#cuz after I got tipsy once I was ok for A While and didn’t feel as strongly towards any sort of substance

[cosmo-spams]

god I wanna just take some Benadryl and sleep

[seokiie]

𝘉𝘛𝘚' 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘭𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶

A/N: ok so these reactions are really long lmfao (shortened for your scrolling pleasure) they're more like drabbles than reactions and I deadass think I got the definition of flirt wrong cuz these are way more sexual than they should be;; also can we talk abt how well Hobi’s gif matches the reaction ok bye

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Namjoon:

Namjoon was not the jealous type and you knew that. But you could tell he was getting a little more annoyed and frustrated than usual. At first, you weren't quite sure what was getting his panties in a twist. Then you realized how much time Taehyung was spending around you.

It was a dinner party and Taehyung had offered to accompany you while you mingled with the sophisticated guests. Who were you to decline? Of course, you didn't think much of it when he puts his arm around you and pulls you close to his body. He was warm and he smelt so, so good. Like... like a sweet, hunky, ginger smell, or maybe even warm milk.

More than once while you were talking to people, someone would compliment how the two of you looked good together. He'd always cut you off with a laugh when you were about to correct them. You didn't think too much about that either.

Or when another group was giving a formal speech on stage. You'd sat between Taehyung and Namjoon. You were so focused on the heartwarming speech that you barely noticed when Tae's hand found a spot to rest on your upper thigh. Right above where your fitted dress stopped. You also failed to notice the way Namjoon was giving you the death stare.

What happened later that evening seemed to push Namjoon over the edge, you think.

You'd gotten fairly tipsy, thanks to Taehyung. You learned that he'd picked up a new hobby in drinking wine. He wanted you to try his favorite flavors and god, does that man have taste. You weren't too drunk. You could still walk and think relatively straight. But by this point, you were ready to go home.

"Taehyungiiie, wheres Namjoon? I need- I think its time for me to go home." Your hand rests on his shoulder as you get up from your seat.

"I haven't seen him since the speech. He's probably busy. Do you want me to take you back to the dorm? I don't want you traveling alone tonight." You nod and he wraps his arm around your waist, his hand feeling hot where it rests.

Tae's just about to lead you to the exit when you hear a familiar voice call your name. You turn around immediately. Its Namjoon. At the sight of him, you're released from Taehyungs grasp and you sprint to him as fast as you can in wedges.

"Where were you two going?" He sounds passive but there's a slight hint of hostility in his voice.

"_____ couldn't find you and she wanted to go home. But you're here now so you should take care of her." You can't quite tell if Taehyungs smile is real or fake. Before you can even evaluate it, he's walking back to the party with his hands in his pockets.

You also don't think too much about that. That is, until Namjoon has you back at the dorm and he's pushing you against the wall before the lights are even on.

"Were you doing that on purpose? Huh? Because I don't get jealous you decided to test my patience?" You can't see how close he is, but you can sure feel it. The wine in your system only making the situation feel hotter than it actually is.

"Since you decided to torment me this evening, how about I torment you for the rest of the night and make sure you can't walk tomorrow?"

Jin:

As you had never been to an after-party before, you had clung to Jin like your life depended on it. And considering you didn't know anyone there (besides the other six members), you had felt especially lost when Jin excused himself to the bathroom, leaving you to wander around the nicely decorated venue.

"_____?" At the moment you were sitting alone at the little bar area, but the sound of your name makes you turn around.

"What're you doing drinking alone? Hyung left you?" It was Hoseok. Somehow, you were thankful to finally see someone you knew.

"He's in the bathroom right now. He doesn't like it when I drink too much so I'm trying to down as many shots before he gets back." You give him a smile.

"I'm sure he wouldn't want you disobeying him like this. How about dancing with me instead of trying to get as drunk as possible?" You don't get the chance to respond before he's taking the shot glass from your hand and dragging you to the dance floor by your wrist.

Usually, you'd be too flustered to dance in front of so many people much less with the likes of Hobi, but the alcohol had just loosened you up just enough to match his rhythm.

"You dance better than I thought, _____." His breath is hot against your neck as he murmurs into your ear, trying to talk over the heavy bass. His hands leave traces of heat on your hips while he pulls you close.

Rocking against Hoseok, you lose track of time and forget that Jin must be out of the bathroom by now. In your defense, Hobi was a really good dancer. Like, really good. The way he guided your hips against his caused heat to stir in your lower abdomen. The shots you'd taken a few songs prior made your body move with a sudden fluidity.

At some point within the sixth or seventh song, you found that maybe you were getting a little too worked up. The feeling of Hoseok's cock rubbing against you through his finely tailored dress pants made your insides rearrange more and more the longer you danced against him. If you didn't excuse yourself right now, you were gonna do something you'd regret.

Jin watches you from afar, a smirk playing at his lips. He watches as you pull away from Hoseok and he knows that look on your face. That parted lip, clouded eyed expression. It's a face he's seen so many times on so many occasions. When you start to walk towards the bathroom, he follows suit.

The bathroom is quite a distance away. The hallway leading to it is long and reminds you of something straight out a horror movie. While lost in thought, you don't notice the presence approaching you from behind, said presence then grabbing your arm and pushing your back firmly against the wall. A surprised grunt turns into a moan when his thigh presses against your heat through the sheer dress you're wearing.

"You looked like you had fun dancing with Hoseok." It's Jin. You turn your head to the side, not wanting to meet his furious eyes.

You open your mouth to respond but the words are caught in your throat. Jin's got you trapped, a hand on either side of the wall next to you. Anticipation and guilt washed throughout your body as he gets closer, his lips brushing against your ear as he spoke.

"I don't care who you dance with, drink with, have sex with. But remember who you always come home to, babygirl."

Jimin:

Jimin had been rather cold to you recently. Of course, he had a very busy schedule and you knew that, but you wished he'd at least return your texts. Luckily, one Friday out of every month, Namjoon invited you over to the dorm for movie night. You took this opportunity to get back at Jimin.

Since there were so many people for such a small area, you usually took a cramped seat on top of Jimin's lap on the one person sofa. But today, you decided to take a seat on Namjoon's lap instead. He was sitting the closest from Jimin and you wanted to make sure he heard everything.

When you finally settle down amidst Namjoon's thighs, you can feel not only Namjoon's eyes but Jimin's as well, their confused stares boring through you.

"Uh, don't you usually-" You cut Namjoon's words off with a 'shhh, it's starting' and he gives a nervous glance to Jimin.

You're laughing at a particularly funny part when Namjoon's hands squeeze your waist, asking for your attention. You turn your head to look at him in response.

"_____, don't move so much when you laugh." He says it quietly so no one can hear him besides you.

"Am I blocking the screen too much? Sorry." You turn back to the TV and shift your hips back slightly, milking a vulgar growl from somewhere deep in his throat. You hear it, and feel it and you know Jimin hears it too with the way his head snaps to his right.

You don't look at him but you can feel the way Jimin stares into the side of your face. The look he's giving you makes you nervous, but you push farther. Knowing Jimin's eyes are still on you, you let your head roll back and rest on Joon's shoulder. It's an awfully seductive move and you hear Jimin scoff beside you and turn back to look at the TV.

The movie is about to end when Jimin speaks up for the first time all night.

"We're out of popcorn. _____, can you come with me to get more." It's not a question, but an order. An order that has you scrambling to your feet and following closely behind him. He leads you into the empty kitchen, completely silent while he puts another bag of popcorn into the microwave. The tension is enough to set your nerves on fire. When there's a familiar popping sound coming from the microwave, Jimin finally starts to talk.

"Listen, baby. I know exactly what you're trying to do, and you'll need to try a lot harder." He crosses his arms, leaning on the kitchen counter and looking at you, eyes darker than they once were.

"I know I've been distant lately." He stalks towards you like he's about to pounce on his prey. "Since I have a break this weekend, I was planning on rewarding you for being so patient."

"But I think punishment suites you much, much better."

Yoongi:

"Have you seen Yoongi?" You were sitting in the dorms living room scrolling through your phone when you notice Jungkook enter from down the hall.

He turns to look at you before responding. "No. What's up?"

"He's supposed to give me one of his signature back massages but I can't find him." You stuff your phone in your pocket and cross your arms, looking at the only other person in the room with a raised eyebrow.

"You shouldn't be sitting here by yourself and he might not be back for a while. If you come to my room, I'll give you a back massage ten times better than anything Yoongi could do." He grants a warm smile and your aching shoulders compel you to accept his offer.

It feels innocent enough, the way Jungkook has you laying face down on his bed as he straddles your lower body. His thumbs press into your tense muscles and almost immediately you feel your body relax into the bedsheets.

"Woahh..." You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding. "That's, wow, that's really good, Jungkook. Fuck."

"Aah, seriously? To be completely honest, I didn't think I'd be qualified to give you such a good massage-" His fingers press down hard and when your body cracks, a sigh of relief and pleasure slips past your tongue. "-but hearing you moaning below me has really changed my mind."

You're not sure whether you should laugh or embrace the way your body tingles at those words.

"Does this feel good? Here?" Your bones crack again as he presses his fingers harder into your skin and you let out a particularly loud plaint that's muffled by the bedsheets.

"Wah, I'm definitely going to remember the sounds you're making for later tonight. Music to my ears." You actually do laugh this time, tilting your head to the side so you weren't being suffocated by the sheets.

The longer Jungkook is working on your back and shoulders, the more relaxed you feel and the louder you get. It's only when the bedroom door opens that the fingers making you feel so good stop moving.

"Thought I heard your voice, _____." Yoongi is leaning in the doorway, eyes taking in the sight in front of him. "What exactly is going on here?"

Both you and Jungkook stay quiet, knowing just how bad the situation looks. When one of you are about to pipe up, Yoongi interrupts.

"Nevermind. I don't even want to know." He walks towards the both of you. "Jungkook. Out."

Jungkook gives a staggered and confused look to you then back to Yoongi before sliding off your body.

"Did this hyung just kick me out of my own room? Ah, seriously." The maknae curses under his breath before shutting the door behind him.

When the two of you are finally alone, Yoongi sits on the edge of the bed and turns his head to look at you.

"You couldn't wait until I got home? You're a bad girl." He has a smirk on his lips and it eases your worry of him being angry.

"My back was hurting. You wouldn't text me back so I assumed you wouldn't be home till late." You start to sit up so you can get more adjacent to the man next to you, but his hand moves to your shoulder, slowly pushing you back down as he crawls over you.

"So you had Jungkook take care of you?" You don't move out of pure anticipation and he laughs, tilting your chin up.

"You know none of the other members can make you feel as good as I can, baby. So why bother running to them instead? To be honest, it looks like I need to teach you some manners."

Hoseok:

You had just come back from the mall with a couple of your friends when Hoseok called you over to the dorm to help with cooking. You didn't have a need to change out of your current outfit, a cropped hoodie and high waisted shorts, but now that you were in the kitchen next to Yoongi and had four guys staring at you, you wished you changed into something more modest.

The outfit wasn't necessarily revealing but you'd be lying if you said it didn't make your ass look delicious.

"The food looks especially good tonight, right Kookie?" Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung had all taken seats at the kitchen island, eyes lingering on you as you and Yoongi worked alongside each other to make his special ramen.

"Mmm, it does, Jimin. I want a piece so bad." The maknae practically growls and you turn around to offer the three men a plastic smile.

"If you want to eat 'so bad', you oughta be patient." Tae glances behind you before grinning widely.

"______, how are we suppose to eat soon when you keep distracting the chef?" He points to something behind you and when you turn you see Yoongi giving you bedroom eyes.

"You too?!" You hit Yoongi with a spatula you had in your hand and he quickly offers a not so sincere apology through chuckles.

As if on queue, Hoseok appears from down the hallway. He must've been in his studio.

"Yah! What're you all staring at. Do you have any idea how to treat a woman?" Hobi scolds the younger members, his facial expression not 100% serious. You give a laugh and finish up with cooking.

When the food is finished, you wash your hands and excuse yourself to the bathroom down the hall, leaving everyone else to set the table and serve the food.

You're just about to wash up and leave when someone barges in, shutting and locking the door behind themselves.

"Hobi? What're you doing?" The bathroom isn't particularly big. When you turn around to face him, he picks up by your thighs and places you on the counter beside the sink.

"I could ask you the same thing. When you're dressed like that, I just wanna make sure the boys don't get any ideas." He plays with the button on your shorts before dragging the zipper down and shimmying the tight garments down your thighs. When those wicked shorts that Hoseok loved but hated with a passion were discarded onto the bathroom floor, he leaves a trail of kisses up your inner thigh, biting ever so slightly and intending to leave marks for everyone to see.

"Ah, you-you'll miss dinner." You sigh as Hoseok's tongue gets dangerously close to your heat, the only thing stopping him being the thin panties you'd worn today.

"My dinners right here, baby." He looks up at you with desire and want in his eyes.

"I'm not sure if you've caught on, but I'm going to edge you on this counter till you're screaming my name and everyone in this dorm knows who you belong to."

Jungkook:

"Aish, I don't deserve these compliments. I could've done better on stage today." Jimin looks at his reflection through the camera and brushes his fingers through his hair. Jimin was currently on v-live. He had requested you stay by his side for the duration of the live, something about your company being able to calm his nerves. You accepted, of course. But you opted to stay just barely out of frame, so the millions of viewers could only hear your voice.

"Jiminie! Don't say that. You did well!" You pat him on the shoulder and after he responds with a toothy grin.

"You know just what to say to cheer me up, _____." You can feel the way Jimin stares daggers through the side of your head when the words leave his mouth.

God, you pray he's not pulling this shit again.

You don't have a hard time ignoring the unrelenting glances, but when his hand finds its way to your thigh, slowly caressing the area before giving you a light squeeze, yeah. That's when it gets hard to ignore.

Jimin's hand stays on your thigh, kneading your bare skin like it was some sort of stress ball. You're so lucky you can barely be seen on screen, the way you were fidgeting under his grasp was a dead give away.

"______, can you read out some questions for me to answer?" You give a terse nod before realizing no one can see you.

"Yes, ah-" At that moment, you feel Jimins hand drifting towards your inner thigh, gripping you gently and pulling your leg towards him. The action advertently opens your legs and it nearly makes you choke on your spit.

"Yeah, I-I'll read a few questions for, uh, for you."

Jungkook hated this, hated jimin (although he did say that a lot). He knew Jimin had the tendency to flirt heavily with the people around him. It was a well-established joke but doing this sort of thing in front of fans? Wasn't this a little too far?

He'd only wanted to tune in for a few minutes of the v-live before going to bed, but ended up staying a bit longer when he noticed what was going on behind the scenes.

The way Jimin was staring at something outside the frame, the arm moving just barely out of the camera view and the way you couldn't get your sentences out without stuttering over a gasp.

Suddenly, he was regretting letting you help Jimin with his v-live and he intended to fix his very clear mistake.

Jimin was telling a childhood story when there's a knock at the door. He interrupts himself to say 'it's open' then clapping happily at the sight of Jungkook entering.

"I'm not staying." Jungkook glances at Jimin before his eyes settle on you. "Can I borrow _____ for a second?"

With the way the younger boy is looking down at you, you know you've seriously fucked up

"Sure, I'm almost done anyway. Oh, and Kookie..." Jungkook's already taken your hand and is leading you out of the room when Jimin speaks up once more.

"...don't be too rough on her, I was just teasing." Jungkook scowls at the hyung before closing the door roughly behind himself.

You want to ask him what the issue is but you don't even get the chance to open your mouth before the younger boy is pushing you flush against Jimin's closed studio door. When your back makes contact with the door, there's a loud bang and you're pretty sure Jungkook pushed you hard enough to make the whole wall shake.

"Here? Ah, Kookie, no-" His mouth is on your neck, sucking gently as his hand slips past the waistband of your shorts. This wasn't exactly the best place to have sex. Right outside Jimin's door was the hallway which led to the other members' studios.

"Seems like Jimin worked you up quite a bit, _____." You're embarrassed at how wet the situation makes you and the way Jungkook's fingers are teasing your clit doesn't help one bit.

"We can't, h-holy shit, we can't do this here. Some-someone'll hear." You can barely think straight, your body wrapped up in pleasure as Jungkook slowly fucks you with two of his fingers.

When he responds, his voice is in your ear, an indescribable feeling in his tone that you've never heard before.

"Since you wanna be a slut on Jimin's live, how about I fuck the life out of you against his door for everyone to hear?"

Taehyung:

The vocal line was doing an interview while you, Namjoon, Hoseok, and Yoongi watched behind the scenes.

You'd been helping by passing out water bottles to the staff but since they were about to wrap up with recording, you and the three other men were watching from the sidelines. At some point during the last thirty minutes, Yoongi's arm had found its way around your waist, his hand playing with the belt loops on your jeans.

"Wait, wait, wait. Can we stop for a minute?" The interviewer stops speaking and everyone's focus turns to the PD who was talking. "Taehyung, you look really mad, can you fix your facial expression, please?"

The rest of the vocal line would laugh and you would, too, not knowing that Tae's fierce expression was your fault.

"My bad." You swear you see his eyes flicker to you, a grimace on his face before his facial features soften up. Odd.

As the recording comes to an end, Yoongi's still playing with your belt loops the only difference is his pointer and middle finger slip past your waistband, his thumb rubbing circles into the area of skin covered by your shirt. You're not gonna lie, the way he's touching you seems innocent enough but it does far more than just distract you. You don't even notice when he leans over to whisper something in your ear.

"Do you see Jungkooks face?" He had a grin playing at his lips and when you turn to see what he's talking about you break into laughter.

"Why does he look like that? He looks like he's being possessed." Yoongi laughs along with you.

Taehyung sees it all and he's everything but happy. Seeing the way Yoongi's fingers easily made their way to your bare hips; the same hips he's left beautiful marks and bruises on for you to admire the next morning, made him so mad. When the interview is finally, finally over, he sees you separate from Yoongi, but not without the both of you giggling about whatever the fuck. He watches as you enter the staff lounge, probably to fetch something the writers or PDs needed. He decides to follow you.

The first thing he sees when he enters the staff lounge is you at the snack area eating various cheeses and chocolates. To be honest, he wouldn't expect any less from you.

"Ah, Taehyungie. You scared me. Do you want some cheese?" Someone comes up behind you and wraps their arms around you. You know those arms when you feel them. It's your precious Tae.

"No cheese." He takes the toothpick from your hand and places it back down on the fancy silver platter. "You did something bad to me, _____. So bad."

You tilt your head slightly, wordlessly asking what he means. At the sight of your exposed skin, he presses kisses up your shoulder and you let out a relaxed sigh.

"Yoongi." He pauses, slowly making his way to your neck.

"I was, and still am, trying to be calm. But the way he was looking at you, touching you... Why aren't you as angry as I am?"

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[hyucksxxgirl]

Making me his.

[11:16PM] You’ve been ignoring Haechan for the past few days because an old “friend” of his was back in town who happened to be named Rose, he had been completely ignoring you for her just because they were childhood friends. That was the last straw for you, you and him have had a kind of thing for each other and you guys were getting closer you guys even had sex together and were just enjoying yall selves having fun. You decided to not care and ignore him as well. You’ve been hanging out with Jeno trying to get distracted and it was surprisingly working. 

“Hey Y/N why don't you forget about him after how he just decided to ignore you once she came along, especially after what ya’ll been through”, He said.

 “I don't care at all, that's him and if he wants to be a dog then he can go ahead, I wont let it get in my way of having a good time my senior year”, you said.

 Even though you said you didn't care deep down you did and you were just so jealous it broke your heart but you didn't want Jeno to think something was wrong.

 “Why don't we go to this back to school party my friend Jaemin & Renjun are throwing tonight, everyone is going and they throw the best parties”, He said. 

“Actually you know what yea lets go, lets have fun like theres no tomorrow !”, you said. 

You were planning on hopefully getting drunk and maybe just have fun with a hottie there, since Haechan wanted to have fun why couldn't you ? 

Later on that night around 9 PM

You decided to let Jeno pick you up for the party, you decided to wear something that would defiantly get Haechan jealous. When you entered the party all eyes were on you and Jeno so you searched the crowd to see if Haechan was there and of course he was, looking hot as ever but with Rose. You actually wanted to burst out laughing because the face he had said it all, he was BIG MAD lol. After getting drinks completely ignoring Haechan you got tipsy, while dancing with Jeno you noticed how he was so close it was like yall were gonna kiss so for the chance to avoid it you said you had to go use the restroom.

 “I have to use the restroom real quick Jeno sorry”, you said.

 “Oh its ok don't take long Y/N”, he said.

 On your way to the bathroom you get pulled into a room and mesmerized the smell of cologne that hit your nostrils, Haechans cologne. You turn around to see him and indeed it was him, now the reason you aimed for jealousy with Haechan was because that's his main weakness, seeing the one that's “his” even getting touchedby another guy.

 “WTF Haechan !”, you screamed. He corners you to the wall and puts both arms against it trapping you. 

“I see you came with Jeno today ? I thought you were mines ?” he claimed. 

The tipsy goes to the back of your head real quick so you can bark back “ Oh so now its Jeno, what about litte Ms.Strawberry Shortcake out there huh? How can you tell me something when you started everything with her, I thought we were fine. It doesn't even matter you can focus on that cuz Im done with you, plus im sure Jeno can entertain me better than you” , you said laughing knowing you were enjoying how mad he was getting but aside was now the tipsiness also talking.

 He grabs you bringing you into a deep kiss having his tongue interact with yours literally giving you the best experience of a kiss, you try to pull back but you could never beat his strength. Aside from that you actually missed him even though it was not even a week you missed him so much and just wanted him to take you right there. He starts feeling on your body as he slips his finger into your panties going in between your folds, you let out a soft moan with your knees shaking like if they were jelly. He then starts to move in and out making you wet by how much you missed it you surely could see it. He picks you up wrapping your legs around him laying you on the bed, he removes his fingers and bends down to eat you out.

 “I bet you were planning on having sex with Jeno weren't you ?” he said.

 “No”, you squeak back. 

“Quit lying... you know that its only ME that makes you feel this good, that knows how exactly you like to be eaten out”, he says while sucking on your clit. Trying not to squirm and moan you fail knowing hes enjoying it, with Haechan you know you can never be in control but at a point you decide to suck him off just to show that you can control him too.

 You slip his partner in your mouth and lick all over giving it to him sloppy but with you messing with his head tasting the saltiness from his precum. You can hear him grunting and moaning as well “Fuck, you always knew how to suck me off baby”, he said.

 He then flipped you onto the bed taking full control, he slips his partner into you and you cant bear how good it feels you have to scream his name “HAECHAN”, saying how good he feels inside you. Good thing that you had told Jeno you weren't feel good and had went home because he would've been looking for you.

 “Damn your so tight just for me and only me baby girl”, he says while nibbling on your ear.

 He’s thrusting you so bad that your scratching all over his bac leaving so many marks and some were even bleeding, of course he couldn't feel it since he was so distracted by how good your pussy felt. You couldn't hold it anymore and told him how you were about to cum, “cum with me baby cum !”, he groaned. You both came and with that you licked every bit of his cum trying to take it all while sucking him just to make sure you got every drop. 

“Y/N”, he says, I want you to be my actual girlfriend.”

 “What?”, you exclaim, “What about-” he stops you and says “My mom just wanted me to show her the school cause her and her family will be here only for this week and they’re leaving tomorrow  that's why I brought her to the party, plus she knows about us, don't tell me you were jealous”, he states.

 “What of course not”, you shout back. 

“Yea I didn't even have time to explain to the guys either, but what do you say Y/N I mean I really like you and I think I actually love you, be mines please and give us a chance”, he says with the cutest face he’s showed you of the century.

 “Of course Haechan I actually think I might love you too, just being with you is all I need”, you say. He gives you a deep kiss hoping you guys get another round later at his house..<3

[the-little-red-noodle]

9/1/18 11:48pm-12:23am mint chip

I want you all to myself, don’t leave none for nobody else.. i am an animal with you.

I feel so many amazing happy things right now. A lot of it is around this boy. I don’t know what to say.. i think I’m really falling for him. Maybe it’s because it’s new and exciting and he wants to show me off a little.. but the way i feel when I’m woth him, feels like magic.

I am glad that our relationship evolved from a purely hookup to a fwb to wherever we are right now. He sleeps over almost every night, he strokes my back with my head on his chest.. i want to talk about last night.

My frat had it’s first big party of the semester, punk themed. Hell yes.

He arrived when i was on punch shift. He wore maroon skinny jeans and a black grateful dead shirt. He stepped up to the front of the line and had a huge smile on his face. Oh my lord he is so cute.. fuck.. anyway, he leans in through the nook doorway over the counter and asks how long I’ll be working, and i tell him, and before i know it i am fully kissing this boy in the middle of the drink line in front of my friends and strangers and the whole bit.. oh man..

i can’t even express it tho.. like i wasn’t self conscious about it. Even with so many people i knew being there, i wanted to kiss him so damn badly. Something about him in dark punky colors with that smile of his was a little overwhelming..

I finally get off of my shift and i rush out to find him on the edge of a couch with 3 of his close girl friends. I approach them and he immediately pulls me in and hugs me and kisses me and i was too infatuated not to give in.. then realizing that all his friends were watching and awwing from the side, i pull away and give a sheepish hiiii and a laugh and he goes “oh right guys this is sam, this is the girl”.

We banter for a while, i joke about how he promised me red skinny jeans but theyre maroon, they all egg me on to “call him out”.. it was really funny and cute and i kept kissing him and he had his hands all over me.. it was a good moment.. i don’t remember how that interaction ended, but eventually we got to play stack up, where he was in position to stack me, and did once, and it was actually really cute with people cheering for him to get me and then he pulled it off and i was like damn ok.. but it was cute cuz i was definitely tipsy drunk the whole night and just held onto him the whole game.. sigh..

Also as we were around the beer table, some guy friend of his walks up and they talk for a while and i overhear him say “this is the girl I’ve been telling you about” ugh is that not the cutest effing thing??..

We drank, we danced, he held onto me while we danced.. apparently after said mosh pit makeout dance, my friend rowan gave him the “if you hurt her, I’ll end you” phrase which is really cute to me..

there was just too much good that happened.. i was so happy the whole night. My friends are lovely and i happy cried a couple times just loving and supporting people.. i feel so happy

He ended up drunk passing out on a couch, and i didn’t want to abandon him at the frat house, and considering he spent basically every night this week sleeping in my bed, i shouldn’t have left his side. I grabbed the couch next to his and slept there. We woke up around 6:30 and i couch hopped to cuddle with him for a while before doing a little party cleaning and starting the pilgrimage back to our dorm.

We parted breifly to brush our teeth because he came back to my room and we got 2 more hours of sleep in the most comfortable sleepy cuddling i think I’ve ever experienced. Woke up, hooked up, showered (separately) then got breakfast together on campus. Then he came back to my room once more, just to cuddle before i had to get work done.

His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room

It was just such a great collection of hours that i got to spend with him. I feel sappy writing so, but at the same time fuck it. I know i wanted to be single, but also if the universe drops the perfect man in my lap, I’m allowed to get to know him for a bit right? His smile kills me, and we fit so well together, and have soo much in common it’s scary.. and we’refairly physically compatible. It’s not the best sex of my life yet, but each time he definitely improves. I’m aiding him to get more comfortable being rough with me and some light masochism.. he made me finish today, that’s sorta new..

But aside from the physical connection, which admittedly is most of the relationship right now, i do also want to foster our intellectual connection too. We had our first offical date on thursday, which was simple but cute.. and it was confirmed a date on both sides, oh right, what are we?

We both admitted that thursday was a date, even if our first real date. Then he mentions how he tells all his friends about me, then invited them to a party to observe him in some serious pda with a girl in a plaid mini skirt, knee high socks, and bright red hair. Then he mentions that his friends have “only ever know him to be single” which implies he thinks he is not single at the moment, but that’s really as far as I’ve gotten. No real conversation on what exactly we’re doing here, but I’m also kinda relieved for that. I want to stay in the happy gray area for as long as i can before we really need to define anything. I am more than perfectly happy to keep things the way they are.. id be a very happy girl.

Regardless, i should get some sleep. I’m home tonight to see puppies and i need the rest before he inevitably keeps me up tomorrow night.. ugh, i can’t wait to see him already.. it’s only been like 9 hours? Ugh, way too long.

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so last night people were sharing stories of how they became larries and i thought i’d make a big (emphasis on big) ol list of them because i found them really fun to read

I've been a 1D fan since 2013 and my sister and i always thought that l&h looked so good together but only the bromance and we're like "omg larries destroyed their friendship poor eleanor 1!1!1!", then in 2015 the "i'm gay pretty unfortunate isn't eleanor ?" happened and i was like WHAAT???? and i ended up searching more and more about larry (bc it was the only thing that came to my mind) and i found the videos and then i told my sister and then here we are.

I became a larrie because someone in my dash who rarely post about 1D posted the first louis/fred pic and tagged it babygate. So I went looking into the tag and found everything. I had doubt but then i saw the moment where H touch L arm and i was in! I actually became a fan of the music after. I've done everything in reverse with this band! But when i entered the fandom in feb2016 and i was hopping to see it all end like a month later! But hey, still here! And loving it mostly! End it!

it was 2011 and my friend told me she had found a really good song and the singers were so cute, she showed me wmyb video and i spent the whole day listening to it and then in the evening i wanted to find out more about these 5 guys. i started watching video diaries ans i was looking for the next one but i accidentally clicked "best larry moments" video aaand the rest is history

I became a larrie after aimh tweet hits 2m and everyone on all of my social media started freaking out even though I didn't follow any 1D blogs so I started search about them and now I'm here also at that time I was kinda homophobic 'cause I live in russia and grown up in middle eastern family and now I'm proud lesbian who knows a lot about LGBTQ+ history so thank you to my larents and 1D for making me gay lol 🌈💕

i was a fan since 2011 but didnt know about larry bc i was young and didnt have any social media but around 2013-2014 my friend showed me the "are you and louis dating" vid and i was like the mr krabs meme bc i just couldnt understand why larry would have to be covered up so i went home and watched "why elounor is fake" videos and my eyes were open and ever since that day ive been a larrie and i regret not knowing sooner but im here now !!

i saw the daddy daddy cool tweet and was like dude that's the wrong type of daddywtf? & I hadn't heard about a pregnancy? then a week later I had read the treatise and had a side blog and watched all the freddieismyqueen videos & was in way too deeeep lol. I've never been around when they weren't on the break even, I'm so confused about how I got here but now I can't escape 😝I had never even listened to their music before but then I also did that and was like damn they're so good?!

I just remembered going out once and being quite tipsy when DMD video came on so I pointed to Louis and Harry and said 'they're in love, but shh nobody can know' and one of my friends looked at me with a WTF?? expression on her face and said 'but I thought that was common knowledge'. Mind you, she still doesn't even know their names, let alone anything else. That was around the time bg was still a fresh wound and I'll never forget it bc it was so nice to hear it and also my hangover was a bitch.

I got interested in 1D right after their last concert, like right on Halloween. I became a Larrie that very same day too, right after i read Dan Wattpad's infamous "Harry and Louis hate each other". I saw articles floating around saying how they were enemies, reason for Zayn leaving...blah blah. I was sceptical, then i came across the famous OTRA hug, and i was like, no fucking way they hate each other, not with how they are hugging. I then delved into YT and discovered freddieismyqueen. Bless.

I joined july 2014 (2 months after they 've passed my country ouch) and was instantly hooked because this shit is like crack. Today I'm the darkest larrie that exists preaching the word for everyone who'll listen. I can WAIT for their CO because I have a party prepared? I literally have a wine since 2014 in my cellar that I'm only going to open the day they're free, I have nauthical theme stocked for the party. My friends just know that they have to come and that I'll be crying the whole month!!

weirdly enough i became a larry cos of that stupid channel 4 documentary id never heard of larry or gay shipping or whatever before that and i saw that and i was very mr krabs meme and i looked into it saw that it wasn't evil and gross like they were portraying it and never turned back

I joined the fandom in late 2012 and I wasn't a larrie but I wasn't an anti either i just hadn't looked into it but then i remember during the confirmation of bg on gma i felt bad for harry and i didnt really know why and I was surprised by my own reaction. Then with bg going on I started to realise that none of that could be real I did my research and I've been a larrie ever since :)

I joined the fandom in 2012, used to think Elounor was real but just because I never looked into it and I knew some people thought Larry was real at the time so I checked this insta page that debunked Elounor and I have no regrets 💙💚

When I become a 1D fan, in 2012, I liked elounor and I liked Eleanor unfortunately. I was not that into fandom things so I wasn't paying attention to details. But my whole view changed in 2014 when they came to South America for the WWAT and all those rumors in Argentina with the hotel room and Brazil that was an experience and I was like "ok something is happening here between them" and here I am, 4 years later and going strong as a larrie. I'm on the winning team 😌💅🏼

I became a larrie when my friend first introduced me to fanfiction. I read a larry one and was totally amazed by it. After that, I switched between het ones and larry ones, but always came back to larry. After that, I simply became obsessed with the pair, something that made me fall in love with the band and all of them. I watched the dairies and everything, and just saw how clear their infatuation was. Tumblr and a lot of other sites just simply proved the theory even more. No regrets ❤

i became a larrie late novemeber after a month of being in the 1d fandom. i watched freddieismyqueen videos and other proofs for hours everyday (especially over thanksgiving break)

I wasn't even a fan of 1D, but while I was looking for pictures of them to do a collage for a friend, I found one in which Louis and Harry were looking at each other and, damn, I can't explain what I felt, I just knew it. So, I was trying to figure out if I was the only one thinking there was something between this two, and it turned out I wasn't! I discovered tumblr, and I spent 3 days reading post, watching videos and proofs and...here I am, 3 years after, being the larriest larrie

I became a 1d fan when uan tour had just started and like. I watched all the damn youtube videos in about a week and I noticed that in the video diaries on the stairs they were so ~cozy, and they were so Extra™ on stage and hl weren't like that with the other boys. They just emanated the feelings I suppressed: Ultra Gay. And yeah. That's how it Began for me

I became a larrie when I watched the behind the scenes of wmyb and Louis was saying "I've gotta say it" and Harry was all over him and hid his face in Louis' shoulder and said "no!"

Same like that previous anon i hadnt even considered two guys being more than friends bc of where i grew up. But just watching proof videos of them for a while i kind of realized how in love they were. Thats when i started thinking about how different and colorful the world actually is compared to what I've learned from the people i grew up around

I became a larrie when my friend and I would watch their video diaries together, and I would see the way h&l acted with each other. I mentioned it to my friend and she was like yeah, Larry, and she showed me one YouTube video so I spent weeks watching every single one I could find, all these years later and I've come to accept theres no way to crawl out of this 😂

are we sharing larrie stories? my friend became a fan early 2012 (and a larrie) and was adamant on making me on too, and I finally gave in summer 2013. I rmr the day after TCAs that year, niall tried to do a twitcam and idr how but some article got written abt the twitcam that included a link to those 'you just have to pay attention' videos. I marathoned them all, and it was that arm moment that zayn failed to hide that #sealed it. though my friend gave me the skinny on haylor back in 2012~

i was like a super casual fan since their first album. my friend introduced them to me cuz she was crushing on zayn. i just knew their music but not actually them. i became a larrie during weedgate. weird timing, i know. i saw it on the news and got curious about what was going on. saw the video then got to know about the boys individually through past vids. i started from the very start from the xf vid diaries. those two, not subtle AT ALL. and well, the rest was history.

i was in entirely different fandom back in 2014, but one of my follower turns into a liam stan and starts to post about 1d and there was a post about how harry and louis can't touch each other and i thought that was really weird weren't they bandmates?? then i started digging around and stumble into a treatise blog. here i am now hahaha

I got into this fandom because of my best friend. She showed me week 4 diary video... and I was like are those two in a relationship?? I pointed at louis and harry and she said no why? And I was like I don't know they seem cozy together and I pointed out that harry was staring at louis lips... she didn't believe me first but now she is a larrie😂 So basically I got into this fandom knowing larry is real

I became a fan of the boys 4 years ago. I read about Larry and that fans believed they were together so I went on YouTube and saw some videos and read some stories (I think it was here on tumblr??) and I immediately believed they were together. There wasn't a particular moment for me, it was a lot of things. Probably, above all, the way they looked at each other. They never looked at someone else so fondly. And 4 years later I keep saying the same thing 💖

for me, i always thought louis was gay from way back in 2011 but i didn't really think of harry's sexuality cause i wasn't like a stan i was just a casual fan [which is why it confuses me when people say that if larry isn't real, louis is straight and horrible, no...he still gay as hell babe]. anyway i became a larrie cause i used to really follow celeb gossip and when the news dropped, gossip sites/tabloids kept mentioning harry and larries everywhere so i decided to investigate and...here i am

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Can i borrow your notes?

Jimin Fan Fic 

It was late in the evening when I got a text from my classmate Jimin. He was an odd one id have to say but maybe it was because we had just started talking to each other. I’m sure he’ll open up soon but I’ll admit he is gorgeous and I may have thought of him pressing me against the wall a few times during class and don’t even get me started with his music.

Jimin: Hey Y/N, sorry to disturb you but as you noticed was away today so I would like to know if you happen to have taken down notes in the Dance             Appreciation and History lecture this morning? You wouldn’t mind if I borrowed them would you?

I giggled to myself and responded;

YOU: Hi Jimin, you totally disrupted my Friday afternoon Disney move marathon! Ugh shame on you, though I did happen to take notes in todays’ lecture. Will cost you though J

Jimin: HAHA. Oh gosh I am soo sorry. Money?

You: I’ve got enough of that…Jks but no

Jimin: hmmmm…

Jimin: You free tonight?

You: depends ;)

Jimin: I’ll take that as a yes then. Meet me in front of campus at 6. See you soon :)

I didn’t notice myself drifting out of reality until my apartment door slammed shut. My roommate Anastasia came sulking through the lounge room and flopped down on the couch next to me, obvious that she had had a bad day.

“Yo” you chuckle pushing away your thoughts of Jimin and the night ahead.

“Hey…” She sighs. When I ask what’s wrong with her she explains that she and her boyfriend had been arguing about how V kept getting messages from other girls.

“Boys will be boys and I’m sure that those girls meant nothing to him. You are the best girlfriend he could ever have and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Ok?” I winked at her followed on to tell her about your plans tonight.

“Jimin?! As in THE Park Jimin from uni?” She stuttered with a big ‘O’ forming on her dark purple puckered up lips.

“Yes. The only Jimin is our class, idiot.” I chuckled.

“So you’re meaning to tell me that while my boyfriend is being a total dick you’re going out with the hot, smart already famous performer in our class. You lucky bitch!” We both cracked up laughing purely for different reasons.

“It is a sophisticated student meet up just to exchange notes NOT a date, ok?” I sighed but she was quick to respond.

“I’ve seen the way he looks at you in class. His eyes trailing up and down ALL the way down your body when you stand up to do speeches in class. Very ‘sophisticated’.”

Shocked I didn’t know how to respond maturely to that. “Bullshit. He does not. You’re just making shit up now”. Your voice was getting louder as you felt the heat rise up to your cheeks.

“He sure does, there’s no point in avoiding it. Oh and don’t even get me started with how he stares at you in night clubs. Focused on your hips as they sway with the beat and that slim fitted black dress you always wear. Something was definitely happening to him down there” She so normally exclaimed.

To avoid further embarrassment I ended the conversation really quickly. “Pshh. Nah. Well, I hear the shower calling my name! See ya!” I ran to my bedroom and locked my door as Anastasia was shouting things from the other side of it. Flushed and embarrassed, I sat on the other side of the door and I could feel pulses rushing through my lower body. None of that could be true. There was no way Jimin could like me over the cuter girls in the class anyway, but the thought of Jimin being even remotely turned on from me is making my head feel light and dizzy.

After my shower, I got dressed in my favourite black lace lingerie (just in case), my short black midriff and skinny jeans. I paired my outfit with some gold hoop earrings and my black platform boots. I did a black smokey eye with gold pigment on the lid to harmonise with my jewellery and draw attention to my eyes.  After looking at myself in the mirror once more I bid my farewells to Anastasia before driving happily to my University campus.

After driving through the city for 10 minutes or so I cruise through the student carpark and saw Jimin waiting for me with a light smile plastered on his face not so far away. While walking towards him I slowed down at the sight of him leaning against his car eyes closed daydreaming about things out of my knowledge. He was suited up in a pair of black ripped jeans and a white linen shirt. I’ve never really taken too much notice about his facial features. I continue walking closer and his face hardens at the sight of me, showing need and restraint. His jaw tenses revealing his slightly sculpted cheekbones. Large smokey eyes swallowed you whole and I could feel my knees giving in under just his hard looks. I stopped walking closer noticing the closing gap between us.

Stepping back with a slight pink blush to my cheeks I greeted him. “Good evening Mr Park”

“Well hello daydreamer. Wanna get any closer, you can see me better from this angle” He demonstrated with his face coming close to yours and head tilted slightly down to look directly at your eyes. He smirked at your reaction and ran a hand through his newly dyed, light pink hair. “Gosh aren’t I just irresistible?” He cracked up laughing like a fool.

I punched him in the arm and laughed at him as if saying ‘No you aren’t’ but I had gotten really close to him previously so, to be honest, he was right, I should’ve stopped myself. He then went on to explain that we were going to Japanese for dinner. He also asked if I should give him the notes now or after dinner.

With my cheeks flushing a brighter shade of red he said “So I’m guessing you came here and forgot the notes at home? Well someone was so excited to see me but forgot the real substance as to why they were actually asked to come” He smirked and at that moment I knew I was playing with the devil himself.

I jumped back and responded “Umm no way man! I was just- umm-“

He cut me off and chuckled “Sure Y/N, let’s get going” He ushered me towards his black sports car and shut the door for me like a polite gentleman. What just are you Jimin? The quiet boy in class, the cocky boy that plays with my feelings or the gentleman you are now?

In the passenger seat, I changed the radio station until they played one of Jimin’s hit singles ‘Lie’. I couldn’t help but squirm in my seat restraining myself from dancing and my head swung back when I sang along to the chorus with Jimin’s recording.

Jimin let out a deep groan in the driver seat next to me “If you keep singing like that how am I supposed to focus on the road?” He looked at me through his mirror and I bit my lip and looked down. That noise was enough to send electricity throughout my whole body, so sexy. “Sorry, I just love your song so much that I’m always dancing to it at home” I giggled and he sighed saying ‘thankyou’.

“I worked really hard on it. The song means a lot to me and so does your feedback, I’m glad you like it” The light smile on his face sent flutters to my chest. What was happening to me?

We laughed and told stories throughout the night at the high-class Japanese restaurant that I clearly wasn’t dressed appropriate for, standing out like a clown.

“You know in class, how you like, sit in front of me?” He said while taking sips from his cocktail. It had been our second round of drinks and it had taken its toll on my brain and I was feeling more relaxed than usual.

“Yes? What about it?” I answered following with a question back at him curiously.

Openly, he said, “Well idk if you do it on purpose but- wait what was I saying?” His hands came to his temple thinking intensively “Oh yeah. Well, one day you had this short top on like the one you’re wearing now but you complemented it with this long skirt that hung low on your waist and like- did you know you have like these 2 cute dimples on your lower back?”

I stared straight at me for a couple of seconds before cracking up laughing. Taking another sip from my glass Rosé I said “Of course I knew that I have dimples on my back, you idiot. And besides, why were you looking that far down anyway?” I pressed to see if Anastasia’s theory was true.

Honestly, he replied, “Umm, cuz’ you’re hot.” He leant further into his chair, one arm around the chair and the other holding his cocktail glass to his plump, inviting lips. I turned my head to the side to prevent myself from giggling like a teenager who has been kissed for the first time; besides he was clearly tipsy did he mean it? “Do you wanna head back now? You can drive behind me to my house and well go through my notes cus’ it’s like still only 8”

“Yeah. Good idea. Well, actually, bad idea since we're both over the drinking limit. Can’t drive so well catch the train instead” I agreed with him and he insisted on playing and we both walked to the station together leaving the cars in a safe car park.

The train trip wasn’t long so we got to my station in no time. As we were walking up the hill towards my house, my feet started to flop around sure to the excruciation pain my heels were giving me. Jimin noticed my trouble and snaked his arm around my waist and brought my arm around his muscly shoulders. I looked up at his caring smile and snuggled my face close to his neck whispering ‘thankyou’. The comfort of being in Jimin’s arms is like I have known him forever; I could be in this position all day.

At home, Jimin and I were watching a movie instead of studying since we were both tipsy and couldn’t concentrate. When we first got home we tried to look through the notes but Jimin kept complain of boredom so we just had to fix that didn’t we.

“Truth” I blurt out from the mattress on my bed.

“Are you into me at all?” His tone was stern but his face remained calm. We were playing truth or dare for the last few minutes because the movie had stopped and we were both bored.

“Hmmm. Do I have to answer that?” I sat my head on my hands propped up on my elbows staring at him with a smile.

“Yes” Stubborn shit.

“Well then yes.” My face fell down onto the mattress to cover my embarrassment.

He chuckled and stood up to come lie next to me. “Fine then, your turn. Truth”

“Hmm...” As you were thinking you shifted yourself on the mattress to face Jimin, you stared at each other with little space in between. “If I asked right now, would you kiss me?” I closed my eyes, backed up a little bit to give him space to think and my teeth tugged on my bottom lip. I was so turned on but there was no way I was going to show it. A little more teasing is my number 1 priority at the moment.

“You wouldn’t even need to ask. I could already tell you wanted me to from when you first saw me tonight. Dressed revealingly and constantly biting your bottom lip, oh gosh don’t get me started with your singing in the car. I’ve been holding myself back all night and that is a long time” He pulls me back with one arm so I can face him again looking straight at him.

“You figured it out huh. Smart kids these days huh?” You smirked and got up from the bed, Jimin’s hand trailing down your hips as you left. “I need to put my pj's on” I took this opportunity as an advantage by pulling my shirt over my head revealing my black lace bra. Keeping my pants on, I slipped my silk night dress on taking my jeans off only after I’m fully covered. I continue folding my clothes and sing ‘House of Cards’ by BTS before turning around to face Jimin. His face straight and eyes seeing right through your white silk dress.

“Fuck” he groaned

You walked closer towards him and asked if he wanted to stay over tonight.

“Yes, god damn” he moved across the bed to make room for you. You slipped in one leg slowly at a time and slid down flat. Your hand moved to turn the lamp off and you tumbled towards Jimin’s side sliding one of your legs over his and whispered.

“Goodnight Park Jimin” smiling, your eyes started to close and you rubbed your silk on his bare leg a bit before sleeping.

“Goodnight” Jimin spoke with a monotone voice obvious to be sexually frustrated. Oh well, he wasn’t going to get help with that yet. Not today.

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Hi guys! I am so happy that I have finally found a platform where I can share how I am really feeling right now. Although I have amazing family and friends I feel that it’s too hard to express how I am really feeling so here goes..so basically I went onto a dating website because one day I just woke up and thought you know what I’m not just going to meet a guy by walking into a bar because it hasn’t worked for me in the past so I decided to go on a dating website. I come from a Christian background so I thought you know what I should go on a Christian dating website, HAHA I hadn’t Been to church in 7 years.. but I thought would be nice to meet someone that actually has morals and same beliefs I guess. ANYWAY... so I went on there was swiping like omg no no no, left left left thinking why did I go on here what a joke! Until... I saw this guy and I double took like wtf surely he can’t be real he’s so hot, like exactly my type!Exciting news: we got matched! And I was so excited like surely this isn’t actually happening to me I’m usually so unlucky in love. so we started talking and then he said ‘would you be interested in a long distance relationship?’ And I was like yeah I don’t mind as long as we both are willing to put in a effort then we could keep it going.After talking for a bit we seemed to be really getting along. So he said why don’t I FaceTime you? And I was like FUCK umm now!? I was freaking out cuz I had not prepared for that, my hair and make up wasn’t done. so anyway I decided why not, I better seem like I’m keen that’s the main thing. So the minute I saw him like jaw dropped (in the inside) lol I was so attracted to him and he also seemed so nice too it was a dream come true and we got along like a house on fire.So we were FaceTiming/ calling each other for like 2 months straight.. having really long conversations (6 hours) was the longest one. So it was solid chats. It got to the point where we started saying like we should really actually plan to see each other.. and he always said he was going to come and see me but then it just never ended up happening. So I thought you know what I feel like getting away and I really wanted to meet him in person so I thought that’s it I’m travelling to Sydney to go see him.I had asked him like a few times over the phone and through message so should I come up should I book a flight. I had a weekend where I had like 5 days off so I told him and he said yeah let’s do it over message. I didn’t hear much from him for like a week cuz he is always busy at work so I just decided spontaneously to book the flight without telling him but I assumed he’d be cool with it seeing as we had spoken about it a lot and I thought he was a laid back guy so I thought he’d be happy to see me.So I booked it, sent him the message all excited and then he sent me a message back saying ‘you what’ and I was kinda shocked because I thought he was going to be excited as I was but it was the total opposite. I played it cool but I was kinda upset and I just continued to be positive to make light of he’s disappointing reaction by saying things like ‘ your going to love it when I’m there and be so happy’ but I didn’t really get the response back that I wanted.So leading up to me going up to Sydney we didn’t really talk a lot not like as much as what we were talking before that. So I thought I would just go with it and just remain chilled. I booked to stay at a backpackers cuz I couldn’t afford to stay at a hotel for like 5 days.Anyway so I get there and check in and I met this cool German girl who seemed really nice at backpackers. Then I wait for him to finish work at like 5.30 but don’t message him till 6. Cuz I didn’t wanna be annoying. I messaged asking how he’s day was.. and then he was like yeah pretty tired and I was like do you want me to come to yours and he’s like it’s pretty far from the city and I was like ok fair enough so I was a little tired too so I went to bed and fell asleep.Next day I got up went into the city and went shopping and let him sleep in so I didn’t bother him by messaging him. I just did my own thing for a bit. It got to like 12pm so I was like hey what you doing? He replied but then anyway long story short.. we decided to see each other that night. I started getting ready from 5.30 and he didn’t message me till like 9.30 saying he was coming into the city.He got to backpackers at 10, and was waiting in the common room where all of the other people were and we smiled at each other and hugged for like a minute hahah. He seemed happy to see me.Then we were walking into the city and found this noodle night market and we both seemed to really love our food which was a good start I felt comfortable already even though I was still a. Little nervous. He was so funny like he wasn’t self conscious at all which I loved because I can be so self conscious and it just made me laugh and feel comfortable with him. So we were laughing and he was eating a lot and I was laughing cuz he was just going for it haha. Then he went to get me a wine and I could see him walking all over the place trying to find it he seemed so erratic but in a funny LOL sort of way.We decided to go out, went to this little bar underground and the music wasn’t really my thing but I was just happy to be out with him so I didn’t care. I was still Nervous for some reason and he seemed so full of confidence, I had only had one drink so I decided I needed to get another. I kept drinking but not feeling drunk at all and I wasn’t at he’s level so I started to feel self conscious I still wasn’t feeling confident enough.Anyway I ended up getting pretty tipsy and started to get a bit drunk then finally I started feeling good, more confident like I could totally slay at anything haha. Then I just got into this mode of ordering chambord shots my fav shot and then double shot vodkas and I was smashing it but it wasn’t hitting me too hard I just felt good lol.Then we went to a second bar and I was still ordering double shot vodkas well trying to but they wouldn’t serve it to me so I had to order it twice and then I sarcastically poured it into one glass then turned around to the bar tender and said now I can have a double shot vodka haha. I thought I was so smart at the time.We decided to leave and get a Uber home. Here comes the bad part. I don’t know what happened but all of the drinks must of hit me at once. (This is why you shouldn’t binge drink 101) right here.. I don’t know why the fuck I did this... It’s so CRINGE WORTHY.. sighs.. he asked me for a chicken nugget and then I must of slapped him/ hit him in the face.. but the weirdest part is I must of blacked out when I did it because I don’t remember physically doing it. When I came out of the blackout or whatever it was... I went to hug him and he’s like don’t touch me and I was like why not and he’s like you just slapped me in the face for no reason, and I was like no I didn’t and he’s like yes you did, and I started getting so upset because I couldn’t remember like I was that fucked up I blacked out slapped him and then like came back out of it after I came to the realisation that I did it. I kept saying I didn’t do it and he kept saying yes I did, so of course of must of did it cuz why would he say I did it when I didn’t but I don’t remember doing it at all, swear to god.I was crying saying like that I’m so sorry I don’t know why I would do that and I think he just wanted me to stop crying so he sort of forgave me but not actually. He was distant when we got back to he’s place which is understandable.Next day we were on talking terms but it was still kinda awkward. He said he didn’t remember anything from the night before. I stupidly brought up the slap because I felt really bad and I just really wanted him to know that I was sorry and I didn’t mean to do that at all.He said that he couldn’t remember and that I probably shouldn’t have told him that. But I felt really bad and wanted to apologise. we were hanging out watching Netflix and I went to lean on him cuz I noticed he was being distant and he was like as stiff as a board so I stopped leaning on him cuz I could feel he was feeling uncomfortable.We watched a movie and were talking and laughing and stuff. Then he turned serious again and said he should take me back soon because it was going to take a while. I tried to say to him look I’ve come all this way could I maybe stay with you tonight because I wanted to see him more but he really wasn’t keen at all and said that he needs like to process things.He ended up taking me to bondi because I said I had never been to icebergs before. We were walking around and then started taking like cute little ‘couple selfies’ together and everything seemed normal. When we got back to backpackers we kissed goodbye and it wasn’t just one kiss like half making out a bit lol. Then I said I really like you, and I was like do you like me and he’s like yeah. Then I said are you going to come see me and he’s like yeah. Which seemed believable to me nothing seemed wrong at all but maybe I’m just really bad at reading people.He was talking to me the day I was at the airport to go back home but when I went back home and after a while he just completely stopped talking to me. I didn’t know if he just needed space or weather it was because of what I had done. I gave it about a week but then I thought I need to know so I messaged trying to find out and I got nothing back. I didn’t wanna seem pushy so I kept asking hoping to get an answer but still got nothing. I needed to know what was going on because if he had decided to move on I thought I deserved to know.He never replied to any of my messages apart from after I said ok whatever well I’m done goodluck. Then he said well next time maybe you shouldn’t slap people for no reason, it’s kinda violent. I was kinda shocked because although he has every right to be upset he never showed any sign of it at all. It felt like the final dagger being thrown into my face.I get it like I made the mistake but I didn’t understand why he couldn’t say something earlier. Now I keep messaging him saying sorry forgive me but I get nothing back.Is it time to move on, is the damage done? Or should I just leave it and wait for him to come around, I really don’t know what to do. I still really like him and feel so depressed/stupid that I have messed up everything. He was like the man of my dreams and now i feel like it’s over. It’s so sad and I feel so fucked up, how could I do something so stupid. I do have alcohol issues but I just can’t believe I managed it fuck it up on the first date I feel so regretful and I don’t know what to do or how to move on.I need some serious advice via /r/dating_advice