#dammit i can't believe there's only one more episode ever

[bookofkellsss]

I loved this episode so fucking much. I love how everything always comes together to end up with Barry getting away with shit in the most dumb luck way possible lmao the fucking raven is now real, the Chechnyan connection to the theater, gene being with Barry when they found Janice's body...God this show is amazing. This episode was hilarious and brilliant and felt like peak Barry to me.

[welcometothejianghu]

Welcome to another round of W2 Tells You What You Should See, where W2 (me) tries to sell you (you) on something you should be watching. Today's choice: 彩香ちゃんは弘子先輩に恋してる / Ayaka-chan wa Hiroko-senpai ni Koishiteru / Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko!

Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko! is a 2024 eight-episode Japanese comedy of errors about what happens when two adorable lesbians continually get in the way of their own relationship.

I think the poster gives a somewhat wrong impression: Hiroko (in black) is not a straight girl horrified that she is being hugged by a lesbian; she is a lesbian horrified that she is being hugged by her crush, whom she perceives to be an oblivious straight girl. But as the title of the show would suggest, Ayaka (in pink) is very much not a straight girl, and is instead a determined young woman with sapphic designs on the hot older woman at her job.

And they are both so, so stupid about it.

The whole wacky, wonderful series will take up a mere three hours and twelve minutes of your life, so here, as was the case with Otoko Meshi, is a correspondingly quick list of five reasons to watch it.

1. Clueless Lesbian 4 Clueless Lesbian

Have you ever seen someone have a crush and proceed to be normal about it? Well, you won't find that here. Ayaka is going to con this beautiful, competent woman into topping her if she has to kill everyone in this office to do it.

Hiroko refuses to believe that Ayaka might actually mean what she's saying, choosing instead to believe that Ayaka's actions are pure platonic displays of admiration, even when Ayaka outright says what she's after. Meanwhile, Ayaka simply cannot imagine why her very targeted overtures are always being rebuffed, interpreting Hiroko's continued resistance as a sign that Ayaka is simply not doing a good enough job of seducing her. She's got to up her game, dammit!

If you like the type of business where it takes multiple dates for two women to figure out they are in fact girlfriends, this is for you. Every oblivious lesbian trope in the book is on display here. It's a war of attrition between a woman who feels obligated to say no because she doesn't believe the person asking understands what she's asking for, and a woman who won't take "no" for an answer because she's certain that as soon as she figures out how to ask the question correctly, the answer will be "yes."

And will it be? Well, of course it will, because you know how this genre works. But not before some adorable wlw wackiness ensues!

2. Harold, they're (actually) lesbians

Often in both BL and GL properties, characters are presented as mostly straight with only plot-related same-sex leanings, usually having moments of going, I can't believe I'm falling for a wo|man!

The main lady-loving characters in this show have no trouble believing they're falling for women, because one's been out to herself as a lesbian since she was in middle school, one's just coming to terms with her desire for women but has acknowledged that it probably indicates she's a lesbian, and one honestly just never stopped to consider that being a woman desperately in love with another woman is pretty gosh darn lesbian behavior.

And I like that, you know? As much as I love a good Gay For You plot, I appreciate one that acknowledges that there's a whole very real community out there of people who feel the same way! You are not the only girl in the world who wants to kiss other girls! Lesbians have their own networks, hangouts, stereotypes, relationships, and even aesthetics that are distinctly lesbian. You can find them in real life, and I like it when you can find them in fiction too.

These aren't just straight relationships with incidentally matching genitals. There aren't even any strict butch/femme dynamics or demands that lesbianism equal gender-nonconformity. Sure, Hiroko is slightly more toward the masculine side of the gender slider than most of the other women in the show, but she's definitely not outright masc. While she's real into Ayaka's girly looks, as we see from flashbacks, Hiroko's not what you'd call picky about the gender presentation of her female partners.

They even go to a lesbian bar! The world's tiniest, most brightly lit lesbian bar! A magical place where you can always meet a beautiful red-clad femme, a cute little tomboy, and...

3. That hot bartender

It's like a good fairy granted a lion one wish, and the lion said it wanted to be turned into a beautiful Japanese lesbian, and the good fairy was like, wow, that's such a good wish, I'm going to make sure it turns out really great for you.

We are all the big-titty lesbian in red here.

4. Ayaka's outfits!

A major conceit of the show is that Ayaka, in response to her crush on Hiroko, has given herself a complete makeover, choosing outfits and hairstyles that (accurately) reflect Hiroko's tastes.

Even if you don't like her outfits -- and let's be real, some of them are a bit much for me -- they're still very cute and a lot of fun to see worn.

I do want to note that this isn't just a story about Girl Changes Entire Personality For Boy Girl She Likes. Ayaka's pre-transformation self is severe and almost robotic, and ... well, it doesn't seem to make her particularly happy to be like that. It seems less like her older persona is her "real" personality, and more like it's one that she'd just settled on because she'd been told it's what being an adult means.

There, that's what she used to dress like.

When she decides to change her style, she initially steers way too hard in the other direction, to the point where it feels like she went home and binge-watched fifty romcoms to learn how to be a person. (I'm just saying, if you wanted, you could choose to read Ayaka as an interesting flavor of autistic.) Over the course of the show, though, she gently settles into her new mode, which winds up suiting her so much better! So it's less about the nerdy girl having to leave her nerdy self behind to earn the attention of her crush, and more about how having a crush gives a girl the incentive to stop dressing the same way her parents dressed her in the second grade.

Also very cute: Some elements of her wardrobe get reused! She doesn't just magically wear several whole new things every episode! We see her apartment, and it's not large. She doesn't have room for a million different complete outfits, so she has to mix and match.

So yeah, if you, like Hiroko, like to see a cute girl wearing cute things, this show has just what the lesbian doctor ordered. (It's me, I'm the lesbian doctor.) (No, seriously, I am.)

5. A weirdly thoughtful take on the complexities of queer workplace relationships!

The show knows it can't keep up the absolute lesbian obliviousness the whole time, so feelings start to become clear about halfway through -- at which point the conflict that fuels the drama stops being about mistakenly thinking people are straight, and becomes more about why a lesbian office romance might not be the smartest career move for either of them.

After all, by the time you're in your mid-thirties and you've been working in the same place for over a decade, you're pretty well-established in your position -- but not so much that your job is completely safe from gossip or disapproving looks from your higher-ups. Meanwhile, when you're in your early twenties and just getting started, it won't do you any good to have everyone suspecting any future success is just a result of your sleeping with the (girl)boss.

So the goofy lesbian misunderstandings are fun and funny, but their worries about how dating will affect their jobs are real.

You find out eventually why Hiroko is particularly touchy about workplace relationships, and it's a very good reason! But at the same time the show explains this very good reason, it also points out that Japanese culture is slowly becoming more accepting of out gay people. Ten years can make a pretty big difference! Older generations might still be regressive about open queerness, but there's growing support from the youth.

Like these supportive coworkers! Aren't they precious?

I will admit, I am not the biggest fan of boss/underling romance dynamics. However, that never bothered me in this series, because Hiroko never feels quite like Ayaka's boss. She's Ayaka's sempai, sure, but she feels more like a senior colleague than an actual supervisor -- and Ayaka is 100% the one pursuing her, not the other way around. Still, if the idea of any hierarchy-crossing workplace relationship is an absolute dealbreaker for you ... well, you probably stopped reading this rec several paragraphs ago, so I'm not going to worry about it!

Anyway, don't get me wrong and assume this is something deep and serious about how perceptions of queerness can hinder professional success, because it's not. It's a goofy little comedy with cute outfits and dumb lesbians. But it's also a goofy little comedy that also occasionally makes some smart observations, and I like that about it.

bonus: Of course there's an adorable manga!

And you can read it here! It's a bit wackier and it makes some choices that wouldn't have worked in a live-action drama, but they're quite entertaining on the page. Here's the MangaDex summary:

Soft and bubbly office lady Ayaka is madly in love with her senior at work, Hiroko! Two lovestruck coworkers who both think the other is straight totally crush on each other… popular Twitter artist Sal Jiang’s latest office rom-com!

If anything, it handles Ayaka's transformation better than the show does, because it makes clearer that even after the makeover, she's still as intense and tough to crack as she was before -- around everyone but Hiroko. It even says in so many words that sometimes Ayaka's smiling demeanor is just masking.

The manga also knows a lot better what their job actually is, while the drama is more along the lines of, we work in an office! we do events! we have meetings! we create things for clients! It's basically the same Generic Company, LLC that every character in a modern AU fanfic does endless paperwork at.

Beside that, the series is a pretty darn faithful adaptation of the manga! Three volumes and eight episodes seem to be enough to carry about the same amount of story.

Want to watch the cute lesbians?

Sure you do! And the most reliable place to get them appears to be GagaOOLala, though I've found the whole series uploaded by various people on Dailymotion (here's episode 1 from one account, though you can find others).

It's a laugh-out-loud romp smart enough to know to get in there, tell a cute little bite of a story, and get out before the joke gets old. If you believe in the truth and goodness of lesbian love, treat yourself with this cheerful little romance that's only a slight exaggeration of how oblivious real-life lesbians can be.

Attagirl.

[jennathearcher]

Thirteen horror movies that scared tf out of me

Thank you so much for tagging me @talesfromthecrypts!! I wanted to do this so bad and put entirely too much thought into it XD

Rules: list thirteen horror movies that at one point in time terrified the hell out of you

Skinamarink - probably goes without saying at this point; not everyone is gonna vibe with the visual style, and it actually helped a great deal that I watched it with someone who was bored out of their mind by it while I was ready to start climbing the walls from pure fear XD A+, 10/10, hate thinking about this so much :P

Hereditary - also a very obvious choice but COME ON. This is THE horror movie for me. Literally rewired my brain chemistry; totally changed the way I think about not only horror, but film IN GENERAL, just there is SO MUCH MORE YOU CAN DO??? Also points for connection to irl trauma of mine AND being the only movie to date that has made me curl up in the fetal position on a theatre seat 8D that moment when you feel so viscerally in danger you want nothing more than to flee the theatre but you also NEED TO KNOW HOW THIS FUCKING ENDS (you're not gonna sleep for a while and you're gonna LIKE IT DAMMIT) also extra points for being able to traumatize people without them actually having to watch it :P

Jennifer's Body - yes, believe it or not, I watched this movie as a teenager and it actually gave me nightmares XD seeing Megan Fox fully unhinge her jaw with like a gajillion teeth just did something to my brain, man :P and in retrospect I don't think it was a bad thing

Saint Maud - excellent movie, highly recommend it. Had to include it on the list because even though it didn't necessarily scare me as I was actively watching it, it was the sheer impact it left behind with me that has me like, cool cool cool, I can never watch that again :P seriously, I didn't touch another horror movie for six months after I watched this one

A Cure for Wellness - WE STAN THIS MOVIE IN THIS HOUSE however it has to make the list purely because I actively had an anxiety attack while watching it :P

Sleepy Hollow - another one from my teen years; I absolutely love it, and it's one of the first movies I can remember genuinely scaring the shit out of me while still remaining fun to watch?? Like, first time I was scared while watching a movie and didn't immediately have the desire to shut it off XD

Suspiria (2018) - god damn you Luca you gotta stop making adaptations that leave the source material so far behind in the dust that I never want to bother with them ever XD this one makes the cut because I watched it for the first time at home, and it's the only time where I had to actually pause the movie three-quarters of the way through and just. PROCESS. love this movie so much, will be salty forever that it financially flopped

The Conjuring - THE FUCKING HIDE AND CLAP SCENE. LEGIT ONE OF THE SCARIEST SCENES IN ALL OF CINEMA. MWAH. CHEF KISS. AMAZING. I physically GASPED the first time I saw it and I think you could actually pinpoint the moment I sold my soul to James Wan forever and ever :P

The Night House - sometimes you watch a movie and you think, "holy shit that was good," and then a year and a bit later you have to come back to it just to see if it is, in fact, as good as you thought it was, AND THEN IT I S. There is a stretch in this movie where even on the second watch I don't think I took a single breath during it. Just UGH. CINEMA.

Smile - I literally almost blocked this movie entirely out of my memory, that's how bad it fucked me up. You know shit is fucked when you had planned for this movie to be part of a whole evening of horror movies, only after watching it you're so fucked up all you can do is watch a couple episodes of anime and then go straight to bed. Is it perfect? No, but it scared the absolute fuck out of me so on the list it goes

Speak No Evil (2022) - oh my god I can't even. jdskdlsfdsf. I watched this on a WHIM and had to walk around my house in circles after for the better part of an hour. There's an American remake coming out this year with James McAvoy and if they do this right OH MAN. OHHHHH MAN.

The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (2003) - listen to me okay LISTEN. I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCH. This was my first real slasher movie I ever watched when I was a teenager just getting into actual horror movies and IT TOTALLY SCARED ME!!!! AND I LOVED IT!!!! feel free to judge me because I hate the original while still loving this one LISTEN IT JUST DIDN'T AGE WELL OKAY :P

The Lodge (2020): hooooooo fuck. I don't even know what I can SAY about this movie other than WATCH IT. It's underrated as hell and made me feel emotions hitherto only experienced by shrimp. Major content warning for pet death though, like BIG time, worst case I've ever seen in that regard

tagging: @afoxnamedmulder @thebarefootking and anyone else who wants to do the thing!! <3

[makemeimmortalwithahug]

buckle up, this is gonna take a while

I can't say I'm happy about their ending as not having fucking existed ever because I needed to see that those people who have gone through so much shit in life can actually have a shot at having a stable existence for once, I wanted them to live their separate lives where they are okay and not running from death and chasing the next apocalypse and they could have awkward family reunions once every five years but they don't hate each other's guts.

BUT

The ending is not what where my fucking issues lie. FIVE-Y, WHAT WAS THAT. I was so happy that five wasn't stuck on the subway all alone and that he could be friends with Lila, that he could learn to rely on someone and trust someone who wasn't himself (and let's be real, five didn't even trust himself most of the time, dude had trust issues with himself, the only reason he ever made a life-and-death decision is because his opinion was the only opinion he could get for a long time, it was "either this or nothing")

That man was THIRTEEN when he got tangled in the apocalypse and lived a lonely 45 years in a fucking wasteland. THAT GUY NEVER MADE ANY FRIENDS.

LET HIM HAVE ONE FUCKING FRIEND

I understand that he would have longed for someone who holds him close, something kinda resembling normalcy, but LILA? I love Lila, but five is the guy who was okay with his family hating him if it meant he could save them. AND THEN HE CEASED TO EXIST THINKING HIS BROTHER HATED HIM CAUSE HIS WIFE CHEATED ON HIM WITH FIVE

at first in ep5 I was like, okay, they stopped running, they don't know if they ever will get back home, I even kinda see why five hid his own instructions on how to get back for so long - because he finally built something, a HOME, for himself that was peaceful and safe. But I do not see how Lila could romantically love him. Platonically? Hell yeah though.

Listen, I started watching tua only a few weeks ago (my condolences to everyone who waited for this for so long to be so disappointed now) but if you had told me that in ep6 where THEIR BROTHER IS LITERALLY MELTING TOGETHER TO SOMETHING THAT'S GOING TO KILL THEIR FAMILY AND END THE WORLD while Five and Diego are beating each other up because of Lila during, i don't know, any episode of any season that is pre-s4 ep5/6, then I would died laughing and would've risen from the dead again like Klaus.

And I wouldn't have believed my eyes if you had shown me this scene.

Lila was one of my favourite characters, alongside with five, because (and not shading the other characters) how their minds worked was always so interesting to see and their complexity was a joy to witness. I hate this for her

honestly, I'm so sad rn, I had a miserable day yesterday but pushed through and thought I could reward myself with watching the finale today. Yeah, what a fucking reward that was.

tl;dr they deserved a gentle life. and more important, if we stick to this finale, a gentle ending. I didn't need to see everyone being kinda at peace while diego and five never got to resolve their conflict THAT WAS PURELY FOR DRAMA IN THIS SEASON

I need to write a fix-it for this. or a thousand. god dammit

[theoncomingdoo-dah]

Episode 1.3 The Unquiet Dead

so I actually used to be kinda neutral on this episode. not my least favorite but not one of my favorites

WILL THAT CHANGE? Stay tuned.

not gonna lie, the opening is genuinely creepy.

seeing this opening, the BETTER ONE, after seeing the one for series 7 so many times is kinda a trip

LITTLE DETAIL! The way that Nine is talking to Rose in the opening while the TARDIS is in flight sounds very...insisting. Like FUTURE WAS BUST, LETS GO TO THE PAST NOW SINCE I PROMISED YOU A TIME MACHINE. Almost like he's kicking himself for where he took her first, so now they need to go somewhere better. I never noticed that!

And the fact that he chose Christmas as the time to bring her. Something safe and nice. He was really trying. 🥺

"Not a bad life?"..."Better with two!

on God, one of my favorite Ninerose quotes. Especially with the teeny tiny awkward pause after it.... GAHHH LOVE IT

Nine just smiling after Rose passes (when she can't see him) Please. PLEASE.

then he says her in the dress and her hair put up, the look of disbelief in his eyes like "wow, she can look even prettier??"

AND SHE JUST ASSUMES THAT HES GONNA MAKE FUN OF HER?? ROSE PLEASE

And then the draw back. He always has to keep his cards close to his chest.

CRIME AGAINST NATURE WE DIDNT GET TO SEE NINE IN HIS 1860 OUTFIT. THERE ARE PICTURES. WHY DIDNT IT HAPPEN.

Rose you look so pretty

WHEN THEY LINK ARMS AAAAAAA

He is just BEAMING

hahaha wales jokes

people screaming! bad stuff! Nine: "AW HELL YES"

FANTASTIC

The scene between Nine and Charles Dickens is great. Honestly amazing.

Nine talks him up and how amazing he is only to be like "Yeah that one thing you did, that was shit"

God I love him so much

Nine goes from being interested in the pipes but the MOMENT he hears Rose, he gets all serious. MMMMM LOVE IT

KICKS THE DOOR DOWN FUCK YOU

Another quick switch! After grabbing Rose, he says "hi!" with a big smile, only to get all serious again about the walking dead, then smiles again when he gets brag about finding Charles Dickens

When Rose goes off on the undertaker, Nine just stands in the corner, cheesing. I fucking love this dynamic.

Also another detail? More than likely when Rose was talking about the undertaker hands "having a quick wander", that was probably Gwyneth. (since she grabbed Rose's legs to put her in the herse.) Complete accident.

JUST SHUT UP

But he still apologized later. 🥺

He's honestly being so understanding with Charles! Like "You're not stupid for not believing, there's just more to the world than you don't know about."

There's she goes. Rose "what are your pronouns and would you like to join a union" Tyler.

Another detail. Gwyneth mentions that Rose has been thinking about her father alot. "More than ever." Rose is now a time traveler. This means that Father's Day was not a spur of the moment thing. She'd been thinking it over for awhile, maybe even working up the courage to ask the Doctor if she could go back. That's...alot.

BAD WOLF MENTIONED EYYYYY

how long have you been standing there Nine

"I love a happy medium." sir shut up before I kiss you on the mouth

When the Gelth mention "The Time War", Rose looks over in Nine's direction. And he looks distressed...

Charles gets drunk after the seance. Fair.

I really like the "moral dilemma" exchange between Rose and Nine here.

Love the fire thing that happens when the Gelth reveal their intentions.

NINES FUCKING PISSED

I can't help but think while Rose and Nine are locked behind the bars that he's thinking "dammit I fucked up again"

IN CARDIFF 😬

"I'm so glad I met you." end me. just end me now.

Charles interrupts the moment but for good reason, he's excused

man I miss when the forehead kisses were platonic and sweet and wholesome 😑

FANTASTIC

"Down, boy."

I really like the ending to this one. I can't tell if Charles is really happy or still kinda drunk. Either way it's great.

Conclusion:

NEVER FORGET WHAT THEY TOOK FROM US

-referring to Nine in his 1860 outfit-

[kosi-annec]

[HAIKYUU!!] Season 2 episode 24

COME ON KARASUNO!! I am staying up late for this shit!

He absolutely adjusted it intentionally, he saw that shit and made the best out of it

Hhhh these back to back points give me hype and anxietyyy

Omg yahaba's on field, and mad dog's keepin an eye on him! Idk bout yall but my shipper goggles are on rn

Ok seijo got a point, BUT LOOK AT THOSE TWO! LOOK AT HOW HAPPY YAHABA IS AT MAD DOG! Gsap he adjusted himself to make yahaba's set work. I know these two are like side chars and bg chars respectively BUT HEAR ME OUT. Shipped romantically or not, they'd be good friends

Aight back to the game. 18-19 SHIT COME ONE KARASUNO

YES HINATA!! And damn that slide!

God it's like the show heard me or something, i asked to have these 2 interact more and they did, even if briefly. Will probably never see yahaba again next season, but hey it is wat it is

I kinda like these scenes of showing us the reactions of the ppl outside the game watching it. I kinda forgot that there were other ppl watching the game ngl

OH SHIT ANIMATION STYLE CHANGED- BUT IT WASN'T ENOUGH TO STOP THE CROWS!

OMFG HSKSHS TADASHI IS ON PLAY!! START UP ANOTHER STREAK MY BOI

Shit- it almost got him again! COME ON SAVE TADASHI'S SERVE!! SHIT- dammit no! Iwa why are you so good

HHHH oh boi oikawa's serving. SHIT IT'S THE COOL ANIMATION- FUCK SEIJO ONLY NEEDS ONE POINT, COME ON CROWS!!

Ok but how the camera lagged behind a bit when oikawa served? Idk but that was neat, like it just cemented how important this shit is

FUCK YES DAICHI!! KARASUNO'S GOT THE POINT, JUST 2 MORE!

Gsap sugamama is in play! Time for some double setters

LMAO omg "why u trying to pick a fight with hinata rn" i recognize this scene from yt compilations

AAAA HINATA SAW MAD DOG! LETS FUCKIN GOOO! But is kage ok that was a collision, I'm now very scared of any collisions that happen after deadchi

OH SHIT- GOOD SAVE SUGA!

AHA! A FUCKIN SETTER DUMP GET JUKED!! NO ONE WAS EXPECTING THAT!

Oh shit oikawa was so fuckin desperate that animation style changed holy crap. UHHH iwa might wanna check up on your bf

Huh? Wait oikawa's met old coach ukai?? But, he never went to karasuno right?? HUH??? I feel like i missed something

Oikawa spitting facts rn. You yourself are your 1st and no.1 supporter. If you don't even believe in yourself to be able to do something, then u won't ever be able to do it. Talent isn't handed to you on a silver platter after all

MAKE IT A GOOD ONE SUGA! ALL CHIPS ARE DOWN NOW! SETTER SWITCH, COME ON!!

HOLY SHIT OIKAWA?! A SET FROM THAT FAR?!? OH FUCK- DUDE IS HIS BACK OK???

DAICHI AAAAA- OMFG TANKA!!! HOLY SHIT ASAHI- OMG ITS ON SEIJO'S SIDE OF NET

HSKSGSJS MAD DOG- OK SOMEONE JUST TAKE THE POINT ALREADY I CAN'T HANDLE THIS

SUGA HOLY SHIT ARE YOU OK?!?

AAAA SPECIAL ATTACK, PLS DON'T BE LIKE LAST TIME! OH FUCK OIKAWA-

... they won.. Omg they won. KARASUNO FUCKING WON!! LETS GOOO!!! I NEED TO REWATCH THAT ROUND AGAIN

Holy shit, omg, ok someone pls get the boys checked by a nurse or something. Oikawa hit his back hard on a table, suga got hit square in the face by a volleyball, get these two setters a nurse please

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 24

"In My Time of Dying"

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: We pick up right where we left off. And if a demon who just t-boned my car with their semi tried to kill me, I guess I'll just die.

There's been a recap up top for the past three episodes. I get that now it's because there were months between the last one and when this one originally aired, but I WATCHED IT YESTERDAY DAMMIT

I can't believe Dean has nearly died, been declared legally dead (but it was the shapeshifter from "Skin"), and now he's actually dead...and all three occurrences took place in season ONE. I know the Winchesters dying is basically a running joke for season finales, but holy fucking bingle.

Oh Sam...you CAN hear him.

Sam is to John what so many of my mutuals are to Endeavor. Your son is dying and this is how you react to that?

Honestly, Dean getting to see the behind the scenes of every conversation around him is potentially good for him. He might need this.

Poor Baby. I'm having emotions about Sam needing to save this car for Dean to fix once Dean is fixed(/healed). He's really goin through it. First stage is denial. "If there's only one working part, that's enough. We're not just going to give up." Kiddo, you're not talking about the car anymore...

Dean, you're DYING. You don't have to hunt spooky shit right now. Oh god. Is someone else going to die every time he saves his own life? Oh. Oh no...

I don't believe John saying he won't hunt the demon til Dean's okay. Not one bit.

What's in the bag, Sam? Omg a ouija board?

Can't kill death? I bet that doesn't wholly remain true for the rest of the series.

I KNEW NOT TO TRUST JOHN. Fucking hell, John. The fuck do you think you're doing?

I THOUGHT I remembered that Tessa was a reaper. I should have written that down before Dean figured it out.

Oh. I'm...trying to remember how this plays out (it's not GOOD) with John's deal with the yellow eyed demon.

Are they gonna go through all five stages in one episode? Between Sam's denial, the explosive fight between Sam and John, now Dean and John are both bargaining in different ways...Now John's doing the depression phase but masking it as acceptance in front of Sam.

"Been On My Mind": Are you joking?! They were too busy dying or making deals with demons...

"The Parting of the Ways"

Oh, Christopher, I'll miss you. You were truly a fantastic Doctor.

Is...this the first time we get the opening that's more in tune with David's time?

There's a Dalek in the TARDIS? I can't believe they let that happen.

"The Oncoming Storm" is a very cool nickname

This current batch of Daleks being half human and hating their own existence because they're not full Dalek is such an interesting concept. Do they actually do anything with it? I fucking hope so.

I wish these seasons were longer...oh. Oh, I forgot that he tries to send Rose away to safety. Sorry. I got distracted by feels. Anyway, I wish they could get fleshed out just a LITTLE more. It's not a surprise that Rose wouldn't even dare suggest just leaving in the TARDIS and letting history take its course, but I would have rather undeniably felt in my bones "there's no way she'd ever suggest that or let you do that" BEFORE she said it.

It's kind of funny that yesterday, the Impala was all but demolished and all the Winchesters were dying or at least injured, and today the Doctor is telling Rose to let the TARDIS die, become a box that will collect dust, that no one notices. All the while each of these shows have at least 14 more seasons. Still. I'm tearing up at "Have a fantastic life"

The self-proclaimed god of the Daleks taunting the Doctor who is contemplating DESTROYING THE EARTH in order to ALSO destroy all the Daleks is very good. I love an ACTUALLY GOOD "how are you better than me?" from a villain. Because holy shit the Doctor really just said that the (let me unpause so I get his full statement) human colonies will still exist. Humanity will continue in some shape or form...but it's a hard decision to resist becoming what you hate in order to destroy what you hate.

This is an excellent example as to why you'd never actually want to be the Companion. The Doctor's 200k years in the future and dying, and Rose is expected to just carry on as normal. I know Jackie and Mickey don't have any real love for the Doctor, but they can't even show Rose any sympathy during this time?? Come on now.

OOFA DOOFA, Rose telling Mickey there's nothing left for her on Earth in the present is quite a blow, especially considering that he told her two episodes ago that if she expected him to just sit and wait for her, he would.

(I'm so sorry Lynda for completely excising you from the narrative. You didn't deserve that.)

Again. Jack's death is undercut by knowing his future identity.

"Wat are you? Coward or killer?" "Coward. Any day." My heart.

This is such a weird observation, but I'm glad that when Rose cries in this, her makeup doesn't remain perfect. It's not meant to look like she's not even wearing more than eye makeup and lipgloss. Her foundation is being affected, and you just don't see that often.

Ohhhhhhh the Doctor coping with humor as to no worry Rose until he absolutely cannot hide it (though he's also doing a shit job at hiding it now...). Okay I'm crying "You were fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. And you know what? So was I," just GETS TO ME.

HI, DAVID!! "New teeth. That's weird."

[u-look-beautiful-today]

So I don't know if this has been discovered and I'm late to the party but, I was on IMBD and I saw THIS

ENID’S PARENTS WILL BE IN AN EPISODE

Of course, y'all know my delusions went RABID. THE ANGST. I would hate for Enid to have a bad home life, but for storytelling purposes? IT WOULD MAKE SENSE

They have put an emphasis that Wednesday and Enid are total opposites, what if it goes the same for their homes too. We have the loving and accepting Addams. And then we have the cold hearted, hateful Sinclairs. Enid is afraid she'll be kicked out if she can't transform. Her parents must have instilled that fear into her. I'm also a sucker for the 'sunshine, happy girl has a shitty home life' trope. (I love angst, okay?) Imagine a scene with me, please:

The episode is obviously the Family Day ep. I feel like this ep is a bit further in the season (5, 6, or 7) by then HOPEFULLY Wenclair are friends. There was also a snippet of an article with Emma on Enid and she says:

It leads me to believe that Enid has basically let her parents talk to her however they want. A lot of demeaning remarks, maybe some emotional/verbal abuse, always putting a pressure on her, etc. I feel like they also verbally judge others, like they will tell you to your face you are ugly, dumb, a disgrace. From the start of the ep, we see Enid in pure panic mode and the kind that has her shut down and she's avoiding EVERYONE. Wednesday finds this silly because HELLO, they are in the middle of a murder investigation. Anyway, we also see that Wends isn't too keen on being with her own parents and instead we get the Addams' mostly wandering around the grounds and reminiscing memories. So she seeks out her friend cause (she will never admit it) she's worried about Enid. She's been stressed and Wends has heard enough about her parents to know she might not be doing too well. And I will accept if either of these two scenes play out.

1. Wends can see how horrible the Sinclair's are to Enid. And she's a bit irked at Enid because dammit! Wends literally taught her to not take anyone's shit. So, Wednesday stays back because she wants Enid to stand up for herself. Maybe Wends pulls her side and is like

"Your parents are vile people and I mean that in a demeaning way"

"They aren't THAT bad..."

"This is pathetic and I won't just stand around and hear them talk to you like that. Pull it together, Sinclair"

And what finally gets Enid to stand up is the Sinclair's making a remark about Wednesday

"Ugh, did you see that girl? What awful looking braids"

"She has an ugly face too, I mean the scowl? How dreadful"

Enid, in a burning rage: "DONT SPEAK ABOUT HER LIKE THAT. I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF YOU CALL ME WORTHLESS NAMES BUT NEVER TALK ABOUT MY FRIEND AGAIN"

Them, shocked: "How dare you raise your voice to us? We are your FAMILY"

Enid, done with everything: "And Wednesday has been more accepting of me than you two have ever been. Sure she's gloomy, but she's smart and funny and actually really fucking kind, under it all! She's my friend-my BEST friend. And she's right, I don't need you two verbally assaulting me anymore"

Wednesday, proud af hiding in the crowd that formed

2. Wends sees the Sinclair's being horrible. And she also sees Enid just smiling (a fake one) and letting them say these things about her. By now, Wends knows Enid, despite herself, and she can see how her eyes are filled with tears and that she's close to a breakdown. So she marches over and stands literally in front of Enid. Obviously the Sinclair's are fake af and start smiling and trying to introduce themselves

"Oh! Hello, uh, dearie, who-"

Wends: "You two are the most disgusting humans who I have ever had the displeasure of meeting"

Them shocked: "How dare-"

Wends: "How does it feel to be at your prehistoric age and feel the need to bully your own child?"

Them clearing fumming: "WHY-"

Wends: "You want to know what I did to the last set of bullies? I made sure they could never reproduce again. Alas, it was only...attempted murder but with all your wrinkles and balding, I'm sure I could easily get the job done"

Enid, beyond shicked because NO ONE has ever stood up to her parents before

Them: "You do realize were werewolves?! Despite our disappointment unable to transform-"

Wends: "Never. Talk. About. Enid. Again. She's intelligent, witty, courageous, and the most loyal person I have ever met. She's far from a disappointment and she deserves better than you two"

Wednesday, grabs Enid’s arm and pulls them away

Enid, in awe, shocked, and a bit scared of what just happened

Wednesday, also shocked but wouldn't take it back

Anyway, that's all I have (cause now I wanna write a fic). I just wanted my thoughts out here before it airs and I will probably be proven to be horribly wrong!

[tsuki-sennin]

Momo Monday! School appropriate edition!

Can't swear constantly on school grounds! Speaking of which, would this be considered the elusive school festival? Cause if so, I say we go to the haunted house first! Then we can hit the games and grab some cheap, definitely-not-safe-to-eat microwave takoyaki!

Spoilers, I guess...

-First one to get a bajillion points gets to go home. Gotcha.

-Oh look. Prinicpal Allergy. He sneezed so hard he disappeared and sent Haruka back in time to 10 frames or so ago.

-Ok, I know these kinds of allegations can ruin a creator's career, but Haruka, you absolutely should be beating these people up. Or better yet, eat their katsu sandwich right in front of them!

-Subs are pretty cool people! ...well uh, except for this one I had throughout middle school and high school. I think she liked me. Or just as likely, she saw that I was autistic and thought I was a ticking time bomb and therefore decided to be nice to me just in case, but either I've heard through other subs and students who had her that she was pretty racist, so that's a big oof.

-Haruka's look of "Oh God dammit" is something I treasure.

-Soooo... public schools in my home state of Georgia typically have budgets on par with a Robert Rodriguez movie, so a substitute teacher who only accepts food-related bribes as payment is probably a dream come true for the school district I was in.

-Then again, Shinichi seems like one of those teachers who'd make you read ahead.

-Reppin' that NEET Life, amen brother.

-Oh I disagree, money is the sexiest thing ever. I love thinking about all the filthy horrible things it enables.

-...ok, I change my mind, this man reminds me of those teachers who'd have like a bajillion ducks or stuffed dogs or cats on their shelves. Like, I've seen a few of those at my school. This man would have an endless supply of monkies~

-Imagination. The Rainbow Line would be proud.

-Gaming? In class!? How epic.

-Ohhhh, spicy wasabi. He's killing it.

-Oh goddamn! They're really going at it with their alleged partners!

-I'm gonna try!

-You've got a warrior spirit, Haruka-chan!

-Twochers.

-Litterbug.

-Well don't shoot so much, Tsubasa!

-"I'm a mailman!"

-Again and again, he delivers the mail.

-"Ohhhhh, I see. You lost." Said the Professor, having finished eating his imaginary noodles.

-Oh my god, even his undies are peachy.

-No no no, you guys were pretending to make out with hot chicks and play video games in the middle of class. Haruka doesn't have to take any more of your gump.

-Jaywalkers.

-Ayyy, Birdie and Doggie, together in a B-plot! ...er uh... what I assume to be the B-plot.

-"Do you even have friends?"

-"No. I have... accompaniment."

...those festival guys and those dancing ladies must be pretty hurt by that.

-Ohhhhh, what the hell Hatano?! Why do you keep breaking chairs!? Now the arts budget is gonna get clipped because the school board isn't giving up their plans for a scoreboard produced after 2010!

-MOMOI-SENSEI YOU MONSTER

-Shogi Suzuki. They call him... something funny related to shogi, I can't decide which. Maybe his waifu in Persona 5 is Hifumi, idk, it'd be very based of him if that's the truth, but...

-Wow, Tarou's really making a festival out of this.

-Checked.

-"Hey teacher, why do you beat me, other teacher, bird guy, and the doggo up sometimes? Is that like a cultural thing?"

-These dynamics are delicious.

-Oh boy, another challenge episode!

-And yes, these callback jokes, haha, very funny, you spoiled them in the trailer from last episode!

-Though I have a much easier time believing Shinichi could instantly resort to these, to be fair.

-...where'd his shirt go?

-Tongue twisters~!

-I love the students' apathy so much. "Oh great, both of our teachers are super weirdos and friends with the Plagiarist. Maybe if we don't speak up at all,

-Oh hey, this really is just like my old school!

-Don-dammit, we're in school land now.

-It's learning time :)

-Oh, man, I feel that. Spring (I assume is when this takes place, assuming broadcast time period and in-show time are the same) allergies are the worst. ...though strangely, I haven't felt them all April...

-OH MY GOD HE'S BURNING HIS STUDENTS ALIVE THAT'S HORRIBLE

-Fuck you, I hope your allergies make you explode.

-Yeah, definitely a teacher over the age of "suitable to teach children anything other than how to make pipe bombs or racist statements."

-OH HE PUNCHES DOGS

-AND BIRDS!?

-KICK HIS ASS TAROU

-"Uhhh, yeah, how do we beat him up before these innocent schoolchildren burn alive!?"

-Sononi-sama, I do believe that is either the smell of burning paper or the smell of burning human flesh.

-"Sonoza, your laughter sucks and you should feel bad about it." -Sonoi S. Sonoson, 2022.

-"Join us, become our slave, peach boy!"

-...weeeeeeeeeell, if you handsome fellows and that gorgeous lady are willing to hire, I'll do a lot of things for 20 an hour!

-Disciplin't.

-Moooomotaro Zan, Momotaro Zan!

-Ahhhh, yep! Time for ZyuranTyranno's help! ...I wonder if we're ever gonna see a version with VroonDump? That'd be pretty epic of you, Toei, just saying.

-Ohhh, Don Leg Buster do a freezy!

-Hmmm... I believe that's the... Fiveman Avataro Gear? Chikyuu-Ki? Are we gonna get a marketable plushie Greek chorus again?

-Probably not.

-Your manners are abhorrent, Momoi-Tarou.

-And Don-Kaito hangs about.

-"You guys just keep sucking enough to be worth helping get stronger! ...but it's not enough! C'mon, c'mon! Keep up the pace, damn you! Hustle, hustle!"

-Ohhhhhhhhhhh, Wife Focus, Wife Focus, Wife Focus!

-You'd better not say anything mean about her, Inoue.

-I'm only half-joking there, by the way. That being said though, I do look forward to next episode.

[hoaxexistence]

How I Met Your Mother.

This show inhabit a special place in my heart, and that is why my first show review here will be about it. The most controversial ending in the 21st century television. I'll start. Spoilers alert obviously.

Season 1 - We were introduced to this life of Ted Mosby. We got to know his friends, Lily, Barney, his best friend Marshall, and Robin. In this season, the audience's sympathy and feelings were with Ted. The feeling of finding someone to love and to have their feelings reciprocated equally. At some point, we were all Ted - stupid, indecisive, hopeless romantic. He's smart, supportive and loving and we saw that in the first season.

Season 2 - Since Ted is stupid, he cheated on someone for someone who isn't sure with him. Yes, last season, he cheated on Victoria for Robin. Crazy. Still, he's a great friend anyone could ask for. He never leave Marshall when Lily left and supported his sadness. In this season, I saw Barney's heart. He is more than a womanizer that he always wanted to portray. He does care. Takeaway in this season, I realized that love is something that most people search and never find that's why when you find that person you feel like you want to spend your life with, you do something about it and you keep them. Lily and Marshall proves that. And that it's not bad to chase your dreams as long you know how to weigh things. And art is life.

Season 3 - "it's funny how sometimes you just find things." In this season, Lily and Marshall started to build their own life by owning their own house (kinda redundant but who cares?). Ted, who still believe in love, dated again. Robin tried to live her life in the way she thinks suits her. The takeaway in this season is that when you have a dream, you gotta hold on to them. It can be hard, there will be obstacles along the way and we should face them because those can be the path that can lead us to where we supposed to be. Risking is not that scary if you know you got the right people with you.

Season 4 - Finding your purpose. I'm not one to talk about this topic because I personally have no idea about mine. But in this season, I felt the same way with Ted (I totally relate to him and I hate it) about what he wanted to do. It was a bumpy road for the gang in terms of their personal life and career, but in the end, Ted decided to teach (damn it, just to be clear, I never wanted to be a teacher, oh fvck, what if I end up like him?) Anyway, season takeaway: if you feel like you do not fit in to something, probably, you have to leave. Some things may be waiting for you to discover and you just haven't found it yet because you're stuck trying to push yourself into something you're not for. And you may be doing other people a favor by doing so.

Season 5 - "You can ask the universe for signs all you want. But ultimately we only see what we want to see, when we're ready to see it." A good season. Lily and Marshall's character were growing. Barney, kept his awesome self but his character keeps on showing softness which can be visible every now and then. Robin, well I personally don't like her (probably because I see myself in her, dammit) Ted, on the other hand, never stop believing in love tho he did doubt it when Stella left him at the altar and in some parts at season 2. But he's Ted Mosby, he'll start believing again. My personal favourite episode in this season I think, is 'the last cigarette ever', I don't know, I just love the friendship that was shown on that episode. Anyway, season takeaway: when you ask for a sign, that's already a sign. And you can't force your way out into something because you got to deal with them at some point.

Season 6 - "Sometimes things need to fall apart to make way for better things" yea that's the exact quote but I like to say it this way: some things fall apart so that better things can fall together. Same thought but better right? Yea, whatever. Lol. This season is full of emotions. Like a lot of emotions. I can say that the writers really outdid themselves. Marshall's father died, which I never saw coming. And tell you what, I've seen the show four times and I still cry on that scene. And Barney, he met his dad, and that scene on his dad's court, that broke me. Neil's acting was superb. Season takeaway: forgive people. Forgive yourself. Enjoy the little things. Appreciate each moment. Cherish the people who make you feel loved. Never hurt other people intentionally and make wise decisions. That's quite hard, but I guess doable.

Season 7 - "Not because something needs to be said, does it mean it needs to be heard." I don't know why I chose this quote for this season but I just did, so. Anyway, this is a good season, I loved this season, tbh. Lily gave birth to their son, Marvin. New beginnings, but Ted, somehow was still unable to settle his feelings. (I don't want to elaborate, just watch the damn show) And I hate him for being so dumb. There's this episode entitled, 'symphony of illumination' and 'tick, tick, tick' yea, those bummed me. I love how those episodes tugged my heart.

Shoot, two more seasons. Lol. Okay, FYI, it has been more than a year since I last saw the show, so everything I wrote here is based on memory and a little bit of help from ecosia so that I don't misquote them. Lol. Continue.

Season 8 - oh! this season, one of the best. The most elaborate proposal that I have ever seen. It was a blessing to the people. Jk. But, that proposal was so perfect I freakin cried. In this same season, Ted had a very touching imagination. He looked for his wife. He gave the lines - which I memorized, and told what he felt at that time and I just bawled like a baby the whole scene. It was perfectly sad and heart tugging. It was a premonition that I didn't see coming. Season takeaway: trust is important.

Season 9 - The season where most of the people were left unsatisfied. This whole freakin season revolved around Barney and Robin’s wedding. Yes, that was basically it. Jk. In this season they build up Barney and Robin’s love and then they give us the mother. It was great. Up until the last two episodes. The writers failed me. The love that they built up ended up with divorce. WTF ryt. Then the mother died. And that montage scene of her and Ted together, ugh I had nothing else to do but to let my tears flow. It was heartbreaking. Takeaway: things may not always go according to plan, life goes on and we move forward.

All in all. I was disappointed. The writers tried. And I salute them for trying and giving the audience a streched and realistic ending. Just like what I said before, It's not the destination, it's the journey. And still I love the show, all its plothole, all its bad side, all the inconsistencies, and all its flaws. I've learned a lot of lessons from it. The show has a lot of quotable life quotes. I discovered beautiful songs (the ost is superb). Discovered new shows. And it taught me how to appreciate life more. And for that I am so thankful. Here's a final quote, tho I'm still not fully confident with this:

"Because sometimes even if you know how something’s gonna end, that doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy the ride."

[jennylovesjordan-blog]

know.

Well, to be honest, she didn’t expect it to hurt that much. Marco had come back immediately, shouting her name in the middle of the panicking crowd running around the broken billboard, dragging Jackie’s hand with him across the entire Echo Creek. He didn’t find her at home, either, so to say that he’s having a break down is an understatement. No matter how many times Jackie tried to assure him that Star is probably okay - she is a magical princess after all - he didn’t listen and just continued on his searching frenzy. And Star? She was seriously giving her life decisions a second look. Sure, she had expected them to act like a couple since they are an item now, aren’t they? Hugs and holding hands and stuff are a natural thing to do when you’re dating, she knew, but a kiss? She—she…

…let’s just say she hadn’t expected it to stung that much. “Star? STAR!” She could hear him screaming her name, panicky concern in his voice. It made her eyes well up despite the ridiculousness of this situation; she had brought this on herself, after all. She was fine with it, with them, she kept telling herself that it was too late, it was for nothing, she could bear with it, right? If only for his happiness. She could do it for him, even if her heart felt like it might rip apart. She had had that scary moment when she couldn’t control her magic (now that she looks back at it, the beam of magic was green and not its usual flirty pink color) and honestly, it terrified her. She had lost almost everything; her spell book, Glossaryck, the history of her entire family… Even if her parents reassured her a million times that it’s fine, it’s no problem; they can fix it, she couldn’t help but feel this guilt looming over her head, the lingering sense of depression and absolute worthlessness that had been chased away by lip-sync nights with Marco over Just Friends and Too Little Too Late is coming back, making her losing her mind. And now, she can't— She can’t lose Marco too. It felt kind of pathetic, now that she thought about it. Sitting here, at the rock bottom of Echo Creek and feeling like the scum of the earth, trying not to cry her eyes out. It's—it’s terrible, how much she missed his hugs, even if they are all platonic and sweet. His loving, protective touches, even if they are as light as feathers. His smile, the bright shining sun in her darkest days. The way he would let himself loose whenever she’s around— The pure, unadulterated joy in his eyes whenever he looks at Jackie. It hurts more than she would ever admit. What would’ve been different if she hadn’t invited Jackie today? Nothing much, except for the fact that he would’ve been with her instead, would’ve held her hands and they would’ve had some fun together, no? But the fact that he did do all of those things with her made her even more confused and her descend into madness even faster. She—she didn’t know how to feel. Don’t get it wrong, she loves Jackie; the girl was as cool as a well practiced narwhal blast. But seeing her there with him, doing all the things Star herself used to do with Marco made this unexplainable feeling bubble at the bottom of her stomach. It’s not jealousy, that much she knew, but it’s not something unrelated either. Heh—she had really lost it, hadn’t she? And surprisingly enough, the ducks didn’t help her much. “It’s just—” she gestured wildly with her hands, at a complete lost for words, “I’m happy for them—I am, don’t you dare question me—but like, they could’ve done it somewhere more discreet, you know. Marco didn’t have to hold my hand the entire time he was making out with Jackie, either. Like, I know I gave it up already; no need to rub it in my face,” she sighed when the duck merely hissed at her (can ducks even hiss?) Welp, so this is how it is. Sitting under a bridge, curled up into herself and blabbing to ducks about her life problems. There goes the famous Princess Star Butterfly. God, when did she become so piteous?

He wasn’t sure how much of an imbecile could he be.

He knew—Marco Diaz fucking knew—that something was wrong the second Star left the seat next to him and run up to the stage. Her smile had been incredibly forced, but he didn’t call her out on it. He knew that he had made her feel uncomfortable. The awkwardness that had never been in their friendship before surfaced earlier in the concert and he noticed—God he noticed. But he didn’t do anything about it. He was screaming her name the second that billboard exploded in a cloud of green magic. He knew—he fucking knew…

He needed to find her. 

Well, it’s time to go home she guessed. It was dark and cold, and the lady who sells hair still creeps her out. Star sighed deeply and pulled out the pair of dimensional scissors, not ready to walk through the front door and face her best friend.

The scissors…

…She should probably give them back to him. They’re his, after all. And—and she couldn’t have them. She couldn’t have anything, could she? She cut open the fabric of reality and created a portal straight to her room. Dark. It was dark and lonely and— She missed Marco already. God, how was she supposed to live without him? Her plan was to go back to Mewni and just—stay there; she had caused him more than his fair share of trouble. But now, being here alone in the vast space of her own room… It—it made her feel broken. Hollow and angry at herself and worthless and self-loathing. Was—was this her punishment? For not telling him her feelings sooner? She was just trying to protect their friendship—it was too valuable a thing for her to lose. She could—she could be just friends with him, right? As long as she gets to stay by his side. Star, you idiot. You can’t stay—Marco’s suffering because of you. He constantly risks his life for you, and you still want more? What’s wrong with letting him date Jackie? At least she didn’t pull him into a deadly adventure for her own gains. What did you ever do for him besides almost getting him killed? That—that’s not true—Marco is my best friend and he loves me— Who are you trying to fool? Face it, Butterfly, you’re nothing but a burden to him. If you love him—really love him, then free him from a disaster such as yourself. And she felt inadequate. Insecurity was always Marco’s problem, not hers. She was always there to cheer him up and reassure him that he matters. So who will cheer her up? No one, that’s it. Nothing. Left with an empty soul, a cleaved wand and a heart devoid of emotions. Could she be more pathetic?

“S-Star?” he knocked gently on the door. No answer, but he knew better than that. “Star, I know you’re in there. Can-can we talk?” She was as quiet as a statue. And the door was locked. Dammit. “Look, I know I made you, um, uncomfortable. I get it. And I’m sorry, and I promise it won’t happen again,” he choked a bit on the promise and it made her heart clenched painfully, “Now can you please open the door? Just let me check on you? I saw that green magic blast and for the love of God, Star, I was worried sick,” his voice was nothing but tender loving care and she could feel herself crying, “Wait, are you crying? Are-are you okay? Are you hurt? Why did you blast the billboard? God, did Ludo come for your wand again? Star? Star, open the door!” She was sobbing now and she knew he could hear it but she didn’t care, “Star, please. I will break it down if I have to, I swear.” he paused for a little as if he’s contemplating something, “If-If you don’t want to see me I’ll ask Mom to come up and check on you? I-I sent Jackie home already so please, just—just let me in—” He sounded so desperate she wondered why he was even doing this. It’s pointless, it’s all pointless. She was selfish and dirty and she couldn’t believe she was jealous over her best friend’s happiness and she didn’t deserve him and why didn’t he just leave her alone— The lock buckled again when he tried to shake it out of place and she panicked. “D-Don’t come in!” The shaking stopped immediately at her words and she sighed in relief. “I-I’m not hurt, Marco,” her voice was an octave higher than usual but again, she didn’t care, “I’m just, um, relaxing. Yeah, relaxing! The hype at the concert got me good, you know? Just chilling a bit to cool off and then I’ll be good as new. No need to worry about me, heheh,” she forced out a laugh and it was painful. But if it gives him reassurance… She would do anything. He was deathly quiet now, and she was scared. Scared that he had left already. Scared that he had abandoned her, that she had just done something wrong and he hates her now, and how could she—how could she— “Star,” he whispered softly on the other side and she perked up slightly, “Why are you lying to me?” He sounded small and heartbroken and so vulnerable it made her wanted to kick the door open and just hug him, hug all the stupid depression out of him for his kind and bright smile to return. But she didn’t. She couldn’t. So she cried instead. “I know,” he told her softly, “that you don’t exactly like me dating Jackie. Don’t think that I’m that oblivious—even if I am I can still read you like a book. I know you, Star Butterfly. I know when you’re distressed, uncomfortable, or those moments when you would put on a strong face no matter how powerless you feel. Everyone else would be fooled but I wouldn’t. Because I know.” She really shouldn’t be crying this much. “But what I don’t know is what makes you like that. So please, Star, tell me. You know I’ll always listen, always understand—or at least try to understand. I want to help. Please, you know I’m always here for you. Like how you are always there for me.” “Can you open up to me?” Of course. But she couldn’t.

So yeah I don’t really write ficlets for individual episodes like this but Just Friends is different. I’ve been through this hell and let me tell you, having an unrequited crush on your best friend who is datin another one of your friend is just depressing, guys.

So have an almost 2k drabble finished at 1:30 am. Sorry not sorry.