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name(s) - Tommy , Theseus , Sage , Amaryllis , Cole , Hide , Imp , Raccoon , Icarus , Rascal , Auburn , Rouge , Bandit , Dire , Mutt.
pronouns - he / it / disc / song / axe / bloom / imp / bite / lone / cringe / pog / lake / stick / fanta / fire / demon / fang / blood / moo / boom / bark / fun / red / shout / game.
gender(s) - transmasc , happycolorsgender , happygender , tommyInnitCharic , Demongender , Bitething , muttial , thingmutt , boymutt , traumamutt , muttfreak , weirdpup , muttlexic , partygender , confettigender , loudpartygender , sillynsilliergender , Fungender , Goofygoobergender , Hapifriendix , Happygender , Partygender , Sillymaxxed.
orientations - bisexual , demiaroace.
role(s) - trauma holder , mood booster , rehabilitator , double agent.
species - humany demony thing.
source(s) - c!tommyinnit , DSMP.
emoji(s) - 🩹 , 🖍️ , 🌈 , 🎨 , ⛺ , 🏚️ , 🪵
likes - records , discs , music , animals , cool sticks , diet Coca-Cola , the color red , dragons , Fanta , oranges , trains , flowers.
dislikes - silence , sudden loud noises or movements , loneliness , being cold , injury.
front triggers - fun things , music imp enjoys , minecraft music , raccoons , source things , sourcemates , another fronter feeling unsafe.
personality description - very excitable and generally talkative, loves being around friends and trusted people and will talk their ear off for hours when he gets the chance. though he can get easily nervous or scared in unfamiliar situations, or when he's around crowds of untrusted people or on his own. will be very wary of some sourcemates at first, and will be slow to talk to them, though if he's given time he will warm up to them.
typing quirk - all caps, rarely punctuation other than exclamation marks. (ex: THE QUICK BROWN FOX JUMPS OVER THE LAZY DOG!!)
typing example / small message - HELLO ALL!!! I AM WRITING A MESSAGE BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE IT ABOUT!!!!! SO I AM WRITING IT ABOUT JUST THAT!!! I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A VERY GOOD DAY!!!! GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!
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Complaining. - Ony 4
<<part three part five>>
slight arguing, mentions of cheating and feelings (mild), no proofread, i’ll edit it whenever. sorry for the waittt!
you rubbed your eyes, slipping your white painted toes into your fluffy slides. you weren’t even drunk last night but for some reason, that headache just bothered the hell out of you.
“shittt.” you whispered to yourself. you checked your phone and the time. 10:47am. you stretched before standing up, stretching your legs and making your way to the bathroom. you grabbed a towel, running warm water under it before washing your face lazily. you brushed your teeth, went to your room and grabbed your phone.
you made your way to the living room, sitting on your couch, waiting for something to happen. it was a weird feeling, like empty. you can’t say you’d never felt it before, but this time you were just bored. and you were rarely bored.
but conveniently, as you were scrolling through apps on your tv, you got a phone call from an awfully familiar number. you pursed you’re lips together, frowning slightly before answering. “who is this?” was the first thing you asked.
“damn, you deleted my whole number too?” ony spoke on the other line.
you sighed, rolling your eyes. “boy what you want? ain’t yo girlfriend somewhere near you?” you asked. “just because we… quote on quote “date” don’t mean we live together.” ony mumbled. you hummed. “yeah okay.” you muttered.
“so wassup witchu?”
you paused for a minute before answering. “ion know. but i gotta talk to you about something, ony.” you said while playing with your nails. “ight, speak.” ony said in between a yawn.
you quirked a frown before leaning back on your couch. “we need to talk about some shit going on between us because-“before you could even finish, your phone started vibrating and it was a facetime call instead of an audio call. you smacked your lips and answered it with a frown, making ony laugh. he was still in bed, he looked tired.
“my bad, i just wanna see you when you talk. keep going.”
you squinted for a few seconds. “anyway, as i was sayin. we need to talk about some shit between us because i feel-“
all of a sudden, there was a loud ass sneeze and you frowned. “ony what the fuck is wrong witchu?”
“it’s allergy season bruh please.” he rubbed his nose before sniffing and chuckling. “ight keep going.”
you smacked your lips. “nevermind dude just… you wanna come over today?” you asked while rubbing your forehead. ony raised his eyebrows. “like… for what?” he frowned a little. “so we can talk. cus apparently you don’t know how to listen without making dumbass sounds.”
“can we get sum to eat if i come?”
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so there you were, sitting in the passenger side of your ex boyfriends car, downing a burger and large fry with a drink. as he drove, he glanced at you from time to time, raising his eyebrows at the way it looked like you just feened for food.
“you ain’t eat today?”
“nah.” you mumbled, taking a bite of four fries and looking at ony with furrowed eyebrows. “you must got a problem or sum?”
“you in my car.” he nudged your arm and you continued to eat your food, staring at him. “ion care.” you said, grabbing your drink and sipping through the straw. ony hummed. “so what you wanna talk about. you know my girl ain’t gone like us together.” he sighed, leaning back a little. you frowned and looked at him.
“i’m just playing, damn.” he laughed. “but for real wassup.”
“we need to get our shit together, that’s what. cus i’m not finna be fuckin on you tomorrow and then we have a lame ass argument the next day.” you glanced at him, passing him a fry. “and ion want yo lil bitch to be mean mugging me, but i’m not gon say too much cus she ain’t did too much yet. but that shit you said about her being a replacement, it just made me feel like you wasn’t really talking to me for me, you was just talking to me cus you wanted to brag or sum.”
ony pursed his lips together, putting the car in park as you both sat in an empty parking lot. “so you tryna say i was only talking to you to let it be known that i could easily replace you?” he frowned softly.
you shrugged, finishing your burger. “i mean, i really hate yo ass. i do. but you having her as my replacement? you gotta do better than that. you making it seem like i’m ugly or sum shit.”
ony smacked his lips and rested his eyes at you. “you know you not ugly, i know you not ugly. don’t do that. and how was i posed to find somebody finer than you?”
“you cheated on me with her, ony. then you brought her around the around the group expecting her to just be invited like we all ain’t been friends since bout middle school and her ass just now coming.”
you turned in the seat to face him. “and then the hoe kept staring at me when she saw me and you talking like she had a problem or sum. wassup wit that? i mean i get why she mad, you talkin to the girl you cheated on to get with her, but she ain’t had to look at me like that-“
“why you always shit talkin?” ony stared at you. but it wasn’t a bad stare. it was more like a genuine question stare.
“huh?”
“you too cute to be worried bout what these hoes got going on or what these bitches think about you. i told you bout that.” he said as his eyes continued to rest on yours. he did tell you about that.
you opened your mouth to defend your actions, but nothing came out. it was like ever since you broke up with him, you’ve just been in that same grumpy mood for the whole time.
“you ain’t ever act like then when we was together, you was a lover girl.” ony smiled a little.
“but you cheated on me and i got mad. and ian gone lie, i been mad about that shit for a long time.” you looked at him. “and it’s annoying seeing you with somebody else that think they better than me or sum. i can’t tell nobody but you that.”
“why?”
“cus that’s embarrassing.”
ong smacked his lips. “i’m sorry for doin that to you. ion got no problem wit apologizing. but ion want you to bottle up yo feelings until i come around cus we not even together.”
“and ion want you to be around me as a secret and then start acting different in front of yo girl.” you raised your eyebrow at him. you might’ve been feeling some typa way, but ain’t no way you was finna sit here and feel bad about shit because she was in the way of you and ony getting back on good terms.
ony rubbed his face. “ion act different. that was only when i expected you to be more mad.”
“but you’ll flirt with me one minute and then be a whole other nigga when you get around her.”
“cus that’s my girlfriend.”
“you don’t even like that girl.”
“says who?”
“me, nigga.”
“who the hell is you to say ion like her?”
“why you always tryna argue wit me?”
“cus i love yo ass.”
you paused in your words and pursed your lips together, slowly staring to smile. “you still love me?” you asked. ony stared at you for a few seconds before rolling his eyes. “duh, why you think you in my car?” you slowly nodded. “so that mean you cheated on me wit that bitch for nothing. when you breakup with her, then we can start back talking, but for now? aw nigga you outta luck. now take me home.”
“bruh y/n-“
“take me home, ony.” you said before finally turning around in the seat and buckling up.
the ride home was silent, but not awkward. it wasn’t like you were mad at each other, it’s just that nobody had nothing else to say. you bit the inside of your cheek, looking around the car. you opened the glove compartment and a perfume bottle rolled out of there. it was yours.
you opened it and smelled it. “i was lookin for this.” you mumbled, looking at ony.
“keep it in there.” he glanced at you.
“it’s mine.”
“that’s the only thing in this car you still got, bruh. lemme keep it.” he mumbled, nudging your cheek. you smacked your lips and put it back.
“you better be glad i’m not as mad as i was.”
#aot headcanons#aot x reader#onyankapon#ony x reader#ony x black reader#onyankopon snk#onyankopon x reader#onyankopon x black y/n#aot onyankopon#onyankopon
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Chapter III
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Shy rays of sun peeking through your room’s blinds were trying to gently wake you up. Lazily, you reached for the man that was supposed to be laying by your side, although , he was nowhere to be found. Confused, you dragged yourself out of the sheets only to be hit by a faint smell of food. Reaching into the kitchen, there was Heesung who looked like he was finishing plating what looked like your breakfast.
„Oh ! Morning sunshine” he said with a bright smile on as soon as you walked in „I was supposed to bring it to you in bed but since you’re here” he continued, pulling a chair for you to sit on.
„What’s with the nickname?” You replied with a dumb smile
„What ? You’re stunning” Hee replied mimicking him being blinded by light as you muffled a laugh
„I look beat up” you said making him giggle
„You’re beautiful” he contradicted, quickly pecking your cheek as he sat next to you.
Hee was analysing every inch of your face of you trying his blueberry pancakes, almost as if waiting for a feedback, which you immediately gave by a satisfied groan to which he gladly smiled at himself ,then focused on his own plate.
You offered to make some coffee as Heesung didn’t let you do the dishes. Finishing up, you quickly grabbed your phone to check for any messages only to be struck by tens of notifs from Yunjin and Hanni , and there were ,of course some from Taeil ,which you didn’t even bother to read and kept in mind to block him later.
(Hanni x Yunjin x y/n group chat)
You 11:12pm: ”I left, I’m alright, ttyl”
H 11:35pm: „What ? Why what happened?”
H 11:36pm:„Y/n lmk what’s going on!!!???”
YJ 11:36pm:”r u okay???”
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H11:40pm: “Please, please y/n-ah get home safe !! Text us when you do, we’re worried!!”
Today
YJ 10:47am: „Girl we’re coming @ your place at 2:00 we needa talk asap”
You checked the clock , it was 1:30 pm.
Crap.
You could do anything but let Heesung know about the girls coming over and that it was too late to reschedule. You were fully aware about the questions Yunjin and Hanni were gonna drop upon you but you just quietly accepted your faith.
As you were coming to peace with the thought, the doorbell rang ,to which you avoidantly answered as if you were in a horror movie and the murderer was right behind that door.
The sight of you and Heesung, both in pyjamas, messy hair and hoarse voice made Yunjin raise her brow intrigued, you both just awkwardly smiled and let them in, quickly offering a drink and some extra pancakes Hee made. Yunjin didn’t drop the suspicious mother look which Hanni also took on, as they were making themselves comfortable on the livingroom couch.
„Okay y/n we need to know every bit of what the hell has happened last night.” Hanni got right to the subject.
„Yeah, and we’ll talk about him” pointing at Heesung with the fork „later” Yunjin said, mouth full of food „Great pancakes by the way…”
„Thanks !” He replied with that proud smile again , clearly not reading the room.
You went on to talk about last night , everything that has happened, somehow still trying to hold tears of anger in. At one point Hanni was holding your hand as Yunjin was patting your back. Heesung was sitting back, watching, his jaw clenched as he couldn’t bare the thought of you having to go through that , thinking of ways to strangle that man for hurting you.
“How about we get some snacks and watch something nice, hm? Watchu say babygirl?” Yunjin said trying to ease the mood rubbing your back, idea to which you and Hanni instantly approved!
The four of you were now binging a mini-series; the girls decided to stay with you longer to help you feel better , the 3 of you were sitting curled up hugging eachother munching on some chips with Heesung isolated to the further part of the couch snacking on an ice pop.
“Can’t you two just hug each other and I can hug y-“ he muffled but got hit by Hanni’s side-eye as he just went back to his ice pop defeated.
Suddenly your phone started vibrating somewhere in between the sheets. Yeonjun , one of your college classmates was calling you.
Jun Yawnzzn🥸🫵🏻
(he put that name in himself…)
Yj:„Y/n-ah hey hru?”
Y:„Hii Junnie , nothing much , how about you?”
Yj:„Same kinda ,, I called to let you know that imma be holding a party tomorrow night ,and, of course ,I had to let you know! I’d be really happy if I see you around there !”
You talked a bit more to Yeonjun letting him know you might be there , but that he’s caught you in a pretty bad mood , not giving much detail on why. Understanding, he once again reassured you that you’re always welcomed there.
Y:„ Oh by the way! Did you by any chance invite Taeil…?” You almost forgot. If he was there, the chances of you going were on the ground.
Yj:„Oh yeah I talked to him! I thinks he’s gonna be around there, why?”
Y:„Oh nothing! I’ll talk to you later then,, bye Junnie” You hurried up to end the call, Jun could easily become a curious cat.
Yj:„Aight y/n take care! ”
You quickly hung up looking around at the 3 sneaky friends of yours who were, shamelessly, eavesdropping.
„Yeah, Yeonjun told us about the party too , we thought of going , didn’t know that shithead was coming too…” Yunjin said in a disgraced voice looking at you.
„You wanna go?” Hanni asked looking at your thoughtful face.
There were only 2 possible choices you could’ve picked from : go to the party, see Taeil who might not leave you alone and up in a shit situation once again, or stay at home. The fact that from now on you would have to double check for his presence anywhere and sacrifice your own social life only because he had a lot of acquaintances was truly annoying, so you had to do something. Maybe spreading the word about his habits? Who should you tell? Who could you talk to? Tons of questions and scenarios filled your mind.
„You know, I can always come with you” Heesung spoke up making you turn your head like he was reading your thoughts.
„No Hee you don’t ha-„ you tried refusing his offer, you didn’t want to drag him in any of this.
„That’s a great idea! I’d love to see that bitchass look on Taeil’s face seeing you two together” Yunjin interrupted you with a malefic grin on her face and laughing to herself, Hanni nodding in approval and mumbling an „mhm” .
„No Hee, you really don’t have to do this. I don’t want you to get mixed up into any of this…” you were still avoidant.
Heesung came closer to you taking your hands into his, looking deeply into your eyes his gaze harmonically blending with yours. He then spoke in a low serious tone:
„Do you really think I’ll ever leave you alone after all this? Even if you don’t want me there I’ll still come ,I’ll always come for you y/n, even if I have to crawl.”
His words seemed like a vow he was never going take back nor to break.
His words left you speechless, making your heart melt and your body shiver. Hee’s gaze softened, leaning in to peck the tip of your nose. „Then it’s set” he said smiling at you who were still caught into his trance, unable to word out anything.
„I can’t believe I just witnessed this cinematic ahh moment” Hanni whispered to Yunjin who was in shock as everyone else , perplexed at you two „That was beautiful..” She said fake wiping a tear, to which you looked at in a „bffr” face making the girls and Heesung giggle.
The girls had left a little after 5:00 pm leaving you and Heesung alone once again. Nevertheless, he had to head back home too, since spending the night with you was spontaneous, Heesung assured you that he’ll come back later. He could’ve just left and come back the next day for the party but refused to leave you alone , feeling that even though you seemed fine, deep down , you could break at any time.
After Heesung too had left , you had some time for yourself , with your own mind and thoughts , so a warm bath was more than welcomed. Your mind started contemplating on every aspect of your life lately, unintentionally replaying the moments with you and Taeil that you wish had never existed, and made your skin itch only by remembering them. Emotions started to fill your heart, unconditionally leading to your echoing weeping between the bathroom walls. It was somewhat therapeutic, yet it hurt your soul, he hurt your soul. You wrapped your hands around your own bare body as trying to confort yourself, slowly caressing your own back, arms and hair like a mother caressing her in pain child. At the end of the day, you only had yourself.
You had put on a set of comfy satin pyjamas and was drying your hair in your room as you heard the door close „He was fast” you thought to yourself. Hee had approached your room , fixing his glasses on his nose as he leaned on the door rim to watch you brush your hair in the mirror, to then come in closer asking if he could do it. You smiled at him lending him the brush , coordinating his moves to start from the bottom up.
„I could do this all day, it’s so soft” Heesung said fully enjoying himself like a kid. He was playing with your hair ,brushing it , as you just let him.
Raising his head, he made eye contact with you in the mirror’s reflection, smiling, he then leaned in to kiss your neck from the back as his hands had wrapped gently around your waist caressing it, sending shivers down your spine, his scent filling up your nostrils and slowly mixing in with yours as he went on. Even though this wasn’t new to you it felt so different from the way Taeil did it ,his kisses on your body were sloppy, his touch was rough and lacked compassion.It felt like it dirtied your body. Whereas with Heesung, everything felt flattering ,felt like actual love and liking for one another. His sweet acts of affection were warming your damaged heart almost making you cry each time he did so, as you never expected to be worthy of such tenderness and care.
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The two of you had spent the rest of the night cooking up some pasta together and having some red wine with it ,as slow music was playing faintly on the vinyl making you swing onto the kitchen floor. All of this, only to end up asleep on the livingroom couch after chit-chatting, laughing and watching a movie together. You hoped quiet and tender nights like these with Heesung would never come to an end.
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☆ Author’s note : hii guys this ch was more of a chill sweet encounter, i hope it felt like a warm cup of tea on these chilly evening in october 🍂🍵 More action coming up in ch4! ^ - ^🍁
☆ So sorry it took so long for ch3 but Ive had lots of stuff going on lately and got busy but i hope you’ll enjoy it and ch4 should be out soon too hehe!!
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Friday, February 23rd, 2024!
7:55am: I slept for so long and woke up with no alarms this morning :) feels amazing. Still had a huge orange chunk come out of my nose but it's less than before, I just don't know when it will stop lol (I literally had to get up while writing this and do another one). Last night I had to go to sleep unexpectedly early bc I had a milkshake and it made me so bloated omg. I think I'm officially at that age where I really can't just be eating anything 😂 of course I can bc I'm an independent woman 💅 but not without The Consequences. Also I just popped my BC in and I'm ready for my period to stop and also for the stomach issues to stop omg it's been rough out here. It really feels like spring break should be today, but the pros to it being next week are that it's one week closer to the end, I won't be on my period at all, and hopefully it will be warmer!! I'm tired of this cold ass weather!!
I feel good today besides the random brain thoughts that I don't particularly want. I need to figure out how to replace those thoughts with ones I do what. This journaling, as much ranting as it is, definitely helps me I guess regulate my runaway thoughts. I really want to take a post poop nap though those are the best so ttyl lmao.
10:47am: omg I continued to sleep until 9:50am I don't know how to explain to people how much sleep I really feel like I need. Idk it's probably depression but that's literally ok I'm just doing what I can. I still miss him and that's ok too. I don't really miss him I literally miss just having someone to talk to. But he fucked up and it's his loss, not mine. He lost a genuine person, and I lost a liar who cheats and steals money and nothing he does is genuine, it's all fake to get people to like him so he can use their shit for all it's worth. What's crazy is he's so fake he doesn't even care about these cats after he kept saying he misses them oh boohoo me it's like losing two kids, then blocks me so he'll effectively never fucking see them again. He's literally so fake AF. I take pride knowing I'm not a fake ass bitch and I don't lie to people. Doesn't matter if people believe me or not because I know I'm not lying about anything. If you think I'm lying, you just have something else going on in your life that you have to deal with clearly. This image of them getting on the bike together I think will stay with me for a while, I guess visuals are really my downfall. I know I'm the bigger person bc I literally said yeah y'all are cute together before he stopped speaking to me and everything was chill. It was chill because I made it chill. I made this entire friendship what it was and I'm really convinced of it now tbh. I don't like him, I like me and how I act towards him 😂 I like nice people, aka myself lmao.
If everyone likes me except for you.... Sorry I don't think I'm the problem boo 😘 just a matter of time before he does some more stupid shit I'm sure I'll hear about 🙄
Happy Friday!!
1:02pm ate my ramen leftovers and my boss is buying me CFA Cobb salad for work later :') people are awesome ❤️
10:09pm: JFC my feet hurt like hell. I wish I had a guy to rub my feet fr but one day lol. I just realized he didn't block me on sc so I could technically add him back whenever, I wonder if he's waiting for me to do that?? Hmmmm he's such a narcissist it's wild, plus the whole posting at me when I'm technically blocked on ig is actually crazy af. I bet $200 if he adds me back on ig that post will magically be gone or the caption would change. He's so petty and acts like a little bitch. Literally can't relate 💀
11:40pm: finished my law assignment and I'm so tired I think I'll eat my salad leftovers and literally pass out. My eyes are literally burning.
I really just be out here gaslighting tf outta myself. I'm sitting here like wowza I wish I had "guy" to vibe w me after getting done with my hw.... But it's been so long it's funny that I forget, that man in particular would NOT want to chill with me after I'm finished with my hw!! Name literally one time when he ever fucking did that?? Literally he never fucking did. I'm so gaslighting myself into thinking we'd be doing anything rn, he would've pissed me off all night and then would probably be asleep rn. There would not be random drive thru trips bc he's on a lame ass diet and won't stfu about it and there wouldn't be cuddling bc he would've pissed me off the entire afternoon sitting on his ass making fucking messes instead of contributing anything ever to the home we share and it would infuriate me!! That's not attractive 🙄 so yeah gaslighting tf out of myself to think that would be happening 🤣 it's been so long I forget how exhausting that bullshit was!! Don't go back sis you literally hated it!! Wack AF and manipulative tbh.
One day, there will be a man, he will rub my feet when I get off work, even better he'll see the insides of my shoes, know that I'm too busy/ADHD to remember to get insoles, and would surprise me with new insoles for my shoes ❤️ that's what care and love looks like. We will have a cute snack and then probably fuck before bed bc we are both grown and not scared of a little period fr, and he would get me a towel and draw up a shower for me afterwards and I'd come back into the clean bedroom with no dirty shit on the floor and get into my made bed and snuggle with the real love of my life who loves and respects me 🥰 manifesting lol 💕
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00:00 , the day ends | ii |
warnings: none a/n: last line was pretty cheesy
you didn’t go to bed right away after getting the call and you didn’t finish the show you were binging on. in all honesty, you didn’t know what to do. if now is the day you die then you’d tidy up your room, travel around the world, making cheesy letters for your friends— especially for jay. but right now, you were tidying up your room since you don’t have the money to travel the world.
after that, you sat in front of your desk getting some papers and pen, well if you’re going to leave the world at anytime of the moment then it’s time to write letters so they have a piece of you and your thoughts to hold on.
while writing you didn’t keep track of time, you had only looked at the clock in the middle of writing a letter. 4:48am, it’s been two hours since that call. some thoughts hit you here and there– especially about you going to hangout with jay later in the afternoon.
what if something happens? what if when you go out of this house you die on the spot?
you shake off your thoughts, “calm down, y/n, that won’t happen– you’ll probably die somewhere else” you say as you continue to write down the letter.
8:30am
the sky slowly changed its color and the sun was about to be up, you've had a nap for some hours, but you didn't feel well rested. you grab your phone to check the message notifications you have.
7:47am hee happy birthday y/n :p
hee we up for later?
8:31am you why r u awake so damn early?
hee couldn't sleep- so i pulled an all nighter
you "-_-anyways, yeah later at lunch, ok?
hee alright
10:10am
jake and sunghoon messaged you their birthday greetings and jay called you up to tell you he'll be picking you up later. you were still seated in front of your desk, putting the remaining letters in envelopes.
11:06am
you started getting ready but you were still nervous on what could happen. you sigh, shaking off the unwanted thoughts you had. then it got you thinking, should you go on and tell them you got the call?
12:11pm
jay picked you up and both of you were heading to the amusement park where you wanted to celebrate your birthday with them.
"hey, y/n? you're oddly quiet today, is there something wrong?" jay asked snapping you out from whatever you were thinking about. "huh? oh it's nothing" you say with a small smile. "really?" he asked to make sure. "yeah, yeah, nothing's wrong,” you tell him and he nods in response.
you just look at him as he drives and you wonder,
“if i told him right now that i’d be gone, what would he say?”
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Drag Con UK 2020 (Biadore) - Sarcastacnt
Greetings! I normally post over at that other place, but figured I would give this a shot since I do spend a lot of time lurking around these parts!
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10:45am from Yanx
Conference room 7 at 1. Don’t be fucking late.
Adore frowned at her phone as she read the text from Bianca, it was the first she had heard from Yanx all day. No ‘hey Pussyfart!’,no ‘how’s it going?’. Nothing other then those instructions.
10:47am from Pussyfart Hi to you too bitch.
10:56am from Pussyfart I’ll be there.
~*~
The conference room door was shut when Adore arrived, it was ten to one so maybe the previous occupants weren’t finished yet. She tentatively raised her hand and knocked on the door.
A moment later the door opened and a hand reached out to grab Adore’s shirt before hauling her inside. Adore barley managed to get a startled cry out before she was shoved up against the now closed door, a warm, familiar body holding her in place.
“B! What the hell?!”
“You have no fucking idea how much I missed you.” Bianca moaned right in Adore’s ear as she began to kiss the younger queen’s neck. Her hands found Adore’s waist and pressed their hips together.
“You could have- oh fuckk…. You coulda come see me…” Adore wrapped her arms around Bianca’s shoulders and held her tight. She tilted her head back and moaned as Bianca continued her assault on Adore’s neck. “Or called me.”
Bianca huffed against her skin, “I’ve had zero time for anything. I forced them to give me a decent lunch break, otherwise I’d still be at my booth.” She said before making her way from Adore’s neck to her ear with small licks and brief kisses.
Adore’s eyes had fluttered shut while Bianca worked her sensitive neck but she managed to pry one eye open to speak. “You should be spending that time eating then. Ohhh… you never eat properly when you’re working.” Despite her words, Adore was holding Bianca tightly.
“You want me to go eat?” Bianca muttered in her ear, making Adore shiver. “Or would you like me to fuck your gorgeous ass?” She ran her hands down to said ass and grabbed it roughly.
“Yanxx…” Adore moaned.
Bianca chuckled to herself as she moved one hand to grope Adore’s rapidly hardening cock through her pants. She was already well on her way to a full erection and Bianca could feel how fast Adore’s heart was beating every time she kissed her neck. “Tell me to stop chola.” Bianca challenged as she moved to look at Adore’s face before swiftly undoing the button of her tight, distressed jeans and pushing them open. “Tell me you don’t want me.”
Adore shook her head violently, “I always want you. Please don’t stop, I missed you so much.”
It had been almost a month since they’d been together. With Bianca in London for Jamie and Adore touring South America, there just hadn’t been time for them to meet up. Even phone and FaceTime calls had been few and far between.
“Then stop complaining and relax.” Bianca said, pressing their foreheads together as she reached around Adore to lock the conference room.
“Always ordering me around.” Adore rolled her eyes with a smirk, knowing that her childish behaviour would irritate Bianca.
“Hmm.” Was all Bianca said as she claimed Adore’s lips in a bruising kiss. She ignored the mess they were making of their make up as she licked at Adore’s lips. Her giant purse contained make up wipes and both of their foundations and lipsticks anyway. “I thought about told you to stop complaining?”
Adore blinked a few times, the kiss had left her brain foggy. “Unhun, you did. I like complaining though, what are you gonna do about it?” she teased, Bianca was being more assertive then usual and that almost always translated to hot, aggressive sex.
Bianca arched one painted on eye brow, “That how you wanna play chola?” she pulled Adore away from the wooden door and smacked her ass, hard.
Adore yelped before groaning, “I don’t know grandpa, you said yourself that you’ve been busy. You sure you’re not too old and tired to keep up with me?”
“Bitch.” Bianca said as she smacked Adore again and pushed her pants to the ground. Adore kicked off her shoes and stepped out of the jeans. As soon as she saw the black thong Adore wore, Bianca twisted the waist band in her hand. “Unlike your smart ass, I can go all night.”
“Sure you can.” Adore giggled before jerking as Bianca spanked her now mostly bare ass.
“I’m gonna make sure you have to spend the rest of the day on your feet. Your ass will be too sore to sit comfortably for a week.” Bianca said as she pulled Adore towards a table and pushed her to lay face down.
Adore tried to push herself up on her elbows to look at Bianca but the older queen gripped her bright green wig and pushed her head down. Once Adore complied with the desired position, Bianca turned her attention back to her ass. She ran her hands over the soft skin, the red marks from her hand only fueling her arousal. “Fuck I missed this ass.”
“Is that all I am to you?” Adore tried to sound put out but she couldn’t stop a laugh from escaping.
“Right now you’re a pain in my ass.” Bianca laughed as she spanked Adore a few more times. Seeing Adore squirm under her hands was quickly undoing her control.
“Oh fuck me…” Adore breathed as Bianca ran a finger over her entrance, applying just a little pressure to make her moan.
“Don’t worry baby, I have every intention of fucking you.” Bianca said, “Don’t fucking move.”
Adore did as she was told while Bianca went to her purse and pulled out a bottle of lube. The click of the cap made Adore shiver, the sound brining on memories of many days and nights lost in each other.
Bianca lubed up her fingers before shoving her index finger all the way inside Adore. Adore jerked at the sudden intrusion, “Fuck!” she cried out, gripping the edges of the table tightly.
“Relax love.” Bianca said softly, using her free hand to stroke the redden flesh of her ass. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
Adore smiled at the words, no matter how rough they got, Bianca always made sure she wasn’t really hurting her. It was one of the many reasons Adore had fallen so much in love with her.
“Good boy.” Bianca praised her as her body relaxed. Once Adore started moving her hips against Bianca’s hand, she pushed another finger inside. “You’re so tight, fuck I can’t wait to feel you around my cock.”
Bianca fucked Adore with two and then three fingers, watching the singer fall to pieces. Adore started begging for more, begging for Bianca to fuck her properly.
“Not yet,” Bianca said as she pulled up the hem of her short dress and took off her tights and underwear. She hadn’t bothered to tuck, hoping that today would progress exactly as it had. “Open up.” Bianca said as she moved to stand closer to Adore’s head, maintaining the rough finger fucking as she did.
Adore turned her head to see Bianca’s impressive erection in front of her face. She licked her lips before opening her mouth, tongue sticking out.
Bianca grasped her erection and smacked it on Adore’s tongue a few times before pushing inside her eager mouth. “Fuck.”
Adore hummed around her mouthful, causing Bianca to thrust hard into her mouth. “Fuck I love the way you look sucking my cock.” Bianca said as she ran her thumb over Adore’s lower lip. “You’re such a cock slut.”
Moaning loudly, Adore willed her throat to relax as she took Bianca all the way in. No small feat and something Adore took great pride in. Her deep throating skills were second to none.
Watching Adore thrust against the table while taking Bianca’s cock was quite the view. Her loud moans were only serving to make Bianca fuck both her face and her ass faster.
When a particularly rough thrust from her hips made Adore gag loudly, Bianca slowly pulled out of her mouth, watching a trail of spit and precum stretch between her cock and Adore’s mouth. The sight made Bianca shiver and she removed her fingers, smacking Adore’s ass a few more times. “Ready?”
Adore grinned and nodded eagerly. “Fuck me Yanx, fuck me hard.”
Bianca chuckled and shook her head before grasping Adore’s hips and turning her body so that her legs were hanging off the edge. “You asked for it.” She said as she drizzled lube onto her erection and giving herself a few strokes before pushing all the way into Adore in one harsh move.
“Fuck!” Adore exclaimed, it only took a handful of thrusts slamming against her prostate before she was moaning against the table. “Oh fuck… fuck that’s so good.”
Bianca slapped her ass as she fucked Adore. “Was there ever any doubt? Fuck you feel so god damn good.”
The table groaned with every thrust of Bianca’s hips, protesting the rough treatment. Neither queen paid it any attention though, they were too lost in the feel of each other.
When Adore tried to reach down and touch her own dripping cock, Bianca grabbed both her hands and held them tightly behind her back. Interlocking their fingers, “Let’s see if I can make you cum with just my cock. Think you can do that for me?”
Adore moaned in response, “Can you last that long?” she managed.
“You’re really trying to piss me off aren’t you?” Bianca asked as she shifted Adore’s hands so she could hold both wrists with one hand. Once her right hand was free, Bianca brought it crashing down on Adore’s ass. With every slap, the reddened flesh jiggled and Adore cried out.
“Fuck! Fuck, Roy I’m close! Fuck don’t stop! Right there!” Adore exclaimed as she tried to rock her hips to meet Bianca’s thrusts.
“Cum for me baby boy. Cum on my cock right fucking now!”
Intentional or not, Adore came hard. Her internal muscles gripping and pulsing around Bianca’s cock, making her moan. “Fuck, Danny!” she cried out as she came, filling her lover.
They spent a few moments catching their breath before Bianca leaned forward to kiss the back of Adore’s neck before withdrawing from her body. Both groaned at the loss, “Don’t move love.” Bianca said, moving to grab a packet of wet wipes from her purse. She cleaned Adore up and helped her off the table before wrapping her in a tight hug.
“I love you.” Bianca said as she kissed Adore’s forehead.
Adore smiled, “Love you too. I really missed you though, you need to call me more.”
Bianca chuckled, “Says the person who disappears for days at a time. Phones work two ways love.”
“I know,” Adore sighed and buried her face in Bianca’s neck. “How much longer before you have to go back?”
Bianca glanced at the clock, “Hour and a half.” She said sadly, “When do you need to be back in L.A?”
Adore thought for a minute, “Wellll, my flight leaves tomorrow but I’m off until next Monday.”
“Can you change your flight? I can’t promise we’ll have a ton of time together…but I really don’t want to say goodbye yet.”
Adore traced her hand over Bianca’s cheek, the admission was out of character and the sad tone even more so. “Even if we only see each other at night it’ll be totally worth it.” Adore smiled and rubbed their noses together, “I’m not ready to say goodbye either. I’ll call the airline before I go back to my booth.”
They got dressed and fixed their destroyed make up. Adore grabbed a wet wipe and cleaned up the mess she had made on the floor while Bianca gave the room one last look. “Let’s go to the dressing rooms, maybe we can find some lunch.”
Adore nodded, “Oh! I think there’s pizza!”
Bianca laughed and slung her purse over one shoulder before taking Adore’s hand. “Fucking pizza.”
They left the room together, Bianca still holding Adore’s hand. When Adore questioned the public display, Bianca stopped walking and pulled Adore to her. “It’s time to stop hiding this.”
Adore’s eyes went wide. “Wait, what? Like for real? You’ve always said…”
“I know what I’ve said before but Danny, we’ve been together for more then four years at this point. The only ones who know about us are a handful of queens and our families.” She placed a hand on her cheek, “I’m ready to come out and piss off every other drag queen on the planet with the biadore hash tag that’ll blow up Twitter. I love you, I want everyone to know how happy you make me.”
Adore felt her eyes start to sting, “Oh Yanx… that’s so sweet. You feelin’ ok?”
“Shut up cunt. I’m trying to ask you something!”
Adore cocked her head to the side, “I already said we could make it Facebook official. What else could you wanna know?”
“I wanna know if you want to marry me chola.”
Adore’s jaw dropped and she simply stared at Bianca for a long few moments. “Really B?” she asked in a small voice.
Bianca took both Adore’s hands and nodded. “I love you, so much. You make me happy, I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”
“Fuck, you’re gonna make me cry.” Adore said, trying to keep it together for the sake of her make up.
“Is that a yes?” Bianca was getting nervous.
Adore smiled so wide it threatened to split her face. Her green eyes, normally so bright seemed to positively sparkle. “Mmm, I’ll get back to you.” With that, Adore skipped off towards the dressing rooms, leaving a stunned Bianca in her wake.
“What… Hey! Get back here! That was a serious question you cunt!” Bianca called after the laughing figure before chasing after her.
Bianca caught up with Adore just as she reached the door to the enormous dressing room that all the queens were sharing. They burst through the doors laughing together, the queens already in the dressing room turned to face them with looks ranging from amusement to irritation.
“What have you two been up to?” came the eternally shady voice of Darienne Lake.
“Probably each other, behind a dumpster or something equally romantic.” Katya added.
“Only you think dumpsters are romantic you disgusting garbage person.” Trixie Mattel said fondly as she gave Katya a funny look, which sent the faux Russian into a fit of wheezey laughter.
“Thanks for your input, but I asked them.” Darienne rolled her eyes at the two blond queens. “So? Why are you so happy? There are thousands of people just outside those doors, that should make at least one of you miserable.”
“Oh fuck you-“
“Bianca just asked me a question.” Adore cut off Bianca’s reply to Darienne. She had a funny grin on her face and held her hands behind her back while she rocked back and forth on her heels.
Bianca whipped around to look at Adore, panic written all over her face. She had no idea what Adore was up to, or even what she was thinking.
“Which was..?” Katya prompted.
Trixie snorted, “It couldn’t have been that interesting. It’s Bianca! It’s not like she proposed or anything!”
“Proposed what?” asked Katya, looking very confused.
“Marriage! What else do people mean when they say someone’s proposed?”
Katya looked around and noticed that Bianca looked pale, even under her make up and Adore was grinning even wider then she had been a moment ago. “Oh mother, I do believe you may have been right after all.”
“I hate that voice!” Trixie laughed at Katya, “Wait, what did you say?” she turned to focus on Adore and Bianca. “No fucking way…”
Darienne clapped her hands together, “Are you serious?” she grabbed her phone, “Hold on! Lemme call Courtney!” she dialed and once the line connected said; “Miss Act! Our babies are finally getting married!”
Everyone in the room heard the loud scream come through the phone. Darienne closed the eye closest to the phone and passed it to Adore, “Tell her she owes me money for hearing aids!”
Before Adore could say anything, Bianca snatched the phone away. “Hey Pussyface. I did. I don’t know she hasn’t answered me yet and this whole thing suddenly became very public. Hold on.” She handed the phone back to Darienne.
“Are you going to answer her?” Trixie asked, her voice was hesitant.
Adore nodded, “Yep. But since she proposed out of nowhere I figured I would torment her a little bit first.” She turned back towards Bianca and took her hands, “I really couldn’t resist. Sorry Yanx.”
Bianca sighed, “It’s fine, I kind of wish I was dead right now but it’s fine.��� She squeezed Adore’s hands, “So chola? What’s it going to be?”
Adore laughed, “You’re terrible at this!” she leaned forward, kissing Bianca sweetly. “Yes Roy, I will absolutely marry you.”
Bianca breathed a very visible sigh of relief and pulled Adore into a tight hug. “Fucking took you long enough.”
“Can we get excited now?” Darienne asked, “I’m pretty sure Courtney is going to die if we don’t start soon.”
Bianca rolled her eyes and Adore gave Darienne a thumbs up. “Go for it! We’re getting married bitches!”
A loud cheer came from most of the other queens as Bianca pulled Adore into a kiss, but not before whispering in her ear. “You’re gonna pay for this chola. Remember we’re sharing a bed for the next week. I can take my time.”
Adore shivered, “I can’t wait.” She said as Bianca kissed her, wrapping her arms tightly around Adore as she did so.
“You just wanted to piss me off so I’d take it out on your ass, didn’t you?” Bianca asked, “You could just tell me you’re into masochism.”
Adore grinned, “But you’re hot when you’re pissed off!” she laughed as she kissed Bianca again. ~*~
Later on that afternoon, Bianca walked by Adore’s booth and grinned as she saw the singer standing up, instead of reclining in the comfortable chair she had set up. Even when she had a down minute, Adore remained on her feet.
Bianca chuckled and made her way back to her own booth. She was very lucky to have Adore in her life and soon it was going to be official.
The End.
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Friends Don’t Look at Friends That Way Pt2 (jj x reader)
Word Count: Around 1,300 (sorry!lol)
Warnings: Alcohol mentions, angst
Music Rec: One Way St. - Jhene Aiko (just a good song and is mentioned in the chapter :)
Part One
Recap: “And with that JJ laid back again and you found yourself in his arms. It wasn’t right, but you could get used to the way it felt even though you wanted more.”
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It had been about a week since that night, but your head was still as clouded. JJ hadn’t called you once which was definitely not your style and it was beginning to worry you. Is he ok? Or maybe I was too forward?
Maybe he just doesn’t want to be around you anymore.
You shook your head as a half-assed attempt to put a stop to the self-deprecating thoughts and instead focused on the music playing through your headphones as you came home from work, but that proved to be less than helpful. “Going the wrong way down a one way street.” Jhene couldn’t have said it better and frankly you felt like a semi carrying a shit ton of rejection and hurt was barreling towards you, no evidence of it slowing down and ready for a head on collision. Bracing before a crash, emotional or otherwise, had never been your specialty. You already felt like shit and you couldn’t imagine what would happen if he actually talked to you about it. You had never been one for confrontation, but he had left you on read for a week now and you were going nuts trying to figure out what you did.
Your feet hit the pavement in a slow rhythm, but as you began to think about what he was doing (or not doing) your pace began to pick up. At this point you were angry, how could he be so childish?! You were just trying to talk to him and he didn’t even bother looking at the last message! That really hurt your feelings and you could feel the tears welling up in your eyes. Fuck him then. Your shoes hit your colorful doormat as you entered your house prepared to look the hottest you had ever looked for the kegger tonight. Walking into the kitchen you quickly grabbed the bottle of vodka from your parents cabinet knowing that they wouldn’t miss it and marched up your stairs. One thing was for sure, you didn’t need JJ to have fun. Or at least that’s what you told yourself.
Unfortunately JJ’s thoughts were just as scattered. It was only 2 in the afternoon and he had already begun pregaming for the celebration tonight, but then again it might have just been a happy coincidence. He stared at the texts you had sent him and all he could do is run a hand over his face only pausing to take a gulp of the beer in his hand.
“wanna surf tom?” --read 8:02am
“????” --read 8:23pm
“you good?” --read 7:48am
“just talk to me” --read 10:47am
“what did i do” -- delivered fri 4:30
read sun 10:23
Fuck. He didn’t want to hurt her so he kept his distance, yet he still managed to make her feel bad. Once again this proved to himself that he was just a walking disaster. He knew by Saturday night that if he didn’t back away now it would just get so much worse. John B. came home the morning after to JJ huddled in the blue sheets of his spare room, eyes rimmed with red and for once it wasn’t from smoking. After hauling him out of bed and forcing him to take a shower, John B. questioned him over breakfast that JJ had tried to refuse multiple times. A text from you lit up his screen, and his face immediately dropped. He was a fucking wreck and anyone who saw him could figure it out. He loved you. There was no point in denying it now, especially to John B. A boy who spent years trying to convince his best friend that he was a good person who deserved a healthy, happy love. Needless to say, he still wasn’t successful despite his efforts.
“She makes you so happy dude, I mean we can all see it. You are so damn happy. She makes you do things that you would never think of doing and you love it….She...She makes you think before you act because you know that it would destroy her if anything happened to you. For once you actually give a shit about your future and that’s because of her!”
By this point John B. was almost yelling as he had no clue how else to get it through his head that you loved each other.
Calming down he said, “ I mean really...is this what you want? Because you deserve better than this….She deserves better than this.”
Not a single muscle in his face moved when he stood up from the chair, the screech from the legs rubbing on the ground echoing as the sentence hung in the air. A part of JJ knew John B. was right, but ultimately he would never risk your happiness to make room for his own.
“Thanks for the breakfast.”
Feet padding against the wooden floor, JJ made his exit right into the room he came from, no regard for what his best friend had said. With a huff John B. decided that this was a battle he’d fight another day and left to go see Sarah. When the door slammed shut, tears fell from JJ’s eyes. It’s ok if he thought he was stupid, at the end of the day JJ was doing what he thought would help you.
Night was approaching and you were ready as ever for tonight’s festivities to begin. Kie had come over and you were screaming the words to various songs as you guys got ready for the night. It didn’t take you long as you both were never huge fans of full glam looks, but could appreciate it on other people. As you checked yourself out in the mirror you couldn’t help but smile. You were all for body positivity, but you were never a super skinny girl and sometimes that made you insecure. But today. Today you loved the way your curves filled out your too short cut offs. Between that, Kie’s halter top, and the layered necklace that fell perfectly in the middle of the deep v neckline, you were irresistible. Kie grabbed your hand and pulled you downstairs as you headed out for the party.
The dull thumps from the speakers began to get louder as you guys approached in the car and before you knew it you were parked and ready to get out, fingers wrapped around the silver handle. This was a mistake. Although it was just a flash of trepidation, Kiara had seen it and asked, “(y/n), you ok?” and frankly you had no clue. Were you ok? I mean no you weren’t and you definitely wouldn’t be tonight, but did you need to worry her. The silence was answer enough for her and she studied your face.
“We don’t have to go y’know. I’m ok with not going and I can just tell the guys we hungout all night?”
“No, no it’s ok. It’s just...JJ hasn’t been talking to me lately and I don’t know why, but to be honest I think I do, but I don’t want to think that way.”
Kie stared at you waiting for you to continue with a slight nod to show she was listening. After a moment of hesitation, you turned your body so that your open back was no longer against the leather seat and your knees were pointed at her despite how small the car was. Even though you were facing her, your eyes refused to meet hers as you focused on chipping away at your nail polish while you spoke.
“I..I just...we had a moment last saturday. I mean I thought we did and I think I like him and...and I think he knows and is just avoiding me until he finds the right way to reject me. He just kept leaving me on read and I figured the best revenge was to look great tonight. But honestly, I guess I just wanted to make him realize that I can be more than a friend.”
Kie had had enough. JJ was acting like a dumbass and she wasn’t going to let him hurt her friend. You are the sweetest person that she knows and you deserved a guy who would give you the same effort that you always gave others. She began to smile as she started planning the rest of your night in her head and she was going to make sure you had the time of your life. She reached into the backseat and handed you the bottle you had snagged earlier and after spinning the top off you took your first of many shots that night.
“You deserve to have a good night. Without JJ. Let’s fucking do this.”
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Part 3
Sorry to leave you guys on another cliffhanger I hate it when writers do it lol! But honestly thank you guys so much for all of the messages that you have sent me and all of the likes that you have left on part one. It was my first ever fanfic so it felt super good to see that you guys enjoyed it. I am going to start working on part 3 right after I post this, but idk if I will stop the story with that part. I’m new to this so let me know if you want to be on a taglist of if you have any requests for any character from any show. I’m not picky! Anyways love you all and I hope you’re staying safe.
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CELESTIAL FORECAST
Week 16-22
Before I dive into this I have to highlight the importance of Saturn's transit into Aquarius. At the end of this week right after the equinox, Saturn will briefly leave Capricorn and enter Aquarius for a short while until Summer where it will retrograde back into Capricorn. This time before the event and window of growth will allow us to see what no longer is stable in our communities and will push us to revolutionize our society. Even the transits coincide with the current pandemic. Saturn is a planet that acts like an earthquake, testing the solid foundations of the systems we put in place and if those foundations are not real, honest or practical, they will crumble in the quake. With Saturn transiting Capricorn for two and a half years, (conjuncting Pluto, the planet of death and transformation), we were tasked to re-evaluate how systems of government and authority ruled and transform them if need be. These last few days highlighted by the pandemic revealed corruption in many corners of our society when our communities are in need of support the most. Now with Saturn's transit into Aquarius it may call us into action to protect or fortify our communities.
Saturn in Aquarius is a powerful placement that deserves a post on it's own. It's another sign that Saturn is domicile in but instead of Capricorn which can be restrictive and about business and hard work, Aquarius focuses on new ideas, trailblazing, communal efforts and individuality.
This whole week has a lot of saturnine influence which will get us ready for the shift happening on Sunday. Starting off with the final quarter moon it will be a time to shed, rethink what we need and re-strategise our plans for the shift that is coming ahead.
Notes: I write for a group of Witches in London so weeks are from Monday to Sunday and the time is set to UTC.
16th
VOC 10:34AM-5:25PM FINAL QUARTER Moon in Capricorn ☾ Lunar trine with Uranus in Taurus ☾ Lunar sextile with mercury in pisces ☾ Lunar square with chiron in aries
Energy: The Final quarter is a great time to shed and let go of anything unneeded. Especially with the Spring Equinox around the corner, you should look at what you need to shed from your life either physically or metaphorically. Change out your wardrobe, clean up your space, clean up your altar, wipe away the ashes, think about any unfulfilling or toxic relationships and think of graceful ways of ending them (Aquarius is the sign that rules the 11th house which is a sign of networks and communities and Saturn will move into it at the end of the week so it's definitely a moment to distance yourself from communities that you find toxic.)
Even if you may not know what needs to go yet, the moon will make a square with Chiron in Aries that will bring up deep wounds or hurt feelings. It could remind you of previous pain or trauma which could make a portion of the day feel unpleasant. However where the pain lies is the key to healing. Reflect on what triggered your moods and take the steps to move those elements out of your life. The moon will make a positive trine with Uranus which will further help you make changes around the home or your routine if need be. There will be a positive sextile with mercury in Pisces which will also help you see things clearly and bring balance to the intuitive emotional side and the rational judgement-making side of things. Overall it's a great day to review and cleanse.
Recommendations: Cleansing, divination, self reflection, banishing
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17th
Moon in Capricorn ☾ Lunar trine with Venus in Taurus ☾ Lunar sextile with eros in pisces ☾ Lunar square with Juno rx in Libra
Energy: The mood today may be a continuous theme of shedding yet this time the focus is on romance. With the moon making a square with Juno rx in Libra we may remember past loves or infatuations that could have been painful or filled with people whom were emotionally unavailable. Overall this transit could manifest in many ways making us feel lonely but it's good to self reflect and make changes now. The moon will be making positive aspects by trining with Venus in Taurus and sextiling with Eros in Pisces. These two very sensual and passionate placements could make the day feel romantic and bring us to want to express our sensual sides. Together with the Juno rx square could potentially rush some to want to find a partner that could fulfill their needs but it wouldn't be the best time to act on those feelings. Instead you can use the trine and sextile as a positive outlet for your creative pursuits, self care or money magic. If you are still feeling frustrated using the sextile for sex magic could bring about positive results.
Recommendations: self love magic, glamours, money magic, working on creative projects, sex magic
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18th
Moon in Capricorn ☾ Lunar conjunction with Mars, Jupiter, pluto, saturn ☾ Lunar trine with Sedna in Taurus ☾ Lunar sextiles with the Sun and Neptune in Pisces
Energy:
The energy today will feel high and powerful as the planets Mars, Jupiter, Pluto and Saturn all in Capricorn will blend in a Lunar conjunction as the moon transits across them today. This power brings us the ambition, potential, responsibility and influence to tackle tasks or review our needs maturely. Along with these conjunctions the moon will make a positive trine with mysterious Sedna in Taurus which will give us the ability to use our power to creative opportunities from our current reality. On top of these beneficial transits the moon will also make a sextile with the sun and neptune which will give a sense of inner balance, harmony, empathy and heightened psychic abilities.
Recommendations: Focus on the tasks you need to get done. Moon in Capricorn loves to tackle goals or neglected responsibilities and today you will have the ability to take care of it all. General Saturnine aligned magic from cottage witchcraft, ancestral magic, lithomancy, (If you are forced to stay home due to the current global situation it would be ideal to focus on the home or what work you have not had the time to do that you can pour your energy into now).
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19th
Sun in Pisces sextiles Saturn in Capricorn
VOC 1:47AM-2:15AM Moon in Aquarius ☾ Lunar sextile with chiron in aries ☾ Lunar square with Uranus in Taurus
Energy:
Today will be another great day to get work done with the Sun in Pisces making a positive sextile with Saturn in Capricorn. The flow of the two energies give patience, perseverance and a strong work ethic which makes today an excellent time to meet your goals. You will have the determination to get practical results and have the mental strength to complete difficult tasks.
The moon will move into Aquarius and make a square with Uranus in Taurus creating tension where we need change or innovation in our lives. This could cause sudden surprises, exposed secrets or disruptions in the homes. Positively this energy can be used to help bring dramatic changes into our lives. Additionally the moon in Aquarius will sextile with Chiron in Aries which will provide some insight and healing into the wounds that could have been freshly cut open on the final quarter moon in Capricorn a few days ago. The sextile could illuminate some areas that we need to work on which the Sun Saturn Sextile could help us confront if it also highlights a difficult task.
Recommendations: Get work done!! Wear carnelian or hematite for determination and focus. Drink enchanted coffee or tea and get to work. Make a mood board or a bullet point list.
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20th
SUN ENTERS ARIES Spring equinox - Ostara
Mars conjunct Jupiter in Capricorn
☾ Lunar conjunction with Ceres in Aquarius ☾ Lunar trine with Juno rx in Libra ☾ Lunar square with Venus in Taurus
Energy: It is the Spring Equinox! One of the loveliest witches' sabbats marking the beginning of spring, the restart of the zodiac cycle (for the northern hemisphere) and honoring new life and the inner child. This sabbat symbolizes the point of the year where we can look for new opportunities, have the drive to go after them and see the seeds that we've sown bud and sprout.
The sun will move into Aries marking the beginning of Aries season. Until April 20th the overall theme will be our ideas, individuality, fighting to achieve our goals and going after our passions. Mars will conjunct Jupiter in Capricorn today which is the most ideal transit in theme with Ostara and spring equinox. It is perfect for starting anything that requires energy, initiative and courage. You will have the self-confidence to achieve major success at this time from a new career, new projects or relationships.
The energy today will feel powerfully communal and may inspire people to come together. The moon in Aquarius will create a conjunction with Ceres in Aquarius creating a need for care and nurturing for the community. Additionally the moon will square Venus in Taurus which will increase our need for self indulgence, affection and pleasure. Along with the trine with Juno retrograde in Libra this may make us either moody and in need to fulfill our lonely feelings by indulgence or incredibly social, flirty and in the mood to share pleasureful experiences. It's a great day to have a gathering, go out and enjoy spring, reconnect with members in your community and set goals into motion for the new cycle.
Recommendations: Celebrate the spring equinox. Put goals into motion, connect with new people with ideas that align with yours. Cast spells to manifest a new reality, do spring-like magic such as sprouting seeds with intention, and sowing them in pots on your windowsill. Divination, if you are friends or allies with trees and local spirits, do a nature walk to greet them. Collect spring shower rain water for spells. Write down your goals for the new cycle. Brainstorm ways to manifest them into your current reality.
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21st
Moon in Aquarius VOC 9:59AM-12:33PM Moon in Pisces ☾ Lunar conjunction with Mercury ☾ Lunar sextile with Uranus in Taurus ☾ Lunar square with Sedna in Taurus
Energy: Today new ideas will seem to come to you left in right. This will be a fruitful time if you were focusing on trying to manifest ways to bring your goals this year into reality as today you may find more ease when it comes to whipping up ingenious ideas and implementing change in your life. The moon in innovative Aquarius will make a positive sextile with Uranus in Taurus which will bring stimulating new encounters, critical pieces of information, instant friendships or exciting events. This will prompt you to want to make changes in your life or actively seek it out. It's a great time for trying something new. The moon will conjunct with Mercury in Pisces fusing the two energies to help highlight our feelings and communicate them. Since our moods may be forefront in our minds this window of opportunity could prove to be useful if we reflect on our emotional desires and use that to go for what we truly want instead of suppressing our feelings. Lastly the moon will make a square with Sedna which will give us the drive to want to create opportunities from our current life. Often if this tension is not acted upon or neglected it has the potential to make us feel bitter or unlucky in life as we are unable to create the reality that we truly want. It's a good opportunity to go for our goals other than waste this window of time otherwise we may feel upset with ourselves.
Recommendations: Use attraction glamour, wear carnelian, bismuth, titanium quartz or tektite to boost your the transits energetic abilities for positive change. Making potions with intention to keep positive with active ingredients such as rhodiola rosea, st. johns wort, vervain (don't use any of these if you are on antidepressants). Attraction magic, money magic
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22nd
SATURN ENTERS AQUARIUS Mercury in Pisces Sextiles Uranus in Taurus Venus in Taurus sextiles Neptune in Pisces ☾ Lunar conjunction with Eros in Pisces ☾ Lunar sextile with Venus in Taurus
Energy: Today the energy is gonna SHIFT y'all!! IT'S GONNA SHIFT!! I am partically anxious/excited for this transit cause it will be my Saturn Return. (Though not quiet, I am a bit lucky in a way I will get to have a 'sample' taste of this transit until it retrogrades in Summer so I can reflect on everything then have an actual test run again then get my return sometime next year when Saturn crosses over 11 degrees in Aquarius). Yet also the world really needs for Saturn to be in Aquarius. Things will become communal, technology will evolve before our very eyes to benefit the masses. Saturn being the planet of Karma will also review what has trespassed around 30ish years ago during it's last transit in Aquarius. There is a lot of room for social justice and revolution in the communities.
In addition to this new chapter we will embark on, Mercury and Uranus in Taurus will make a sextile bringing in new inspirations, sudden insights, epiphanies and being able to perceive things in greater detail. Additionally the lovely Venus will be making a sextile with Neptune which will add elements of creativity, art and beauty to our new ideas. Finally the moon will be aligned with Eros and make a positive sextile with Venus which will give us the passion and drive to be creative and desire to create art or beauty. Additionally this is a great day for manifesting new friendships with aligned ideals or love attraction spells for new romance.
Recommendations: If you want to align yourself with Saturn's transit this would be a good day for journaling and reviewing your life and goals that you wanted to work on. Divination, love magic, self love magic, dream magic, bullet point journaling, road opening magic
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Day of stage one RFF phalloplasty
Recovery days 1 and 2
FRIDAY 1/2
5:18am: I woke up 2 minutes before the alarm. Maddy and I woke up about the same time, I gave her a hug and we got ready for the day.
5:25am: I had a shower, my last shower before surgery. I washed myself with some antibacterial cleanser and brushed my teeth.
5:47am: Mum and Maddy had some coffee and tea, and I had nothing. We had a little bit of a chat before surgery.
6:03am: we left the house and headed to the hospital. We were all a little in shock by how bright it was. The sun was up when we woke up at 5:20! No daylight savings and just being a little more tropical I guess. There were heaps of people out and walking their dogs.
6:46am: we made it to the surgery check in counter- we got a little lost! Just waiting in line to check in. It was mainly done online so it shouldn’t take too long.
6:55am: everything is all sorted. I paid for my excess and now I’m just waiting for the nurse.
7:18am: I went in for my questions. Mum and Maddy waited outside. Then we went to the bay area and I changed out of my clothes and into my gown. Dr Goossen came in and went over everything again, so everyone knew what was going to be happening. He said he’d ring mum once i was out to keep her up to date.
7:32am: I was wheeled down into the anaesthetic room and met my anaesthetist, Dr Booth. He went over my history again and put an IV in my hand. I was wheeled into theatre, but due to some issue the surgery was delayed. I was given something to relax me while we waited to get the go ahead. I’m not sure how long I was waiting for or when the op actually started because of that, but I believe it was about half an hour? (edit: I found out later that it actually was an hour and a half, it definitely didn’t feel like that) The nurses were really nice, we talked about game of thrones, trashy TV and Harry Potter. By pure coincidence, thinking out loud by Ed Sheeran was playing- the same song that was playing when I was going under for my top surgery!
~5:20pm: I came to in recovery. I wasn’t in too much pain, my arm was all wrapped up and there was a lot of padding around the phallus. I felt surprisingly good. I had a button to press for fentanyl if I needed it. They did the doppler on the phallus to check blood supply, and I could hear that it was nice and strong. Hans and Scott came down to see how I was going and I got to actually see it....and I cried a little. Not my finest moment and probably to do with the meds, I was just so happy that It’s THERE! My pain was sitting at about a 3/10, and it was mainly sore on my butt incisions and my groin incision on the right side. I could wiggle my fingers well. My hand was a little cold so the nurse wrapped the gallows in a warm blanket to warm them up a bit- worked a treat! I was taken to my room.
~7:20pm: I got to my room, mum and Maddy were there. I was able to chat to them for a bit. I wasn’t allowed to eat anything but I had a little bit of water.
Overnight I had some routine obs done every hour. This involved my blood pressure, temperature and pulse being taken, a doppler on my phallus to check blood flow, wiggling my fingers and checking blood perfusion and finally my pain out of 10. Surprisingly, even with all of that every hour, I still had a pretty good sleep! My pain never got higher than a 5/10. My arm didn’t bother me too much either which is good. It was really weird sometimes. It felt like my arm was in a different position to where it actually was, for example in my head I thought it was lying across my chest when really it was in the sling hanging up. I would sleep pretty much from when the nurse left until she came back again.
I’ve got quite a few bits and bobs coming out of me, this is the setup we’ve got going on: My right arm is up and in a sling. I have a lot of padding around my groin, including a drain from my abdomen. There’s a drain coming out of my phallus and a catheter in my new urethra to keep it open, as well as one in my current urethra for voiding. In my left arm I have two IVs- one with my saline and fentanyl and one spare. I’m on oxygen for the time being as well. I have to wear compression socks and pumps on my legs as well to prevent swelling . A lot is happening and going on lol. My night was just sleeping and having my obs done.
SATURDAY 2/2
8:40 am: Hans came in with another urologist to take a look at how I was healing. He said I will probably get the drain out of the phallus on Sunday if it continues with how it has been healing which is good. He is happy with how the blood supply is going. He said the nerve hookup went well and that I should have pretty good sensation once the nerves grow back. We discussed the incisions behind the bum and I asked if they were stapled like how it’s done in the UK. Huzzah, sutured! I thought they would be but it was comforting all the same. The last thing I’d want would be to have staples removed from below my butt. He said that depending on who was around on Sunday I may be allowed to get out of bed which would be amazing. Fingers crossed.
9:00am: catering came by and I was given some breakfast. I had some toast and jam, and some orange juice.
I was also moved to be in right position as I couldn’t reach my breakfast properly. Two nurses moved me further up the bed so I was in a more comfortable position. First they laid the bed flat then slid a red-silk piece of material underneath me by getting me to roll onto my side and sliding the material underneath my butt. Then I rolled back onto my back, they pulled the material through so it was properly underneath me and then used it to pull me up the bed. I wasn’t strong enough in my legs to push myself up the bed.
9:20am: I had some blood taken. The guy who was doing it seemed a little confused as to why a 22 year old man was here all the way from Melbourne. I just went with it lol.
~9:30 am a nurse came in and have me hot towels for sponge bath. She left me to my own devices and wiped down face and body as that was all I could reach. It was refreshing. The nurse said she would change sheets later, probably tomorrow (Sunday) and I didn’t really think anything of it. Relaxed for a while and waited for Maddy, mum and a friend from school who happened to be in Brisbane to come and visit.
11:30 - just as my visitors arrived, two nurses came in and were confused as to why my sheets hadn’t been changed earlier and offered to do it for me. It was a similar process to how they move me further up the bed earlier with the silk. I rolled onto my side, they removed the old sheets and tucked the new ones under my butt. I then rolled onto my other side so they could pull the sheets through. They also replaced the absorbent sheet underneath me as I was oozing from my incisions a bit (perfectly normal but a little gross).
I had some time with my girlfriend, Mum and a friend from school. We hung out and had a bit of a chat which was nice. I felt quite awake and alert and was able to talk quite freely. They stayed until about 1:00pm, and also came back later at about 4:00pm. I had a nap in between. Throughout the whole day I also continued having hourly checks from the nurses.
SUNDAY 3/2
Overnight Saturday was similar to the first night but I was more restless so I didn’t sleep as well. It was very warm overnight, i has the fan on but my legs were still quite sweaty and itchy as a result of the combination of compression socks and the pumps on my legs as well as my leg hair. It was very itchy and hard to sleep because it kept tickling.
~8am on Sunday I had antibiotics and after that I had a sudden wave of nausea and felt like I would throw up. I told the nurse and she gave me a bag right away and I just allowed the wave to pass. I didn’t end up throwing up but I did come close to doing so. I was given some anti-nausea medication intravenously and that helped a lot.
~9:30am I asked if I could have my sheets changed as I felt really sweaty and clammy. It was pretty busy though so I had to wait for the nurses to be free. At about 10am Hans’ registrar came in and had a look at the phallus. There was minimal swelling and it was looking good so he removed the small drain from it. I couldn’t feel it. Once it was removed there was a little bit of bleeding coming out of the tip, but not much at all. He said everything was looking good. I video called some friends in Melbourne and then called Maddy to see what they were up to today.
~11:30am, a nurse came in to change over my sheets and give me a sponge bath. Boy, it was worth the wait! She wiped down my legs and changed my compression socks over, and then changed my sheets. It made me feel so much better, but did tire me out a bit. Maddy and Mum came over to visit me, and I had some fruit. Since Maddy is leaving Monday she got to stay for the day. We watched some TV together, but I was very exhausted so a lot of the time was spent with me asleep and her holding my hand (I love you for that Maddy, sorry I was so boring xx)
~3:30pm: Hans called me to see how I was traveling. He said I seemed to be doing well and said my blood work came back normal. He said he’d be in Monday morning to check up on me, and that I should be able to get out of bed then! How exciting!
~6pm Mum came back and her and Maddy helped get me some dinner. I had some decaf tea and juice, and that definitely helped give me a little more strength. I’ve got some fruit next to me that I can pick at overnight if I’m feeling peckish.
~6:30pm mum and Maddy left. Dr Ingram came down to check on me and he was also happy with how it was all going. He said he would touch base over the next few days and to let him know if I have any questions.
7:13pm: my last hourly check! The past 48 hours have been absolutely exhausting, mainly because I had to be woken up every hour for my check ups! Now that it’s been 48 hours I can drop down to checks every 2 hours. Doesn’t sound like much but I’m very keen for that.
9:27pm: I had the second spare cannula removed from my hand- it was just getting annoying at this point. My IVs also were falling off due to the tape, so a nurse has given me a little glove to keep them in place, and it’s worked a treat.
10:03pm: I’ve just finished off these notes and I’ll post them ASAP. All in all, pain has stayed consistent at about 3-4/10. Still have an IV and my arm in the sling. Still have my fentanyl button and oxygen. Legs are still in the pumps. I still have a catheter but that should come out tomorrow, along with my abdominal drain.
The catheter in the phallus will stay there, along with all the padding around it and my arm until I leave the hospital. I’m feeling a little more mobile, I can move my legs a little and scoot up if I’m too low on the bed, but that’s all the movement I’ve really been allowed to do for now. I’m gonna sleep now and will update in the morning hopefully when I’m allowed out of bed!
Thanks for all the kind words and support and I hope this has been helpful/interesting 😄
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Lumberjack AU Pairing: Ryan Haywood x Reader WC: 1650+
You don’t remember making dinner, only knowing you did based on the potatoes and sliced meat bundled together in the fridge. And the mess you’d left all across the countertop. It’s the same with falling asleep - stinging and dry mouth the only remnants of a dead night. That, and the pain twinging up and down your neck, leaving you wincing. What you do remember is eying up the large grooves tracing the side of the lodge, grating against your door. Just animals, Ryan had said. No need to worry.
You’re not sure you believe him, but you’re too tired to care.
With a groan you stretch out of the armchair you’d somehow curled into for hours, thick blanket slipping to the floor with a muted thud. Everything refuses to cooperate. Stiff and sore as you force your limbs to work. It takes a while but you manage to stand, unsteady on bruised feet before a stumbled steps sees you lurching for the mantle. Clumsy fingers stop your fall, forehead resting against the wall. Beneath you embers smoulder in the hearth, wood charred and cracked like burning scales buried in the fireplace.
It's still dark. Window humming with cold and garden doused in the incredibly deep blues of night. Thick like a choking film, impenetrable with such sore eyes. You consider your room, thinking of the bed you'd made yesterday in the hopes of curling up in it, and the path you'd mentally prepared yourself to forge. It would be so easy to bunker down for days, eyes trained to the treeline and chin burrowed in blankets. But you can't sleep anymore, not with the eerie shapes lurking in the corners. And certainly not with the beams of light emanating from the bulb you've hastily flicked on. Besides, you'd promised yourself that it'd be different here, that you wouldn't let the world pass by from the confines of your duvet. Wouldn't let self loathing leave you bedridden. You were going to take life and run with it, willing or not; which means recognising the fact that if you can't sleep, you might as well work. Still, your body has other ideas, rebelling against your efforts.
4:47am, insists your phone. Far too early to start anything, but too late to work in more sleep. At least, not with a day as packed as you've forced it to be. There's nothing else to do besides coax yourself into moving, one foot falling in front of the other and a forearm diving into the closest box. It shouldn’t be hard to do some unpacking before leaving for Hay Woodworks, you tell yourself sternly, and if you start before the sun rises you should be able to get at least one room finished before lunch. But that process can wait for another hour, argues the monumental growl of your stomach and the dry aching of your abdomen. First comes food.
Breakfast passes in a daze. Scrambled eggs and toast you're lucky you didn't burn, nothing but plastic cutlery and paper plates until you're able to find the crockery. You almost forget about the tea sat on the side, caught up in the memories you've long since chosen to forget and the packing paper scattered across every surface you can find. Almost. Cup pressed to your lips, tepid warmth wasting no time before radiating in your chest. Gentle at first, creeping through your limbs until you can feel your fingers for the first time today.
Its with the rising of the sun hours later, and splashes of washed pinks and blues, that you feel more like yourself. Hopeful again, and as determined as ever. Snow can’t dampen your mood, and not simply because there is none. The sky remains a clear crystal blue, so bright that what remains on the ground in patches shines. Even the greens of the trees look happier, deep forest hues coming alive. The promise of a new day seeps across the floorboards with the morning's fresh light, touching your toes and working across your back while you busy with unpacking. Tedious exercises of interior design, a guessing game of what goes where and who’s is what.
Another hour and the kitchen is completed far sooner than expected, no longer home to only the necessities of a kettle and cup. The cupboards are lined and pantry packed, fridge brimming healthily in the now cozy space. Pride thumps with the beat of the speakers you’d found midway through the process, music now marrying with the warmth of the roaring fire, flooding the corners and burrowing into the rugs. You'd celebrate the accomplishment with another cup of tea if you could, but the muffled tone of your phone, buried beneath empty boxes, stops the idea short. Disheartened, but only for a moment, the once forgotten flash of Jeremy's name across the screen reignites the possibility of taking a much deserved break.
And with his name the world feels alien, like the years haven’t passed and the tears that’d littered your bed sheets over countless nights were never shed. The warmth of the room twists into one of the many summer’s days you thought you’d never experience again, bringing with it an uncomfortable tightness in the skin spanning your shoulders. There had been numerous times when you’d considered deleting his number, erasing his existence and all the memories that come along with it.
But, god, you’re glad you didn’t.
Jeremy: I clock in @ 10. Coffee at the place opposite Geoff's Mercantile?
Y/N: I'll be there in 30.
You take the steps two at the time, all suitcases long since allocated to rooms and the banister overlooking the kitchen and living space finally free of everything you’d tossed over it. Barging into your room, you swim through the clutter, wrestling over books and battling to the bathroom. Looking around, you’re glad you’d thought ahead and kept it relatively clean. Swiping your toothbrush and working through the motions, you’re halfway through your hair when the next text arrives.
Jeremy: Still drink chai?
You can’t believe he has to ask.
Y/N: Chai is the love of my life.
Too busy pulling on the thickest cable knit sweater you own, the reply goes muffled until you return with a hat in hand. On the screen flashes a photo that must’ve arrived just before you hit send on your last message, Jeremy smiling between two steaming drinks.
Jeremy: You have 10 mins before I drink it and you buy your own.
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The path into Motbury’s town centre is incredibly familiar at this point. Traversed so frequently in the past few days that you can recount every dip in the uneven stone, and know when to let your hand drift in the hopes of touching the spongy moss that waits to greet you. Eventually, and rather regretfully, you say goodbye to the isolation of your home and it’s expansive nothingness lined with trees, welcoming the warm smell of baked goods and hum of civilization. It creeps from the bottom of the hill, sandwiched between the banks and gently smoking with the puff of tens of chugging fireplaces. The clusters of homes and stores are almost indistinguishable from one another, doused in lackluster snow and looking as though they belong in one of those expensive Christmas decorative towns your Grandma used to collect.
Gripping the gnarled wooden fencing, you take the stairs will little regard for the ice lying in wait, dampness leeching the warmth from your fingertips. No longer does that damn near invisible grass bank trip up your exit, triumphant as you leap across it under the watchful eye of the children gathered in the square. You don’t even stumble. Bent knees catching your descent, body rocking into standing and smile plastered across your face. A spin sees you staring back up the hill you’ve mastered without incident, path curling up the grass fighting its way through the snow, oblivious to the fact that the night will most likely cover it again.
Locating the coffee shop is just as easy, retracing your steps past the fountain you doubt has ever been running, venturing a little further than the well trimmed floral displays struggling through the cold. You must have passed at least two bakeries and a handful of artisanal shops by the time you get there, eventually standing with you back to Geoff’s Mercantile and taking in the tiny store slipped between a teahouse and antiques boutique.
Through the windows you catch a glimpse of ice blue, your fingers tapping playfully on the glass and a childish smile splitting your cheeks. Jeremy jumps in the booth he’s claimed, whirling on you with accusations in his eyes. He huffs, deliberately reaching for the cup sat opposite and bringing it to his lips with a slurp you can hear from outside. Offended, you clutch your chest, glaring before pushing through the door with a musical jingle.
The scolding of the barista is the first thing you register, clambering over a cluttering of tables and mismatch of chairs. He’s glaring at Jeremy, forcing a thick mane of dark hair from his face. Hands so expressive you can practically see them shaking the detective inspector by the shoulders. In the display cases cakes and pretty pastries span out, glowing rich and fetching the lining off your stomach. The monumental growl goes unnoticed, man glowering at Jeremy.
“You’re a terrible person.”
Jeremy looks insulted, continuing to sip from the cup he’d intended to be yours. “How dare you, Jon. I should arrest you right now.”
Jon looks unfazed, eyes sparkling. “For what?”
“For… err…” Jeremy has to think, taking a moment to compile a response. “For unruly behaviour.”
Spotting you, Jon shoots a glare at the man sitting falsely triumphant in the booth. “We’ll talk about this later. For now, hello!” He offers you an overwhelmingly bright beam, opening his arms like he’s welcoming you home. “Welcome to the ‘Coffeemonger’! I’m Jon, and that,” he points to Jeremy, who yelps in response, downing the rest of your drink, “is the asshole that owes you another drink.”
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More vaccination hubs underway to ensure accessible Covid-19 jabs
#PHnews: More vaccination hubs underway to ensure accessible Covid-19 jabs
LORETO, Dinagat Islands – More medical facilities will be used as vaccination hubs to ensure that the rollout of the nationwide Covid-19 vaccination program will be more inclusive and accessible to all Filipinos, Presidential Communications Operations Office (PCOO) Secretary Martin Andanar assured on Monday.
In his message during the information drive dubbed as “Pagdu-aw sa Dinagat Islands”, Andanar provided updates on the program that bbbbalready commenced with healthcare workers as the first recipients of the jabs.
“Tungod sa national vaccination program nan ato gobyerno, nabakunahan na at least 336,656 medical front-liners na importante gajud sa aton pag-recover. Sa pagkakuman, jaon nay 1,623 vaccination sites, ug nagkadaghan an mga gihimo na vaccination sites para mas accessible an bakuna sa ato mga kaigsoonang Pinoy, (Because of the national vaccination program of the government, we have already vaccinated at least 336,656 medical front-liners, who are vital in our road to recovery. Now, we have set up 1,623 vaccination sites, and continue to increase the number of these sites, to make our vaccination drive more inclusive and accessible to each and every Filipino),” he said. The national government aims to procure 161 million vaccine doses this year to inoculate 70 to 80 million Filipinos against the virus. With this, the PCOO chief encouraged the public to take part in the vaccination program. As of March 20, 2021 report, the country has received 1,125,600 doses of vaccine. Of the total number of vaccinated individuals, 190,645 were given the first dose of Sinovac’s Coronavac, and 146,011 with AstraZeneca. “Karon an among panawagan, unta ato suportahan an programa nan ato gobyerno para ma-achieve nato ang herd immunity sa pamaagi nga pagpabakuna ninyo. Para ini sa imo kaayuhan, ug sa inyong mga pamilya (We now call on each and every one of you to support our collective vision of achieving herd immunity by getting vaccinated. This is for your welfare, and your family’s, too),” he addes. Andanar said even those who have already been inoculated with Covid-10 vaccine should still observe the minimum health standards.
“We ask everyone to continue to strictly observe the minimum health standards and protocols given by DOH, particularly the wearing of face masks and shields, safe physical distancing, frequent handwashing, and proper hygiene, even those who have already been vaccinated from the virus, to ensure our continued safety and recovery from Covid-19,” he added. Andanar was joined by Philippine Information Agency (PIA) Director General Ramon Cualoping III, Loreto Mayor Doandre Bill Ladaga, Loreto Vice Mayor Richard Tan, and other officials and representatives of the town. (PR)
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* Philippine News Agency. "More vaccination hubs underway to ensure accessible Covid-19 jabs." Philippine News Agency. https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1134531 (accessed March 23, 2021 at 06:47AM UTC+14).
* Philippine News Agency. "More vaccination hubs underway to ensure accessible Covid-19 jabs." Archive Today. https://archive.ph/?run=1&url=https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1134531 (archived).
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A day in the (theme) park - Power Rangers Fanfic
Based on my headcanons post
Read it on Ao3
Thank you to @rwbyfreak for helping me beta and to @giantallergyball for being so supportive and helpful during my writing process, it really helped to have a friend that is so lovely and willing to help me with my weird writing needs! <3
Group Chat names are as follows:
Hot Stuff: Zack
Boss Man: Jason
tinyballofrage: Trini
Little Boy Blue: Billy
Princess KimBIrly: Kim
Two weeks after their battle with Rita and the team's energy was drooping. Jason can tell his team needs a break, the final straw was when all of them even Billy refused to go into the kitchen to retrieve their donuts. After another wasted training session, he decides to put a plan into action - for a much-needed break. When he explains his idea to Billy, the two set about compiling a list of ideas for activities they could all do and then came the task of rallying the others. He pulls up the group chat, rolling his eyes when he sees that Zack has once again changed the group name.
Zack Taylor has changed the name to Zack's Bitches....and Billy ;-)
Boss Man: Dude! Stop changing the name.
Hot Stuff: It wasn't even me man.
Princess KimBIrly changed the name to LIES AND SCANDAL
Trini: [evillaughter.gif]
Hot Stuff: U guys R mean
Little Boy Blue: What did I do? :(
Hot Stuff: Billy ur my only true friend
Little boy blue: :D
Princess KimBIrly: Trini <3
Hot Stuff changed Trini's name to tinyballofrage
Tinyballofrage: FUCK YOU ZACK!
Hot Stuff: *kiss emoji*
Tinyballofrage changed Hot Stuff's name to Dead Man
Dead Man: Not cool bro.
Tinyballofrage: stfu
Boss Man: Guys come on, every time! *annoyed emoji*
Tinyballofrage: blame Zack he started it.
Dead Man: dUDE.
Dead Man: Kim pls kiss ur gf
Dead Man: So she'll stop being mean 2 me.
Princess KimBIrly: You're an idiot.
Dead Man: Help a bro out Kimmy. *sad emoji*
Boss Man: Alright listen up, training is cancelled for tomorrow.
Tinyballofrage: Why??
Dead Man: who cares. PARTAY!! [confetti.gif]
Little boy blue: Should I tell them Jason? :)
Dead Man: Tell us what bro?
Dead Man: Tell me
Dead Man: J
Dead Man: A
Dead Man: S
Dead Man: O
Dead Man: N
Dead Man has changed Boss Man's name to Abs of Steel
Dead Man changed his name to BabyGotZack
Tinyballofrage: U R AN IDIOT.
BabyGotZack: LUV U 2 Crazy Gurllll <3
Princess KimBIrly: Jace please just tell us b4 Trini murders Zack.
Abs of Steel: We're going to the theme park tomorrow
Little boy blue: I made us all maps and my mom made us sandwiches to take :D
BabyGotZack: Jasonnnnnn *heart eyes emoji* ma dude
BabyGotZack: U R MY HERO
Princess KimBIrly: Should be fun. wbu babe? <3
Tinyballofrage: Kim, I am sitting right next to you.
Princess KimBIrly: So?
Tinyballofrage: Yes, dork.
BabyGotZack: Trimberly4lyf<3 #relationshipgoals
Tinyballofrage: don't make me hit u
Little boy blue: Please don't fight again :(
Abs of Steel: OK. We r leaving @ 9am sharp.
Princess KimBIrly: Why that early?
Little boy blue: The park opens at 10am and if we want to get to all of the rides then we should leave at 9. the journey takes 40 minutes from outside the school without factoring in traffic or pee breaks.
Princess KimBIrly: K. Thx billy
Little boy blue changed the name to
Yay Ranger Trips *clapping emoji* *grinning emoji*
Jason and Billy are the first to arrive. Billy sits in the passenger seat of his Mom's van whilst Jason drives. Jason patiently listens as Billy recites their itinerary and they pull into the school parking lot.
He unlocks his phone to check the time, sighing when he sees several messages (mostly from Zack.) He decides to open Kim's message first.
Kimberly [received at 8:35am]:
On our way. We're bringing donuts, won't be long x
He sends a thumbs up back before moving onto the spam of messages he has from Zack.
Pain in the ass [received at 8:22am]:
Yo wot time did u say 2 meet
Pain in the ass [received at 8:24am]:
Nvrmind I got it.
Pain in the ass [received at 8:25am]:
wait.
Pain in the ass [received at 8:25am]:
wot do I wear
Pain in the ass [received at 8:37am]:
why u ignorin me
Pain in the ass [received at 8:42am]:
I expect donuts
Pain in the ass [received at 8:47am]:
Eyyyy I just saw Trimberly K-I-S-S-I-N-G
Pain in the ass [received at 8:53am]:
Trini hit me. *crying emoji*
Jason can't help but smile at the image, pocketing his phone as he waits. Billy quietly rambles, going over the plan and showing Jason his blue colour coded map.
"My dad used to make maps like this." He happily chimes, shaking the map in emphasis.
Jason smiles softly, content in his friend's happiness. "Your maps are great Billy."
"I made sure to include food places. See on Zack's map I circled the hot dog stand and- and on Kimberly's map I highlighted a cafe that sells pizza, I noticed that Kimberly really likes pizza. Though she often steals from Trini who acts mad but I don't think she minds."
Jason nods along, noting how Billy perks up when he sees the others approaching. They can both see Trini and Zack shoving one another as they walk, Kim close by Trini's other side rolling her eyes at the pair and their antics. Jason gets out of the van to take the box of half-eaten donuts in Kim's hand and the sound of squabbling fills his ears.
"You're such a fucking moron." Trini snaps, shoving Zack slightly harder.
"Don't be such a sourpuss." he teases, ruffling her hair as she practically snarls in response.
Zack grins pulling a face at Trini as she grumbles. He goes to follow her but Jason's hand on his shoulder instantly stops him.
"It's early, give it a rest eh Zack." Jason cautions, hoping that he didn't sound too strict and instantly relaxing when Zack only rolls his eyes before smirking.
"Aye Aye Captain." He raises his hand in a mock salute winking at the red ranger before moving around the car to say hello to Billy.
Jason coughs quickly getting in the car so that Kim can't see his deep pink blush - she would never stop teasing him. He convinces himself she didn't notice though the giggling between the two girls tells him otherwise.
"Hi guys." Billy waves at the other three, clapping his hands excitedly as they get in the car.
There's a bit of huffing as Trini and Zack start to trade insults back and forth, resulting in Trini almost thumping Zack. Kim decides to play peacemaker and sits between them as they clamber into the back seats.
Zack already has his phone out, using the camera as a mirror as he starts to fix his hair.
"It still looks a mess." Trini sneers.
Zack scoffs, clutching his hand in mock offence. "Excuse you, I am a queen."
She sniggers shaking her head at his dramatics before nudging Kim and turning her attention back to her girlfriend. Kim smiles at her letting their fingers brush against the other as Trini's other hand untangles her earphones. They each have one and the music is already blasting before the car has even set off.
Jason starts the drive, it's peaceful for a few moments - all of them content in their own little worlds; that is until Zack starts on his snapchat shenanigans and suddenly the van is filled with his loud voice as he poses for the camera.
"For all my fans out there, it's your boy Zack recording live from this lame ass van." At Billy's little offended noise, he quickly adds a "No offence Billy."
"He's such an ass." Trini mutters as Kim hums her agreement. Which is a bad move because Zack then turns his attention to her.
"You gotta take selfies with me Kimmy." He cajoles.
"I'm busy Zack." She answers with a sigh but then he starts in with the pleading and she knows she's going to crack.
"Come on, pleeease. You know pink and black are the best colours. Plus, we are both looking hella fine today," he bumps her shoulder, waving the phone in her face and finally she relents with a small smile.
"Did you just say hella?" Kim laughs as he grins in victory.
"You're damn right I did. Now smile Princess."
Kim feels her heart warm at the familiar nickname, it's one that both Trini and Zack deemed appropriate and they insist on calling it her at any given opportunity.
"We look so good! Yo Crazy Girl you need to get in a picture with us."
Trini glances at them for all for a second before she's snatching the other earphone from Kim and resting her head against the window, eyes closed completely missing the matching pouts that Zack and now Kim sport.
"W O W. Rude."
....
"Again?! We've already stopped twice." Jason complains as he pulls in at a gas station. The car hasn't even stopped before Trini is darting out with Kim hot on her heels.
"Get me snacks!" Zack hollers to Kim's fleeting form.
When he only receives her flipping him off he huffs, removing his seatbelt and swiftly exiting the car.
"Zack get back in the car!" Jason calls after him in exasperation. To which Zack ignores him as per usual.
Jason rests his head against the steering wheel, already losing patience. It's Billy's voice that pulls him out of his funk.
"We've driven exactly 16 miles, which means that we should arrive at around 10 past. We have 17 more miles to go." Billy explains.
"Yeah I got that Billy." Jason doesn't mean to sound so short with him but he's tired and the others are taking their damn sweet time so he's cranky. He doesn't even look at Billy, eyes closed as he thumps his head against the wheel - he instantly regrets it when his head hurts, his hand moving to rub circles over his sore temple.
"If we keep to the speed limit then-"
Jason cuts him off with a tired wave of his hand. "Not now Billy."
It's quiet for a while but then Billy is speaking and this time his words make Jason lift his head, looking at his friend in shock as Billy continues.
"I know you wanted to get there fast and stopping is annoying but shouldn't we just focus on spending time together. Everyone is having fun, even Trini is smiling. You've been saying that we needed a break and I like that we can all relax."
Billy shuffles the papers again, looking back at Jason with a small smile which he instantly returns. Glad that Billy was there to remind him of what's important.
"You're right Billy." He hesitantly moves his hand to rest on Billy's forearm waiting for the little nod before actually touching him. "We're cool."
Suddenly the back door is opening, Kim slides in first and then Trini. She speaks first with a simple. "Billy is cool."
"But you, not so much." Kim adds directing a teasing smile Jason's way just as Zack struggles to open the door, armed with enough candy to feed an entire football team.
"Should we help him?" Billy offers.
He receives three unanimous no’s in response.
After almost dropping several packets of cookies Zack finally manages to open the door, clumsily dropping most of the treats into Kim's lap as he clicks his seatbelt into place.
"Got you something J Man." Zack flings a packet of red Twizzlers at Jason's head, smiling when Jason turns at the last minute and with lightning speed precision catches the packet with two fingers.
"Thanks man." The two share a small smile before Jason addresses all of them. "Alright, let's go and have a great day!"
When he starts the van again it's full of chatter, Trini's headphones now rest around her neck and Jason catches her watching Zack and Kim sing with a fond smile. Billy drums his hands against the dashboard in time to their song with a content smile on his face. Kim's voice is so beautifully in key whereas Zack's is a mess of loud and over-enthusiastically trying to reach all the higher notes.
Trini hums along as Kim and Zack start getting more into the song, singing the lyrics and pointing to one another.
"I'm too hot," Kim starts.
"Hot damn." Zack echoes.
"Called a police and a fireman,"
"I'm too hot, hot damn." They both sing looking at one another with matching grins.
The rest of the journey is the two performing each new song with as many self-assured smiles and over the top gestures but it keeps them all entertained and by the time they reach the theme park gates all of them are singing along to a Disney medley that Zack insisted they sing because "come on, you're Princess Kimberly for fuck's sake."
....
It would have been okay - all they had to do was find a parking spot which was simple in theory but when five people all start talking over one another it suddenly becomes the most complicated problem in history.
"Dude there was a spot right there." Zack complains.
"Jason, there are two spots in front of you and you also missed the three empty spots to our right." Billy points out.
"I can see that Billy." Jason retorts, trying his best to ignore them as he moves towards one of the empty spots only to get cut off by a silver sports car swerving in before he can get there.
"MOTHERFU-" he trails off, shaking his head as he moves towards a different spot.
"Could you drive any slower?!" Kim groans as Jason ever so slowly starts to back into the spot.
"Moooove it!" Zack drawls the word out. It takes him a second to realise how it sounds, it's when he catches Trini's eye that he starts to cackle. The two of them sniggering and making obnoxious cow noises as Kim bites her lip to stop her own laughter from bubbling out.
"Really funny guys." Jason huffs as their laughter gets louder. "You want to shut up so I can concentrate?!"
"Oh, now he wants to concentrate." Trini mutters just loud enough for the other two to hear her.
"Yeah let him concentrate, it must be so hard to park the damn car." Kim snaps.
"If you think you can do a better job then maybe you should drive Kim." Jason fires back, shooting her a glare through the mirror.
Kim raises her eyebrow in challenge, moving her fingers to release her seatbelt.
"Kimberly, you shouldn't take your seatbelt off until we've stopped." Billy reminds her, a hint of concern edged in his tone.
"She's not taking it off Billy." Trini insists, giving Kim a disapproving stare.
Jason resists the urge to respond with a snarky comment and after more manoeuvring (whilst he ignores Zack and Kim's moaning) he finally brings the car to a halt, parking it almost perfectly - apart from one of the back tyres sticking out.
"Finally!"
They all clamber out of the car, Zack and Kim still bitching about Jason's driving skills. Jason coughs loudly shooting them both a glare before responding.
"I got us here, didn't I? If it wasn't for Trini's weak bladder we would have gotten here earlier."
"Way to throw me under the bus there, White Boy." There's no real malice behind her words but she can't help but smile when he has the decency to look guilty.
"Just face it Jace, you drive slower than a snail." Kim counters, moving to wrap her arm around Trini's shoulder.
"I bet the stolen cow was faster." Zack quips, smirking as Jason clenches his fist in response.
"Shut up Zack!" Jason shoves him.
Zack steps closer, stopping with his face a few centimetres away from Jason's, his brown eyes burning into Jason's as he speaks or rather challenges, "You gonna' make me?!"
The two glare at one another, silently daring the other to make a move.
"Guys don't," Trini objects moving to place herself in the middle. Zack goes to push her out of the way but Kim is faster, her hand on his arm makes him freeze.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you." She warns, holding his gaze as she stands protectively in front of Trini.
"Please don't fight." Billy pleads, eyes frantically darting between Kim, Zack and Jason.
"Sorry Billy." Jason speaks first, moving away from Zack as he shoots an apologetic smile Billy's way.
"I'm sorry too man." Zack relents even though he directs his attention more towards Trini. She nods her understanding and he visibly relaxes.
"I'm going to go get the tickets, Billy why don't you come and help?" Kim suggests, relief instantly washes over Billy's face as he nods, eager to get away from the tension. She continues pointing at Zack and then at Jason, "try not to kill one another. Don't make us revoke your tickets."
With that she turns and heads to the ticket desk, Billy following closely behind. There's an awkward silence that falls when they leave and Trini's left staring between the two boys as they stubbornly refuse to look at one another. After another minute of the silence surrounding them Trini decides to break the silence.
"God you guys are such children."
Her arms go to her hips (her stance reminding her of the way Kim addresses them all when she's annoyed) only continuing when she's satisfied their attention is on her.
"I can feel the sexual tension between you two from here, maybe if you just admitted it we wouldn't have to watch you guys fight like idiots."
Both of their eyes widen, Jason's face flushing a deep red whilst Zack's mouth falls open comically wide. They both stutter for a good few moments and Trini can't help but smile finally managing to render them both speechless.
"Alright, now stop with this macho crap. I may be small but don't doubt that I won't beat both your asses if you don't stop acting like a bunch of babies."
They both stare at her with a mixture of awe and a hint of fear knowing how serious Trini can get. With a sigh Jason turns to Zack, eyes full of remorse as he speaks - his voice much softer than before.
"Trini's right. I'm sorry for shoving you."
"It's cool man it didn't even hurt." Zack brushes it off with a wave of his hand, a small smile appearing when Jason laughs at his comment. "I'm sorry too. You know how much I respect you, right?"
"Yeah I do."
Zack's smile is softer this time and Trini think that if she weren't there they might kiss, except she is there and she'd rather not be left to awkwardly watch as the two resolve the obvious tension between them. She clears her throat and the two seem to snap out of it, turning back to her with grateful looks. The three start to engage in conversation about which rides they're most looking forward to when Billy and Kim return holding five tickets.
"What took you guys so long?" Jason enquired.
"The guy at the counter was very talkative. Kimberly asked for the tickets and then he told her that he liked her shirt and kept asking her questions and when he finally handed her the tickets he asked for her phone number." Billy explains, blissfully unaware of the side eye Kim is giving him.
She glances back at Trini whose eyes have narrowed to perfect slits, her jaw tightened as she looks past her girlfriend staring at the guy gawking at Kim from the desk. The sight of him openly staring at Kim sets her teeth on edge and before she can stop herself she closes the distance, standing on her tiptoes as she cups Kim's face and crushes their lips together. Kim mumbles something against her mouth startled for all of a few seconds before she reciprocates and kisses back with just as much passion. Trini is aware that the boys are still there but all she can think about is how soft Kim's lips are and how Kim's hands lace down to the small of her back. It's only when Kim nips at Trini's lower lip eliciting a quiet moan that she remembers their surroundings and pulls back. Kim chases her lips pouting when Trini steps back, both of their cheeks flushed as they look around at the awkward expressions on Jason and Billy's faces. Zack gives them a smug grin, raising his hands in mock surrender when Trini goes to whack the back of his head.
"Shall we go in?" Jason motions to the gates. They all smile when Billy claps his hands and practically skips to the gates leaving them all to trail after him.
After several debates over which ride to start with Billy handed the group their individual maps, they all wait patiently as he starts to explain.
"I mapped everything out for us. This park has 40 rides in total, 10 prize stalls and 7 different places for food. We need to start here," he points to a small doodle of a boat located at the top of his map before pressing on, "after the pirate ship we follow the path round to the rocket ship, the walk should take us precisely 2 minutes and 12 seconds."
Billy starts to recite the rest of the plans for the day in excruciating detail, Jason is quick to jump in effectively stopping Billy's rambling with a reassuring smile. "That's really helpful, thanks Billy."
Billy nods and with that they calmly start their journey to the first ride but as soon as they see the short queue waiting for them their walk turns into a light jog. They all sport matching excited grins as they wait in line. Billy bounces on the balls of his feet waiting eagerly in anticipation, and Zack lets out loud whooping noises as they reach the front of the line. The ride comes to a stop and the second the gate opens Zack is making a mad dash for the back seat dragging a helpless Trini (who in turn drags Kim) with him. Billy races after them happily sitting beside Kim with Trini and Zack on her left. Jason sits on Billy's other side smiling when he wiggles, clapping as the bar slowly slides down signalling the start of the ride.
"Jason! Jason it's starting!" he exclaims tapping Jason's shoulder enthusiastically.
Despite the ride being somewhat tame Jason can't help but laugh as Zack starts to whoop, screaming far too loudly to be genuine. Billy cheers beside him smiling when he catches Jason's eye. Jason looks over to Kim smirking when she tries to hide her bored expression with a toothy grin. Trini doesn't cheer but she has a content smile as Kim wraps an arm around her shoulder and kisses the top of her head. The sight of his fellow rangers so relaxed assures Jason he made a wise choice in giving them the day off.
When the ride finally stops they rush off in an excited mess, this time it's Trini who points out the next ride; her hand intertwining with Kim's as she pulls them towards the waiting area. The boys aren't far behind and as soon as the line fades they all run in different directions grinning as they jump into the aeroplanes with their respective ranger colour. The ride starts and each time they dive up and down spinning round they smile at one another, sharing their perfectly private in-joke. As the ride spins around once more Zack catches Jason's eye pointing towards a ride in the distance with a huge grin.
"THAT'S OUR NEXT RIDE!" Zack hollers over the ride music.
Jason follows his finger pointing, turning to look at which ride Zack is pointing at. The ride had two rows of seats and proceeded to drop and swing, stopping once and then twice over little spouts of water, making sure that anyone in the front row got splashed. Upon seeing the dangerously daring dip the ride took he gulps, flashing Zack a shaky smile as he tries to hide his apprehension. It doesn’t help that after the ride ended Kim and Trini decide to give it a miss promising to take pictures instead.
Kim smiles as Trini stood on her tiptoes using Kim's shirt to pull her down, their faces inching closer and then their lips were brushing against one another's and all thoughts of taking pictures soon left Kim's mind. Using a little burst of ranger strength, she spun them around gently pushing Trini into the nearest fence, fingers tangling in soft tresses as they continue to kiss softly, there was no rush or pressure and Kim loved that she could simply be with her girlfriend and no one batted an eyelid (well at least out there school was a completely different story). They start to get lost in one another when a piercing scream breaks their spell, both pulling back to see Jason screaming as the ride plummeted down, beside him Billy has his hands over his ears and Zack hysterically laughing as Jason clutches onto the safety bar as though his life depends on it.
"We should have gotten this on camera," Trini whispers to herself.
"One step ahead of you babe." Kim nudges her girlfriend and flashes her a smug smile before turning her attention back to her phone, zooming in as the ride swings down and Jason gets a face full of water.
The two lose it when he lets out another deafening scream and when he trudges back to them with shaky legs and damp hair they can't contain their laughter. Jason huffs as Trini, Kim and Zack snigger, replaying the video of him screaming on a loop. He finally begins to laugh along when even Billy can't stop a smile forming, all five of them giggling as they make their way to the next ride.
....
Everything has been going great - they have been on lots of rides already and they are all having a good time, no one has been severely traumatised yet but then the log flume happens and Trini is slowly losing patience. The queue had taken quite some time to die down and she was getting grumpy, though it doesn't last long not when Kim kisses her and holds her hand but then they make it to the front and the arguing commences.
"I am not sitting in the front!" Kim snaps.
"Aw come on you have to." Zack pleads.
"Why don't you sit in the front?!" Kim retorts, folding her arms.
"Zack is sitting in front of me." Jason cuts in, stepping back when Kim shoots him a frosty glare.
"Maybe I could sit at the front and then Kimberly could next and then Trini and-" Billy starts to ponder out loud, none of them really listening to him as they continue to talk over one another.
"You're such a baby Kimmy, come on take one for the team." Zack teases.
Kim's eyes narrow and then Jason is holding her waist to stop her lunging at Zack.
"Get off! Put me down Scott."
Jason shakes his head making sure she is way out of Zack's range before releasing her. Kim scowls at him before turning her attention back to her girlfriend, her brows furrowing in confusion as she sees Trini stepping into the front of the ride.
"What are you doing Trin?"
"Waiting for you losers to get in already." Trini bites back staring at them all expectantly.
They quickly spring into action, Billy pausing to shoot an apologetic smile towards the park worker controlling the ride. With a little pushing and shoving they clambered in behind Trini. Kim wraps her arms around Trini's waist, letting her chin rest on Trini's shoulder as she places a feather light kiss to Trini's neck. Trini hums in response, chuckling when Zack starts chanting as the ride started.
"My butt's all wet." Zack complains.
"That's why it's called a log flume you idiot." Kim fires back, smiling when she hears Trini coughing to cover up her laugh.
His complaining morphs into excited whooping as they slowly make their ascent and then they are racing down, all of them cheering as they plummet down and a rush of water crashes over them. Zack cackles as the water attacks Trini the most, drenching her from head to toe whilst the rest of them manage to survive with minimal damage. He regrets laughing when they get off and Trini proceeds to shake her dripping hair at him. Her attack halts when she hears a clicking sound, pivoting around to see Kim trying to subtly slide her phone back into her pocket.
"KIM!"
Her hands are on her hips as Kim starts to back up holding her hands up in mock surrender as Trini levels her with a fierce glare.
"It's not m-my fault that you look so c-c-ute." Kim stutters out, hoping the compliment would soothe her girlfriend's rage. It does nothing, especially not when she can't resist teasing "my drowned grumpy cat."
Her eyes widen as Trini lets out a growl and then she's running as fast as she can or well as fast as regular humans can.
"Oh yeah you better run Princess!" Trini shouts, speeding past the boys as she chases after Kim.
....
The boys watch as Trini and Kimberly disappear amongst the sea of people in front of them.
"Should we go after Trini and Kimberly?" Billy asks.
Jason smiles but shakes his head.
"I think they'll be okay Billy. We can meet them for lunch."
Billy perks up after that, walking contently beside Jason with Zack on his other side. It's quiet and they enjoy a comfortable silence for a few minutes - until Zack sees the bright flashing lights and his face lights up like a Christmas Zord. He continues to grin, wiggling his eyebrows as they walk towards a prize stall section of the park.
Jason can instantly see what has captured Zack's attention and it's almost second nature for him to fix Zack with a stern look, shaking his head disapprovingly.
"NO."
"I didn't even say anything." Zack huffs.
"You didn't have to. I know you and the answer is no." Jason points out earning an eye roll from Zack.
"Dude you are zero fun today," Zack whines adding in a pout for good measure.
"Why is Jason zero fun?" Billy questions.
Zack throws another dirty look Jason's way and then turns to talk to Billy.
"You'd let me play some games, right Billy?" he tilts his head and starts to flutter his eyelashes, stopping when Billy only blinks at him in response.
"I can't make your decisions for you so if you wanted to play some games I wouldn't stop you."
"and that is why you're my favourite B."
Billy smiles watching as Zack scampers off towards the first stall.
"Alright, I guess one game wouldn't hurt." Jason relents, trailing after Zack's giddy form.
....
"Are you going to pout all day Princesa? Trini asks barely able to keep the amusement from her tone.
Beside her Kim stands with her arms folded looking at her girlfriend with disdain.
"I can't believe you would do that to me." Kim exaggerates, looking down at her now damp appearance with an unimpressed pout.
Trini smirks rolling her eyes at her girlfriend's dramatics.
"It was only a hug." she shrugs.
"You shook your hair water all over me!"
Kim continues to pout as Trini laughs, moving to wrap her arms around Kim's waist and hug her from behind. Kim's pout soon turns into a soft smile, unable to stay upset when Trini is willingly hugging her.
"Alright," Kim hums "but you better win me a prize."
"If I say yes, will you stop pouting at me?” Trini asks.
"Probably not." She answers with a smug grin, already knowing she's won.
....
Zack shrugs his jacket off carelessly tossing it on the floor; wiping his forehead as he marches to the next stall with determination. Billy hastily grabs the jacket dusting it off before he joins Zack and Jason by the ring toss booth.
The guy manning the booth doesn't look up, too engrossed with his phone to really pay attention. He briefly looks up when Billy gives a polite cough, giving the three of them a once over before placing five rings in front of Zack as Jason begrudgingly hands him the money.
"Piece of cake," Zack declares ignoring Jason’s scoff as he prepares for his first shot.
It misses the pins and bounces off the counter.
Zack puffs his chest and shrugs, "Nobody gets it on the first try."
Jason smirks pretending to humour him as he pulls his arm back and flings the next ring. Again, it misses as does the next attempt.
Zack folds his arms starting to size up the pins. Jason laughs pushing his friend out of the way as he grabs one of the two remaining rings.
"Watch and learn."
He lets the ring glide with a confident smile, watching with a smug grin as it falls back down - only to miss the pin by mere centimetres. His face falls as Zack laughs a little too hard.
"Oh, I'm sorry was I supposed to be impressed?!"
"Shut up," Jason mumbles trying to hide his embarrassment and the fact the tips of his ears had started to go pink.
"Why don't you make me?" Zack fires back with a flirtatious eyebrow wiggle causing the red ranger to flush brighter than his suit as he stumbles over his words.
"Well m-maybe I m-m-might, if you'd like that I mean- what?! I wouldn't like that, why are you staring?"
Zack smiles at the boy's rambling stepping a little closer. Their eyes drift down to one another's lips and for a second they start to lean closer but then Billy is clapping excitedly and they snap back to reality. Their jaws dropping as Billy jumps up and down pointing eagerly to the only pin with a ring successfully around it.
"Holy shit Billy you did it!" Zack is too much in awe to be mad and Jason has a proud smile. All three turn to the booth worker expectantly.
"These games are hard better look next time," He says in a monotonous voice without looking up.
"Well it's a good job we won, then isn't it?!" Zack boasts unable to keep the smug tone from his voice.
"So, our friend would like his prize now," Jason finishes, completely ignoring the guy's shocked expression as he turns to look at Billy. "Which prize do you want Billy?"
Billy's eyes light up already knowing which one they needed to have. The other two can't contain their smiles when Billy is given his toy hugging it close to his chest as they walk away.
"This will go great in our ship!" Billy whisper-yells and Jason can't help but agree, looking down at the donut toy clutched in Billy's hand and being reminded of how fitting it is, so he smiles at his friend and nods in agreement happy that at least one of them won a prize (though he is a little bitter that his aim was so skewed).
When the boys see the girls again none of them can contain their laughter at the sight before them: Kim walking with a victorious expression as a giant tiger toy follows her - they could only see Trini's legs as she tries to navigate her way towards them clutching the tiger which was nearly as big as her whole body. Jason tries to stifle his laughter but Zack erupts almost falling over as he completely loses it, tears streaming down his reddening cheeks as he cackles each bubble of laughter getting louder as Trini gets closer and closer.
"Has anyone seen Trini?" Zack grins when he hears a muffled grumble from behind the tiger.
"Woah there she is! She looks different don't ya think?" Zack continues his teasing. "Actually, now that I think about it she looks a little fluffier."
"That's because Trini is holding a large stuffed animal." Billy points out.
"It was a joke Billy." Jason sighs.
Seeing Billy's frown in response Kim moves closer loosely wrapped her arm around his shoulders, nudging him playfully as she speaks "Don't worry billy, Zack is awful at making jokes."
After he gives her a small smile she turns to the other two boys folding her arms and fixing them with a pointed look. The boys meet Kim's eyes and instantly know that they have messed up, nothing can compete with her "mum mode". Satisfied that they look sufficiently chastised she moves on.
"Is anyone else hungry?" Kim asks receiving three nods and a quiet 'yes' from Trini.
Without waiting she turns on her heel walking straight ahead, smiling to herself when she hears footsteps quickly following. She doesn't have to look to know 3 out of 4 rangers are walking with grumpy expressions - Billy walks a few steps behind her with a peaceful smile. It doesn't take him long to close the distance and then his arms are around her, if Kim is surprised by the action she doesn't show it; letting herself sink into Billy's arms with a content sigh. He whispers a soft "thank you" and then lets her go happily walking beside her as she gives him a loving smile.
By the time they reach the food section, their spirits have perked up again even Trini who had somehow managed to get Jason to take pity on her struggling form and is now tiger-free holding Kim's hand whilst Jason struggles not to drop the stupidly large tiger toy.
"What do you guys want to eat?" Kim asks, rolling her eyes when everyone answers at once. "Geez one at a time please. What do you want to eat T?"
"Sure. Ask your girlfriend first," Zack whines holding his hands in mock surrender when Trini glares at him.
"Hot dogs are good," Trini suggests immediately regretting it when Zack starts talking.
"Hell yes. I never doubted you Crazy Girl, you totally read my mind! This is why we're besties." He exclaims bounding over to Trini and squeezing his way between her and Kim so he can wrap an arm around Trini's shoulder.
Kim gives him a disgruntled look throwing her hands up in defeat as she moves to stand with Billy. Quick to make sure no tempers rise again Jason offers to buy the food taking Billy; stopping to rescue Trini from Zack's excitable clutches and pulling Zack with them by his collar - he couldn't risk Kimberly killing the boy. Kim watches as Jason manoeuvres the tiger in one hand whilst gently pushing Zack forward pointing to the hot dog stand with the other, she can't help but smile when she sees Billy pointing to the menu and doing his happy clap as Jason and Zack nod along. It's Trini's voice that snaps her out of her daze.
"Planning on joining me anytime soon Princess?" The soft husk in Trini's tone never fails to make Kim blush, the colour of her cheeks almost the same as her ranger suit.
Kim lets Trini pull her towards an empty picnic bench sitting down together - well Trini sat down Kim lay with her head in Trini's lap; eyes closed as Trini rubs her forehead.
"You okay?"
Kim hums in response relaxing under Trini's touch as nimble fingers trace patterns across her temple.
"You're coming on the rollercoaster with me, right?"
Again, she receives a simple hum and as Kim's breathing evens out Trini realises just how tired her girlfriend looks, she files it as a mental note to make sure Kim gets some rest on the drive back. In the meantime, she'll just have to keep her energised, with a smile she starts to lean down her lips ghosting Kimberly's as the table suddenly becomes a lot louder. Trini pulls back with a frustrated huff as Jason gives her a sheepish smile, offering a hot dog to make up for the interruption. Kim opens her eyes pouting up at Trini who gestures to the boys with her hot dog, smiling around a mouthful when Kim doesn't even try to hide her disappointment grumpily snatching one of the many hot dogs left.
Zack catches Trini's eye and then he's moving the drinks out of the way.
"What's going on?" Billy asks looking at Kim who shakes her head at the two of them.
"They're being idiots again." she answers taking another bite of her food as they watch Zack and Trini size one another up; Trini cracks her knuckles as Zack sits up straighter.
"You'll be sick," Kim warns but neither of them listen to her.
"Give us an intro Jace." Zack bats his eyelashes smiling when Jason starts to speak.
"Ladies, gentleman and others today is a very special event. We have two great contenders competing for the grand prize of- um...a sense of pride."
At Trini's scoff and Zack's disappointed look he quickly continues. "I mean for the prize of $5-"
"That's more like it!" Zack interrupts "Billy, if you'd do the honours my man."
Billy quickly sorts the remaining hot dogs into two piles setting them in front of Trini and Zack. Once they are evenly set up Jason resumes his commentary.
"In the left corner we have the boy in black, reigning champion of the last three pie eating contests it's Zack attack."
Zack starts to chant for himself nodding his head to an imaginary beat and waving his hands to greet his non-existent fans. Jason laughs and rambles on.
"-and in the right corner we have the lightning bolt herself, the ultimate underdog and today's challenger it's Queen T!" At this point Jason is using his water bottle as a microphone and their table has more than a few eyes staring.
"Who's on the timer?" Trini questions.
"I've got it," Kim says with a reluctant sigh, sometimes she wonders why she's friends with this rag-tag bunch of weirdos but then Zack's cheeks are puffing out like a hamster as him and Trini speed eat at least ten hot dogs and she wonders how she ever managed without them.
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Kim did warn them which was why it was her idea to go on the teacup ride directly after lunch. Trini at least lasted the whole ride before running to the nearest trashcan, Zack on the other hand threw up after the ride had made its first turn, spewing multicoloured chunks on an innocent 5-year old in the next cup. The child's parents were definitely not impressed and Zack spent a good half an hour hiding in the arcades just to avoid their wrath. So that’s how they end up near the performer's stage, music blasting and soft singing or it would have been soft singing and dancing had it not been for Zack's need to outperform the actual paid performers.
They try to stop him but none of them could beat Zack's shoulder shimmy as he jumps up and starts to copy the dancers. Trini has her face buried in her hands groaning from the sheer embarrassment as Kim and Jason try to pull him back down. As if his dancing wasn't bad enough he starts to sing at full volume attracting an audience of concerned families covering their ears as he continues to screech over the performers.
"Zack just be quiet." Jason whisper-yells but of course Zack ignores him as he starts moving his hips so wildly that they are afraid he might break them.
"You're just jealous because I've got sick moves." Zack retorts shimmying his way past them as he gets closer to the stage.
Kim and Jason look at one another with matching mortified expressions, darting up in a frenzy to try and stop him from going any further. Trini and Billy follow unsure how to react. It's Trini that encourages Billy to capture the moment that Zack is dragged away by security guards (just as he's making his way onto the stage) on camera and it's Kim and Jason that manage to talk the guard into letting Zack go with just a warning. Jason manages to drag Zack away from the stage chastising the still giddy boy.
"Dude you can't just pull crap like that."
"I needed to express myself." Zack protests.
"Next time save the dancing for when you're with us, I'm pretty sure families paid to see the hired performers not your attempts at freestyle." Jason reiterates.
He instantly regrets it when Zack smirks, wrapping an arm around his shoulder as he implies "don't be jealous man, if you wanted a private show all you had to do was ask." Zack winks at a flustered Jason before strutting (yes, he actually struts) over to where Billy and Trini are stood waiting.
Kim's teasing lilt brings Jason out of his flustered state, "Red is really your colour Jace."
Needless to say, Jason blushes more after that.
Kim pays for that particular comment when Jason drags her onto the haunted house ride with him and Zack. She is sat in the middle and at first she's fine but then the ride starts and she instantly wants to get off. Jason sits smugly watching as Kim jumps at every little thing clinging onto him for dear life as Zack imitates her screams and tries to smack each skeleton that springs out at them.
"What's wrong Kim?" Jason asks with mock concern. She turns to glare at him but then a model ghost drops down from the ceiling just as they are turning the corner; Kim screams louder than before and Jason sits with the biggest grin on his face. Neither of them notice that Zack had been silent for a few minutes too long and just as they pass the camera flashing out of the corner of Jason's eye he sees Zack hastily pulling his pants back up.
Jason doesn't have to ask what Zack has done when he hears several giggles coming from the photo print desk. When they approach the desk Billy and Trini are already waiting, Jason can tell by the look on Trini's face that their photo must be interesting to say the least. As they look over the photos Jason's grin gets wider, beside him Kim groans as she takes in the sight of her face mid-scream as a plastic ghost sprung down. Zack cackles pumping his fist when he sees that the camera did in fact get him mooning right as the light flashed so now they could see his perfectly round ass glistening in the light. Jason was looking directly into the camera smiling like he's on The Office. All three of them speak at once with a mixture of pleased, disgusted and confused reactions.
"This is the best picture ever!" "Why does my face look like that?!" "Zack why?!"
"I'm buying 10 copies!" Zack announces starting to reach into his pocket when Kim slaps his arm and shrieks in response.
"Don't you dare! I look awful Zack!"
"I think you look terrifying," Billy says and it takes everything Kim has not to snap at him.
"Sick burn man!" Zack gives a confused Billy a high five and pushes Kim aside to talk to the man at the desk.
"this is the worst" Kim groans approaching Trini ready to hide forever when she sees the items in Trini's hand, her jaw dropping as she points helplessly.
"Please tell me you didn't," she pleads, practically begging Trini with her eyes.
"I just wanted some souvenirs, I figured they'd go great in the ship...or whatever." Trini tries to act nonchalant but the twitch of her lips gives her away.
"Traitors!" Kim gasps looking at them all with utter betrayal. "This is mutiny!"
All four of them laugh at her dramatic antics and despite some huffing and whining Kim eventually cracks a smile. They make it up to her by letting her pick the next ride and of course she picks the roller coaster.
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"Why is this line so long?" Zack complains for the fourth time since they entered the line.
"Lines are always long for roller coasters. The ride allows at least fifteen people to occupy and it would go on for around 5 to 10 minutes which means if we continue at this pace we should be at the front of the queue in precisely 51 minutes and 47 seconds." Billy explains, showing them his watch to emphasise his point.
Zack, Trini and Kim collectively groan as Jason gives them sympathetic smiles.
"Maybe we should just go on a different ride and-"
"We are not giving up!" Kim cuts Jason off with a snappy tone completely ignoring his hurt look and turning to address the others.
"Okay so this line isn't getting us anywhere," they grunt in agreement and she continues with determination "I have an idea."
Jason and Billy look on somewhat confused as Kim wraps her arms around Trini and Zack bringing them in for a weird huddle, Jason can hear her whispering something not fully sure what they were saying but when they pull apart with matching grins he knows their plan must be bad.
They stay content for a while the line doesn't move and then Zack is speaking.
"Yo Crazy Girl you might want to put that tiger in one of the lockers."
"Zack's right babe, they won't let you one the ride with it." Kim adds.
Trini nods with little reluctance and starts pushing her way past the crowd to find the exit, shouting "Save my spot!" back to them just as the line moves all of an inch forward and she disappears out of sight.
"What are you three up to?" Jason asks shooting Zack and Kim a suspicious look.
"Who us?" Kim replies clutching her chest as she flashes him an innocent smile.
Jason knows they are up to something - not that he can tell what exactly but he knows they are simply by the all too innocent smiles on Kim and Zack's faces. He's about to speak again when Billy reminds them how much time they have left showing Jason the time on his phone, at least he knows Billy would never participate in their silly shenanigans.
They are about a fifth of the way through the line, Trini has yet to reappear whilst Zack and Kim keep giving each other strange looks. Jason gives up trying to figure them out and instead engages in a conversation with Billy about the history of roller coasters; which is when Kim and Zack enter stage two of their plan. Within seconds Kim is engaging in the boy's conversation making sure to block Zack from sight.
"And so the riders would go down the slide crash landing in sand piles, they were called the Russian Mountains invented in the 16th and 17th centuries." Billy finishes as Jason smiles at him in awe.
"That's really cool Billy. Do you know any other facts?" Jason prompts.
"Woah that's really interesting Billy," Kim offers.
"I have more..." Billy continues to ramble on only stopping when Jason holds his hand up, his eyebrows raising as he looks around.
"Hang on a second," He surveys Kim's slight smile and looks at her expectantly "Where's Zack?"
Billy shrugs and looks at Kim, she smiles at him and then refocuses her attention to Jason. "I don't know where he is." That was true she technically didn't know where he had gone.
"Oh come on you're telling me that Zack and Trini both disappear and you have no idea where they are." He says incredulously.
"Trini went to put Kim's tiger toy away." Billy reminds him.
The line moves up a little and before Jason can interrogate her more she starts to speak or well bellow!
"TRINI."
"Kim what are you-"
"TRINI WHERE ARE YOU?!" she repeats it again and to Jason's shock she starts to push past people.
"Excuse me," she slides past a man motioning for Jason and Billy to follow her as she continues to shout out Trini's name.
"TRINI!"
ohmygod Jason mutters to himself her plan now becoming crystal clear.
"Excuse me, pardon me, coming through."
Kim takes charge ducking and darting through the crowd with Jason and Billy hot on her heels. Seeing Zack she smiles and quickens her pace, when they approach a cluster of girls she stops causing Jason to almost run into her. She stands with her hands on her hips glaring at Zack as she speaks.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!"
All the girls turn around revealing Zack standing in the middle with a guilty expression.
"Uhh hi Kim." Zack stutters which only serves to confuse Jason more.
"Don't you ‘hi Kim’ me. We were supposed to leave for dinner with my father an hour ago."
The girls look confused glancing back and forth between the two of them. One girl gaining some courage as she pipes up from behind Zack. "Who is this girl?" she was met with Kim's steely glare shrinking under the intensity.
"Who am I? I'm his girlfriend! Who the hell are you?"
"What on earth?" Jason squeaks out, wincing when Kim elbows him.
"You didn't tell us you had a girlfriend." Another girl huffs turning on Zack who starts to stutter out an explanation.
"Well yeah I-"
"Make that ex." Kim spits out turning on her heal and marching off further forward in the crowd, every onlookers parting like the red sea - none of them wanting to get in the way of the visibly angry girl.
"Kim wait!" Zack pleads pushing past people to start chasing after her.
"Do you have any idea what's going on?" Jason asks Billy as they follow the others, he's surprised when he's met with a knowing smile confusing Jason further.
When they finally catch up with the others Jason notices they are almost to the front of the queue which is when he spots Trini waiting right at the front surrounded by several confused people stood behind her.
Kim flashes Jason a grin and then she's screaming Trini's name again only this time Trini is answering in the same loud manner.
"TRINI?!"
"KIM I'M OVER HERE!" And then Trini waves in an uncharacteristically cheerful way and Jason must have gone insane because he has no idea what not being confused feels like.
The remaining people in front of them quickly dart out of the way as Kim rushes over to Trini and embraces her in a hug. Zack is next his hand reaching for Kim's shoulder and then she's hugging him too. They pull apart when Jason and Billy join them whilst the rest of the people in the queue look around dumbfounded at what just happened, not that they're sure what genuinely did happen.
"I cannot believe you guys just did that." Jason hisses loud enough for the others to hear, rolling his eyes when they exchange high fives.
"We're at the front, aren't we?!" Trini remarks as Jason shakes his head.
"Nice job at distracting him B." Zack says with a proud smile as Billy fist bumps him.
"Billy was in on it too?" Jason asks, surprise written across his face as they all beam and nod at him.
"Well...I've gotta say I'm impressed. Award winning performances."
Kim and Zack bow repeating 'thank yous' and the five of them laugh amongst themselves right until it's their turn on the coaster.
Despite the many signs saying not to run they couldn't help themselves cramming into the first row as they wait for the other rows to be filled. All of them scream as the ride dips and spirals down, though some more than others (Jason being the main culprit). Kim and Zack are having a wild time hooting and cheering as the intensity increases, Billy claps and wiggles around in his usual excited fashion and Trini though a lot quieter than the others still has a smile on her face - although when they reach the part where they sped inside the dark tunnel the guard rail may have become a little dented. Kim holds her hand and spends the rest of the ride repeating calming phrases and pressing soft kisses to her forehead.
It is an all-out war during the bumper cars. Zack had been the primary target but then several small children decided to insult them and they spend the rest of the time chasing them around and using their combined cars and strength to back the children into a corner. They all walk away with smug grins completely ignoring how they'd reduced a bunch of 8-year olds to tears.
After they were all pooped out Kim drags them to a photo-booth determined to get some new pictures for her room. It's not like any of them can resist the famous Kimberly Hart pout (Billy totally can but she said please and he will do anything to make his friends happy). The boys get shoved outside waiting for Kim and Trini to stop kissing long enough to retrieve their photos. They finally do when Billy suggests they buy ice-cream on their way out. How they all manage to get a flavour with the colour of their power coins is still a mystery, even Zack because "Licorice is the best flavour, you can have your boring lemon Trini!"
The sun is starting to set as they make their way through the car park, none of them remembering exactly where Jason parked the car. It takes them at least 20 minutes to find their spot but none of them care. The journey back is quieter, the soft hum of the radio the only sound audible. As promised Trini lets Kim sleep on her shoulder the stuffed tiger toy resting at her feet. Zack takes a picture of them and sets it as his contact photo, he really does love them but they don't need to know that. Billy sits in the front seat texting his Mom to inform her of the fun day out they had. There's country music playing on the radio and Billy claps quietly before resuming his text update. Jason has a content smile as he drives them back to Angel Grove. The sunset is a mixture of pastels and soft tones and as he looks through the mirror at his friends he's so glad he made the decision for a day out. He catches Zack's eye and the two share a smile and for the first time today Zack is the one who blushes looking away with unusual shyness. Jason turns his gaze to Trini who smiles mouthing a "you did good" before pressing a kiss to Kim's forehead and letting her eyes flutter shut and as Jason drives back into town listening to quiet snores and old country music he knows that he definitely did do good.
#power rangers 2017#trimberly#zason#power rangers fanfiction#trimberly fanfic#brot5: The Rainbow Squad (´⌣`ʃƪ)#I'm actually so happy with how this turned out#I have had it drafted for ages but finally it is ready
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Lauren & Cameron Are Still Proving Why They’re The ‘Love Is Blind’ MVPs + Here’s What Went Down At The Reunion
Lauren Speed and Cameron Hamilton are still on the promo trail proving why they’re still the MVPs of “Love Is Blind." Flicks of the happily married couple, deets on their new project, plus everything that went down during the "Love Is Blind" reunion inside…
Everyone’s favorite couple from “Love Is Blind” is still out in these streets being #CoupleGoals.
Lauren Speed and Cameron Hamilton quickly became fan favorites on Netflix’s first dating series, “Love Is Blind.” The show was actually filmed in 2018 and that’s when Lauren and Cameron tied the knot. As you can see, they’re still going strong a year and a half later and proving they’re the real “Love Is Blind” MVPs.
The couple was spotted out in the Big Apple all loved up and cutesy before hitting the daytime talk show scene.
Aren't they cute.
The Hamiltons sat down to chop it up about married life and blending their families on "Today with Hoda & Jenna." They shared when they knew each other was "the one" and what the "Love Is Blind" reunion was like.
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Today, Lauren and Cameron appeared on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with their co-stars:
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Earlier this week, they appeared on BRAVO's "Watch What Happens Live" to spill tea:
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We previously told you the Hamiltons were gearing up to launch a YouTube channel and it just went live recently:
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*BLOOPERS* Hey Family Our YouTube channel is officially live! Although the shows over... our story is just beginning. We are so excited to continue our journey with you Hangin' with the Hamiltons will follow Cam and I through day-to-day adventures - our highs, lows, and everything in between. We talk relationship date ideas, recipes for dinner at home, travel , blending families, and raising a rascal of a dog Everything is fair game. Click the link in my bio to Subscribe and tune into Hanging with the Hamilton to see the adventure continue .
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The name of their YouTube series is "Hangin' With The Hamiltons" and they say they'll take fans with them on their marriage journey following the Netflix series. Peep their first episode below:
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A few days ago (SPOILER ALERT if you haven't watched yet)...
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It’s a Love is Blind family reunion!
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The couples aren’t in the pods anymore and things got REAL…fast during the “Love Is Blind” reunion show.
Along with Lauren & Cameron, co-stars Amber Pike and Matt Barnett (known as Barnett on the show) also tied the knot. However, there was drama leading up to the alter. Jessica Batten had the most cringeworthy storyline as she was seen throwing herself on Barnett in Mexico AFTER they both were engaged to someone else. She was super flirty with Barnett and kept asking him if he was SURE he picked the right woman.
On the show, Jessica tried to convince Amber that they were cool, but in all actuality, Jessica was after Amber’s man – which Amber wasn’t fully aware of during filming. However, after watching the series, Amber saw how Jessica was doing THE MOST, so she didn’t waste any time to CHECK her during the reunion show.
"You're so fake, coming to my face like we were cool,” Amber said to Jessica. “You were engaged to another man that you were leading on. I think you are a very disingenuous person and I hope, seeing this, you do grow from it, because this is not what the world needs, women who go behind people's back like that."
Where’s the lie? Peep the fiery clip below:
Watch the first clip from Thursday's Love Is Blind Reunion as Amber tells Jessica what she really thought about those conversations with Barnett pic.twitter.com/JSl3PFdsHV
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Honestly, she deserved every bit of this.
Jessica offered up an apology to both Amber and Barnett for her actions. She blamed her actions on having a history of going after men that are not available. She also apologized to her ex-fiancé Mark Cuevas. Jessica decided at the wedding NOT to marry him. Peep her apology below:
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This moment in emojis:
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On the show, Barnett got caught up in a love triangle between three women, but he ultimately chose Amber as his wife. During his time in the pods, he did casually tell Jessica he would propose to her and that's where things got messy because Jessica went back and told Amber what he said. At the reunion, he said he threw out the "I want to marry you" statement to gauge how the ladies would respond, however, he didn't actually mean he was going to propose and he regrets Jessica took it that way.
After the show aired, Amber and Barnett were on the brink of divorce. Amber admitted that they're both really stubborn and headstrong individuals, so they've hit some rough patches in their marriage. At one point, it got so bad, Amber sought out a divorce lawyer because they didn't meet each other's expectations of marriage.
"There was one point where we almost broke up because we had such expectations out of what we wanted out of a husband and wife," Amber explained. "We knew we were married and we knew we were in love, but also we were still learning each other."
She also revealed one of their main issues was the fact that she wasn't working and had to be "financially dependent" on Barnett.
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We’re so happy they’re making it work!
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Giannina Gibelli and Damian Powers didn't get married on the show after Damian called it off at the wedding. BUT, they've since reconciled. Gigi admitted it hurt like hell when Damian said he didn't want to get married at the alter, but said it was the best decision for them. Peep the clip above.
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Carlton Morton faced his ex-fiancee Diamond on the reunion show, following their explosive fight in Mexico after Carlton revealed he was a bisexual man. The fight went viral and started several conversations and hashtags on the Internet. Both Carlton and Diamond admitted they have been receiving death threats on social media. Diamond said she's hurt that people would attack her so viciously when her goal that day was to get more understanding.
By the end of their segment, Carlton got down on one knee and offered Diamond the engagement he originally gave to her as a symbol of their friendship. Huh? (You'll recall, he threw it in the pool during their argument in Mexico, so he had to go back and get it). Diamond accepted and said they both can move on as friends. She's better than us. Peep the clip above.
By the way, Diamond said she's currently working on her PhD in Optometry. She graduated from Hampton University with a degree in biology.
In happier news, Lauren and Cameron revealed they now have a fur baby named Spark, which is symbolic of the "spark" that kicked off their relationship in the pods. So, what about kids? Lauren said they'll have kids "one day" with Cameron chiming in, "Hopefully soon."
Lauren said she was super nervous to introduce Cameron to her father as her fiance, especially since she had never introduced any of her boyfriends to him. Papa Speed and Cameron are doing good and are building their father-in-law/son-in-law relationship. The Hamiltons said they spent their first Thanksgiving with both of their families last year and it was incredible.
"It was just like WOW. It was such a beautiful moment," Lauren said.
You can watch the full reunion episode below:
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Nice!
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Slashdot: Google Play Pass Bundles 350 Android Games and Apps For $4.99 Per Month
Google Play Pass Bundles 350 Android Games and Apps For $4.99 Per Month Published on September 23, 2019 at 09:47AM Google today launched a new service called "Google Play Pass," which for $4.99 per month gives Android users access to over 350 games and apps which will be served ad free and without any in-app purchases. From a report: Google will give users 10 days free and is also planning on offering the first year at $1.99 per month. It will be available in the US this week and other countries "soon." Google's take on the app subscription model is a little different from Apple, which just last week launched Apple Arcade, its $4.99 games subscription service. Firstly, Google Play pass includes apps as well as games. Secondly, Google isn't directly funding development their development nor demanding exclusivity. At launch, all of the apps and games included in Google Play Pass were already available on the Play Store and will continue to be available as standalone purchases (or ad-supported). If you've previously installed any app that's included in the service and sign up, your current app should automatically have its ads removed and its in-app purchases unlocked.
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Ferry Corsten Talks New Single, getting “Booed” & more!
Ferry Corsten Interview.
Trance music pioneer Ferry Corsten, who is also known as System F, Moonman, Pulp Victim, and Gouryella has been “cutting his teeth” in the music business for quite some time now.
The award winning DJ and record producer’s weekly radio show Corsten’s Countdown airs in several radio stations all across the world. His melodic Trance anthems and his recurring appearances at festivals like Ultra, EDC and Tomorrowland that have made him into a dance music icon.
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The Dutch DJ-producer joined Dayanna Ramirez in the Nexus Lounge during Miami Music Week 2019, to talk about his new single Free Fall with L.A-based singer-songwriter Nevve; Finding inspiration while skiing in the Austrian alps; Embarrassing moments while DJing and more! This is TAKE 5 with Ferry Corsten!
New Single: Free Fall Featuring Nevve.
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Dayanna Ramirez: I’m here with the one, the only Ferry Corsten. Ferry, How are you?
Ferry Corsten: I’m great! Yourself?
Dayanna Ramirez: It’s good! It’s all good! So, tell me, I’m just going to go right for it, Okay? Free Fall was just released.
Ferry Corsten: Yeah! Last week.
Dayanna Ramirez: I’m excited! We have a lot of people excited about it.
Ferry Corsten: Me too! Yeah, it’s been one of those tracks that I haven’t … I haven’t done a track like that in a long time. You know, I had a session in L.A- a bunch of people lined up and […] Nevve and I we just hit it off right away. Bang!
Dayanna Ramirez: How do you say it Nevve?
Ferry Corsten: Nevve or Neivve- I dunno.
Dayanna Ramirez: So, you guys hit it off right from the get-go?
Ferry Corsten: Yes, it was fun. You know, a bottle of wine came out and then bang there was a song, it was great!
Dayanna Ramirez: How about how long did that take to come together? Pretty quickly?
Ferry Corsten: Yeah, I think we had sort of like the frame [for the song], I mean the song I had already as like an earlier demo for another project that never really materialized. So the music was pretty much there and I was playing them some stuff and they were instantly vibing to this one. Yeah, within the hour I think the frame was there…
Dayanna Ramirez: Yeah, that’s pretty quick.
Ferry Corsten: But it was fun. It’s like one of those very sweet sort-of light songs, top-down, you’re in your car cruising type of (song).
Dayanna Ramirez: Got it! I definitely got that vibe from it. So, along those lines […] is there anything up to now you haven’t explored musically? something that you would kind of want to dabble into?
Ferry Corsten: Well, it’s not that I haven’t done that yet. It’s sort of something that I am [actively] doing. So, I’ m sorta really dipping my toes into the whole sort of like neo-classical world. It’s really intriguing […] and it’s very inspiring for me. I’ve got [this] playlist on Spotify called Still Point by Ferry Corsten and it’s just this real sort of like piano, almost classical music. Some of that […] stuff I’m doing just as a passion project.
Passion Projects & Finding Inspiration.
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Dayanna Ramirez: So, do you have a lot of passion projects?
Ferry Corsten: I do. I have too many sometimes, but yeah, it keeps me going. Yeah. I need it.
Dayanna Ramirez: You’ve been doing this for so long now and I’ve been privileged to follow your career for so long. How do you continue to find such inspiration that you bring into your work?
Ferry Corsten: I think foremost it’s really [about] keeping your ears open. You know, [just keep an eye] on what’s going on […] in my own directed world. You know, dipping my toes in (classical) while [keeping] another foot firmly planted in the Trance thing that I’m known for and where my heart is really.
At the same time, keeping track of the latest technology. I mean, hearing a certain sound can instantly give you inspiration (too). A good example is when I was snowboarding in Austria […] and when you pass by you hear that [muffled] music playing right? All of a sudden, I just had to stop […] and got my memo recorder out ‘la, la, la, la, la, la, la’ in the middle of the slope [laughs]. Because. I [had] to remember (that sound).
Dayanna Ramirez: You’re such a rebel!
Ferry Corsten: So yeah, that’s how…
Dayanna Ramirez: Don’t try this at home kids!
Ferry Corsten: Yeah, don’t do that in the middle of the highway. So yeah, […] wherever you can find bits and pieces of inspiration and just put it in one big box and go from there!
Dayanna Ramirez: So, you traveled the world. Is there a place that holds dear to your heart?
Ferry Corsten: Yes. Japan. Yeah. In the beginning of my touring days when I released music under System F, there was a track called Out Of The Blue that became really big in Japan. And because of that, I was in Japan almost three, four, five times out of the year. Seeing the whole country from north to south, and their culture, there are so many things I love about that place. Japan definitely. Asia is a big favorite in general for me.
Electrical Engineering.
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Dayanna Ramirez: Your career path has obviously led you here, but if you hadn’t have gotten into music, what do you think you would be doing?
Ferry Corsten: [Laughs] Traditionally speaking, if I [had] followed […] what I studied, I would have been an electrical engineer.
Dayanna Ramirez: There you go! Maybe you still would have ended up working with (electronics) like turn-tables.
Ferry Corsten: [laughs] Yeah, perhaps, lights and stuff. But yeah, definitely something (other than) what I’m doing now.
Dayanna Ramirez: You’ve done a lot of collaborations, but is there one (artist)… you’d like to work with one day?
Ferry Corsten: Wow! It’s funny you’re asking […] I want to keep it under-wraps, but I’m doing this whole project called ‘Unity’ which is all about collaborations. I had one with Paul Oakenfold. I had one with Jordan Suckly, with Ilan Bluestone. And it’s all part of the Unity project and there’s still a few (collaborations) on the horizon.
Dayanna Ramirez: Ah! so you can’t reveal it! surprise, surprise.
Ferry Corsten: That’s what we’re here for, we’re hyping it up!
Dayanna Ramirez: Okay. So, what is something that you wish you could add to your rider that would be absolutely ridiculous, but you could probably get away with?
Ferry Corsten: A goldfish.
Dayanna Ramirez: A goldfish. So you’d get so many goldfish?
Ferry Corsten: Yeah! Because it just sits there […] and just looks at you, staring with that mouth going ‘opaa,opaa,opaa.’ It’s peaceful. I mean, I have to think about how to play the best sets of my life for this crowd, and then when I’m done, I [can] look at the fish and it’s just like ‘hey man, it’s all good!’
Ferry Corsten’s Countdown.
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Dayanna Ramirez: So, if my math adds up correctly, you’re at episode 613 of your countdown (show). What are you going to do when it hits a thousand? Are you gonna do something big?
Ferry Corsten: I don’t know. I’ve got to see what Armin (Van Buuren) does!
Dayanna Ramirez: You’re gonna have to one-up him! whatever he does with more, plus goldfish.
Ferry Corsten: No, I don’t know yet- that’s a long way still but time flies. I didn’t ever think that I would ever reach the 600+, and here we are.
Dayanna Ramirez: Yeah, that’s a lot. It’s a lot to do!
Ferry Corsten: [laughs] Yeah.
Dayanna Ramirez: So, what’s next for you? I mean, you have so many projects in the works. Is there anything else that you can talk about?
Ferry Corsten: Yeah, there’s a new Gouryella on the horizon now. Since I brought it back in 2015, I’ve been trying to do one [release] every year and I already flaked. I missed one last year, so it’s time for a new one […] but a release date is unknown- but it’s there!
Like I said, some of the Unity stuff coming out this year, there’s some other stuff that I’m working on as Ferry Corsten along the lines of the Free Fall track. You know, way more light and vocally stuff. So, yeah- keeping myself off the streets.
Dayanna Ramirez: The last question that I have for you, has there ever been […] an awkward moment in your career that you still remember today?
Ferry Corsten: There are so many! I mean I could go really gnarly or just middle of the road. Back in the day when you played vinyl, I took the wrong needle off, which is okay because we’re all human, you just put the needle right back where you took it off. But then when the […] CD players came out, if you press the eject button on the wrong player, the CD player takes a long time. It stops the music […] and then the CD comes out and you can’t really push it back in because the mechanism locks it. So, you have to take it out, push it back in. And then the CD starts to read again, reboot, whatever, and then I can’t imagine what the crowd does. So, I got used to a few ‘boos’ (because of it).
Dayanna Ramirez: You’ve adapted! Well, Ferry, thank you so much for joining us.
Ferry Corsten: Absolutely. It was a pleasure. Thank you.
The Interview.
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Two days ago I bought life insurance.
About 3 years ago, my parents asked me to buy it because I could no longer be on their policy. They set everything up for me and all I had to do was call the lady and confirm everything and set up the recurring payments. I kept saying I would do it but I never had any intention of going through with it, because if I died, who even cares? I’m dead. Throw me in the ground or burn me, whatever. I’m dead anyway, I won’t be aware of how my body eventually got disposed of.
But last week, we had a seminar about our new life insurance policies. The company I work for offers free life insurance coverage up to a certain amount as long as you work there. And then they offer pretty competitive voluntary life insurance that you pay for yourself and that you can take with you even if you leave the company. I bought that one. Not because I decided to care about what happens to my body after I’m gone, but because I realized my loved ones have to continue living and I would like to make sure that just because I’m gone from this Earth, they’re still being taken care of. So I bought it. My sister is the 100% beneficiary of my policy. I couldn’t put my mom because I don’t think she’d give anything to my boyfriend. I couldn’t put my dad, well because I didn’t want to and I’m not close to him and I didn’t want him to have any power or decisions over what would happen to me. Because we basically have little to no relationship. I couldn’t just put my boyfriend, but that’s another story entirely.
Anyway, so I bought some life insurance. I’m starting to feel like an adult. I feel good. What’s a $12 monthly decrease in my paycheck anyway? Whatever. Peace of mind is worth it.
I got my new Yves Saint Laurent cushion foundation that I’ve been trying to buy for over a year. I love it. It makes my skin look radiant and it doesn’t rub off or fade away easily. I’m basically walking on sunshine these days.
I walk into work this morning. I woke up late because I’m sick. I’ve had a fever and a runny nose for over a week now. I can thank my boyfriend for getting me sick. He’s pretty much all better now, but I feel like I’m getting sicker. I almost skipped straightening my hair this morning so I could leave on time, but I did it anyway. I go through my entire skincare routine and tuck my makeup bags into my purse. I’ll just put it on when I get to the office. I go to the kitchen to grab some toast and jelly on my way out. I completely burn part of my toast. I cut off the black part, throw some jelly on it and run out the door. I don’t even put my tennis shoes on all the way. I pull into the parking lot at 7:47AM. I feel stressed because I feel like I’m late already. A guy from the factory forgot his badge and calls out to me to ask me to hold the door for him. I do. I put my bag down on my desk and clock in for the day. 7:49AM for the 3rd time in a row. I joke with my coworker how it’s fate that I clocked in at exactly the same time 3 days in a row. I grab my makeup bags and excuse myself to the restroom. As I’m walking by my coworker’s desk, he stops me and says, “I don’t mean to sound like creepy or anything but your skin looks really good today! Not like it doesn’t look good other days, but it’s really glowy today.” Yes, he actually used the word glowy. I thank him and say that I’m going to put on makeup anyway. As I’m finishing up my makeup, my boss comes into the bathroom. She’s also running late. She throws on some makeup and straightens her hair. We both laugh over the fact that we’d rather be late than not wash our hair because of our recent trauma with our most recently terminated employee. (Her hair was just not clean at all. It also kind of smelled.)
I try to concentrate on work but I can’t because my computer isn’t working. I have to reboot it twice. It’s 9:14AM. I notice the date. March 24th. It’s the 5th year anniversary of when my boyfriend sent me the text “I love you!!” (It’s a funny story for another time.) Shit. Yesterday was our actual 5th anniversary. I completely forgot. I sent him a late text message. Of course, no response. He’s probably mad. I was asleep last night when he got home and he woke me up. I got annoyed, ignored him and went back to sleep. Shit, our anniversary sucked for him. My coworker asks me to approve something in our system. I try to concentrate on work, but my mind is just not there today. I’m basically just watching the clock for lunch time.
My boss sends a message in the chatroom that contains just me, her and our other coworker (I’ll just call her Bell, it’s not her name, but whatever.). She asks if we want to sneak away for a girls lunch. Of course we do. We leave first in my car and she follows around 10 minutes later. Over lunch we talk about whatever and basically just gossip and enjoy each other’s company. She asks me “Gwen, is anything going on in your life differently? These days you’re so happy and your skin just looks really great! Anything going on?” Bell chimes in “Are you pregnant?” Unfortunately, no I’m not pregnant. I attribute the good skin to the new makeup to which my boss counters, “But I saw your skin before the makeup and it looks so bright and clear!” Thank you, thank you, but nothing really is going on in my life that’s any different. I’m just very content with my life. I’m happy with where I am in my life right now and I decided not to let stress affect my mood. I’m happy. I’m in a good place and I’m enjoying my day to day activities, even if nothing has changed. My coworkers both say they’re happy for me. That they haven’t seen me this happy or bright in a while and they hope it can last. Me too.
We get back to the office. We’re a little late. No one mentions anything about it. I grab my toothbrush and toothpaste from my desk and quickly head to the restroom to brush my teeth. I go back to my desk for like five minutes and then I go bother one of my coworkers. I return back to my desk around 1:30 and try to concentrate on my work but I can’t. My phone vibrates at 1:41PM. I got a text message. I re-read it twice before replying. Kat passed away. I can’t wrap my head around it. Is this a joke? I check her FB. It’s real. I read her husband’s post. I excuse myself to the restroom. I cried in the bathroom for almost 30 minutes before I could regain my composure and return to my desk. For the rest of the work day, I text back and forth with my best friend reminiscing on the past and remembering her. I don’t get any work done. I try to get into my myspace account to see our old pictures but I can’t get the password right. I get more upset and more frustrated. I leave work without saying goodbye. I pull into my apartment parking space. I cry in my car for another 30 minutes before finally going inside. Somehow, my apartment feels more empty.
A few hours ago, I was feeling really good about my life. I was in a good place, I was feeling happy and optimistic. I never would have imagined that I would hear that kind of news less than an hour after my declaration of how happy I was. If my life was a play, I think that would qualify as dramatic irony and my buying life insurance as foreshadowing. But my life isn’t a play and it isn’t dramatic irony or foreshadowing, it’s just tragic news that happened to come on what should have been a beautiful day.
I came home to my happy dog but I wasn’t happy. I sat down on the bed and stared at the wall for a while. Then I got on my laptop and continued to try to get into my myspace account. After a while I succeeded. By the way, it’s changed so much now it took me quite a while to figure out how it worked. I looked for our pictures. There weren’t really any. All the wall posts were gone. There was nothing there to comfort me, to drown me in our memories. I signed into my photobucket, there were only a few pictures. I remember having so many more pictures. I’m a little more honest with myself now. I’m sad, I’m hurting, I feel guilty. I can’t even remember the last time I talked to her. Did I even wish her a happy birthday last year? I can’t remember. I don’t think I did. I didn’t think that it would be her last birthday. My last chance to wish her.
If I’m being super honest with myself, we haven’t talked or been real friends for a while now. I feel worse because I’ve always thought in the back of my head, if I wanted to be friends again, we could be. All I have to do is say “hi”. She’s such a friendly, loving, forgiving person, if I just say “hi” eventually we’ll end up being just as close as before. I can go back anytime. We could be friends again anytime. But there is no more time. I lost all my chances. She was one of my best friends. She was there for me at one of my lowest points in life. When I felt alone, helpless, powerless. When I was depressed and hated myself. She was there, loving me, spending time with me, making me laugh. I needed her more than she could ever imagine. I’m so disappointed in myself. The feelings that she helped gradually remove from my life, I probably put them into hers. When she was so sick and laying in her hospital bed, not knowing if she’d make it back home or not..when she was feeling alone and powerless...when she couldn’t do anything to help herself...when she posted the hospital pictures...Instead of feeling annoyed and thinking to myself that she wants attention, I should have just given it to her. I should have comforted her. I shouldn’t have left her alone in her hospital bed. I shouldn’t have let her feel like she was alone. I shouldn’t have put so much distance between us that she no longer even wanted to try to reach out to me. And now I can’t take it back. I can’t un-close the door.
I’m not a crazy superstitious person, but when I was in elementary school I read a book. “The Best Bad Thing”. In the book it states that the Japanese believe that bad things happen in threes. Right after I heard she passed away, I kept replaying all the bad things that happened today in my head.
I woke up late. I burnt my toast. Kat passed away. (I know those things aren’t on the same level, but call me superstitious. I believe in reading the signs.)
I clocked in at the exact same time 3 days in a row. I joked about it being fate. 3. I’ve worked at my company for almost two years and that has never happened before.
The first two bad things, they weren’t horrible. Just inconvenient. In its own way, I feel like Kat’s passing was my best bad thing today. Even though I’m sad, even though I feel guilty, even though I won’t ever get over my horrible behavior towards her the last few years, it’s still a good bad thing. She’s no longer suffering. She’s no longer sick. She doesn’t have to spend her days alone in the hospital. She doesn’t have to mourn the loss of her dad anymore. She doesn’t have to get endless surgeries and treatments. They don’t have to keep opening up the same incision every few months for another treatment that won’t last. She doesn’t have to put on a brave face anymore. She doesn’t have to be strong anymore. She doesn’t have to keep telling people she’s fine and not to worry about her, when she’s not fine and she’s worried about herself. She doesn’t have to spend any more holidays in the hospital. She can just rest easy.
And that is what I’m the most thankful for right now. Even if she died hating me (which I doubt, because I don’t think she could ever truly hate anyone), I’m so grateful that she could finally find some peace.
And in repentance for all the wrongs I have done to her over the years, all my prayers before bed will include a prayer for her family. They have suffered so many losses the past few years.
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