#cnalastair : personal

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the life of a college student (for legal reasons this is a JOKE!!!!)

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UWAAAA ( ≧∀≦)ノ 我很高兴你喜欢这 个礼物♡

熊猫盗他的鞋 (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠)

@cn-alastair-lite 送我这只熊猫！！谢谢你！！！

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i wish other languages could just spawn in your head like english did, lol. one of my favorite stories to tell people is that I actually almost had to repeat fourth grade because my english used to be so terrible... and then, i finished sixth grade with the highest mark possible without any extra classes. it just sorta... appeared in my brain

and i know it makes sense because we're surrounded by english-language media and phrases irl, but GODDDD hrrrhnnnghb

i hate having to put in the effort!! (T＿T)

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experienced yearning for the first time at 19 and as a way to cope i'm like Woah, This Is Gonna Take My Writing To The Next Level!

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i lost the battle. going to sleep at 19.24 (7:24pm) without studying for tomorrow. consider me utterly defeated

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having cool classmates is for being able to have stupid matching danmei pfps with them... !!!!!!!

I HAVE MATCHING WITH @cn-alastair-lite I HAVE MATCHING WITH @cn-alastair-lite

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i'm sorry if i seem off and/or post less... i'm gonna be so real with you guys, the incoming exam season FUCKED ME UP. i have never been this busy and anxious ever in my life... i don't even know why, istg 😭😭 today i'll have to send out a message to my commisioners saying i will not be able to continue until the end of exams, especially cuz of some extra work that has been put on my shoulders -weh-

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i'm gonna be so real with you guys i have a blood test tomorrow and i don't think i can handle it if it turns out more things are wrong with my body ke ke ke

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a guy haunted by many chronic health issues: aw man my only source of comfort is the internet and sweets. imma fuck up this mean burger an-

the doctors: oh yeah so on top of all the other shit you're also pre-diabetic

me:

the doctors: haha. yk what that means

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self-diagnosing mental disorders will never be cool. it's not like vitamin deficiency or some other easily distinguishable thing you can tell from a mile apart. the issue with psychiatrists/psychologists isn't that they exist, but it's that oftentimes they're not easily accessible; nonetheless, there are ways to get around it, especially once you're an adult. suspecting you might have something and having an open conversation about the possibility =/= claiming you have a serious disorder. people spend years studying the intricacies of the human brain and you read a few articles alongside the pirated copy of dsm-5 and think you're the shit? be so fucking fr lmao

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my favorite story to tell new people is that i almost lost my voice completely as a child due to an injury that healed miraculously well with barely any scarring. i'm sure a lot of people are very unhappy about that, cuz if i were permanently mute, their lives would be easier 😊

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i don't get migraines often, but every 3-6 months it hits me so hard that i literally lose my eyesight and it's the scariest experience ever

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i wish commenting was more common on tumblr... where i come from (twitterland) it's much more frequent and i love when ppl comment x) especially because i suck at talking in dms!!! mutuals you're always welcome to chat me up

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today i was faced with the opinion that etui cases for an e-reader are pointless and omg?? what? that person seemed quite hell-bent on saying that and while i do agree that overconsumption is rampant (and it really shows with the amount of useless trinkets and gadgets available for purchase), this one i cannot get behind... i got this device that's supposed to last me 5+ years, i'd rather splurge and buy a case for an extra 20$ and be at peace then just carelessly throw the device into my bag! 😭

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i wish i could hate properly, lmao. i end up stifling my distaste for people until it spills over, i try my best to stay kind and nice and do all these favors while loathing everyone because people are so used to things going their way. they don't wonder how little things are done and take them for granted. no, someone else is doing these for you and you don't notice-- or worse, you do, but pretend not to because it benefits you. it's in my nature to serve and be courteous but it only makes me rot on the inside. my mother raised me to be proper and when other people are not thoughtful... wrrr

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people who write comments under fics as if they were talking to the characters>>>>