#date: 01.01.25

[khajiit-journal]

Middas, Morning Star 01, 2025

(Wednesday, January 01, 2025)

Lots to report on today. Decided to be open about my Buddhism and Shinto practice on Tumblr that I've been doing for a while. I didn't share them before because like... I'm really just a baby in both regards, I have One(1) book on Shinto and it's as introductory as introductory gets. (The book is Shinto: The Kami Way by Sokyo Ono, it is a good read if you're interested in Shinto. It is mostly geared to explain to non-Japanese people, and I found the section on home worship the most useful to my position because I'm not lucky enough to live near a shrine). And as both are "living" religions, as in a religion that still has faith leaders and etc, I really want to follow them properly than my blasé "I can make my own rules and do whatever I want within reason" that I do for my PCP and magic. Same for things like HelPol, I don't interact with it much or do much about it on Tumblr because while it's considered a "dead" religion (keep in mind these terms are about things beyond if it's still practiced) it still has a lot of rules I don't quite fully understand. And while I have Zeus and Hera to guide me away from major mistakes and help me learn, I still don't wanna piss anybody off.

I've been seeing a lot of discourse lately, though, about how you can't be friends with the Gods, and I think there's an important caveat that there's a major difference between friendly and friends. And like. You can be friends with your elderly neighbor, without putting yourself on her societal level, as well. I firmly believe and stand by that we can be friends with the gods (if we can date/marry them, why can't we be friends or even family with them? you guys are chill with godspouses but not godfriends/godfamily? granted, some of these folks are probably anti-godspouse for the same reason which I at least appreciate the consistency) as long as we still always remember that we aren't on the same status level as them, and remember that they are Gods and we are not.

As well, I deeply trust my Gods to tell me what is and isn't okay, and I trust them to be honest with me. I put their words and their guidance above any random discourse post I see on Tumblr lol. If I step over the line, I trust that I'm gonna get told off and even bonked for it.

I'm gonna leave my thoughts there, though, I don't really want this to be a discourse blog, it's just been haunting my mind and I really needed to slap it somewhere lol. (If you have thoughts, feel free to send them to my askbox on this blog, or else it won't make sense to my other blogs, I'll answer them, but not if you're rude. I think this is a good thing to discuss.)

I did this "13 wishes" ritual thing. I wrote down 13 wishes on pieces of paper, folded them up, and put them in a bowl. Starting today, I'll take a piece out, not look at it, and rip it up (the original ritual is to burn, but I don't have many liberties to burn so ripping it up it is), to send it to my Gods and the Universe to handle, until there's one left, and that one I do read and is for me to handle and make come true.

I'm a bit worried about which one will end up in my hands - I made them all realistic and achievable, even if some rely on outside sources than my own two hands. But I still worry that the one that ends up in my hands will be one I really wanted the Gods to handle lol.

Also today, I've made a deal with Clavicus Vile for some help with a certain haunting. I wasn't requested too much in return, because, and I'm paraphrasing but saying directly, Liege Clavicus feels a bit bad for me that so many of my attempts to reach Them have failed (and thus I've been receiving next to no help despite asking for it repeatedly) and my offerings I've been leaving for Them have been stolen by the spirit haunting me.

It's an act of compassion I deeply appreciate, that I've been given a kind and pretty sweet (literally in some aspects) deal. I was requested to uptick my worship for Great Clavicus once the haunting is dealt with for a good while, and to make Him some cookies, and She "better get the first fresh ones" in Her words, which all of this is very within my means.

I plan on making hot chocolate cookies, as Their favorite is ones with tons of fillings, and I think hot chocolate cookies should count because they have marshmallows in them. (I just worry it'll be too sweet for Their tastes). It is a lot of work, but anything for the Gods helping me with the haunting. And besides, I did promise.

I'm probably gonna do more than this because I can, but I'm definitely gonna fulfill what parts we more explicitly agreed on. I just have to figure out what all to do for the increased worship... Probably make a playlist and play it every day for a while, and make moodboards and reblog more art of Them. That should do something at the least in the offering sector.

[alwahyeonie]

put that cat in the bag ⋆.˚

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chapter 13

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONENEN late updates again but idk if i’ll be posting as consistent as now cause school starts tmr😭 but it’s getting nicer to write lowk

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oc oneshot

Doing this to combat writer's block, so I won’t even give this a title. and nothing can stop me from posting this.

The stars hang in the sky, their faint shimmer staring back at him. The city below grows quiet, bathed in a faint orange glow. Streetlights flicker; their glow interrupted by the occasional spark. The metal is rusty, and the lamps are in desperate need of replacement. Ethan hates how run-down this place has become. 

There’s little Ethan remembers from before the facility. After he left, a rift emerged between the city, the rich, and the poor. Every day this becomes ever clearer. This is how things are now. This is his home now, and there’s not much he can do about it. 

After escaping, money has become a luxury that must be used sparingly. If he had to choose, he would rather have food than a nice place to live. If not for the kind lady running this shabby motel—who pitied him and gave him a place to stay—he would be out on the streets. Pity feels like a stab in the stomach. He hates pity. He doesn’t want to be looked down on like a helpless puppy in need of shelter. 

He takes a deep breath. The air is thick and smells faintly of smoke and dirt. Tonight, like many other sleepless nights, Ethan finds himself on the roof of the motel, staring out into the city. Lately, he’s been losing sleep, plagued by nightmares that drag him back to those suffocating white walls. 

No matter how many hours he spends slaving away at the restaurant—a place that clearly has the money to pay him a living wage but refuses to every time—he can’t seem to shake the dread the nightmares bring. No matter what, he can’t forget what he went through. It follows him, day and night. 

Instead of surrendering to his thoughts, Ethan decides to come up to the roof. The cool air bites at his skin, smelling of wet concrete and mold. Ethan looks down at the street below. Nature has taken over; bushes and trees are far too overgrown, their roots cracking through the pavement. 

As he gazes into the city, his thoughts remain conflicted. He wonders if his powers could really do good. But deep down, he knows the truth. Ethan knows his “powers,” as they call them, are far too destructive and violent. They’re not powers—if anything, they are curses. He has no control over them, and they cause more harm than good. He likes to refer to it as “enhancements”. 

The world seems at its calmest when he comes up to the roof. There’s no noise other than the wind and his own thoughts. 

(this is unfinished as of date, this was written 01.01.25)

[salt-diary]

11.3.24 - 01.01.25

11.3.24 - lunch with w: nikujaga, miso soup with daikon and cherry tomatoes, tamagoyaki, blanched green beans

11.11.24 - dinner at ootoya with w and j: miso katsu nabe, miso marinated salmon and ikura rice, eggplant, tuna sashimi, pickles, miso soup

11.29.24 - solo date at the beast next door: happy hour oysters, whisky sour mocktail

12.3.24 - dinner at kisa with w: spicy squid main, steamed egg, potato and perilla seed, tricolor jeon, marinated salmon, seasoned squid, kimchi, boneless spicy fried chicken

12.6.24 - lunch at pirozek with s: assorted pierogis

12.23.24 - @constellationinspiration’s salted egg yolk cereal white chocolate cookies

1.1.25 - solo dinner: hotpot kit with sliced pork, napa cabbage, shimeji mushrooms, daikon, carrot, firm tofu, konnyaku balls, shungiku, egg

[khajiit-journal]

I'm adding an addendum, because I forgot some things. I'm not gonna make a habit of this, hopefully.

I also did a monthly check-in reading with Lady Azura, divining what I should expect this coming month. It's... overall positive, with the challenges aspects being, well, challenging. We'll see how I handle them as they come to me.

I did get a reminder to not copy others faiths and practices, to focus on myself and my faith and what the Gods guide me to do to worship them. Getting ideas is fine, but the Gods will guide me best to how They want to be worshiped and revered, and I must permit them to do so.

I'm pretty happy with my new metal sigils, because I know metal holds charge best. I'm debating trying to find a way to make symbols of the TES gods to have on my altar, which the main difficulty is finding things to laser engrave especially because transparent images work best. I could always make my own unique sigils for it. I also, technically, through my dads work, have access to a 3D printer, but I don't have the space for 3D printed things. Aluminum business cards, however, can be held and exchanged about and stacked. I can also bring them with me places if I want to bring the energy of the God with me somewhere. It's all good, sounds good.

Anyways, that's all. G'night.

Middas, Morning Star 01, 2025

(Wednesday, January 01, 2025)

Lots to report on today. Decided to be open about my Buddhism and Shinto practice on Tumblr that I've been doing for a while. I didn't share them before because like... I'm really just a baby in both regards, I have One(1) book on Shinto and it's as introductory as introductory gets. (The book is Shinto: The Kami Way by Sokyo Ono, it is a good read if you're interested in Shinto. It is mostly geared to explain to non-Japanese people, and I found the section on home worship the most useful to my position because I'm not lucky enough to live near a shrine). And as both are "living" religions, as in a religion that still has faith leaders and etc, I really want to follow them properly than my blasé "I can make my own rules and do whatever I want within reason" that I do for my PCP and magic. Same for things like HelPol, I don't interact with it much or do much about it on Tumblr because while it's considered a "dead" religion (keep in mind these terms are about things beyond if it's still practiced) it still has a lot of rules I don't quite fully understand. And while I have Zeus and Hera to guide me away from major mistakes and help me learn, I still don't wanna piss anybody off.

I've been seeing a lot of discourse lately, though, about how you can't be friends with the Gods, and I think there's an important caveat that there's a major difference between friendly and friends. And like. You can be friends with your elderly neighbor, without putting yourself on her societal level, as well. I firmly believe and stand by that we can be friends with the gods (if we can date/marry them, why can't we be friends or even family with them? you guys are chill with godspouses but not godfriends/godfamily? granted, some of these folks are probably anti-godspouse for the same reason which I at least appreciate the consistency) as long as we still always remember that we aren't on the same status level as them, and remember that they are Gods and we are not.

As well, I deeply trust my Gods to tell me what is and isn't okay, and I trust them to be honest with me. I put their words and their guidance above any random discourse post I see on Tumblr lol. If I step over the line, I trust that I'm gonna get told off and even bonked for it.

I'm gonna leave my thoughts there, though, I don't really want this to be a discourse blog, it's just been haunting my mind and I really needed to slap it somewhere lol. (If you have thoughts, feel free to send them to my askbox on this blog, or else it won't make sense to my other blogs, I'll answer them, but not if you're rude. I think this is a good thing to discuss.)

I did this "13 wishes" ritual thing. I wrote down 13 wishes on pieces of paper, folded them up, and put them in a bowl. Starting today, I'll take a piece out, not look at it, and rip it up (the original ritual is to burn, but I don't have many liberties to burn so ripping it up it is), to send it to my Gods and the Universe to handle, until there's one left, and that one I do read and is for me to handle and make come true.

I'm a bit worried about which one will end up in my hands - I made them all realistic and achievable, even if some rely on outside sources than my own two hands. But I still worry that the one that ends up in my hands will be one I really wanted the Gods to handle lol.

Also today, I've made a deal with Clavicus Vile for some help with a certain haunting. I wasn't requested too much in return, because, and I'm paraphrasing but saying directly, Liege Clavicus feels a bit bad for me that so many of my attempts to reach Them have failed (and thus I've been receiving next to no help despite asking for it repeatedly) and my offerings I've been leaving for Them have been stolen by the spirit haunting me.

It's an act of compassion I deeply appreciate, that I've been given a kind and pretty sweet (literally in some aspects) deal. I was requested to uptick my worship for Great Clavicus once the haunting is dealt with for a good while, and to make Him some cookies, and She "better get the first fresh ones" in Her words, which all of this is very within my means.

I plan on making hot chocolate cookies, as Their favorite is ones with tons of fillings, and I think hot chocolate cookies should count because they have marshmallows in them. (I just worry it'll be too sweet for Their tastes). It is a lot of work, but anything for the Gods helping me with the haunting. And besides, I did promise.

I'm probably gonna do more than this because I can, but I'm definitely gonna fulfill what parts we more explicitly agreed on. I just have to figure out what all to do for the increased worship... Probably make a playlist and play it every day for a while, and make moodboards and reblog more art of Them. That should do something at the least in the offering sector.