#dad! bard eithun

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dad Bård being handcuffed at the door while his wife is watching with tears in her eyes holding their baby girl who’s a couple months old reaching for her dad😭

oh you are so fucking evil for this… i mean, not really but…

and this is just so similar to what i had in mind for how dad! bård got arrested :(

it definitely happened when you guys were just relaxing in your little shared apartment with your baby girl and i feel like bård would have had a strange feeling inside of him leading up to his arrest, you know? i mean, he certainly had his previous spouts of nervousness along with fear of being caught during the year he spent as a free man prior to actually being caught but the feelings inside of him that day would be different in a strange way

the whole morning, bård had just felt so strange and almost sick… he could just feel that something was wrong or that something was going to happen whilst he laid in bed with you and his baby girl, he could feel a strange cold slowly creeping up the nape of his neck and a deep fear settling in the pit of his stomach as he observes his sleeping daughter resting peacefully atop his chest whilst you curl into his side, your breathing quiet and gentle as you have yet to awake from your own slumber… for some reason, he feels even more of an urge to treasure this feeling than usual! he feels a stronger urge to memorise the smell of your shampoo and the scent of your baby girl, he feels a stronger urge to memorise the feeling of your body laid against his and the sight of your daughters arms stretching up in her sleep…

i guess i do not really know how to fully explain it but the day of his arrest, i just think he would know that something was coming, you know? from the moment he awoke in the morning, he just had a knowing feeling in his gut that something was going to happen! obviously you would pick up on his nervousness and obviously fearful behaviour as he somehow looked even more pale than usual and he was almost constantly running his slim fingers through his long brown hair but he would absolutely brush it off whenever you asked him what had him so on edge, he would stay completely silent about the war that was going on inside of his tense mind and just tell you that he was feeling a little under the weather! he would tell you that he probably just had a bit of a cold and there was nothing to worry about, making sure to place a soft kiss to the side of your head as to help assure you that everything was okay

of course you probably would not fully believe him when he tells you that he just feels a little sick, not at all! but you do not push him at all, thinking that he will just tell you in his own time and that maybe he is just having a bit of an off day! and bård would spend the morning attempting to distract himself by playing with your daughter whilst you prepared breakfast in the small kitchen… seeing her bright gummy smile and big brown eyes looking up at him as he played with her on the carpet in the cozy little living room was an easy way to soothe his fearful mind and bring a genuine smile to his pale face, even if that calm peace and tranquillity would soon be broken into pieces by a firm knock on the apartment door…

bård would almost be too afraid to open the door after it knocks, his hand freezing in place as he holds a plushie out in front of your daughter and his eyes dart over to the door in an obvious panic as his heartbeat quickens in his chest before you call out to him! he fails to respond to you after you ask him to please get the door and if he invited anyone over or something, his breathing growing more shaky as he slowly hands the plushie over to your daughter and stands up from the carpet, his feet taking slow steps towards the door as another knock rings out through the small apartment

by the time bård has his hand down on the locked latch and door handle, you have already entered the living room and lifted your daughter up into your arms, calling out to bård once more in confusion as you ask him who it is and why he said nothing in response to you the first time you asked! your own nerves only strengthen with worry when you hear the door finally crack open and an unfamiliar voice asking him for his name in norwegian, your feet quickly carrying you into the entryway of your apartment before your face pales at the sight of what has to be three police officers at the door, speaking with bård in norwegian before one of them nods towards you and seemingly asks bård who you are and what the relationship is… you are too lost in shock that you do not even notice the silver steel handcuffs that are now already secured around his wrists nor do you even feel your daughters small hands tugging at the cotton of your shirt as she hums around her pastel pink pacifier and reaches out for bård with her free hand whilst you hold her on your hip…

all bård can do is quietly explain your relation to him as one of the officers steps further inside of the apartment, obviously wanting to sit you down and explain what exactly is happening as your face is covered in panic and worry as your partner and the father of your child is being arrested right in front of you! bård is too afraid to even look back at you and your daughter, he knows his heart will shatter even more than it already has if he sees your face but hearing a loud babble come out of your daughters mouth makes his head turn towards her out of pure instinct! he can feel his big brown eyes grow watery as they meet his daughters own eyes, his heart completely breaking in his chest as he sees the obvious confusion on her chubby face, the way her hand is outstretched towards him and when he looks just a little further up to see the completely heartbroken expression on your face? he just crumbles and quickly calls out about how much he loves you, how much he loves both of you! making sure to tell you to just call his mother and that everything will be okay, telling his daughter that he promises he will be home soon all while his voice is shaking and his eyes are now dripping with salty teardrops because of the revelation that he was right

urghhh it is just really sad to think about and i hate it! the first night without bård being at home would have been the absolute worst, for both you and him… he has to spend his first night alone, without you or his little girl by his side and you have to spend your first night alone without him, with your inconsolable baby who just wants her father and who cannot understand why he is not there to hold her…

i hate you but i love you for sending this in, anon <3

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okay so, who do we think is the most likely black metal dad to put one of those children leash and harness on their kid?

part of me wants to say that and older! dad! bård would absolutely have put one on his second daughter because unlike his first, she was not shy and timid as a child at all! she was much more adventurous and could not stand nor sit still to save her life, when she began being able to walk all on her own? it was so beyond over for both of you and you could not take your eyes away from her for even a split second without her running off somewhere but even then, she would probably still find a way to slip away with her silent little toddler steps… obviously this would always cause bård to panic like crazy until he finally found her just a couple feet away from him and thankfully not in any danger! so eventually he just got one of those little leashes for her and he probably felt kind of horrible for making her wear it and his eyes would always soften so much whenever she looked up at him with big sad puppy dog eyes but he seriously cannot handle the panic that losing her for a quick second brings, especially since he is a bit older now! he literally thinks he is having a major heart attack every time she wanders off and the leash just makes him feel more comfortable, it makes him feel more at ease knowing that she is always stuck right by his side…

but then another part of me just thinks he would always hold her in his arms! and what little girl, especially his little girl, does not absolutely adore being held in her fathers arms? or even being sat up on his shoulders and with his height? she absolutely loves being able to sit on his shoulders and make silly faces at whoever he is talking to! being up high on his shoulders also means she gets to see a whole lot more from up above so she does not get bored and want down at all

of course dad! øystein is an automatic child leash user though… that poor man has two devilish twin girls and you seriously think he is not about to use a double leash for them whenever he takes them out? get out of here! that child leash is the greatest purchase he has ever made in his entire life, it saves him from going through so much of the stress and panic that comes with toddlers wandering off in mere seconds and sometimes the sight of his two evil little girls attached to harnesses just kind of makes him laugh… especially when they get all pouty and grumpy because they realise they cannot just run off and away from his side whenever they see something that peaks their interest…

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EVERLASTING LOVE

- just before i actually go to sleep for real, let me say a little something that i might expand on another day…

pen pal! bård eventually becomes dad! bård after you move over to norway full time to be with him and fall pregnant with your first daughter not too long after!

he had already kept all of your letters and you kept all of his, just for sentimental and loving reasons but now that the two of you have a child together? it only serves as an even bigger reason for bård to keep all of your letters so beyond safe in a little lock box stored deep inside of your shared closet for when your daughter grows up! he knows your daughter will likely ask how exactly the two of you met despite being from different countries and he wants to let her read the letters when she grows up and asks about how your relationship really started, he wants to hold her in his arms as she reads through the letters and smile into her soft hair after she laughs at how obviously whipped he was and still is for you… he wants to tell her all about his silly little fanzine and the first time he ever saw your beautiful face…

obviously he only lets her read the innocent letters though! he would never even let her lay eyes on the raunchy letters nor explicit polaroids that were once sent back and fourth between the two of you, he just lets her read the ones that include him so clearly fawning over you and the ones that include you so deeply supporting him in everything he ever did! bård shows her your letters in hopes that she will only ever settle for someone who supports her as you did ( and still do ) him and you show her his letters in hopes that she will only ever settle for someone who adores her as much as he did ( and still does ) you <3

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DAD AU TIMELINE

- well… here is the rough timeline and some kind of terrible moodboards! again, the kids names are used here but i will never use them in my works just in case you guys do not like them! of course this is not all of the dads but if you guys like this i could make a part two! had to use a white border on the øystein one because i hit the picture limit… arghhh! also i ended up giving bård another baby hehe <3

CALLIOPE AND CASPER OHLIN

- calliope ohlin was your first child and she was born when you guys were 21!

✩ pelle was still in mayhem but after your sudden and unexpected pregnancy, he got much better at controlling his self harm and knew he wanted to be here to meet your child, wanted to be here to meet his child, he knew he needed to be here to support you and knew that maybe, this was a new leaf to turn even if he was so deeply afraid! he stayed in mayhem but did move out of shared band house after the news of your pregnancy and the two of you moved into a small, cozy little one bedroom apartment, it served well enough housing, at least until the baby got older and needed her own room…

- casper ohlin was your second child and he was born when you guys were 25!

✩ pelle and you planned to have your second child, as previously mentioned in moon in the mist! he knew he wanted to his little girl to have siblings just as he had, knew he wanted her to have a lifelong friend, someone who she could protect and someone who would look up to her! but pelle also knew that he was not about to purposely bring another child into this world when the two of you were still living in the one bedroom apartment so you waited until the two of you had a little house with two sizeable bedrooms, purchased outright with saved up funds from mayhem record sales and the help of his parents who were more than happy to help out, especially if it meant getting more grandchildren…

dad! pelle who makes traditional swedish cinnamon rolls for you and his children!

he makes them whenever he feels like it, not just for special occasions or anything like that! he never found himself to be a great cook, the only recipe he could ever remember was cinnamon rolls, it was the only thing he could really supply you with when you were pregnant and craving something so warm, sweet and sickly in the middle of the dark, cold nights! now, he bakes them for the babies too! well, when they’re old enough anyways… he gets more confident in his baking skills when he sees your children stuffing their faces with the sweet treats, watching with a small smile as your daughter holds her sticky hand up to offer him half of the baked good, sulking and putting on her best puppy eyes when he tries to refuse a bite since he still struggles just a little with eating… but who is he to deny your daughter? you and your children truly are the only people who have ever made him comfortable in things, made him comfortable and genuinely happy in his life…

SELENE AND SYLVI EITHUN

- selene eithun was your first child and she was born when you guys were 18!

✩ bård definitely did not plan on having children this young and neither did you! it was an entirely unexpected pregnancy that likely came from unprotected drunk sex after a concert, a birth control mishap or even a condom split! though just because it was an unexpected pregnancy does not mean it was unwanted, especially when it came to bård! well, of course he was slightly terrified and panicked when you first showed him the positive pregnancy test, of course he was worried about how young the two of you were and how his only real income was any emperor sales and the government pay he got but he was extremely quick to come around to the idea of having a baby, of having his own child with you! his fears were almost entirely swallowed up by excitement as he wondered who your baby would look more like, what they would sound like, what their first word would be and all of that…

- sylvi eithun was your second child and she was born when you guys were 32!

✩ bård knew he wanted one more child with you, at the very least! if we go down the route of him ending up imprisoned just months after selene was born, he just hated how much he missed out on with his first little girl… hated how he missed her first steps and her first word, hated how every time you brought her to visit him she seemed to have grown so much within just weeks… he knew having another baby would not just evaporate all of his regret, his want to have a second child was not just a selfish need to experience all of these things he missed out on by his own fault but he just knew it would be nice to be able to experience it, he remembered how much he loved caring for you during your first pregnancy, thought back on how much your small shared apartment felt like a family home in the days after you brought selene home from the hospital! bård knew he was not just going to forget selene and shove her aside for his second baby after he got out of prison and you fell pregnant again, she would always be his first baby, the first person aside from you who ever made him feel so full of love! the excitement he once again felt rising in himself when you presented a positive pregnancy test to him in your shared bedroom of your new house just days after he was released from prison was oh so familiar, so consistent with the excitement he felt when you were pregnant with selene all those years ago…

dad! bård who buys his six year old daughter, sylvi, so many toffee apples for halloween and freaks out a little when her first baby tooth falls out due to getting stuck in the sticky toffee!

of course, he knows that baby teeth are supposed to come out, he knows they are bound to come out! he remembers all those times when he was in prison and selene would visit with you, proudly showing off the tiny gaps and telling him all about how much money she had managed to score from the tooth fairy, he remembered how you would throw a smirk and a playful eye roll his way when she mentioned the tooth fairy! but he had never experienced it before as a parent, he had never seen it happen first hand… he was so spooked when he heard slyvi let out a whimper and go completely quiet from her once loud rambles around a mouthful of apple, quickly darting his eyes to where she sits on the couch and feeling panic rise in his chest when he sees her holding a small hand to her mouth, sees some slight red on her skin, his mind just shoots to the worst possible scenario as he rushes over to her and crouches down to be eye to eye… it’s only when he looks down at the sweet apple still grasped in her free hand that he sees the tiny white tooth lodged in the golden toffee, only when he sees that is when he begins to calm his mind and realise that it is certainly not as serious as it seems, letting out a relieved sigh as he asks her to move her hand so that he can see her mouth, speaking in such a soft and warm tone as to keep her calm, already seeing some salty water building in her wide eyes, threatening to spill over! only when she hears her fathers soft voice asking to see her mouth is when she’ll move her hand down, allowing him to coo quietly and assure her that everything is okay as he checks over her mouth, seeing the gap now in place between her baby teeth before he stands up from his crouches position and sits beside her on the couch, pulling her onto his lap and pressing a kiss to her head as he explains to her what happened, telling her all about how she’s growing up now… how another tooth will begin to come in and fill the empty space! his small smile slowly grows as he watches the tears in her eyes disappear, as he watches her own small smile spread across her face at the thought of being a big girl now! when you and selene arrive home from shopping and spot them on the couch, bård is quick to explain what happened to you whilst letting you take sylvi from his arms, checking her over quickly for yourself whilst he talks to selene about what she got from shopping…

TOPAZ, TARA AND SEREN SKJELLUM

- topaz skjellum was your first child and she was born when you guys were 20!

✩ ted really just always wanted children with you and all of your children were very much planned, yes even at the young age of twenty! he just loved the idea of a domestic life with you, the idea of having children with you and loving them, raising them… ted knew you were the one and that he wanted children with you within just over a year of dating! he knew you would make a beyond perfect mother, knew that you were the mother he wanted for his children! he was very much open about his desire for children with you and would casually bring it up to you before bed or over dinner and when you agreed? telling him that you would love nothing more than to have a baby with him… especially since you guys were already living in a house, a sizeable little home buried deep in the thick norwegian woods! not to mention that money was not a huge problem at all? he was ecstatic and wanted to get right to baby making, despite being quite young, he was just so… beyond excited at the thought of having a baby with you, of watching your baby grow up and explore the world around her…

- tara skjellum was your second child and she was born when you guys were 21!

✩ ted just absolutely adored life with you and topaz, adored how maternal you were, how beautiful you looked cradling your baby, his baby and just one short month after giving birth to topaz, you were pregnant once again with tara and the two of you could not have been happier that she would be growing up right alongside her sister, so close in age…

- seren skjellum was your third child and she was born when you guys were 32!

✩ ted was beyond happy with just topaz and tara for a long time, he was content with the two of them and you but when he got older, as he watched his first two babies grow up and slowly spread their wings… he knew he wanted just one last baby, knew he wanted to experience all of those baby things once more and knew that now was almost the perfect time since the two of you had moved into a slightly bigger house and darkthrone sales were doing amazing… when he approached you with the idea of having one last baby, you could only ever agree, you knew how much he loved being a father, how much he loved raising his babies and teaching them about the world! since your first two girls were so close in age, topaz never really got a chance to be an older older sister but now, both her and tara would get the experience of being older sisters, of getting to have a baby sister to play with and dress up, to protect and love…

dad! ted who had a christmas baby with you!

it was seren, your last born baby together… she was born in the early, early hours of christmas morning with snow slowly fluttering down from the sky and gently tapping against the thick glass of the hospital windows, she was the best christmas gift both you and ted could ever, ever ask for… the most beautiful christmas gift you would ever, ever receive and the most treasured christmas gift you would ever, ever have in your lives! christmas days after she was born become so much more special to the two of you, with her birthday being on the same exact day, ted takes the chance to spoil her rotten with double the gifts! of course he knows that spoiling your children is not good for them which is why he does not do it all the time, only when they really deserve it or for special occasions like birthdays and christmas, only then does he spoil them with everything they could ever ask for… ted just absolutely loves cuddling up on the couch with you on christmas morning, your children sitting comfortably on the rug in front of the fireplace as it steadily crackles and pops, the flames warming you as your children constantly look up at you and ted, excitedly showing off what they got…

ALVA AND AUDRA AARSETH

- alva and audra aarseth are identical twin girls and they were born when you guys were 23!

✩ euronymous honestly kind of really wanted kids with you! i mean, i don’t believe your twin girls were totally planned but i feel like he secretly really wondered what a domestic life with you would be like whilst still being in mayhem, still being involved in the black metal scene… he had common, reoccurring dreams about teaching his child to play the guitar, teaching them all about his favourite bands and his favourite movies! but he would never admit this to you and would keep his act of just kind of disliking children up all the way until you fell pregnant! only after you tell him that you’re pregnant is when he will soften a whole lot at the mention of children, at the mention of how far along you are and when it turned out to be twins? he was certainly terrified, beyond terrified but again, he kept up an act of confidence and actually often bragged about it, bragged about how he basically knocked you up twice in one! his smug attitude is so strong around your shred friends but when the two of you are just relaxing in your shared apartment, cuddled up on the couch watching a movie, he is a lot less smug and much more soft with his hand gently stroking your rounded stomach and talking to his babies, trying overly hard to get them to kick at the sound of his voice! the two of you were already living together in a pretty sizeable apartment in oslo but he did end up selling helvete around a month into your pregnancy, realising how much the rent was truly costing him and how little he was getting in return! he knew he had a more important priority now, he knew he wanted that money to go towards his babies…

dad! euronymous who stops dying his hair after his babies are born!

because his girls came out looking like his twins, they were born with his natural blonde hair! at first, he just kind of did not have time to re-dye his hair black between caring for you after you had just given birth and between looking after your newborn babies! he was just too tired and too strung out with all of his newfound duties as a father, too busy getting used to this new chapter of his life, he just did not have the time to even think about buying and using more black hair dye when his blonde starting coming through… when he eventually does have the spare time to think about it, to see how his hair has almost completely reverted back to the natural blonde colour, you manage to talk him out of dyeing it again by showing him how much his little girls look like him with their blonde hair, showing him how he so obviously looks like their father and that is enough to sway him away from the black hair dye! seeing how much his twin girls look like him just makes him so full of love, so full of pride and happiness… not to mention some more smug attitude as he shoves it in your face, shoves their resemblance to him all in your face, lovingly…

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BABY NAMES, PART I

- okay, wether you guys want it or not, here are the names with their meanings found on websites and what i imagine some of the babies to look like! but i will never name them in the works so if you do not like these names, you can replace them for whatever you want, i would actually love to hear the names you guys think they would like or your thoughts on these that i chose! i know i am not all that great with names at all but i tried to pick nice ones and ones i think actually fit the father… i think this is honestly a little too long and in depth like oh my god, i do not know where this came from, i was not feeling all that inspired tonight then boom… so enjoy this lol…

⋆ ˚｡ ⋆ PELLE “ DEAD ” OHLIN

dad! pelle has a daughter named calliope ohlin and a son named casper ohlin…

- calliope means “ beautiful voice ” from greek κάλλος meaning “ beauty ” and ὄψ meaning “ voice ” in greek mythology she was a goddess of epic poetry and eloquence, one of the nine muses!

calliope looks exactly like you! she has your hair, your eyes and just so many of your features, she looks like your twin! the only thing she inherited from pelle was his bone structure and that only really starts to show when she enters her teenage years! pelle absolutely loves this though, he thinks it was one of the major reasons he was able to open his heart to her so quickly after she was born, because she just looked so much like you… she was so undeniably your daughter, your child… whenever he looked at her soft face, looked into her gentle eyes, all he saw was a mini version of you, someone he knew he just wanted to shower in love and support, someone he knew he needed to protect…

casper is the opposite and looks exactly like pelle! he has his bright blue eyes, his blonde hair that only shines brighter in summer, his bony nose and a similarly indented chin! this is why in a similar opposite fashion, pelle felt it was harder to immediately bond with his son after the birth, he felt it was harder to open his heart to him because of how much of himself he saw in his son… how much she saw his younger self, how much he felt like he was looking into a mirror of the past! pelle was just so afraid of tarnishing your son, of somehow corrupting him and his happiness by simply being around him… because all he saw was his younger self, all he saw was the child so long ago that would soon run into so much cruelty and sadness in life! but of course, with a lot of support and reassurance from you that he would never hurt your son, that your son would only ever see him as his father, he was quick to open his heart to him too, just as he did for calliope…

as a father, pelle is beyond subtly proud of the name calliope for his daughter! he thinks it just fits her so well! he thinks she has such a creative soul, even when she was so young with her little messy finger paintings and scribbled crayon drawings, he immediately knew he had a strong creative and inspired soul… so much like him, as you say to him which always makes him blush and feel even more shy pride! and calliope is absolutely his muse, she became his muse right alongside you the second she was growing in your womb… he adored drawing you when you were holding her in your stomach and now, he loves to draw her as he sees her! every time he looks at her, he feels a rush of inspiration and a want to craft! both you and her are his muses, eventually his son too!

BÅRD “ FAUST ” EITHUN ⋆ ˚｡ ⋆

dad! bård has a daughter named selene eithun…

- selene means “ moon ” in greek! this was the name of a greek goddess of the moon, a titan! she was sometimes identified with the goddess artemis!

selene looks almost exactly like bård but she does have a fair few of your features too! but when you look at her, you mainly see bård… she has his brown hair, his big brown doe eyes and his pronounced, naturally slightly pouted lips! she certainly got his height too! despite being a pretty short and petite child, she hit a major growth spurt in her teenage years and is just a little taller than the average girl! but when she was a newborn and toddler, she was definitely one of those chunky little babies! she had the chubbiest little apple red cheeks and pudgy arms, bård thought she was absolutely adorable and always claimed she just had to be the cutest baby in the world, she was too perfect to him! he loved peppering so many kisses to her chunky arms and chubby cheeks when she was a baby, he bathed in the glory that came with hearing her high pitched giggles and squeals as he did it, he could not get enough of seeing a gummy smile with just a few tiny teeth showing through stretching across her rosy red cheeks! it just manages to wash away so many of his insecurities, his fears that maybe he is not a great father…

when selene was a newborn, bård was very aware of the meaning of her name and got her a little astrology mobile to go in her crib instead of the usual sheep or animal one! not to mention how many glow in the dark stars and moons he stuck up on the ceiling of your shared bedroom in your apartment when her crib was in your room… bård thinks the name fits her so well, she is his treasure, his moon! when she is old enough to not choke on things, he buys both you and your daughter a matching necklace, both silver chains holding one half of a shiny moon! to be honest, a lot of his gifts to her in life, from the moment she was born, revolve around astrology and especially the moon! he is absolutely the type of father to fully support her childhood dream of wanting to become an astronaut!

older! bård definitely gets a moon tattooed somewhere in his arm sleeve tattoo, likely when she is in her teenage years! it is a beautiful tattoo dedicated just to his moon… he likely has a star tattooed somewhere on his body too but from when he was younger, it was one of his first few tattoos and it was dedicated you, his special star, the love of his life and mother of his child!

⋆ ˚｡ ⋆ ØYSTEIN “ EURONYMOUS ” AARSETH

dad! øystein has identical twin girls named alva aarseth and audra aarseth…

- alva is the feminine form of alf! derived from old norse alfr meaning “ elf ” in norse legend this was the name of king, the suitor of a reluctant maiden named alfhild! she avoided marrying him by disguising herself as a warrior, but when they fought she was so impressed by his strength that she changed her mind!

✩ audra means “ storm ” in lithuanian!

both alva and audra just look like complete doubles of øystein, they look like factory made female replicas of him! sometimes you spend minutes studying their faces, trying to find any traces of your own genes in their appearance but you find very few… they have his natural blonde hair, his small button nose, his soft face and so on… they just mirror all of his physical features! and it only got more and more noticeable as they got older, especially in their teenage years when both decided they wanted to dye their hair black after looking at old pictures of their father! øystein went through a crisis in the early months of their lives, he liked to dress them identically because he thought it was funny to see double of his baby but the humour would quickly turn into panic when he realised he could not decipher who was who… that’s why the both of you spend time stitching their names into clothes whenever they get new dresses or onesies! he does get much better at knowing who is who within a couple of months, he just found little ways to differentiate them! and that is when he finds it funny to dress them in the same outfits once again, seeing them in the exact same outfit, with the exact same ribbons in their hair just makes him laugh so much! øystein is also incredibly smug about how much they look like him, he is just so smug and proud…

whenever a storm rolls around, with rain hitting against the glass windows of your shared apartment, øystein likes to hold audra on his hip and stand in front of one of the windows, looking down at her as shadows of water droplets reflect inside through the window and against her curious face, watching with a small smile as her wide eyes follow the raindrops and her little hands grasp his sweater tightly… audra lives up to her name in two ways! one way being that she loves storms, she was never scared and afraid of rainstorms or thunderstorms! she always just wanted to sit at the window with her father whilst you built a pillow fort with alva! the second way being that she was an absolute storm of a child… she was hyper and rowdy, every time after playing, the apartment would look like a tornado had run through it!

VEGARD “ IHSAHN ” TVEITAN ⋆ ˚｡ ⋆

dad! vegard has a daughter named violet tveitan…

- violet is derived from the english word violet for the purple flower, ultimately derived from latin viola! it was common in scotland from the 16th century, and it came into general use as an english given name during the 19th century!

violet is a very balanced mix between both you and vegard! she has your eyes but his frizzy and curly black hair, she has your nose but his mouth and an abundance of other little features… both you and vegard see the others features so strongly in her! he thinks she looks like your twin and you think she looks like his! the only thing the two of you can absolutely agree on is that your genes never stood a chance when it came to his hair! literally the second you told him you were pregnant, he knew that baby was going to have his hair, he just knew it! because the hair type is pretty particular and specific when it comes to care and washing, vegard likes to be the one to help her with it! he is more than happy to help you learn how to deal with her hair better too, obviously, but nothing makes him happier than sitting her on his knee and tying her frizzy black hair into little pigtails with little purple ribbons…

i feel like the name violet would come after a lot of thought with vegard, he was thinking about names every day right after you told him you were pregnant! but the two of you could just never decide on a name, nothing rolled off the tongue right before violet popped into his head when he saw you, late in your pregnancy with a very sizeable bump, wearing a deep violet maternity dress… he just thought the colour was beautiful on you, hugging your bump that cradled his baby… once the name was decided, ihsahn was determined to paint her already prepared wooden crib a light violet purple before you gave birth! not to mention how many little violet bows and outfits he buys for her with what little money he has… i feel like he would even switch his usual guitar picks to glittery violet purple picks just for her, to honour his little girl during emperor shows in the most subtle yet thoughtful way!

a slight bonus one here because i have not made his dad! headcanons yet but i wanted to include him <3

⋆ ˚｡ ⋆ VARG “ COUNT GRISHNACKH ” VIKERNES

dad! varg has twins with the daughter being named vígdís vikernes and the son being named vidar vikernes…

- vígdís is derived from the old norse elements víg “ war ” and dís “ goddess ”

✩ vidar derived from old norse víðarr, which was possibly derived from víðr “ wide ” and herr “ army, warrior ” in norse mythology víðarr was the son of odin and grid! at the time of the end of the world, ragnarök, it is said he will avenge his father's death by slaying the wolf fenrir

whilst vígdís and vidar are twins, they are not identical twins! they actually look pretty different from each other… surprisingly, vígdís looks more like her father whilst vidar looks look you! it turns into a kind of daddy’s girl and mama’s boy situation too… at first, varg was not a super overly loving and father towards his little girl, it took him some time to fully open his heart to a daughter, took him a little while to allow her to practice braiding his long blonde hair with colourful ribbons! but he so obviously loves her, so obviously loves both her and his son! he softens a whole lot and almost entirely drops the front he was putting up of being a headstrong and ignorant guy! when he sees how happy it makes her to be able to play with his long hair and feels his hands braiding her hair, it is worth it… it is beyond worth it for him! with vidar, i think varg would really want him to toughen up and be a manly man, even as a child but that is extremely quick to drop too! especially when you tell him it is just… really not okay, that it will only upset his son and feel like he can never be good enough! he drops all of his bullshit after a good talking to from you because deep down all he wants if for you and his children to be happy…

no one in this world can convince me that varg would not want to name his twins some really norse names, some really strong and kind of uncommon names! he spent months during your pregnancy reading through mythology and history books, looking for meaningful names, unique names… he wants names that highlight their norse blood! even if you, their mother, yourself are not… i have no doubt in my mind that he would have at least two songs inspired by their names, made for them! the first majorly soft thing varg did towards your son was buy him a little wolf plushie from a store! it’s kind of ironic considering the mythology lore behind vidar and fenrir but it was cute nonetheless and the first bit of major affection he showed towards him when he was still a baby!

[child0feden]

MY MELODY MITTENS IN THE SNOW

- a while ago now i mentioned bård wearing these cute little my melody mittens instead of his usual black fingerless gloves, the wonderful @tiiredvampire made super cute art of it here and now later down the line i have really suddenly had a brain storming moment and created some cute lore behind it :P

dad! bård who is preparing his toddler daughter to take a walk in the snow one morning, buttoning her soft pink and warm jacket up for her as they stand next to the front door of your cozy shared apartment whilst you fix yourself up in the bedroom before joining them and giving bård her little pink mittens that match her fluffy earmuffs to put on too, smiling as you watch him take them from your hands and brush some of his long brown hair out of his pale face before he crouches down to take your daughters hands in his own to slip the mittens over her small hands…

but your daughter is quick to squeak around her pacifier as she pulls her hands back and points at his own uncovered hands with wide chocolate eyes, very obviously insinuating that she wants him to wear them! she wants his hands to be warm too! bård can only chuckle along with you as he shakes his head and tells her they are far too small for his hands, they would never slip over his hands no matter how hard he tried to squeeze them on! this does not satisfy your daughter as she pulls her hands back further towards herself and clenches them into tight fists when he attempts to slip her mittens on once more, causing bård to pout ever so slightly as he tilts his head to look up at you from his crouched position in front of her

dad! bård who raises an eyebrow in curiosity as he watches your face light up with an obvious idea as you chuckle and tell him to wait before walking back into your shared bedroom, he barely even manages to ask what exactly you are planning before you had disappeared through the bedroom door! turning his attention back to his daughter as she stares right at him with big eyes and fists still held against her chest, listening to the muffled sounds of drawers opening and mumbling quietly to her about how his hands will be fine! he was going to put his black cotton gloves on, he would certainly not freeze but that she will not be able to play in the snow outside until she has her mittens on, he simply will not let it happen…

when you reappear from the bedroom with your hands holding something hidden behind your back, bård can only stare in curiosity as he asks what you have behind your back, smiling when he hears your daughter huff impatiently through her tiny button nose as she obviously wants to go out in the snow already but does not want to wear her mittens for whatever reason! when you chuckle and hold your hands out in front of you to show him what you have, bård can only widen his eyes in confusion as he observes the adult sized fluffy pink my melody mittens that match the child sized ones his daughter has, not even taking his eyes away from them as he asks you where exactly they came from, when exactly you had bought them because he certainly does not remember ever seeing you wear them

dad! bård who listens intently as you tell him that the mittens came in a set, matching mittens for mother and daughter! but that you had never gotten around to wearing them and you think it might just be best for him to wear them for today as the sudden sound of excitement and seemingly approval your daughter makes when she sees them in your hands being offered to him certainly makes it seem like that is what she wanted all along, she wanted bård to match her instead of wearing his usual plain black fingerless gloves! and who is he to ever deny his precious little baby as she stares up at the matching mittens with sparkling eyes and a gummy smile around her pastel pink pacifier? he does not think he could ever deny her anything in life, letting out a soft sigh before giving a nod and humming slightly under his breath as he takes them from your hands to slip them over his own, holding his now pink mitten covered hands out in front of both himself and your daughter as he studies them before giving a nod of approval…

only when she sees her father is now clad in the pink mittens is when your daughter holds her own hands back out towards him, open palms and spread fingers awaiting him to slip the much smaller matching mittens onto her hands! neither you nor bård can hold back a shared chuckle as he finally gets the permission to put her mittens on, bringing his fingers up to gently squish her chubby cheeks when he has slipped the soft cotton over her hands to protect them from the cold that is bound to come with the pure white snow outside, he presses a loving kiss to the top of her brown hair before hoisting her up and settling her light body on his hip whilst you unlock the front door to finally leave the apartment for your winter walk together

dad! bård who looks quite strange decked out in his usual black leather, worn denim and graphic band shirt along with his silver pentagram necklace paired with… fluffy pink my melody mittens covering his hands? he is certainly a sight to behold but he feels no shame nor embarrassment as you walk together through the white snow covered streets of oslo as your daughter is held comfortably on his hip with his hand supporting her from below whilst his free hand hold yours, his eyes are almost stuck on her as he constantly looks at her to admire the curiosity that coats her rosy face at the sight of so much untouched snow on the ground…

when the two of you eventually take a break and sit on a lone bench together with your daughter sat comfortably on his lap, all the two of you can do is admire her and chuckle quietly to yourselves as still falling snowflakes land on her face, bård bringing his mitten covered hand up to wipe them away every time to stop them from quickly melting on her skin! both of you but especially bård often get so much judgment for having a child so early in life but anyone with a working brain can see how much he cares for her and how much he changed for her, how much he so obviously treasures every second with her and how much he so obviously wants her to experience every good thing in life! your attention slowly switches from your daughter to bård as you watch him admire her in his lap, watching as his long brown hair slowly acquires more and more pure snowflakes, watching as his chocolate eyes overflow with love at the sight of your daughter attempting to savour snowflakes in her palms, watching as he draws patterns in the snow that covers the pavement below your feet with his leather boots, watching as he draws both yours and his initials inside of a heart with an equals to your daughters own initials… of course he catches you staring at him, meeting your eyes and his pale face grow a deep red blush across his cheeks as he feels your love towards him, welcoming the kiss you lean over to place on his chapped lips with an almost shy smile before breaking away from the deep affection at the feeling of your daughter grabbing his hand in her own much smaller hand, smiling down at her as he studies their matching mittens whilst you rest your head on his shoulder and admire the sight of your daughter holding just some of his fingers in her small hand… both of you but especially bård know neither of you would trade this kind of peace and serenity that comes with her for the whole world <3

[child0feden]

Now I’m imagining how the dads would react if the kids get bullied

an easy answer for how they would react: the bully > meat grinder feet first > ice cream with you and their child after the job is done > rinse and repeat if another incident occurs with their child, they simply do not care <3

okay but let me actually go into this a little for you because ah! i’ve missed your guys’thoughts in my ask box hehehe! i’m gonna say the kids would be pre teens or early teens in this because middle school is always where i see the most bullying!

dad! pelle would be a very mixed bag of emotions because he just knew this would happen, he knew it would happen and he blames himself so much… he is so angry and upset at himself for not being able to protect her from everything… even when your daughter was so small and innocent, he feared that her teenhood would become like his, riddled with such cruel people and loneliness but you always assured him that you, both of you, would not let that happen to her… and now it is, he knows it is no matter how much she tries to hide it with her fake smiles and obvious lies about how school is going great! he is so quick to act on what he sees in her, so quick to jump into action and sit her down one day, trying his absolute best to get her to really open up to him about how she actually is and just what is happening… you likely stay out of this, letting him get the truth out of her due to just how familiar he is with what she’s facing, offering love and support from the sidelines to both of them before and after their chat… when your daughter falls asleep later that night after opening up to him about everything going on, she falls asleep in your bed in between the two of you just like she used to when she was so small all those years ago, wanting nothing more than to be cocooned in her parents love! pelle will lay awake for a bit after she falls asleep, letting you reach a hand over to stroke his and comfort him… making sure he knows he did nothing wrong and there was nothing he could have done to prevent this, that you guys will let her stay home until this is sorted and speak to her school in the morning or even let her move schools if she would prefer it but that slight disappointment and anger in himself will stick with pelle for a little bit, just until he sees your daughter begin giving those beaming, real smiles once more… he just needs to see that she is not sinking into a pit as he once did before he can fully feel better… if he was younger, he would probably go about leaving dead animals on the kids doorstep but he’s older now and as much as thought might slither into his head, he knows it isn’t the right way to go about it and knows it might just make things worse for your daughter…

dad! bård goes fucking insane, sorry not sorry! he is the type of dad who you literally have to physically stop from killing someones child because they fucked with your child… i can really see him having a super shy and insecure yet passionate daughter, he knows exactly what that is like and will not just sit by as she lets people walk all over her out of fear, out of being too much of a people pleaser to ever actually speak her mind! absolutely not, it just will not happen with his baby, his little treasure, his absolute pride and joy! just as any attentive and caring father would, he immediately clocks a sharp change in her usually shy yet bubbly attitude, noticing her grow more reserved and even more quiet around you guys when she would often delve into passionate yet soft rambles about things she was up to! he hears how silent she is at the dinner table and watches as she keeps her head ducked from the two of you… listen, if he cannot fight the kid bullying his daughter, he deadass wants to fight their parents because holy shit they raised a kid who thinks they can just walk all over his babygirl like that? they clearly did a terrible job and need their brain knocked back into place or something… bård is absolutely the type of dad to pull his baby out of school immediately until this shit is sorted out, taking you and your daughter out every day to wherever she wants to go, wether it be to get some ice cream or take a walk in nature or even just go shopping for whatever she wants to buy! but he will let you push him to leave you at home for at least one of these days, letting you tell him that maybe it would be good for the two of them to just have a daddy - daughter day and who is he to say no to that? especially when he knows his little, or not very little anymore, girl adores and looks up to him so much…

dad! øystein also goes insane but in less of a violent way and more of a strategic yet petty way… he just wants to completely ruin the lives of everyone involved with that kid, wants to fuck with them so badly and make their lives hell as revenge for his baby… maybe it’s a cliche but with twins, it’s like one is popular and the other is more of an outcast lone wolf, i can see that being very true for his twin girls! one ends up becoming pretty popular and well liked in school whilst the other becomes kind of lonely and often picked on for no particular reason! øystein absolutely hates this, it is just so… stupid to him! i think he would be kind of, just slightly, disappointed in the other twin for not helping and looking out for her sister when in school! he definitely sits her down and asks her why she never helped or told you guys, quickly getting beyond confused as she explains just how complicated school is now… he cannot remember it being so trivial and split up when he was a young teen… do not be surprised if you wake up one night and find euronymous sitting in the kitchen drinking a coke and flipping through same papers which hold just about all of the dirt he could possibly find on the kids family…

dad! vegard is the most logical and levelheaded one, to be honest! obviously, he is insanely angry and upset to hear that his child is going through something like this but he really knows how to keep his head and just get things dealt with to make life better for his child, to make them have a happy teenhood and make sure they do not have to go through bullshit like this! vegard will very calmly go to see the head of her school in person, speaking slowly and remaining as civil as he can be whilst he very obviously, but slyly, threatens the school with legal action if they do not sort their shit about as soon as possible… i feel like your child would actually open up to him incredibly quickly without him even needing to prod at them much, he just has that warm and comforting dad feel to him, so welcoming and not judgmental at all… after your daughter let’s so much out to him, he lets her just fall asleep in the midst of a tight hug, lets her fall asleep in his arms and does not even attempt to move until you come up from behind him and tell him he cannot sleep on the couch and to at least take her to bed, which he does! carrying her as if she weighs nothing and tucking her into bed just as he used to, planting a soft kiss on her frizzy hair that mirrors his before he leaves…

so, yeah! i really just think they would all be pretty similar in how they want to deal with the situation but different in the ways they actually deal with it! either way, all of them are beyond upset that this is happening and show so much love to their babies after it all comes to light, not that they did not before! they just show extra love now, really making sure they know how adored they are by you guys, how loved they are

thank you so much for the interesting ask anon! i miss getting more of these ones hehe <3

[child0feden]

TEETHING

about to go to sleep but i was thinking about how some of my favourite men would handle seeing their baby go through the teething process because i think some would definitely handle it way worse than others… obviously no one likes to watch their baby cry and not be able to do much to soothe the pain but i just think some of them would take it especially bad and just be so sad… sorry for any major spelling errors or anything here, super tired but wanted to get this out lolol…

i feel like the ones to handle it the worst would absolutely be dad! bård and dad! pelle… like urgh! they would just feel so beyond helpless and useless, being completely unable to really do much to relieve the pain their baby has just absolutely destroys the already little confidence they have in their parenting abilities, makes them feel like such terrible parents and they almost always want to cry right alongside their baby because of the stress, lack of sleep and general sadness from not being able to help more than they already have! they sort of just run around like headless chickens through the whole teething process, eye bags and migraines growing by the day as they constantly get new ice chew toys from the freezer, refusing to sleep and let you look after the baby when you tell them to rest, knowing they wouldn’t even be able to get to sleep if they tried because of the worry consuming their mind! they almost hand you the baby but only because their insecurities were making them believe maybe your baby would be in less pain in your arms, that maybe they are doing something wrong and somehow hurting the baby more but they quickly throw that idea out of the window when their baby tightens a chubby fist around their long hair, as if sensing their idea and refusing to be out of their arms, so they instead just bring them closer to their chest, holding them tightly

it really does not matter how much you try to comfort them about how they’re doing all they can for their babies, they just cannot help but feel like total failures, as if they are just letting their babies feel all of that pain and not even trying to help which could not be further than the truth! when the teething process is over, they will need a good sleep, finally being able to even think about getting some peaceful rest without being kept up by their screaming baby and worry clouding their minds but they will want to get their first sleep with your baby on their chest… just in case some pain suddenly comes back… just so that they can go to sleep smelling the scent of your babies hair and know that they are safe in their arms…

but i think dad! øystein and dad! vegard would surprisingly handle their babies teething quite well, at first they would definitely be a wreck with worry and stress but over time and after much reassurance from you that they are literally doing all they can, they would eventually just accept it and do the most they can do to comfort their babies, making silly faces down at them or blowing raspberries on their skin and peppering kisses on their chubby red cheeks, kissing their tiny tears away as they whisper softly about how the pain will lessen soon and they are doing so well, being so strong! just doing all they can to comfort and distract them from their pain

obviously, it does affect and upset them to see their babies so in pain and hurting but they just do not let it get to them, not after you have assured them that they are doing all they possibly can! they really do know that they have to be calm and collected, they have to be strong for their babies to help them through it, they have to hide their worry and just try to distract their babies, try to make them flash a gummy smile and forget their pain if even for just a second… and do they let their babies chew on their fingers if needed? well, obviously! all whilst cracking some jokes to you about how you might just have birthed some kind of vampire baby…

either way, all of them stay absolutely stocked the fuck up on ice chew toys… dad! øystein and dad! vegard bought way more than you even ended up needing before the teething process even started in preparation whilst dad! bård and dad! pelle bought too little than you needed because they did not realise just how bad the teething process would be and had to go to a small 24hr store in the early hours of the morning to buy many more on the first night <3

[child0feden]

FATHERHOOD AND FAWNING

- i really do live for soft and protective fathers so here is just a little something about that with bård <3

dad! bård who gets so unbelievably nervous, his body tensing and sitting up straighter, when a loud group of middle aged women approach him and stand next to him as he sits on a bench just next to helvete, holding the handlebars of his little girls pram and gently rocking it back and fourth to ease her back into a deep sleep before he returns home from a visit to the store back to you at your shared apartment just minutes away…

of course, the older women do not do anything particularly bad or even all that worrying! they just coo and awe as they lay eyes on the obviously young baby, shushing when they see her clad in a thick onesie, soft face at rest whilst she slowly sucks on a pacifier in her sleep, tiny hands tightly clenched around a black bat plushie and fluffy blankets tucked up almost to her chubby cheeks to protect her from the nippy norwegian winds!

dad! bård who does not blame them for being so in awe of his baby, he is very much aware of how perfect she is, he is very much aware of how she even makes all of his not so soft friends turn into mush whenever they get to see her! he knows her chubby red cheeks are almost irresistible to kiss and her chunky arms are so perfectly squishy and soft, not to mention her big brown doe eyes with the cutest little black eyelashes and her thick brown hair that is almost always tied up into short pig tails with some loose hair ties! he knows all of this more than anyone, he was starstruck when she was born, completely baffled at how he had any part in making something so perfect…

but he is just so protective and careful around her! the second he goes to speak up to the ladies, to awkwardly and almost shyly ask them to back up a little and quiet their high pitched coos since he just managed to get her back to sleep, one of the women speaks up first and asks if she’s his baby sister, if he’s taking up those big brother duties and taking her off his mothers hands for a bit! he doesn’t even get a chance to recover from his shock at the question before another one of the women begins talking, telling him how she just looks so much like him, that their parents genes must be so strong, affirming that he just must be her big brother! only when the women hum in agreement is when he manages to quickly spit his words out, telling the tiny group that no, he is not her brother and she is not his sister, adamantly telling them that she’s his baby, she’s his daughter and she was born just a couple months ago!

dad! bård who has gotten the question so many times by older people around him yet it still irritates and shocks him every time… he knows it’s because he’s young and he looks young, he is very visibly only eighteen and not many people in the area expect an eighteen year old, let alone an eighteen year old like him to have a child or at least they do not expect someone like him, someone involved in the scene that he is to want to look after his child like he does… it irritates him every single time someone asks, but he knows better than to lash out much, especially when his baby is there with him! he just wishes people would not care, wishes they would not butt their noses into his business! the odd looks he gets when people see him, a tall and lanky young man with long, sometimes greasy, hair wearing sharp band shirts and all types of obvious black metal attire, holding his baby and feeding her with her bottle, he hates how some people look at the baby with concern as if thinking he obviously is not a capable father just by how he dresses and presents himself…

luckily for him, the sudden knowledge bomb on these women is enough to make them go completely quiet, immediately lessening the risk of waking his daughter and recognising the tinge of annoyance in his voice as he speaks up once again to ask them to please leave as he needs to get going now, telling them that he needs to get his daughter home and back to her mother! after sensing his irritation and protectiveness, after seeing him slowly pull the pram further back towards him, is when they hum and bid him a semi awkward goodbye and good day! when they casually walk away from him, he’s quick to check his baby over, his eyes widening slightly when they meet her now open yet very sleepy eyes as they stare back at him, cracking a smile when she yawns around her pacifier and stretches her arms up above her head, bringing one of his hands down to stroke her warm cheek and fix the thick blanket around her before mumbling to her about how strange some people are and chuckling quietly when she makes a head movement almost like a nod, as if agreeing with him!

dad! bård who takes a slow walk back to your shared apartment, the streets of oslo quiet as the golden afternoon sky darkens and street lamps begin to flicker on, his hands clad in black fingerless gloves tapping gently against the plastic handlebars of the pram as he walks so much slower than usual, wanting to get your daughter back to sleep before reaching your apartment, wanting to be able to put her right into her cozy little cot the second he gets home, wanting to cuddle up in bed with you and maybe watch a movie… or do other things… yeah, he certainly would not mind doing some other things with you tonight…

and his plan works! he can see her nodding off in her warm little cocoon, he can see her eyes losing the fight to stay open as she holds her plushie tighter, he can see her body making itself more comfortable beneath the blankets! by the time he reaches the elevator of your apartment building and makes it to your door, quietly opening it and stepping inside, his little girl is long gone to the land of sleep with the tiniest snores coming from her small button nose! he’s flashing a tired smile your way as you rise from your spot on the couch and come over to meet him in the hallway of your apartment, he’s quick to accept the kiss that you lean up and place on his slightly chapped lips, he’s ringing his hands around your waist and deepening the kiss just a little before letting you pull back and tell him to put your baby in her cot! he lets you press a kiss to her cheek before carrying her off to your bedroom and laying her down in the wooden cot, placing a kiss of his own to her head and petting her cheek before turning on a small lamp, leaving the room and coming to join you on the couch in the dimly lit living room! he tells you what happened today, quietly explaining how much it irritates him that people never see him as her father! never see him as capable of being a father!

dad! bård who lets you climb onto his lap and sighs softly when you take his cold cheeks into your warm hands, lets you brush his long and wind rustled hair back, lets you tell him how much of an amazing father he is and how much your daughter adores him, lets you tell him that he is probably a better parent than half of the people judging him! he would never believe it if anyone else told him but you… he knows you, he knows how sincere you are, knows you would never lie so as much as the comments from other people might irritate him, might make him lose confidence in his parenting abilities, he lets you build his confidence right back up… he lets you begin to smother his chilled face with warm kisses, lets you meet his lips in a deep kiss and lets his hands wander down to your hips, grinding you down against his clothed crotch, lets himself turn the deep kiss into an open mouthed one, lets the open mouthed kissed turn sloppier and needier as your breaths grows heavier…

only when he hears your daughter rouse from her sleep in your shared bedroom, loud cries beginning to echo out through the small apartment, is when he forces himself to pull away from the kiss just as you do, gently lifting you from his lap and fixing himself up a bit before going to collect his daughter and bring her back to you, knowing she’s probably just a hungry girl! if it was anyone other than your daughter interrupting such a heated moment between you and him, he would be more than just annoyed but with her? she couldn’t ever annoy him, could never get on his nerves no matter how hard she tried!

dad! bård who emerges out from your shared bedroom with your very hungry daughter in his arms, softly shushing her with coos and kisses as her cries quiet down to simple whines… the minute he sits back down on the couch beside you, he hands the hungry baby over to you and watches as you pull your maternity tank top down, letting your girl suck and get her food, wincing just slightly at the feeling, still not entirely used to it even a few months after her being born… he just cannot stop admiring you as you feed her, watching you with a soft and loving expression on his face, watching as your hand strokes her brown hair and caresses her tiny fingers when her hands comes up to rest on your breast… he doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to get used to seeing you like this, doesn’t think he’ll ever get used to how beautiful you look as a mother, doesn’t think he’ll ever get used to how well this role fits you! he just gets completely lost in thought as he studies your face and admires you! you just look so absolutely perfect to him, messy hair and all! he wonders what he did, what he did to get so lucky to not only have you but a perfect daughter too, what he did to have a life he loves living so much…

when you look over at him, catching him mid admiration, all you do is flash him a smile before leaning into his side, your daughter still latched onto your breast as he wraps an arm around you and holds you tightly, pressing a soft kiss to the side of your head as it rests against his shoulder, mumbling a quiet declaration of love whilst his hand comes down to stroke your daughters cheek, both of you sharing a quiet laugh when she lets out a hum at the contact… he just feels so content… so at peace as the three of you cuddle so closely on the small couch, living room warm and cozy thanks to the radiators, the dark sky full of stars and the moon shining in the glass windows of the small apartment, the apartment that felt so much like a full sized family home the second you brought your daughter home after she was born… he knows he has to get up early tomorrow for band practice, knows he has to be able to focus on drumming to make money for you and his daughter… but for now, he’s just too at peace to move… he’s just too content where he is and as you shuffle closer into his side, he only wraps his arm around you more and leans further back into the couch to let you get more comfy! he’ll go to sleep soon, he’ll take his baby back to bed when she’s finished eating and the two of you will go to sleep in your shared bed, cuddled under the blankets, but for now, he just wants to stay like this… just for a little while <3

[child0feden]

SOMETHING GOOD

bård “ faust ” eithun x pregnant! reader

- general headcanons for bård with a pregnant partner!

you guys egging on my baby fever is so… urgh, i just love you guys so much! i will be posting how he would be as a father later down the line <3

- view my metal masterlist here

reading music recommendations: the angels of darkness by funeral winds - something good by alt j

- bård was probably the quickest to come around and love the idea of having a baby with you when you told him you were pregnant!

✩ i mean, do not get me wrong because he was absolutely beyond nervous when you first told him that you were definitely pregnant…

- there were just so many thoughts suddenly racing through his head and muddling his brain when the words first left your mouth, practically overloading his ability to think straight as he completely zoned out for a second in front of you

✩ i mean, you guys are really pretty damn young and he is kind of just properly getting started with emperor and he does not exactly have a stable job nor a stable income… and even then, his less than stable income is not even that great of an income…

- but his nervousness very quickly vanishes the second he fully realises that he is actually having a whole baby with you

✩ like oh! he is really going to have a little mini version of you guys combined to love and care for? in just a couple of months? it really does not sound too bad to him at all and he comes around to the idea very quickly, i can see him being really secretly domestic! of course he knows it will obviously be quite hard at times too but his strong feeling of love towards both you and now your unborn baby overpowers that and he knows his mother will help out if things get real bad

- bård is definitely the type of guy to go out and buy so many books that revolve around pregnancy just so that he can really learn what the best things are for you to eat and what he should absolutely keep away from you! he really wants to be the best partner he possibly can be for you during your pregnancy, he matures a whole lot in the slow months of your pregnancy

✩ he would probably take up a lot of extra shifts at helvete or even get another and way more stable job so that he can have much more money for baby supplies and such! because there is just absolutely no way in hell that he would ever let you work when you are actively carrying his child…

- bård absolutely hates when you have really bad morning sickness, it is not even that vomit really grosses him out or anything like that, he just does not like seeing you be sick and looking pale at all! seeing you look so sick and unwell makes him feel so beyond terrible

✩ he will always kneel beside you as you are actively vomiting into the toilet, his warm hands holding your messy morning hair out of your face your you and gently stroking your back whilst whispering quiet yet comforting words to you whilst his tired face slightly scrunches up in discomfort at the sound of your retching

“ it’s okay, baby… get it out, that’s it, you’re okay ” ( he says it so incredibly softly, as if he fears speaking any louder will make you upset or somehow make you vomit even more )

- bård will always happily help you clean yourself up and brush your teeth for you after you are done with vomiting for the morning, gently washing your face for you with a cool towel and stroking your back as you slowly compose yourself, meeting his warm eyes and smiling back at him when he throws you a comforting smile of his own

✩ he will ask you what you feel like doing now before trying to help you move anywhere, if you want go right back to bed or maybe take a quick bath, whatever you want to do because he just wants you to feel better for the morning

- if you want to take a bath after having some morning sickness, he will help you sit atop the closed toilet lid before running you a hot bubble bath, quietly talking with you as the water runs whilst making sure it is not too hot for you and getting the fluffiest towels out for when you get out

✩ but if all you want to do after having morning sickness is get some sleep, he is completely fine with that! he will carefully carry you back to your shared bed bridal style and make sure you are so comfy and have all the blankets you could possibly want, quickly going to grab you a glass of water when he is sure you are settled okay in bed

- he would absolutely hate having to leave you behind so that he could go to work or even band practice! he would probably take a very short break from emperor when you are in the much later stages of your pregnancy, he already has to leave you to work and you rarely ever feel all that up to coming to helvete with him so he is definitely not leaving you alone for even longer just for some band practice… no matter how much he loves being in emperor, he loves you and your child much more…

✩ though bård can be very easily swayed to just stay home from work with you, all you really have to do is look at him with big sad eyes and a little pout on your lips, it will have him speedily taking off his uniform or general clothes and getting right back into the warm bed with you within a minute, quickly calling up his employer or øystein to tell them that something just kind of came up and he will not be able to work today

- literally all bård ever wants to do all day, every day, is cuddle with you and stroke your bump whilst the two of you lay in your shared warm bed, quietly talking to his baby about all the things he wants to do with them when they are born and making sure that you have everything you need throughout the day

✩ the rare times that you do actually join him for a short shift at helvete, he is always getting eager pats on the back from people and some overly lewd congratulations on knocking you up

- you usually stay seated on his lap the whole time you are in helvete with him, his warm hand stroking your bump as he yells at people to keep their cigarettes the fuck away from you and to go smoke outside! bård is incredibly protective of you and your health during your pregnancy, he does not want to take any risks at all

“ hey! take that cigarette outside… do i have put up a no smoking sign now or what? ” ( hearing that usually causes øystein to appear from the back room and tell him no such sign will ever being going up in helvete, but he does make anyone with a cigarette go outside because whilst he is a bit of a hater, øystein thinks you are decent and he is not a heartless little monster )

✩ yeah, he is just super protective of you when you are pregnant! even more protective than he usually is which you did not even think was quite possible…

- bård really likes sleeping in the big spoon position when you are pregnant, especially when your baby bump is really prominent!

✩ as you are slowly falling asleep, he will quietly mumble into your ear about just how excited he really is and how he hopes the baby will look a lot like you, all the while gently cradling the sizeable bump in his hand under the thick blankets and softly tapping back against the small kicks he receives from his baby

- and bård would absolutely love pregnant sex with you!

✩ at first, he was definitely beyond terrified of accidentally hurting you during sex and did not at all like the idea of having sex with you whilst you were pregnant for that very reason, he would simply never be able to forgive himself if he hurt you or the baby just because he wanted to get his dick wet

- but eventually, when you are in an insanely horny mood due to your hormones, constantly whining to him about how much you miss the feeling of his cock buried deep inside of you, gently kissing the side of his neck and bringing your hand down to his cock… he caves and gives in… he can never really say no to you…

✩ and he absolutely loves it after that first time of really trying out pregnant sex with you, he cannot get over how hot your body looks whilst carrying his baby, he cannot get enough of driving his up cock into you from below whilst guiding your hips on top of him, he cannot get tired of how different you taste whilst pregnant

- when bård bought a cot for the baby, he would most definitely not let you help him put it together at all!

✩ he just does not want you doing any kind of work like that at all, he just tells you to sit back and relax on the couch with a hot drink, tells you to watch some tv as he works on putting it together on the hardwood floor next to the couch

- after what has to be about an hour of mumbled curses in norwegian and him assuring you that everything is going just fine, he throws the paper instructions down in a huff and walks off to call tomas and get him come over to help him with it, shaking his head and messing with his long brown hair whilst you laugh quietly from your comfortable spot on the couch

“ shit! none of this is making sense anymore, i had it too! it was good in the beginning but now… not so much… stay there, baby… i’m going to go call tomas… ” ( he is so genuinely mad that he could not do it on his own! even if it is not his fault, he is just very sleep deprived from how often you have been having late night cravings and did not really read the instructions properly )

✩ bård is absolutely the type of guy to use your bump as a table for things! never heavy things or anything that has even a slim chance of hurting you but small things like bowls of fruit or his drumsticks

- he lets out a boyish chuckle every time he manages to balance something on your baby bump, he just thinks it is so beyond funny for some reason and can never get enough of it

✩ bård definitely cried when you guys got your first major ultrasound and heard the quiet heartbeat!

- he would try so incredibly hard to hide the fact that he was obviously crying but just could not manage it, he was a complete mess with a rubbed red nose and fat tears dripping down his pale cheeks as you squeezed his hand, laughing softly at how obviously excited and happy he was

✩ bård would absolutely let you steal most of, if not all of, his comfy sweaters when your baby bump starts getting too big for almost all of your own shirts! there is no hesitation from him and he throws you one of his oversized black cotton sweater from your shared closet to wear for the night when none of your own pyjamas felt comfy enough

- he knows that you really like smelling the leftover scent of him on them too so he will often wear them much more frequently before giving them to you just so that you and his baby by extension can have a little piece of him when he is working and what not

✩ bård would probably be the most open to trying out your extremely weird pregnancy cravings, but it is not that he really thinks they look particularly appetising or anything, it is just that he wants you to be happy

- and if him eating your beyond strange concoctions will make you even a little happy, you bet he will do it for you and absolutely lie to your face about just how good he thinks they taste <3

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BLACK METAL DAD AU MASTERLIST

here, you can find any and all works that take place in my black metal dad au series! these are mostly fluff to the maximum but some are smut during pregnancy or breeding kinks and so on! my first metal masterlist can be found here and my second metal masterlist can be found here <3

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HEADCANONS

TAKE MY HEART | PREGNANCY HC

general headcanons for pelle with a pregnant partner!

FAR AWAY | GIRL DAD HC ✧

general headcanons for pelle as a girl dad!

MOON IN THE MIST | BOY DAD HC

general headcanons for pelle as a boy dad!

BEARS AND BIRTHDAYS | FLUFF HC

general headcanons for pelle celebrating his daughters birthday!

VOCAL COACHING 101 | FLUFF HC

general headcanons for pelle teaching his daughter to sing like him!

THOUGHTS

dad au timeline | a rough timeline of the dad au ✧

baby names | baby names in my dad au

teething | how they would handle teething

words | what their childs first word would be

bullying | how they would handle bullying

curiosity and explanations | soft scar explanations from dad! pelle ✧

parallels | god of war parallels with dad! pelle

craftsmanship with love | wood carvings with dad! pelle

wannabes | attempting to replicate pictures with dad! pelle

HEADCANONS

SOMETHING GOOD | PREGNANCY HC

general headcanons for bård with a pregnant partner!

A LIFE TO LIVE | GIRL DAD HC ✧

general headcanons for bård as a girl dad!

THOUGHTS

dad au timeline | a rough timeline of the dad au ✧

baby names | baby names in my dad au

teething | how they would handle teething

words | what their childs first word would be

runaway toddler | how they would keep ahold of their toddler

bullying | how they would handle bullying

prison visits | visiting dad! bård in prison ✧

matching mittens | a snow day with dad! bård ✧

fatherhood and fawning | protectiveness with dad! bård ✧

morning bliss | early morning cartoons with dad! bård

a wish for more | conjugal prison visits with dad! bård

everlasting love | memories of being pen pals with dad! bård

noogies | teenhood and noogies with older dad! bård

HEADCANONS

HOME | PREGNANCY HC ✧

general headcanons for øystein with a pregnant partner!

PLASTIC TIARAS ARE METAL | GIRL DAD HC

general headcanons for øystein as a girl dad!

THOUGHTS

dad au timeline | a rough timeline of the dad au ✧

baby names | baby names in my dad au

teething | how they would handle teething

words | what their childs first word would be

runaway toddler | how they would keep ahold of their toddler

bullying | how they would handle bullying

coca cola baby babies | halloween costumes with dad! øystein

HEADCANONS

MILK AND COOKIES | NSFW HC ✧

nsfw headcanons for vegard with a pregnancy kink and lactation kink!

THOUGHTS

baby names | baby names in my dad au

teething | how they would handle teething

words | what their childs first word would be

bullying | how they would handle bullying

baker among other things | craving baking with dad! vegard ✧

an unfortunate much needed haircut | buzz cut with dad! vegard

HEADCANONS

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THOUGHTS

baby names | baby names in my dad au

runaway toddler | how they would keep ahold of their toddler

HEADCANONS

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THOUGHTS

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baby names | baby names in my dad au

HEADCANONS

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THOUGHTS

baby names | baby names in my dad au

HEADCANONS

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THOUGHTS

baby names | baby names in my dad au

HEADCANONS

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THOUGHTS

baby names | baby names in my dad au

[child0feden]

okay so i know since these pictures are vintage, the clothes and such are super off but this is exactly how i picture winter with dad! bård and just bård in general :(

[child0feden]

A LIFE TO LIVE

bård “ faust ” eithun x reader x ( platonic! ) oc daughter

♡ general headcanons for bård as a girl dad!

୨୧ this is very much long overdue since i got the pregnancy headcanons posted quite a while ago now! this was kind of hard to do in some ways since i was trying to write around him being in prison and such but hopefully it is still at least a little coherent hehe! is this good? i hope this is good <3

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reading music recommendations: the right way around by daughter - almost fantasy by fog lake

♡ to say that bård just completely fell in love with your daughter as soon as she was born would be one of the biggest understatements in the whole damn book!

୨୧ i mean, he was already in love with her when she was still growing and resting safely inside of your womb but when she was actually born? when he finally got to hold her small form in his arms and gently stroke her soft face? his love grew in ways he did not even think were possible, he thought he had already reached the maximum amount of love his heart could hold but he was oh so wrong and his heart only began to overflow with more true love from the minute she was placed in his arms for the first time…

♡ it might come as a surprise but the many restless nights that came after you gave birth to your daughter would later become just some of bårds absolute favourite memories to think back on later in life! though he often has trouble explaining exactly why he misses that tiring time in particular

୨୧ maybe he just misses awaking to her high pitched cries after what felt like just minutes of falling asleep next to you in your shared bed… maybe he just misses the rush of protectiveness that surged through his tired brain as the fog of sleep quickly cleared and he made sure you were still sleeping peacefully beside him before getting out of bed… maybe he misses picking your daughter up from her comfortable little cot that sits just beside your shared bed and pressing a loving kiss to her soft brown hair before gently bouncing her in a soothing motion as he rests his cheek down against her head to smell her hair… maybe he misses how quickly her cries would quiet down as soon as she was in his arms and how her breathing would even out as she fell back to sleep in his arms before he took her back to your shared bed to spend the rest of the night on his chest instead of in her crib…

♡ i mean, seriously! bård was just such a pro at calming her cries and every single time she got even a little upset, all she seemed to want was to be held in her fathers arms and to hear his gentle voice cooing down at her little cherub face as he brought his warm thumb up to wipe away her tiny tears from her apple red cheeks

“ oh, skatten min… you’re okay now, i have you… ” ( his voice is always so beyond soft and gentle whenever he speaks to her, he is a naturally very quiet speaker anyways but with his little baby girl? he speaks almost in a whisper and chuckles quietly when he hears her squeaks in response to hearing his voice directed at her )

୨୧ of course you could always calm her down and soothe her too but no one seems to do it better than bård does and she seems to just quiet down so much quicker in his arms than yours, she is very obviously a major daddys girl who simply views his arms as the safest and warmest place on this earth!

♡ soothing your daughter just came so incredibly natural to bård! the feelings of protectiveness that surges through his body and the overpowering needs to comfort her when she needs it most are so strong and so blatant in his mind no matter how tired he may be, no matter how exhausted he may be, both you and your daughter sit right at the very front of his mind at all times

୨୧ if your newborn daughter is having a bit of trouble getting back to sleep even after having quieted down from her cries in his arms, bård will usually plant a kiss on your sleeping face before leaving your shared bedroom with your daughter held comfortably in his arms to warm up some milk for her! he would stand by the small window of your apartment kitchen as the milk slowly heated up, his arm gently bouncing her up and down as his free hand points out towards the moon that shines through the glass pane before mumbling down to her about how beautiful it is whilst she stares up at him with sleepy brown doe eyes that mirror his own tired eyes

“ look at that moon, skatten min… you see it, hm? the moon is beautiful but you are much more beautiful, huh? yeah, i think you are… ” ( his face may be riddled with obvious exhaustion from so many sleepless nights with your newborn but a loving smile is still painted across his lips and admiration of his baby is still swirling around so heavily in his eyes as he looks down at her small form in his arms )

♡ when bård has fed her and made sure to burp her too, he is quick to join you back in your warm shared bed with your daughter still held in his arms as he lays flat on his back beside you, stretching his free arm around your sleeping body as you instinctively curl into his side whilst his occupied arm cradles your daughter safely atop his chest… he watches as her chocolate eyes begin to droop before falling completely closes as her breathing evens out and she falls asleep on his chest, very obviously soothed by her fathers soft breathing as his chest would slowly rise up before falling… only when he knows she is fast asleep and secure on top of him is when he will press a final kiss to her head before allowing himself to catch some well deserved winks too…

୨୧ this is where things get ever so slightly messy because in my mind, bård was arrested before your daughter had even turned one! he was swooped up by police just months after her birth but to go along accurately instead of inaccurately just for extra heartbreak, because he was serving a longer sentence than most bård did get weekends of very much temporary freedom to come home to you and his daughter every couple of months and he treasured those weekends so deeply, he did the absolute most he could ever think of doing with the both of you during those short weekends that seemed to fly by far too fast for his liking

♡ when bård had to leave you and your daughter, she could still easily be held in the crook of one arm but by the time he was allowed his first weekend leave, she was already a sweet little toddler with chubby cheeks who was quickly approaching her second birthday! of course he had seen her prior to his leave through simple prison visits when you would bring her along with you to see her father but seeing her outside of the cold feeling visitation room? getting to cuddle both you and her for a whole day with no fear at the back of his mind that it has to come to an end in just a short hour or two? it felt so different and so much more comforting to him, it felt so much more warm for him to wake up beside you in bed before having breakfast and watching cartoons with your daughter… it felt just like old times… it felt like just what he knew life would have been if not for what he had done… he so clearly knew this was the life he could be living every single day instead of occasional weekends if not for what happened that night and every time he has to go back in after a weekend out of prison, his heart seems to break all over again until he tries to just look on the bright side of hopefully getting another leave soon…

୨୧ the first few prison leaves is when his heart would break the most when it was time for him to go back to prison, that is when his heart would completely shatter in his chest at the realisation of just what his life is and will be for years now, it almost always used to end in long hugs being shared between the three of you and many tears being shed but over time, bård does get better at handling his emotions when it is time for him to go and he learns to focus on comforting your daughter as she clings on to him instead of accidentally making her more upset at the sight of her father crying too! do not get me wrong, his heart still breaks when he has to go back to prison but he gets better at hiding it from your daughter who still does not fully understand why she only gets to see him in a cold room or on distant weekends, he only really shows his heartbreak to you in the night before he has to go back where he will almost always completely break down in your arms as you cuddle up in bed

♡ if by some strange miracle bård did not get caught for the murder, it probably would not really change all that much about his feelings in some ways

୨୧ without being caught, he more so just lives with a strong sense of fear and nervousness constantly lurking in his mind as he wonders if every single day will be the day that he finally gets caught and had to leave the two of you! he would almost always be looking over his shoulder and would not even really enjoy leaving the house all that much out of worry that someone would see him and know something about what happened that night… the crippling feelings that surround him hurt so bad, they make him feel so strangely alienated as he realises his daughter will never have a normal father and it pains him to constantly have to think that any day could be his last day of freedom with his family so really, there is no majorly better way for it to turn out as bård would be deeply hurting in both outcomes…

♡ but enough of all that sad stuff, right? let me not just make you guys all melancholic and upset! let me just go back to all of the fluffy moments between him and your small family

୨୧ before everything terrible happened and your daughter was still a newborn, bård used to take her to helvete to visit your shared friend group all the time! sometimes you would join him but other times, you would just let him take her while you stayed back at your shared apartment and had some relaxation on his demand that you deserved it after giving him his baby, that you deserved to have a peaceful nap and a hot bath whilst he took her out for the day! every time, he would leave you with a slightly longing kiss to your soft lips before leaving your shared apartment with your daughter laying comfortably in her warm pram

♡ bård already very much knows he has a perfect little girl! from the second she was born and he got to admire her beautiful little face as she was held in his arms, he had been completely baffled as to how he had any part in co-creating something so beyond perfect… he could certainly understand her beauty coming from you but him too? it made close to no sense to him… he knows she has the most adorable face with big brown eyes that are always filled with such curiosity about the world surrounding her and chubby little cherub cheeks that are downright impossible to resist squishing which only ever causes a gummy smile to spread across her small face but his friends behaviour and actions around her really only demonstrated how obviously perfect she is…

୨୧ so many of his friends would often jokingly give him hell for being so obviously soft for both you and his baby girl but the second he brought her around them, they would crumble so quickly at the sight of her and melt into deep coos about how she was the cutest little thing they had ever seen, about how she was probably the only cute baby they had ever seen and she was so quiet! øystein especially appreciated just how silent she was every single time bård brought her over to helvete, he appreciated how she never seemed afraid of the low black metal record playing as white noise nor the black leather clad men admiring her as she is held up on her fathers hip

♡ seriously, øystein has never heard of a case of a baby being as deadly quiet as yours and bårds is but he certainly is not complaining! he may like loud music but a baby crying and screaming? not so much! he is always offering bård any open shifts at helvete in case he wants some extra cash and he makes sure bård knows that he can certainly bring his little girl along with him if he wants to, he would not mind seeing that adorable little face every time poked his head out of the back office

୨୧ by the time bård gets back from these little helvete visits, all he and your daughter ever want to do is go for a nap with you! he will greet you with a deep kiss before gently grabbing your arm, picking up your daughter in his arms and pulling you to your shared bedroom for a cuddle that will devolve into a deep sleep shared between the three of you within just minutes of becoming tangled under the thick blankets as your daughter rests on his chest

“ you okay, baby? did you have a nice bath? good… you wanna take a nap? i think i need a nap, and her too… ” ( the fact that your daughter needs a nap is always overtly obvious to both you and bård as you share a quiet chuckle at her droopy eyes and the way her head keeps bobbing down to rest on his shoulder as he slowly rocks her in his arms )

♡ before your daughter was even born, bård had picked up an old handheld camera that he often used to record you and completely random yet innocent times of the day during your pregnancy wether it be always zooming in on your bump to record the growth damn near every day, filming blurry close ups of the recent ultrasound you had got printed off, letting you record him as he attempted to assemble the cot before eventually throwing the paper instructions aside and walking off to make a phone call to tomas for some help! the little camera captured so much of your pregnancy and now that your daughter is born? the filming only gets even more common!

୨୧ bård films so much of your daughters life! wether it be simple little things like filming you as you hold her on your hip and help her put a bauble on the tree for her first christmas or filming her as she looks up at the camera from her cot whilst bård coos at her, wether it be bigger things like filming her first steps as both you and bård cheer her on with soft but enthusiastic voices! bård just loves capturing so many memories with her to eventually look back on

♡ you think bård is just going to have a daughter and not be teaching her all about drums as soon as she is old enough? come on! of course he would, he was sitting her on his knee with some thick earmuffs protecting her sensitive ears and playing his drums for her the minute she was old enough to sit up on her own! there are just three things he loves the absolute most in life and that is you, your daughter and his drums… some of the times your daughter was the most reactive in your womb was when you watched him practice and she would begin kicking in response as she obviously heard the drums, he knew right then and there that she would be a natural born drummer before she was even born and he was right!

୨୧ every single time he holds your daughter in his lap and plays some slightly less harsh songs for her, both of you can see her eyes completely flood with curiosity and interest at the muffled sound filling her ears as she watches his drumsticks move in front of her! did he buy her one of those cute little made for kids drum kit for christmas one year? well of course he did! though he would honestly let her practice at his own drums if she wanted to, anything of his is also hers by default in his mind! he will give her his drumsticks and hold her tiny hands in his as he guides her to gently tap the drums, chuckling down at her when she looks up at him in surprise from the noise before looking over at you and sending you a beaming smile

♡ when it was time for your daughter to begin attending primary school, bård told you to use your own surname for hers instead of his like it actually is on her birth certificate! this is not because he does not love her or because he does not see her as his daughter because of course he does, being with you and having her with you will forever be two of his greatest achievements in life but more so because he just absolutely does not want her to lose any opportunities of friendships or be picked on because people know who her father is and what he did… he knows that other children very most likely will not have the slightest idea of who he is at all but their parents likely will and if he knew they were telling their own children to stay away from her because of him? it would completely break his heart and he knows it is absolutely in the realm of shameful possibilities so he just does what he thinks is right and asks you to change her surname to yours when entering her into primary school, definitely not legally but just on the school papers…

୨୧ of course, you agree to do it! because unfortunately, you more than definitely understand exactly where he is coming from when he asks you to do it during one of his weekend visits as your daughter is taking a nap curled up on his lap as you lean into his side on the couch, it breaks your heart as you can so clearly hear how upset it makes him to even think about the idea of having to remove his surname from her even if temporarily, it really pains him to think about her introducing herself to a class and future friends whilst having to use your surname instead of his as was originally planned since her birth! but both of you know it is for the best, no matter how your hearts shatter at the thought of her being so confused as to why she has to use your surname instead of her fathers as she usually does but both of you know he will try to explain it to her the best he can when you guys tell her, he will do his absolute best to make sure she does not know how dark the truth really is just yet

♡ bård takes a really genuine interest in quite literally everything your daughter becomes interested in over the years!

୨୧ if she becomes interested in rocks as a toddler? he will gladly spend his free days taking her on walks through the forest and along little shallow rivers to collect pretty rocks with you by his side! always holding her small hand in his as she keeps her eyes on the ground for any rocks, crouching down to her level whenever he sees her pick one up and speaking with a heightened tone in his voice as he praises her whilst you watch with a smile on your face

“ did you find one, skatten min? show me, let me see… wow, that’s such a pretty one, hm? you gonna keep it? yeah? i would keep that one too… ” ( the big smile that forms on her soft face as she shows him the rock held in her small hand is impossible not to coo at as you watch them together, a bigger smile growing on your own face as you watch him chuckle at her clear excitement before squishing her chubby cheeks and kissing her head before standing back up to continue the walk together )

♡ or maybe she got really into space when she was a pre-teen? bård will read every single book related to space that the prison library has to offer, reading them over and over again to really store the information in his brain for the next time the two of you visit him or he gets a weekend leave! he will let her ramble to him about astronauts and space for hours if she wants to all with a soft smile on his face at how passionate his little girl is, how smart his baby girl is… she has dreams of becoming an astronaut? of course he is going to support her in that! he will spend every weekend leave he gets taking the two of you to space museums if she wants to do that, he will happily watch her nerd out about all of the little exhibitions with a proud smile on his face whilst having an arm wrapped around your waist as you lean your head against the side of his muscular arm and admire your growing daughter

♡ bård often finds himself getting completely lost in love and admiration when watching your daughter do quite literally anything! when she was a newborn he would get so utterly lost in her big chocolate eyes and rosy red cheeks as he held her safely in his arms whilst sitting on the small couch in your shared apartment, only breaking out of his trance when you would come up behind him and hug him from behind before leaning down to press a soft kiss to his pale cheek as he mumbled up to you about just how perfect she is

“ hm… she’s so perfect, baby… thank you for everything… for giving me her, for loving me… ” ( being around your baby makes him so unbelievably soft and willing to let every single one of his thoughts out of his mouth as his eyes stay stuck on his baby whilst talking to you, unable to pull his loving eyes away from her as she sleeps soundly in his arms )

୨୧ when your daughter was still a toddler, bård absolutely loved dressing her! both for obvious necessity and because he gets to make her look so adorable in colourful little outfits and accessories, when it comes winter time in norway? oh he always has to be the one dressing her in the morning, he always has to make sure she is wearing so many layers before going anywhere outside as snow still falls from the white sky and winds still blow cold! you usually just watch from the doorway with a soft smile on your face as he gets her dressed, admiring how focused he looks when making sure every button is done up and every fabric is unfolded but he will always feel your eyes on him as he works and turn around to face you with his own big smile before telling you to just keep ogling and pushing some long brown locks out of his pale face, letting out a deep chuckle when you jokingly scoff and roll your eyes before coming over to pick up your daughter who is now also letting out much higher pitched giggles at the sound of her fathers laughter

♡ when it is winter in norway, bård feels so especially protective of your toddler daughter! she is just so small and still so new to the world, he really prefers to just stay huddled up in bed with the two of you instead of taking her out anywhere in fear that she might catch a nasty cold! but of course, what even is a child if they do not want to play with snow when they see it through windows? and neither you nor bård can ever refuse your daughter when she makes grabby hands and looks up at you with big pleading eyes

୨୧ bård has to dress her in at least four layers before you guys take her out to play in the snow though! thankfully your daughter is extremely quiet and very patient so she puts up no fuss as he dresses her in multiple thick cotton jumpers, a pair of fluffy ear muffs, some soft little mittens as well as a cute knitted scarf that his mother had actually made for her and so on! he is just dressing her to the absolute max to make sure there is simply no chance of her catching a cold and falling sick, he could barely handle her pain when she was teething let alone something so preventable like a cold? he would simply never forgive himself for letting her get a cold under his watch! by the time he is done with dressing her in cold proof clothes, your daughter is starting to get ever so slightly impatient as she softly kicks her legs and he chuckles before kissing her head, gesturing towards you and asking if you are all ready too before the two of you take her outside together

“ hey, baby… you ready to go? i think skatten min is starting to get a little impatient, hm? come on then, let’s go… ” ( it takes less than a second after he says this for your daughter to quickly grab his large hand in her much smaller one, holding on tightly through her mitten as she waits for him to pick her up and take her outside with you which he does with no hesitation! your daughter loves being held by him and he loves holding her in his arms, it is quite rare that your toddler daughter actually walks anywhere )

♡ when you daughter is playing in the snow, forming little snowballs in her mitten covered hands and poking her fingers down into the previously untouched snow, bård is right there beside her whilst you film the two of them with his handheld camera, both of you laughing when your daughter attempts to hand him some snow before her big eyes widen in surprise as it quickly melts away in her hand, you coo from behind the camera as you watch him lay her down in the snow and attempts to teach her how to make a snow angel by moving her arms for her, you zoom in on them as he smiles down at her with such love shining in his eyes whilst making a tiny snowman just in front of her

୨୧ bård is a very proud father when it comes to quite literally anything your daughter does! she could hand him a stick that she found outside and he would treasure it as if it was made of pure solid gold, he would keep it in a drawer somewhere forever and absolutely never let you throw it out! he has major attachments and care for anything your daughter gives to him with it being meant as a gift for him because it just fills his heart with pure love for your daughter, it makes him feel so loved in his times of worrying that he does not make a great father because of his less than perfect circumstances in life… the cute little gifts from her mixed with so much loving from you about how all he will ever be to her is a wonderful father makes him believe that he is being the best father he possibly can be, it makes him feel loved and worthy…

♡ that is why he can just never ever find it in himself to throw away anything she ever gives to him, no matter how supposedly useless the item may be such as a common rock or twig! he will be keeping it so long as he lives on this world so do not be surprised when you randomly find it in a drawer when your daughter is no longer a toddler who picks things up off the ground to gift to her father, do not be surprised when your daughter is a growing teenager and bård comes home one day panicking about supposedly losing his so called lucky rock that she had given him when she was four years old only to later find it hidden in a hole of the pocket in his jeans! little things like that mean a whole lot to bård and they always will, he has even kept a lot of easily forgettable things related to you through the years but i will not go into that right now! he just loves you so much for giving him his little girl and giving him so much happiness in life! he loves his little girl for entering his life when he was still so young himself and changing him for the better

୨୧ when bård is finally released from prison and the two of you have another daughter together, he loves her just as much as he did your first daughter! he will always let her colour in his sleeve tattoos with markers as the two of them sit together on the comfortable couch with her small body curled into his side whilst she focuses on staying in the black ink lines the best she can! his voice is deep and burly yet so soft and caring as he mumbles down to her

“ stjernen min, you missed a spot there… there you go, smart girl! it looks so nice, hm? ” ( he will only tear his attention away from her toddler form when you and your now teenaged daughter appear from the kitchen after you had spent some time teaching her how to cook, welcoming the soft kiss you lean down and press to his lips and chuckling deeply against your lips when both of your daughters make dramatic grossed out sounds )

♡ you and bård had your first baby young, almost too young, but neither of you regretted it one bit! even now as the two of you are older with another perfect child shared between you, both of you look back on those early years with such fondness as he remembers how heavenly it felt to be a first time father and how beautiful you looked as a first time mother even if you are still very much beautiful now! he just loves being a father so much, he loves being a father to your children so much and would not trade the life he has for the whole world <3

[child0feden]

NOOGIES

do we think older dad! bård is the type of father to constantly be giving his teenage daughter gentle noogies? just pulling her into his side, pressing a kiss to her hair before raising his hand and messing up her hair a little to hear her put on faux annoyance but see the small smile paint her face as she breaks free from his loose grasp? sharing a chuckle with her whilst she scrunches her nose and pats her hair down? i think he would be…

he just loves seeing the smile overtake her face as she tries to be mad at him, tries so hard to whine about him ruining her hair as she brushes it back into place… i just know he would love his daughter so much! he just sees so much of you in her, even if she actually looks a lot like him, both you and her are his absolute pride and joy in life, nothing could ever make him happier than being with the two of you

i feel like it is such a comfort thing for him too, like he is very well aware that your daughter is getting older now, he knows she is not considered little anymore but she will forever be his little girl and he just wishes she could stay at home forever, wishes that she would never move out and get a life of her own, as selfish as that might sound… but he knows that one day, he will have to let her go, let her leave the nest and find her own life! the thought genuinely terrifies him so he treasures every second he has with her! giving her noogies strangely just reminds him of when she was much younger, when he could still pick her up and hold her on his hip! it just takes him way back :(

[child0feden]

FROM A WISH

right now, i am having some very split thoughts about dad! bård and conjugal prison visits :(

part of me feels like he would really want to get you pregnant again during one of these visits, throwing the provided condom off to the side and sliding his cock into your warm and wet cunt raw, fucking into you with desperate and fast thrusts in the missionary position, his head tucked comfortably into the crook of your neck as he pants dewey hot air against your skin, mumbling into your ear about how he is going to give you another baby… about how he is going to give his little girl a baby sibling to keep both you and her company until he finally gets out… he always cums such thick and heavy loads in these visits, of course he does! he goes without you and your velvet soft cunt for so long, his body is always so pent up and ready to give you all he has when you get the okay for another conjugal visit, always filling your cunt to the brim with his warm cum, thrusting in the deepest he can possibly go as he reaches his high…

but then another part of me feels like he would either always pull out or wear a condom during conjugal prison visits but not because he does not want to have another child with you because he absolutely does! he completely adores the little girl you already have together, he cannot get enough of how beyond perfect she is, how talented and beautiful she is… he loves the child he already has with you so very much and definitely knows that he wants to have at least one more in the future but i really do not think he would want to miss out on so many milestones like he did with your first child since he got arrested just months after her birth… he does not want to miss their first birthday party, he does not want to miss their first word or first steps, he does not want their only visits to be in a prison room with guards standing close by…

i really just cannot decide! i think it would be such a double edged sword for him, it would be such a difficult and nearly impossible decision for him to make! either way, one thing he knows for sure is that he definitely will be getting you pregnant again when he gets out of prison wether it will be your second child or your third! he wants at least one more child with you, he wants to experience all that he missed out on and treasure every bit of it without forgetting the child he already has with you

anyone else having a lot of dad! bård thoughts lately? i cannot stop thinking about having kids with him! send me your fluffy dad! bård thoughts or your horny dad! bård thoughts if you have any hehe, i like to know i am not the only one <3

[child0feden]

UNDER THE SAME STARS

- i am so bad at actually putting angst into writing but i just had the most angsty thought ever and i simply must put it out there to hurt you too :)

dad! bård who gets arrested for the murder just a couple months after your daughter, his precious little daughter, was born and has to leave both you and her

he is just so damn heartbroken, it already would have been hard enough to be without you, to not feel your touch and soft kisses but his little girl too? he never once thought he would ever miss being woken up at ungodly hours of the night to her high pitched cries, never thought he would miss having to quickly get out of your warm shared bed, having to untangle his limbs from yours, and rush over to the crib resting beside the bed to calm her down as fast as he can as to not wake you up, to let you get your much needed sleep… but now, as he sits alone in prison, the cold and completely silent nights just absolutely kill him! he wants nothing more than to hear your daughters cries quiet down as he rocks her softly in his arms and takes her to the kitchen, wants nothing more than to whisper coos down to her as he holds a bottle of warmed milk to her mouth, his finger gently tapping against the plastic as his tired eyes admire her little cherub face…

dad! bård who makes calls to some of his friends, most notably vegard and tomas, nearly desperately begging them down the phone to please look after the two of you for him, to make sure you and his daughter always have what you need and to make sure you have people looking out for you now that you are basically a single mother, his voice cracking down the line as he apologises to his friends for everything

and vegard especially keeps his word to him, promising to check on you whenever he can and always visiting you, to make sure his daughter is healthy and happy, to make sure you never have too much weight resting on your back…

dad! bård who just completely crumbles every time you bring her to visit him in prison, his chocolate eyes always becoming glossy with salty tears as he studies how much she has grown since the last visit, his heart shattering in his chest when he realises just how quickly she is growing up and just how much he is missing because of what happened that one stupid night… his daughter always stretching her chubby little arms out towards him as she sits on your lap, he always looks to you for permission before grabbing her from your arms, settling her on his lap and back against his chest as he tilts his head to look down at her, pressing a gentle kiss to her soft brown hair that is clipped back with small plastic butterflies, watching as her chubby fingers tangle in his long brown hair and smiling softly at her when she looks up at him with big doe eyes that mirror his own

he only lets his tears fall when it is eventually time for you to take her from his arms and leave him, small tears dripping down his pale cheeks as he brings a hand up to wipe at them, trying so hard to ignore the way his daughter is clinging tighter onto him with her little hands, so obviously not wanting to part from her father as fat tears begin rolling down her apple red cheeks! he can hear you whispering apologies to both of them, cooing at your daughter and trying so hard to stay strong as you lift her from his lap, whispering soft apologies to him as you tell him you will bring her again as soon as they let you and that you both love him so much… you hate it as much as he does, you hate having to take her from him as she kicks and cries, you hate having to see his utterly heartbroken expression as he realises this is how it will be for so long now… with him having to return to his empty and cold accommodation with you and your daughter nowhere in sight, only ever having visits as guards watch, as if he would ever do anything to you or his own child…

dad! bård who treasures every single letter and picture you send him of both you and his little girl, every polaroid of the two of you smiling into the camera lens, every messy and colourful drawing so clearly doodled by his daughter, every in depth and long written letter sent by you! he keeps them all, sticking the pictures and drawings up on a wall in his accommodation, staring at them with longing during his now quiet and empty days and nights

when your daughter gets older, she starts writing her own letters, be it filled with a lot of misspelling and messy handwriting but bård cannot get enough of it, spending his days reading them over and over, small tears dripping down onto the paper as he realises his daughter is able to write now, his daughter is able to speak now… and he is missing it all… his heart only breaking even further when you reveal to him in a letter that her first word was her calling out for him, calling out for her father… your visits and letters are the only thing that keeps him going, the only thing that he so badly wants to get out for…

dad! bård who is absolutely in awe of his toddler daughter, always letting her ramble to him during prison visits, admiring how she is just the perfect mix of the two of you, humming in agreement at every random thing she says, bringing his head up to meet your eyes, looking at you with so much love and want, smiling at you so softly, silently thanking you for not keeping her from him even after he did something so horrible

he still gets incredibly upset when it is time for the two of you to leave but he gets much better at hiding it from his daughter at least, but you can still see it in his eyes, the way his smiling face falls into a small frown when the guards come over to tell you time is up and he has to go back… you can feel that he puts the most love he possibly can into your final shared kiss before he leaves, you can see that he puts so much into his final hug and kiss on the head with his little girl, their goodbye hug is tight as he holds her up in his arms, peppering kisses to her chubby cheek before handing her back to you…

anyways, hope this hurts some of you as much as it did me because arghhh </3