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august 26, 2021 4:00 a.m. seoul

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[tokyokookmin]

𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘵 𝘢 𝘨𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 - 𝘵𝘰𝘬𝘺𝘰𝘬𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘮𝘪𝘯

Today marks the last page of the year, the 12 chapters of this year, ends today. What a year this was, wasn't it?

Before I start gabbing about my blog, let's converse about how this year has been, difficult and stressful, am I right? I know it has been an extremely difficult time this year. Many of you guys have told me stories about your situations and I feel grateful that I can be a source of help and comfort for at least a few people. Stay safe and take care of your mental health.

A few months ago, I decided to open my own blog to convey my opinion and understanding about jikook, to defend as well to support their relationship. My adventure here has been bitter-sweet. There has been high's and low's here, I spent hours writing and interacting with anons and users. I absolutely loved it! I wouldn't want to bring the negative side that I have been through here to 2022, it's a new year, a new chapter, new memories. Only positive energy! ☺

*sobbing while tuning into 'story of my life, missing one direction hours open lol 😔*

I would also love ❤ to express my admiration and respect for a few bloggers that I have been following and reading for a year now. (i don't really tag y'all since it would disturb you guys but not today ahaaa)

@akookminsupporter - the first blogger that amazed me with her comprehension and support for jikook. The sole blogger who stood up against haters and gave them a befitting reply to them with solid proof. If not for you creating this blog, most of us wouldn't really exist. xx. ♡

@kanmom51 - the second blogger I knew, a blogger who is continuously providing interactive and heartwarming jikook content. We can't forget her love for analysis! *coughs*; QUEEN OF SARCASM LMAO. I bonded with her the most during my journey here, a true pure-hearted blogger and a mother figure to me <3 ilysm kanmom. ♡

@stormblessed95 - definitely have read all of her posts, you'll find a complete guide to jikook. I love the way you write and the way you construct your post! I truly appreciate your dedication to your platform, you got a lot to handle! xo. ♡

special shout-out to : @lehanary @herdestinydream ♥ thank you for being the most supportive and active readers. ily. ♡

Also to the members of our tiny chat group

Part 2 of sobbing 😭

Thank you, everyone, who has been reading my posts on a daily basis, you have made this platform grow. Thank you for the overwhelming love. I surely will continue to blog, might be slowing down. xx

Cheers 🥂 to 2022! Thank you for the happy year BTS 💝

[chamelis]

tag game 💐

thank u so much leo for tagging me @leojov 🥺💕

(there are many of these pending for me to do, i promise i will do all the tags ppl have tagged me in! tumblr tends to be a bitch and delete my posts as soon as i post them so ive lost a lot of the tag games I've done:( but i will do them again bc ily all💕)

nickname: anj

zodiac sign: aries

height: 5'2/around 160cm

hogwarts house: hufflepuff

last thing i googled: "XLI roman numerals in numbers"

fav musicians: oh boy,, svt, tobi lou, mamamoo, nct, bts, mx, atz, rv, twice, exo, chungha, zico, crush, lizzo, satica, niki, p!atd, and a lot lot more

song stuck in my head: 'soulmate' by lizzo (mainly just the instrumental bit at the very beginning lol)

following: 584 lol

followers: 105

do i get asks: the occasional one, from very very sweet ppl who ask me how im doing (usually @boogerines bc she is the sweetest)

amount of sleep: 6-7 hrs on school nights, 8ish on the weekends

what are you wearing: navy jeans and a baby blue flowy long-sleeve top with this silk top with spaghetti straps on top lmao (like a vest/apron but make it cute)

dream job: a therapist? a professor/teacher? an academic writer? maybe all three lol jk

dream trip: oh my gosh, i have so many. i really want to tour asia - mainly Singapore, Indonesia, Hong Kong, Japan and Korea. i also want to see more of europe, Greece and Italy and Portugal (basically the whole world lol)

instruments: violin! i play to a pretty high standard if i do say so myself, this probably means nothing to non-British ppl but im working at grade 7 level (theres 8 grades, above grade 8 is like diploma/university level). i also play the piano, at grade 6 level, and like to sing + strum the ukulele with that, teaching myself chords online lol.

languages: english, telugu (a south indian language, my mother tongue), enough german to introduce myself and a bit of korean and hindi

10 songs in no particular order:

• let's get lost - sophiya, dawn

• son of a gun - satica, sakima

• move! - niki

• back it up - seventeen

• i wish i missed my ex - mahalia

• late night - loco, gray

• martini blue - dpr live

• lucky - seventeen

• water me - lizzo

• game ova - tobi lou

(the first 10 that came on shuffle from my spotify playlist "if you were my boyfriend" if you're interested)

random fact: I've been in the same coffee shop for 3 hours now

my aesthetic: sunny afternoons, iced coffee & sweet treats, the sound of rain late at night, pages of a book turning, white wine or rosé and piano jazz, gold jewellery, pastels and warm tones, sunflowers, deep conversations in a car with foggy windows driving on the motorway while its dark, romance movies/political comedy series on netflix

tagging: anybody who reads this! 💐

[babyboyuto]

rules: answer these 83 statements about yourself, then tag 13 people

tagged by @wooseok; I get so excited when people tag me in stuff! mwah 💋 ily

tagging: @jellybeanmulti @adachiyoujinjin @marcus-lee9 @peachyunz @nakamotens @kristian-do @cheolshu @3ten @renjunchokingnct @headbandmark @ihatewhites @spearbin @yeosprout

last

1. drink - Dr Pepper 

2. phone call -domino’s lol

3. text message - faith  

4. song you listened to - I Smile by Day6

5. time you cried - a couple days ago while watching meteor garden oof

ever

6. dated someone twice? - yes

7. kissed someone and regretted it - yes

8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - no I don't drink

fave colours

12. black

13. rosy pink

14. yellow

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes

16. fallen out of love - no

17. laughed until you cried - no 

18. found out someone was talking about you - no

19. met someone who changed you - yes

20. found out who your friends are - you mean my one friend 

21. kissed someone on your facebook friend list - no lol facebook??

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - I don't really use facebook anymore, so I'll use instagram instead. I'd say I know about half of my followers, so about 500?? (follow me on instagram @/ellabensen)

23. do you have any pets - yes! a dog (he’s 13) and a kitty (he’s 9) 

24. do you want to change your name - no I love my name 

25. what did you do for your last birthday - slept until 2 pm and went to dinner with my fam

26. what time did you wake up today - 8 ! too early!!

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - watching a bts universe compilation, trying to figure it out 

28. what is something you can’t wait for - going to college! this Saturday!!

30. what are you listening to right now - my “all time faves” playlist: All This And Heaven Too by Florence + the Machine (follow me on Spotify @/ellaaben)

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - I mean yeah but not like TALKED, like I've conversed with someone named tom 

32. something that gets on your nerves - ignorance

33. most visited website - youtube

34. hair color - dirty blonde/light brown

35. long or short hair - long

36. do you have a crush on someone - no

37. what do you like about yourself - my intelligence and my legs 

38. want any piercings? - I want more on my ears

39. blood type - B neg 

40. nicknames - El, E, Bean

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - Leo sun, sag moon, pisces rising 

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - meteor garden, the office, avatar

45. tattoos - not yet but soon!

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - no

48. piercings - ears are double pierced 

49. sport - did cheer in high school

50. vacation - love Hawaii, want to visit tokyo or some island idk

51. trainers - I'm guessing this is talking about shoes so high tops

more general

52. eating - Hawaiian pizza

53. drinking - nothing. I am parched. 

54. i’m about to watch - new meteor garden episodes

55. waiting for - dream comeback :)

56. want - new clothes

57. get married - I don't think it matters when, whenever you're ready. I’d rather focus on my career than try to marry before a certain age 

58. career - international business operations 

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - kisses

60. lips or eyes - lips

61. shorter or taller - TALLER 

62. older or younger - older

63. nice arms or stomach - stomach

64. hookup or relationship - relationship but hookups are nice too

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - no

67. drank hard liquor - no

68. lost glasses - no

69. turned someone down - yes lol rip joey sorry I didn't go to prom with u 

70. sex on first date - maybe? depends on if you're comfortable 

71. broken someone’s heart - yikes yes I've broken up with every boyfriend I’ve ever had 

72. had your heart broken - no

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - in like middle school so it doesn't really count

do you believe in

76. yourself - YES

77. miracles - no 

78. love at first sight - yes (I guess this is a miracle but I'm a hopeless romantic and a cynic)

79. santa claus - no

80. kiss on a first date - yee

81. angels - no I'm atheist 

other

82. best friend’s name - sammi

83. eye color - blueeee

84. fave movie - we bought a zoo lmao

85. fave actor - I don't really have one? I love going to see movies and watching movies but i’m not invested enough to care about actors

[ringdingjjongs]

shinee: 10, 15, 18, 20; bts: 3, 6, 10

thank you izaak!!! ily!!!

shinee

10. Favorite music video?

tell me what to do lmao

15. What’s a concept you would like to see them try?

wifing me up :(

18. Your favorite title track?

lucifer

20. Favorite live performance?

i’m FAKE aka i don’t have one

bts

3. Who’s your bias wrecker?

yoongi ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

6. Your favorite song and why?

converse high bc it’s stupid just like me

10. Favorite music video?

uuuhhhh not today i guess!!

send me a kpop group and a number!

[specialwonho]

30 Song Challenge

tagged by @heoniebun​​!! thank you ily

im going to do this bc it seems fun and with the aid of my spotify tyvm,, ik theres a few repetitive but this was so difficult to not include chinese songs. chinese songs are the #1 emo songs ever tbh

Rules: answer all questions then tag 3 people you follow and 3 people that follow you that you want to get to know better. 

1. a song you like with a color in the title?

red - hyuna a bop!!1

2. a song you like with a number in the title?

from zero - mx AKA BEST SONG OF THE CENTURY

3. a song that reminds you of summer?

touch my body - sistar :”)

4. a song that reminds you of a close friend?

spring day - bts

5. a song that needs to be played out loud?

fallin’ - mx

6. a song that makes you want to dance?

astronomia - vicetone

7. a song to drive to?

a thousand miles - vanessa carlton MAKING MY WAY DOWNTOWN

8. a random song you just think of?

i love you - barney FSKJFDKS

9. a song that makes you happy?

my flower - jbj HIPS DONT LIE

10. a song that makes you sad?

diphylleia grayi - jonghyun

11. a song you will never get tired of?

stuck - mx  neoegeman jipchakhae wiheomhajin anha so baby don’t worry

12. a song from your past?

what the hell - avril lavigne did avril lavigne die in 2003 and get replaced by a body double?!?!!??

13. a song that’s sexy?

body - mino

14. a song you’d love to be played at your wedding?

????????????????????????????

15. a song you’re currently obsessed with?

fallin’ - mx hello best track on the connect

16. a song you used to love but now hate?

i hate 97% of the songs i used to love bc i heard it so many times and im tired of them....

17. a song you’d sing a duet with at karaoke?

i dont want to live forever - zayn & taylor swift screaming the hell out of the high notes yes

18. a song that makes you miss someone?

something that you left - wh3n

19. a song that makes you think about life?

til it happens to you - lady gaga

20. a song that has many meanings to you?

man’s not hot - big shaq so inspiring 2+2 = 4 omg

21. a song you think everyone should listen to?

mine - bazzi bcs you so fuckin precious when you smile

22. a song by a group you still wish was together?

why so lonely - wonder girls :”((

23. a song that makes you want to fall in love?

white love - mx

24. a song that breaks your heart?

before our spring - jonghyun

25. a song with amazing vocals?

serendipity - jimin

26. a song with amazing rap?

stuck - mx JOOHEONS RAP GOES OFF

27. a song that makes you smile?

converse high - bts

28. a song that makes you feel good about yourself?

this is me - keala settle

29. a song that you would dedicate to you and your best friend/mutual/someone close to you?

there for you - troye & martin garrix

30. a song that reminds you of yourself?

tell me what to do - shinee

tagging @if-on1y, @yookihyunsvoice, @nottechae, @mi-nhyuk, @monstopx, @buttbebe !!

[settle4half]

can you answer like.. all of those aesthetic questions??

(YOU KNOW ILY RIGHT - also under a read more for those who want to know me better i guess)

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

yesterday, bc the new bts album came out and i was humming anpanman ~

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

there’s no question of truthfulness that i want to know the answer of.

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

i was born on the same day/year as jungkook from bts. i’m still alive.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

wow, idk?? spending a chill afternoon with one of my best friend? supporting her??

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

i would drop out of university, get a loan from a bank and travel the rest of the year.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

visit another country this year, pass all my exams this session, get a job during summer.

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

one of the most hard-working, talented and good people i know. literally the prettiest person, very understanding and loving and supportive. being around her literally puts my soul at ease. very funny, nerd-ish in the best way possible of the term, living too far-away from me, wish i could always hug her and kiss her puffy cheeks. she made me who i am today.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

not really, when i think back, it’s generally the bad thing that comes to mind; i was a very lonely child well into my teenage years, and my relation with my parents only recently became good enough to call myself pleased as well. it could have been WAY worse, so i’d say it was just okay.

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

yesterday, of frustration.

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

my friend (soul sister really) carmela whose @ i don’t know anymore bc i’m a mess on tumblr. she loves the stars, she knows the stars, and it’d be the most magical thing in the world to be there, watch the admiration on her face, hear her explain things to me.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

sure, i’m an open book.

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

my best friends, idk, last time 3am caught us all together, maybe a couple of weeks ago.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

ugh idk, i have nothing to say to anyone.

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

I LOVE THEM i have brown eyes and i love them bc it’s either starry-eyes or melted chocolate eyes AND BOTH are magical i love brown eyes so much.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

“I have cried myself to the person I am today” bc it’s my own life journey, tbh.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

“Overcoming and accepting the wrongs of my self”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

BTS CONCERT TICKETS !!! travel!!!

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

i feel like i am!!! i can get over so many things in the name of love (of all types)!!! and i hate it bc no one actually appreciates it!!!! fuck off!!!

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

you are so damn angry all the damn time and rightfully so. you’ll go through shit for a while still, but you’ll meet people so extraordinary that you’ll cry in a bus station because you feel too blessed and happy to be met with kindness. i miss your desperate determination and resolution. you will create so much out of it and i’m so proud you made it. i know it’s not easy, it never was. you’ll change so much, i can barely recognize myself in you anymore. you’ll learn so much more. hey, regrets are piling up. but go forward, i’m waiting.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

pastel at heart, punk at exterior.

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I’D LOVE THEM ALL. i want all the piercings, and tattoos are cool but i feel pressured to find some i really love b4 getting any. i’ll eventually get both tho!~

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

depends on my mood, my general go-to make-up consists of face-cream, eye-shadow and mascara, and maybe lipstick. i barely put any face make-up bc i’m lazy, but i’d love to look on fleek all the time.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

BTS saved my life, and i’m not just dramatic when i say this. they literally help me be a better version of myself every single day.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

“Don’t break your tenderness.”

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

basically summerwell 2016/2017, i looooved the years&years performance, they were my fav band at that moment, and i cried throughout all and i just?? it’s very emotional, the kind of energy that forms in a space where you know everyone loves the same thing as you do, wow!!

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

can i be a cheese ball? bts: we see you.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

i have!! cups (one for each type of beverage) some pen holders, tissues, and that’s kind of about it ~

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

read fanfiction for 3 hours until you fall asleep.

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

don’t have such a thing.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

i’d like green at some point, but i’m quite pleased with a black bob at the moment ~

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

my 2 uni best friends, my other 2 best friends and before mentioned carmela. let’s see japan together!

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

i prefer to keep them secret until i can make them happen heheh, but you can figure them out from answers on some other questions here... oups.

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

the bed-sheets ghost.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

uhm kissed someone?

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

kill someone, but tbh i’m so desperate for money that i’d step on any other of my principles.

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

why is this question so radical omg!!! song: paradise from bts and person.... my best friend that i described (heheh sorry you got stuck with me)

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.

yeah..... with park jimin from bts, this is SO LAME but like??? i literally smile like a fool when i see his selfies and i feel my heart grow 10 times in size when i hear his voice and i just want him happy forever.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

yeah sure, and i guess i tried it, but i don’t think short hair really fits me, not with my current body proportions.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

americano, it’s not that hard, anyone can work that one out.

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

my friends and BTS.

[winetae]

⇾  city of stars | 01

⇁ female reader x yoongi ; female reader x taehyung

⇁ drama, slight angst || hollywood!au, actor!bts, enemies to lovers

⇁ 5.1k

. . .

When your childhood sweetheart packs his bags to pursue his dreams in the big city, the two of you promise to meet again once you’ve both become successful. Years later, you find yourself running to and fro auditions, desperately trying to make ends meet, while his face is plastered on every giant sized billboard in town.

↳  or; no one ever said the road to success was easy

a/n;  OR a new short series literally no one asked for

+ inspired by the movie la la land (2016) and the anime skip beat (2002) “mama didn’t raise no weak hoe, you gonna push it” – sassi’s words of wisdom and also the reason i finally finished this;; ily !!!! this is for u

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A beginning and an end—these moments bookend all your shelved romances.

Although the denouement may often vary—tears, a broken picture frame, a kiss—the origin story remains, for the most part, the same. But contrary to any of your previous encounters, Min Yoongi disrupts the familiar formula of exchanged hellos and awkward pleasantries.

Maybe it starts like this:

an ugly brown stain on your new white blouse, one iced caramel macchiato wasted.

In the movies, the guy offers his number and a free lunch to make up for his clumsiness, or gives up his hoodie to cover his mistake. The lead finds his efforts to earn forgiveness endearing, and soon enough, one date becomes two, two eventually turns to six. Somewhere along the way—between date number nine and eleven—he musters the courage to profess his love with a kiss, under the sleek blanket of a starry sky.

But this is not the movies, you are reminded, as the cold beverage clings to your skin and shirt unpleasantly.

“Motherfucker!”

It is not the most eloquent start, either.

You hope the sheer force of your glare has the power to pull an apology from his lips, but he stays still—completely indifferent to your plight.

“You should pay attention to your surroundings,” he drawls, unmoved.

Your immediate reaction is to scowl, brow creasing with indignation. If this had been any other day, you would have attempted to laugh it off because you’re no stranger to accidents. But today is D-Day: the start of pilot season and also your chance at finally landing a substantial role, something with more visibility and depth than the cheerleader #3 background character you’ve always been relegated to in the past. Today is supposed to be your ticket to stardom—the prized opportunity for your talent to finally bloom on center stage. 

But one glance down at your worn-in wristwatch and panic grips you, dousing you in a sheen of cold sweat, much more unbearable than the spray of caffeine that’s still dripping down your shirt. 

It doesn’t take a genius to figure out this blunder will affect the rest of your day. You have two casting calls to attend from noon to four and there is absolutely no way you have any time to grab a change of clothes, especially if you factor in the perpetual traffic that clogs up the city streets. Your stress level is already at an all time high, nerves taut; the stain does nothing but add on to the overwhelming queasy feeling that swells in your gut like a balloon ready to burst. How are you supposed to impress the casting directors when you look like a slob? You can already imagine the offended expressions judging you before you even have time to open your mouth and deliver your well prepared monologue. A sense of utter failure stabs you in the chest and the high hopes you had for the day come crashing down in an instant.

You’re well aware at how much your future depends on how well you do today and the thought that one stranger and a cup of coffee could compromise this opportunity is enough to frustrate you to the point of tears. Maybe if your life was a romantic comedy, the scene unfolding in front of you would take a turn for the better. In such a clichéd scenario, you would expect the heroine to experience the Love at First Sight story archetype and throw away her dreams to chase after her soulmate. 

But Min Yoongi is not your knight in shining armor. On the contrary, he is the furthest thing from the Humphrey Bogarts and the Cary Grants that grace the silver screens with their imposing presence and charming smiles. Instead of igniting your insides with desire, the mere sight of him and his lazy smirk makes your blood boil in anger. If you weren’t so attached to your daily dose of caffeine, you would have made sure to drench him in your gluten free pumpkin spice latte. 

“Aren’t you going to apologize?” you snap, gesturing at the stain bleeding through the thin fabric of your shirt like a physical wound. 

“Aren’t you? The coffee around this part of town is more expensive than a pack of cigarettes, y’know.” His derisive tone infuriates you further; it takes a herculean effort to not shove his empty cup of coffee up his ass. 

Neither of you budge. 

He stares you down and, had you been a lesser woman, you would have caved under the intensity of his glare. Maybe even cried a little. Still, you hold your ground, refusing to let yourself be intimidated by his scowl.

“You realize you owe me a coffee, sweetheart.”

If anyone else had delivered the line, you would have thought it to be a poor attempt at flirting. However, he utters the phrase with so much contempt, you almost reel back, struck down by the look he pairs with it. 

“What?!” 

In retrospect, you should have been more mindful of your surroundings but your mind had been occupied, too focused on revising lines that you already knew by heart. You’re aware the blame can’t be entirely shifted onto you, not when he had been so brusque in his movements, and distantly it registers that you’re both getting heated over nothing. Be the bigger person and let it go, your conscious urges you.

Pursing your lips into a grimace, you adamantly refuse to compromise. The only way your day can go from bad to worse, is if you let a short man with a mean looking face push you around like his plaything. Your aversion is justified, you argue internally.

“I have an audition,” you insist, tone clipped, waving around your script, penned and colored in pink highlighter, as if to prove your point. “I don’t have time for this.”

“Well aren’t you special.” The man sneers, eyes narrowing into slits. “We all have places to be, princess.”

“An apology would be nice,” you grit out, still refusing to back down. The use of pet-names by this stranger only irritates your further, itching at your skin like a insect bite you’re unable to soothe over. “But you’re so uncouth, I won’t waste my breath asking for one.”

“Ouch.” His lips curl into a mocking smirk, “well, maybe if you ask nicely, I’ll give the princess what she wants…” 

You want to deck him. But your already limited time is running short, and another peek at the clock makes your fingers twitch around the cup of your drink, contents sloshing around, threatening to spill. 

First impressions easily make or break a career. First impressions can also ruin relationships before they have the chance to begin. 

Any other day, at any other time, you might have admired the slight glow of his peachy skin, or taken the time to appreciate how the lilt in his speech reminds you of home. 

Instead, you flip him the bird and slide your sunglasses up the bridge of your nose so as to signal the end of the conversation. You feel extremely childish, like the star of a young adult drama series, but that doesn’t stop satisfaction from settling onto your features, only partly hidden by your knock-off Gucci shades. But your pleasure is short-lived; his disgruntled expression stays imprinted in your mind long after your argument ends, to your biggest dismay.

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It’s funny how a mere stranger is able to single-handedly ruin your day.

Something heavy and uncomfortable sits in your chest, like a ball of lead, and your script trembles in your hand.

You’ve barely made it to your first audition, copies of your resumé neatly tucked under your arm and script clenched tight in your fist, but the memory of the morning’s incident makes it impossible to concentrate on your forthcoming task. This, of course, only infuriates you further, because the last thing you need is for that asshole to distract you from the opportunity you’ve been waiting for. You inhale slowly, counting eight beats before exhaling, trying your best to clear your mind and focus on your day’s objective. 

6… 7… 8

You repeat the process until your clenched muscles slowly relax and your breathing evens out. 

The role you’re auditioning for is a secondary character in a new TV series, set to debut in the fall on one of the main public channels. The scriptwriter has won half a dozen Emmys in the span of their short career, and from what you’ve been able to read of the script so far, the ratings will probably do well. There’s a good balance between the drama and the romance and to top it off, the dialogue is witty and gives you enough material to work with. For weeks, you’ve been preparing your role, even going as far as to memorize the other characters’ lines just in case they ask you to read for someone else at the audition. 

Up until yesterday you were still buzzing with excitement, confident that this job was the one that would finally jumpstart your career. But now, your thoughts are flooded with incessant “what if’s…” that are slowly poisoning your morale. You can already picture yourself announcing to your parents that once again, you didn’t get the part you were pining for… 

You hold in a sigh, not looking forward to that phone call. It’s hard to snuff out the smidgen of shame that grows with a pang in your chest whenever you speak to your parents over the phone. You know they patiently await news of your success, so you can’t help but feel like you’ve let them down when their inquiries are met with silence on your end. “The road to success is paved with sacrifices and failure,” your father reminds you often, as if sensing the heaviness that weighs down on your shoulders. 

When asked if you have adjusted to the bustling city life, you will always answer in the affirmative. Although the reply is mostly meant to reassure your concerned parents, separated from you by miles upon miles, you can’t help but believe the words you reiterate every weekend over the phone. After all, you’ve been here long enough for the sun to dust your skin gold, freckles blooming on your exposed shoulders. You’ve long since memorized the street names and adjusted your schedule to take into account the constant traffic jams caused by the heavy congestion. 

But it’s during times like these, when you’re sandwiched in an elevator with seven other girls your age, all with highlighted hair, professionally blow-dried to glossy perfection, that you realize how out of place you really are. You hug your handbag to your chest in an poor attempt at concealing the obvious brown splatter down your front. From the corner of your eye, you see someone raising their eyebrows in disdain, their expression visible in the elevator wall’s reflection.

She coughs, the sound catching everyone else’s attention. 

“You’re auditioning dressed like that?” her voice drips with faux sympathy and immediately embarrassment colors your cheeks. 

Remarks like this are to be expected, you suppose, but that doesn’t mean you’re insensitive to the comment. 

But before you have time to formulate a retort, a musical chime alerts you that you’ve arrived at the audition scene. Everyone files out and you shuffle after the rest, handbag still clutched to your chest like a physical shield. 

You’re told that the auditions will be one-on-one and that your name will be called up when the casting directors are ready. Sitting down in the waiting room only ramps up the angst that threatens to swallow you whole. 

The clock ticks by slowly, every measure of time filled with mounting dread. What if you blank out and forget your lines? You run through every possible worst case scenario, despite trying to distract yourself by playing piano tiles on your phone. It obviously doesn’t work and you’re just about to turn off your phone in a fit of frustration, when it buzzes in your hand, alerting you of an incoming message.

A smile pulls at your lips when you realize your best friend, Tina, had sent you a text to cheer you on. You can almost hear her voice as you read out the text, her accent bleeding through the words that light up your screen.

tina [01:23 pm] Smile like fucking Julia Roberts even if they shit on you. If they see you sweat, it means they win, k? 

tina [01:23 pm] You got this, bitch :)

Somehow the aggressive motivation encourages you more than any bouquet of expensive white lilies you could have received. She knows how much today means to you and how much you’re worked up over it. You tell each other everything, so she’s well aware that the desire for this job isn’t solely for monetary reasons. 

Your dream of being an actress constantly surprises people when you tell them. The word actress evokes images of glamorous movie stars and fearless individuals who aren’t afraid to push their limits in order to create art. Your far from fearless. In fact, it’s taken years before you finally gathered your courage and left behind your family to pursue your dreams. 

It’s not easy to lend your body over to your character, but it’s something you study relentlessly—pen stuck between your teeth to practice your elocution, spending your hard earned money to attend acting workshops on the weekends after your shifts end. You devote yourself to the craft, studying everything from   Lee Strasberg’s method acting to the Chekhov acting technique. But all of it never seems like it’s enough. It feels like you’re stuck in a swamp, and no matter how much effort you put in, it’ll never be enough to move forward. 

Suddenly, your name is called and you jump to your feet, adrenaline making your spine stand straight. You’re quickly ushered into the small room where the casting director and his assistant sit, hands clasped on the wooden table in front of them. Piles of papers are scattered in front of them, and you can spot headshots and crossed out names on a list.

At once, you can feel their serious gazes settle on the coffee stain that adorns the front of your shirt. You ignore the slight raise of their eyebrows and instead shoot them your best smile, the one you’ve long since perfected in front of the mirror in your room. 

You present yourself, words tumbling out through your strained smile. 

As you start to relax, muscles in your neck loosening, it’s easier to slip back into the role you had worked hard to perfect. Everything from your posture to the tone of your voice changes, and it’s as if you morph into an entirely new person. 

At least, that’s what you let yourself think. You’re so into the part you don’t notice they’ve signaled for you to finish prematurely.

“Very well.” A hand comes up in the air à la Simon Cowell, effectively putting a stop to your dramatic speech. You resist the urge to check if he has protruding nipples to match.

You halt mid-sentence, mouth slightly parted, the rest of your prepared phrase stuck in your throat. Aware that you must look like a poor imitation of a goldfish, your jaw closes shut with an audible snap. You glance at his name place card, squinting at the small embossed lettering, before he commands your attention with a cough. 

“So, tell me,” Neil continues, crossing his arms and leaning forward to stare you straight in the eyes. “What do you think love is?”

“What love is?” you parrot back, trying to mask your confusion. Is this a trick question of some kind? You fail to understand what answer he expects of you, so instead of answering verbally, you shift around on your feet. It’s hard to think properly when your entire career is on the line; one wrong answer and you can say goodbye to the role you prepared so much for.

“Yes. What is love to you?” He flips through your meager résumé, nodding in what could be either acknowledgement or dismal.

Sweat beads at your hairline while your entire body freezes up. What does he mean by “you”? You wonder if he expects you to answer in character or not… What would your character answer? According to the script, she’s a little airheaded, with no other purpose than comic relief. 

“Love is…” you trail off, suddenly overcome with a memory you believed to be buried in the recesses of your mind. The words trigger something within you, and for a second you falter, the rest of the room becoming but a faint buzz of static in your ears.

“I have loved you.” 

His words settle into your lungs like a cloud of smoke, making it difficult to breathe. You’re not sure what hurts the most—his apologetic expression or the way he delivers his confession with the utmost sincerity. The use of the past tense only finalizes the blow; the skin of your lips almost bleed from the force of your bite.

“Do you not anymore?” you croak, voice catching in your throat.

You hate crying in front of him. Years ago, whenever you scraped your knees after falling from your bike, you had always refused to shed any tears in his presence. It all flashes through your mind right then like a film stuck on loop— the packs of band-aids you carefully wrap around his blisters and the way his calloused fingers strum your exposed skin like his guitar in gratitude.

“Of course I do.” For the first time since your argument, he loses his composure, the harsh creases between his furrowed brows giving away how much the goodbye is affecting him.

A warm palm encloses your own and with a nudge at your chin, he forces you to meet his own gaze.

You wish he would release you from his hold—only because it would be easier to conceal the trembling in your jaw. He must feel the minute movements beneath the pads of his fingers; for a split second his mask falls, features stricken with grief.

“I’ll always love you,” he finally admits, the quiet confession ringing loudly in your ears.

The sentence echoes in the silence of the room, seemingly amplified by the memories of all the previous times he had whispered the same words, intertwined with soft kisses and familiar caresses. There’s nothing comforting about the admission now—not when it veils the finality of a goodbye.

“But?” you ask tentatively, readying yourself for another blow.

Your reaction, for some reason, seems to anger him, because his expression stiffens—muscles on his face crisping up, wall falling back into place. It’s always been difficult to read him when he closes himself off from you, but it never stops you from trying. You search his features, hoping to find some kind of sign that would clue you in.

“Please don’t make this harder than it is. I thought you, out of everyone in this godforsaken town, would understand me.” You blink, eyelashes damp with unshed tears.

“There’s nothing for me here,” he continues, softer now, glassy eyes not noticing the way you flinch at his words. “If I stay, I’ll never get anywhere. They say there’s more for me out there in the big city. And I know— I know it’s crazy and the competition is tough, but—”

There’s a pause as he gathers breath, your face still cradled in the warmth of his palm. From where you’re standing you can spot the beauty marks and scars that are sprinkled over his skin like tiny constellations. You think back to the time he was twelve and had nicked the skin right above his eyebrow during one of his baseball games. It all seems like a lifetime ago—before puberty had filled his gangling body with hard muscle—but you can still recall with vivid clarity the front he had tried to put up, his brow furrowed and jaw clenched. Much like now, you think.

“But I’ll never know if I don’t at least give it a try. I’ll regret it if I stay cooped up here, wondering every day why I didn’t swallow down my fear and pack my shit up. I know I’ll be miserable if I give up on my dream. You know that, right? It’s the only thing I have going for me. I’m not like you—I suck ass at math and science. I don’t have a future here so I’m going to where I actually have a chance.”

And maybe now is not the time, but it’s impossible to stop the envy from coursing through your veins. How lucky it must be to know what you’re good at and what you want, to be brave enough to leave everything you’ve known behind because you have something to chase after. Unlike him, you’re stuck at a standstill, with nowhere to run forward to and now the only thing grounding you home—gone.

“I have to leave, I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry, you’re right.”

The last thing you want to hear from his lips is an apology. It’s a painful reminder that there’s a world outside the bubble you’ve built for yourself, that everything around you is changing and you’re the only one stuck in place, unmoving.

In the end, you opt for honesty.

“Love is a promise. It’s waiting for the right person, no matter how long it takes.” Your voice is resolute, even as you twiddle with a ring on your index finger nervously.

“Ah, I see… I don’t suppose you believe in love at first sight? Or soulmates?”

You run your tongue against the inside of your cheek, still unsure what sort of answer they’re looking for. It feels like a test but Neil’s voice and expression give nothing away. Either way, you must have taken too long to answer because he clears his throat and rearranges the papers on the table in front of him, his assistant writing something in red ink across your résumé.

“That’ll be enough, then. Thank you for your time.” 

Maybe today just isn’t your day, you think grimly, gathering your things. The ring that sits on your finger catches the overhead light, shine momentarily blinding you. When will you be able to fulfill your end of the promise? Perhaps childhood promises are meant to stay in the past. You’re not sure why you stubbornly hold onto such words, anyway. 

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The fight that usually lights up within you deflates. Most days, you’re optimistic, but today for some reason, things just haven’t gone your way. Ever since the damned coffee cup this morning, things have only been going downhill. Of course, it’s not fair to blame everything on what was evidently an accident, but it’s easier that way.

“On a scale from one to ten, how bad did it go?” Tina asks, pouring you a generous shot of vodka. Since you don’t own any shot glasses, you have to pry the bottle out of her hand because any more and you would think she wants you dead. “One being they occasionally zoned out during your monologue…”

She scratches her chin, trying to recall the worst audition story. “Ten being told you’re too ugly to read for the part. Although I have heard some disturbing ass stories that are definitely a fifteen or higher. You know Drew Barrymore? Heard she was asked to give herself the finger during an audition.”

“What?” you splutter, frown marring your features.

“Dunno, it was supposed to be a sexy scene but there was no one to read with her, so she had to act it out herself. Pretty w-weird. So she sucked her own finger while she acted out the blowjob. Or maybe I’m not remembering this correctly?” Her words are slightly slurred together, shoulders raising up into a shrug.

“Um,” you choke out, after knocking back your drink in one gulp. “Okay, well, it didn’t get weird. I thought it was going well but he cut me off before I finished and then asked me questions. I guess I kind of blanked out? I didn’t know what to say, so he must have ended up thinking I’m too daft.”

“Isn’t your character supposed to be a little empty up there?” she points at her head, one manicured finger only slightly missing her eyeball.

You’re not sure she notices the look you shoot her way, but if she does, she promptly ignores it in favor of reaching for the vodka bottle.

“Slow down or you’ll puke all over the carpet. Do you really want to add to our stain collection?” 

She huffs, pouting pathetically up at you.

“Spoilsport. Fine, let’s get drunk at a bar instead.” You’re convinced pretty easily because anything seems like a better alternative to spending the night cleaning up your friend’s vomit. 

You almost regret your decision because grungy bars aren’t your thing. Empty plastic cups litter the ground and faded graffiti paints the walls in squiggly streaks, and, yeah—grungy bars are definitely not your type of scene.

It’s nearing the one o’clock mark and you repress the urge to (kindly) throttle Tina and her group of friends who have dragged you along with them. Instead of sitting on your couch re-watching one of your favorite movies, you find yourself squirming your way through a crowd of sweaty bodies, balancing four cups in your hands and doing your best to prevent the cheap beer from spilling.

An elbow juts out, bony angle jabbing your side, and some of the froth overflows in splatters, coating your fingers in its stickiness. You mutter out a curse that gets lost, drowned out by an off-key acappella rendition of a Britney anthem, while you’re left to salvage the damage. There is a pause for breath onstage, and someone yells “Take the mic away from him!” in the background. Suddenly, it is chaos. Everyone howls out their own two-cents and the performer onstage redoubles his efforts in his attempts to drown out the noise with his song. 

For a reason you can’t quite understand, this place seems to be a hot spot for all the young, neighborhood artists; you spot a pair of guys in matching hoodies from the local film university at the bar, trying to pitch their idea to anyone drunk or interested enough to listen.

The cause of its unexpected success seems to be the open mic night event that is hosted once every week. Apparently, talent scouts are known to scour this area from time to time, and the promise of a success story attracts all the young and struggling artists, desperate to make it big. One of your friends has been raving about it for a little over a month, and even you’ve been curious as to see what it looks like. Your expectations fall short, but you won’t let that deter you from having fun. 

Well, fun isn’t easily found.

Tonight happens to be open mic night, which means you’ve already had to sit through half an hour of drunken poetry. You’re all for the creation of art through self-expression, but, well…. The intoxicated ramblings are amusing at best (the highlight so far being a short skit involving a plastic hammer and a beach ball) but the night’s entertainment is as gripping as a B-rate movie.

You let out a plaintive sigh, swirling the ice cubes in your cup with your straw, zoning out yet again when the next participant shuffles onto the small makeshift stage. You ready yourself for another five minutes of nonsensical babble, but instead you do a double-take as your gaze falls upon the man adjusting the mic stand, his shaggy hair partly obscuring his face from view.

Instinctively, your blood runs hot—something ugly rears its head as soon as you recognize the same face you’ve been cursing since your failed audition.

You gnaw your straw, working your jaw until it becomes just another useless piece of plastic.  

Although you’re not yet familiar with his name, you can’t forget the ugly lines of his face and the cold, dead look in his eyes. You don’t know why you thought he looked slightly attractive this morning because looking at him now only makes your lip curl in disgust. Why is his skin glowing? You’re convinced he must have dabbled glitter over his body to achieve such an effect. Who does he think he is, anyway? Kesha? Edward the vampire?

A nameless stranger—that is all he is to you at this point. And yet somehow he is also more than that.

Hate is a strong word. But as your attention focuses solely on his face, highlighted by the harsh glare of a spotlight, something within you boils to a tipping point.

A hush falls over the packed room as he clears his throat into the mic. Something about the sound bounces off the walls, makes several heads turn, snapping them out of their drunken stupor. As much as you want to tear your gaze from his figure, something about his presence on stage commands your attention. Unbeknownst to you, your breath is caught in your throat—anticipating his performance.

When he finally speaks, you can’t keep the astonished expression off your face. You’re not sure what you expect from him—maybe a dispassionate monologue on the benefits of caffeine or perhaps intoxicated words slurred together—but not this.

Impassioned dialogue falls from his lips, his face scrunched up. Words become bullets he fires into the crowd, his tongue twisting each of them with precision. You don’t know much about rap—only the try-hard images you see on television—but this is nowhere close to that. He quickly creates a story, raw emotion building with each stride he takes across the stage, and you’re unwillingly sucked into it. 

“There!” Tina nudges, voice somehow catching your attention. You fight hard to detach your gaze from the stage. It takes a moment to orient yourself, still reeling from the performance that’s still going on, but your stare finally falls on the man your friend is pointing at, huddled in one of the corners of the room, nursing a half empty cup of amber liquid. 

“That’s him! The guy from The Agency. He’s the one who comes here sometimes. I swear he was sleeping earlier but look! Whoa, this guy must be good to have gotten his atten—”

You tune her out, the anger that had simmered down now back in full force. Your day has officially gone to shit if the same guy from this morning is now being recruited by one of the best agencies in the world. Nope, this can’t be happening—you refuse to accept this as your reality. The many shots of alcohol blur your better judgement and you lick your lips in preparation for fucking war. 

Slamming your cup down on the table with more fervor than needed, you rise to your feet, a single thought coursing through your mind. 

Over my dead body, asshat. 

[exoverdosed]

Can you say something nice about mutual you've interacted with who you think are closest to you? Can be as many as you like, it's time to spread positivity!!! :)

asdfghj yes!! thank you for sending this !!!

@frostdae

Ileana was one of the first people I followed on tumblr and she’s one of my closest mutuals. she’s so funny and she’s so cute when she gushes about Chen. I bully her for being a soft stan but I really just love to tease her. She’s a great friend AND SO BEAUTIFUL THE PRETTY ONE IN THIS FRIENDSHIP and I hope we will stay friends into 2018 :)

@trumpsluckylady

(dear god dana change your url) Dana is prolly the mutual I’m closest too! she’s literally the weirdest people I’ve ever met shes got the funniest personality. Her banter is literally so funny to listen to and how she jumps from bias to bias (and apparently to gross presidents too) Dana is really a close friend and I love her to death and I hope she gets the chance to bang her bias (CHANGE YOUR URL DAMMIT)

@evalocity

Elo is really… one of the sweetest people on tumblr.hell she’s so kind to everyone and is so easy to talk to everytime I see elo in my activity I get so happy. IDK anything else to say about elo cause I would be here for like a million years anyways i love elo!!!

@loonxy

ok alexa is so funny like the memes we send each other ima really die. She’s so pretty and i aspire to be as good at makeup as she is. she was also one of my first mutuals so like Ileana I cant remember having tumblr without her there. She’s one of my only BTS mutual and watching the AMAs with her was so funny like damn. Alexa ily i hope you graduate high school with a bang!!

@into-the-new-w0rld

I think my first conversation with aqua had to do with yugioh and honestly that was so funny like we just fangirled bout yugioh. Aqua is another mutual i love seeing in my activity (even if she says the clone wars wasnt good)

@wildtides

alex i love you lots you really my best friend and if you ever log into your tumblr just know that ksoo lis squishy and soft and he loves you :(

@baekphia

@vulpi-xing

@ka-xing

@3ouncesofwhoopass

we don’t talk a lot but you are all mutuals I love seeing on my dash

this was way too long but i really don’t know where id be without the friends ive made on here. tumblr may be hell but I really could never give it up because of the friends i have on here

[sweetjunmyeon]

URL tag ✨

I was tagged by @mintdae like 30 years ago (thank you ily!), but hereee we go:)) I hate this my name is long and uses the same like 3 letters.

rules: spell out your url using only kpop songs and tag ten people 

F- Forever by Exo

U- Um Oh Ah Yeh by M*mamoo

C- Converse High by Bts

K- King and Queen by Exo-cbx

M- Me Like Yuh by Jay Park

E- Electric Shock by f(x)

U- Upgrader by Lim Kim

P- Power by Exo

F- First Love by Exo

A- Artificial Love by Exo

M- Miniskirt by Aoa

niccceee. Okay i’m not gonna tag anyone cuz i just wanted to get this done lmao:)))

[o0yoongifreckles0o]

92 statements

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people!

(if i tag you, no pressure at all to do this!)

Okay so I was tagged by @blkguk (tysm!)

THE LAST...

1. Drink- water

2. Phone call- my grandma

3. Text- group chat with my 2 little sisters

4. Song you listened to-  bts not today

5. Time you cried- the other night while watching gay proposal compilation videos

HAVE YOU...

6. Dated someone twice- nope

7. Kissed someone and regretted it- yepyepyep 

8. Been cheated on- yep. a couple of times. 

9. Lost someone special- yes

10. Been depressed- bitch when am i not depressed

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up- ...yes *shivers* i will never touch rum or coconut vodka ever again

LIST 3 FAV COLORS:

12. pastel pink

13. mint green

14...any other shade of pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU...

15. Made any new friends- yes and she is a wonderful angel (sammie ily)

16. Fallen out of love- yes.

17. Laughed until you cried- yes thanks to several bts crack videos

18. Found our someone was talking about you- yep.

19. Met someone who changed you- *blushes* yeah...

20. Found our who your friends are- yes i’ve decided to really only keep a couple of people close to me.

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list- ...my ex when we were still together 

GENERAL

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life- all of them

23. Any pets- my little baby kitty her name is naho and i love her more than anything else in the entire universe

24. Do you want to change your name- no that’s too much work

25. What did you do for your last birthday- my sister took me to the aquarium and to get a tattoo she is the best

26. What time did you wake up- like 12:30

27. What were you doing at midnight last night- waking up from a very ill timed nap

28. Name something you cannot wait for- bts comeback oh yeeeaah 

29. When was the last time you saw your mom- a few weeks ago before I moved out of state

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life- um definitely no social anxiety wow imagine the things i could accomplish

31. What are you listening to right now- i like it (bts)

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom- yes the manager of a book store i just applied to

33. Something that is getting on your nerves- the first thing that popped into my head was game of thrones. that show is trying to kill me.

34. Most visited website- tumblr and youtube

35. Moles- uuum let me check one on my face one on my thigh and a couple on my arms wow you learn something new every day

36. Marks- stretch marks also do freckles count bc i have a whole bunch of those

37. Childhood dream- to be happy when i grew up

38. Hair color- naturally red but dyed pastel pink

39. Long or short hair- short

40. Do you have a crush on someone- yes and she is wonderful.

41. What do you like about yourself- my eyes

42. Piercings- nose ring and snakebites

43. Blood type- no idea

44. Nickname- dia

45. Single- yep

46. Zodiac- virgo

47. Pronouns- she/her

48. Favorite tv show- got, avatar the last airbender, buffy, the office, your lie in april, toradora (how tf am i supposed to choose one)

49. Tattoos- i’ve got 10 and i need mooooooore

50. Right or left handed- right

51. Surgery- no

52. Piercings- yes

53. Sport- no thank u

54. Vacation- Japan

55. Pair of trainers- black converse high tops

MORE GENERAL

56. Eating- i just had some bomb ass cookies

57. Drinking- water i am boring

58. I’m about to go- boop my cat’s nose

59. Waiting for- my life to stop feeling like a complete mess

60. Want- more tattoos asap

61. Get married- yes please someday i am a hopeless romantic 

62. Career- ha that’s funny

WHICH IS BETTER

63. Hugs or kisses- both i refuse to choose they are both fantastic

64. Lips or eyes- eyes

65. Shorter or taller- short people are so cute i can’t

66. Older or younger- ...i don’t know

67. Nice arms or nice stomach- eh it doesn’t really matter

68. Hookup or relationship- relationship 

69. Troublemaker or hesitant- hesitant as fuck

HAVE YOU EVER

70. Kissed a stranger- nope

71. Drank hard liquor- yes

72. Lost contacts or glasses- i don’t use either perfect vision bitch

73. Turned someone down- yeah only this one guy in my history class no one else has ever been interested 

74. Sex on the first date- no i haven’t 

75. Broken someone’s heart- yes, recently. it’s awful.

76. Had your heart broken- yes. dirty cheating lying scumbag piece of shit. hooooooooooo boy am i still angry about that one.

77. Been arrested- no

78. Cried when someone died- yes.

79. Fallen for a friend- yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

80. Yourself- sure why not

81. Miracles- no

82. Love at first sight- no (i may be a hopeless romantic but i am also cynical as heck) 

83. Santa claus- yes he is real fight me

84. Kiss on the first date- yes

85. Angels- i was going to say no but then i thought about park jimin.

OTHER

86. Favorite animals- otters and sloths

87. Important albums- magical mystery tour (the beatles), the white album (the beatles), let it be (the beatles), suburbia (troye sivan), wings (bts), dark and wild (bts), skool luv affair (bts), young forever (bts), demon days (the gorillaz), back to black (amy winehouse)

88. Favorite books- a man called ove, harry potter, series of unfortunate events, a tree grows in brooklyn, coraline, night, the golden compass, ready player one, the hobbit, misery

89. Introvert or extrovert- introvert

90. Current best friend’s name- sammie

91. Eye color- green

92. Favorite movies- princess mononoke, ponyo, howl’s moving castle, spirited away, anything studio ghibli, moana, pulp fiction, kill bill

i tag @sammiebombastic @o0taesboxsmile0o @gayhoseoks @agust-d-bts @slapmon @mozzakarp @maritheweird @hobiimportantbusiness @hoseokslegsandjiminsthighs @naplikeyoongi @cheekmoops @luckilykelsey @parasitekinn @ghosttypejoon

@becausefuckyouuthatswhy @cinnaminnimonster

[emotual]

hyyh pt1!!

1. love is not over2. converse high3. i need u one of my fave bts albums thank you ily 💗💗 

[moonlightkth]

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

i was tagged by @wellhell0therenicetomeetyou ♡

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: my friend Joshua

3. Text message: “wow rude” to my friend Joshua

4. Song you listened to: the pd101 boys cover of Amazing Kiss

5. Time you cried: i dont remember when it was but it happened in the morning while i was doing my makeup because 4 o’clock came on

6. Dated someone twice: if i reltionship from grade 4 counts then sure

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: can’t regret a kiss if you’ve never kissed anyone

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: i lost a close family friend who i considered a grandfather in grade 3

10. Been depressed: no

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: im a baby who has had a sip of alcohol before so no

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12-14: magenta, baby blue and pale pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: hell yeah

16. Fallen out of love: i mean was it even love to begin with?

17. Laughed until you cried: lol yeah i was watching one of my realistic boyfriends, Hyeongseob, attempt to make merigue (is that how you spell it)

18. Found out someone was talking about you: probs

19. Met someone who changed you: i mean i havent met bts but they definetly changed me in a good way

20. Found out who your friends were: yup

21. Kissed someone on your fb list: havent even kissed someone

GENERAL:

22. How many of your fb friends do you know irl: all of them

23. Do you have any pets: a dog called Thunder

24. Do you want to change your name: not anymore

25. What did you do for your last birthday: i had a few friends over a few days before but on the actual day i literally did nothing

26. What time did you wake up: probs 8:55am

27: What were you doing at midnight last night: reading some bts things

28. Name something you can’t wait for: my trip to Seoul

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: at like 7am this morning

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: the fact that i catch feelings to easily

31. What are you listening to rn: nothing

32. Have you talked to a person named Tom: yeah he’s pretty cool and was one of my best guys friends before high school

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the fact that i cath feelings too easily.

34. Most viewed website: here, instagram or youtube

35. Mole/s: i have a lot but some i can think of rn are the small one on my ear, the one on my waist and the one in my armpit

36. Mark/s: i have scars on my knees and hip

37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a lawyer

38. Hair colour: a mix of dark brown, light brown, blond and some strands of pink

39. Long or short hair: it’s pretty long (if i sit down it just about touches my hips)

40. Do you have a crush on someone: i refuse to have a crush on him

41. What do you like about yourself: uuuummmmmm my love for Taehyung?

42. Piercings: nope they’ve closed

43. Bloodtype: A

44. Nickname: Bel ♡

45. Relationship status: single pringle

46. Zodiac: Gemini

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favourite TV show: SKAM or TWD

49. Tattoos: none but i want some when i’m older

50. Right ot left hand: right

51. Surgery: nope

52. Piercing: i think this means if i want some and i want my ears done like JKs

53. Sport: lol no

54. it was missing

55. Vacation: going to Seoul, want to go to London or Australia

56. Pair of trainers: converse (converse i really hate converse)

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I like mashed potatoes

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: play league of legends or be on tumblr 

60. also was missing

61. Waiting for: my trip to Seoul

62. Want: some tacos

63. Get married: eventually

64. Career: idk

WHICH IS BETTER?

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs

66. Lips or eyes: both

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: older

69. missing 

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms cause a squishy tummy means a nice pillow

71. Sensitive or loud: both

72. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: i can barely look at a stranger what

75. Drank hard liquor: i’ve had alcohol twice and idk what both of them were

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: every morning when i wake up

77. Turned someone down: yes like 3 times

78. Sex on the fist date: date? sex? what?

79. Broken someones heart: apparently i have

80. Had your heart broken: yuppers

81. Been arrested: nope

82. Cried when someone died: yes

83. Fallen for a friend: BOY I SAID I CATH FEELINGS EASILY SO YES YES YES

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: occasionally

85. Miracles: not really

86. Love at first sight: kinda

87. Santa Claus: nope

88. Kiss on the first date: i would but like i’ve never been on a date or kissed anyone

89. Angels: I guess

OTHER

90. Current best friends name: Veronica and Leah (and i guess Joshua but i refuse) Tumblr Friends: Elo, Kensley, Lani, Ash, Megan and more

91. Eyecolour: nasty dark brown

92. Favourite movie: any of the Harry Potters

i dont wanna tag anyone because of how long it was but im doing it anyways ily all btw @evalocity @the-chogiwa-to-your-ye-xing-de @4myi @suqarjae @minniesugakookies

[yamuriaha]

thanks to @kimimarro for tagging me hoe ily 

MUSIC TAG

You can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first ten songs:

young and beautiful - lana del rey

look here - bts

converse high - bts

fire - bts

afterlife - greyson chance

always - yoon mirae

three little words - ghost the musical: original cast recording

where you are - moana soundtrack

how far i’ll go - auli’i cravalho (moana)

cypher pt.3: killer - bts

okay tbh 60% of my playlist is bts and i didn’t want to just list bts songs rip 4/10 are by them.. anyway this is just a taste of what i listen to. feel free to message me about music or something lol 

GET TO KNOW ME TAG

Name: sandy 
Nickname: ... i have a lot ... sand / sandu / sanddune / blossom, just to name a few 
Height: i’m barely 5′3 fam let’s pray i grow at least another inch smh 
Ethnicity: asian, specifically chinese 
Favorite fruits: I LOVE FRUITS,, watermelon, mangoes, durian (it stanky but it taste good okay im), pomegranate (i love all fruits tbh) Favorite season: autumn my guy,, summer is shit bc it’s too hot, winter is shit because it’s too cold, spring is wet and muddy and rainy and nah ... autumn is the way to go... 
Favourite scent: i like slightly sweet / soft / floral scents + sandalwood or something of that nature 
Favourite color: if it HAS to be colour i’d say certain shades of pink and blue but i love my monochrome <3 
Favourite animals: uhh ... idrk i have too many lmao but basically mostly canine + feline animals 
Average sleep hours: .. this really varies depending on the day and occasion lol  
Favourite fictional characters: 

anime characters: - my og fav girl  sakura // naruto - my og fav boy sasuke // naruto  - yamuraiha // magi - morgiana // magi - hakuryuu // magi - yona // akatsuki no yona - okuni // rengoku ni warau - baren // rengoku ni warau - shirasu // donten ni warau - oikawa // haikyuu - kuroo // haikyuu - almost everyone from pandora hearts um .. - i have more but this is getting long rip game characters: - kairi // kingdom hearts  - aqua // kingdom hearts - lunafreya // ffxv - noctis // ffxv - max // life is strange - chloe // life is strange - tifa // ffvii - cloud // ffvii - yuna // ffx - this is all i can name off the top of my head lol

general characters: - moana // moana - sophie // howl’s moving castle - howl // howl’s moving castle  - calcifer // howl’s moving castle  - ...... markl // howl’s moving castle i love howl’s moving castle okay leavijfiasjdiasd - marnie // when marnie was there  - mulan my og // mulan - hana // wolf children - kermit the frog // muppets (okay listen i have like 100 kermit reaction pics on my phone i asidhais love him.. my son) - others i probably forgot idk

Dream trips:  oh boy,, okay i really want to travel so i want to go everywhere basically ... but the first few places i want to go to first are;

- korea - japan - hawaii  - italy - thailand - indonesia  - spain  - england - greece - greenland  - iceland - morocco  - egypt Dream job: lowkey but also highkey want to be a singer / performer / entertainer ... but if i’m being realistic lmao then idrk

i’m tagging: @promptis // @allenswalkers // @deaddleaves // @setantas // @gummiblock and anyone else that wants to do this !! i have no friends lmao rip pls talk to me ...

[shinee35]

10 Favourite BTS Songs

Thank you for the tag @mirrerover <3 ...was what I was planning to say before I discovered just HOW HARD THIS IS Ahh TT jk ily

Okay, in no particular order:

Butterfly

Spring Day

Save Me

Never Mind

I Need U

Blood Sweat & Tears

Dope

흥탄소년단 (Fun Boys)

Spine Breaker 

둘! 셋! (그래도 좋온 날이 더 많기를) 2! 3! (Hoping for More Good Days)

I am also going to add some honorable mentions because ten spots really isn’t enough: First Love, Awake, Cypher PT.2: Triptych, Cypher PT.3: KILLER (ft. Supreme Boi), So Far Away, Not Today, The Last, Converse High,  Tomorrow, Bapsae, 팔도강산 (Paldogangsan / Satoori Rap), Born Singer, House of Cards, Dead Leaves, Whalien 52, Jump and Interlude: Wings. I swear this is the condensed list... TT

Tagging @sopeshighnotes and @vppax (i can’t remember if you’ve already done this lol if so please ignore)

[lovuten]

playlist: loving bts (ily chai 💖💘💗💗💓)

hi lovie !!!!! uhm i love u too

loving bts - 💝

Butterfly - BTS

Spring Day - BTS

Converse High - BTS

하루만 - BTS

Whalien 52 - BTS

2! 3! - BTS

You Never Walk Alone - BTS

send me “playlist: title” and I’ll make you a playlist