#cuz there ARE long videos of tips on how to improve thank god

[clown-demon]

((It's 1am and I'm gonna go to the casino... And I'm gonna go take a gander at the streets at least to get an idea of my upcoming routes.

Honestly it's a treat cuz I'm a wee bit stressed knowing I can lose this job if I don't pick up my speed...

[lollytea]

y’all...

I’m pretty sure I was born cursed to cry at even the slightest confrontation cuz God was a smart cookie. Took one look at me and was like “This little fucker would pick a fight with every stupid person she encountered if I let her. Better tone her down so she avoids getting into some deep shit.” And here we are.

Stupid people can hate and hate and make it known without feeling a gotdamn smidgeon of remorse because they’re so far up their own asses and totally convinced they’re Right™ Like? “Who, me? No, I already spent 30 seconds thinking about this topic and I came to the easiest conclusion to wrap my head around and therefore the best. I’m going to get involved in this argument now.”

And then they just do it. They wriggle themselves into a fight with someone they don’t even know. (Although they’d probably say otherwise. Little tip, guys. A tumblr blog is not an entire summary of a person. It’s an account, created to kill time.) Just...how do they do this? Is writing out long spiteful retorts not extremely stressful and draining? Do you not feel your stomach tightening with every word cuz hey, you’re not even doing this to vent, you’re intentionally sending all this malice to the person it’s intended for? You don’t even blink, do ya?

But something that so many on this gotdamn hellsite overlook is that little tumblr icon attached to a URL? It’s not a punching bag, it’s a person. Like I get it, we’re all very wrapped up in this constant debate between problematic/unproblematic. (I hate the word problematic btw. Just makes me think of tumblr and these self righteous arguments and uuuggh, makes me shiver. Tbh, if I’m gonna express my contempt for someone else’s actions, I would preferably use the terminology “Ur kinda bein a dick rn m8 can u chill?″ than problematic any day) But yeah I don’t know where this obsession with “pure unrpoblematic blogs” came from but a load of tumblr users seem to be totally cool with utterly crucifiying blogs that don’t live up to this image.

Of course, there’s exceptions in the kinds of blogs that I would have no problem with people ripping to shreds. A blog that actively  spreads indiluted hate towards a particular gender, ethnicity, sexuality or religion? Cool. Tell em they’re a prick to your little heart’s content. You’re probably a smart person deep down and you know the kind of actions that would deem someone unforgivable. Like I can’t always say I’m open to forgive and forget. If a known serial killer gets out, I don’t care how good his behaviour was, I’m not gonna share skittles with that guy.

But you gotta actually make the effort to think about what the difference is between PURE EVIL and a young person on tumblr who made a mistake and is still learning. Like is this person gonna be the exact same in a year? Who knows? Maybe they’ll learn from what they’ve done wrong and improve significantly all thanks to your helpful tips. OR Maybe they’ll be in an unpleasantly bleak state of mind because your bombardment of hate left an imprint on their psyche. Because yeah, let’s bring that detail up again. They’re people. Not content machines who are clearly defective if they do any wrong. Allow them to do better, Allow them to move forward.

But some people just refuse to let them, that I don’t even think they care about the cause they’re arguing for. It’s just the need for confrontation y’know? And it’s not like they can do it without a reason. Like some people just get a thrill out of arguments, online ones in particular and will try their hardest to provoke one. And I hate this type of behaviour, I really do but I don’t even think I can bring myself to completely demonize it. Cuz just like the blogs being sent the hate, the the ones sending it are people too, with the need to argue being a very human flaw. But listen, if you are a person like this, try to restrain yourself. Not everyone is like you. Not everyone gets a kick out of fights. Some people can actually become quite upset by them and would just like to be left out of any negative discussion whatsoever and you gotta respect their right to do so. Just leave well enough alone. Think you can do that, friendo?

Idk if there was even a point to all this but I think the message I was trying to go for is that that anti cyberbullying video they showed you in school and then made you fill out a survey when all you wanted to do was eat your fucking lunch and die. Yeah...that’s the vibe I’m going for. Be civil to each other and we’re all imperfect and constantly improving etc etc.

Just let me ramble about my feelings, I’m tired.