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Midsummers (JJ Imagine - Part One)

Author: sguymon21

Summary: After JJ and you break up, it takes a lot to heal. Nothing seems to be working, so when Rafe invited you to Midsummers, it seems like just the distraction you needed. However, everything he does reminds you of JJ. 

Warnings: None?

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I’ve never been invited to Midsummers before. I was always this Pogue who never stood a chance of fitting in with the Kooks. I was in a bikini more than actual clothes and I preferred surfing over golfing any day. Maybe that’s why I caught JJ Maybanks attention for a minute. Maybe that’s why he liked more for a moment.

The days spent with JJ were the best days of my life. He was crazy and spontaneous and affectionate. I had never experienced attention before him, maybe that’s why I fell in love so quickly. He was a wildcard, but nothing he did was ever wrong in my eyes. However, everything I did was wrong in his. What I didn’t mention about JJ was that he was extremely particular. Everything had to fall into line perfectly and he got mad when it didn’t. Sometimes I felt like he needed things so perfectly, that I would never be good enough. Maybe I was right.

A week before midsummers, JJ and I were at the beach. We both knew we didn’t stand a chance of going. I laughed at the thought of JJ in a suit. He didn’t laugh with me. The whole day he was acting strange. He was quiet. JJ Maybank was never quiet. Maybe I was nervous because I knew what was going to happen. I knew in the back of my mind that he didn’t think I was the one. He didn’t think he could love me. When he told me he needed to break up, I didn’t hurt. I was used to one sided love. It was present in every aspect of my life; my parents, my siblings, my friends. Everything was one sided.

Over that week, I tried to figure out what I did wrong. I spent my time surfing and working. I was serving drinks at the country club one day when I heard a certain group snickering. Rafe Cameron and his group of losers gathered near a pool table and laughed. I walked next to them and grabbed their empty glasses. 

“Hey y/l/n,” Rafe yelled as you began to walk away. “Heard you and JJ broke up. Good riddance right?”

I rolled my eyes and walked towards the bar. I could feel my annoyance level raising within me. He followed me over to the bar and took a seat across from me.

“Why don’t you get me a drink?” he asked.

“You’re not old enough to drink and I’m not old enough to serve,” I said. I set my tray of empty glasses down on the counter and turned to walk away from him. I felt him snag my wrist and pull me towards him. I lost my footing for a second and stumbled right into his chest. He had a strong grip on my arm as he stared down at me.

“This might work,” he said, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. “How would you like to be my date for midsummers?”

I laughed. I didn’t mean to laugh that hard, but Rafe Cameron had just asked me, a pogue, to midsummers. He smirked down at me.

“I’m not kidding,” he simply said. “We can go dress shopping tomorrow. Do you work?”

I shook my head no as I stared confusingly at him. He traced his thumb over my lower lip like JJ used to do and I felt my heart sink a little bit. I pushed his arm off of me and walked out of the clubhouse quickly as memories flooded my mind.

I always surfed here. There was a good sandbar, great ways, and very little people. Only the locals knew this spot and none of them ever came here. The sun was on it’s way down and I smiled at the thought of Apollo riding his chariot, bringing the sun with him. What an interesting mythology the Greeks had. I sat on my board in the middle of the ocean as the waves rocked me. A storm was picking up and the waves were getting higher and higher, I just had to wait for the right one. Just as I thought I had it, a blonde boy paddled up next to me.

“This one’s mine, kay?” he said and took off, racing the wave. I sat there jaw agape as I watched him take the wave. Who did he think he was? I took the next big one and met him on shore.

“That was my wave,” I said. “I was waiting.”

He turned around to face me. I had seen him before, there wasn’t a pogue who didn’t know who he was. He chuckled and apologized insincerely. I rolled my eyes and muttered works of annoyance under my breath. I was ready to call it quits after that wave. He grabbed my wrist as I turned to walk towards where I parked my car. I stumbled into him clumsily when he pulled on me.

“What’s your name?” he asked. I looked up at his blue eyes.

“Y/n,” I said. He looked at me. His eyes were mesmerizing. I could feel myself being drawn in by them.

“It suits you,” he said, dragging his thumb over my bottom lip. “I hope I see you again, y/n.”

Rafe followed me outside and cut off my escape. He had his usual smirk on his face, but it seemed softer than usual. He looked at me with comfort and ease. He wasn’t intimidated by me and he wasn’t fearful of my pogue germs. He just looked at me almost as if we were equals. In a moment of weakness, he stuck me like a venomous snake.

“Pick you up at 3?” he asked, almost seeming charming for a moment.

“Don’t be late,” I said and walked quickly away.

That night I went over to Kie’s house, feeling guilty. She was the only who knows how much JJ breaking up with me actually killed me. I wasn’t a very emotionally expressive person, but a few days after our breakup, I broke down. I don’t cry often and I especially don’t cry in front of others, but Kie witnessed it all. I sat in her room on the floor and listened to her talk about the Pogues. She told me they missed me and wanted me back. She told me JJ’s been weird since we broke up, but I didn’t want to hear it.

“I’m going to midsummers,” I said quietly.

“What?” she asked. She smiled at the idea of me being there, but she didn’t understand why I was saying. “How? You’d have to be asked by a kook and…”

“Exactly,” I said. Her sentence drifting off like that means she caught on. She stared at me with a confused look. “Rafe Cameron asked me.”

“Y’n!” she yelled in shock. “You’re going to Midsummer’s with Rafe Cameron?”

“Yeah,” I said quietly. There was no emotion in my voice. I stared ahead with a black face. “He approached me at work. He ran his thumb over my bottom lip. He reminded me of JJ.”

“Y/n…” Kie said.

“Kie, he’s not coming back,” I said, finally I could feel tears in my eyes. I blinked them away and swallowed hard, clenching my fists while I did it. “Maybe it’s time I move on.”

I didn’t stay long after I told her. I went home, but when I got there I could leave my car. I hated it here. I was the middle of five kids. No one cared when I came or when I went. My dad was a workaholic and my mom was an alcoholic. I was the child they didn’t remember. I forced myself to go in and fell on the couch. I didn’t really have a room here anymore, so this was the best spot I could be.

When the morning light filtered through the blinds, I groaned. It was too early for me to want to get up. I forced myself though and went to the kitchen, grabbing myself some breakfast. I cracked opened a few eyes and threw them in a pan.

“Nice of you to come home,” my dad said. “We knew you’d get hungry.”

“That’s not why I’m home, dad,” I said. He just sighed and walked out the door. I pretended that didn’t hurt. I finished my breakfast and walked into my old room. My clothes were still in the closet, even though it was now my youngest sisters room. I grabbed something cute and changed in the bathroom quickly. I couldn’t remember the last time I wore this shirt. I couldn’t remember the last time I put on makeup or did my hair. Here I was though.

I left my house early. I didn’t want to be there when my mom woke up. I walked around town, trying to think of something to take my mind off of everything. It was probably no later than 10am when I finally felt bored. I parked by The Wreck and got out. I thought I would come back and eat some lunch before I met Rafe, but he would find me before I got that chance.

I was walking around carelessly when I heard a bike come up behind me. It stopped next to me and Rafe off his helmet. I watched him smile for what seemed like the first time. He always a smirk, but today his smile seemed wholesome.

“You’re up early,” he said. “Want to get a head start on shopping? Let’s go catch the ferry.”

He tossed his helmet to me and I smiled. This wasn’t my first time on a bike. I put the helmet on and hopped on the back. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and leaned against him. Memories of JJ came rushing back as we took off.

I was scared. I had never been on a motorcycle before. I stared at him with a nervous smile. He got off the bike and walked over to me. He cupped my face in his hands and stared into my soul. I could feel him brush his thumbs over my cheeks affectionately. He kissed my forehead and the biggest smile spread across my face. He made me so happy.

“There’s no reason to be scared,” he said. I placed my hand over one of his that cupped my face. I closed my eyes and nodded. He got onto the bike and held the helmet out to me. I slipped it on my head before hopping on the bike beside him. I wrapped my arms around him and leaned against his back. The adrenaline filled me as we took off, but love was the only thing that I felt that day.

We got to the ferry and Rafe helped me off the bike. I wondered to myself what I was doing, but this was a great distraction from everything. We boarded the ship and he put his arm around me as we sat down. I moved uncomfortably away and looked at him.

“There’s one thing I don’t get,” I said. “Why did you ask a pogue to Midsummers? You hate pogues.”

“I couldn’t take my eyes off you,” he said. “Maybe it’s time I rebelled.”

“You rebel all the time,” I muttered.

“Yet, I’m still invisible to my dad,” he said. My head snapped towards him. This was the first real thing Rafe had ever said to me. It almost made me understand him a little more. I smiled at him and he looked back at me. We were silent the rest of the boat ride over.

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