#commander-melanie-shepard

[ghostxofxartemis]

MerWeek Day 2: Long Time no See

Summary: Axel and Kaidan are living happily ever after now that the war is over, but there’s only one more thing to solve. A lifetime of anger towards his mother, can he manage to put that all aside for the sake of his newly found daughter?

Ship: M!Shenko

Tags: Kaidan Alenko/Male Shepard, Axel Shepard (OC), My Shepard.

Rating: T

Words: 1149

Also available on AO3

To say Axel was upset that Kaidan had invited his parents to come visit them in Vancouver was a monumental understatement. He was looking forward to seeing his father, but his mother’s an entirely different story. The woman hadn’t sent so much as an email since his return from death and then she had the audacity to pretend nothing was wrong when he had begrudgingly contacted her at her behest during the war. She stated how proud she was of him for commanding his own ship, how he was living his dream. It wasn’t his dream, it was her dream.

Here he was almost thirty-three fucking years old and he doesn’t know what to do with the rest of his life now that the Alliance is behind him. He needs time to think, evaluate and having his mother come over and force feed the Alliance down his throat is not helping. Maybe if he hadn’t lived his teenage years in sex and alcohol, he might have been able to stand up to her and tell her to fuck off like he had wanted to do so many times and have a better grasp of he is as a person and not as Commander Shepard.

Unconsciously, he reaches out to the gravity well of dark energy and he slams the cupboard door in the kitchen, and pounds his glowing fist onto the counter, denting it slightly. A small yelp is heard behind him, and he curses under his breath. The remnants of his biotics fade in blue licks.

It wasn’t about him, it was for his, their, daughter. Her whole life she had known but only one side of her family; her mothers. Axel had been hidden from her her whole life until only recently when Melanie was discovered to have died with Hammer Team. She had been right there. After so many long years, he hadn’t seen her. Damn her for keeping so many memories away.

“So I managed to get most of what was on the list. I couldn’t find asparagus so I’m tweaking tonight’s meal.” Kaidan deposits the brown grocery bag on the counter and pecks Axel on the cheek. It takes only but a moment for him to notice the tension in Axel’s jaw, his temple pulsing as he’s gritting his teeth. Kaidan places a hand over Axel’s and slowly he feels the younger man's tension dissolve away. Axel unclenches his fist, and Kaidan laces his fingers with his. Bringing Axel’s hands against his lips, “I know today is going to be difficult for you. I have your back. But can you promise to try and behave for her?”

Axel glances over his shoulder back at their daughter Ashley. He takes in a deep breath to try and quench the torrent of anger boiling inside him. Looking back at Kaidan, he looks eyes and sighs. “I can’t make promises I know I can’t keep, but I will try as long as she doesn’t mention me returning to the Alliance.”

“Okay, so if she does bring it up,” Kaidan unlaces his fingers and starts putting away the meat and produce in the fridge, “let’s have a ‘safe topic’ plan… like maybe how we need a new countertop?” Kaidan teases as he looks over at Axel.

“We needed a change anyway.” Axel mumbles as he picks up his coffee mug and takes a sip.

“I was thinking about getting a wood countertop.”

“Kaidan…”

“And like Ashley’s soccer. Her academics.”

“Now you’re more on track.”

“Oh, of course! Her track and field too.” Kaidan shuts the fridge door, “see, it’ll be alright.”

“They’re here for two days, Kaidan.”

The sound of the doorbell makes Axel freeze momentarily, his face blanching. There wasn’t a lot that could make the man anxious, but his mother was at the top of the list. He places his mug on the counter before heading out of the kitchen. “I don’t suppose it’s too late to back out of this?”

Kaidan following behind him starts pushing him lightly towards the door, rolls his eyes. He reaches for the door and opens it, one hand still on Axel’s bicep, keeping him in place.

There, standing in front of them, was Axel’s parents. Hannah’s hair was a little more gray than the last time he had seen his mother, but she was still tiny. In her hands was a dish. She hands it over to Axel. “I figured since you’ve been on the mend, you probably haven’t cooked in a while and forgot how to.”

Frustration boils over, and Axel shoves the plate to Kaidan before throwing his hands in the air and walking away.

Kaidan puts on his most pleasant smile, “don’t mind him, he’s having a rough morning. Come inside.”

“I can’t imagine why.” Well, I guess we know where Axel gets his charm from, his father, Kaidan thinks so himself as he steps aside to let the in-laws into the house.

“Kitchen’s down the hall to your left. There’s fresh coffee in the pot.” Kaidan gives them directions as he closes the door behind them and follows the in-laws to the kitchen.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The outdoors proved to be a temporary relief from the stress of having his parents over. Not even a second inside the house and she was already on him.

It never ceases. To her, he simply can’t do anything right.

Resting his arms on top of the railing, he leans as he watches their dog run back and forth down below the porch.

This is going to be one hell of a weekend. Facing a thresher maw was easier than facing that woman.

The door opens behind him and he hears light footsteps approaching him. The smell of lilacs reaches his nostrils and he groans. “Mother.”

“Axel. Son. I don’t want animosity between us this weekend. I know I haven’t exactly been the easiest to be around.”

Axel groans deeply.

“Please listen.” Hannah rests her arms on the railing and clasps her hands. “I’m sorry. I didn’t treat you like a son, but as my little soldier. I am proud of everything you did, despite it all, I know I was wrong. I put my career above family. Your father made that abundantly clear the other night. When we got the invitation to come over from Kaidan, he demanded I deny it. Said you wouldn’t want me to come. I see by your reaction that he wasn’t wrong. I hope one day you can forgive me and we can start fresh. Hopefully, this weekend.”

Inhaling deeply, Axel looks up to the clouds, “It’s going to take some time. But I think I can manage.”

“We have all the time in the world now, thanks to you.” Hannah pulls away and heads inside but not before giving her son a gentle pat on the back.

Yeah, All the fucking time in the world.

[seeds-jacob]

Tagged by @crqstalite <3333

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 5 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Name/nickname: Lili, Lil, lone insane Kaidan stan

Gender: Female!

Star sign: Gemini :^3

Height: 5′3 orz

Birthday: June 4!

Time: 10:42pm 

Favorite bands:

1. Shinedown

2. The Gazette

3. Tiny meat gang(more of a group really)

4. Halestorm

Favorite solo artists

1. Taylor swift(obvs)

2. Halsey

3. Billie Eilish

4. Melanie Martinez

5. Lady gaga

Song stuck in my head: Miss Americana and the heartbreak prince

Last movie: Underwater

Last show: Criminal minds

When did I create this blog: 2012 

What do I post: Lots of taylor swift and video games lmao

Last thing googled: bunch of religious stuff because I went down a rabbit hole on youtube

Other blogs: @spaceprincealenko my Kaidan stan account skdkdkdk(although i’m more active there than I am on this one i’ll admit)

Do I get asks: Not as many as on my side blog but like I said, I lurk there more lol

Why I chose my url: Because I relate too hard to my marian hawke lmao

Following: 1600

Followers: 971!

Average hours of sleep: I think about 8

Lucky number: 5

Instruments: Does my voice count?

What am I wearing: Grell shirt(still my favorite shirt even tho i’m not that into black butler anymore) and constellation pajama pants

Dream job: Voice actress, or something in the hospitality field

Dream trip: Ummmm the real answer would get me crusified here so i’ll go with japan

Favorite food: anything sweet

Nationality: American

Favorite song: No body no crime by taylor swift

Last book read: Oh geez....

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in:  

1. Mass Effect so I can be with Kaidan 

2. Silent hill

3. Harudaki(even tho they’re both dead so it doesn’t matter *sobs*)

tagging @confundere @shepard-warden-commander @baronvonriktenstein @celestialvexation

[kaidans-alenko]

10 songs

Tagged by @bardofheartdive <3333

Rules: List ten songs you really like by a different artists and tag 10 people

1.No body No crime - Taylor Swift

2. Your rain - Akira Yamoka

3. Johnny Johnny - Danny Gonzalez

4. No felx - Tiny meat gang

5. Boss bitch - Doja cat( makes me think of Lily 🤭)

6. Diamonds - Megan the stallion, Normani

7. Jokes on you - Charlotte Lawrence

8. Mad hatter - Melanie Martinez

9. Circles- Post Malone

10. All the things she said - t.A.T.u

Tagging: @confundere @crqstalite @shepard-warden-commander and anyone else who wants to do it!

[omgkalyppso]

10 Characters, 10 Fandoms

@bosspigeon invited me to post 10 fave characters from 10 different fandoms. Holy shit is my type obvious when laid out like this:

1. Zevran Arainai, Dragon Age 2. Commander Jane Shepard, Mass Effect 3. Claude von Riegan, Fire Emblem 4. Aragorn, Lord of the Rings 5. Melanie King, The Magnus Archives 6. Brea, The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance 7. Thancred Waters, Final Fantasy 8. Lor'themar Theron, World of Warcraft 9. Aranea Ienith, The Elder Scrolls 10. Chidi Anagonye, The Good Place

At first I was like, am I even in 10 fandoms? But then I came up with 12 and had to choose which to share. I don’t think they’re in any particular order. If you see this and then want to do it @ me! I want to see!

[commander-melanie-shepard-blog]

Commander Shepard in her private quarter

The Commander sat at the edge of her bed, elbows resting on her knees, hands covering her mouth. The only lights that illuminated the small room were the blue glow from her fish tank, and the neon orange glow of her clock radio. A grown escaped the woman's lips. She felt stagnate. After defeating the Reapers, there wasn't much call or need for her. She was a weapon that did it's part and now was left to collect dust on a shelf. She lowered her hands and gently rubbed her shoulder, " So, what now? " Shepard whispered softly to herself. 

[caia-tsofi-blog]

Oh, hello. I'm Caia - nice to meet you.

[zanekrios]

Tumblr Crushes :3

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[paladinedwards]

Confess

[[wow, given that you're your own FC... hmmm] 

Hmm.... if I had to pick one thing.  I like your face.

[redspydey]

Hitchin' a ride on the Normandy

"Hello..."

A voice. A woman's voice. It was soft and welcoming, but too dark for Micheal to see where it was coming from. Of course. His eyes were closed. Opening them were proving to be a most difficult feat, and the only action his face was getting was the constant lifting and dropping of his brows. Finally, they managed to flutter open. The images were blurred. The light was bright. Too bright, forcing him to cringe and close his eyes once more. Then again, he heard the voice and he pushed his himself to open his eyes again. Finally, he managed. A woman. A nurse? Doctor. "Where..am I?" He asked, his eyes flickering around. SOmething was different. This place..it wasn't home. 

She paused for a moment. "...Citadel."

She said, then her gaze dropped to the restraints around Micheal's wrists. Not just any restraints, either. Restraints that allowed for no sort of leverage and seemed to be made of some sort of metal unlike any other sort he'd dealt with before. Micheal began to panic, but only for a second or so before calming. "Citadel?...." He asked again, then turning to the giant window he'd yet to acknowledge. As soon as he did that, his eyes went wide. Suddenly, it all hit him. Flying cars? Were those...those aliens? Was this even earth anymore? What happened? He did't know but  he had to break free. 

Two months later. 

Omega. Crime central of the galaxy. And Micheal had made a name for himself. Nothing too serious of course. We all know who ran Omega, and getting too big of a name for yourself in her territory was getting her attention. Something Micheal didn't want. Truth was, Micheal was done with this place. It didn't feel right. He had a vague memory of his past life, but he knew this wasn't it. Not with the power he learned he had. He heard the crew of the Normandy had docked a while ago and were still here. For some reason, that really caught his interest. Maybe, he could find himself useful with them. Based off the stories he heard, anyway. 

[dextrofruitcake]

commander-melanie-shepard replied to your post: commander-melanie-shepard replied to your post: im...

(( I see farts as bottled up rage, and when you fart it releases that rage which feels great… Even thought that’t not at all what they are. ))

[mizukoerishepard-blog]

Tumblr Crushes:

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(( Two lovely drell side by side. Just the way mama likes it. ))

[commander-melanie-shepard-blog]

Munday mun

(( So, I am back.. AGAIN.. sorry about the absence. A lot has gone on and then my internet was shut off, but things have calmed down and well I got internet back on at my place. So I will be coming back to join the MERP community :] ))

[peaceloveandnug-blog]

MELLLLLLL

I DIDN'T SEEEEEE D;

CUM TO MEEE

[cmdrjaneshepard]

Looking down at Commander Shepard a horrified look comes across her face. " Shepard?! " She looks to she sky and screams " SHEPARRDDD!!! NOOOOO SHEPARRDDDDD!! YOU WILL BE AVENGED!!! "

[I'm trying to take this seriously I really am, but all I can imagine is Maria Hill from the Avengers gag reel] 

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commander-melanie-shepard replied to your post: If Romney wins, I am officially inviting all my...

yes please

redtiger27 replied to your post: If Romney wins, I am officially inviting all my...

I’ll bring snacks

sugarplumtits replied to your post: If Romney wins, I am officially inviting all my...

What about pizza?

flotilladreams replied to your post: If Romney wins, I am officially inviting all my...

I was literally talking with my SO earlier today about emigrating to Sweden haha.

NO WAY

Hell, you can all come anyway for a giant sleepover. We also have tons of decent and cheap pizza places in my town! It'll be perfect!

I promise hugs and good cooking.

[dextrofruitcake]

commander-melanie-shepard replied to your post: im farting like my life depends on it

(( You too? I’m farting like it’s my damn job ))

It's so bad but then as it comes out it feels so wonderous like why

dragonfarce replied to your post: im farting like my life depends on it

go and do it near somebody and when they smell it tell them thousands of tiny particles of your shit are now inside of them