#clnsbrpnx

[slayerforbreakfast-blog]

wake and pray work all day I walk past the places that I used to lay now Im paying my way ... but my hopes are so much higher dont count me out Im a survivor I chase these dreams down city streets dead end roads that no one sees and Im proud to be a fighter #dropkickmurphys #11shortstoriesofpainandglory #payingmyway _____________ in 2003 gutted & strung along by disaster, strung out & strung up like a wet flag for addiction, I folded myself neatly into a box labeled junkie. I nodded out on the east coast & came to on the west coast with my parents diplomatically pressuring me to go to rehab. I admitted myself for nine days - enough to kick before a fresh habit. in july 2005 I wrestled myself on the streets; every waking moment shoplifting, selling stolen goods, buying drugs, using drugs, shoplifting again - crack heroin speed my constant companions between catnaps on cardboard in doorways under overpasses in squats. I loitered by porchlights with dreams of sleeping on closet floors in neglected backyards or cradling lonely rooftops. between july 2005 & july 2006 san francisco's finest took me in nine times - monthly really, the other months missing due to already being in custody. these just the first three years of a sharp dive into active addiction that crawled for another decade ... & then some. just 5 years ago with pending felony sales cases I didnt even know if I wanted to be clean. I got out december 21st 2014 with a probation officer & a reporting address & this quiet idea that if I did what other survivors of addiction did that maybe Id enoy a similar result: spending more time living in the world & less time dying in a cell. here I am 5 years later reflecting on last year, on crying tears on the top of my lungs with years clean as Dropkick Murphys holler Paying My Way - knowing these are the moments Im proud to be a fighter xox yeppers, that's Brixton napping thru his official first show - the set began at noon. #punksgoneparent #newparentingstandard #saintpatricksday #ourcandidlife #thehappynow #concertphotographer #workingmom #sobermom #sobrietyrocks #toddlermom #clnsbrpnx #cleanandsober #giftsofrecovery #soberaf #justfortoday #odaat #wedorecov (at House of Blues Boston) https://www.instagram.com/slayer_for_breakfast/p/BvIsQKKH-j3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=iizo369b6zrv

[thisismayson]

j'oh and I doing an art thang somewhere in oakland. #clnsbrpnx (at Oakland, California)

[thisismayson]

being super creepy for the #clnsbrpnx interview. search cln/sbr/pnx on YouTube and Facebook.

[thisismayson]

364 days clean and sober today. bring on the year. #clean #sober #clnsbrpnx