#ciggyshiggy

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I love starving myself and smoking weed ...

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I want him, I need him

I want to crawl under his skin and fit perfectly like I know I would.

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Holy fucking shit the crush that I was using to cope with my fp views me as a fucking little brother/plus, he's aromantic

I want to smash my head against a wall why is this happening to me can no one see me as attractive or fuckable???

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I want his hands around my throat, even if he's trying to kill me.

I'd be honored to be snuffed out by his grasp, turning purple,

he is all I will see, all I am.

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EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF HIM.

FUCK!

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My roomate broke my charger kms

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I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU.

Why am I never fucking enough for you huh? You're supposed to treat me like a son not a housemaid or a renter.

Fuck you.

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my fucking snake escaped what the fuck I'm going to off myself

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on break at work, I love nicotine

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this is what my constant mental state feels like if I'm being fully honest

It's him, it's always him.

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all I can do is scratch scratch scratch till my skin comes apart under my fingernails, till I'm clean from the feeling of being.

pain frees me, it always will.