#cuz its a festival. idk why people make fun of them for that sometimes i always thought that was nice

[evilswag]

film is silly GQ said beetlejuice beetlejuice got a 3 minute standing ovation at cannes and immediately I knew the movie is bad

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary265

6/8-9/24

saturday - sunday

album is coming closer to being done...

worked on 5 songs today, one of them still needs work, leaving me at 4 more roughly completed and 3 more to go before this should be like, a touch closer to completion. excited about working more on the cover art. thinking about doing some extra collages for it though we'll see abt that.

throat still hurts very much. i hope it heals soon, whatever this is, it hurts to swallow right now, but speaking is okay, it's on the left side of my throat. i hope it's not like, something terribly wrong with a tonsil or something.

here's some pix i found, old photos of anime figs, i was listening to this song and the thumbnail made me want to go looking for more images like this, why, idk, some of the ones i found and am still looking for/at are old pics from some con in japan, called wonder-festival, they had people doing some cool looking garage figs as well:

here's the garage figs i really liked from wonder-festival:

plus,.,.,., check out this ggunnnn!!

this one's funny. idk what it's even from. i miss when guns in anime/games looked this bizarre. they need to do this again.

and here's some other pixx people took of their real figs:

and then here's an oddity i found, looking at a camera type used to take this pic:

which i sorted into a dif folder cuz it's a bjd, and it's a very pretty one and it's a very weird image, taken with the konica minolta dimage z1, i found this pic of flowers taken w/ that camera:

i like how fried and weird its color space seems to be.

and then this one:

i really want to figure out what she is from, sometimes i feel like that, whatever that is, a chest wound and thin, staring out at... idk. going #crazy. i guess.

anyway now i should play vtmb and get closer to finishing it... it's sad that the game gets less good as it goes on, like downright tragic. chinatown and then blehhh, tragic tragic, walking around santa monica is, as i said i think, perfect videogaming.

okay, i did the society of leopold stuff, which was fun, i used dominate magick (it feels cute / witchy to spell it that way... oh no... i really am like my mother) to make a bunch of the enemies in the level just kill themselves and then tranced them to suck their blood. it's crazy how easy that is. i need to finish out the thaumaturgy stuff to make it better. it's a fun zone, rather easy though, it feels like the start of the game is super tough and then difficulty kinda drops off. chinatown is like rather tough as well, and then,.. it goes easy on you with a bunch of human enemies without any potential for masquerade violation.

oh here's a pic from the other day, in the victoria's secret, it felt like, important, for some reason:

important as in descriptive of some kind of facile thing. idk, consumer-nightmare type thing, i love camera flash on wet drink straws, that always looks good and freakish to me.

anyway, i can't stay up too late, just for my own good. oh, but, today i did go walking on a treadmill for 30 minutes. i haven't done that since i was a kid, i think i should do that twice a week at least to keep my body, like this, i suppose. less about losing weight than maintaining weight... but if i get a little skinnier that would be cute.

anyway, for real this time:

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[yunfeiz]

my fav red velvet songs

for some clarification, in every rv ep, mini album, or album i'll tell you which song is my favourite (jokes on you all of them are my favourite, these ones are just to my tastes more)

let's begin!

something kinda crazy - ice cream cake the melody gets super addicting after a bit and i really love the song. like whoever made it knew what they were doing cuz it's literally making me go crazy

day 1 - the red this song makes me so happy. like it always manages to put a smile on my face. idk the lyrics but this is the song that makes me feel like im slowly falling in love

cool hot sweet love - the velvet i feel like this is the kind of song that makes me feel so relaxed. the way all of their voices blend together is so addicting. it's like their harmonizing but im 50% sure they arent. love this song

sunny afternoon - russian roulette it's the same thing that i said above. their voices blend together in the chorus so well because of their different tones. SM is so lucky to have red velvet cuz their voices are out of the world.

happily ever after - rookie people don't talk about this song enough. its so addicting. wendy's adlibs make it even better. the song is cute and it's so cheerful and it's just really beautiful. one of my fav rv songs

hear the sea - the red summer i feel like this song is so calming and refreshing. it's almost like an entirely different vibe from the album. it's like drinking a cup of water after eating a hearty meal.

kingdom come - the perfect velvet + the perfect red velvet red velvet repackage albums make me cry sometimes tbh BUT kingdom come is the best thing that came out of this. this song is slept on. their vocal tones make the song sound even better.

blue lemonade - summer magic tbh i dont' have much to say on this song other than IT'S SO GOOD. summer magic is such a good summer album i would highly reccomend listening to this when it's hot out

rbb - RBB this is one of the few red velvet albums where im like the tt is better than the b sides (cuz red velvet are b side queens). rbb is just THAT song. i love it so much (for b side sassy me is my fav)

milkshake - the reve festival day 1 milkshake is one of those really surprisngly fun songs cuz it sounds almost minor (idk if it is my music theory is a little shabby rn), but the song and the way it's written is super fun. super cool

ladies night - the reve festival day 2 i had a horrible time choosing between ladies night and love is the way but i decided on ladies night. once again im a sucker for city pop like influences in songs and ladies night just fulfills that. (i adore love is the way though)

in & out - the reve festival finale i love this repackage album tbh. i listen to this before debate tourneys so i don't cry. in and out is just amazing. idk how to express why exactly i love it but i do

pushin & pullin - queendom i think i follow the person who produced this song on tiktok? but they produced it wonderfully. it fits the timbres and the tones of the rv girls so well. i enjoy this song so much

bamboleo - the reve festival 2022 in terms of general music theory and production feel my rhythm would take the cake BUT i can make a post about that another time (lemme know if you want it). however, AGAIN city pop is my thing and any song with city pop influences so bamboleo is literally amazing

i haven't been posting very consistently lately and i'd like to apologize. i have exams in a couple of weeks so i gotta start preparing. i will try and make some layout posts this week and keep updating you guys about songs im obsessed with but i don't have any guarantees. have a great day!

[normal-thoughts-official]

Do you have any hcs for Magnus taking ppl to pride for the first time? I kinda feel like he’d act as a guide for others, making sure everyone feels safe and happy during their first time. Like, I can picture him bringing daylighter Raphael out for the first time, showing Meliorn around (bc even though they’ve been around for a while, the Seelies don’t really do human stuff) and holding Alec’s hand while he looks around in amazement.

well surprise surprise this got very long. bet y’all never saw that coming

ok so i particularly love this ask because like, the idea of meliorn going to pride for the first time is a riot and i adore it

like seelie society has developed completely independently from mundane society in every way, hell, it existed before humans did. so there's absolutely no reason whatsoever to believe that their culture even has the concepts of gender of sexuality, and believing that it would be the same as modern western ones is just straight up anachronistic tbh

so like personally i hc that seelie society has no gender (and therefore no concept of sexuality in the way that we see it), so the idea of pride- doesn't even make sense to them, cuz there's no concept of these identities, much less a history of oppression that would bring forward the need to celebrate their resistance like there currently is

so meliorn would want to go just to like, see what that's like and what's it all about. and the whole time they're just following Magnus around and like, taking notes. hm, interesting, what is this trans thing again? ah yes, people who dont think their personality matches the one mundanes believe would be brought by their genitals. hm. fascinating. and Magnus is just like, laughing loudly and it's the best pride he's ever been to, because he knows how ridiculous queerphobia and cishetnormativity are, but meliorn can make that so clear in their words in a way thats just, like, fantastic to hear, you know? and they dont even mean to, but it's great all the same

plus meliorn actually does feel good because a lot of people look at them and smile broadly or even wave, especially younger people who are just like, in awe of them and Magnus, who are so unapologetically gnc and indisputably beautiful, and looking at them is just like, inspiring, you know? and Meliorn has never felt this admired and appreciated and they dont even fully understand why, they're just walking around in their usual clothing and leaf makeup and everyone is just like, in love with them. and it's nice. they can tell there's an edge of sadness to the whole thing, like how their normal everyday existence seems to be so shocking and refreshing for these people, but mostly they feel good about it

later they bring their findings to the other seelies - you know, the ones who dont usually leave the realm and are way less familiar with mundane culture(s) than they are - and the others are like. shut up. there's no way this is real. the shape of their genital defines what wavelength they are supposed to find appealing? this makes no sense. and meliorn's like "idk what to tell u buddy i literally physically can't lie" and they're like surely this is an elaborate prank

but anyway it's fun and nice and they enjoy it greatly and ask Magnus a lot of questions, and Magnus loves going with them more than anyone else because its just so fun and the way this is completely unnatural to them feels refreshing - Magnus doesnt have to explain why he feels the way he feels, for once, but rather he has to explain why people dont get that, and thats a good change tbh

okay onto other ppl im sorry for this tangent djdndjdndk RAPHAEL YES. god i just. okay i love the mental image of Magnus taking Raphael to pride aaaaaaaa

like okay first of all so many layeRS to make this emotional, okay. the fact that he's now a daylighter and can enjoy being out in the sun, the fact that this is a bright costumed parade and it kinda reminds him of the día de los muertos parade and makes him feel at home, the fact that he gets to celebrate and meet other ace ppl - just, so many good things going on here dundidmdi

and Raphael was kinda unsure about going because 1- pride can get pretty sexual at times, and while he gets it and doesn't mind other people's business, he doesn't want to be hit on or participate in that; 2- big crowd makes senses go craycray and it can get very overwhelming and he's scared of overload, plus it's just not his scene in general with huge parties and such. but a part of him does want to go and he's torn, so of course Magnus is immediately like "oh dear, don't worry, i can take you, i'll make sure it's good" and Raphael is like okay

so Magnus takes him and it's :') nice, because as always he’s just so attentive. disclosure i’ve only ever been to the São Paulo pride so i’m gonna go with how it works in here but im assuming it’s not that different in like, other places. also São Paulo currently has the biggest pride parade in the world along with NYC so you know, i think it’s influential at the very least

anyway so he finds a section that’s led by ace pride groups, one that’s considerably small (in number of ppl) and spacious, and it’s. nice. very nice. magnus makes it a point to paint the ace pride colors on raphael’s face (we deserve raphael in makeup tbh) and raphael is all like “it’s fine, it’s not like i’ll want to draw a lot of attention” (like he isn’t wearing the ace flag colors already) and magnus is like hush, let me have this, i want my boy to have a good pride experience. so raphael lets him and hides his smile and lets him, and it’s. cute okay

also idk why but i have the mental image of raphael seeing some other latino guy with some sign like. “i’m not your fetish” or something of the sort, and kind of tearing up because his whole life he’s been seen as this kind of sexual fantasy that couldn’t not be about sex, much less not be interested in it, and he feels seen. and it’s nice, okay

and as promised it’s not too overwhelming in matters of like people, tactile issues and such (there’s little magnus can do about the noise other than spell raphael to decrease his sensitivity so he doesn’t get overwhelmed, which is not ideal because it makes communication a bit harder between them, but he does it anyway if raphael asks him to), and if raphael gets tired, they can always turn into a corner and take a portal back home and cuddle the post-crowd jitteriness away. so it’s a success. and raphael hugs magnus later and thanks him and says that it was so great, that he’s missed this, the energy and the colors and the sun, and he never thought he’d get to have it again, and he did thanks to magnus. and magnus hugs him back and tells him “anything for you, my boy,” and it’s the sweetest thing okay im emo

also okay this still falls under Raphael and Meliorn but the POLYCULE okay, or at least saiaphaeliorn. like sign me the fuck up for the 4 of them together at pride, meliorn and magnus helping make some cute pride-themed makeup on the other 3, just aaaaaaaaa. maia looking absolutely gorgeous with her face framed in the bright bi colors, maybe a sunny dress with the trans flag colors? just because i think she’d look so cute in like, a mostly white dress with baby pink and blue details, okay. simon just paints the pan flag on his cheek but it’s still vibrant and cute and it suits him. and ghhghghghg meliorn delicately painting raphael’s face with colorful glitter..... effervescent, okay. just beautiful

and they get to hold hands in public and laugh and crack jokes and simon loves the music and the festival and raphael smiles fondly at him and maia singing along (him and meliorn definitely don’t know what the fuck they’re singing, but it’s okay because they’re clearly happy and that makes the two of them happy too) and just duahsdiahdaiuha soft okay. also they all get to experience meliorn’s takes on the whole thing and it’s fantastic and as usual meliorn gets raphael to laugh until he almost cries, and simon smiles brightly at the sight and gives meliorn a peck for their efforts, and just aaaaaaaa

in short they’re SOFT and i’m SOFT. and look yes i know that usually parades esp big ones are super crowded (lord knows the SP pride parade is an experience) but if in SP with 5 million ppl parading i could find sections with less people where you had enough space to walk holding hands and hear each other and not be overwhelmed, then i’m sure they can too, especially with magic and powers at their disposal. so i’m going to have this

also like. as much fun as this is for magnus (and it definitely is, it’s very nice to get to enjoy to be himself openly, and to bring kids there for their first time, and you know), it’s also bittersweet because like. he was there at stonewall, he was there for the first pride, you know? and apart from the obvious part where he lost so many friends who were there, there’s just. the very bad memories of the riots, because as important as they are and as much as he obviously doesn’t regret them, riots are hard, they are the language of the oppressed. he’s had to magically protect people from being shot by the police, he’s had to withstand trial by the Clave for using magic to shield the people from the tear gas and risking being seen, he’s had to save a lot of lives and he’s failed at it sometimes, too (i’ll always hc that he’s the reason neither Marsha nor Sylvia died during the riots and you can pry that away from my cold, dead hands). and he’s also seen it be whitewashed and lose some of its resistance and meaning, he’s seen Sylvia be booed at a later march when she spoke against imprisonment, and he’s seen so much be lost

and in that sense going to pride with alec later on might be his favorite, because it’s not like, a first time where he’s trying to get everyone to have the most fun they can and shit, you know? plus alec loves watching more than he does participating, he feels way too exposed in the crowded streets with so many openings and whatnot. but watching from a rooftop, where he has the best view, can still hear the sounds and enjoy the colors and the beauty of it from a distance? that’s perfect for him, and it’s a different experience

and magnus sits by his side as they watch, hand in hand, and reminisces about everything that he’s experienced after so many years, all the changes he’s seen, how he feels pride but he also feels loss and he feels old, and he fears what happens if pride’s history is forgotten, you know? and alec listens to him, listens to his version of this story, playing with magnus’ fingers and just enjoying the sound of his voice and the sight. and it’s nice. alec is always super attentive and enjoys hearing him talk and magnus can get lost in his memories unapologetically, you know? and it’s good

but that’s later on, of course, when they’ve already attended plenty together. for alec’s first pride he probably wants it to be like, perfect, so much so that alec has to tell him to slow down again, because of course magnus wants alec to have The Full Pride Experience, but alec would rather soak it up slowly than participate in a lot of stuff, anyway. magnus paints the rainbow flag on his cheek (one of the only occasions alec lets magnus put glitter on him, then promptly complains for the next three months because i swear that stuff is still on my skin, magnus, the other day i found some on my shoes! and magnus laughs at his antics as always and alec is forced to laugh too and can’t even be mad) and they kind of stay more by the end, and alec is kind of smiling in disbelief to himself the whole time as he watches all the colors and the unapologetic way people express their pride, and magnus can’t stop looking at him and grinning, too. and they walk hand in hand and it’s cute

(later, magnus says, see, mundane culture isn’t so bad, is it? and alec looks at him with a way more serious look, full of joy and happiness, and says, no, it isn’t. and kisses him and thanks him for everything, and it’s sweet)

also I'm soft thinking about Magnus reminiscing about planning the first pride along with "his dear friend Brenda" to Alec and/or Raphael, them putting their arms around his shoulder as he tells them the softer stories, too, the good things they did

small bonus: Magnus plays 2 truths and a lie with Simon regarding his memories of past prides, and Simon gets it wrong every time and is all wide eyed by the end, which makes both Magnus and Raphael laugh :)

[notjustawave]

ok tumblr deleted it all lol so i retyped it @bearhugged PLEASE WJOFIJEIF i did #1 3) whats your favorite/least favorite quality about yourself; why my body? i guess….like ya there are aspects of my personality i dislike but overall im fine with. but ya i really hate my body lMAO and for obvious reasons!!! like i look like shit lol 5) how often do people (not family members) tell you they love you idk some of my close close friends sometimes say it? but its always implied like i dont feel not loved by my close friends (like u nawreen <3) like ya you dont got to say it every damn minute to feel it! 7) would you ever cheat on someone no cuz that’s ugly? lol why would you hurt someone like that like just break up. 9) whats the worst pickup line someone has asked you someone using a pickup line/wanting to date me? never heard of that, never experienced that emotion 11) what are your ambitions lol. i used to be so ambitious like in gr.11 i rly was like I WILL GO TO HARVARD and be an astrophysicist and shit. like i was like even if i dont i will go somewhere nice and succeed in physics/ get degree/ go to grad school/ love life and be a nobel prize physicist!! now im like uh....can i like watch tv all day and not speak to my family and live with my friends and go to the beach every day. so ....ya got none anymore oierjgioerg 13) what is one thing you’ll never do again idk like i do regret a lot of small things but cant think of one BIG thing like. oh jk like idk bout NEVER but like 4-5 years ago i was crying and was like “I will never let another person make me cry again.” so u know what, lets say that. I will never cry cuz of some other person! 15) what is your favorite memory ok so i guess my happiest memory then is 2 years ago i went to this festival called nuit blanche in my city and it was like an art exhibition. one of the exhbits was like this ballon hallway FILLED to the brim with ballons like u had to swim through them to move across the hall. idk i was with my friends and it was SO FUCKING FUN like i was so happy i laughed for 15 minutes straight i was never that happy before in my life 17) what ‘small things’ things terrify you getting a job and living oiwrjwiofjwef like i work rn and honestly im like ....is this is. is this what im working towards? going to work everyday? like knowing i have to do shit to survive is...god. too mcuh energy i dont want any of that LOL but ya....lol 19) have you ever stalked someone/been stalked not in real life obviously but who hasnt stalked on facebook/instagram?