying "i'm not scared of you" in his bedroom and eddie (edward, isn't that trippy?) being like "well you really shouldn't have said that"

very feral about dark! kas eddie having moments and flashes of the sweet boy he was before<333

[sock-to-the-third]

The Fifth Season

By N.K. Jemisin

Disclaimer: discussion of child abuse, s3xual assault of an adult, child loss, racism (by a white reader)

When a book has so many good things going for it, where do you even start?

I’m still reeling from the ending. Fuck, I knew it’d be a bit bitter but it got me, oh, it’s got me wrapped right around it’s finger. The Fifth Season is definitely my favorite book now and I have a feeling that Jemisin is going to be one of my favorite authors along with Le Guin.

1. Style

First thing’s first, I love mythology styled stories. The Stillness operates around these stone tablets called “Stone Lore” that aid people in surviving a world regularly wrecked by earth quakes and tremors.

It starts out with this almost story book field then blooms into a very harsh fantasy setting but even that does it a diservice.

It’s like trying to grasp sand with your hands. Nothing feels adequate to describe just how vividly Jemisin describes Stillness with a combination of direct description, how people interact, the vocabulary, and the unique conventions like the view of orogenes as inherently bad.

2. Storytelling

Non-linear story telling but you don’t even know it. I must’ve gotten to 3/4s the way through the book before the Damaya is Syen discover hit and FUCK! That was made cool, on top of that, revealing where the obelisks came from???? Very radical. Loved it!

Then just how all the storylines converge just— it is so satisfying. If someone is reading this— go read the book (research tws first) but - i can’t sing the praises loud enough of how amazing Jemisin did with this.

It’s not because it felt like a surprise but just how Jemisin took the time threading together these three perspectives in such a careful intricate manner that you feel it so hard. It’s one of those books best taken 50-70 pages at a time because anymore and it’s overwelming.

You just can always feeling the weight that is hanging on this characters, even in those happy moments and damn do those moments hit so well.

…

3. Racism

Like I said, I’m white so I don’t feel like I can comment on this except to say that fantasy/scifi dealings with it are interesting and I hope to read more about it cuz like wow, in a different context it really highlights a lot of things I never considered. Like how ingrained it would be to the point of regularly picking out the “desired” traits of a person cuz I’m sure I do that subconsciously but seeing the subconscious conscious is trippy.

That’s all I feel like I can say without putting my foot in my mouth.

4. QUEER STUFF! FUCK YEAH!

Not sure what Innon, Syen or Alabaster’s sexualities are but it is certainly fun seeing strong charismatic folks like Innon being interested in both men and women. I feel like there’s not much of that in media with stereotypically masculine folks. I bet it’s even less for POCs.

On top of that, we have some polyamory! And they raise a kid! TvT and it’s like a situation where the whole village helps and it’s cute and adorable.

Some of my favorite chapters since its such a ray of sunshine in a pretty intense book.

Though, if I could tell my past self anything before reading I’d warn about

1. Non-Con Breeding: it isn’t violent in the stereotypical sense but it gets under your skin. First time it happens especially since it looks consensual even though it’s coerced by the Fulcrum.

2. Child abu*se: you kinda see it coming with Damaya and Scaffa but not to the extent, plus with how eerily realistic it feels, it hits hard. Had to stop for a bit.

3. Child loss: self explanatory.

Normally I can read a book of this size (480~ pages) in 3-4 days. This took me over a week because I had to pace myself, especially in the beginning 200 pages.

I’m super glad I read it. First book I figured out to pace myself too which helped. I definitely plan to co-read books like this with something lighter (def can’t fall asleep reading The Fifth Season).

Overall, like I said, loved it. The writing, characters, storytelling style to the little quotes from the verses and other in-universe scripts made it feel so alive.

Sequel: The Obelisk Gate

[bisluthq]

the it wasnt sexy until it wasnt forbidden is from mattys pov dumbass anon 😭 like he dipped once she was all in on them being together….

if we wanna label people as cheaters based off of song lyrics tho then mr joe alwyn is a big big cheater according to the lyrics on hoax because how do you explain “your faithless love is the only hoax i believe in”? 🤠

taylor mentioning a “her” in the great war and sll…i could go on and on

either label both as cheaters or accept the fact that we will probably never know what exactly happened them and stop making assumptions

?? How is it from Matty’s POV??? “And I'll say, "Good riddance" / 'Cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden” when does it change from I back to him speaking and why would you think that??? She says she doesn’t know why he dipped (she offers a lot of theories up) and then she says when he finally tells her in fifty years time she’ll answer good riddance because it wasn’t sexy once it wasn’t forbidden. Pretty straightforward lyric dude. Also why would it be forbidden for Matty lmao like he was single/fucking around. He could fuck or talk to whoever tf he wanted to. SHE was the one who wasn’t supposed to be with him.

hoax is a very complicated songs about multiple situations all interwoven together and she’s said this verbatim. It’s a pretty song and it was her trying to do something different and just write lyrically and beautifully about many different things to that track so idk that I’d take any of it literally. It’s giving that one anon who keeps saying she “confesses” to being a functional alcoholic in Fortnight (she does probably drink too much but she absolutely confessed no such thing - the whole song is very very very metaphorical and set in a fantasy tbh).

The Great War quite clearly says she accused him of shit he didn’t do (which she’s said lyrically repeatedly - that’s also the premise of Afterglow). Now, maybe he’s the best most ninja cheater ever and very good at gaslighting but I struggle to believe that she spent YEARS trying to catch him and never did and no one ever stepped forward to be like “yeah I at minimum talked to him here are the screenshots” either while they were together or after the breakup. We KNOW who Taylor cheated with. Joe cheated with… figments of people’s imagination. (And I HAVE SAID many, many times that evidently there’s something he was doing wrong because she wasn’t able to get over her insecurities and jealousies for sooo many years so clearly he either has poor boundaries with female friends, or he’s just got a very flirtatious manner, or something but that shit’s def on him - doesn’t mean he ever did anything but it’s fucked that she spent that many years worried about it).

In SLL she talks about how he’s with her in HIS DREAMS dude loooool like idk man. She was emotionally cheating on him and had been worried about many girls since the beginning. It sounds more like projection than something she figured out. (And she acknowledges that because it’s “you’ll find someone” not “you’ve found someone” whereas SHE HAD found someone). Also what’s so trippy about emotional cheating (which is what she accuses him of there) is you can’t possibly know unless they get together with the other person or they tell you (and there’s no way Joe told her). So like… how could she know who is with him in his dreams? 😩 It’s probably like young Marion Cotillard lmao but that doesn’t mean he’s a time traveler fucking young Marion Cotillard 😩😩😭😭

We won’t ever know exactly what happened but here’s what we do know with zero assumptions: Taylor at least emotionally cheated and dumped Joe to be with Matty. Joe is willing to go on record to say from his end it was a fully committed relationship for six and a half years (sure, he could be lying but like why lol?) Taylor previously accused him of things he didn’t do and was irrationally jealous (per her lyrics - or as I said earlier he’s the best gaslighter in the world lol). Some assumption but really minimal: something about how Joe behaves made her super insecure and act a bit psycho and yes that’s also on him.

Also humor me - why would it be better from Taylor’s end if he was also cheating? Let’s say he was and she could prove it. Why didn’t she just… leave lol. Why did she get her own side piece? How are you defending her by being like “well maybe he was cheating too because the voices in her walls told her so” - maybe he was lol idk, why didn’t she just leave then? I’m reminded of that anon who tried to defend Joe by saying “maybe he never even proposed” like okay maybe so that makes him a worse person. Maybe Joe did cheat first but Taylor’s cheating still makes her a shitty person and if she stayed while he was cheating and got her own side piece it makes her kinda stupid to boot and also idk why she wouldn’t just flat out say it and tell us what he did and how she caught him.

[ashtray-girl]

Recommend some Clarice Lispector books please

so far i've only read "an apprenticeship or the book of pleasures" & "the passion according to g.h."! i enjoyed both very much but they're def not for everyone, "the passion according to g.h." is especially trippy, even tho i think it's one of her most well-known novels... i've also been tentatively dipping my toes into her "collected stories". i'm generally not a fan of short stories' collections as i find them a bit too hit or miss, but she has such a compelling style, & the few of them i've read so far have all been so captivating, i feel like i need to dig more into that... oh & i've also recently bought "near to the wild heart", but i haven't read that yet