#close to that i think rn. ik its only gonna get 5 notes but whateva

[soulsludge]

I started journaling again... I wrote a few pages but I just wanted to share just this one, for some reason I really like it. Yesterday I had therapy and then went to the Sessanta aka Puscifer/A Perfect Circle/Primus show. Text:

Yesterday I talked to my therapist about feeling past my expiration date and not being able to imagine my future. At the concert, a dad and his daughter and some other man were talking about how the them of 20 years ago would high five them now and making a pact to see a show once every 6th months. The dad was telling his daughter how she was one of the coolest people there because he raised her on good and unique music. She seemed awkward yet grateful. Maybe I just want to be happy and at good concerts in another 20 years. Almost 20 years ago - 18 years almost 19 actually - my dad took an 8 year old me to a different A Perfect Circle concert and I journaled about that too, and how I was all dressed up in baby goth for it. In the parking garage, I saw a young girl, maybe 8, in a big - too big - APC shirt. She was smiling and holding her mom's hand. (Aside: Then, we saw a car with a license plate - MYSHDOW. Dad said 'that's pretty cool'. He wanted one too.)