#conforming. shes everything and nothing at all yknow? loved that for her. loved that for me

[just-sp-in-inginthevoid]

She's just like me fr

[zappyjoan]

Bunk Bed Junction gender musings

In honour of Mayzuketober beginning... I'd like to talk about my interpretation of b2j's genders.... lets go

I always thought of them as being at least SOME flavour of gender-queer, or at least gender-non conforming. I remember talking about it to a good friend of mine, and she brought up the excellent point that punk rockers often were also gender abolitionists or genderqueer. Whether b2j are an actual punk band, I'm not very sure, but them going against strict gender boxes makes sense! After all, they aspire to break against the norm, against NSR and EDM, so like.... wouldn't they also challenge gender labels?

Mayday, I think, loves being all genders. She doesn't mind using all pronouns out there, maybe even neopronouns! She doesn't believe in simply being a woman and nothing more. She is a woman, and everything else! Be it man, both, neither, and every single xenogender, all is fair game! She prefers presenting femininely, but that doesn't mean she's always a girl, yknow?? She also loves presenting in all sorts of ways, and she also has her MASC moments.... the most gender person ever, i wish genderqueer people were real. In fact, I like to think she would identify as queer, period. I don't think she would wear binders or anything like that.... she wants her twins to be free......

As for Zuke, well... it's a little different. He feels the same way about his gender and how he feels about it, but is much more attached to labelling himself and presentation. He's the type that realized later in his life that, oh, not everyone feels like they aren't a man at all sometimes. He experimented with they/them and she/her at some point in college, but he went back to he/him and feels most comfortable with that (Nadia/Eve helped with that! She was very supportive). That doesn't mean he can't have girlswag... he's never worn feminine clothing until living with May, which was the time in his life where he REALLY began chilling out and worrying less about what others thought of him. He's still working up the courage to be more feminine, though. Maybe he's a cis guy who doesn't care about his appearance, maybe he's on the nonbinary spectrum, not even he knows. He's figuring it out.

This is partially based on the fact that in-game and promos, it's implied Zuke is the feminine one, and May the masculine, or at least the way they're written to subvert tropes (may being the leader, zuke following her around), right down to devs saying may wears the pants, and zuke wearing a woman's suit jacket. Obviously, it's just speculation on my end..... don't get it twisted!!!

Thank you for reading mwah mwah xoxo

[silvrwore-blog]

---------- OOC.

hi im mitch : ) im a big f*king idiot, too. let me preface this by saying it is currently uhhhhhh 6 AM est and i still haven’t slept yet !!! i thunk i started this around 10 PM last night but im slow. really slow. everything about this ??? a hot mess ™ . it isn’t going to make a lick of sense !! but thanks for stopping by sdkjsadklsd. anywhomst im mitch, i’m twenty, in the est, and im ready to rock and roll buckaroo. my guy here? he’s an idiot. but he’s my idiot. therefore, i have to love him. the history is long ( i know because i started there first ) so ill make a little tl;dr with some simplified notes on him. i think that covers ??? everything ?? so far ? im always down to plot in the DMs or i have discord at oovoo javer #4855 mwuah !!

---------- APPLICATION.

( jack lowden, twenty-seven, cismale, he/him ) – have you seen bennett sharpe, the financial strategy student around oxford yet? i hear they can be conforming and convivial, but those who know them insist they’re reminded of beige turtlenecks and plaid blazers, eraser shavings on an old oak desk, and eagerly belting out the latest tunes when they’re around. rumor has it that due to stress, he had a breakdown in high school that put him a year behind his peers and his family has tried to cover it up. is it true? only time will tell… ( mitch, twenty, she/her, est )

---------- HISTORY.

THEY’D ALMOST STRUCK GOLD with bennett sharpe. smart enough not to have to buy your way into college, but not smart enough for his peers to despise him. the gusto of an entertainer and the charm of a damn good politician ------------ but they’d never been quite able to buff out that chip on his shoulder.

the sharpe’s were an interesting case. too good to slum it with the poor folk but not rich enough to always be able to sit at the BIG table. a family who paved their way in law and then literature. blood in the supreme courts and in those scandelous little novels that housewives sipped a glass of wine over. at least that had been his mother’s contribution to the family fortune ----- a wonderful dinner conversation.

--------- “ oh mother, what raunchy debauchery are you slaving away at now ? “

bennett was the oldest of three ( followed by one girl and then another boy ). he was a good son. would have been a real golden child to anyone else --- well, with a little love, care & patience. normal family things. from a young age he had a memory unmatched and a love of strategy games. a youth who loved to test his brain. which was fine and dandy, however, it wasn’t quite leading up to being a judge. he wasn’t following in his family’s footsteps. he’d gotten a little... off track. he had just been better with numbers. money crunching. equations. it had been a tough pill for his family to swallow but swallow it they would. afterall, it hadn’t been their biggest concern when it came to their oldest son. 

it had always been there. carefully covered up with the occasional “ he’ll grow out of it “ or  “ stop it. nothing is wrong. “ maybe that had been the real giveaway to why he’d never amount to anything big. “ he’s FRAIL. no spine. “ a good and competent doctor would have had him diagnosed and taken care of. seventeen and he’s missing classes but not for normal rich kid things. the world’s bigger and scarier than it ever was. college and a future right around the corner, parental pressure, it snowballs until it is all too much. one day of important testing and bennett sharpe never shows. he had not been on campus at all. sometimes when the panic became too much, it did him well to distract his mind ---- go outside. count the blades of grass or the birds in the sky. breathe. it’s what he had done that afternoon. left and tried to sate his mind. but nothing had done it for him that day. nothing to cure him. the world? bleak. the future? uncertain. weapy and tore down. the little devil on his shoulder named ‘ desperation ‘. he needed out. his parents phone and the message becomes crystal clear... 

--------- “ i can’t do this. “

so he’d ‘” turned tail and ran “, branded some sort of listless coward. he didn’t know what was wrong with himself, nor did his parents. the only thing they were certain of was that they would not have a son coming apart at the seams. they’d grilled him. no one was going to take him seriously or he’d never find himself in any important position if he was always going to go chicken. a breakdown never looked good. it did not matter to the rich or the poor, one would still be ridiculed. but corporations wanted someone steely, confident, put-together. all the things bennett was not becoming. so they’d contacted his school - wrote it off as a vacation. save face. “ oh i got bored. decided to go to switzerland instead ! couldn’t miss it, you see a chance of a lifetime had just presented itself to me, so.... “. however, no donations or pleading on his parents part were going to make up lost time. bennett was held back a year for being unable to complete the necessary testing and exams. oh how he would have to sell that vacation. but it hadn’t quite been a vacation, had it? long days trying to put together the pieces. some days were easier than others. some time to try and buff out that chip. the chip remained.

years down the line and one enrolment to oxford and he’s a lot better than where he started. he’s found ways to cope. some good. some bad. he’s more indendent than ever which has led him to branch out and take care of himself. no watchful eye of mother and father needed. perhaps that’s why he now has therapy pamphlets tucked away inside untouched textbooks. away from prying eyes. just an idea, maybe one day he would water it and watch it grow. go see someone. anyone. now he’s cheery. lively. a staple at parties. heeds his father’s advice and brushes shoulders with the right people. finds himself in the right places. the future is looking bright. oxford may soon to be a closed chapter in his life, but the years had been good to him. until, well, they weren’t. 

the riot club had been for the best. extravagant. a little bit of chasing the finer things in life. that had worked out just well for him. death had never been a thought --- or at least it was always kept at a distance. never upclose or personal. a relative here or there, miles away, he’d barely given it a thought. a funeral and they were gone. parties and death were not supposed to intermingle. maybe that was why it was so jarring. the world is a little heavier, bearing down on him once more. he tries not to pay it any mind when he has to excuse himself twice more than usual for a smoke outside. brushes off clammy hands like they’re nothing. accidents happened. he’d find solace in that word --------- accident. 

---------- SPARKNOTES / TL;DR.

voted most likely to be that annoying fuck outside your dorm at 3 am who doesn’t know how to turn down the volume 

dumb enough to try anything once

despite some tough times he’s just ??? full of life ??? life is a PARTY. and he’s making the most of it now, thank you very much. 

“ are you not ENTERTAINED ? “

he’s not the worst,,, but he’s not the best. yknow?

nice enough to get drunk and talk to just about anyone but snobby enough that you bet he’s going to make some insensitive comments. it’s that -- not rich rich enough to be totally elite, but not hurting enough to be able to sympathize with people who aren’t bringing in a f*ck ton of money. 

his family ( on his dad’s side ) has always been involved in law. typically judges, and some who have made it to be top dog in their fields. his mother is a writer who does rather well. she’s published a handful of book and his father has also published law-related books which brings in money. his dad is pretty high up in the field but bennett’s got his suspicions that some of the income might just be payoffs. i wouldn’t envision his father as being someone hard to be bought. he might want to grill his son for being spineless or weakwilled but i’d imagine that’s just a family trait inherited. 

which uhh brings me to my next point. bennett can be a bit of a follower. there’s not a whole lot of “NO” in him. which may also hurt his relationships because he’s not going to stand against injustices or anything if it is going to put him in harm’s way. which may help perpetuate that rich or snobby idea surrounding him because he’s not about to stand up for the common folk if they’re being belittled for their threads or schooling.sure, he might talk to them here or there in the right occasion but he’s not going to stand for them. he’s sitting pretty. he’s not looking to ruin that. 

essentially he’s not going to have your back unless it benefits him. 

as far as his secret goes, i think he’s worried about the stigma around mental health and how he’d be perceived but i think a lot more has to do with his family. because he knows they won’t be happy if it gets out or if something further happens. they just ain’t supportive in that department, chief. but he doesn’t want to be cut off or anything and not just because he’d be worried about who was putting money in his pockets. he just doesn’t want to stir the pot any further, even though he should really seek help. i kind of vagued on it but i’d say he has gad ( generalized anxiety disorder ). 

---------- CONNECTIONS.

am i picky?? nah. if he can fill something, slot him in. we can chit chat. mwuah

i already know this section is gonna get so neglected because im too tired to think

uhh give me an under the wing sort of relationship ?? listen if bennett can’t repair himself maybe he can touch up someone else. someone he might see something in. buds ? who knows ? not me. but it could b cute. 

long time friends !!! doesn’t have to be since childhood but someone(s) he’s known for a while now and they click. 

anything angsty ? is good too. 

typical friends / enemies plots too !! spice things up. 

i need sleep : ) good night !!!!!!!!!!

[ariyadaivaris]

catsi replied to your post “yknow sometimes youre like wow, yknow, we live in a society but i feel...”

i one hundred percent feel this

like why is every angle against becky about her being gnc. do they not have any other ammo? like

promos against ronda: she didnt work for her place here, shes a whiny baby when she doesnt get her way, shes green, she gets riled up so easy, shes a little weirdo promos against becky: SHES THE MAN CAN YOU BELIEVE IT

LIKE WRITE BETTER MATERIAL

ITS SO BLATANT LIKE NO ONE ON EARTH IS FALLING FOR THIS AS A HEEL TACTIC ITS JUST INSULTING A WOMAN PERFORMING FEMININITY WRONG WHICH IS SO TIIIIIIREEEEEED

and i LOVE becky and i love hearing her call herself the man and seeing her in leather jackets and braids and doing the smirky face and not performing for dudes but also, she is gnc in SUCH A RELATIVELY MINIMAL WAY...? IF THAT MAKES SENSE? she only BARELY challenges gender conformity because she stole the flair nickname, and to her credit she’s adapted and defended it ADMIRABLY and embraced being able to embody this for girls (this is another way to be a woman!) and it STILL means the world to see her, but also? as far as femininity goes, she does the MINIMUM to go “hey fuck this” and suddenly everyone’s dogpiling her and its SO transparent and SO disheartening!!!!! WHAT glass ceilings are we breaking if women only get to advance if they are The Best At Woman!!!!

gender conformity in wwe specifically is enforced SO heavily and seeing wrestlers like velveteen or the fashion police Nudge That Line without making it 100% a joke is treated so alienly, but women in wwe just DON’T have the space to be gnc almost ever, and now that becky is challenging it WITH JUST A TOE OVER THE LINE this is happening!!! the deepest insults anyone has for her aren’t rooted in how She Was Never Meant To Be Here because she’s already defended that she fought to come here from nothing, she owns that, but if there’s ANYTHING wwe hates more than poor people and brown people its The Queers 

its just like...........the audience EMBRACED becky becoming The Man so hard that her heel turn just slid back into face territory naturally, but just the NICKNAME The Man has gotten comments from lacey about going toe to toe with “a man”, its gotten rousey’s everything going on rooted in both transphobia AND lesbophobia to cover her bases, FUCK, its gotten dialogue in the story about becky’s “testosterone” levels to drive home that good good transphobia feeling, its gotten snark on twitter like, even to more. “innocuous” stuff like ricochet going along with a joke about how if becky can be the man he could be female competitor of the year (accompanied with THAT GOOD GOOD THICK TRANSMISOGYNY IN THE REPLIES TO THAT), like!!!! the SMALLEST bit going over the line of Good Femininity and its just free game and its so.......UNBELIEVABLY crushing to try and take in and deal with all at once

[grimtime]

The main plot of The Room is very simple and God I wish I lived in the universe in which it weren’t, just to see, what it would’ve been like if the director were allowed to go fucking ham on the script. It reads like something I’d have written when I was like 9, only to go back and remove the more blatantly unrealistic elements (pirates) and insert in a lot of what my 9 year old idea of Adult Drama would be. 

It’s about a woman (Lisa) who cheats on her fiance (Johnny) with his best friend (Mark), because she’s fallen out of love with him, and the inaction of everyone involved as well as the transgression itself drives Johnny to commit suicide.

I kinda wanna make a shittily edited montage with scenes of Mark and Johnny to Even In Death or My Immortal or something like that by Amy Lee but I don’t know how to edit video, so that’s out, for now. 

There are a few unresolved subplots as well which I’ll get to later. 

The film introduces the two main characters, Johnny and Lisa, by Johnny giving Lisa a red dress as a gift. If a man got me a sexy red dress as a gift I’d kill him. Fucking dresses and flowers and petals he’s just PERFORMING romance. He performs EVERYTHING with symbolic shorthand “oh, how do people act, men play catch I think? Eeeerrrrr then I will have my men play catch. In SUITS. Yeah this is humanity I fuckin’ nailed it.”

There’s a running thread throughout this movie, wherein Johnny’s primary mode of affection is incredibly materialistic, and his friends value him primarily for what he can do for them on a financial/material scale. #Crapitalism. Similarly Lisa is only ever valued by other people for her external appearance cuz all the men are thotty creeps. 

Blaa blaa fucking blaa dichotomy between realism crossing into surrealism Tommy Wiseau’s a misogynist and I can and will fucking make Lisa an interesting character blaa blaa fucking blaa nobody's going to read this fuck you. 

Lisa is the surreal element- every other character is pretty fuckin’ preoccupied in their social status and place in their society and maintaining it, bitch gets what she wants she ain’t about that conformity. I mean she’s also an adulterer but fucking hell I have to impose depth art is interpretive blaa blaa fucking blaa why did I delete my blog I don’t remember anyone’s URL LMAO. 

Anyway I guess there’s something to be said for Johnny destroying all his possessions at the climax of the movie. Once he loses his trophy woman to his best friend he has nothing left, does he? He really has nothing going for him. I mean he has his job still but when he loses his already pretty flimsy social life all he has left are his materialistic possessions and they can’t exactly do therapy at him. But his entire life is his job and what he can possess. Destroying the only things he has left is self destruction. SHE TORE HIM APART. 

Ripping Lisa’s red dress at the end is a symbolic murder-- because I don’t believe he ever saw Lisa as her own person. He saw her as another thing he could possess. A symbol of status he could dress up. A material. Lisa may as well have been a bit of red fabric. After all the momentum of the film often halts just to have characters comment on her hotness. Supporting this statement is the fact that, although she was lying about physical abuse, he does get pretty physical with her soon after. Foreshadowing? Fuck if I know, this movie wasn’t made competently. Was I written competently? Am I going to spiral before I die? Questions questions! All of them edgy! 

I wonder if there are any shitty fanfics written about Tommy Wiseau on wattpad. I’m not looking. But I fucking wonder.

Nevermind I looked and there’s “Trapped On An Island With Tommy Wiseau”. Fucking. Glorious. Why didn’t I pick THAT to over analyse? Holy fucking shit it’s amazing. I want to know where THAT story is going.

Whatever.

So anyway, people repeat themselves when they talk sometimes, and they do it in the movie as well. That’s cool. That’s good. That adds some naturalism to it. That makes it seem like real people talking and not actors. Yeah.

EXCEPT IT DIVES ASS OVER TEAKETTLE INTO SURREALISM! When those people repeat themselves in ways that don’t make sense as a shorthand way to progress the scene. It’s just a single step removed from [INSERT SOMETHING TO CHANGE THE SCENE HERE]. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

It’s something isn’t it. Damn. Yep. I’m chewing gum with the paper still on it just to see what happens. Hope it’s not poisoooooooon.

Aw hell I had to talk about the subplots. Iuno. INSERT SUBPLOT BLATHERING HERE. Danny took drugs. That was something. Amazingly the movie treats drugs and alcohol as bigger sins than attempted murder and assault! The characters do! Everyone does! Fucking glorious. IT’S NOT WHAT THE ILLICIT SUBSTANCES MAKE YOU DO UNDER THE INFLUENCE, IT’S THAT YA TOOK EM AT ALL! I forget what it means. 

YOU ARE TEARING ME APART, NOCTURNE-DOLCE!!!

Yeah. I wonder if I could construct a shitty emo poem using only lines of dialogue from The Room.

Don't leave I need you, I love you Everything is going wrong

You don’t want to talk to me

They trick me They didn't keep their promise They betray me, and I don't care anymore

You are TEARING ME APART

I don’t care

Everything is not okay

Don’t worry about it

It’s definitely shitty.

The more I think on it the more I realize that Lisa is literally the only character that develops as the movie goes on. I mean her development is basically “HOT ADULTERER IS EVIL WOMAN BITCH” but, yknow, at least she’s not like poor dumb Mark who has sex with her countless times and still manages to be stunned when she proposistions him for sex. 

Arguably she’s also the only character that shows any kind of agency; all the other characters seem to have their patterns. Mark asks her “why are you doing this to me” as if he’s a totally passive, blameless bystander, each scene with Claudette is exactly the same as the last, etc. The only character that really advances the plot is Lisa.

Lisa: agent of chaos and change. I unironically adore the PISS out of her dialogue. Check it the fuck out:  

You know, I really loved Johnny at first. Everything’s changed. I need more from life than what Johnny can give me. Suddenly my eyes are wide open and I can see everything so clearly. I want it all.

If he can’t give me what I want, somebody else will.

You have to take as much as you can. You have to live, live, live. 

I don’t see what the big deal is. Doesn’t everybody look out for number one? Don’t I deserve the best?

There is no baby. I told him that to make it interesting. We’re probably going to have a baby eventually anyway.

I am not responsible for Johnny. I’m through with that. I’m changing. I have the right, don’t I? People are changing all the time. I have to think about my future. What’s it to you?

Hot take: Lisa and Lola are the same character except one is a fish from Shark Tale and the other is Lisa from The Room. 

[dykesbat]

okay hi. copy and pasting from my dms rn:

khoa is whizzer (seems aloof and afraid of commitment. doesn't want to feel anything for bruce/acknowledges it in a way thats mostly brushing it off/playing up the nonchalance, dislike of marvin/bruce’s “rules”)

bruce is marvin [controlling, wants to conform to what society tells him he has to be (think abt that fear of not making his parents proud by not fitting in that nuclear family mold + yknow that one scene in mask of the phantasm? yeah.)]

ivy and harley are charlotte and cordelia (listen I know but think abt the “she’s my doctor and I love her” part!!!! think abt unlikely lovers w them and bruce and khoa!!!!!!!!!!!)

racquetball/chess being replaced w their sparring? the whole switch from “winning is everything to me/nothing is everything to me except sex and money” to “do you know all I want is you anything you do is all right”??????

okok listen listen….. ghostbat falsettos au.