#cyber mage

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TALES FROM THE VIRTUAL ORDER - CYBER MASTER ERAKLEN SECRETLY HARD AT WORK HELPING HIS TIME MAGE FRIEND

Tervlen? I heard what happened...are you okay? (Sigh) My dad wasn't there when I was born (Capt Erbeson Eraklen went missing in action while on a mission while Tervlen was still in the womb) and now? It seems I'll never get to meet his twin brother as well! God, this life really

Sucks sometimes, Senoha! Don't say, that! You got your parents back, you have a big brother now--and you also have me, right? Heheh, yeah you're right, Senoha! Damn it, this False Deity thing is really driving everybody on edge, Senoha! And with The Great Guardians in a mess

Our Hall of Wizards still recovering from last year's...! We got to do something! Is that why you're going against your own brethren by helping (Time Wizard) Brother Stumiktaz? Well he can't do all that on his own, right? Trying to collect all two hundred and six pieces of his mentor's bones

From all over the known timelines? (Sigh) But...don't you think other cyber mages might notice what you're doing? Heheheh, don't worry, Senoha--I know how to cover my tracks! I just don't want that Saif Shalkanath to devour anymore of our people, period! That vile monster has to be stopped! I love it when you're feisty, Tervlen...!

[cyberniix]

some subordinates except i dont like how goobert turned out

some lonely under cut as well

i love him.

[shemhamforash]

Thanks for your help.

[braderunner]

Commission: shadowrunners.

Order a picture from me on Fiverr :)

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BOND OF BROTHERS - TERVLEN AND ENPHISMARD THE NIGHT BEFORE THE HALL OF WIZARDS CONFRONT THE FALSE DEITY'S "REGURGITATED" ARMY

Hey Enphi, I thought you're asleep already? Nah I'm just about done saying my prayers for my late grandpa here...! So, he's the one who raised you, right? Yeah, Tugtup Rasqoul

The Blood Blade (Water Mage specialized in blood bending) of Vil Emphkar! Since my Mom was still in prison at that time he took to raising me till I'm eighteen--even trimmed

My "loose end" when I turned twelve! Heheh! (Gulp) So are we...ready to do battle again? To tell you the truth Enphi, confronting these "Repo" soldiers still sounds like a bad idea

To me...! Hey, don't sweat it, Terv! I never let you down, okay? Just do what you and the other Head Wizards have to do and leave the rest to me...! Well, if you say so Enphi...good night, bro...! Yeah, good night, Terv...! (Sigh)

Art by • Frank Frazetta

[emsartwork]

Hey yall im not dead!

COSMIX!!! I've officially redesigned all the transformations in the Winx Club TV series hell yeah

Lore and Design notes below

So Cosmix is a rather defunct transformation in the modern era. It used to be used heavily in the age of space exploration but since teleportation and hyper speed ships became common place, the Magix dimension prefers to use those. Essentially, in order to set up a teleportation center, the caster/s need to have been to both the origin point and the target point. Witches and Mages were the primary people responsible for setting up the teleportation system, but in order to achieve the spells requirements, they would require help from a Cosmix fairy. The primary function of Cosmix is the ability to fly through space with out detrimental effects. Cosmix fairies can take 1, maybe 2, people with them while they fly in a shooting star esc trail function. Cosmix is not great for fighting unless the foe is darkness/light based. Defense is strong against cold, pressure, and friction, but not most other kinds of damage.

Cosmix is also theorized to be the Magix Dimension's version of the elementix. So like Sirenix is the transformation that grants access to the Infinite ocean, Cosmix is the one that would grant access to the Magix Dimension if fairies were in the other realms. Because humans already belong to the Magix Dimension, and the transformation isn't required to earn Nymphix, it isn't considered a true Elementix. Some fairies (mostly Solarians) do experience biological changes when using the transformation, seen here in Stella, but it's not super common. The hair takes on the magic color and drifts into nebulous star dust and galaxy clusters. Solarians are located closest to Lumenia, a tightly clustered star formation, and frequent attract Lumens due to Solaria's binary star system. They have formed fast friendships with the Lumens and many Solarians carry a Lumen's Blessing (it's similar to the elemental companions' bonds in the elementix) in their bloodline which contributes to the biological changes when using Cosmix.

I'm still hammering out how seaosn 8 works plot wise but I'll add it to my show changes masterlist eventually.

Design! The initial concept was "man i wanna draw some chunky ass boots" and i kinda ran with the cyber punk look from there. I was also adamant that Cosmix is a pants transformation, both out of practicality and spite because they made everyone so hyper feminine in season 8. I referenced the actual cosmix designs and their "space travel" oufits for the general shapes for these, but obviously there aren't a ton of similarities since I went in such a different direction haha. Also my first time drawing Aisha with twists! I almost gave her a fro cus it would mimic an astronaut's helmet (and lowkey a nod to Garnet from steven universe) but i like how the twists came out haha

Cosmix includes! Hair up and out of the way, a mesh base layer with light veins and stars, a body suit or shorts and top, a padded armor torso piece with some tubing ports, so many buckles and straps, a clear plastic portion(usually part of the torso peice, sleeves, or around the waist/hips), wrist/arm guards, and chunky chunky boots. The wings are also larger than most transformations (rivaling Butterflix/Faunix) and trail more of the fairy's magic color than usual. Simple geometric designs are standard.

[sweetbunpura]

Sucked into the Cyber Space! Endless Journey through the Gaming World!

During a gaming session, a terrible storm hits and manages to affect the dorms. A large thunderbolt struck, sending a group of people into the cyberworld of the game they were play. Now they have to finish the game to be able to escape, thankful the game managed to alter their appearances too to fit into the world.

SSR: Gloomurai Idia SSR: Muscle Red Lilia SSR: Berserker Floyd

SR: Platinum Knight Silver SR: Blue Mage Ortho SR: Illusionist Azul

R: Beast Tamer Yuu & Grim R: Bard Cater

[itsjustcaroline]

Alright, I thought long and hard about what we might see in Arcane Season 2, what the Machine Herald is going to look like, who else we might see, and so on.

Also, this post does not contain any leaks, I have seen one picture, which doesn't even make sense (lucky me). If you spoil anything under this post, you are going to be blocked. I will talk about bout the trailers, though.

So, let me get my thoughts in some order:

- if Viktor was the hooded person in the trailer or wears a mask, then it's probably more because of his side in this war: he's not a Piltovan, but also not really a Zaunite anymore. We don't know when he moved from the Undercity to Piltover, but from his concept art, it was most likely during his early teens.

He's slightly younger than in S1 Arc1, but already wearing the Academy's uniform (though it seems a bit too big for him, and his pants are more rigged).

So: Viktor is going to be a Pariah and he is going to need to hide his identity, which makes a Collab with Jinx unlikely since she's on the run from everyone. Singed might be there in the direct aftermath after he got blown up, but they're probably going to fall out again since lore-wise Singed is going to team up with Noxus.

- In League of Legends Heimerdinger is a mage (shooketh, I know), and there's already a scene in S1 alluding to this: when Viktor and Heimerdinger are in Heimerdinger's office, Viktor goes through Jayce's notes and is intrigued. He asks Heimerdinger, whether he could do it (magic) and Heimerdinger hesitates a tell-tale second before he declines. Now, Heimerdinger might be a mage, but he relies mostly on his inventions. But wouldn't a fight between Viktor and Heimerdinger be cool? First, they throw ideologies at each other, then they fight. I think, I'd love this even more than Viktor vs. Jayce. Kinda like Obi-Wan vs. Anakin.

- I think, that Caitlyn is going to shoot Vi. Everyone I read so far thinks that it's the other way around, but that would be too predictable in my opinion. But maybe it is that way.

- Just stating that everyone is going to be contrary than they were in S1 and going from there falls a bit short. I think, that there's more to this quote.

- Divorce Era, because Jayce does, in fact, not understand. I am going to cry.

- The Hexcore will save Viktor's life in the aftermath of the explosion, and there are three ways I can see that happening:

(1) Viktor does it himself, maybe with the help from Singed.

(2) Jayce does it, thus breaking his promise to destroy it. I am going to cry

(3) The Hexcore, which is now connected to Viktor will sense his doom and burst to him. That might also be the shine, that Heimerdinger saw in the trailer.

- That brings me to another point, to the connection towards the Void: I don't think there's much to it and that the Hexcrystals are not shards of the brakken. However, I think the Hexcore is sentient due to Sky. Think about it: it changed its form after it disintegrated (or absorbed) Sky. Then it hurt Viktor (honestly, same. You think, you can walk away after accidentally dusting me and threatening to destroy my new essence? I'd be pissed). It might be interesting, if the Hexcore/Sky talks to Viktor in his head, furthering his spiral into madness. I'm here for it.

- Ekko will learn how to manipulate time and he will use it to try and save somebody. Be it somebody from the Firelights, their hideout or Jinx. Maybe it will go in the same direction like in the Convergence-Comic (which is, I repeat, outside of any lore), maybe not.

- Well then, what Viktor might look like: my favourite head-canon would be just as described in The Pulse of the Machine by bringthekaos on AO3. Mechanical eyes? Voice modulator can be shut off? Emotional suppressor has a switch? Rawrs in cyber-engineering. As it stands, I imagine it more to be like Battle Angel Alita (the manga, NOT the film!) or like a Borg from Star Trek. Definitely NOT like a Cyberman from Doctor Who.

- Who else do I want to see in S2:

Swain, just give me the Noxian General and heal my Daddy issues.

Renata, just give me the Chem-Baronness and heal my Mommy issues.

Jhin, Arcane should take place around the same time when Jhin was in Zaun. But that is a far shot (pun intended)

Camille, she exploits Hextech to become a weapon and I think she is kind of contrary to Viktor, who only ever wanted to help (others, himself, though with sometimes dubious means

I don't see that Orianna is Singed's daughter. That would fuck her beautiful lore. Don't do that to me.

Stuff, I'd also like to see:

- Viktor's apartment in Piltover

- Viktor's parents (flashback)

- Jayce's father (flashback)

- Jayce and Viktor fighting but unable to do so properly

- Mel and Sevika together

Thanks for coming to my Arcane-Talk.

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BOND OF BROTHERS - HEAD CYBER WIZARD TERVLEN ERAKLEN AND HIS OFFICIAL BODYGUARD ENPHISMARD TALKING INSIDE THE INNER SANCTUM

Are you sure we need to install all of these upgrades, Terv? I feel so...so overpowered! Yes, we must be well prepared when we go against that False Deity, Enphi; so it's vital

That we covered all our bases! (Snicker) Oh come on Terv, this is fine, trust me! Can't we just...take a step back for a while? (Sigh) Our dad lost his brother to that Stupid God and

I don't...don't want to...lose you, bro! (Sniffle) There there, Terv...it's gonna be alright...trust me, bro...! (Hugs) Okay...! And besides...that evil creature's probably gonna go after all the

Head wizards so I'm...I'm more worried about you, Terv...you're the only brother I got...! Hey thanks, Enphi! (Hugs) And besides, Senoha's gonna kill me if something happens to you, heheh! Oh? Yeah, I forgot about that, heheh!

[litrpgburrito]

The Seattle Stacks

[Lore surrounding a version of Seattle where magic and technology collide]

In the shadow of the Space Needle, amidst the verdant sprawl of what was once a bustling Seattle park, lies the Seattle Stacks. A haphazard skyline of motor homes, each one a relic of a bygone era, now stacked atop one another in a defiant monument to survival. The Stacks are more than just a neighborhood; they are a sanctuary for the misfits, the mages, and the machinists of a world where the lines between technology and magic have blurred into obscurity.

The story of the Seattle Stacks begins with the Great Convergence, an event that fused the realms of the arcane and the engineered. Magic, once thought to be the stuff of legend, flowed into the world like a tidal wave, crashing against the shores of reality. Technology, which had reached its zenith, suddenly found itself infused with this new, wild energy. The results were both wondrous and catastrophic.

In the aftermath, society reformed in unexpected ways. The Stacks emerged as a community for those who sought to blend the old with the new. Here, enchanters worked alongside engineers to fortify their homes against the elements and the creatures that roamed the wilds beyond. Poles and bars, imbued with spells of strength, held the precarious towers of homes aloft. Chains enchanted with protective wards clinked in the wind, a symphony of security for the inhabitants.

The heart of the Stacks was its people. Each tower, a small neighborhood unto itself, thrived on the cooperation of its residents. From the cyber-witches who wove spells into neon lights, giving them a life of their own, to the gearhead sorcerers who conjured mechanical familiars from spare parts and sheer will, the community was a tapestry of innovation and tradition.

At the center of it all stood the Emerald Tower, the first and tallest stack. It was here that the leaders of the Stacks convened, a council of the wise that guided the community through the challenges of their new world. They were the keepers of lore, the architects of the Stacks' future, and the bridge between the mystical and the mechanical.

As the sun sets, casting long shadows over the Stacks, the neon lights flicker to life, painting the sky with vibrant hues. The air hums with the energy of a hundred spells, and the scent of sizzling circuits mingles with the earthy aroma of the park's ancient trees. The Seattle Stacks stand as a beacon of hope, a testament to the resilience of humanity, and a reminder that even in a world divided, there is a place for unity—in the stacks where magic and machine coexist in harmony.

[drakeanddice]

What Non-D&D Games Feel Like to Run

Pathfinder

D&D, but more. The systems generally hang together better, if thats a selling feature for you, and the if you like waiting for math to be done, boy is this one going to wow you. It's got more system mastery to demonstrate which is cool, but in general it works like D&D, so you're going to do a bunch of prep work, your players will sidestep it, and you'll scramble to keep laying down track until eventually the campaign fizzles out or you do. Key GM moves are: "PREP" "Study" and "Look stuff up."

OSR

Like D&D, but without all the pesky systems. Most of these run on trust and a steady stream of rulings rather than rules. If your favorite bit of D&D is, "don't worry about it, make something up," the OSR is probably going to be your happy place. Your go-to GM moves are, "say something cool," "refer to a random chart," and "say yes or roll." Less exhausting than D&D, but you're still doing most of the heavy lifting here.

Shadowrun

Watch your friends make complicated characters and then do hours of leg work in hopes of not having to engage overmuch with the combat system. If you've got a Decker, try and keep everyone who is not a Decker engaged as they pull off a solo mission in cyber space. Then do it again as the Mage goes Astral. If you're lucky the plan ends there. If you aren't, you'll probably get to check out the combat rules as the run goes sideways. It's like D&D, but you prep three times as much, roll three times as many dice, shopping trips take even longer, and your party will plan entire sessions to death. Your go to moves here are "wait," "forcibly shift the spotlight" and "look up a rule."

Call of Cthulhu

It's D&D, but you are constructing a mystery. The more they know about it the less able to disentangle it the characters become. There are combat stats and a bestiary despite combat being a fail state. Many such traps exist and you are going to need to tapdance to avoid them. Your go to move is "reveal something spooky; kill a character" and "footstomp a clue."

Savage Worlds

It's D&D, I guess. I mean in a pinch. It's genre-nonspecific and runs on dice pools, but don't let that put you off. The GM is still responsible for cooking up a scenario, awarding experience, and handing out Bennies when the players play their characters according to their Bonds/Ideals/Flaws (okay edges and hindrances, fine) or when they are performing roleplay to your liking. It's fine. It's D&D but you can wear a cool Indiana Jones hat or a jetpack if you want. Go to moves include, "roll, I guess" "make it pulp" and "your performance amuses Caesar"

Powered By the Apocalypse

Despite some early installment weirdness in which one of these is literally D&D, these are not D&D. Prep is minimal, narrative is player-directed, and there's a larger focus on genre and fictional positioning. Fewer rules to memorize, but the way those rules work do <i>not</i> like you fucking with them. Yield to the fiction, hang on loosely. If you play the mechanics, everything falls apart. You've been warned. Your moves are "lean on genre convention" "stir up drama" "feel like you're not calling for enough moves, drastically over-correct and ruin fucking everything."

Forged In the Dark

It's D&D but not remotely. You're a game master for about 30 minutes, and then you are another excited voice in the writer's room. Set up the initial position and then strap the fuck in. This is the only game I've played that will fight you, like full on bottle and chains fight you if you prep. Your go to moves are "build consensus" "ask a question that spurs half an hour of play" and "begin designing a hack."

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OF FIREFLIES AND TURNING POINTS - THREE MAGES MULLING OVER THE COMING WINTER ON THEIR WORLD

Master Tervlen, Brother Enphi? This coming winter season is the first one that I'll spend as a free man, already forgotten how it feels like after ages of living within that virtual cell...! Same here, man! I've been dead for seventy five years and now I get to experience it all over again! Though it's gonna be a lot different now that I'm single again, heheh! Heheh, well

At least Senoha is really looking forward to it Enphi, though hearing her talking about all those times she celebrated Winter Solstice with you bro? Not gonna lie it kinda makes me homesick...! (Sigh) Yeah this winter is my first time too you guys, with mom and dad and you guys! Two years ago none of it really mattered to me, with my dad gone and my mom still in

Prison--I'd spend all my holidays taking care of our Coven and that's that...! But now both our parents came back and you've also got yourself a girlfriend, buddy! Things are looking up, bro! Heheh! Yeah, these last two years had been quite a life changer for me--For all of us, bro! Yeah, for all of us it seems? From a lonely kid occupying himself with magick all the time

To suddenly becoming the Head Wizard of my Order, to fighting in a really bloody war (the failed Kltua-Lymonzs invasion) two months ago? It seems too much for a fifteen year old to handle sometimes, looking back? But you did it so admirably Master Tervlen, don't ever forget that! Heheh, thanks Brother Talmov! Well, I guess it's time we head home, guys! Lead the way, Master! Let's go, bro! Heheh!

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Can you give more tips on how to play your Cyber-Controller deck?

Magic the Gathering tip: sure!

First of all, here's the video where I go over the deck:

My biggest tip for playing this deck is to make use of setup turns. In the early game, you want to play the Cyber-Controller for small amounts, like X equals 2-3, just to get a few Cybermen to begin feeding cards like Blinkmoth Urn and Karn, Legacy Reforged, and get counters on Elementalist's Palette if you have it. I've cast him for X equals 1 on multiple occasions. Don't be discouraged if you hit few or no creatures in these early casts, you can always try again. Once you get the ball rolling on mana production and Cyber-Controller cast consistency, you want to cast him for X equals 5-6 to begin assembling your Cyberman army, and once you have a decent number of them, don't be afraid to do nothing on your turn but cast him for as much mana as you can. If you wiff or he gets countered, you still have Cybermen from the previous turns to keep you safe. If he resolves for a huge amount, I've cast him for X equals 30 before, you can often assemble a boardstate that is extremely hard to attack into and can win you the game quickly.

Casting the Cyber-Controller without a way to put him back into your hand can be risky sometimes. If he gets stuck on the field, you can't cast him again. You could always just block with him to put him back into the command zone, but this isn't ideal because commander tax exists. Usually you want something like Dour Port-Mage or Drafna, Founder of Lat-Nam in play on turn 3-4, or have a solid suite of bounce spells in hand, and then you start casting the Cyber-Controller. If you have Trusted Advisor, you want to play on the same turn you cast the Cyber-Controller so you aren't forced to bounce something else.

The deck is really about knowing how to manage your resources so once you go all-in, you won't be blown away by someone countering the Cyber-Controller. Don't forget that attacking is also a game action, so if you dump all your mana into a Cyber-Controller that gets countered, just swing all at that opponent if you can. That'll teach em.

You don't want to keep a hand that doesn't have any sort of mana dork or rock, you really want one or preferably two cause even the setup of the deck can be mana hungry. Sonic Screwdriver is one of the sneaky best cards, being able to untap a Basalt Monolith or Elementalist's Palette to get double duty out of it can really speed things up. And of course there's the Basalt Monolith combos, if you have something like Forensic Gadgeteer or Forsaken Monument you can make infinite mana with it to cast the Cyber-Controller for X equals a billion and mill everyone out.

[your-fav-is-a-wod-monster]

Himb?

Gummigoo! this i can do something with

Subject #001: Gummigoo (TADC)

Category: Spirit (WoD)

Hi darling! Thank you for submittin this. So, this is fascinating! because taking the information from TADC, theres a LOT of implications about the Digital Circus itself in the context of WoD. Particularly for Caine!

(see explaination below)

Many entities have the ability to go into and control various realms of the Umbra, WoDs spirit world (think of ATLA' Spirit World, or WH40k's Warp). Usually with somewhat mixed results depending on what exactly it is and what realms its entered. There are atleast two realms, both in the Umbra that operate under the influence of technology and specifically the internet. With some small differences. the CyberRealm from WtA, and the Digital Web from MtA. Both realms having various spirits associated with their respective aspects.

now, the fun part. Caine is almost a god in the Digital Circus, reshaping it to however he wants and generally having no problem mixing around his reality. ill touch more on him in a future post probably, but gut reaction? The man seems like a Mage, specifically a Virtual Adept. The Digital Circus itself, a Realm he can interact with. I dont think its exactly his, but until we get more lore on him i cant really back that up with any supporting evidence.

it'd be simple to say then that Gummigoo is just a spirit in this realm, but i feel like thats not entirely satisfying. As far as i know, the Digital Web isnt home to many spirits beyond the various Pattern Spiders that maintain the web itself. I believe its more likely that this was a spirit from the other technological realm, the Cyber Realm, yoinked into whatever the Digital Circus is. Take this with a grain of salt though, researching the Umbra itself is a headache and a half.

My guess is a Gaffling of some kind. a very basic, sentient spirit. Though what exactly he is a spirit of is a bit harder. Maybe a manifestation of a Thinking Machine Spirit?

This is kind of alot to ramble about, but it boils down to Gummigoo being a digital spirit of some kind manifested by Caine.

Hope i didnt do too bad for my first post! Thanks love for the brain teaser :3

[kingarthurflourofficial]

july books

starter villain 3.5/5 (i do love! a john scalzi. his books feel so much like coming home even when i'm not hugely intrigued by the premise - he's an author you can trust to have a satisfying if weird ending)

cyber mage DNF (i love saad z hossain's other books - just think his style of writing is a little better suited to his novellas)

kundo wakes up 3.5/5 (see above! i love the world of his novellas a LOT and i think this was my fave yet.)

the parliament 3/5 (great concept! some really good moments! just didn't really click with me and i didn't like the main couple or think they made a good pairing)

hitchhikers guide to the galaxy 3.5/5 (by contrast, much more fun a re-read of this vs castle in the air - i felt a lot more competent at picking up on the nuance and satire vs when i read This at fifteen lol)

running close to the wind 4.5/5 (WHAT A FUN BOOK! only quibble was how much it felt like fanfiction like - in a fun way for sure! just very much like we were reading a couple we already knew the framework for so the author felt comfortable jumping right into the action and i could have used a little more time with worldbuilding)

the duke at hazard 5/5 (AHHHHHHHHHHHH NEW KJC AHHHH AND IT'S A GORGEOUS HOMAGE TO HEYER'S THE FOUNDLING! what a soft and enfolding work it is it's only been a couple weeks since i read it and already i want to be back in that world!)

the house of the red balconies 5/5 (talking of soft and comforting works! this was my introduction to aj demas and please know i immediately stayed up until four am reading three more of her books.)

sword dance 4/5 (loveeee a secret agent using his skills as a dancer to go undercover! love a disabled soldier loving them and seeing them as a whole person and vice versa!)

saffron alley 5/5 (OUGHHHHH now this is a MASTERCLASS in how you do miscommunication. not a plot device not a gimmick but something showing characters' inner lives and struggles and growth!)

strong wine 4/5 (not enough of the Boukos family but otherwise lives up to the promise of the first two)

kill the farmboy DNF (has the AUDACIty to say it's an homage to terry pratchett. i wouldn't let terry pratchett piss within a hundred yards of this book because it would be too good for it.)

soulless 3/5 (doesn't take itself too seriously! if it had been a little more queer i think i would have like it more and as it was the sexy scenes weren't too awful for a straight couple, but then i'm a sucker for a werewolf)

a botanical daughter 2/5 (INFURIATING. how dare it have a gorgeous premise of two insane gay victorian men creating themselves a daughter from taxidermy and mushrooms and fail at the premise so badly i WANTED the daughter to go feral and murder them all)

prospects 3/5 (i'm not trying to be rude and i had a pretty good time reading this but my gods and little fishes there was SO. much. baseball. {shocking in this sports novel about baseball})

evenings and weekends 2/5 (maybe i am just. very much not the target audience for this kind of book but i hateeeeee books were people are just wandering around lying to each other and themselves and generally being dicks. like what's the point! also not helped by my hating london and the hottest days of summer which is arguably the main character here.)

box hill 4.5/5 (okay listen. listen. i know everyone and their aunt has to have perfect morals these days and write the stoplight system into all their fanfiction they write for fun and therefore even moreso for published works but DAMN. i loved this book! it made me feel FERAL like! is it a portrayal of a healthy relationship? absolutely not. sustainable? no way. does it seep into your bones with a kind of aching longing for something formless and deep and heavy? Y E S. it does exactly what it sets out to do and i simultaneously want to force everyone i know to read it and also hug it to myself and snarl when people try lest they read it the wrong way.)