#cullbastian

[celemee]

"it should have been you" hurt prompt.

Heyooo! Thanks for the delightful prompt. I'm sorry it's sat in my inbox for ages. How would you feel about some Cullbastian? With the added spice of my sorry ass Inquisitor William Trevelyan getting his heart stomped on?

@dadrunkwriting

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Nobody had expected The Prince of Starkhaven to come in person upon the acceptance of his offer of aid. Least of all Cullen.

Surely the word of his involvement had reached Sebastian's ears; Josephine knew the man to keep well informed of all the movers in Southern politics.

The very same Josephine had insisted upon his attendance of this formal dinner. Bad etiquette for the commander to skip negotiating matters pertaining to forces.

So here he sits, in his scratchy formals, eating food that tastes like ash. Laughing at jokes that don't quite register. Ignoring William's insistent hand creeping up his thigh.

Sebastian, on the opposite side of the table, radiates warmth and confidence. Lips stretched in a wide smile, revealing perfect teeth. Precise in his words, meeting Josephine toe to toe.

"Why don't we get out of here?" William whispers into his ear when no-one's looking.

Cullen's stomach coils — his eyes squeeze shut.

It's not that he doesn't love William. He does.

But had there ever been a real chance... Had life gone differently, had the circumstances not been stacked against them...

"Commander, are you feeling all right?"

Cullen snaps from his thoughts. It's Cassandra who speaks, but he finds Sebastian gazing at him with concern, a hint of regret in his eyes. And as always, his heart skips a beat.

"Quite fine."

William squeezes his hand, smiling charmingly at Sebastian: "The Commander has caught a flu, but he is too proud and hardworking to admit it."

Cullen plays along, and the dinner continues in much the same manner. Laughs are had, plans are made, input is offered and requested, and maps are marked. Signatures signed.

At last, their plates are empty and beds call — Cullen follows William out of the dining hall. Only to be caught by Sebastian.

"A word, Commander?"

William lifts a brow, but seems to read the room. He shoots Cullen a private smile and bids Sebastian goodnight, then turns on his heels and leaves.

Silence stretches as Cullen's colleagues vacate the room, each eager to rest. It's only once they're alone that Sebastian speaks.

"I shouldn't have come here," he starts quietly. "I didn't realise you were..."

Cullen says nothing, biting on the inside of his cheeks.

"...spoken for."

His eyes close at the words. "Am I to understand you came here for me?"

Sebastian shuffles on his feet, looking away. Before he speaks, he clears his throat and nods. "I thought... hm... that now would be a good time. To be together."

A sad smile curls Cullen's lips. His throat constricts, strangling his voice unusable. He does the only thing he can; pulls Sebastian against himself. Wraps his arms around him.

"It should have been you," he whispers, a mountain of regret falling upon him. Truer words he's never spoken. It's always been him. It will always be him.

Sebastian nods into his shoulder, ever understanding. Holding on tight, as if making every moment count.

"I never thought..." Cullen trails off, shaking his head. "No, I didn't believe you'd still feel something for me, after all this time. And William... well, William is a force of nature."

"You should be with him." Sebastian pulls out of the embrace slowly and regretfully, swallowing. There's a sheen in his eyes that probably mirrors Cullen's own. "He needs you."

They stand there in the light of the torches, their eyes speaking in the wordless language perfected so long ago in empty corridors and Chantry halls. Everything that was, and what could have been hanging between them.

"What if I need you?" Cullen asks at last, his voice softer than a whisper.

Sebastian takes his hand, holding it between his own. A spark of hope in his eyes.

"Then come to me after all of this is through. Come to me as a free man."

Cullen sighs, squeezing Sebastian's hand. He's waited for years, and he'll wait for as many more that's needed. But when Sebastian turns to leave, Cullen's heart has never been heavier; the world could end tomorrow.

This could be the last time they meet.

[barbex]

Making posts for the individual @dasmutquisition​ exchange. This was an ooooh just before the deadline treat for celeme and my bumbling attempt at writing a historical fiction AU for Cullen and Sebastian. I tried to make it sound quite differently from how I usually write.

Chapters: 1/1 Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Sebastian Vael Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Historical, Historical Inaccuracy, Anal Sex

Summary:

The young Lord Sebastian Vael wants more from life than winning archery tournaments. Cullen is willing to give Sebastian everything.

[saltlordofold]

“[Cullen] lowered his hammer and staggered backwards, sighing in exasperation: the umpteenth damaged breastplate sat on his anvil, its dents resistant to remodelling. He would bend it to his will, as he had all the others, but the task seemed neverending; the pile of armour at the end of the smithy seemed to replenish itself - as one plate was done with, he could have sworn another manifested to take its place.” 

Blacksmith!Cullen. ‘nuff said, right? Well, you have @cullenlovesmen to thank for the brilliant concept! A Love Long Lost is her romantic, EPIC tale of a post-Inquisition Cullen and a princely Sebastian finding each other after all their hardships and re-tying ties they long thought severed. I LOVE this fic, the sweeping tone of it, the depth of feeling that transpires from each line. Neither Cullen nor Sebastian were ever really on my radar, but this fic is different. Not to mention, T is one of the most supportive and creative people I’ve ever met: both me and the fandom are lucky to have her.

ALL is complete and updates on mondays ;D GO READ IT!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dragon Age II Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Sebastian Vael, Fenris/Male Hawke, Hawke & Cullen Rutherford, Male Hawke & Sebastian Vael Characters: Male Hawke (Dragon Age), Cullen Rutherford, Sebastian Vael, Fenris (Mentioned), Hawke's Mabari (Dragon Age) Additional Tags: Slice of Life, Drunken Flirting, Post-Break Up, Sad Hawke (Dragon Age), Blue-Purple Hawke (Dragon Age), Custom Male Hawke (Dragon Age), Relationship Advice, Minor Fenris/Male Hawke (Dragon Age), Hawke is a Good Bro, Cullen Tries to Be, Introspection, Everyone Has Issues, Everyone Needs A Hug, Garrus the Mabari, Angst and Humor, Emotional Constipation, Hopeful Ending, Why Did I Write This?, Cullbastian are the main pairing Summary:

Marius Hawke, handsome rogue and freelancing mercenary, is still reeling from his "break-up" with Fenris. He tries to drown his sorrows in tavern rotgut. Because that is what any respectable man would do- what am I supposed to do? Wallow? I don't wallow. Well, not where people can see. Not where Fenris can see...

Oh look, there's the Knight-Captain. Now, I would certainly fancy drowning myself in that. What am I saying? No, I knows pity-lays never help. Most of the time. Besides, Sebastian and Cullen are still mooning over each other in between their silent squabbles and clandestine meetings like something out of one of Varric's horrid books. Well, I suppose it's a good thing Fenris and I... whatever we had, are over with so we don't end up as saccharine characters in some sweeping romance. No, doesn't bother me at all. I'm fine. Everything is fine.

Ohhh, what the piss did I just step in? I hope that belonged to a dog...

He's rambling isn't he? He's rambling. Definitely not drunk, though. At least I'm not thinking aloud this time. It wouldn't do to look like a downtrodden sod and a loony. What would my mother say?

[gayforchantryboys]

Time Heals All Wounds

Lyrium withdrawal has a good chance of just killing you outright. @cullenlovesmen‘s stunning Cullen/Sebastian longfic, A Love Long Lost, got me thinking about what going through withdrawal not once, but twice would do to your body.

It’ll be ok, Cullen.

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words: 4525 relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Sebastian Vael characters: Sebastian Vael, Isabela (Dragon Age), Male Cousland (Dragon Age), Nathaniel Howe, Anders (Dragon Age), Cullen Rutherford, Varric Tethras, Leliana (Dragon Age) additional tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, First Meetings, Spin the Bottle, Seven Minutes In Heaven Game, Claustrophobia, Panic Attacks, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Eventual Fluff, Stuttering, Background Relationships

Cullen chooses not to disclose his fears at a university party, and Sebastian ends up in a closet with more than he bargained for. Not as much of a meet-cute as it is a meet-mutual-understanding.

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Finished commission for @cullenlovesmen. They wanted this to be an illustration for the 9th chapter of their fanfic A Love Long Lost, a beautiful slow-burn/ second spring romance story for this ship. I absolutely love reading the story and thus it was of course, great fun to get to illustrate one of the chapters. ^^

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[gremlinquisitor]

👀

End of year WIP meme

I don’t remember how much of this I’ve shared so far, and that’s not a lot more, sadly, but a bit of The Lion of Caer Bronach

He settles in front of the broken mirror with a heavy sigh, mouth curling into a sneer that reveals sharp, unfamiliar teeth. He’s avoided his reflection since arriving at the Keep; breaking all the mirrors had been one of his first orders of business, but if he is to have someone else living with him, then perhaps he should make an effort, though he has no idea where to start, all his former vanity forgotten.

A cloud of dust goes up from the dresser when he reaches for the brush that rests there, unused since the Inquisition abandoned the outpost. It’s too small in his grasp, his fingers less nimble now and unable to curl around the handle, and after a moment’s fumbling, it clatters to the floor, though the sound of it is lost under his low, irritated growl. A warm brogue and brilliant blue eyes should not be worth this much trouble to him, and yet they are; he will try again if it means that Sebastian looks at him with less fear, when he looks at him at all.

[celemee]

So, I'll be finishing Sword of the Chantry next. If there's still someone out there waiting for the epilogue, keep an eye out!

[barbex]

Reveal time for @dasmutquisition​!

Now that the collection has deanoned, I can show what I wrote this last month. These are all rated E, so proceed with knowledge.

watch me watch you, Neve Gallus x Rana Savas

My assignment and I’m proud to say that I had to bring the tag for this pairing into existence! Set in Minrathous, Knight-Templar Rana and private investigator Neve end up locked in a closet, and what are you supposed to do then?

A Witch's Tear, Fenris x Anders

Fenris finds Anders at last and while Anders thinks that Fenris wants to kill him, Fenris finally wants to admit to his feelings for Anders.

Temptation and Will, Anders x Fenris x Hawke

A bit of a dark fic with Fenris given to Hawke and Anders as a slave, fuck or die scenario and all that, but of course, Anders and Hawke are good to Fenris.

Give in to the Sea, Cullen x Sebastian

Historical fiction AU. The lord and his bodyguard and careful feelings. And bossy Sebastian.

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L💖VE Yourself Challenge

Tagged by @cullenlovesmen  Thanks!!

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, music, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

Well, I haven’t written as much as some FF writers here... mostly b/c I was mainly focused on my LongFic (which is still going... even though an update is long overdue...) SO! I guess I’ll start with that one!

1. Kylara's Origins - Holy crows! I just realized that this behemoth of a Fic is now almost 2 years old!! (May 13th 2020 will mark the anniversary) What started as a pet project during Alistair Appreciation Week 2018 (which, I feel we need to have another...someday! Alibear always deserves love!) has become a massive piece of Fanfiction at 368120 words (and counting!) Please don’t let its size scare you away -- it will be coming to its closure soon. I am currently finishing writing the Dalish/Werewolf arc... and will soon be moving onto the Landsmeet... then onto the Final Battle! What will happen to Kylara and Alistair? Will they get to stay together? Hopefully you will continue to read and find out! 🥰 

There are sequels planned as well for Kylara! I will cover the DAA story arc with her. DAII will be Garrett Hawke’s story, naturally, but Kylara will have some cameo appearances! She and Garrett are cousins, afterall! As for my DAI Fic... I really want to avoid spoilers! 🤫 Kylara will be there... but she is NOT the Quizzy! I won’t say any more! 

2. 14-Day DA Lover’s Prompts - A series of prompts that were given to write short stories between Feb 1st and 14th. While I didn’t finish on time, I did FINISH them, so for that I am happy! While I did have some stories with Kylara and Alistair, this time I wrote many other ‘ships, experimenting to see if I could venture from my “comfort zone” of Ali and Ky (however, they will always be my babies, no matter what! 🤗) In here, I also featured stories written for some of really awesome friends. I wrote a Cullbastian short for @cullenlovesmen. There is also a story dedicated to my super-awesome friend @andrastini (featuring art by the amazingly talented @ambellinaleander), and a short Culistair Kiss dedicated to the always wonderful @aurlyn! All in all, I was happy how these shorts turned out!

3. Camping Chaos - A short that was written for Fictober 2018. I never did complete that 31 day challenge... but this little one shot that came of it was fun and enjoyable to write! Set in a modern AU Thedas where Alistair and Cullen are college roommates, the two go on a camping trip that goes anything but smoothly!

Speaking of Fictober... 

4. Fictober 2019 - Another Fictober that I didn’t finish... BUT I WILL! 🤞 Even though it is months past the deadline, I have become quite attached to this series of shorts. Fictober is meant to be short one-shots created with prompts... but the list that was given that year actually inspired me to make it a continuous story! Yes, they can be read as separate, but each story does link on to the next. It is Alistair and Kylara... but this time set in a modern Thedas, where the entire DA gang are all in college together! I finished Day 19 not that long ago... and once I get the next chapter of my LongFic up, I will contnue to write more for this Fictober... until I finish it! 

and last but definitely not least!!

5. Seduction Aboard The Siren - The most Explicit story I have ever written! We all know in DAO that if you flirt with Isabela in the Pearl you can (under the right circumstances) have a threesome (or even a foursome!) with the lusty pirate. Except all you get in the game is a fade-to-black screen. So I took it upon myself to write what really went down on board The Siren! 💋💋💋

Well there you go. I have a few other things I’ve written, but these are my current favorites. If you’d like to join in, I guess I’ll tag @captain-savvy @anjelica-grey @samusdraws @angels767 @allenvooreef @cccrystalclear @elfrooted @aurlyn @froschkuss @ambellinaleander @shepofshipsart @greendelle @mrnicholas @effelants @freethemages @out-of-the-embers @angelfolks and anyone else who wants to participate! (If you’ve already been tagged or posted something... sorry for the double-tag!)

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Alright, so I was tagged by @mhandersmyheart to share another snippet from a WIP!

I haven't had time to finish this fic as quickly as I'd anticipated, so I'll share another little lengthy blip from my pointless-but-fun Fenhawke/Cullbastian one-shot. To set up the scene, Cullen is distraught over Hawke's mabari's seeming indifference towards him (and yes, I'd named my Hawke's mabari Garrus 😂). Oh, and Hawke is pretty damn sauced, btw.

“Well, poor Garrus here did see you take away his Auntie Bethy, or so was relayed to me from my mother and uncle upon my return from the expedition.  Therefore, you’re just on his shit-list, is all.” Hawke smiles and chuckles good-naturedly.  It makes Cullen nervous.

He wants to apologise, though it was just part of his duty as a Templar, not a personal attack on their family; he’d had orders and no chances left to take with matters such as that.  But the only thing that tumbles from Cullen’s mouth is a stuttered utterance of, “I w-wasn’t aware that dogs had– ‘sh-shit lists,’ Hawke.” Cullen’s armour suddenly feels stifling.

Barking out a laugh like a gleeful dog himself, Hawke grabs up his glass of wine and takes a large gulp.  He sucks his teeth then wags a finger in Cullen’s direction. “Mabari do.”

Cullen tries his damnedest not to laugh at the absurdity of all of this, and when he feels the muscles in his face begin to pull into a smile, Cullen scoffs and shakes his head.  He tastes his wine a little more appreciatively. When he looks up at Hawke, the man is scrubbing a hand over his face.

Maker, please do not let Hawke be sick while he is here.  He’s not the patience nor the time.

For this, I tag: @karasu8, @cullenlovesmen (yes, re-tagging you!), @barbex, @sekific, @ocean-in-my-rebel-soul, @gremlinquisitor & anyone else who'd like to share a WIP! No obligations, btw ❤

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text overlaid atop the dragon age logo that reads "@cullenlovesmen (who also runs @sweetonsebastian) is so kind and smart and just an all-round lovely person to be around! As the captain of the Cullbastian ship, she is a great addition to both the Cullen and Sebastian fandoms and her niceness and supportiveness (and the fact that she writes amazing fic for the ship) is exactly the reason why so many of us are on board!"

[andrastini]

Happy birthday, darling! Dozens of Alistair smiles and hugs to you! 😍

Thank you, sunshine! 

And now some Cullbastian spam because it’s monday! Muahahaha!

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I felt compelled to draw this after reading two Cullbastian fanfic where Knight-Captain Rylen is gloriously third-wheeling and cockblocking. I love you, Rylen! But do give the boys some quality alone time, will you!? XD 

The fanfictions in question: [LINK] [LINK]

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Getting to know you!

tagged by @aban-asaara @thejeeperswife @saltlordofold and I am so flattered /o\

tagging @lucyrne @gothkimmyschmidt @apostatetabris @mocha-writes @fleshwerks @storybookhawke @andrastini @cloakinghawk @felan-daris (and @sulevinblade so that you can share it)

Relationship Status: Very much married.

Favourite Colour: Emerald green and black. If I’m not wearing it, pale pink is also nice, baby blue.

Languages spoken: Fluent English and Swedish.

Skill few people know you have: I took bellydancing lessons for years.

Top Ships: my OC/Canon ships for DA, with Seb/Padi being the biggest ship of the fleet. For canon/canon I like Cullrian, Cullbastian, Zevistair, Cullistair.

Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick, even though I wish it was lipstick more often, but as soon as it doesn’t look perfect, I want it gone, so it quickly becomes too much work.

Something you’d like to buy/get: New clothes for summer/spring, but I have to clear out the wardrobe first

Country you’d love to visit: Scotland. It looks beautiful and they have all that nice whisky.

Last 5 Songs: If we don’t count whatever I listened to at the inlaws’ last night, then: Exodus by The Cinematic Orchestra Arrival of the Birds by The Cinematic Orchestra Returning Heroes by Tartalo Music Noregskonungr by Gaute Storaas The Flight of Iolar by Tartalo Music (playlist for Recreate His Worldly Glory writing, set on random)

Last movie: Dr. Strangelove, I think?

Currently reading: so many Lost Templar in Skyhold by @barbex The Woodcutter by @bexterrr A Love Long Lost by @sweetonsebastian/ @cullenlovesmen A Chance Engagement by @hollyand-writes For What Binds Us by @aban-asaara Beyond Heroes: Of Sunshine and Red Lyrium by @ladynorbert