#comrade rey ☭
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bamgyw · 4 months ago
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you are incredible, you know that ?
the way i was just looking for some quick fun a few days ago, clicking on whatever and then i stumbled upon 6 nights and got immediately sucked in, hell within seconds i was at the beginning of sucker punch, all that heavy darkness weighing on me yet i couldn't look away, not for a second, i could not risk loosing this world that made me feel horrible yet strangely at ease, after all, it reeked of home.
you have one hell of a voice, i'd call it "opressive" (very fitting with the enviroment you are potraying ), whenever i'm trying to be like nah that's way too gloomy, too hyperbolized, you tell me to sit my ass down and accept the rules of the world you have created. I do and i get rewarded, that's the thing, you know how to reward the reader, you keep buidling up the tension, keep layering up the gloom only for it to lead to the best catharsis imaginable - yes, i'm talking about the troath fucking scene, at that point i could not even be horny anymore, i was just in shambles, it felt like my ribcage was gonna open up and let out all the screams i've ever burried within.
AND YOUR DIALOGUES, the way you work with silence, that brief conversation between soogyu after bg sees her for the first time has been stuck in my mind for days now, i see it almost as a movie scene. literally the simplest interaction can add up so much to the characters if handled well and you handle it SO well. there are also other lines that are very dear to me, cockteasing slut is definitely one of them and i can't help but alsolutely adore 'daddy thinks he's god's chosen one, but you keep outplaying him. so what does that make you ?' , such a perfect little line, makes her seem so alienated, so naive, i love it.
i'm obsessed with the way you're slowly crafting soobin, a side character but you don't miss a single chance with him, every single apperance he gets you make him even weirder, even hotter. much like the girls watching the entire hp series only for those 15 mins of draco, i'll gladly reread the entire six nights again only to go trough that thrill of you gradually revealing soobin. can't wait to see what you're gonna do with him
i could talk about your work forever but one last thing, the most important one. thank you so much for justifying or even just writing about the anger of those of us who went trough something similar. thank you so much for being there for all the past, helpless versions of me - the one whose ocd created a beautiful blend with the religious indoctrination and made her say 100 lord prayer's as a punishment for masturbating, the one who asked her parents for help regarding her mental ilness and got told it's the devil inside of her and instead they took her to a priest,  the one who cried for days, seeing no future for herself whatsover after she started realizing she's attracted to women, the one who had to observe how the self image of every woman of the house got torn to pieces by her daddy  and other daddy like figures.
we were so alone in those houses, we only had that anger. and you write about it beautifully. just that scene where you compare her taking his dick to recieving the body of christ. oh, that's all of that beautiful, painful anger. feels like standing up to them, for all the past versions of ourselves who could not.
phew, ok, back to writing that ma thesis, i had to get this out of my chest
also, I noticed somebody asking for a happy ending and while i'm a firm believer that it's completely up to you i can't help but dream of an ending so tragic that it would completely fuck me over :)
- could i 🐇?
well. i smiled not in a giggly kicking my feet kind of way but in a heartwarming fulfillment kind of way.
i really appreciate what you said about the hyperbolic style. i'm very aware of it. the melodramatic voice comes out because it's the one i have, but then it's my job to justify it and adapt it to the specific type of narration each story needs. i don't know if i'm making any sense, it's just. that particular observation was so heartening.
every time i post the final text i've read and gone through it so many times that i can't even tell if it's decent anymore, it's just whatever. but thank you so much for allowing me to see it through your eyes in this way that is not vainly flattering but substantial.
it means a lot to me, specially since i'm currently struggling to put out the fourth night because fucking nothing feels fucking good enough. but thanks to you i have this new thought of i've done it before which means i can do it again.
you thank me for 'justifying the anger', but the anger is not to be justified, it's the direct consequence of a cause and that's fucking abuse. psychological, physical, whatever.
kids aren't born evil. they're treated like fucking moronic puppets to encage and lie to all through childhood and adolescence. be it at home, at school, at church, or anywhere else. so when they realize they're being treated like garbage by their alleged protectors they understandably act up, that's if they're not too scarred to act at all. and then they get punished because it's just too fucking easy to yell at a kid.
i wish i had some more mellow and emotional words to acknowledge your experience, but it's a very political and angering issue for me.
i went to a catholic school. we'd get hit with a ruler on our fingers just for not sitting the correct way, or forgetting to bring a pencil, or holding another girl's hand. and things like that just happen because a kid won't hit you back. it's a power dynamic, the ruler and the ruled.
so anyway. six nights is meant to be enjoyed in many different ways, all of them valid, but i just want you to know that i see and i share and i value your particular way of reading it.
six nights is a far from perfect work and i keep regretting and feeling insecure about so many things, but it's still thorough and intimate and very dear to me as it is. so thank you so so much.
of course you can be bunny anon and i wanna hear from you all the time.
i can't say anything about the ending. i'm just gonna wink. ;)
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bamgyw · 4 months ago
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yo dont be trying to claim rey for urself we share rey around here
its a collective of girlfriends
exactly thank you. a collective of girlfriends indeed. a lesbian labor union.
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bamgyw · 5 months ago
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dont worry about the update for six nights bc i will keep rereading in preparation!! good luck on your exams you are so sexy and smart !!! - 🪽
it's not even a worry anymore, it's a yearning. i wanna sit and write so bad. but i can't, because my fucking mother is paying for my fucking higher education.
never go to school. it's bullshit. you won't learn a thing. waste of money, waste of time, waste of healthy braincells.
but then again, you have to go if you don't want the morbidly competitive capitalistic fuckass machine to eat you alive. i hate school i hate school i hate school fuck school.
also omg u think i'm sexy love u (ˆ ³ˆ)
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