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jealous alex morgan? im obsessed with how you write her
Childish Jealousy
Alex Morgan x fem!reader
minor SMUT 18+ in the beginning
summary: your wifeâs jealousy comes in the most unexpected ways
a/n: first universe incoming with @occasionallyaurora !



âFuck, Alex.â You breathe, hips instinctively lifting to chase the warmth of your fiancĂ©eâs sweet tongue. Her hands tighten around your hips, pinning you down, her nails pressing half-moon marks into your skin.
The slick sounds of her mouth lapping you over fill the air, mingling with the soft chirping of early morning birds outside the window. A bead of sweat rolls down Alexâs forehead, the heat from the blankets making the space between you sweltering.
âPlease donât stop, baby, just like that. Iâm so close.â You writhe, fingers tangled in the sheets as your teeth sink into your lower lip to muffle the moans threatening to spill out.
Right as youâre about to teeter over the edge, your bedroom door bursts open with a little girl barreling straight for you two. You sit up as quickly as possible, fixing your hair to look like you werenât just getting eaten out.
âMommy!â Charlie cheers, waddling to your side of the bed, reaching out for your hands.
âHi, honey! Good morning.â You muster up a smile, grasping the girlâs tiny hands.
Alex huffs under the blankets and thumps her head on the inside of your thigh, realizing that she was just proven wrong.
âWhatâs mama doing?â Charlie asks, tilting her head curiously to the side, staring at the big lump under the blankets.
Your heart stutters and eyes slightly widen. You lightly smack the back of your fiancée, signaling for her to get up and for the love of god wipe her face.
âMama is just being silly. Why donât you go downstairs and put on some cartoons while mama and I get ready to make breakfast, yeah?â The little girl enthusiastically nods and tramples off, allowing you to let out a sigh of relief.
Alex peeks out from under the blanket with a sheepish smile, chin resting on your stomach. Her brown hair sticks to her forehead, blue eyes still blown with lust, lips glistening with evidence of what should have been your perfect morning.
You however are not so amused.
Your core aches, the pleasure that had been coiling so tightly now completely dissipated. And to top it all off, you have a three-year-old to entertain.
âGood morning my beautiful fiancĂ©e.â Alex says with a charming smile but is quickly shut down by one look from you.
Huffing, you shove her aside and yank your underwear and pajama shorts back into place. Alex watches as you toss the comforter off and storm into the bathroom, punctuating your exit with a sharp slam of the door.
The brunette stays seated in bed, staring blankly at the wall with a deep sigh. She runs her fingers through her bed head, combing through it to untangle the minor knots.
Minutes later, you reappear from the bathroom, shoulders slumping as you sink into the end of the mattress.
âI told you so.â You say, voice low and pointed.
Alex barely lifts her head from her phone, though her gaze flickers with guilt.
âI told you we didnât have enough time, but you insistedââ
âAnd I am so, so sorry, my love.â Alex scoots up behind you, slipping her arms around your waist, chin resting on your shoulder.
âMmm, I know you are, and thatâs why you will be going downstairs and making our daughter breakfast while I go take a much-needed shower.â You place a chaste kiss on the girlâs cheek before getting up to gather your clothes for after the shower.
â
âThat was a long shower.â Alex teases as you step into the kitchen, freshly dressed and looking far more put together than earlier.
âWell I had to give myself my own o-r-g-a-s-m which was remarkable by the way.â You taunt, spelling out the word because your daughter sits at the kitchen table, waiting for the pancakes your fiancĂ©e is currently flipping.
The striker freezes, expression dropping at your admission.
You smirk as you pluck a piece of fruit from the counter behind her, pop it into your mouth, and stroll over to Charlie.
âShit.â Alex curses under her breath when she realizes the pancake had been left on one side for too long.
âHey, honey. Howâd you sleep last night?â You ask the young girl beside you who is currently scribbling away in her coloring book.
âI slept good. I dreamed about my stuffed animals talking to me and we had to save you and mama from the king of the wolves!â Charlie rambles enthusiastically while you smile and nod your head with a huff of laughter.
âDid you save us?â
âI donât know! I woke up before the end.â
âOh no.â You dramatically gasp with a hand on your chest.
You and Charlie both talk and giggle with one another as you help color a butterfly in on her page. Alex watches from afar with a soft smile on her face, never getting tired of seeing you two together.
âDid someone call for pancakes?â Your fiancĂ©e walks over with a plate full of the fluffy food, some vegan for herself and the rest regular for you and Charlie.
âThank you, my love.â You smile, looking up at Alex who begins to lean down for a kiss before a tiny hand blocks her way.
âWhaââ
âMy mommy.â
You giggle behind your hand at the little standoff happening in front of you. Alex pouts, glaring playfully while Charlie scowls right back.
This behavior has been highly usual with Charlie for the past couple of weeks. She is constantly attached to your hip whether itâs movie night, taking a walk, or even sitting at the dinner table.
Alex thought it was just a phase, but now sheâs starting to wonder if her kid is stealing her fiancĂ©e out of spite. Sheâs not sure what Charlie could possibly be spiteful about, but thatâs the only explanation she can come up with.
âAlright you two. Letâs sit down and have some wonderful pancakes mama made for us, yeah?â Charlieâs glare is soon wiped off her face, cheering when she notices your smile.
âHere you go, pumpkin.â Alex reaches over to help cut the food up for Charlie when the young girl smacks her hand away. Your fiancĂ©e recoils with a small noise and a shocked look.
âI want mommy to do it.â Your daughter huffs, switching her look to you with puppy dog eyes.
âShe wants mommy to do it.â Alex mutters under her breath, mimicking the toddlerâs tone as she hands you the fork and knife.
You smile sympathetically at the striker, rubbing your free hand up and down her back in reassurance.
After breakfast, Alex heads to the living room with Charlie after you insisted on doing the dishes since she cooked. Alex doesnât argue. Youâre always on about balance in a relationship which started because she insists on pampering you 24/7, and you wanted her to have a break too.
Alex plops down in the middle of the couch. Charlie, however, sits as close to the edge as she possibly can, still holding a grudge over mama stealing you earlier.
A few minutes later, you walk out with a relieved sigh and slump onto the other side of Alex. Your fiancée lifts her arm to wrap around your shoulders with a warm smile only for Charlie to immediately hop between you two, shoving her little body in the middle.
âYou do know sheâs my fiancĂ©e, missy.â Alex says, quirking an eyebrow when Charlie grasps onto you like a koala to a tree.
âBut sheâs my mommy.â
âSo Iâve heard.â Your fiancĂ©e mutters, rolling her eyes.
With a dramatic sigh, she starts to scoot down the couch, but before she can, you reach out.
âYou know, thereâs plenty of room for all of us on the couch.â You extend your hand out for the striker, Charlie intertwines her hand with yours first.
âNo! Only room for me and mommy.â
You bite your lip to contain your smile when you see Alexâs nose flare and eye twitch at the little girlâs statement. Your fiancĂ©e swiftly gets up and slowly walks behind the couch, dragging her index finger along the backside of it.
âWell,â she murmurs, circling like a predator, âhow would you feel if I got a kiss from Mommy?â
She gently tilts your chin, about to steal a kiss when Charlieâs little hands grab onto both of your cheeks and yanks your attention back to her.
âMommy, look at me!â
You chuckle, placing a quick kiss on Charlieâs forehead. Alex, however, glares at her tiny nemesis.
The tall brunette eventually gives up and stomps upstairs with a loud groan.
âWhere are you going?â You call after her.
âSomewhere where Iâm actually wanted. Our bed!â
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âSomeoneâs grumpy today.â Jaedyn mutters to a nodding Naomi, both watching Alex angrily kick a ball across the field.
âSheâs been like this all week! Someoneâs gotta do something.â Naomi sighs, shaking her head as Alex stomps off to get some water.
As practice continues, your fiancĂ©eâs frustration only seems to escalate. The rest of the team bears the brunt of her aggression: forceful passes, irritated groans, and an overall short fuse.
âWhatâs going on with that limp, Girma?â Casey asks, having noticed the discomfort of the defender the past few minutes.
âJust some tightness and cramping.â Naomi waves her hand in dismissal, but Casey quickly shakes her head and points to the tunnel.
âGo visit, Y/n, and get that kink sorted out. Canât have my best player hurting.â The coach winks with a smile.
You're sorting through paperwork when a familiar figure appears at your door. You look up with a smile, tucking away some files before walking over to the exam chair where the girl is sat.
âHey, Nay! Whatâs going on? Someone told me you were coming due to calf issues?â You ask, slipping on some rubber gloves for precaution.
âUmm, actually Iâm feeling just fine. I came here to talk to youâŠabout Alex.â
Your hands freeze mid-motion before you pull the gloves off, brows furrowing slightly.
âOh.â
Naomi watches you with her lip tucked in between her teeth, wondering if she has intruded on something she shouldnât have.
âWell whatâs going on with Alex?â You ask, furrowing your eyebrows
âI donât mean to intrude, so if I am, please tell me. But sheâs been grumpy all week, and today itâs even worse. Iâm not sure if anything happened between you two or whatâs going on because you both drive here together and look just fine.â
Inhaling, your eyes wander across the room wondering what could make your fiancĂ©e happy at home but grumpy here. Now that you think about it, your fiancĂ©e has been acting a little off at home, and maybe sheâs concealing it more there because of Charlie.
âNothing happened at home that I know of. Did she say anything or did someone say something before she got in this mood?â You question, attempting to get any information to help with this new found mystery.
âHuh, I never thought about that. Oh! Emily brought up Alex needing to get laid as a joke a few days ago.â Naomi rolls her eyes repeating the statement, realizing how blunt it sounds out loud.
And suddenly it clicks. Alex hasnât been grumpy at home, sheâs been clingy and pouty. You realize this Charlie clingy situation has been affecting her more than you thought, having barely any time for each other.
Naomi watches your mouth open and head tilt with a nod, signaling you may have figured out whatâs wrong.
âI think I know exactly whatâs going on.â
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âMommy, I donât wanna go!â Charlie cries out, clinging onto your leg while Servando watches with an amused grin.
âDonât you wanna spend time with daddy? He even said you can have ice cream before dinner!â
âI did?â He raises an eyebrow in confusion.
âYes you did. Remember?â You smile with gritted teeth, nodding your head down at the little girl who is clinging so tight to your leg you feel like youâre losing circulation.
âRight! I remember now. Donât you want ice cream with daddy, and maybe some Disney movies?â Servando extends his hand, watching Charlie peek her head out from your leg.
âI guess, but you promise you will miss me?â You almost melt at the question.
âIâll miss you so, so much, my Charlie-girl. But youâre going to have so much fun, you might even forget about me for a little while!â
She gasps dramatically at the thought, eyes wide as if the idea is absurd. But after a moment of contemplation, she finally nods, letting Servando scoop her up. You send him a grateful smile, throwing in one more thank you before they head out.
Alex, however, has no idea about this little change of plans. Normally, Charlie would be home tonight, but realizing how little time you and your fiancée have had alone, you decided to surprise her.
And now, with the house empty and a rare moment to yourselves, you set the perfect mood.
Around an hour later, keys can be heard jingling at the door before Alex appears in the doorway. She hesitates, eyes narrowing as she notices the lack of light and sound in the house. Itâs unusual. Normally, sheâd be greeted by giggles, the hum of cartoons, or at the very least, your voice.
Her steps are slow and cautious as she makes her way through the house, not wanting to wake up what she figured was a two person nap. Once she finally makes her way up the stairs, her eyebrows raise at the dim light spilling through the crack of your bedroom door.
Pushing it open, she stops dead in her tracks.
âWhatâs going on here?â The striker asks, scanning the scene before her.
Candles flicker across the room, casting soft golden light. A trail of rose petals winds from the doorway to the perfectly made bed, the air thick with the scent of vanilla and jasmine.
Then her eyes land on you.
âWelcome home, baby.â
You step out from the shadows of the bathroom, wrapped in navy blue lace, the color that makes her weak. Two flutes of champagne rest in your hands as you slowly make your way to her, the sway of your hips hypnotizing.
Alex watches you with barely concealed hunger, placing her phone on the bedside table before sinking onto the edge of the mattress. You approach her with a sly grin and carefully straddle her lap, careful not to spill the liquid in the two glasses.
Flipping your hair to the side, you hand her one of the glasses. Alex takes it, fingers brushing over yours as her gaze lingers over your body.
âWhatâs this all for?â She asks, voice thick with curiosity.
âWe havenât had enough time to ourselves, so I figured Iâd surprise you.â You hum, roaming your finger along her jawline.
âAnd Charlie?â
âWith Servando.â
Alex exhales slowly, a smirk tugging at her lips as she sets both glasses aside. Her hands find your hips, fingers tracing the delicate lace, exploring every curve as she takes you in like a masterpiece.
âWhat did I do to deserve you?â Alex whispers with dreamy eyes.
âMaybe wished upon a star.â You tease with a smile, tilting your head.
She chuckles, but the sound is quickly swallowed when you lean in, capturing her lips in a kiss that turns desperate in secondsâneedy, just like the two of you have been.
Alexâs grip tightens, her hands roaming with growing urgency. Whatever patience she had is long gone.
âMaybe I can make up for that morning that was interrupted a few days ago?â Your fiancĂ©e mumbles against your lips, voice dripping with lust.
âJust fuck me, Alex.â
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The Lost Prince - TRR AU [Epilogue] / TRH : Royal Rhys [Prologue]
After being married for three years and unable to produce an heir, Liam and Riley are about to give up when Liam gets an unexpected news that changes his life forever.
Genre : Romance, Drama
Characters except my OCs belong to Pixelberry, I am just borrowing them
Word count : 2k++
Chapter Summary: 28 years later...
A/N : One stories closes another begins. Iâve decided to put the epilogue of The Lost Prince and prologue for the sequel together because it seems to work.
TRH : ROYAL RHYS, is a sequel set 28 years later from the events of THE LOST PRINCE. Theon and his siblings are all grown up. The OG will still be in the series from time to time but itâs mainly about the kids. đ
Sorry for any typoâs and grammatical errors. Also this is tagged under long post.
Warning : The sequel will contain mature content in future chapters such as NSFW, Violence and a few triggers which I will mention on the chapter. Only read if you are 18 and above.
Do let me know if you want to be added to the sequel.

28 years laterâŠ
Somewhere in Greece.
It was already past noon when he began to slowly flutter his eyes open as the small ray of sunlight peaks through the closed curtains of the hotel room. He slowly lifts his head up as he takes in the surroundings of his luxurious penthouse suit, a few empty shot glasses on the table and a few empty bottles of liquor along with it. Clothes scattered all over the floor and next to him was her, sleeping soundly.
A low grunt escapes him and presses his palms between his forehead. âFuck, I probably had too much to drink again last night.â He slowly removes the sheets and carefully gets up from bed trying not to wake her up. As soon as his feet touch the floor he reaches for his boxers and pulls them on, gathering the rest of his clothes, getting dressed before leaving the room being careful not to let anyone see him.
âHey itâs me, meet me at the back.â
Hunter Dominic Rhys was the youngest of the twins and the black sheep of the family. At the age of 3 he was already giving the nanny a field day with his mischief and shenanigans. By the time he was 16 he already had 20 different kingsguard assigned to him eventually breaking his uncle Leoâs record.
He makes his way towards the back entrance of the Hotel. As he enters the black SUV and takes a seat his phone beeps, he takes it out from the pocket of his jacket and reads the text a wide grin forms on his face as he does.
Had fun last night, hope to see you again soon. Xoxo
âSeriously man, I canât keep covering for you.â The driver on the front seat said, giving Hunter a look between annoyed and worried.
âCommon Jackson if thereâs one Kingsguard who I know I can trust itâs you.â
âYou know this is just going to bite you in the ass if her husband finds out youâve been screwing with his wife right?â Jackson said with an eyebrow raised.
âThen weâll just have to make sure he doesnât..â He answers with a smug look on his face. âWeâd better head to the private airstrip. I wouldnât want to miss my family's Friday night dinner. My mother would never let me hear the end of it.â
Jackson rolls his eyes before putting on his aviators. âIf you say so, your royal highnessâ.
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TREND studio, Cordonia.
She stood at the back of the stage, waiting for Ana de Luca to announce her name. She was invited as a special guest today for an interview.
And without further adieu please welcome today's special guess, her royal highness princess Alexandra Rhys of Cordonia.
âThatâs my cue.â She murmurs to herself, putting on a perfect smile and adjusting her posture before she saunters out to face the audience and the cameras.
Alexandra Kenna Rhys, the older twin, was the poster child of the Rhys family. While her brotherâs were off involving themselves in mischief and her sister rummaging her motherâs closet playing pretend dress up, she would be spending her days at the palace library reading. By the age of 24 she was already a world known author and sheâs also known for her philanthropy. Even Theon had his bad press days, but there was never one about Alex. She was always primp and proper for the camera but off cameras Alex had a secret that no one knew about.
Alex approaches the couch and shakes Anaâs hand as they greet each other, they each take a seat shortly after. The sound of the audience cheering slowly dies down and they begin their session.
âThank you for agreeing to join us today, your highness.â
âThe pleasure is all mine Ana. You know Iâm always happy to come to your show.â She smiles.
âFirstly I would like to congratulate you on the success of your charity last weekend, I believe you managed to collect a generous amount from the people who attended.â She said and the audience clapped and cheered.
âThank you Ana, but you know I could have done it without the support of my family and all the other people involved.â
âHumble as always.â Ana said with a smile. âSo your recent book the sequel to The Elementalist was a huge success early this year and there were rumours going around recently that you are currently working on a third book. Is that true? Could you give us a little spoiler?â
âUh well there is definitely a third book on the way, which Iâm hoping would be out sometime later next year. Fingers crossed.â She said, crossing her fingers in front of the audience. âItâs going to be the final book and itâs taking place during the group's senior year.â
The audience cheers in excitement.
âThatâs great news! Iâm sure your fans of the book will be eagerly waiting for the official release.â She said with a smile. âSo on to the next question and Iâm sure it's something the audience has been dying to know. How are things in the love department so far? You and Jackson Walker have been dating for almost a decade. Are we going to hear any wedding bells soon?â
Alex shifts her position, her body tenses a little but conceals it perfectly before anyone notices. âThe two of us have been doing well but you know we each have our busy schedules. Iâve been away a lot on business and heâs been busy handling Hunter. There hasnât been any talk of wedding bells yet.â She answers with a plastic smile. âBut if there was as always youâll be the first to know.â
The two exchange pleasantries for another twenty minute until itâs finally time for Alex to get off the set. When she gets to the back of the stage she finally feels like she could breathe, a successful charity and an upcoming trilogy but all people were obsessed with was about her love life? She and Jackson agreed on keeping their relationship as private as possible away from the cameras but whenever there was a picture of them taken together it was always perfect, they seemed perfect but were they really?
Hey.. Saw what happened at the interview. Want to meet up tonight and talk about it after dinner?
Alex bit her lip, thinking about what she would reply.
Cant, I need to focus on my next book. Maybe some other time?
âYour highness, the SUV is ready for you.â Her assistant informs her.
âThank you, Lily.â She said and headed off to get ready for her familyâs dinner.
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The Royal Palace - Ellieâs room
Ellie swipes through the racks of Designer gowns sent to her from all the top designers in Europe, sheâs trying to choose the perfect gown for her upcoming 21st birthday party.
âSo Iâll need two dresses, one for my entrance and the other for when I blow the candles. What do you think of this one for my grand entrance?â She asks pulling out a beautiful Navy blue ball gown with golden embroideries on it.
âIt looks pretty.â Was MJâs answer to every dress she took out and showed him. Ellie frowned, narrowing her eyes at him. âYouâve been saying the same thing to every dress Iâve shown you, how am I supposed to decide like that?â
âIâm a guy Ellie, I donât have a keen sense of tayes when it comes to haute couture or fashion. All I know is that youâd look stunning in whatever dress you choose.â
âUgh.. Give me a break MJ.â Viola groans, rolling her eye roll as she struts into the room. âSorry Iâm late dear old mummy had a dog emergency. She tosses a few shopping bags on the settee before rummaging through the rack for a few options, taking them out and laying them on the bed one by one. âHere, these are the ones that would bring out the colour of your eyes the most.â
âYou're my lifesaver Viola, you know that right?â She beams, giving Viola a hug before taking a few of the dresses and trying them on in her closet.
âNice to see someone finally decided to show up.â MJ shrugs at Viola.
Viola gives MJ an eyeroll. âUnlike you, I actually have a social life. Plus didnât you hear me when I said I had a family emergency?â
âIf by social life you mean sleeping around with half the court then hard pass.â MJ claps back, making Viola scowls. In MJâs defence, he has caught her a few times hooking up with other nobles, most of them already had partners. The last time he caught her was during a party at his uncle Bertrandâs estate, he was on the way to the garden when he saw her coming out from the tool shed looking slightly disheveled and coming out after her was none other than his cousin Bartie.
The disgust on his face when he found out his cousin was hooking up with her when he was engaged to someone else. When MJ confronted Bartie, he said it was a mistake and that it wonât happen again. He made MJ promise not the tell his fiancĂ© and MJ agreed, only because Clara was a nice girl and she didnât need to get hurt by one mistake.
âSo what do you guys think?â Ellie asks as she steps out of the closet and twirls around in her dress. MJ eyes go wide open and his jaw drops. âYou look beautiful Ellie.â
âUsually, I donât agree with MJ but Iâll make an exception for this. You look drop dead gorgeous.â Viola exclaims.
âReally? Thanks, but Iâm still putting it in the maybe pile. These dresses are really pretty, I just. I donât know.â
âWell if thereâs nothing you really like, what about the dresses youâve designed?â MJ suggested. âIâve seen your sketches Elle, theyâre really good.â
âI would be lying if I said the thought never crossed my mind. But my mom pulled a lot of strings to get me all these dresses.â
âIâm sure she would understand besides itâs your big day. You should tell her about it during dinner.â
âThen itâs settled, Iâll let my mom know during dinner.â She smiled.
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Castelsarreillan Estate, Cordonia
Theon nods attentively with a forceful smile plastered on his face as he listens to King Eirik endlessly talk about his adventure back in the day.
It was like any normal afternoon for him, attending a diplomatic luncheon that was held at the Castelsarreillan estate. As the crown prince and future king of Cordonia it was his obligation to attend such events but recently for the past year he noticed those obligations were becoming more and more. His parents were becoming less involved and he could start to feel the weight of the crown getting heavier.
âIâm sorry your majesty for the interruption, but thereâs some pressing matters that require his royal highnesses attention.â Natalia said, whisking Theon away from the crowd and to the otherside the room. âThanks for that.â He murmurs into her ear. âI was beginning to think youâd leave me there just hanging. And by the way, thanks again for coming with me on such short notice.â
âWell what are assistants for. Speaking of you should really find your own assistant.â She said, raising an eyebrow at Theon. âI canât babysit you all the time.â
Theon chuckles. âIâm sure my mom wonât mind if I borrow you for a little longer. Besides, you love babysitting me.â He said, giving her a playful wink.
Natalia chuckles. âCareful now your highness people might talk if they see your flirting with the help.â
Their coversation is cut short by someone who approaches. âPardon me your highness but the Duke of Krona would like to have a few words with you.â
âAh. Of course, Iâll be there a bit.â He said, turning to Natalia with his champagne glass raised. âDuty calls. Oh and have the helicopter ready by six, I wouldnât want to be late for family dinner.â
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Kings Office, Cordonia.
Liam sat on his leather armchair slightly pushed back, absently swirling the glass of scotch in his hand while staring at the picture of his family on his desk. He had been ruling Cordonia for three decades and during his reign he managed to achieve peace and prosperity in the country like he had always hoped for. But he couldnât have done without help from the love of his life.
âPenny for your thoughts?â Liam turns his gaze and smiles when he sees his wife standing by the threshold. âNo, I was just thinking.â He places his glass on the oakwood desk. âAbout what?â Riley asks, sauntering towards him then takes a seat on his lap, wrapping one arm on his shoulder.
Liam looks at his wife, taking in the sight of her. The way she smiled and her dimples that showed when she did, even after she started to age she was still beautiful and he was still madly in love with her like he was all those years ago. âIâve been thinking.âHe smiles, tucking the lock of hair that strayed behind her ear. âIâve had the most peaceful and prosperous rule throughout my reign as king. Granted there were a few imperfect moments. But everyone of them I got through because I had you by my side.â
Riley chuckles. âYou give me too much credit love. But you would have been a great king with or without me.â
âModest as ever.â He said with a smile. âI love you Riley, I know Iâve said it maybe a million times but every word of it is true.â
Riley leans in and kisses her husband on the lips, when she pulls apart she smiles warmly at him. âI love you too Liam but where is this going?â She gives him a questioning look.
âRiley, the both of us. Weâve been through alot together, we faced scandals, threats from our share of enemies, we raised four beautiful children together while running a country.â
Riley chuckles. âHow could I forget, but everything was worth it because it made us stronger as a couple.â
âIt has my love. But there comes a time in a kingâs life when he just wants to be a man and enjoy every moment of his remaining life with his wife.â He takes her hand gently and traces soothing circles. âLiam, are you saying?â
âRiley, love. I have decided to resign as the reigning monarch by the end of this social season. We could finally spend all our days on that private island just you and me. No country to worry about no buzzing press, I really itâs time and Theon, Theon is ready whether he knows it or not. So what do you say my queen? Are you with me?â
âAre you kidding me?â She pauses, her expression serious, it was making Liam a little worried but she quickly changes it into a gleeful smile then kisses her husband on the lips once more. âLiam Rhys, I cannot wait to spend every single day of retirement and have you all to myself.â
Liam chuckles. âYou deserve it.â
âWe both do.â She adds. âSo when do we tell the kids?â
âHow about tonight, during our dinner?â He grins.
Riley leans in and kisses her husband one more time. âSounds like a plan. Now I need to get dinner ready.â She abruptly stands and heads out but not before stopping at the threshold, turning towards her husband once more. âI love you, my King.â
âAnd I love you, my Queen.â
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On Film (or Between The Sheets) -- high school AU
CHAPTER 1. Life hasn't been the smoothest for Lucas in the past couple of months, family wise. When his dad ends up leaving the city to work in Paris, he's ready to do absolutely anything to be able to stay in his current school and keep his life on tracks. Anything. Even becoming a film student and moving in dorms. (read on ao3)
MERCREDI 12:41
If you were to ask Lucas how heâs managed to find himself in a situation like this, heâd probably have to explain quite a few things, but itâs pretty much a given that one of those things would be that, originally, he doesnât even care about cinema all that much.
Certainly not enough to pick it as his main option for the BAC, thatâs for sure.
âCome on,â he hisses through gritted teeth as the camera sways dangerously back and forth on its tripod.
Why is this not working? Why does the fucking world hate him that much?
He swears heâs been there for ages, crouching down and trying so fucking desperately to get that stupid camera to somehow fixate itself on that fucking support. His eyes travel around helplessly, but everyoneâs busy around him. To be fair, itâs not like heâs exactly counting on it. Thereâs a schedule on the wall behind him, whose sole purpose is to remind them that they need at least three more pairs of arms each to be able to function with the shitload of tasks they were assigned at the beginning of the week.
A group of three third-years are glued to a computer screen and obsessing over whatever video editing software theyâre using, two first-years and Emma are in the middle of filming an interview in the couch area of the movie theater hall, and Arthurâs gone seeing whatever movie heâs been assigned to watch. He briefly considers running outside to beg Alex to come help him, but the guyâs smoking with a third-year friend and Lucas doesnât think heâd survive the humiliation of being brushed off, so he just sucks it up and focuses back on that stupid tripod instead.
If his teacher is back before heâs set it up-
âWhat are you doing?â, asks a voice behind him, just after he may or may not have clinked the camera a little harshly out of spite.
Lucasâ head snaps to the side, cheeks burning from being caught red-handed. Heâs fucking sweating when his eyes meet Eliott Demauryâs questioning ones.
Of all fucking people, he screams to himself.
âI canât get it to⊠I donât know, fixate itself,â he says weakly.
He doesnât even know the proper words for all that shit, how come are people even expecting him to put it all up on his own?
Eliott cocks an eyebrow. âWell, Iâd say that smashing it probably wonât solve it, but Iâve never tried that either,â he shrugs with a smirk.
Lucas gives him a look. âFuck you,â he mumbles, half-astounded by his own bravery. He turns his back on him, since the last thing he needs is some third-year know-it-all to make fun of him, and refocus his attention back on the biggest problem at hand instead. âIf Chassart is back before Iâve finished setting this up, heâs gonna fucking kill me.â
âCâmon, let me help,â Eliott says as he crouches down next to him.
He reaches out to grab the camera, and Lucas glances at him from the corner of his eye before letting him. Itâs not like heâs gonna do any worse than nothing, Lucas admits begrudgingly. Eliott starts fumbling in his jeans pocket, holding the camera nonchalantly from his other hand, and eventually he exhumes a coin that was apparently lost in there. Lucas barely holds back a snide comment â really, who still uses coins these days? â, but every bit of sarcasm fades out instantly as Eliott flips the coin expertly between his fingers. Next thing Lucas knows, heâs using it as a makeshift screwdriver to loosen the screw at the top of the tripod. Just like that, with a few movements that go way too fast for him to process and a satisfying click that he was so desperately waiting for a minute ago, the camera is fixated infuriatingly fast on its support.
He wants to die. Or at least for the fucking ground to open under his feet and swallow him.
Eliott tucks the coin back in his pocket like itâs nothing. âThere you go,â he says casually, nudging the camera in his direction.
If only it was arrogance or made-up casualness, but really, no matter that Lucas talked with him a total of one time throughout his life, he knows Eliott is just that guy. Nice. Helpful. Exasperatingly good â a fucking natural. No wonder why heâs become Chassartâs favorite in no time. Heâd be mad, jealous even, if being in the manâs good books was on his to-do list, but as it is he just wants to make it through that stupid hellweek that is his first film festival ever in one piece, and fuck the rest. If theyâre being mistreated this way for a second-class film festival, he can only imagine how shit goes down when the third-years go to Cannes.
Cheeks burning and jaws clenching, he mumbles a small âthankyouâ.
Eliott shrugs. âWhy didnât you just ask them before?â, he says, pointing at the trio of third-years on their computer from his chin.
âDidnât want to bother,â Lucas groans, dropping himself flat on the carpeted floor.
It feels like forever since he even sat down, courtesy of a particularly busy morning.
âSo you were just gonna wait for Chassart to come and yell at you?â
âSomething like that, I guess.â
Eliott snorts and sits down, mirroring Lucasâ position. âArenât you supposed to team up with a third-year at least?â
Lucas swallows down a mean comment. Grow a pair, Lucas, Iâm not here to fucking babysit you, is the last thing LĂ©onie, the bitchy-third-year he was assigned to work with for the week, told him before turning on her heels with an overly exasperated sigh.
âLĂ©onieâs gone to watch one of the movies,â he simply says, settling for a neutral observation.
Heâs seen him hanging out with her quite a few times since Eliott arrived last September, the last thing he wants is to piss him off by being a bitch about one of his friends â even if said friend is the actual bitch.
âShe told you to fuck off?â
Lucas glances up at Eliott, meeting his disturbingly beautiful eyes. âKind of, yeah,â he admits.
Eliott hums noncommittally. âWho else is in your group?â
âEmma,â he says, gesturing at the couches where his friend is busy holding the fishpole over the film director theyâre interviewing, âbut sheâs replacing someone missing in another team, and, uh, Maria I think. Sheâs a first-year.â
Obviously he had tried to team up with Arthur, but Chassart had purposely put them in different groups to âavoid any incidentâ, as he had said â what an asshole, he could have said he just wanted to feed off Lucasâ struggles at this point. He doesnât bother enquiring about Eliottâs. He knows that one of his classmates, Sarah, has been literally close to fainting when she found out she was in his group.
âYou can join mine,â Eliott says casually after a second.
Lucas quirks a brow. âIâm not sure this is how that works.â
âNot my point,â he waves. âWe can make a trade. No offense but Iâm sure LĂ©onie would be happy.â
Lucas flips him off, offended, and Eliott starts laughing â the sounds sends fucking butterflies in Lucasâ stomach. Before he can even say that Sarah would murder him with her bare hands for being kicked out of Eliottâs group, heâs already standing up in a jump and walking right to the white board where the schedule is written, slaloming his way between the group of third-years and their chairs occupying most of the space.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â Lucas whisper-screams as he bolts up and follows suit, just when Eliott wipes Sarahâs name off the board. âDo you have a death wish or what?â
âChassart likes me, he wonât say a thing,â Eliott shrugs, then he pauses halfway through wiping off Lucasâ name too and turns to him. âUnless you like being mistreated?â he asks, waggling his eyebrows.
âAre you fucking serious now?â Lucas huffs, another wave of laughter erupting from deep within Eliottâs chest. On the other side of the lobby, a flock of people is emerging from the depths of one of the dozen auditoriums, making his attention snap back to reality. Chances are that Chassart will be here in a matter of minutes, maybe seconds even. âAlright, but just move your ass already!â
Eliott grins, blinding, and wipes the few other mentions of Lucas on the schedule, while Lucas is busy fumbling on the table aligned against the wall to find the black pen they need. He manages to find it under a bunch of papers sitting there and to toss it in Eliottâs hands. He has to admit, Eliottâs recklessness forces the admiration. Chassart is a bit of a psycho, thereâs no fucking way heâs getting away with it.
And yet. He keeps watching as Eliott is writing his name down, in small caps that he isnât even remotely trying to make similar to their teacherâs messy handwriting, until itâs all done and Eliott closes the pen with a satisfying click of the cap.
âLucas!â
They spin around in time to see their teacher walking inside their designated area of the lobby. âWhat are you doing here?â Chassart asks bluntly, ever so amiable. âAnd whatâs that camera doing here? I told LĂ©onie that the interview was delayed to this afternoon!â
Lucasâ stomach churns and he hates it. Fucking asshole, he thinks, but he doesnât really know if itâs about LĂ©onie or about Chassart.
âI took Lucas with me,â Eliott says, barely more serious than he was two minutes before â meanwhile, all the fucking alarms go off in Lucasâ head, as Chassartâs eyes dart onto Eliott. âI needed him for something, so I made a trade.â
Thereâs a one-second blank, and behind Chassartâs back, Lucas can see Arthur making a âwhat the fuck?â face. Iâm going to die, thatâs whatâs happening, he wants to say, and if telepathy really is working then maybe Arthur will be able to remember his last few words.
But to Lucasâ astonishment, Chassart seems to deflate.
âReally,â he says after a pause, but it doesnât really sound like a question. He heaves a sigh. âAlright. Whatever, if that works best for you,â he groans with an eyeroll.
A first-year slides in next to them at this moment, and itâs a much-welcomed distraction that allows Lucas to start breathing again. Chassart looks at the kid, who blabbers a question, when something nudges Lucasâ arm. His eyes jump onto Eliott, who lets him know with a subtle movement of his chin that itâs fucking time to move.
âSee?â, Eliott says to him once theyâve retreated a couple of meters away. âI told you it was going to be fine.â
âTell that to my fucking heart,â Lucas mumbles grumpily.
MERCREDI 13:01
âWhy did you pick cinema as your major now anyway?â
Lucas looks up from his kebab, halfway through making a fool of himself thanks to an uncooperative tomato. Eliottâs questioning eyes are on him, which would be fine if they werenât so piercing and intimidating all at once that his skin literally prickles under them.
They are on their five-minute lunch break, but rather than running like madmen to the McDonaldâs next door to wait in line desperately long for a mere box of chicken nuggets and a few cooling French fries, like they all did twice a day since the beginning of the week, Eliott insisted that they push their luck to the kebab place across from the crowded parking lot.
And, well, like most things with Eliott Demaury, apparently, it had all gone too fast for Lucas to even process. Before he even realized they were ordering food and sitting down to eat.
Just the two of them. In a particularly silent restaurant.
That too would be totally fine. In another universe. Where he doesnât have to smear mayonnaise all over his face and end up with a mouthful of tomato and kebab meat when Eliott Demaury happens to be willing to make conversation.
He has to bite down onto the sliced vegetable to tear it into pieces and free himself from the embarrassment, which ends up feeling like the longest seconds of his life. âI wanted to stay in that school,â he says after hastily swallowing down. He reaches for a paper napkin to wipe his mouth clean. âMy dad moved away and since it was no longer in my designated area, it was the only solution. That or European section, but I know basically three words in English and my grades arenât good enough to get in there, so yeah,â he shrugs and spreads his hands, âhere I am, I guess.â
Eliottâs brow furrows, and it makes Lucas swoon a little bit. That story isnât even remotely interesting by any means. But somehow, thereâs something in Eliott that makes it seem like itâs a big deal that deserves his undivided attention. Heâs not even sure his dad gave him half this amount of attention when Lucas told him about his plans for the new school year.
âYou literally went from S to L just to stay in that school?â, Eliott asks, looking surprised.
Lucas makes a face. âYeah. Stupid uh? To be fair I was lame with science and physics. I only liked math.â He realizes something just as heâs picking up a French fry in his plate. âHow do you even know I was a S student?â
Eliott takes a sip from his Coca Cola before answering with a grin. âAlex is pretty chatty at night. I guess thatâs the only perk of being the new guy, everyone wants you to have the audio-detailed version of everything that went down, ever.â
The way he has to look at him, waggling his eyebrows once to mark his words, makes Lucas feel naked and exposed. How much did Alex tell him exactly? How much does Alex care about him anyway? They do hang out sometimes, and Alex has been dropping by every now and then in the dorm he shares with Arthur and Basile, but thatâs mostly it. Ending up in a street fight with him doesnât magically forge lifelong ties, so he does wonder. Itâs always been a strange feeling to think that people might care about him, especially when itâs someone he barely knows. The most heâs talked with Eliott until today has been a quick âhiâ at some point last September â a little breathy on Lucasâ part, actually. Really, not his finest moment. But if anything, he blamed it (and still does, and will probably keep blaming it until his dying breath) on the fact that he hadnât expected the new third-year to look like that. If he had gotten the memo, then maybe heâd have reacted otherwise and not looked like he had been struck by lightning.
âWhat about you?â, he says, trying to sound casual as he grabs a few fries. Thereâs the nagging reminder, at the back of his head, that theyâre supposed to hurry the fuck up if they want to make it back in time for the movie, but itâs not fair that is only shot at talking with Eliott should be reduced to nothing just because. âWhy did you switch schools just before the BAC?â
Heâs heard stories, or rather theories, about why he transferred, but if anything they all seem pretty stupid and rarely seem to work with reality. Last time he heard about it, he was chilling with the drama kids in their assigned work room at school between two periods, and DaphnĂ© said, with a trembling voice, that he had gotten involved with shady kids at his former school, including some who had a record already. He could not really tell if it was supposed to be a bad thing or not in DaphnĂ©âs books, given her excitement over sharing that particular rumor.
Eliott doesnât really acknowledge that heâs talked for a good minute, looking too absorbed in the content of his plate to bother, and Lucas wonders briefly if he should repeat himself or not.
After an agonizing silence, Eliott finally glances up, looking awfully serious. âMy parents sent me away from Paris because I helped my twin sister run away with her boyfriend,â he says, and Lucas blinks slowly, trying to keep his eyebrows from jumping up. âThey didnât approve of their relationship, and weâre like, related somehow. A whole mess.â
For a moment Lucas doesnât say anything and simply stares, silently, as Eliott takes a sip from his drink.
âDid you really just give me the shitty plot of Riverdale?â, Lucas deadpans. A wide grin blooms on Eliottâs face, eyes crinkling and dimples popping out, and Lucas has no other option but to huff a laugh that sounds fonder than expected. âYouâre such an ass.â
âBut the fact that youâre finding it shitty makes me love you even more,â Eliott shrugs, crumpling a paper napkin between his hands.
Heâs too busy checking the time on his phone to notice the way Lucas nearly chokes on his food â which, honestly, might be best for everyone.
MECREDI 17:48
The afternoon rolls around quickly, most of it being taken over by the interview Eliott is busy directing. At least the director is a nice guy in his forties whoâs mostly grateful to have been invited at all, so it makes everyone relax a little â everyone except Eliott, whose level of concentration probably amounts that of a mine-clearer. Lucas, for his part, is mostly busy stealing glances at him, but itâs not like his job is a difficult one. Eliott has put him behind the monitor, so the majority of his task is just sitting on a chair behind the screen and making sure the fishpole doesnât just appear at the top â The place where youâll do the least amount of damage, Eliott has said, grinning, and he was rewarded by a kick of Lucasâ elbow in the stomach.
It should probably have bothered him, to be just an obstacle or something, but he canât decently argue with Eliottâs reasoning, mostly because heâs right. He knows next to nothing about literally anything and heâd rather sit back and do nothing than to make Eliott mad at him.
He blames it on team work, that relevance that Eliott suddenly acquired in his life since this morning.
Itâs because theyâre working together and because Eliott Demaury is so much more used to all of this that suddenly the guy heâs been talking to only once prior to this day turns into the person heâs looking for in a crowd. Itâs got nothing to do with his good looks.
âThe movieâs about to start,â Arthur says after checking the schedule. âWe should go now.â
Thanks to Chassartâs careful planning, itâs the most heâs heard from his friend since they left school after breakfast this morning.
Lucas doesnât mean to do it, but while he hums in response, his body shifts towards where Eliott is standing. Heâs chatting with Alex, retrieving his jacket from the back of his chair, and soon theyâre already walking away to cross the lobby.
He blames the way his heart clenches on the fact that Alex could have told him to join too.
He knows Alex.
Alex knows him â well enough, apparently, to tell stuff about him to the new guy. It was only the least he could do, the polite thing to do. But he doesnât, and Lucas simply stares as Eliott and Alex join two or three more of their classmates, before the group disappears in the depths of carpeted halls.
Yeah. Itâs all because of Alex, he decides as he finally follows Arthur through the lobby.
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Immaculate
Chapter 17
Pairing: TOP X READER
I was quiet for a minute "yes, I don't wanna stay at my current apartment... Maybe I'm just paranoid but..." She interrupted me "no, no. I understand... See, I can lend you the money, but you have to understand that we are running a company, we just cannot do things like buying expensive stuff every time" she told me "yes mom, I know it, but this time is different" I explained "I cannot give you a permanent job, you're studying" she told me "but I need to support him, I-" she interrupted me again "I know, I know but you should be focused on the university. I'm not telling you that... both of you have to survive with the quantity of money I have been giving to you until now" she drunk some water "I'm gonna give you more money, but you're not going to work yet" she said "really?" My mom was getting mad "of course, do you think that I'm like that people who has no empathy?"
I smiled "no, you're not" I said "you know that I always wanted to have more children but... I couldn't, so I don't mind supporting someone else, okay?" She told me "yes, mom" I hugged her "thank you" I told her "you're welcome" she responded "but you have to do something" she told me, I just waited for her next words "buy him more clothes, because as you have explained me, you have not already bought him more than two shirts" I laughed a little "Mom! of course I have!" I paused for a while "but you know... I have not bought him more things because he didn't want and... he thinks he has to pay for those things somehow" I said seriously.
My mom looked outside she saw TOP happily playing with the dogs "take care of him, no one deserves what he has lived" she told me.
"Mom I have something else to ask you" I paused "tell my dad about this, I mean he is so sensitive and he probably felt bad if told him this the same way as I told you. This situation is harsh..." I paused again it was difficult for me to talk about this, I felt fury inside my heart, I really wanted to kill that girl "yes I will, don't worry".
"Sweetie" I went out, he had a broad smile "let's go to eat something" he nodded "I will play with you all later" he told the dogs, the he walked rapidly towards me "____" he held me "oh" I smiled and put my arms around his shoulders "are you happy?" I asked "yes" the first time I had asked him so... Maybe the first time he told me he was happy.
TOP's point of view
____... I like to think about her. She showed me house's photos, she wanted to buy a house. I didn't know why, maybe she was worried about 'her'... Because she was looking for me.
I loved to spend time with her. Before I liked to be alone, no one hurt me, no one touched me... But when I started to live with her, I didn't want to be alone, I didn't liked it because I somehow started to remember the hard times. That's why I wanted to do the housework however ____ didn't let me, I know... I could had hurt myself. Movies worked sometimes but... Not as doing something like cleaning.
When she was by my side, that thoughts vanished. When I was alone thinking about her had the same effect. Bit by bit I didn't want to be alone, maybe my heart was being cured, wasn't it?
...
Josh called ____, my heart hurt, it was a different pain... It was not like... permanent, it was like a punch inside my chest. I didn't want to look at her, I didn't want her to notice what I had felt so I looked to the opposite side. I could heard vaguely Josh's voice through the telephone, when he invited ____ to a party and when she immediately accepted I felt another punch... A tear fell over my cheek, I quickly cleaned it up with the back of my hand, fortunately she didn't notice.
Then she asked me to go with her, I hesitated because probably Josh didn't want me to go with her... She explained it better, I felt stupid... You know I was only misunderstanding everything.
...
The place she showed me was like the one I always had thought about. 'She' had a picture on a wall of her apartment, it was a close up of grass, it was pretty green, In the background was a blue sky... It was full of brilliant colors. I liked it very much I used to look at it for hours and imagine how the grass could fell between my fingers and on my face... It helped me to scape for a moment, it was like a light in that dark place.
When I had to 'work', when those people touched all over my body I used to close my eyes and thought about that picture, I imagined was there, alone... happy and safe.
My mind was there... in that picture, I just let my body react to the stimuli... I moaned, I quivered... until it ended... fortunately everytime I thought about that picture I was not able to remember what had happened clearly, it was less painful.
At some point everything went blank, my moans became loudly, the image was replaced by the void... everything was like a white sheet of paper. When that occurred I knew I had cummed, the image of the grass came into my mind again, however it used to disappear quickly, as trying to escape. I used to opened my eyes slowly, I didn't want to go back to the reality, I wanted to stay there, but that was not possible.
A ceiling or a dirty wall instead of grass, that's I always saw after they were satisfied... I had no option 'stand up' some of them used to said, I did as I had been told.
The guys or the girls who I had sex with opened their room door, she was there waiting for me. 'Put your clothes on' she told me everytime after she walked into the room. I cleaned my cum on my belly and their cum on my body, afterward I dress up quickly. Then we went out of that places after they payed her some coins for what they have done to me.
We arrived home, she gave me something to eat, she ordered me to take a shower, then I went to sleep at my place, it was like a closet... Enough large to lay down properly, the floor was always cold but it helped me to feel asleep rapidly, I liked those days because I was not beaten.
It also mean that the next day she was going to buy drugs so I was sure I was not going to be touched by her the next day, knew that gave me some happiness.
I don't know how much they payed for a pair of hours, I don't want to. They always complained about my body 'he's so f*cking slim, give him more food' or 'do not beat him so hard, he looks gross' sometimes 'his face is nice, but I cannot enjoy f*cking him seeing that body' I used to hear.
'I know, I'm ugly' I always thought.
In that moment I was there, in the place I always have dreamed to be in... But this time was better... ____ was with me. It was like God telling me 'don't give up'.
She introduced me as her boyfriend to Mister Vu... 'It's a little lie' I remembered her words 'I won't forget it is not real' I thought to myself.
What a mixed feelings, however I tried to keep a positive attitude, I really wanted to change my life, I tried my best. So I played a lot with the dogs, I smiled a lot, the dogs were so cute and kind...
"So what's going on the university?" Her father asked "it's going well, I'll show you my grades when this period ends" ____ told him. We were eating some pasta "it's about to finish, isn't it?" He asked again "yes we'll only have cultural activities, some professors wanted to give us more material for the next period, they said it was gonna be useful, so we have had classes" she said.
"What about you Seunghyun, do you like cooking?" He asked me interested "yes, I like to cook" I responded "that's nice! Finally someone who is interested in cooking!" He exclaimed "hahahah, you are obsessed darling" her mom said "no, I'm not!" He responded "so, Seunghyun are you going to help me tomorrow right?" He asked me "yes, of course" he smiled "so we are going to prepare the tastiest breakfast you ever have eat" he said to his wife "oh really?" They were joking around, they seem happy, I looked at ____ who was next to me, she was smiling... She looked at me too, I tried to avoid eye contact, I felt my face got hot, I felt so embarrassed.
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Another chapter, hope you enjoy.
It takes me a while to post this job because as I've told you I'm not a native English speaker, so I have to search for some words in dictionaries, I have to read many times a single chapter and then correct my mistakes. I hope you understand.
Have a nice day!!! â€ïž
Alex
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ART SCHOOL | Q&A w/Â Alex Chiu (PDX)
From hyper color drawings, doodles to wood cut outs and even full blown costumes, artist Alex Chiu brings to life some truly fun and imaginative creations. Not just one thing, Alex not only makes comics, animations and sculptures, but also worked as an art instructor at Walters Cultural as well as created a fun online show the MAZZY Show, where he cooks with his daughter Mazzy.  Weâve excited to chat with Alex, who is getting ready to work on a mural for Portland Transit, and learn about his approach to drawing, his favorite medium, and about his upcoming project with Portland Transit.Â
Photographs courtesy of the artist.Â
Introduce yourself Hello! Â My name is Alex Chiu. Â I currently live in Portland, Oregon. Â I am an illustrator, arts educator, and stay at home dad. Â Iâve been doing art professionally for about 10 years now. Â My life has changed a ton since I had a baby a couple years back. Â Iâm figuring out how to balance a lot of things now. Â For fun I tend to watch a lot of dumb internet videos. Â I get sucked into video threads and end up watching YouTube garbage. Â Itâs my favorite thing to do.
When did you first start drawing? And whatâs the earliest thing you remember making? I started drawing at a very young age. Â I remember drawing sharks and fish over and over. As an adult Iâve found notebooks with pages completely covered with shark and fish drawings. Â The notebooks were pretty dense and obsessive. Â I still love to draw for the sake of filling up blank space.
You have a true doodler/drawing styleâyour works fill up the space imaginative and organically. Â Can you tell folks what your art process is like? Do you sit with a blank sheet and just freestyle or do you find yourself adding stuff here and there? I started drawing all the time when I was around 19 or 20. Drawing was therapeutic for me and really helped me escape from the worries and stress of day to day life. Â I loved the freedom of letting the image develop on its own over time. I used to start with a blank page and just go at it with ink. Â Now a days I plan a lot more and think about composition and color scheme, but I still create work with the same sense of freedom.
From paintings, drawings, digital, sculptures, murals to comics, whatâs your favorite medium that youâve done so far? Â Whatâs been the most difficult medium youâve tried? Â And, whatâs a medium youâve yet to try, and are dying too? Currently I really love stop motion clay animation. Â The process is very automatic and from the subconscious; very similar to my drawing/doodling process. Â I would love to convert my garage into a stop motion studio and create my own short films. Â The most difficult medium for me is comics. Â Iâm not much of a writer, and itâs much more difficult to create stream of consciousness work in comics. Â I have started many comic pages and have left 80% of them unfinished.
One of our favorite mediums you do are the comic you draw. When did you start drawing your first comics? What is it about comics that you love so much? Comics are fun for me and I love reading them, but they are super challenging for me to create. Â I started focusing on comics when I moved to Portland. Â One of my first, full stories was published in a âfree comic book dayâ compilation called Master Pâs Theater. Â I drew a four page comic about a warrior rabbit called Butter Knives. Â It was published by Sparkplug / Teenage Dinosaurs/ Snakebomb Comics in 2013. Â I now regularly submit comic strips to Pork Magazine and one page stories to a comics newspaper called Vision Quest.
As a kid, I loved looking at comics for visual inspiration. Â I was always blown away at the skill of comic book artists. Â To this day, I donât know how people do it. Â I view comics as a warriorâs art form. Â The energy, planning, and artistic ability it takes to write and draw comics and graphic novels is ridiculous. Â I look up to full time comics artists a lot. Â
Who are your favorite artists at the moment both past or contemporary? My favorite filmmaker is Alejandro Jodorowsky. Â He is my absolute favorite creative person on earth. Â I hope he lives forever. Â Theo Ellsworth is a comics artist that has also changed my life. Â I also hope that he lives forever. Â Shout outs to Skinner, Eatcho, Wishcandy, Anna Vo, and Tripper Dungan. Â I dig their work too.
Tell us about your work as an art instructor? What did you teach and how was that experience? What would you say to folks looking to follow a path as an art instructor? I have been an art instructor for about 5 or 6 years. Â I teach kids and retired folks at art centers all over Portland and surrounding cities. Â Some of the classes Iâve taught include basic drawing, comics, animation, zine-making, and print making. Â Â
Just because an artist is good at art doesnât make them a good teacher. Over the years Iâve learned that teaching and art making are two very different things. Â It definitely took time to break things down so people could learn. Â Teaching has more to do with communication and understanding how people work. Â The key is to recognize the different ways that people approach art making and learn to help them steer rather than telling them what to do. Â
Youâre currently working on a mural for Portland Transit? How did you get involved with Portland Transit, and tell us about your mural? I was recently hired by Portland Trimet to paint a mural. Â The Regional Arts and Culture Council were the ones that put me in touch with Trimet. Â I was accepted onto the local Portland muralist roster in 2016 based on indoor murals that I have done in the past.
This mural is going to be done in a very different style than I normally do. Â I have been using photo reference for this entire process and will be depicting things in a much more realistic style. Â The space that I am painting has very long sections of low walls. Â Iâm choosing to handle each section as a panel in a comic. Â I will be painting a storybook-like narrative about a day in the life of my 2 year old daughter as she interacts with members of her community. Â Iâm deliberately highlighting the cultural diversity and community interaction as the central themes of this project.
Having recently moved to Portland, how did you go about finding illustration work? Do you find social media helpful for that or do you have a different approach? Before I moved to Portland, I had met a number of people through the comics and art conventions. Â I had shown work at Grasshut Gallery, owned by Bwana Spoons and had been acquainted with people like Jason Leivian, owner of Floating World Comics, and Scrappers, who was the arts editor of the Mercury at the time. Â Portland was a very welcoming city and I was accepted into the arts and comics community very quickly. Â Iâve been able to work on a ton of fun projects, with super talented people. Â One project always seems to lead to another. Â Iâve yet to experience a lull in creative opportunities and inspiration. Â Portland is a great city to be an artist.
Yes, social media is great when it comes to sharing your artwork. Â I enjoy the instant feedback I get from posting something online. Â Occasionally, I get fun and interesting opportunities from requests on social media platforms. Â Iâve built relationships with artist and fans from around the world with social media. Â I love it. Â I still miss MySpace. Â
Favorite Vans? VW Bus, Eurovan, Toyota Previa
You also have an awesome family as well as super cool daughter Mazzy who you cook with and stars in your videos called the MAZZY SHOW. Â These cooking videos with Mazzy have blown up all over the internet and are really adorable. Â Was this just something you did because you were cooking with her a lot? Or was it just something creative for you to work on while youâre on dad duty? I started doing the Mazzy Show to make being a stay at home dad more fun. Â Itâs been a dream of mine to start a YouTube Channel, so I thought Iâd start one with my daughter so I could do something creative with her. Â Our first video was a pizza making video and the cooking theme just stuck. Â I donât normally cook a ton, but this project has taught me a lot of new recipes and sparked a growing interest in cooking. Â People tend to like the Asian recipes that we do. Â Some of our most popular videos include bubble milk tea, BBQ pork steamed buns, and mochi. Â
What would you tell someone who is looking to follow in your footsteps? What is some of the best and worst advice youâve gotten that youâd like to share? My best advice is to keep creating and have fun with your art. Â If youâre not enjoying what youâre doing, do something else. Â The worst thing that you can do is turn art making into a burden. Â Also, donât feel pressured to be a âprofessionalâ artist. Â The key is to keep making art, be a part of the creative community, and enjoy life. Â Â
Whatâs coming up for you the rest of 2017? Â What about MAZZY :)? Life is totally unpredictable for me. Â At this moment I am preparing for my mural project. Â Weâve taken a break from The Mazzy Show for the past month or so because Iâve become busier. Â I hope to keep making more videos with her. Â Maybe weâll do something different from cooking. Â Iâve been wanting to work on more animated videos. Â Iâve also been wanting to make music. Â Maybe Mazzy and I will start a band or something.
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The Road Within Us
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A little bit about the movie⊠it begins with Vincent who has been struck by tragedy. His loving, sympathetic divorced mother just died, leaving him, who suffers from Touretteâs syndrome, without anyone close to him. After being dumped by his distant, self-absorbed politician father Robert at a treatment center, Vincent befriends his roommate Alex, who has crippling obsessive compulsive disorder about cleanliness, and a free-spirited anorexic, Marie. Together, they decide to steal the car of Dr. Rose, who runs the center, and travel from Nevada to Santa Cruz, California, so that Vincent can honor his dead motherâs wish and spread her ashes along the Pacific Ocean.
I liked this movie and watched it till the end unlike most movies that portray mental illness in an unrealistic way. It made me happy because of how it portrayed each condition, how it affects the people around them and most importantly how it affects them and their whole lives since diagnosis.
Starting with Tourette syndrome (TS) it is a neurological disorder characterized by repetitive, stereotyped, involuntary movements and vocalizations called tics (Ninds.nih.gov, 2019). This film showed Vincent as having complex motor and vocal tics which was easy to spot from the start of the movie as it portrayed the tics in a realistic way also the director was able to show the character or personality of the person rather the condition alone because we all are humans and much more than what is wrong with us which managed to bring in humor as well and that is another point for the movie because it makes the characters more relatable and tries to remove the stigma.
This reminded me of a personal experience I just had a few weeks ago, there we had a lecturer who is based in a hospital and he came to lecture us on one topic he had tics but his were simple vocalizing tics which he seemed to manage even though they were still there but when he started speaking the students started whispering to each other and others laughing which was quite interesting seeing as how weâre supposed to know about mental illness now what to take away from this is the conversation that happened after the lecture where one student commented âHe should reconsider his professionâ and another saying âI couldnât hear what he said because I was focused on his ticsâ now this just goes to show how we fail to look past the condition and how were not as accommodating as we think we are.
To be diagnosed with anorexia nervosa according to the DSM-5, the following criteria must be met: Restriction of energy intake relative to requirements leading to a significantly low body weight in the context of age, sex, developmental trajectory, and physical health. Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though underweight. Disturbance in the way in which one's body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight). In this film the character met all this criterion.
But the things that stood out besides the criteria is the reaction of people close to her such as Vincent asking her: "Why can't you eat? All you have to do is put it in your mouth." It is a question that many people constantly ask of those with eating disorders (National Eating Disorders Association, 2019) and this would have been the perfect avenue for the director to explore the issue and bring it some depth. And it also showed how it affected her which was a near death situation where her heart gave out and she had to be fed in tubes which was also hard for her.
Then OCD which is a common, chronic and long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions) that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over (Nimh.nih.gov, 2019). Now the film did not show much character and symptoms for this condition, but it was able to cover some aspects and showed a little of how to tackle the symptoms using behavioral techniques.
Overall this film was showing how we should stop thinking of people as a diagnosis, that sometimes our needs make no sense: a need to know things are clean, a need to make a sound or move a certain way, a need to gain just an ounce of control over a body that so often isnât under our control at all. But sometimes theyâre the same needs as everyone elseâs: the need to eat, the need to sleep, the need to feel accepted or even loved by the people around us.
If I were to rate this movie, I would give it a 7/10 because even though it was spot on which some aspects it couldâve gone further and deeper to address some important issues that we all need to know.
References
Ninds.nih.gov. (2019). Tourette Syndrome Fact Sheet | National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke. [online] Available at: https://www.ninds.nih.gov/Disorders/Patient-Caregiver-Education/Fact-Sheets/Tourette-Syndrome-Fact-Sheet [Accessed 30 Aug. 2019].
National Eating Disorders Association. (2019). Anorexia Nervosa. [online] Available at: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/learn/by-eating-disorder/anorexia [Accessed 30 Aug. 2019].
Nimh.nih.gov. (2019). NIMH » Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. [online] Available at: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/index.shtml [Accessed 30 Aug. 2019].
American Psychiatric Association. (2013). Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (5th ed.). Arlington, VA: Aut
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Sleepover
Kara looked at the simple gray clock on Lenaâs wall. It ticked away quietly, practically silent to the human ear. She saw it was about one. They had been binge watching a cartoon Kara herself was obsessed over and Lena casually liked. They had talked about little scenes, their favorite pairings. They argued if any of the villains were redeemable. Little things one faces in a fandom. Kara banned herself from looking through the tags on Tumblr. They picked it up after it ended, so she feared to get it spoiled.
They had watched most of it before and were finishing up the series that night.
Lena was currently in her kitchen making them hot chocolate. She was humming a song Kara didnât recognize. It was recent and she kept her tastes more nineties or early two thousands. Stuff Alex would listen to religiously when Kara first showed up on Earth
The outside weather was heavy rain and the flash flood warnings had spurred Kara to bring her super suit. Though she worried what she would do if a disaster occurred. She hadnât told her girlfriend yet of her secret identity.
Part of her was scared to tell her. She wondered what reaction she would get from her girlfriend. Would she laugh? Would she cry? Would she be happy? Scared? Angry?
She shook those thoughts away as Lena walked into the living room. âNow, time to finish this.â Â
âIâm not ready,â Kara groaned as she took her mug from Lena.
âI am. This is where it gets good.â
âThis is where it gets gay,â Kara said. She had caught the vague ending from a coworker whose kid watched the show. Lena raised her eyebrows, saying âthatâs why itâs good.â âIâm seeing why you and Maggie are becoming close. You two own your sexualities far too well.â
âYou Danvers girls should too.â Lena smiled and kissed Karaâs cheek. They cuddled as the rain poured and action took place on Lenaâs television.
A scene switched. Kara chuckled. âTheyâre doing the thing!â
Lena sighed and stroked her fingers through Karaâs curls. The woman was what happened when gay nerds grew up. A little.
âThey were engaged. Of course, they are.â Lena sipped her drink as Kara let out a series of squeals.
âTheyâre alone! Are they going to kiss? I think theyâre going to kiss!â Kara shouted.
âShhâŠâLena kissed her forehead.
âTheyâre going on a trip. Thereâs the portal.â Kara covered her mouth and squeaked. âTheyâre holding hands! Whatâs going to happen? Lena? Iâm unable to handle this!â
She rolled onto the floor with a thud. âWhereâs the rest of it?â She was making noises Lena could only describe them as a dying whaleâs final testament.
âItâs a kid show. They wouldnât put a kiss in there.â
âThey should have! Kids are gay.â Kara sat up. âI was a gay child and never knew! Girls are so amazing. Have you seen them? Lena, you are a girl. You should know.â
Lena chuckled. âLetâs get ready for bed.â She helped Kara up.
Lena went up and worked through her nightly ritual. She washed her face and then put on a bright blue mask to hydrate. She came out of the bathroom as she set a phone timer.
âWhoa! Whatâs wrong with your face?â Karaâs eyes were wide.
âItâs a face mask?â Lena looked down at her. âHave you never used one?â
âNo?â Kara had a block of text on her phone screen and was trying to hide it. It didnât take an expert to know she had ventured onto some fan fiction website. Lena grabbed the blue jar from her bathroom. âWhat are you doing?â
âSit still.â Lena started to smear the thick concoction all over Karaâs face using a brush.
âItâs cold and sticky.â Kara scrunched up her nose.
âDonât crinkle your face.â Lena put the jar on her nightstand.
âHow long do I have to wear this?â Kara whined.
âFifteen minutes.â Lena looked at her girlfriend. In an odd way, she looked cute. It was the least put together she had seen a lover. Her relationships were never so comfortable. But with Kara, it was like she was dating the human manifestation of the feeling one gets when they climb into a bed with clean and still warm sheets.
âWhy are you smiling?â Kara asked. âI look terrible, so I know itâs not that Iâm beautiful.â She looked back down at her phone.
âOne, I can tell youâre reading fan fiction about Korra and Asami. Two, you look like an alien. And three, you do look beautiful. You always look beautiful.â
Kara blushed and started to stutter out. âWhatânoâIâm notââ She started to laugh. âYouâre funny, Lena.â She sucked in a bit of air. Will I be caught because of this mask? She looked at her girlfriend. Fuck, sheâs staring. Iâm caught. It was nice while it lasted. Goodbye Lena.
Lena laughed and kissed Kara. It was a quick peck, cautious to not get a mouth full of the mask on Karaâs upper lip. âYouâre the best.â
âWhy?â
âBecause youâre not perfect. And before you get offended, I mean it in the most sincere way.â Lena pushed her hair, trying to keep it from brushing across the mask. âIâm not intimidated about dating you. I just can jump in and live in the moment with you. That is a luxury for me. Iâve been taught to stand on the edge. Iâm supposed to think about every damn thing I do and wonder how it reflects on me.â
Kara looked down, fighting a smile. She wanted flail helplessly, unable to take how perfect Lena was. âSo can I take this off?â She asked awkwardly, not knowing how to reply.
âOhâŠyeah.â Lena looked down. She started to peel away the blue mask on her own face.
âWait! What is that?â Kara gasped and started to pull at hers. âMy gods! This is so cool!â
Lena raised an eyebrow, but Kara was distracted. It was similar to how Rhea spoke she noted.
Kara had gotten every bit off. âCan I do that again?â
âNext time you sleep over.â Lena smiled and took off her own. She tossed the remains and slumped back in the bed.
Kara cuddled up to her side and looked at her phone screen. âMy OTP.â
âI thought that was JT and Britney.â
âI have more than one OTP,â Kara deadpanned, not looking up from her phone screen.
âThen itâs not an OTP.â
âWatch me have multiple OTPs, Luthor. Sit back and watch.â Kara shut her phone and put it down on the nightstand.
âIf you start writing fan fiction, Iâm taking away your internet.â Kara simply pouted. She reached and turned off the lamp on the nightstand.
âYouâre a villain.â
âItâs in my blood, Miss Danvers.â Lena kissed her cheek.
âNo, itâs not. Iâm convinced it skipped over you. You didnât get a pinch of evil, but a whole bucket of lesbian.â
Lena snapped her fingers. âDrat, youâre right.â She chuckled and kissed Karaâs cheek. âYou have the mask in your eyebrows.â
Kara sat up. âWhat?â She started to aggressively rub the arched brows, managing to mess them up and smear in the blue mask. âLena, help me.â
Lena stood up and walked to the bathroom. She came back with witch hazel. She worked it through the blonde brows, getting the bits out. âWhat would you do without me?â
âNot have face mask in my brows and be reading Korrasami without harm.â
âOuch.â Lena touched her chest over her heart and scrunched up her brow. âThatâs just cruel.â
Kara flopped onto the bed. She held Lena close when the woman settled in. âItâs weird to thinkâŠthat months ago I was about to vow to never fall.â She looked up at the ceiling, a line of city light skewing across it. âNow, Iâm here. Our first time sleeping in the same bed. ItâsâŠwarm.â
âIt could get warmer,â Lena whispered. Her fingertips brushed over Karaâs bare hip as her t-shirt rode up. She reached and put her hand on Lenaâs.
âI want to wait a bit longer. I like this.â She smiled, hiding some nerves and apprehension. âTo just watch tv shows and mess around. I want to do a face mask with you, bicker, and kiss you until you fall asleep. I want to make your coffee for you in the morning and give you a kiss after you drop me off at work but before I have to take the third degree from Snapper.â She cupped Lenaâs cheek, cradling her cheek.
And I fear what my strength could do to a mortal. Kal has had a normal life, but heâs had a chance to figure it out. I donât want to hurt you.
The thought called at the back of her mind. The moment gave her realizing there were tears prickling in Lenaâs eyes. âHey, why are you crying?â Kara whispered. She kisses away the tears sliding over her cheekbones. âThat was sappy! Be happy. Laugh and call me a ridiculous woman.â
âYou are!â Lena laughed and sobbed. She hugged her tight. âItâs perfect. I just said you werenât, but then you do perfect thingsâŠâ
âIâm just saying, I want to live with now. The future will be good if we just go on. Our lives will be busy and complicated. If we do little things when we can, we will last longer than if we tried the broad strokes all the couples do in the movies.â She smiled.
Lena kissed her. There the kiss was longer. It shouldâve been a lazy kiss before they settled in. Yet, it wasnât. A bold pressure was applied and they held each other with the silent fear of losing each other. Their lips werenât greedy, as both feared to scare one away with their neediness. In the moment their anxieties thrived and calmed.
Kara cupped Lenaâs whole face, her fingertips touching the remaining tears. She screwed her eyes tight and pulled Lena back into the kiss when she started to pull away. She wanted to kiss until the woman smiled. Until her cheeks were pink and she would giggle and call her silly. Lena LuthorâŠwas her most important mission.
Kara pulled Lena on top of her. The weight in a way was reassuring as their lips parted. It sated her so she didnât immediately pull Lena back down for a kiss. They just lied there, breathing a bit heavier than a resting breath. Kara stroked her fingers through Lenaâs dark hair, the long and straight strands easily allowing her digits to pass.
She opened her mouth, three words hanging off her tongue. She bit them back, knowing quietly she could express them a lot better. She pressed her lips to Lenaâs forehead. She tucked a lock of dark brown hair behind a pale ear before kissing the tip of the ear. She got a pleased hum in response. Her hands stroked over the brunetteâs back, rubbing soothing circles into the skin. Her touches held no haste or lust. They were lazy, a gentle sign of her affection.
âThereâs nowhere else Iâd rather be tonight,â Kara whispered, not truly realizing how much those words calmed anxieties and had potential to end wars in Lenaâs mind. She could tell outside the rain had slowed, pelting the windows gently and leaving phantom patterns on the wall as light refracted through the droplets.
âMe either,â Lena mumbled, half asleep. Kara pulled the duvet over them. She looked and saw Lenaâs eyes drawing closed. She smiled and shut her own.
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The Seal Lullaby: Chapter 2
Chapter 2 is up! Thanks so much, as usual, to all my fantastic beta readers who are just the best people in the world ever and I love them, @minky-for-short @childofdustandashes @purearcticfire
Also thank you so much to @blow-us-owl-away who did some absolutely amazing fan art for chapter one!
Eliza found, over the next few days, that it was actually a little alarming how easy it was to hide a stowaway right under her parentsâ noses. They apparently just didnât question it when she suddenly disappeared to her room for hours at a time, claiming she had some scraps of homework still left to do when really, she was helping Alex build himself a little nest out of blankets and sheets; he seemed to find it impossible to sleep unless he was in a tight, enclosed space. They just shrugged and believed her when Eliza hummed casually that oh, she must have been mistaken, maybe they didnât buy ice cream after all. When in actuality, Alex had eaten pretty much two cartons by himself in the space of an hour, his eyes wide and more awed by the taste of double chocolate cookie dough than they had been by anything else in the human world. It was quickly becoming clear that junk food was his weakness, what had started off with Eliza sneaking him some Doritos to cheer him up because he was looking a little morose had blossomed into a full obsession that left her wondering how she was going to throw out all of those wrappers and empty packages without arousing suspicion.
Junk food may have been top of Alexâs list but books came a very close second. Sheâd offered him full use of the little library that sat in the corner of her room here at the beach house, looking a little weak in comparison to her vast rows and rows of shelves at home but it may as well have been the library of Alexandria to her new friend. Within the first day, Elizaâs jaw had dropped when Alex proudly told her heâd read every one and did she have any more, those were so good, especially maybe some more ones about all the different animals, that one was amazing, was she sure that there were really these things with super long necks and spots because that just seemed crazyâŠ
Her parents also apparently didnât pick up on how tired she was getting, how she was nearly falling asleep at the breakfast table or nodding off as they watched TV on an evening, almost as if she wasnât getting any sleep at all.
Which, of course, was the truth though her parents never seemed to put two and two together. They never even suspected that, as soon as they went to bed, Eliza was pulling on the warmest clothes she could find and sneaking out onto the beach with Alex (who never seemed to need anything more than a t shirt and shorts, despite the chill of the night). With a flashlight, they combed every inch of the beach for Alexâs pelt, searching amongst the sharp grasses to see if it had snagged there, in the rock pools to see if it had collected in one of the puddles, becoming a temporary home for the tiny crabs and delicate starfish. They even strayed further off the beach than Eliza had ever been, right the way over to where the familiar stretch of sand became a cliff face with its defences of jagged rocks and caves that seemed to be full of nothing but thick darkness, where they had to time every movement carefully and make desperate runs between pockets of sand before the waves came crashing in to snag their ankles and pull their feet out from under them. Eliza could feel her heart pick up to a worrying pace every time they found themselves over this way.
Alex had no fear at all, ploughing on with a fierce kind of determination and focus that he never had at any other time. He dove into tight caves that Eliza stepped back from, shaking her head, and risked very near misses with the waves that held god only knew how many riptides and currents and scrambled up the cliff faces, not even flinching as footholds crumbled away underneath him and he nearly went pitching onto the rocks. Eliza tried to call him back, fear bubbling in the pot of her stomach, but either the wind whipped her voice away or Alex just didnât care. More than once Eliza had been left shivering and wide eyed with worry on the sand, counting out the seconds in a shaking voice, praying frantically in her head until she saw him reappear and she could breathe again. Â Every time he came back with disappointment writ across his features, the look of a person who was aware of time running out, places left to look becoming fewer and hopes growing thin.
Four dawns had chased them back to the house for a quick, hurried breakfast (usually of chicken soup; Alex didnât understand the conventions of human mealtimes, he only knew what tasted good) and as much sleep as could be stolen before Elizaâs parents came knocking on her door to tell her to get a move on or was she planning on sleeping the whole day away? And still they had no pelt to show for their searching.
On the fifth unsuccessful return, when Eliza offered to make him some food, Alex just shook his head and mumbled that he was tired. His shoulders slumped and everything about him seemed wilted and mournful. He didnt even change out of the clothes he was wearing, apparently not caring that they were soaked and stiff with salt, he just crawled into his makeshift blanket fort and curled up, hiding his face.
Eliza sat on her own bed, her heart aching for him. The fact that theyâd known each other for less than a week seemed like the most insignificant thing in the world; she felt closer to him, this strange, animated, curious boy, then she had to anyone else in her life. It was like the spark that had travelled between them the first time theyâd touched had locked them together somehow. Like when he hurt, Eliza hurt too.
She could hear him then, the quiet, mournful little sniffling sound that brought tears prickling to her own eyes and that made up her mind. She came to the entrance of his tent and whispered softly, âAlex?â
She got only a damp sounding grunt in reply.
âCan I come in?â she whispered, âItâs okay if you donât want me to butâŠIâm here?â
There was a long moment and then Alexâs voice, sounding very far away and ever so slightly confused, âYou can come in.â
It was a bit of a squash with the two of them in such a small space, they found themselves in a bit of an awkward tangle, noses almost bumping together, Elizaâs legs across Alexâs, his head pillowed on her arm by necessity, so close that all she could smell was the slight tang of salt and fresh air that she was starting to realise was just Alex, it was part of him. Something about it felt like home to her.
âWhy did you ask if you could come in?â Alex murmured, his voice much flatter than usual, with a bitter edge that sounded a lot more cutting in his accent, âIâm in your house. Iâm your stowaway. YourâŠcharity case.â
Eliza winced, seeing the shame and disappointment on his face as he used a phrase that was clearly unfamiliar to him but he felt its truth. Something drove her and she took his hand in her own, winding and locking their fingers together.
âBecause itâs your space,â she told him gently but sincerely, managing to meet that searchlight gaze of his unflinchingly, âAnd youâre welcome here, Alex, you know that. I want to help you.â
It was Alex who looked away first this time, for the first time. A slight blush flared up across the angular valleys of his face, âWhy?â
There was desperation in that one word, like it was something heâd been wanting to ask for a while now but had been too afraid of the answer that would come at its heels.
Eliza squeezed his hand, making him start ever so slightly, âBecauseâŠyou need help and youâre my friend. I want you to get back home, Iâd hate it if anything took me away from whereâŠwhere I belonged.â
It was a lie.
Eliza knew that, she could taste it, she could feel it as the words stuttered and started in the small space between them, the soft warm glow of her bedside lamp through the bedsheets around them that made it feel like they were bathed in some ethereal light. The lie felt jarring in such warmth. It felt wrong.
The truth was right there behind her words, jostling at the back of her teeth like it was irritated at being shoved aside. No, sheâd love it if someone took her away from this, this life that. she was only starting to realise since that morning on the beach, she despised. This life that made her feel so unsettled and so wrong, like a cartoon character spliced by some animation fuck up into a period drama. This was where she belonged according to all the facts and realities sheâd ever known but it was killing her.
But this paled in comparison to the other seething lie; the idea that she wanted him to get back home. Of course, she didnât. Sheâd only known this strange youngâŠnot even a man, this creatureâŠexcept that felt too inhuman, too raw. Alex wasnât like that, he was warmth and laughter and bright smiles and curiosity and saying her name with a kind of reverence that made her blush. Alex was life, he was everything sheâd been missing. He was where she belonged. And saying goodbye to him now, watching him swim off back into the waves, back to a whole other world sheâd never know, pulling them apart and reopening the divide between them that one freak storm had allowed them to accidentally cross. Eliza didnât know if she could do that, it was going to break her heart.
She was going to have to, of course. What else was she going to do, keep him in her room for the rest of their lives? Smuggle him back to Albany in her suitcase? Build him a blanket fort in the corner of whatever high rise or brownstone in which she ended up avoiding her future husband who looked like heâd been factory assembled? As much as it hurt her, Alex needed to go where she couldnât follow. She could see it in his eyes as he gazed at the sea from her bedroom window, in the way heâd pace at the shoreline during their nightly search parties like some magnetic force was pulling him back out there.
Eliza sighed softly as she looked into his dark eyes and saw waves crashing there. She knew she couldnât ask him to fight against that, no matter how many lies she told herself.
âThanks, Eliza,â Alex whispered, a small smile flickering across his face as he freed one arm to wipe at his eyes.
Despite all of the complicated emotions inside her, Eliza smiled back at him and she meant it. All sheâd really wanted was to see him happy again. She could ignore the clouds gathering in her own mind; sheâd always been good at that.
âWeâre really friends?â Alex narrowed his eyes, his smile turning playful, âDo most people make friends by kicking them in the ribs?â
âYou are never going to let that go!â Eliza hissed, giggles bubbling up as she swatted at his head making him retaliate by swinging a leg over her and going for the ribs, ticking furiously with deadly accuracy.
A fierce and quiet battle raged for a few minutes which ended with them dissolving into laughter, even more knotted together than they were before, tangled impossibly in the blankets.
âOf course weâre friends, idiot,â Eliza sighed fondly, catching her breath, âDonât doubt that.â
His smile was so wide it made the corners of his eyes crinkle up a little and that held such a fascination for Eliza it scared her more than a little.
âHey, um, seeing as this is my spaceâŠâ he repeated her phrase carefully, âCan I ask you to stay? Sleep in here with me instead?â
Eliza realised just how close they were in that moment. In more ways than one, it felt like.
âSure thing, I can stay in here with you. Scooch over,â she slid down beside him, making them a little more comfortable. It was actually very nice, having each otherâs warmth and the safe closeness of the sheets overhead and the gentle light. It felt like an oasis for just the two of them, like everything that had been worrying them had to stay outside. In here, they were safe and theyâd built it together.
Though it wasnât like Alex had ever felt the awkwardness growing in Elizaâs chest like a weed. He seemed impervious to such things, shameless in an endearing and sort of reckless way. It came from having been alone so long, she guessed. So, he wound his arms around her and pillowed his head on her chest, wrapping his legs through hers, cuddling into her like it was the most natural thing in the world. And after a few heartbeats of pause, Eliza cuddled right back because maybe here, in this moment, it could be.
Eliza was straddling the line between asleep and awake, her brain foggy, but she distinctly heard Alexâs low, gravelly murmur, âItâs been so long since I didnât have to sleep alone.â
He sounded soâŠgrateful. So much that the melancholic weight it carried hurt a little. Eliza had no answer for him but to hug him even tighter, trying to put the promise she couldnât make, the promise she couldnât even let herself think, into that contact.
If sheâd tried to say it out loud, if sheâd tried to find the words, who knew what would have come spilling out. That she felt it too, the vulnerability of sleep in the arms of someone you trusted and truly understood. That sheâd never felt so safe as she did in his arms. That she didnât want him to leave, she didnât ever want to leave this tent.
That, despite the almost impossible distance between them, despite the fact that theyâd only known each other a few days, she was falling in love with him.
Eliza wasnât sure what sheâd thought Alexâs sealskin would look like.
Sheâd been picturing something more than a little grim, something tatty like rotting seaweed, something sheâd been scared to touch. Sheâd never actually seen a seal up close? What exactly were you supposed to expect for an ethereal item that allowed shapeshifting between species?
She definitely hadnât been expecting it to be so beautiful.
Eliza was the one who found it, she was always the one that searched further up the beach on the grasses and stone fields; Alex seemed anxious to stick to the shoreline. It was caught on the taller ammophila, hidden from the seaâs view in the valleys and slopes and rolls of the dunes. The storm must have thrown it back there like it was a trailing scarf on a light breeze. It certainly looked light enough to carry that way, it was almost translucent in the glare of her flashlight, like something spun and weaved. But at the same time, it looked oddly alive, animated, like the way the wind lifted it was actually its breathing, an unsettling trick of the eye.
It did look like seal skin. It was grey and dappled, holding depths of deeper blacks and blues, an impossible number of shades held within its surface. The fact that it was covered in fur was almost imperceptible, the hairs were so fine and translucent. Clearly it was built for speed and power Eliza couldnât even imagine, the fact that it wasnât of this world was obvious. Eliza was simultaneously afraid to go anywhere near it and compelled to run it through her fingers, wanting it and fearing it in equal measures.
It was a little like how she felt about Alex.
Eliza was entranced for a moment but the shivering in her own limbs brought her back. It was a particularly cold and wet night, rain hanging in the air like it was trapped on cobwebs. And sheâd finally found what theyâd been looking for. All she had to do was call for Alex, heâd be so happy, heâd be able to go homeâŠ
Eliza felt a chill grip her chest that had nothing to do with the weather. A thought grew in the back of her mind, something insidious and cold and bitter that she couldnât ignore. As much as she was ashamed by it.
She didnât have to tell Alex. He never came back here in the sand dunes, he was so far away. Theyâd yet to search the same space twice. Heâd probably never come across it. Or she could take it herself, hide it away, heâd never find it. Sheâd never have to face that sickening moment where she watched him go, held him for the last time, watched those dark, intense eyes leave her life forever.
Eliza shook herself, wincing away from the thought, pushing it away with all her strength. She couldnât do that to him. If leaving was what was best for him, then that was what she was going to do. That was what she wanted. It had to be.
âAlex!â she raised her voice over the wind, scrambling up the dune until she could see him, getting the legs of her favourite pair of sweatpants soaked in the spray, âAlex, over here!â
The roar of the wind was fearsome that night but Alexâs ears seemed oddly attuned to her voice, he turned and waved at her excitedly. She motioned him over, trying to set her face in a smile, trying to look happy.
Alexâs joy and relief to have his skin back helped, Eliza had no choice but to smile as he gasped and ran to take it in his hands with all the emotion of someone being handed back their left arm.
He stroked it against his cheek, feeling whole again as the constant anxiety in his stomach settled a little, âYou found it! You found it, you got it back for me!â
Eliza wrapped her arms around herself, her expression soft, âJust like I said. Told you Iâd make up for tripping over you. And for making you wear my pyjamas.â
Alex laughed, looking almost painfully happy, like it was constricting his chest, âYou actually did it. I canâŠI can go backâŠâ
The triumph and celebration suddenly flickered out and died. Alex stopped his excited bouncing, freezing as his hand closed around hers to pull her into his dance, spin her around. But instead they both stalled, eyes catching on each other, no sound but the wind and the waves.
âUmâŠâ Alex looked shyer than sheâd ever seen him, sudden coyness flooding over him like he didnât want to face whatever was coming next but it couldnât be stopped, âI guess I canâŠum, thank you for everything you did for me. That doesnât even come close to covering it butâŠâ
Eliza understood, she could see him struggling with words to describe this. She couldnât blame him, it wasnât like they made greeting cards for this kind of situation.
âYouâre welcome, Alex,â she replied faintly, âIâŠmeeting you wasâŠâ
She was suddenly blinking very hard and fast, an uncomfortable prickling building behind her eyes. She prayed heâd think it was just the wind. By the way he suddenly dropped her hand limply, she didnât think so.
Another moment stretched between them, like currents were pulling them further and further apart, if they didnât act soon it would be too late.
âDo you really want me to go, Eliza?â Alex murmured, his eyes wide. He clutched the skin to his chest like a childâs safety blanket. He had the look of someone whoâd asked a question they knew might get them in trouble, it had just slipped out when they werenât watching carefully enough.
Eliza swallowed hard, hugging herself tightly, âWellâŠâ
Another lie made itself known, climbing intrusively up her throat. It would be so easy to open her mouth and let it tumble out butâŠAlex was being honest with her. Why couldnât she do the same with him? Didnât she owe them both that?
âIâm going to miss you,â she admitted in a small voice, âIâm really, really going to miss you, Alex. Iâve never met anyone like you.â
âWell no, you havenât,â Alex snorted, teasing.
Eliza rolled her eyes though his joke did ease her tension a little, it made her think that she could say anything to him and not be afraid. âI mean Iâve never met anyone- human or otherwise- like you. You just understand me. No one else has ever managed that.â She gave a dry laugh that sounds unnatural and forced even to her.
Alex blinked, âWell, yes? Of course?â
Eliza narrowed her eyes, he was looking at her like she was missing a vital part of some puzzle she hadnât even realised she was trying to do, âWhat do you mean?â
âWeâre mates,â Alex explained slowly, tilting his head in that odd but sweet way he did, âIâm your mate. Youâre my mate.â
She got the sense that he didnât mean that in the way she knew. The way he said it, it had a different weight in his hands.
âMates?â she murmured, feeling the power of it herself, confused by it.
Alex nods, his face saddening, his shoulders hunching a little, âBonded. Soulmates. Selkies mate for life, you know as soon as you meet them.â
Warmth flooded Elizaâs chest as she tried to process this, as this unfamiliar concept that somehow described exactly what sheâd been feeling fell into her lap. It felt like sheâd known it for a long time but had simply forgotten. Alex was just helping her remember.
And still doubts tangled around her ankles and tripped her.
âBut Iâm notâŠIâm not like you, how can I be yourâŠâ she stammered.
âItâs happened before, itâs in the songs and stories,â Alex wilted even further, âBut if you donât want to...I shouldnât have said anything, Iâm sorry, I should have kept my mouth shut. Stupid, itâs just stupid. Iâm probably wrong, I mean, when our hands touched andâŠand that happened I was sure but-â
The pace and pitch of his voice was rising, his hands in his skin tightening and twisting. Panic was overtaking him; his skin was turning a grey colour and he looked ready to bolt. She couldnât let that happen.
Eliza reached over, taking his hands. In doing so, she brushed his skin for the first time almost unthinkingly. Yet again she felt that charge between the two of them that she now had a name for, that pull. The sensation of the rest of the world slowing down around them even as their own heartbeats began to race and every sight, sound and smell became so much more real and almost uncomfortably close. Alexâs eyes widened, his lips parted a little.
âEliza?â he breathed.
âI feel it too, Alex,â she gripped his hands tightly, âI promise I feel this too, I understand!â
As strange as it seemed, as many problems as this realisation threw up, they began to laugh. Mates. Mated for life. This idea ran through Elizaâs mind restlessly as Alexâs chill, calloused hands came up to cradle her face in the sweetest and gentlest gesture. It felt only natural as their lips came together, as her hands answered his own by resting on his shoulders, standing on tiptoe so she could press against him even more intently. No fear or hesitance, it was just the two of them. Eliza could almost swear they were surrounded by the warm glow of their safe space, back in her bedroom.
They had to pull apart for air but the light stayed, the feeling of everything somehow being okay in spite of all available evidence. They grinned at each other in bewilderment and joy, moving apart no further than they absolutely had to. Eliza ran her fingers across his skin, it was so incredibly soft and light, like nothing sheâd ever felt before.
All of this was unlike anything sheâd felt. It was all so new, dizzyingly so but she found she actually liked being a little out of her comfort zone. If Alex was the one waiting for her at the other side of it.
Eliza bit her bottom lip, âBut I canât go into the sea with you. If I couldâŠâ
She knew she would. She honestly would. But that didnât change the fact that she didnât have a skin like his, she was grounded in a way he wasnât.
Alex shook his head, a frantic kind of hope in his eyes, âI donât care. Eliza, Iâll stay here. Thereâs nothing for me out there without you.â
Eliza opened her mouth, relief and horror warring on her face, âAlex, you canât. YouâŠthis isnâtâŠI canât ask you to give up everything, your homeâŠâ
Alex gave a derisive snort, âEliza, listen. All I have out there is loneliness. Fighting for every inch, having to constantly keep on the move so all the shit Iâve done doesnât catch up to me. Iâm so tired, Eliza, I was so close to giving up until I met you. You are my home.â
There were still so many questions and hurdles to cross. Her parents. Her planned future. She was in the midst of stepping off the path sheâd been on for years, drifting away into god knew what, there were going to be consequences for that choice.
But right now, she didnât care. Alex didnât care.
They would just have to let the storm carry them.
#selkie fic#hamliza#alexander x eliza#comments and feedback would be so appreciated#ficlet#selkie au
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Guess What? Iâm Not a Robot Ch34
Summary: A quiet few hours as they continue to carry on without Alex.
Chapter Warnings: Mentions of anxiety, mentions of suicide
Word count: 1,628
12.30PM Thursday 11th November 2038
The next day was quiet. No one really wanted to venture outside after what had happened yesterday. As the President had promised, the curfew had gone country wide, and many people who worked in industries mostly staffed by androids found that they didnât have work to go to anyway.
There were reports of people crossing the border to Canada in droves, and unfortunately the few androids who had tried had all been detained.
Megan felt sick at that point. It was coming out now exactly what was happening to the androids that werenât shot on sight. They were being taken to Recycling Plants, which, frankly, sounded much worse than being shot in the head. At least that was quick.
There was no word about Alex. The phone rang a few times, but when Julia checked and didnât recognise the number, they let it ring.
The crock pot was running low, and after making sure that no one could see into the kitchen, Paul set about cooking. Everyone insisted that he didnât have to, but it was something to do, something familiar. He had over a thousand recipes in his database, and each one could be altered according to taste, dietary requirements, and availability.
Megan joined him in the kitchen after a while, as he was cutting vegetables.
âI do not need assistance, thank you,â he pre-empted.
âI was wondering what you were making.â
âI am currently adding ingredients to the Crock pot, and once that is done I will begin making lunch. I was thinking grilled sandwiches.â
âSounds good. Shall I ask what everyone wants?â
âIf you would please. Oh, and I wonât do any extreme unhealthy options, such as chocolate and marshmallows.â
âGot it.â
Megan left him alone in the kitchen, and was back in ten minutes with a paper list. He could hear it, and he knew Megan would never remember the orders of seven people.
âJust pin it to the refrigerator please,â Paul nodded in the direction of the appliance, not pausing.
Megan did as he asked and hovered awkwardly.
âIs there anything you want me to do?â
âOther than stay safe?â
âYou know what I meant. Why are you obsessed with that anyway?â Megan went over to the counter to watch him precisely cut tomatoes.
âI am not obsessed,â Paul defended.
âThen, why? I know you said you were comfortable at mine, but surely you only stayed out of nowhere else to go.â
What might be described as pain flooded Paulâs chest. âYou honestly think that was the reason I stayed?â
âWell, it makes sense!â Megan responded defensively. âThere canât be any other reason to put up with me!â
âI stayed because I like you!â Paul cried, almost missing his knife strike.
âYeah, fine, you like me now, but when you first became deviant?â
âWhen I first became deviant I was in the presence of a young woman who just admitted that she was suicidal,â Paul refused to pull punches. âI could not leave in good conscience. Was that what you wanted to hear?â
âIs that still not the reason?â
âI wonât deny it played a part,â Paul tipped the tomatoes into the bubbling stew pot, calmer now. âBut it is far from the only reason. You, Megan, even when I was still following my program, never saw me as just an android. If I truly did not care about or like you even before then, even if I didnât recognise it, then I would not have broken through my programming when I did.â
He heard Meganâs sharp intake of breath, and he knew she didnât believe him.
âI know what youâre thinking,â he tried a different tactic. âThat voice in your head is telling you that Iâm lying, that of course Iâm just putting up with you and obviously I couldnât have liked you before deviating because I had no emotions. That voice is wrong on all counts,â he turned to face Megan, who wasnât looking at him. He knew her well enough to know that she was trying not to cry, and hating herself for it.
âI donât know the ins and outs of android deviation, I can only go off of my own experience. However, I would think that while there is still a single act that makes you deviant, there is some build up. You, and admittedly the Beckwithâs, already had an effect on me. Please believe me when I say that I care about you.â
âWhy?â Meganâs voice was thick with unshed tears. âWhy do you care?â
Oh boy, she was in a spiral.
âDo I need a reason? Youâre there to talk me through emotions I donât understand. Youâre there to talk me down when I get too angry over something, even though I know that scares you. You give me a purpose, even if it does follow close to my original programming.â
Megan was crying now, and he wasnât sure if it was entirely sad tears. He slowly walked over and pulled her into a gentle hug. After a few tentative seconds her arms came around his torso to hug him back and she buried her face in his apron.
âI stayed because I wanted to stay,â Paul felt something settle in his mind when he said that.
âThank you,â Megan mumbled, âI needed that.â
âI know,â Paul patted her on the back. âIf boredomâs getting to you, how about you start getting ingredients together for the grilled sandwiches?â
That had probably been what had caused this. A long time of just sitting and thinking, and Meganâs thoughts had begun to spiral. It wasnât guaranteed, but he wasnât surprised.
âOkay,â Megan nodded and pulled out, wiping her snotty nose with her sleeve.
âTwo things before you do,â Paul asserted. âFirst, find a tissue. Second, wash your hands. Youâre preparing food after all.â
âYes chef,â Megan smirked, her snarkiness shining through.
 6PM Thursday 11th November 2038
A few hours later Megan was helping dole out some of the crock pot stew. Again, she didnât need to, Paul had it all in hand, but giving her something to do helped with her mood. You had to be careful not to give her something too easy, as any mistake would make things worse, and also being too easy would make her think he had a low opinion of her capabilities.
Paul struggled not to sigh. When she was in a bad way it was tiring to have to tip toe around every potential outcome, but what else could he do? In truth it was merely a small inconvenience for the benefit of someone elseâs improved mental health. Not much different to having to walk a little more slowly with someone who broke their leg.
Everyone had basically chilled out all day, although Allison had been hunched over the table, trying to think of new ways to protest and how to organise a mass protest outside the Recycling Centres.
So far, not much luck, and she gratefully accepted a bowl of stew from Megan in order to take a break. Megan read over the sheet of paper Allison had been working on, and found it mostly full of scribbled out words and angrily crossed out ideas.
âIs protesting outside a Recycling Centre a good idea?â she asked after a minute to gather her courage, and Allison shrugged listlessly.
âIt would be risky,â she admitted. âJust looking at the news they have a heavy military presence, and we have what, three definite branches? Us, Lucasâs sister and your brother. Alex had all the details, but I would guess thereâs maybe thirty between all of us? Not enough, not even close to enough.â
Allison shook her head and shoved a spoonful of stew in her mouth. âI didnât realise how much we need Alex,â she mumbled.
âYouâve been doing a good job,â Megan was quick to reassure, and Allison laughed.
âIâm hardly much of a leader, and as much as Alex and I disagree, we need those disagreements to get a plan together. The optimist and the pessimist. Together we usually make a pretty decent plan,â Allison ran a hand through her blonde hair.
âNot many people have that level of optimism and determination,â Megan noted, and Allison agreed.
âYeah, dangerous levels if you ask me, but, thatâs what got us off the ground,â she gestured to the rest of the group. âWhat got us here really.â
âYeah, but if they hadnât, I wouldnât have been able to keep Paul safe. I would have gone home to my parents and theyâd have given him up,â Megan sat down in a nearby chair, upset by the thought.
âI suppose we can be glad for that,â Allison nodded. âHeâs a good guy to have around. Patience of a damn saint.â
âYou havenât heard him swear,â Megan smirked. âMouth like a sailor when he gets angry.â
âPaul? Angry? That I would pay good money to see!â Allison laughed.
âIâm surprised that he didnât flip last night,â Megan noted. âThatâs usually what makes him angry.â
âNathan got there first. Iâm going to be using that insult from now on.â
âIgnorant, incompetent, senile old bat?â Megan quoted. âYeah, thatâs not half bad.â
The two settled into a comfortable silence, only slightly broken as Paul handed Megan a bowl of stew with a meaningful look. She looked down at the bowl, not really feeling hungry, but knew he wasnât going to let up until the bowl was at least half empty. She maintained stubborn eye contact as she took spoonful and put in her mouth before swallowing in an over exaggerated manner. Paul nodded approvingly before wandering off.
Allison watched the silent interaction with some amusement. Her bet was looking really good right now.
A fairly chilled chapter again, and short, but when you see the next chapter, I think you'll understand. That's when it hits the fan.
...I have a cold, and I will use that as an excuse for not being to think of other options. Although I'm not to sure there are many. As always, if you guys spot some I've missed I'd love to hear from you!
#Detroit Become Human#Detroit Become Human fanfic#Detroit Become Human OC#Guess What? I'm Not a Robot#Guess What? I'm Not a Robot Ch34#android#deviant android#android protest#TheShapeshifter100 writes
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The Tourist Trap
I'm sitting here in my favorite café a few blocks from my house recollecting all the men I have taken here at one time or another.  Sean, who once moved here became the loyal steed in my stable. I'd at times even run into him here. Those times were fun. Bike rides and laughs. He's not around much any more but he's always someone I'm proud to have spent time listening to and engaging with. My way too old for me ex boyfriend, Noah. My best friend and former lover, Alex. Josh, whom I had met in Cambodia last summer featuring a week of explosive orgasms and tears upon departure. My most beloved Danny, who I had met while he was in town for a bachelor party. I managed to get him back down here for Mardi Gras. God I miss him. There was Matthew just last week who was only in town for a week but I lured him into my web and kept him close for two of those. We came for lunch before we headed to The Drifter for some micro dosing and swimming. The Barista who I've developed a crush on from afar over the years wasn't keen on seeing me with someone. He'll be fine. The Barista and I had matched on Tinder but never talked. I think we both figure it's best. Wouldn't want to sour the experience and general sphere of friendly encounters. Maybe before I leave this city I'll ask the barista to get a drink with me and subsequently have a whirlwind romance due to the fleetingness of it all.
I do that. I do that a lot. Fleeting whirlwind romances filled with action packed and passionate sex followed by some sweet and intimate heat between the sheets. Each one takes from me but never more than what it ultimately gives. Though, I love giving myself. I give my love to get used, not played with. I have a lot of it to give. Part of that being because I love myself. Or rather, I've learned how to love myself, care for myself, and enjoy myself.
I micro dosed LSD this past weekend while on a Blind VacationTM (I'll recount that later) I thought to myself, maybe I'm just obsessed with fucking different versions of myself? All these people I'm having these romances with I relate with on a significant level in one way or another. I see myself in so many of these men. Often times Iâve joked with some of them saying how theyâre essentially a male version of myself. They tend to agree. So good, we agree about what we are doing. Having fun, enjoying ourselves, manifesting the intentions we had put out into the world, one stolen kiss featuring a New Orleans crumbling sidewalk at a time.
Iâve realized that Iâve developed a formula for manifesting these sort of encounters. Iâve gotten good at it. Real good. It clicked when I finally started trusting my gut and stopped sleeping with people who didnât deserve me. You see, Iâve worked hard on myself and continue to invest in the woman I want to be. Those who seem to not understand how to do that, arenât worth the emotional and mental labor. It takes a lot in order to achieve the depths and heights that intimacy with another can take me to. I want to be sure the effort I put in is matched. Honesty and communication are the most important factors in these sorts of situations. Otherwise it becomes unfair to one of us. My lack of communication and clarity has often led to men falling for a version of myself that doesnât encompass the duality of who I am. I live on both sides of the spectrum in so many aspects of my life. One cannot be achieved without the other. So this manic pixie dream girl youâve just created in your mind doesnât include the basic white girl thatâs rooted deep within me.
Same happens for them, If theyâre not able to lay themselves bare just as I do, I find it leads me to believe there were hidden motives and that just stings at the end of the day.
So back to my formula - it involves trusting your gut and listening to those little doubts in the back of your mind. Theyâre there for a reason. My success in having so many of these fleeting and fiery romances is due to countless failures and burns. Healing those burns takes introspection, asking yourself the hard questions, and taking responsibility when you must.
I at times do get rejected or ghosted by men and donât know why. Just last week, I met up with Cameron F. who was a sound mixer in town staying at a beautiful hotel in the CBD. He was totally my type and I, his. We looked good together and had a great time dancing and playing with physical boundaries. Once back in his hotel room I could tell he was nervous, holding back. I told him âHey we donât have to do everything in one nightâ. He relaxed and we continued to roll around between the sheets. Mind you, I met him off of r/randomactsofmuffdive after he had replied to a post I had put out. So, I was a bit surprised. However, we cuddled and teased one another all night and morning even exclaiming how turned on he was. The next few days, radio silence or the too few word replies to me touching on previous things we had spoken about. I got the hint. He wasnât interested. Why? I donât know. I want to ask him why because I canât find a reason. Maybe I was too much? Maybe he could see through me and didnât like it. Though, I donât have any ill will or intentions that Iâve been hiding especially considering how he met me! This kind of rejection is most common. Maybe I just give too much of myself too early. They have me and there isnât much else they need. Iâm aware of feeling that towards others but usually itâs mutual! We fucked, had a great time and that was that. I get it but when Iâm blindsided by something or donât expect that to happen, itâs disappointing. Sometimes it hurts.
Iâm often told that Iâm intimidating to men, by men. They donât know what to think of me, why Iâm there, what my deal is, how to approach me. Thereâs a lot going on with me upon first glance. Iâm fashionable, with a color palette that could be described as âhigh fructoseâ. I have a chic blonde pixie cut, love painting my face to match the mood I wake up in, can easily be found laughing or with a dumb smirk fixed upon my face, all while surrounded by a group of equally colorful and boisterous friends. The thing is that Iâm aware of the fact Iâm intimidating. I wear it like a badge. I coddle it, encourage it in order for it to be maintained. You see, it hasnât always been this way. I used to be 5â6â and 240lbs at 18 years old. Now Iâm 26 and 5â7â, 165lbs. I donât even recognize who I used to be. Though, I was always confident growing up. I didnât really have an awareness of what I looked like till I started to lose weight. People treat you differently you know. They take you more seriously and that kind of improvement can sometimes be addicting. I often wonder what it would be like if I lost the remaining 30lbs and how that would affect my life. I think sometimes Iâm afraid of it. It sort of keeps me in a different place socially and in a certain place on the spectrum of attractiveness. I think Iâm sexy. I think Iâm pretty. I think wonderful things about myself in my current form. However, Iâm so curious what that would mean for me and the kinds of men I entertain if my weight were different.
With that being said, the validation of men does not define my worth. I know my worth. Itâs why Iâm selective and itâs why Iâm able to have these beautiful, hilarious, extraordinary, and fleeting romances Iâm going to recount and share with you.
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