#criminal minds 5x9

[frankiebirds]

[only-one-brain-cell]

WHY IS SPENCER IN THE FIELD??? HE CAN STILL BARLY WALK.

[pathologicalreid]

I WORKED THE CASE, DADDY. JUST LIKE YOU SAID.

[mvtthewdaddarios]

Criminal Minds 5x9

[hotchfiles]

day after tomorrow ― phoebe bridgers // criminal minds 5x9

“He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.”

― Friedrich Nietzsche

[jqmalikhsgib]

blue skies

chapter:one

note: holy shit this probably won’t be as good as the original i wrote! i cannot believe tumblr fucked me! starting over. haley and aaron relationship is far more toxic in this fic. (not haley’s fault because she’s a saint!) aaron is a bit of a dick in the past (you’ll see why once i re—fucking—write the story thanks to tumblr you bitch 😩) haley and aaron separate around season two and divorce in the beginning of season three. this chapter focuses on 5x10. so yes, it will be haley’s funeral in the beginning so trigger warning for sadness!! foyet will be mentioned. 5x9 will be kinda mentioned as well so again, sadness! hopefully tumblr won’t delete this as well or i swear ill cry 😢

aaron is 43

reader is 33

also: i do not own any of the criminal minds dialogue (obviously) i will be using a few for this story! credit to the criminal minds writers!

you groan as your alarm goes off. you knew you needed to wake before your three year old daughter comes barging into your room and whining. you simply shut your alarm off before slowly lifting your body.

after finishing up your morning routine you head to the kitchen to make breakfast for your princess. you suddenly hear tiny little feet coming towards you. when you look down there was you daughter. she had the biggest brown eyes. her signature scowl on her face. one you knew she inherited from her father.

you smile before turning the stove off and lifting her. she rest her head on your shoulders. her sippy cup clutched to her hand.

“how’d you sleep, baby?”

“good, mamma! what’s for beakfast?” she still had a bit of a hard time pronouncing her ‘r’s.’

“just some eggs. you hungry, bug?” she nods her head simply. you smile before setting her down in her high chair and setting a small plate of eggs in front of her. she grabs her fork with her tiny hand and stuffs her mouth. you smile as you sit right beside her, coffee cup in your hand.

you turn on the news to see if it’s perfect weather for a park day. you knew how much lizzy loved park days on your day off.

your eyes widened when you see a photo of aaron on the screen. you turn the volume up and listen.

“…ley hotchner, wife of fbi agent aaron hotchner was murdered three night ago in their home by the boston reaper, george foyet…” your heart broke for aaron.

despite how much he broke your heart three year ago you still loved him. your best friend didn’t understand why. aaron had ended things with you the night you found out you were pregnant and blocked your number.

he told you he couldn’t love you. you were meant to be a distraction from his life. you lived thousands of miles away from him and he had a family. he told you that he could never be with you because haley will always mean more. that broke you into pieces. after almost two years of sex, cuddles, date night, jewelry you never asked for, and silent ‘i love yous.’ you were never gonna be her. you never blamed haley. you’re almost certain she didn’t know about you.

but when aaron and haley had been separated for awhile, aaron visit your small town in texas for a case, and many many tequila shots once said case was solved, you’d been wrapped in aaron’s arms.

at first you just wanted fun and casual. he was ten years older than you, tall, sexy, and fun. you didn’t expect to fall in love with the fbi agent.

but over time he visited more, he took you to the fanciest places he could find in your small town, sometimes you didn’t even have sex. you just talked and fell asleep in each others arms.

neither of you really knowing what this was. you didn’t wanna bring it up in case it was in your head. but you needed to know when you found out you were pregnant. you asked him what you were and if this was going somewhere.

aaron simply shook his head that night. he stepped back from you and broke your heart, “you and i were nothing more than fun. tell me you understand that yn? tell me you aren’t falling in love? because i cannot love you when i have a family of my own. a wife and a son!”

you had yelled at him stating she’s divorced him. she was no longer his wife. he had to move on. it had been almost a year since the divorce. but he simply shook his head, told you never to call again, and left.

you took his advice for a while. not contacting him for your whole pregnancy. but when you finally brought elizabeth to the world, you thought he should know about her. when you tried calling you’d realized he blocked your number.

your best friend hated aaron since that moment. she’d been the only family you had helped you raise the sweet little girl!

despite your best friends wishes you still gave her his last name.

“mamma?”

you break out of your trance and look over at your daughter.

“we going to the pawk today?”

you look back up at the weather channel and hum softly. “absolutely, bug!”

aaron clears he throat. he looks around to see his team and all of his and haley’s friends and family. he wasn’t sure he was able to do this.

he looks over and sees his ex father-in-law glaring at him. he didn’t blame him. haley’s death was his fault.

aaron opens up the folded piece of paper before he looks down and begins reading,

“w. s. gilbert wrote ‘it’s love that makes the world go round.’ and if that’s true, then the world spun a little faster with haley in it. haley was my best friend since we were in high school. we certainly had our struggles but if there’s one thing we agreed on unconditionally, it was our love and commitment to jack.” aaron continues his speak as everyone watched him.

you can see the grief of the man’s face. he was trying to hold it in for his son. as he finished the speech everyone tries to do their best to comfort him how they can. haley’s father and sister rest a single rose on her casket. aaron and jack were the last ones to do so. jack blows a kiss to his mom one final time before aaron walks away from his wife with his son in arms.

after the funeral everyone was gathered around. people were chatting and giving their condolences to aaron. he simply nods his head thanking everyone who passed by.

david walks over to aaron with two glasses. “i think you could use some air. i saw him with his cousins.”

aaron looks at his son before turning to his ex sister-in-law.

“could you make sure jack gets something to eat?”

jess simply nods as aaron follows behind dave. dave and aaron pass the team.

“you know i broke my promise to haley.”

“what promise?”

“i told her i would catch foyet and that i’d spend the rest of my life making it up to her.”

“you still can. you saved jack.”

aaron sighs before looking over at his son. he sees jess hand him a sandwich.

“you know, i may have the tools to do this job, but i don’t know if i have the tools to help my son.”

“you have to ask yourself, what kind of father you want to be. and when you figure that out. then you’ll know what to do.”

aaron hums. he looks down and plays with the end of his fingertips.

“i meant what i said today. things have changed. and i need to do what’s best for jack.”

dave nods softly. “you will.”

after spending an hour at the park you pick your daughter up gently. she was already exhausted. you smiled as she rest her head on your shoulders.

“mamma?”

“yes, baby?” you set her in her car seat.

“may we have ice cweam today?” she gives you these innocent bug eyes. it’s why you gave her the nickname ‘bug.’ she was too adorable for her own good!

“hmm, maybe! depends if you eat all your veggies tonight.” you shut the back door before getting in the drivers seat.

“i will. pwomise, mamma!” she smiles at you

you smile right back. your heart warming every time you see it. when you arrived home you spot your best friend, and roommate, shoes by the front door.

you were glad she’s home. she’d been on a business trip. gone for a week. you’d miss her.

you knew lizzy missed her as well. she’d ask almost every hour when her auntie jane was coming home.

“jane?!” you call out your best friends name. your daughter gasped. jane soon makes an appearance and smiles widely at you and lizzy.

“is that my favorite lizard?!” jane scoops your daughter up.

“janey!”

“lizzy!”

“miss you so much!” she gave jane a sloppy kiss on the cheek. jane return the favor.

“i miss you too, lizard! thought about you everyday, bug!”

your daughter giggles before jane sets her down.

“mamas gonna get dinner started, baby. why don’t you go and play a little?”

“kay, mamma.” she runs to her room. jane fills you in on the details of her trip. you both worked for a big tech company. you hated your jobs! but it was the best paying job you found. most of it was just sucking up to your bosses. they were the average sleaze bags who sexually harassed you even though they had wife and kids at home. you’d simply ignore it. you were great at your job.

you had plenty of ideas that were obviously stolen from you by your boss and told at conference rooms where the ceos would listen. since you were just an assistant it wasn’t much you could do.

“he made you share a room with him?!”

“yes! ive never been so quick to head to the creepy motel across the street! id rather rats and roaches crawl all over me than james.” she makes a face.

you laugh.

“he needs to be fired. who does something like that?” you shake your head as you finished up dinner.

“i know! we’re both smarter and more capable than james and martin! fire them and give us the high paying jobs!” jane grabs two plates for you and a smaller plate for her god-daughter.”

you hum in agreement. you fill your daughters plate up first.

“ill grab her.”

you wash your hands as jane washes both hers and elizabeths hands. you set your daughter down in her high chair before sitting in between her and jane.

the three of you enjoy your dinner. once finished you grab three small bowls and add ice cream to them.

“since you were such a big girl bug, you get ice cream!”

your daughter does a small little dance in her high chair. you coo at her cuteness. she truly was the light of your life.

once you were done with your ice cream you got ready for bed. when you finished bathing your daughter you lie her in her bed and read her a bedtime story.

“goodnight, bug.”

“night, mamma.” she falls asleep soon after. you take your own shower right after.

when you’re done you hear your phone ring. you frown at the unknown caller id. you decide to ignore it. resting your body on your bed. your phone begins to ring once more.

another unknown caller. you sigh before answering.

“yn?”

you knew that voice. you’d recognized it from anywhere.

“aaron?”

[brutal-out-here]

Well finished rewatching 5x9 of Criminal Minds

[vroomvroommuppett]

no one asked for it, but as i’ve been going down a criminal minds rabbit hole, i am going to list off the seasons and their episodes i skip and the reason. please send an ask if you want me to go deeper as to why i don’t watch that episode.

also some spoilers

season one

1x18-somebody’s watching (amber heard-need i say more?)

season two

2x11-sex, birth, death (just not a favorite)

2x14 (tobias hankel)

2x15 (same as above)

season three

3x1-doubt (just not a favorite)

3x12-3rd life (lindsay vaughn)

3x16-elephant’s memory (ending)

3x20-lo-fi (just not a favorite)

season four

4x1-mayhem (not a favorite)

4x3-minimal loss (not a favorite)

4x6-the instincts (not a favorite)

4x7-memoriam (not a favorite)

4x14-cold comfort (didn’t like the plot)

4x15-zoe’s reprise (same as above)

4x24-amplification (reid almost dies)

4x25-to hell…and back (pigs-need i say more)

season five

5x8-outfoxed (start of sad hotch)

5x9-100 (sad hotch)

5x23-our darkest hour (don’t like the plot)

season six

all of it (didn’t like plots, seaver, emily dies)

season seven

7x1-it takes a village (not a fan of the plot)

7x2-proof (the jj and reid scene-more on this in my anti jj/anti jeid post)

7x7-there’s no place like home (don’t like plot)

7x8-hope (don’t like plot)

7x22-profiling 101 (idk)

7x23-hit (idk just can’t watch it)

7x24-run (same as above)

season eight

any maeve ones (more reid trauma that he really doesn’t need)

8x8-the wheels on the bus (plot)

8x10-the lesson (need to be in right mindset)

8x23-brothers hotchner (not a fan of the replicator)

8x24-the replicator (same as above)

season nine

9x12-the black queen (don’t like the plot)

9x14-200 (anti jj)

9x23-angels (reid almost dies)

9x24-demons (same as above)

season ten

10x3-a thousand suns (fear of plane crashes)

10x11-the forever people (i skip the reid confronts jj scene, but other than that i like it)

10x13-nelson’s sparrow (more reid trauma)

10x14-hero worship (idk i just can’t watch it)

season eleven

11x7-target rich (don’t like plot)

11x9-internal affairs (plot confuses me)

11x11-entropy (beginning of the cat adams arc, will watch last scene though of reid and derek at his house)

11x18-a beautiful disaster (morgan leaves)

season twelve

12x9-12x22 (prison arc and events leading up to it)

season thriteen

13x1-wheels up (only for the cringy “wheels up” scene-will watch rest of episode)

13x9-false flag (don’t like plot)

13x13-13x16 (assistant director linda barnes)

13x19-ex parte (don’t like plot)

13x22-believer (more reid trauma-only like first five seconds)

season fourteen

14x1-300 (give reid a break from trauma)

14x5-the tall man (need to be in right mindset)

14x6-luke (idk i just can’t watch it)

14x7-twenty seven (same as above)

14x8-ashley (same as above and plot kinda confused me)

14x9-broken wing (idk just can’t watch it)

14x10-flesh and blood (didn’t need a follow up to 3x2)

14x13-chameleon (start of chameleon arc)

14x14-sick and evil (idk just can’t watch it)

14x15-truth or dare (THE CONFESSION)

season fifteen

all of it (post j*id confession)

thank you for coming to my ted talk

[inkyyasteroid]

no i cant go in to work today i just watched 5x9 of criminal minds

[spencer-reids-adventures]

1x1 extreme aggressor // 3x3 scared to death // 5x9 100 // 12x13 spencer

[frankiebirds]

s05e09 - 100

s02e15 - revelations

[only-one-brain-cell]

He is dooooone

“Yes ma’am” 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄😑😑😑

[ssamorganhotchner]

So I really love 100 mainly because of the pure simple emotions of Derek, Emily, and David when they're watching Aaron beat Foyet to death I mean it seems really simple but at the same time beautiful and kind of complex.

You got Emily there she's just Frozen still fear her face doesn't change for a long time I mean she's literally like a deer caught in the headlights. She's never seen Aaron quite like that before.

David he just kind of watches and let's Aaron do what he wants to do. Not because he's uncaring or anything like that he's just letting Aaron get out his anger and whatever else he's feeling at time so he's letting him go.

Derek on the other hand he's really worried about Aaron and he's really afraid that Aaron might hurt himself. So he jumps into action and pretty much tackle hugs him without any hesitation it was just I don't know beautiful scene

Thoughts under the cut because it got long. Heheh whoops (:

I love 100 but I have to say I can't watch it again. I've watched it twice (and I've seen the entire series about 4 times), but i just can't watch it again unless I'm in desperate need of a good cry. It's so heartbreaking.

I think most if not all the team knows why he did it. It's shocking to see him do that (even to the viewers) but we all know why. The look on Derek's face when he has to pull Hotch off of Foyet is something I'll never forget. The fight itself was insane to watch, but watching him beat the hell out of Foyet until he is dead? I don't have words for that. And then when he hovers over Haley and holds her lifeless body in his hands ? That is one of the saddest moments in this show imo.

Between his father beating him when he was a child, the cases he deals with on a daily basis, the divorce, and Haley taking Jack, the writers really said "lets make him even more traumatized" and made his life a living hell.

My favorite part of that entire episode is when Strauss is interviewing the team, more specifically, Emily and Dave. The way Emily says "ma'am," will forever have a hold on me. It's so cocky and she is so annoyed, but on paper, it looks fine. So if any of the big wigs were to look over that interview, everything would look normal. Then of course, Dave being on his phone and not interested at all in what Strauss has to say because he knows Aaron did what he had to do in order to save Jack. <3

I love it so much

[deaddpoet]

[hotchfiles]

not now sweetie mommy is screencapping criminal minds 5x9 100 so she can make a sad af webweave post

[queeraaronhotchner]

spencer reid in 5x09– 100