#cuz thats what i did the first 7 or 8 drafts of this thing and it always prioritized drama over comedy

[follychromatic]

ANOTHER STORYBOARD: DONE

Script / Outline: COMPLETE! Scenes storyboarded: 3/12 (Technically less but I split the scenes when they started getting long in my notes) Scenes animated: 0/12 Songs written: 0/2 OSTs written: 0/???

Overall progress: very little tbh bro we JUST started.

But hey! I am officially further than I was 2 years ago! And, my motivation is still intact! Gonna keep pushing forward!

I'm probably not going to update after EVERY scene is boarded, just the important ones or when I finish the boarding process entirely and move on to digitizing the boards (which should not take long), then FINALLY to the animation itself!

It's 4 AM and I'm going to bed but PROGRESS IS PROGRESS!

[estradasphere]

listened to the new vacon album!!!!! (i had to make a japanese spotify account cuz it doesnt release in the US until midnight orz) my thoughts on it below, mostly copypasted from when i was liveblogging it on discord lol

HATED JOHN - regret version

i'm not sure if i like this version of hated john better than the original hmmm.... his voice is certainly more dynamic but it doesnt feel like he's used to singing like that haha. a lot of voice effects being used too. i guess it's not better or worse it's just different p: instrumental sounded identical to the original to me but i'll have to relisten, i wasnt paying much attention to it

actually, he sounded like he was influenced by symaG's cover of hated john

2. Woodpecker

2nd song is woodpecker which was the one single he dropped so ive heard it plenty before. still a banger

3. ElecTravel - choo-choo version

electravel starts with a train chugging noise lol he's going all in with the toybox album theme

otherwise sounds pretty damn close to the original so far. vocal delivery is sliiiiightly different. actually i think i like this version better

man he still has that problem where his vocals kinda get drowned out by the instrumental sometimes though

OH he added an extra verse! kinda

4. TOY CHEESE

ok first original song we havent heard before. toy cheese-- WHAT THE FUCK

ok nvm i was just thrown off by the sample at the beginning. this is fun

…this literally just sounds like a jingle for a toy commercial. i think that's what it's sampling

what is he dooiiiiinnngggggg i cant deny that his flow is really good though

5. モーニング・ベーコン - tee-hee version

morning bacon time!!!

yeah he's getting drowned out by the instrumental during the kinda whispery parts. i dont remember if that even happens in the original. ill definitely have to relisten to them and compare afterwards

but yeah his voice is absolutely more dynamic on the album

oh seems like he's changing up the lyrics a bit too

i think i just heard his mic peak 😭

instrumental seemed the same

6. D-D-Donuts

second new original song time

this sounds like a childrens commercial again. vacon i know how you can make boatloads of money just license this to hasbro

very catchy though…

his flow is so GOOD

7. 微熱パレイド

BINETSU PARADE YAAAYY i wonder if saegusa redid her vocals too?

sounds like she did

still whispery but sounds a little clearer to me

absolutely whimsical album this is. the silliest hiphop ive ever heard. dude just wants to rap about food and toys and have a good time i can respect that

8. Afro Man - hold tight version

AFRO MAN-- dude you're too close to the mic

how did he get Less professional. wait thats the problem. these sound like first drafts not remixes. i mean theyre still good songs but

hes getting drowned out by the instrumental again too ahhhhh like yeah his beats are really good but be more confident man

9. Xanadisco

xanadisco… is he gonna rap about drugs please rap about drugs thatd be so fucking funny

PIANO!

ohhhhhhh i really love this instrumental

WAIT THIS RULES

yep this is my favorite song on the album so far no notes

why is it called xanadisco though. its not really disco…

👏👏👏

10. Be-li-va Voyager

another new original now

THIS IS ALSO REALLY GOOD!! why did he save his best songs for the latter half of the album

just say what you waaaant cmoonn~~~

i love the occasional turntable scratch he throws in there lol

11. Love my JANE - repaired version

love my jane… sounds identical to the original so far except the guitar is a little louder?

yeah it sounds like he didnt even rerecord the vocals he just remastered the instrumental slightly?

oh nvm there's like 1 bar of new vocal delivery in here thats it

still a great song. he didn't really Need to do anything to it besides adjust the mixing a little. so he did not

12. RUSTY DRUM BLUES

last song. this sounds like a track from sonic spinball

oh my god it really does HAHAHAHA

not a bad thing. sonic spinball ost slaps

not sure if i like the vocal effects he's using but the delivery itself is good

ooh when most of the instruments drop out for a sec its pretty groovy actually

yeah he's almost belting now haha thats definitely not something he wouldve done like 5 years ago. good for him for working on his voice

ough... definitely sounds a little overwrought at times though

also there was a brief moment of silence and i could just baaaaarely hear him breathe that was awesome actually

fade out aaannnddd album over

[omisbreakfast]

i rank every summer outfits from a3! because??

because i can. also fuck you.

the first version of this was deleted by tumblr in my drafts and now i have to re write it entirely and i fucking hate it here... anyways.

i’m biased as fuck

sorry it’s a long post

harugumi :

itaru : yeah no actually it’s pretty fine. ngl itaru is kinda hot when he dress correctly so there’s that. also, he’s often in pink. it suits him, but i don’t like it. still.... cute. but it’s also itaru so not too much praises. 9/10

citron : why.......... the shoes.... what the fuck are those shoes.... where did you even find them..... do you wanna fight or something.... this fills me with rage... you’ve disappointed me, citron... also hate the shirt. 3/10

tsuzuru : casual, soft, classic boy... nothing much to say here. but WHY THE FUCKING HAT??? IT RUINS EVERYTHING...... at least wear it correctly PLEASE. YOU DUMABSS. and the shoes would have been better in another color. i just,,,,, why tsuzuru, why the hat... 4/10

sakuya : i can’t bring myself to say bad things about sakuya. (also the fact that i don’t remember what i wrote before the first version of this post got deleted in my drafts pisses me off) but like,,, he’s cute. i mean it’s a classic outfit. tho the choice of the shirt is questionable as fuck. also HES SO TINY BABY. 6/10

masumi : yeah no actually i like it. i really like the shirt for some reason, it suits him. BUT BUT BUT the pants looks weird as hell LMAO?? like... it makes him looks like a crotch less ken doll??? it’s,,, really weird. also the shoes are.... hmmm.... overall good balance but there’s some weird stuffs going on. 7/10

chikage : garbage boy stink man. fucking looks like a rich white boy coming home from tennis and i fucking hate it here ™ if i’m objective about this it’s actually NOT bad but it loses several points for the sole reason that it’s fucking chikage and i won’t take shit for it. 6/10

natsugumi :

kazunari : why. why do you do this. why. why. how am i supposed to ever learn how to love when you backstab me like this, kaz ? what do we do now ? i trusted you and you betrayed me. i can never find love ever again............ yeah ok. pls let’s skip to the next one.... 2/10 (and two points is because it’s kaz and i just can’t bring myself to truly hate him.)

yuki : it’s not bad but i hate this dress. like. his outfits are usually ok but this? no. YOU LOOK LIKE A GOOD CHRISTIAN BOY, DAMN IT YUKI. are YOU GOING TO CHURCH TO PRAISE THE LORD TODAY TOO? also the colour of it... no. 4/10

tenma : congrats you rich boy you finally have a decent outfit ! though i don’t understand the concept of your zip being infront but ok. bet his stans like it smh. also i like the color of his jacket. very nice. 8/10

muku : baby i love u so much but u look like the pinterest girls who take aesthetic pictures in flowers fields and are smiling like the sun @ the camera.......... which is not per se but it’s a whole vibe. also stop wearing orange. it doesn’t go with your hair well........ ilu cutie. 8/10

misumi : my sweet boy. why are you wearing an hoodie with a jacket. why. it’s summer you idiot. you’ll get overheated. stop. but overall he looks very nice. idk i just think he’s neat......... i. i love u @ misumi. 9/10 (don’t look at me)

kumon : he... he looks like.... a j-j-j*ck..... which he is............... i just........... oh my god. i love kumon but he IS a jock i JUST ???? LALFKGKK. also his fucking shoes makes me lose my mind because this is so fucking bullshit ???? so ugly it hurts my eyes.... he’s lucky he’s a good boy. 4/10

akigumi :

juza : nah he hot as hell in this pass on it. if you’re asking yourself why he looks so good, here’s your answer : his arms. his arms are great. i can excuse his sandales this time cuz IT IS summer but yeah. yeah no he’s cute and- yeah. ok. yeah. hm hm. 9.5/10

taichi : so the thing with taichi is that his style is NOT bad per se but like. he’s a skater boy. so my standards are already very low for him,,,, like no offence i love taichi so much but,,,, that’s how it be.... his shirts are usually so big he looks like a GOD DAMN FLAG i can’t with this. and i don’t like how baggy his pants are but yeah,,,, it’s just a whole look.... anyways................ 6/10

omi : in which yosei boys decided to fucking test my patience by putting on classic, good looking clothes and decided to absolutely ruin my entire hopes and dreams (if i’m being dramatic ? no i am not.) AND their WHOLE outfits adding an useless stupid fucking hat thay doesnt seems even to be worn properly. omi, tsuzuru, you’ll pay for this. 7/10

sakyo : (i’m tired as heck and i almost forgot about sakyo when he’s right in the middle) actually i like this. it’s color coordinated and i think that’s very nice. but i wish his pants would have been a little bit longer. yeah no that’s it for real. also idk what’s about this outfit but he really shows how skinny he really is LMAOOO. shithead sakyo. 8/10

azami : the thing about azami is that usually his upper half is pretty well dressed, or whatever, but when we look at his pants/shoes its where everything goes to shit. Like ???? what the fuck man you could have done so much better if you didn’t decide to put this gigantic pants who looks like you’re gonna fly with it or fucking whatever (i don’t need to make sense i’m TIRED) also his shoes bothers me. can’t believe he’s fucking 15 like shut up. 6/10

banri : ...... *inhales* FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUU. fuck you and your ugly ass little hat and your zombie like haircut i. fucking despise you. if he were standing right infront of me, no he wouldn’t be because he would deck him so hard. YOU HAVE THE MONEY TO BUY CLOTHES AND THE TIME TO TRY AND MAKE IT LOOK GOOD ?? SO WHY???? what’s going on in your ugly ass little head bitch. THANK YOU god he isn’t wearing any animal prints in this, thats one thing. imagine this awful outfit with the ugly shoes and stUPID FUCKING HAT that i hate, with a leopard print shirt.... yeah cursed. i know. sorry banri stans i cant hear you over the sound of your man fishing with joe and bertrand on a sunday morning at 6am. 3/10

fuyugumi :

tasuku : ... idk man. he’s just there. why is... his shoes... so flashy........ bruh...... also he looks like a very straight man and idk how to feel about this. we know u gay bitch. 7/10

hisoka : except for the fucking weird ass pants it’s actually ok. he looks.... very comfy. 10/10 would CUDDLE...... pls hisoka.... i’m tired... fluffy boy..... ugh..... i don’t have much to say about this ok he just.... spare some cuddles. 7/10

actually i like it. well. there’s two things that bothers me. GREEN. DOESN’T. SUIT. HIM. PERIOD. if u think otherwise i’m sorry. it’s just awful with his purple hair (or whatever color it is) imo. and the second..... the square should have been a triangle. i won’t take no’s. 8.5/10

tsumugi : ngl tsumugi gives me little lost boy looking for his mommy vibes. at first i thought it was his outfits but no, it’s just his face. and this ? doesn’t make it better. idk how to explain but how he wears his shirt makes it look like he’s floating and it’s kinda cute in a... special way. he’s just a very sweet boy. 7/10

azuma : i can’t bring myself to even say bad things about azuma... it’s physical. i just can’t. i have a theory his power is that strong and therefore i cannot critizice this beauty. he just. is. ya know........ sigh...... 9/10

guy : if he dresses like this, that’s.... that’s not your man, ladies. that’s your loving, hardworking and dedicated husband who just went to pick some flowers in the prairies next to your little farm in the middle of the nowhere but who’s still paradise on earth cuz it’s the two of you and you couldn’t ask for anything more. deadass. fucking peasants. 4/10

[lilsana]

get to know me tag ;p

RULES: ANSWER THESE 92 (THERE’S 88 BUT) STATEMENTS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE.

I WAS TAGGED BY @tenpioca​

I TAG @hqleetaeyong @tzennieee @https-km @4utas @iloveyu-ta !! optional ofc

THE LAST:

1. DRINK: mello yellow

2. PHONE CALL: my friend amaya

3. TEXT MESSAGE: “I AM AWAKE”

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Bonnie & Clyde by Dean

5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: okay last night……i dropped my bowl and it shattered and i cried a little bit

HAVE YOU:

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: y…es…

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: no

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: no

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yeah ive lost shitty friends

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: yeh

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: i am a weak bitch who cant hold liquor

TOP 3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. white

13. soft yellow

14. light pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yessss im really happy to say that i actually made friends on this blog! and in real life i made some new friends at my new job :)))

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: yes….

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: yeAh, i feel bad for people who havent tbh

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yeah

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: many times

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: on multiple occasions

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: nop

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: whats a Facebook

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: i have a blue healer/black lab puppy named kobi!!!

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: heh

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: it was my 18th! but i didnt do much i think i went out to eat and that was it (because i got a puppy and that was my main present!)

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: typically i wake up around noon, but today i slept in Real late, like 2:30p LOL

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: drinking tequilla and smokin weed (LIKE ACTUALLY LOL THATS WHY I SLEPT IN LATE)

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: the end of the summer because im moving out and going to college and im Excite!!!

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: 2 seconds ago

30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: i wish i could go back and work harder in high school!!!

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: im watching game grumps play mario sunshine TT

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: i work with a cool guy names thomas!

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: when someone tells me how to do something i already know how to do, or when someone tells me to do something that i was ABOUT to do.

LOST QUESTIONS

34. MOLE(S): i have one on my neck and my back

35. MARK(S): i have scars all over my arms because my my dog had super long claws and would jump on my all the time smh

36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: LOL i used to want to be a math teacher

37. HAIR COLOR: im naturally blonde but like for the passed 7 months i had i brown and i just bleached it and now its pink on top and the shaved sides are fiery blonde

38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short af

39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: GUY AT WORK NAMED ZACH HE FUCKS ME UP MAN

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i can easily adapt to change and im always changing an aspect of my life!

41. PIERCINGS: nose piercing and double ear piercings (but i dont wear piercing in my ears cuz im sensitive lol)

42. BLOODTYPE: A+

43. NICKNAME(S): i am known as betsy the bisexual to a lot of my best friends friends LOL

44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single ;/

45. ZODIAC: sagittarius

46. PRONOUNS: im gonna be honest…idc

47. FAVORITE TV SHOW: orphan black BIH

48. TATTOOS: im savin my money to get a tattoo mark lee’s iconic ramen hair tattooed on my arm LMFAO

49. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right

50. SURGERY: neva

51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: yeah ive had my hair every color of the rainbow minus green LOL rn its pink

52. SPORT: i played soccer in high school

53. VACATION: im always on vaca hunny

54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: i have addidas

MORE GENERAL

55. EATING: i just ate mcdonalds

56. DRINKING: mello yellow

57. I’M ABOUT TO: open my drafts and look at the three stories ive started and hope for something magical to happen

58. WAITING FOR: my car to be fixed :(

59. WANT: to move out sooner fucc

60. GET MARRIED: who knows

61. CAREER: research chemist for nasa

62. HUGS OR KISSES: kisses pls dont hug me

63. LIPS OR EYES: why not Both?

64. SHORTER OR TALLER: im short af so taller but i dont care

65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: it doesnt matter to me

66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: arms arms arms arms arms arms

67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: sensitive!! bc im a sensitive Bitch

68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship….probably

69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: me, a Troublemaker

HAVE YOUR EVER:

70. KISSED A STRANGER: no

71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: yes

72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: this is the worst fucking thing

73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: yeah lol

74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: oh baby what is you doing???

75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: yes

76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: i probably did, but it was as bad as it really was and i was overreacting LOL

77. BEEN ARRESTED: no

78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yess

79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: ofc

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. YOURSELF: on occasion

81. MIRACLES: no lol

82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: irl no, but its easy to fall in love with people over the internet

83. SANTA CLAUS: no

84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: cute

85. ANGELS: i want to say yes because lee taeyong and lee jeno exist but??? im not actually religious

86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): mayo and whoregina

OTHER

87. EYECOLOR: grey

88. FAVORITE MOVIE: interstellar!!!

[castlehead]

meandering: inspired by caylen crawford

while i was at beekman i was dating who i thought was the love of my life

in essence, foolish puppy love; i was 18. etc.

in any case it wasnt the healthiest relationship. i returned to the boarding school that kicked me out for self-harm shit [kind of a dick move on their part really but i guess i was a liability; and i mean w/e, thats how i had gotten to be at beekman to begin with]

anyway, i returned to said boarding school, millbrook, to attend the graduation of my previous classmates. i was already on the skids with grades at beekman, things didnt look good re getting a diploma, and i was always stealing my gf’s medicine: she was prescribed the big three, a combo i have seen many times before: adderal, ambien, and klonopin.

anyway i did something stupid and jumped out of the second story dorm window -luckily enough this was after the grad ceremony itself so thankfully that part of my boarding school friends' graduation didnt have much drama to it. the aforementioned girl promptly dumped me at the end of that summer, after i had shuffled thru various hellish psych units haha

and this is just 08

but yeah; fucked up my back pretty bad. imagine the wind getting knocked out of u but times a hundred

anyway, spiraled straight into the jaws of a crippling depression accentuated by social anxiety and a general inability to function, along with this doing more drugs [the girl i had dated had been a virtual pharmacy after all, and had introduced me to harder shit, for the first time, back then] basically all 09 i felt like i was gonna die; then, had an intense vision, saw god one night in my friends kitchen, embodied as a vase i witnessed fall to the floor and shatter into an infinite number of pieces, then magically reform once again into a whole vase -begging the questionable logic behind the fact of anything if shattered into pieces of an infinite number reassembling, being able to reassemble, into the original intact object. would there not also be an arbitrary void, an endless 'final embellishment' as stevens might say, that kept the vase from ever being entirely whole? i desperately tried to capture what the message was, and wrote insane nonlinear drivel on 8 reams of newspaper all night. i woke up three weeks later -the incident had resulted in a long bout of amnesia or something

anyway, i wrote a shittton of philo stuff after, and some great poetry, in fact, just know im on the other side dude. never been more together, honestly, these days. Anyway,

'10 -went to university of hartford, did inconceivable numbers of psychedelics, research chemicals; wrote most of and assembled the first draft of an epic poetic sequence,- over the course of twelve hours sitting on a rock in one place near a brook in the woods outside of the uni. made two really good friends there but eventually got too crazy with the drugs and never went to class. flunked out. my parents were not happy. they sent me to a wilderness survival camp for half a year. wrote a nature epic, heavy nature imagery, by hand, over the course of my stay at the wilderness program, but never did any of the wellness questionnaires or whatever in the booklet they give u to fill out, bc i thought it was stupid and useless. so eventually the staff there were like, this motherfucker has been here half a year, hes going insane

i mean at that point i had been living for quite awhile in the wilderness of the blue ridge mountains, always for three long weeks at a time, followed by a brief weeklong interval in semi-civilixed quarters. and then it was back into yonder wilderness. and this was some like leo dicaprio in ‘the revenant’ type shit. i mean they went hard yo really

need to make a fire? no matches, no lighters: u had to -make- it using a bowdrill or quartz and steel. i never got the bowdrilling down but i was pretty good at sparking the charcloth in my tin with the quartz frictioned against the steel, which is called ‘striking’ cuz u strike the bit of steel against the quartz over dry burnt cloth hoping the resulting sparks from this catch on the cloth etc. etc.

anyway that nature epic was my saving grace -at the end of it all it was arond 111 pages. they said my writing that was enough to let me leave.

anyway, had two years sober after that, in and out of dual diagnosis facilities

developed my poetic voice and technique. as soon as i leave to go back to new york, i get invited to stay with this girl ****, who i would end up dating and basically living at her apartment buying us drugs. it eventually got so bad she got put on leave from uconn where she was going to school bc well that’s drugs for you.

I had a monthlong psychotic episode, drug induced -and i mean like, talking to the walls, thinking the tv was talking to me type shit. anyway that led to one thing or another and i found myself living in random motels in windsor locks ct near the airport continually strung out on heroin and disoriented by pcp

with said girl *****

so now its around 2014 2015 i meet the true love of my life and leave ***** for her

but then i cant decide on either girl and end up fucking them both over emotionally

and in june of 2015 i was so overcome by guilt i jumped over 7 stories out of a window

onto the concrete courtyard outside of my room in nyc

it would have been the end, especially as i was aiming for the stairs that descended from the courtyard to the basement door; by some act of god, i hit this giant heater at the bottom

it broke my fall

i got out of it with a perforated liver and an arm broken in half but really i should have been dead.

so then i underwent intensive therapy, decided i wanted to be with the girl who is now having my child, while in the meantime, *****, my ex, spiraled out of control, which i blame myself for, and od'd on heroin, which i blame myself for, to this day. id say i grapple with that more than i should

but yeah: she died, bless her haha. and, uh

well these days im sober, level headed, happier than ive ever been, writing clear, lapidary pieces of writing, and in love with the woman who will bear my child, -and also gainfully employed, as much as i can be, considering therapy takes up a lot of my week

and that, sir -are the uh, main events i should say

it almost makes my head spin at how so much can change and then change back in a single decade.