#dear diary 🧸

[desi-girll]

TW: don't read if you don't want to know about self harm, but again, this is a positive post because it's about recovery, so nothing very explicit... but again, please don't read if you might get triggered <3

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Dear diary 🧸,

so, today is a big day for me. and when i say big, i mean it in a really really proud way.

because

today, 17th September 2024, marks one year of me being clean from self harm ♡

and i feel like the credit for this one goes entirely to me. last year and before that, my mental health was a shitshow. i was in a toxic friend group, very very insecure of my body, and thought that maybe I'm doomed to be be "ugly" girl. then, of course, the pressure of being a 11th grade science student. i'm sure most of the ones who have been, can relate? parents not understanding, marks not upto our expectations, exams, assignments and what not. so much pressure. but maybe it was just me who couldn't deal with the pressure and got more addicted to something I'd already been doing for 2 years prior to that.

on september 17th, 2023, getting a 4 out of 30 in physics? let's cut again, in the bathroom. believe me, i was addicted to the feel of the sharp compass needle against my skin. to this day, although healed, i still regret the feel of the scars on my thighs. i wish i hadn't ruined God's gift like that. i really do. but maybe it'll go away with time.

so, anyways, on that day suddenly i decided i don't wanna be like this anymore. i wanna heal myself and my relationship with my body. so i just kinda stopped. and trust me, it wasn't easy. so many times, i just randomly started thinking about how good it used to feel, sometimes my emotions were so strong that it was really hard to not start again but now i know how to restrain myself. i know a little bit of self control.

moreover, what really helped in boosting my self esteem was working out. i never that the solution to a positive body image for me maybe to move around and yknow, exercise a lil. and now, what motivates me the most is when i hear compliments from the same people who used to pass comments about my body before. i actually love my body now, or am trying my best to, because unlike one year prior, i'm really fucking fit and healthy now <3

so yes, that's the story and i hope this 1 year can progress to 2, then 3, then 4 and then slowly be a thing i struggled with, in my teenage years but then taught myself a way out of it.

for those of yall out there, struggling with any kind of self destructive behavior, be safe please. i promise you, there are so many ways to heal and recovery is one hundred percent possible ♡

love,

me

[juneberrie]

— 🛼 fave place to kiss you

pairing: percy jackson; annabeth chase; hazel levesque; frank zhang; leo valdez; piper mclean; jason grace x gn!reader

percy jackson

probably ur cheek 🫶🏻 he'll be passing by you on his way to sword practice and just press a kiss to ur cheek. as he walks away he'll call back, "love you! see you later, babe."

annabeth chase

the top of ur head. you two will be cuddling, you laying on her chest as she reads to you, and she'll just look down and kiss the top of your head <3

leo valdez

anywhere at all tbh, but especially the place where your shoulder meets your neck. he'll just come up behind you and wrap his arms around you and then kiss 😚 kiss 😚 kiss 😚

frank zhang

forehead forehead forehead !! hes sooo tall and he just loves to press lil kisses on ur forehead <3 he'll gently tilt ur head up and *kith* usually followed by a murmured, shy "i love you <3"

hazel levesque

honestly i think she'd love kissing your nose <3 if ur tall (couldn't be me) she'll stand up on her toes and just *kiss* but if you're short she'll js like grab ur face and kiss ur nose

piper mclean

jaw kisses from piper >>> she'll go up to you like "hey babe" and just press a kiss to your jaw, especially like where your jaw meets ur ear? idk but ykwim lol

jason grace

i feel like jason would just loooovvee kissing your hand/palm. he's such a gentleman <3 like you guys will just be chillin, holding hands, and then he just brings your hand to his lips and then mwah. and then he'll look away w a lil blush and just <3

[idollete]

RICHARD RÍOSSSSSSSSSS EU TÔ NO CIO QUEM PERMITIIU ESSE VÍDEO QUEM PERMITIIU

a cara de TRASTE fazendo o nãozinho ele sabe que tem toda buceta que quiser ele SABEEEEEEEEE

[beatheprincess]

I have to be more patient with myself ♡

[ashxxgyu]

ugh why must he be cute

[cyberfunsupporter]

this will heal every disease. Listen to it or you’ll die and not even happily… ok this will bring the rapture

[lambsacrifices]

⁀➷ 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒏 / 𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒃 ⊹ he/they ⊹ bi femme boy

hello lovelies ꒰ ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ꒱ ♡

i’m lamb, welcome to my little pink and lace filled bedroom, here i’ll be reblogging pretty and soft things, as well as posting my own photos and diary entries ! 💗💕

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make yourself cozy & enjoy your stay here ❣️

[darling-im-wonderstruck]

currently at the mall and very tired and very much missing jay

[impissimshitimlessthannothing]

girl dinner ♡

[ssongsboo]

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[desi-girll]

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Dear diary 🧸,

i tapped some ass today (not really... well kinda really if taken literally) .. watch the video with the audio to enjoy it in full context but the gifs save your time soo yeah)

storytime

so basically today was our last day of school before pre boards. and so we were having fun. now, before i carry on, let's give yall some flashback: last year on the first day of class 11, there was this new student and i found them smoking hot. so my first ever line, to them, was, "hey, i don't do friends but you are crazy hot and i'd love to tap that ass". i don't know if satan had possessed me to make me say that but anyways, it was a riot for weeks afterwards. so today, on the last day of class 12, my friends while reminiscing the memories, remembered my famous dialogue, aaaand safe to say, practically coerced me into tapping (i know the innuendo here, but chill out, just tapping) the said ass. and so here am i, tapping the crazy hot ass but panicking like shit lmaoo

while doing all this tapping business, i also asked "do i do it hard or soft?" can yall believe me? i can't.

love,

me

[juneberrie]

i don't want you like a best friend - cato hadley

₊˚ʚ 🌱 ₊˚✧ ﾟ. cato hadley x fem!reader

author's note — ꩜ oooooh my first cato fic!! i hope you guys like it ♡

word count — ☆ 1.2k

warnings — ✦ooc clove probably, cato calling reader "shortstack"

the world stopped when his name was called. my lungs seem to shrink in my chest and my surroundings start to spin. he can't go, he can't go into the games. he can't leave me.

cato steps up to the stage, weaving through the crowd of people. he stands there as some capitol person rifled through the other glass bowl, searching for some poor girls name. he locks eyes with me and shakes his head ever so slightly.

"clove kentwell," the announcer says. a young girl starts to walk forward but before she even made it three feet i scream.

"i volunteer! i volunteer!" i push forward, risking a glance at the girl, clove, who glares at me before realizing why i volunteered. she sighs and gestures for me to proceed.

on wobbly feet, i step up to the stage next to cato. he doesn't even listen to the announcer's speech about the honor we'll bring to our district and what not. he turns to me with a look that says i'm going to kill you and thank you at the same time.

we're ushered into the building and corralled into separate rooms. cato looks back at me with an unreadable expression before the peacekeepers shove us both behind doors.

two minutes pass, but nobody comes in to say goodbye to me. i sigh and turn to the window before hearing the door open. through the reflection in the window, i see clove standing there, flanked by peacekeepers.

i turn to face her and we size each other up before she says something. "so, you and cato?"

immediately i feel my face heat up. "no- i mean, we're friends, is all. nothin' else."

she laughs and takes a step towards me. "sure. anyways, i wanted to wish you luck."

"you're not... mad? that i volunteered for you?" her name clicks and suddenly i register who she is. clove kentwell, one of the academy's top fighters. she's on track to volunteer and become a victor before she's even 17, and she would've become one of the youngest victors if i hadn't volunteered.

"i mean, i'm kind of pissed, but i get more training. better odds of winning next year," she states. one of the peacekeepers informs us that her time is up, and as she walks out of the room, she calls over her shoulder, "may the odds be ever in your favor, lovergirl."

after a while, the peacekeepers escort me and cato into the train station, where his family and clove stand at the front of the crowd. as the train pulls out of the station, cato's little sister screams his name, waving her arms wildly at her brother, and he waves back with a giddy smile. clove catches my eye and winks, and i roll my eyes and turn away from the window.

enobaria stands behind us, along with the announcer, whos name i learn is florentino. she quickly explains what will happen when we get to the capitol; the parade, the training, the interviews. she tells us to start thinking of ideas for angles we could use in the interviews, then instructs us to get something to eat and rest before we arrive.

she and florentino disappear behind a door, leaving me and cato alone.

i make a beeline to the mini-buffet laid out on the table and grab some sort of roll, which when i bite into it, is actually a cheese stick wrapped in fried bread theres a little label beside the plate that says "tequeños". these are the best things i've ever tasted in my life. i moan as i bite into another one, letting the flavor explode in my mouth.

i hear cato laugh behind me and reach to grab one. "are these really that good?" i nod fervently, grabbing a glass of water.

we eat in silence for a few minutes before i get up, announcing that we might as well try to sleep. cato agrees, but he doesn't move.

"hey, uh." i turn back, my hand on the door handle.

"yeah, cato?" something in his face changes when i say his name, but its gone before i can register what it is.

"don't let the bedbugs bite, shortstack," he says with a smirk. he follows me to the hallway where enobaria told us our rooms would be. our rooms are right across from each other.

i step into the room and shut the door behind me. then, i jump face first onto the big soft bed. it feels like heaven on earth, with its silk sheets and fluffy pillows. i kick my shoes off and rummage around in a drawer, finding a pair of silk pajamas to change into before i burrow under the covers. just as im drifting off to sleep, someone knocks at my door.

i groan and get up to open it.

cato's standing there, shirtless and wearing a pair of grey sweatpants. "hi shortstack."

"cato," i grumble. "its like, 2 am. what do you want?"

he looks around before stepping into my room. "just wanted to talk."

"and it couldn't wait until morning?" he shakes his head and sits down on my bed. i join him and flop onto my back. i almost fall asleep with the silence stretching between us until he clears his throat.

"the rooms are nice, huh?" he says. filler talk. "way better than the dorms at the academy." the dorms we have in the academy are standard issue, with a twin size bed, a window, a desk, a chair, and a wardrobe. nothing like the opulent gilded queen size bed and dresser with an en-suite bathroom the train has.

"yeah," i yawn. "they are pretty great." i close my eyes. i feel cato put an arm around me.

"sorry for waking you up," he offers, letting me curl up into his side. i throw an arm over his chest and make a sound of assent. "y'know, you didn't have to volunteer."

"i wanted to," i defend. "its not like i was going to let you go into the arena alone, cato."

"i would've preferred that," cato snaps. he sits up and rubs a hand over his face. "i don't want you to.."

"to what, cato? to leave my best friend?" i retort, opening my eyes and shooting up. the words pain me to say; i know thats all i am to him. a best friend. "i thought you would've been glad that i volunteered. the games are all we've talked about since we were ten. and what better alliance than best friends?"

"exactly! i don't want you like a best friend," he yells. he stands up and starts pacing. "you're much too special and kind and pretty and strong to be my 'best friend,' n/n. i don't want to see you get hurt. how would i be able to live with myself if you got hurt in the games, huh? how could i call myself a victor and be happy if the one person who actually made me happy wasn't with me?"

we stare at each other for a few moments. his heavy breathing and my short sniffles are the only sounds in the room. slowly, i stand up and take tentative steps towards him.

we stand face to face, chests almost touching but feeling miles apart. my hand brushes against his for the barest moment and he grabs it, locking our fingers together.

"you mean it?" i whisper, looking up at him.

"i mean every word when it comes to you," he breathes.

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comecei um livro novo e estou thinking thoughts porque ele envolve brother's best friend, kinda stalker + obsessed male character e grumpy x sunshine 💭💭💭💭 LOGO PENSO PENSAMENTOS COM O CAST ARRRRRRRRRRGH

[rafesslxt]

𝐔𝐏𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘𝐒 🪻🪷 🖋️

this will be where u can see how far I am with writings and what‘s up next on my plan for Harry Potter Characters. I also have a Hayden Christensen and Rafe Cameron one

some of my story‘s that are a more of a unique idea of mine, i won‘t share so it can‘t be stolen before I post it ☁️🧸

a status like 'not started' or 'barely started' don't mean it will take long. Most of the times I write a story in one or two sessions

current nr. of drafts: 44 ⎥smut: 🌶 fluff: ☁️ funny: ☀️

updated: 22 / July / 2024

Yule Ball ⎥m. riddle⎥☁️⎥status: almost finished 「 ✦ Mattheo and Tom want to take reader to the yule ball ✦ 」

Yule Ball ⎥t. nott⎥☁️⎥status: almost finished 「 ✦ Theo goes out of his way to ask you to be his date for the yule ball ✦ 」

Brother's best friend⎥m. riddle⎥🌶☁️☀️⎥status: at the beginning 「 ✦ This is a unique idea so I won't share hehe ✦ 」

Undercover⎥m. riddle⎥🌶☁️⎥status: half finished 「 ✦ This is a unique idea so I won't share hehe ✦ 」

reading⎥m. riddle⎥☁️☀️⎥status: not started 「 ✦ Mattheo finds out what kind of books you read in your free time✦ 」

Animagus⎥m. riddle⎥☁️☀️⎥status: barely started 「 ✦ you show Mattheo your Animagus form and he freaks out a little ✦ 」

Notice me⎥m. riddle x potter!sister⎥☁️☀️🌶⎥barely started 「 ✦ Harry try's everything to stop Mattheo from getting near to you✦ 」

Dear diary⎥m. riddle⎥☁️⎥half finished 「 ✦ This is a unique idea so I won't share hehe ✦ 」

Oh, Professor⎥professor! m. riddle⎥🌶⎥barely started 「 ✦ mmh let's just say it get's interesting✦ 」

Whirlpool⎥m. riddle⎥☁️🌶⎥barely started 「 ✦ It's your birthday and you throw a party✦ 」

Friends⎥m. riddle x malfoy! reader x t.nott⎥☁️🌧⎥status: not started 「 ✦ This is a unique idea so I won't share hehe ✦ 」

secret admirer⎥m. riddle⎥☁️⎥status: barely started 「 ✦ who wrote you all those letters?✦ 」

Brat⎥m. riddle x reader x t. nott⎥🌶⎥status: almost half finished 「 ✦ threesome hehe ✦ 」

Temptation⎥m. riddle⎥🌶⎥status: barely started 「 ✦ a little spicy bet between mattheo and his girlfriend y/n ✦ 」

Haunted⎥m. riddle⎥🌶☁️⎥status: barely started 「 ✦ this was requested - mattheo, reader and friends go through a haunted house ✦ 」

NSFW Heascanons⎥t. nott⎥🌶⎥status: almost finished

Smokin'⎥m. riddle⎥🌶⎥status: not started 「 ✦ this was requested - will be posted soon ✦ 」

Greedy ⎥mattheo, enzo & theo x reader⎥🌶⎥status: almost finished 「 ✦ you and your best friend talk about the famous slytherin boys, not knowing one of them is listening and now planning with his friends to make your theirs ✦ 」

Not her⎥m. riddle⎥☁️🌧⎥status: not started

Studio⎥Slytherin Boys⎥☁️⎥status: not started

arcānum | mattheo riddle | ☁️ | status: not started 「 ✦ Mattheo becomes obsessed with reader in a portrait in the halls of hogwarts. Soon enough he runs with the time to free you from your curse ✦ 」

pool date ⎥t. nott⎥🌶⎥status: half finished

happy birthday ⎥m. riddle⎥☁️⎥not started 「 ✦ the boys planned something special for your birthday and take you on a trip to france ✦ 」

Several Parts Story's:

Showerhead 3⎥m. riddle⎥🌶☁️⎥status: barely started [I'm sorry ok 💀😭] 「 ✦ are they really just fucking? or is it more? ✦ 」 here are Part 1 and Part 2

Lustpotion 2⎥m. riddle⎥🌶⎥status: barely started 「 ✦ oh how the tables have turned when Mattheo is the one who drinks the potion y/n made this time✦ 」 If you wanna read Part 1

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୨⋆ ࣪ ₊ BEST INTEREST (VR.1) 02Z ⋆ ࣪ ₊ ୧

▌▍   ֙⋆  ་  ᳝ ◝ iNTRO TO Y/N’s DiARY. Being the younger sister of the infamous lee heeseung came along with some more cons than pros. his annoying behaviors, your friends talking about him 24/7, being referred to as “Heeseung’s sister” more than your own name, and his three best friends. so what do you do about it? Get a diary of course! and in between those pages of her writing about her older brother and school life, there were three pages that were never going to see the light of day.

🎀💭 ࣪ ✸ PAiRiNGS ⌁ musician!jay x fem reader : soccer captian!jake x fem reader : barista!sunghoon x fem reader.

FEATURiNG ˖ 𓏲࣪ 🥛 YUNJiN (lesserafim) KEEHO (p1harmony) TAERAE (zerobaseone) TAEHYUN (txt) . . . more to be added

YN’s WARNiNGS ! › ✸  cursing, kys/kms jokes, more to be added

GENRE ♡✦ ˖ 🏹🧸 SOCiAL MEDiA AU, WRiTTEN (some chapters) SLiCE OF LiFE, ROMANCE, ANGST.

( THANK YOU TO @yswon FOR THE HEADER ! )

☁️𖥻 ִ ۫ ּ ﹗💐❙❘❙ “missing entry” this special chapter isn’t unlocked until the last chapter ;) will be mentioned in early chapters tho.

NOTE ! the maknae line will not be in this smau (they will make some appearances) due to me already having a series planned for them, just wanted to say this before ppl ask me where are sunwonki :) 🤍🌷

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THE THREE NOTES <🤍> (READ IF YOU’D LIKE)

these chapters will be released as the story goes on

( 🎸) read abt jay? (⚽️) read abt jake? (☕️) read abt sunghoon

01 | yn enthusiast 02 | hee lovers

01 | DEAR DIARY “pretty girl”

02 | DEAR DIARY pick me!

03 | DEAR DIARY me and u, roblox date when?

04 | DEAR DIARY heeseung is a lewser

05 | DEAR DIARY square one.

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