#convo || jax

[privmaxie]

jax beiste -> tag dump

[gen-toon]

[privmaxie]

Look if anyone knows the compelling power of song, it's you Broadway man. Just get a ring doorbell so you can see who it is, and if not just send them my dad's way, he always has a flask of hot coco and some candy canes waiting for carolers by the door, he loves them

Open Starter

If I have one request to make this holiday it’s to please refrain from caroling at my door. The last thing I need to hear is a gaggle of people with no music experience singing off pitch, truly nothing makes my ears bleed more. And that’s saying something considering I’ve helped direct musicals for high schools.

[acevity]

man this company IS pretty lethal huh.

i am full of a lot of thoughts about them in lethal company. so many. like pomni being a designated ship bitch bc not only is she good at it but they cant trust anyone else on comms. zooble dipping out all the time via death just to avoid having to do anything ever. and also being stolen by the lootbugs and baboon hawks CONSTANTLY. they gang up on jax to lead him to snare fleas just to shut him up, otherwise he shouts and attracts the eyeless dogs. god.

[dragon-spaghetti]

TADC SPOILERS //

I KNEW I WASNT CRAZY HE LOOKS UPSET DURING THE FUNERAL MENTION BEFORE WALKING OFF. END ME

[modgirlyreposts-revamped]

Out of all the episodes I wasn't expecting this one to make me think about Yandere!Caine this much

[privmaxie]

Incredible, thanks Kurt! The kids won't be back for another week yet, but just let me now when you're free and I can swing by and open it up, I need to tidy it a bit anyway. The holidays were great, any excuse to eat way too much food at dad's place honestly, exactly the way I needed to end the year. How were your holidays? Rumour has is it you guys had a little something extra to celebrate this year... dinner would be amazing, I'll check my calendar

Great! I'll drop them off. How were your holidays? We should get dinner sometime and catch up!

[snowthedemonfox]

awful boye

[danteleept]

In here? Oh, of course. Hello there, darling. I'm Dante, it's nice to meet you.

[handsmotif]

ponytown is fun bc it gives me the same kind of nostalgic feeling i'd get going on sites like club penguin and making friends on there as a kid. dress up as a character you like and find someone else dressing up as someone from the same media and its like you get to play on the playground together

[privmaxie]

He's such a cutie, I love him!!! I'm in deep with dress rehearsals this week for BW, the show goes on on Friday evening and runs all weekend, so I don't think I'll have time this week to come over, but you guys are welcome to come to the show, I'll even get you backstage access!! Also, my lips are sealed, even if I'm super excited for him to get his dog, what kind are you getting???

** private**

@privmaxie (asher & jax) I swear Jasper loves you more than me, he keeps asking when he is next going to see you. So when are you next coming over? Also update on the dog situation, I am surprising Jasper with one for Christmas, so please don't tell him anything if you come over before Christmas!

[starrysmiling]

on fern and romance...

in one of the new scenes in steps v2, i have fresia tease fern about how they would be a great couple because of how comfortable he looks when he's with jax, and how he even willingly laughs and smiles, but fern argues that he doesn't like jax the same way:

...and it was really interesting to make this stand out while writing this scene, because there are several instances where i've made fern say that he's close with jax, he cares about him, or that he likes being around him:

at this point it was kinda a recurring joke between mage and i to say "and fern still says he doesn't like jax! even though he's like this with him!" but we dug a little into it, and it feels like we accidentally made all the clues point to one thing:

despite his observant nature and how much the reader can tell he obviously cares about jax, fern being unable to recognise his own feelings is because he only knows how to recognise signs of romance when they're physically expressed.

because, if you think about it, you don't really get to see the internal aspects of showing interest in someone when you observe other people. even in media, there's a lot of cases where you're shown physical external signs of attraction/romance, and that's why fern can recognise flirting, or how someone talks to someone they like, or the way jax looks at him like he deserves the world... that's exactly why he can tell that jax is in love with him, because jax wears his heart on his sleeve and is far too easy to read.

but he doesn't know any of the internal tells, which he's starting to show. and of course, fern doesn't express any of these physical signs, because he's a fucker who won't express vulnerability. this isn't really helped at all by the fact that fern doesn't have that many close friends to compare his relationships with, and that the line between the close friendship he has with jax and possible romance is very blurred, especially when he knows that jax is romantically interested in him.

it's only later (which i'll address in a different fic) that fern sorts out his feelings and what they mean, because at that point he's having a crisis over having kissed jax at the end of steps, knowing that it's a romantic gesture, knowing that jax took it as a reciprocation of his feelings, because he still doesn't think he likes jax but every fucking fibre of his body is screaming that he hates the idea of rejecting jax, for a multitude of reasons including that he doesn't want to see jax all broken up, he doesn't want to be the one who hurt him, and also his fear of abandonment is making him think that jax will just straight up cut him out of his life. and the conclusion he gets from that is that he wishes he was in love with jax, while being completely unaware that he's been walking down that path for a while now.

(which is funny, because afterwards, when he's finally sure that what he feels for jax is romantic love, he's down so bad that he's even worse than jax. fern loves and loves and loves and he cares so much but he just needs to recognise what it is.)

(one other thing i love about fern and his journey with romance is that he realises he loves jax when they're sitting together watching tv and he thinks that he likes it. that he could have more of this. that he is genuinely happy to sit next to jax and make snide comments about the shitty plotlines of tv dramas and maybe rest his cheek on jax's shoulder while he does so. jax gives him comfort and a space where he can shed himself of everything weighing on his shoulders while still being his rival and best friend and someone that fern respects with all his heart. it's no wonder that fern loves him so much.)

[skittikyu]

my friends need to stop being funnier than me /lh

[moreferarum]

" well , " jax breathed , " i'm gonna head out now if anyone needs a ride but like after i grab a plate for home . " jax didn't travel over here to not at least get something out of it . @morendodifame

[ravensjax]

for: closed for @drailcdx location: outside the lone wolf bar/lounge

The Lone Wolf. Glancing up at the neon sign flashing above his head, Jax chuckled to himself at the irony before pulling a cigarette from his pack. Placing the orange tip between his lips, the wolf produced a lighter from his other pocket, lighting the cigarette quickly and taking a deep drag. He'd been a patron at the bar for many years, as had his father, and he'd been here pounding back drinks for the past hour. For the moment he'd been cut off, though he was pretty positive he could sweet talk tonight's bartender into a few more drinks after his cigarette. As the wind blew, he caught a whiff of an unfamiliar scent, something that didn't often happen. Turning, he laid eyes on one of the best looking women he'd seen in some time, and he cocked an eyebrow as he watched her approach. "Hey there good lookin'. You out lookin' for some trouble to get into tonight?"

[tcmbcy]

closed starter for: @poetsprophecy

"what's it gonna take to get you to actually come back to dallas with me one of these days and catch a stars game?" jaxon spoke as he sat next to wyatt with a smile plastered on his face. wyatt was one of his close friends that he made a point to meet up with any time he was in california for work meetings. "i'll put you and your little one in my box so you'll have the best view of the ice."