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Fictum Photoshoot from 1990

Do you know I only learned recently that seventeen is the age of consent in New York State? I never thought it was statutory rape even though I knew our ages were incongruent. He was twenty-six, I was seventeen we met on the ninety-sixth street subway station uptown platform. Or was it seventy-second street, those stations are so similar? I am questioning it because I would later learn that he lived off of the ninety-sixth street station why would he be waiting on that platform when he was at home? Well its one of those two platforms of the two and one trains.

No shade, but Daniel hasn't aged as well as I have. I never held this against them, but where I feel more like Angela Bassett he looks more like Homer Simpson. He doesn't respond to my DM's anymore because he thinks I am too full of myself, albeit I think I have always been a bit over-confident, even as a teenager.

Daniel was a student I think or maybe soon out of school when we met, and he was living in the back room of an apartment on the upper west side that was owned by an older gay man who let him use this back room which had a bathroom across from it. As I think back, it was a nice enough space for a twenty-something just starting out, sparse but clean and well lit.

I wouldn't say we dated, but we did spend time together over the course of our situationship. Yes it was sort of that before that was even a thing. The relationship was primarily sexual, but we did spend time together after and before the sex. I was still in high school at the time, so a lot of my time was over-allocated. But Daniel was a stop between school and my grandparents place in the Bronx, so it was easy to make accommodations.

The most curious thing about our shoots is that he never asked or wanted to do a nude shoot, even though I was a teenager I had gotten a bit more comfortable with my body in my junior year I wouldn't have refused or even been reluctant, but he never asked and I think this speaks volumes to who Daniel was and is. Someone who doesn't take a lot of risk.

I remember thinking he was such a perfect person to loose my virginity to because he was very diligent about us having safer sex, and I remember him instructing me on how to properly use a condom and dispose of it afterwards. This was admirable for someone in the mid-twenties in the nineties, and I will always appreciate him for that.

It saddens me his lack of self-esteem doesn't allow him to have a friendship with me. I do believe that is the real issue, if he was more confident in himself it wouldn't matter at all how I behave, because he would definitively understand who he is. It is an honorable thing to be someone's first time and regardless of his current feelings for me I will always have fond thoughts of him.

[Photos by Daniel Fictum]

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Someone mentioned on my Facebook yesterday the need to buy a scanner to scan in old photos. I told her. Why do that when you can just use a camera or your phone to digitize them. I took my 20-megapixel point and shoot to capture this photo from a contact sheet of all things.

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I Missed My Calling As A Supermodel

I had such amazing with chemistry with everyone at this photoshoot with Charlie Pizzarello, I would say I was a natural if I do say so myself. I haven't done has many photoshoots as I would have liked, but I enjoyed being a part of each and everyone.

Pizarello GMHC photoshoot

Walker shooting Urban Soul exhibition

Fictum street shoot

Eden Rest for Resistance shoot in Prospect Park

Agbeble at Afro Punk

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1993 Throwback

[Photos by Daniel Fictum]

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#ThrowBack

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Story Is Not Done

[Photo by Daniel Fictum]