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bexreadstoomuch · 2 years ago

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Magic Man - Chapter 12

After Winning your local Battle of The Bands competition, you don’t realise it’s your old school crush’s band that’ll you’ll be supporting for the next 4 months. Can you put the past behind you and forgive?

its a couple of days after new year's - does y/n regret what happened? is she ok?

NSFW — slow burn, fluff, flirting, reader has weight/image issues light angst, 18+ overall for eventual smut, drug/alcohol mention/use/language, angst, smut, fingering, confessions of attraction, EddiemunsonxFemReaderHenderson

Masterlist Part 12/? [wc 4.2k] a/n - TW- This chapter is very close to things that I went through, depression, sadness, body image issues, no self worth. please please like, share and comment, your comments make me so happy and encourage me to write more! thank you <3

12 - Im Sorry

January 1990

New Years was a whirlwind of emotions.

Joy, sadness, relief, shame and uncertainty.

You kept your promise to Eddie that night, as soon as the countdown began to bring in the New Year he pulled you to a secluded corner, bringing both his palms to either side of your face and pulled you to him with a gentle kiss.

He pulled away flashing a huge toothy grin at you, pressing your foreheads together, staring deep into your eyes.

“You kept your promise and I'll keep mine sweetheart” Eddie whispered to you.

“Thank you Ed’s” you whispered back “I best go see the girls and wish them a happy new year, they’ll wonder where I disappeared too”

Eddie nodded, bringing your hand up to his lips leaving a kiss on your knuckles “As you wish” bowing down to you, making you blush and gently squeeze his hand before trying to move away, but he wouldn't let go.

“Eddie, come on, you better go see the boys” you pleaded with him, not being able to stop smiling.

With that he gave you a wink and moved across the floor in the direction of the bar.

You look around the room and you notice Lula practically on top of Gareth, it seems like they think they are the only people in the room. I'm so glad she's happy. But you cannot see Jack, thinking she must have gone back to your shared room already.

You look around one more time, catching Eddie's eye. You give him a small smile, which he returns, raising his glass to you, watching you turn and make your way to the exit.

In the days that passed you couldn't stop thinking of that night. The way Eddie made you feel, his hands on you, holding you, caressing you. “Y/n? Are you ready to do this?” Jack asks, coming up from behind you, placing a hand on your shoulder.

“Yeah, just a little nervous is all” you turn to reply.

Wyatt had come to you all the day after new years day, to ask again if you still wanted to accept his offer of joining the record label. You had all wholeheartedly agreed again.

“Girls, I'm so happy you will be joining our family here. I haven't told the boys yet, but they should be here shortly and we’ll tell them together before the press conference in a few days, yes?” Wyatts southern charm calmed you all down, as you could see Jack and Lula were as nervous as you.

All nodding, Wyatt smiled a small smile, letting out a chuckling sigh. You haven't seen Eddie properly for a few days since New Years. You couldn't bring yourself to be around him. Yes he promised to stay quiet with everyone about what happened between the two of you, and you're grateful that he has, because part of you is regretting what happened.

You kept thinking to yourself that you have to give him another chance, but you couldn't fully give yourself to it. You kept seeing him staring at you from across the stage, giving you a small smile every time.

You'd feel the heat rising in your face every time you caught his eye, but from behind him you'd see Kelly glancing over towards you with a look you couldn't place. Was it hatred? Was it disgust?

“So what's this meeting you wanted, boss that gets us up at this ungodly hour?” Eddie's voice echoed around the stage as he walked onto the stage from a side wing followed by the rest of Corroded Coffin.

“Very funny Munson it's 11am, now come down here we got something to tell you all” Wyatt shouts across the room towards everyone motioning with his hand for them to all gather around.

You glance over at Eddie, giving him a small crooked smile, looking down at your shoes, nervous about what his reaction is going to be when he finds out the news. He returns your smile, throwing a little wink your way. You let out a small giggle, which is quickly distinguished as you see Kelly saunter over to Eddie's side, wrapping an arm around his shoulder. He must have noticed the change in your face as he moved sides ways taking her hand off of him looking over at her raising his eyebrows.

Kelly gave out a short harsh huff through her nose and crossed her arm across her body, looking in your direction, looking you up and down smirking. “So I gathered you all here this morning for two reasons. One, we have a press conference to mark the halfway point of the tour in a few days. We are going to make an announcement that we are going to extend the tour” Wyatt explains to everyone.

“Extend?” you look over at him surprised “for how long?”

“Why yes, we have been having exceptional demand, so another 3 months, going up into Canada, and that brings me to the second part of the reason I brought you all here. We have decided to offer a contract with the girls here to join our family”

“WHAT?” It was Kelly's voice louder than most. Her shrill shout is a stark contrast to everyone else's joyful shouts.

Jack looks up in shock at Kelly “What's that supposed to mean Kels?”

Kels? Why is Jack calling her Kels? You look between the two trying to figure out what that exchange was about.

“You two I get but HER?” Kelly shouts pointing at Jack and Lula, then wavering her hand up and down in the direction of you.

Lula suddenly tries to lunge forward towards Kelly, but Gareth manages to grab her around her middle just in time.

“LET ME GO! No one ever disrespects Y/N'' Lula screams struggling against Gareth's arms.

“Lu, come on babe, calm down! Kel’s come on, that's out of order!” Gareth says trying to calm Lula down and drag her away from the situation.

“Wyatt this is a bad idea, who would want to see THAT on the cover of an album!” Kelly pleads

Over all the shouting, there comes loud banging noise. “EVERYONE! STOP THIS NOW!” Waytt is slamming down his walking stick into the ground.

“Kelly this is not your decision to make, we are signing with the girls tomorrow during the press conference, they will make a great addition to the family! And that's what we are! Family!” you've never heard in the 3 months of knowing him Wyatt raise his voice at all.

Lost of words, with a look of thunder across her face Kelly turns heel and storms away across the stage in your direction, stopping just next you turning and saying “I know what's going on and it's not going to work, you've hurt him once, i'm not going to let it happen again”

You're rooted to the spot not able to move, trying not to let the tears fall from your eyes, as you watch Kelly walk towards the exit door, slamming it behind her. You suddenly feel a pair of strong arms wrap around your middle, a chin resting on your shoulder, soft curls brushing your cheek, the faint scent of cigarettes and mint.

“Just ignore her sweetheart, I’ll talk to her later” Eddie's voice is almost a whisper in your ear.

You still can't say anything, pushing his arms away from your middle, you just walk away not saying a word to anyone.

“Y/N, please don't let Kelly ruin this moment for you, i'll have a word with her later about her behaviour” Wyatt takes a hold of your arm as you walk by, his voice almost soothing. “We wouldn't ask you to join us if we didn't think you had this amazing talent, don't let anyone tell you otherwise”

Nodding your head, you made your way back towards the motel next door to the venue wanting to be alone.

“Y/n please stop walking so fast!” Eddie's voice calls behind you.

“Eddie please just leave me alone, I need to be on my own for bit, please”

Walking faster you reach the door of your room, trying desperately to get the key to your room, when Eddie is next to you, hand on your shoulder trying to turn you around.

“Please, what Kelly said was completely out of order, I promise i’ll talk to her, please sweetheart look at me” Eddies voice falters on the last words causing you to face him.

“What's that going to do Ed’s? Hmm? She's right, look at me! She's right! Just leave me alone!” Your voice shakes with the tears falling down your cheeks.

You get the door open and hurry inside, shutting it abruptly behind you, locking it behind you.

“Y/n please, come on!” Eddie calls through the closed door.

Curling up on the bed tears stinging your eyes, wrapping yourself in your blanket to try and comfort yourself.

Eddie keeps knocking on your door pleading for you to open the door for him, but you roll over covering yourself up more, trying to block the world out from everyone, consumed by your own thoughts. After a short while you hear him stop, curse under his breath and walk away from your door.

The next day you awaken with a sore head and bloodshot eyes from crying yourself to sleep the previous night. Thoughts running through your mind of what Kelly had said to you.

She was right in your mind, who would want to see you on an album cover? You didn't have the same image as everyone else. Lula was cute and bubbly and blonde and curvy in all the right places. Jack had the hard rock image that no one would mess with.

You made your way from your bed to the full length mirror looking at yourself, grabbing hold onto your soft stomach, large thighs, and hating everything that you see.

Why did Eddie say all those things to you on new years? You didn't want to believe he was like everyone else. Just saying those things to get to brag about being with a big girl. But the small voice in the back of your mind was taking over. You felt so foolish that you let it go so far with Eddie that night. Why did you let it happen?

You can't deny it felt good. It felt really good, but were you moving it too fast? Is he going to think you're easy? Did he really mean all he said?

He called you beautiful, but you couldn't see it.

There were no shows scheduled for a few days before the press conference so you hid away in your motel room, not answering the door to anyone, not even Jack or Lula. You could hear their worried voices behind the door, trying to encourage you to come out but you were not budging. They would bring you a bag of food from the local diner and leave them outside the door for you. Seeing the contents you would eat a few of the fries they got you but leave everything else. You just couldn't bring yourself to eat.

On the third day of your seclusion you decided you needed to get out of your pit of a bed and get a bath. Looking at yourself in the small bathroom mirror you didn't recognise yourself. Huge dark bags under your eyes, matted hair sticking up in all directions, still wearing the same oversized tee you'd thrown on a few days ago to try and hide yourself.

Turning the tap of the motel bath you sat on the edge of the tub watching the water rise, dipping your hand in moving it back and forth floating through the surface of the water.

Deciding to have a rummage through the cabinets you found some basic lavender scented bath soak, which you tipped into the water, breathing in the relaxing scent. Lifting your top over your head you took another look at your reflection in the mirror.

Imagining what you'd look like if you didn't have wide hips, large thighs, large breasts. Wondering if people would prefer you if you looked like those models you'd see, long blonde hair, skinny long legs, perfect perky tits.

Lowering yourself into the warm water you instantly feel yourself relax. Leaving the bathroom door open you could see the clock on the adjacent wall by the TV hanging on the wall. You had no idea what time it was. You had lost complete track of time while locked away to yourself. Just hearing the tick of the hands going around.

It was gone past midnight.

Closing your eyes, you let your body slip down the bath until your head was under the water. It was peaceful. Quiet. Allowing the water to relax your tense muscles.

You'd been here before. That night after Hellfire. It had taken your mom and Dustin over a week to get you back from being locked away in your room. Your mom got so scared you'll hurt yourself she took all the locks from the doors, including the bathroom. One day she came to find you in a similar position you are now, under the water of the bath, but fully clothed. She dragged you up by your shoulders, shouting at you through her tears. Trying to get an answer from you, but you couldn't say anything staring blankly past her.

You're suddenly brought back from your thoughts, by a muffled knocking sound. Lifting your head back above the surface, the knocking continues. Sighing deeply you lift yourself from the water grabbing your dressing gown wrapping it around you wondering who would be knocking at this time of night.

Slowly making your way to the door you look through the peephole, seeing Eddie with a distressed look upon his face.

He knocks again.

“Hey, Y/N I know you're in there, please, let me in, I need to talk to you” You could hear the desperation in his voice.

You slowly move your hand to the lock and chain opening the door. Eddie stood in the door frame in his black jeans, Reeboks and a large plain black hoodie, his curls tied up in a loose bun at the base of his neck, a few curls loose framing his face.

“Hey Eds” your voice is small, so quiet you're surprised he heard you.

“Sweetheart, are you ok? I've been so worried about you, we all have” he moves towards you into the room but you take a step back, looking around sheepishly.

“Y/N?” Eddies look around the room noticing the brown bags of now cold food, that had been left for you barely touched.

“Have you eaten anything at all?” you could hear the concern in his voice, it cuts into you deep.

Looking down at your bare feet, you shake your head, your chin starting to tremble, your knees going weak.

Eddies rushes towards you engulfing you in his warm embrace, as you both tumble to the ground. He menovers you so you are sitting on his lap as he brings your damp head to his chest, resting his chin atop your head.

“Please sweetheart, don't cry, i got you it's all ok, im here, i promise i'm not going anywhere” Eddie rocks you slowly back and forth soothing you, relaxing you as your cry into his chest your hands grabbing the front of his hoodie, keeping him close.

You don't know how long you stay like this. Time escapes you. But you start to shiver, remembering you're completely naked apart from your dressing gown.

“Doll, you're freezing, come let's get you warm” You didn't want to leave his embrace but you knew you needed to get dressed, to feel remotely human again.

“Here, sit down i'll find you some clothes” Eddie manoeuvres you back to your unmade bed sitting you down, as he makes his way to your duffle bag on the side table by the bathroom door.

You watch him silently go through your bag, thinking you'd be embarrassed having him go through your things but right now you didnt care.

He come back over to you holding a pair of leggings, an oversized Iron Maiden tee, zip up black hoodie, socks and your worn high top converse.

“I didn't know what you'd like but I thought these looked comfy” he looked sheepishly at you, finally admitting, “ill er let you choose everything else” guestering towards your bag.

It took you a minute to realise he meant your panties and a bra. Letting out a soft laugh through your nose, you nodded and made your way over to the bathroom holding your clothes, grabbing everything else on the way.

“I'll be back out in a mo” Looking back you see Eddie has taken your place on the edge of your bed his hands together fidgeting with his rings.

“Take as much time as you need doll, i'll be right here”

“Thank you Eddie” you softly close the door behind you, sitting on the edge of the bath, reaching over to release the water down the drain.

Getting dressed again, you started to feel somewhat better, but you had so many thoughts and questions gnawing away at you you needed some answers from him.

Making your way back into the room you saw Eddie was now standing, with your blanket wrapped up over his arm, your notebook, and 2 bottles of beer.

“Come with me sweetheart, I want to show you something” Eddie held out his free hand for you.

You thought for a moment whether you should take it or not, but your body answered for you by reaching out and intertwining your fingers together.

“Where are we going Eds?” you questioned him as he lead you out of your room and down the pathway.

“Just a quick detour to my room, and then you’ll see” Eddies voice was hushed as not to make to much noise going past all the other rooms. Reaching into his hoodie pocket he produced his key, adn unlocked his door.

“I’ll be right back” he sneaked into his shared room, not wanting to wake up Jeff who was snoring away face down in his bed.

“Ok lets go” Eddie said, reappearing now wearing his trademark sleeveless denim jacket. The very same from school.

Taking your hand again in his, he led you across the motel car park, round the back of the building to where you had parked the buses a few days previous.

You were heading straight towards the rear of Bertha where the ladder to access the roof platform was located.

“Come on doll make your way up i’ll be up there in a second” Eddie was smiling at your with that huge toothy grin, that always made you blush.

You placed your foot on the first tred and pulled yourself up working your way to the top. Once you reach the top it look all the strength you had not to cry again.

He must have been here earlier as there were pillows and blankets laid out everywhere, little fairy lights lining the edge of the platform, and a wide low chair that looks like it was one of the sunbeds from by the motel pool.

Pulling yourself over the top, you hear Eddie making his way up to you.

“I hope this is ok Y/n? I asked Jack if I could do this and she said as long as I don't manhandle Bertha and it was for you, then it's all ok” Eddie explained as he placed your blanket on the back of the chair and the beers and your notebook down beside it.

“Eds this is beautiful” you can't believe he would do something like this for you. He made his way over to the chair sitting down with a leg hanging over each edge, leaving space in the middle. Once seated he shuffled his denim vest off, motioning for you To sit down next to him.

You slowly make your way over towards him taking the seat between his legs. Once seated he places his jacket over your shoulders wrapping you up in his familiar scent.

“I don't want you to get cold again,'' whispering in your ear, moving a stray piece of hair from your face tucking it behind your ear.

Sighing gently you quickly nod not wanting to look at him, feeling you could combust.

You feel him shift next to you learning over and you hear a click, and then soft music plays. You instantly recognise the gentle guitar intro ‘Stairway to Heaven - Led Zeppelin’ he must of brought a tape player up here too.

“C'mere sweetheart” Eddie moves back towards you placing his hands on your upper arms. “Lean back into me”

“Eddie, why did you do this?” You question him as you gently lean back and bringing your legs up onto the lounger.

“Well I feel I have some explaining to do, and also I wanted to make sure you were okay. Plus it was a beautiful evening and I just wanted to share the stars with you”

Eddie's cheek was now pressed next to your own as he placed his head on your shoulder.

“Kelly was completely out of order with what she said to you y/n”

“Eds shes right, come on, look at me, who would want to see me on an album cover, they want someone like Lula or Jack. It doesn't matter about talent anymore it’s all image” You retort back to him

“Sweetheart, you are the most beautiful person I have ever met! Look, everything I said to you at New Years is true. You are beautiful inside and out” Eddies hand had come round to turn your face towards him to look you dead in the eye so he could prove to you he wasn't being deceitful.

“If it takes me every single day of the rest of my life to prove that to you, than so be it!” Eddie was determined to prove his worth to you, but something was nagging at you.

“I need to ask you something about Kelly, something she said to me” You shift around to face him better.

“She said to me ‘it's not going to work, you've hurt him once, i'm not going to let it happen again’ what did she mean by that Eds? Did, erm did you two, errrm, were you two together when this tour started?” you asked him nervously.

Eddie let out a chuckle, looking down at your worried face.

“No y/n me and Kelly were never together, not at all, were just really good friends, we look out for each other, she's like a sister to me, I promise you, its just you”

“Does she hate me?” You ask fiddling with a loose thread on the bottom of Eddie's hoodie sleeve.

“No doll, she doesn't hate you, she's just looking out for me is all, I promise once you get to know her she's great. But it's not my place to tell you her story. I told her my side of what happened between us all those years ago and..I’m sorry y/n im sorry for what happened” Eddie's voice trailed off quietly.

“Look y/n, why were you avoiding me?”

“I, erm, Eds im sorry, I just didn't know what to do or say after new years, I felt stupid for what happened” you feel Eddie's whole body stiffen under you.

“NO NO wait! I don't regret it at all, Eddie no! Not that! It's just myself. I. I. I don't know why someone like you would like someone like me. I don't even like myself” Your chin started to tremble again, shifting in your seat so you were facing him fully, your legs crossing underneath you.

“y/n, sweetheart, I lost you once, I don't want to lose you again” both of Eddie's hands move to cradle your face, storking your cheeks with his thumbs to wipe away the tears threatening to fall from your cheeks.

“Please, I promise you y/n, it's only ever been you”

Eddie's hands move back to your shoulders, down your arms bringing you back to him, cradling you to his chest.

“Ok Eds, you won't lose me, I promise” looking back up at him, you move closer to each other hovering over each other's lips. He doesn't move any closer, letting you make the next decision.

You break the distance, bring your lips to his fill ones gently, melting into him.

It's a gentle kiss, but you can feel the intent behind it. Breaking away you lean your foreheads together just enjoying the moment of being together.

Leaning back into his arms you both look up at the night sky, eddies pointing out different constellations to you, explaining each one.

You felt content for the first time in days. You never wanted to leave this moment. He didn't want to lose you, and you didn't want to lose him again either. You needed to talk to Kelly, find out her side of things, but right now you didnt want to think about her. All that matters is that you were here with the man you cared about so much.

Your Magic Man.

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bexreadstoomuch · 2 years ago

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Magic Man - Chapter 11

It's time for the new years eve party, buckle in - let go have some fun!

A/N - So it says eventual smut, and the smut has arrived, it's only slight here, warning are above. This chapter also contains one of my favourite Scorpions songs - Still Loving You! I hope you enjoy

Masterlist Part 11/? [wc 6.1k] a/n - please please like, share and comment, your comments make me so happy and encourage me to write more! thank you <3

11 - Still Loving You

Sitting at the window of your motel room, you watch the snow slowly falling covering the parking lot out front in a blanket of crisp white snow.

Arriving early couldn't have been timed more perfectly, as you were expecting a large cold front and even the possibility of a blizzard here in Nebraska.

Looking across at the venue across the street, your face is illuminated by the blue neon sign of the motel, hiding the blush that was rising in your cheeks at the memory of Eddie's hands on you only a few hours earlier.

“please promise me, I'll see you tonight after the show for the party? So we can speak some more?” his words echoed in your head. Of course you’d see him, you were not going to miss out on this.

Of course you were still worried that he wasn’t being fully truthful but you had promised Dustin you would give Eddie a chance.

“Listen y/n, Eddie was in bits after that night, kept asking me why you weren’t around anymore, I’d never seen him like that before” Dustin had explained to you back at christmas in the garage.

“He kept asking about you every single day, I never even saw him get mad, he just went quiet after a while. Once he finally graduated, he packed up his stuff and moved out of Hawkins. I didn't know where he was going, but I heard a rumour he’d gone to California, I don't know maybe in hopes to find you”

The show had gone amazingly, you kept seeing Eddie on the side of the stage watching you closely with a smile plastered on his face, watching his eyes roaming over your body. When you'd notice him doing this you would bluff a few notes, causing him to stifle a laugh and mouth “sorry” in your direction.

Laughing to yourself you get up from your position in the window making your way to the shared bathroom to grab a shower. Upon returning to the room, Lula comes bounding in with a large bag with a logo you don't recognise.

“OK don't get mad, but we got you something for tonight” Lula places the bag on the bed between them, tipping it upside down letting the contents cascade all over the bed.

Your eyes went wide at the sight. All you could see was a sea of black. Black Leather and cloth, and the glint of silver.

“What is all this?” you look up at your friend confused.

“So Gareth may have spilled the beans to me about what happened at thanksgiving and tonight with Eddie - please don't get mad” Lula throws her hands in the air seeing the shocked look on your face.

“So with that in mind, I was saving this for your birthday, but I thought tonight would be better,” Lula explains, picking up a few pieces to flatten them out.

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing and seeing.

“Lula, im, WOW, i mean look at these, they are beautiful but i'll look ridiculous in this” you say holding up the leather jacket which you now see is encrusted with small silver diamontes.

“Now remember what we told you before we left for this tour? No self doubting y/n, you are gorgeous and beautiful inside and out and we are gonna to show Eddie what he's been missing all these years,” Lula had made her way around to you, hands on your shoulders looking you dead in the eye. “You got this?” She may be small but she can be intimidating when she wants to be.

“Yes, YES, ok let's do this” you beam back at her. “Where's Jack anyway?” you ask

“I don't know, she said she had some stuff to do after the show but would see us later back at the venue for the party”

Jack had been disappearing more so recently after shows, coming back to the bus in the early hours. She didn't think you’d both noticed but you had. You know not to question her about it. Like when she came out to you both it was on her terms, she told you when she was ready. And that's the rules you've taken ever since, Jack will tell you something when she is ready.

After about an hour or so of Lula backcombing your hair, applying more mousse and hairspray to your head, that it would even make Harrington jealous, you were starting to get really nervous, and she could see it.

Squeezing your shoulder from behind you Lula gives a small smile and nod. That's the great thing about true friendships, you don't need to say much, and they will know what you need.

After applying your makeup it was time for your outfit.

Lula had hung it up ready for you in the bathroom to get changed into while she finished off her own makeup.

Closing the bathroom door behind you you looked at the outfit hanging there and your body was awash with self doubt.

Thought came flooding into your mind of all the things that could go wrong. The pants wouldn't do up, even worse they would split.

You thought back to what Lula had said “we are going to show Eddie what he's been missing all these years”

Taking a deep breath you set upon getting dressed, trying your best to get those negative thoughts out of your head.

This isn't just for Eddie this is also for you! You deserve this!

“LULA WHAT THE FUCK?” you shouted pulling the bathroom door open brandishing the bag in front of you.

“Oh yeah that, well you never know” lula trailed off raising her eyebrows up and you going back to the mirror to do her makeup.

“How do you know it’ll fit?” you ask annoyingly.

“Don't worry we know your sizes and made sure it would - you'll look amazing”

You shook your head at your friend making your way back into the bathroom, to examine the bag again. Inside were a set of black lace and ribbon bras and panties.

Putting it against your body you wouldn't believe you were going to do it, but you promised her.

Once your outfit was on, you couldn't stop moving your hands up and down your thighs, across your stomach, all the areas you hated.

Taking a deep breath you make your way out of the bathroom, your new heeled boots clacking across the tiled floor.

“OMG Y/N you look amazing! He's gonna die!”

Looking at yourself in the full size mirror you start to feel a sense of power come across you. The outfit made you feel powerful, like you could take on the world.

You take in the leather trousers which are encrusted with stars made up of diamantes which matched the leather jacket which covered your torso which was in a tight black Harley Davidson tee, with a double buckled belt.

Lula had retired her plaid and vans for the evening and opted for a short little black dress, fishnet tights and borrowed your dr martens boots.

“Lula, aren't you going to be cold when it's snowing?” you express your concern looking at her outfit.

“Oh I'm not worried, hopefully someone can warm me up later” she giggled.

“Oh you are gross!” you laugh back at her. She had expressed that her and Gareth haven't gone all the way yet and she was hoping tonight could be the night. Looking like she did, I'm sure it’d be hard for him to say no.

Making your way over to the venue to get more and more nervous, walking a few steps behind Lula trying to take as much time as you could. Maybe thinking that if you walked slow enough you wouldn't have to go.

“Y/N, come on whats up?” Lula calls over her shoulder, noticing you behind her.

“What if it happens again?” you say in an almost whisper, “what if it's like halloween again? I mean look at me!” your hands gesturing across your body.

“Honey, it’ll all be ok, Eddie wants you to be there, he’ll be next to you, and if he doesn't he’ll have me to answer to ok?” She tries to reassure you, but you cannot push the daunting feeling away.

You nod slightly taking in what she was saying, you trusted her. It was everyone else you didn't.

Walking back into the venue, you see the room now transformed ready for the new year. Slivers of multicoloured foils hanging from the ceiling, lights flashing between different colours and the music so loud you could feel it vibrating in your feet.

Looking around you recognise a few people from Wyatts team back in California, over at the bar, he waves over to you both to join him, Jack already in conversation with him.

“Hello Ladies, you both look wonderful” Wyatt gushes, tipping his hat to the both of you.

“As do you Wyatt” Lula comments

“So ladies, I wanted to have a quick chat with you before the party gets into full swing. I've been chatting with the boys and they are in agreement with me. This tour so far has been a triumph and once it's over, me and the team would love to sign you to add to our label, join the team! What do you say?”

You all must have had the same look on your face as Wyatt quickly says “no need to rush to a decision now, but let me know as soon as you can ok?”

You all nod, watching Waytt turn and walk away back to the rest of his team.

“Oh my god what just happened?” you say exasperated grabbing both the girls arms.

“I think we did it, we finally did it” Jack quickly responds.

“What do we do?” Lula asks, looking at you with a worried look.

“We say yes right?” you answer.

You're all looking between each other and slowly all nod in agreement.

No more words were needed between you all, this was it, you made it. Your only concern was you'd be on the same label as Eddie, no doubt working together, was this such a good idea?

You must have willed him into existence thinking of him, because as you turned around so your back was against the edge of the bar, he walked in the rest of the band in tow.

Tight black jeans, chains, black boots and a black sequined shirt, ludicrously open very low exposing his chest tattoos, with a chain dangling around his neck which you noticed had a pick attached. You wonder if this is the same one from high school he always had on.

You notice him scanning the room as though looking for someone, and as soon as your eyes meet, you notice him let out a breath, looking up and down at your body, raising his eyebrows in awe. This alone was making your cheeks heat up.

He looks flawless, and there was that knot in your stomach again, making you shift your weight from side to side.

Your heart sank as you saw the band disperse but Kelly appeared next to him in a tight corset style black top with a long skirt attached, a large split going up one side. He must have noticed this in your face as he leaned over to Kelly whispering something to her, which must have not been good as she had a face of thunder as she stormed off.

Eddie looked back over to you with a look on his face as thought he was apologising on her behalf. Making his way over towards you, you were feeling hotter with every step he took.

“Hey sweetheart, you look, just wow, you look amazing” Eddie extends a hand out to you which you slowly take letting him spin you around so he can look at the rest of the outfit.

“Where have you been hiding this?” he asks you, his voice seemingly deeper than usual.

“Lula got it for me, early birthday present” you quickly respond looking down trying to hide your embarrassment.

Eddie's hand suddenly whips up, taking your chin with his thumb and pointer figure, tilting your head to look at me.

“No need to be shy sweetheart, you look beautfiul”

His words made your heart hurt, you always thought people were saying things like this just to make you feel better but never meant it. This must have been showing on your face, giving you away as he moved his hand from your chin to your cheek giving it a gentle rub with his thumb, leaning in close to your ear.

“I mean it y/n - i've always thought you were beautiful” Eddie's voice was soft and full of sincerity.

Your breath hitched in your chest when he said this. Taken aback by his honesty, you blurted out “I always thought you were too”

Eddie let out a little chuckle moving his hands to your waist guiding you towards the bar. “Ladies, how about you?” he asked Jack and Lula. You had completely forgotten they were still standing next to you, completely lost in Eddie.

“Thanks Eddie but were ok, i'm going to go find Gareth” Lula tells you both, making her way past you, whispering to you as she past “It’ll be ok y/n, you got this, don't forget he's got me to answer to if he hurts you again”

You give her a nod as you watch her glide across the room straight into Gareth's waiting arms, placing herself in his lap, on some of the leather chairs that were dotted around the room.

“You want shots again, or are you going to take it slow this time?” Eddie is asking you as you watch your friend leave, and noticing Jack was now missing too.

“Oh sorry” you quickly turn back around facing him “No, ermm, can i have a cranberry and vodka please?”

Eddie learns over the bar and orders your drinks. You feel awkward standing there. You feel like everyone is looking at you. Judging you. Talking about you.

“Y/n? You ok?” Eddie's voice from behind you makes you jump back to reality, standing there with a beer in one hand and your drink in the other.

“Shall we sit?” He tilts his head over to an empty booth area of seats.

Nodding you follow him to the secluded area and sit down opposite him, hands clasped tightly around your glass, knuckles almost going white.

Looking up you see Eddie's hand also tight around the bottle he was holding.

“I'm glad you came tonight” he says breaking the silence between you “I should of done this a long time ago”

“I spoke to Dustin over Christmas, he saw the letter you gave me and explained things to me, but I don't know what to believe. I was a mess that night, I felt so hurt, I felt small, I felt foolish. Foolish for thinking someone like you would like someone like me.” you thought if you never said it now you never would, taking a large gulp of your drink feeling the alcohol burn down your throat.

Leaning forward in the booth taking a drink from his beer Eddie have a defeating sigh “I thought you wouldn’t want to been seen with someone like me - like I said this afternoon I was an idiot teenager who didn’t know any better”

He reached a hand over the table between you reaching for one of your hands. You looked down at his heavily ringed open hand for a moment debating whether to take it or not.

You slowly extend your towards him, allowing him to encase his large hand around yours.

“Eddie, why did you react the way you did when you first saw us back in California?” You asked him with worry. You had been wondering this for sometime, not really wanting to know the answer.

“Oh that, well, I really don’t know” Eddie's grip on your hand becomes tighter and he searches for an answer lowering his head as though ashamed

“I regret how I acted, I was a complete fool, you no doubt thought I was being some pompous rock star” he laughed the last few works trying to lighten the moment

“But I think it was the shock of seeing you after so long, you looked breathtaking standing there and I was afraid I was mess things up again”

You watched him try and explain himself, watched his eyes searching your face for forgiveness. Lowing your eyes you watch him adam’s apple bob in his throat and he swallows trying to find the words.

You didn’t say anything, just looked back at him moving your free hand to cover his that’s encased around your other hand.

“I’ll be right back” Eddie says as he moves out of the booth making his way over to the DJ booth. You watch him point to something behind the man and have a quick conversation and nodding between them both.

Watching him make his way back over to your booth you see the man behind the desk place a record on the deck moving the needle carefully into place.

You instantly recognise the first chords of the song now playing over the speakers. It was the song Eddie was playing this afternoon when you saw him playing alone.

Scorpions - Still Loving You

“Will you dance with me?” Eddie's voice is low as he extends a hand out waiting for you to accept it.

Taking a moment to consider your options you throw caution to the wind, shifting out of your jacket leaving it in the booth you stand taking Eddie's hand in yours letting him lead you to the dance floor.

Pulling you tightly towards him he placed both hands on your hips giving you no choice but to place your arms around his neck under his hair.

He let out a little noise from the bottom of his throat at the feeling of your hands on the back of his neck.

“How did you know?” You asked him looking up at him as he swayed with you to the music

“Know what?” He looks down at you with a small crooked smile.

“This song, it’s my favourite, you were playing it this afternoon weren’t you?” You replied, questioning him.

“Ah well that would be telling, but I have my ways of finding things out” he learned forward pressing his forehead against yours.

The knot in your stomach was growing tighter, you felt like you had hundreds of eyes on you. You thought you could hear people talking about you.

Suddenly you felt the room was spinning, you felt your breathing get rapid, you were starting to panic, eyes darting around the room.

You felt something on your face, snapping you back into reality you could see Eddie's face still in front of you, one hand still on your hip the other on your face.

“It’s ok y/n it’s ok, you're worrying again aren't you? Just breathe it’s all ok, I’m here I’m not going anywhere” His voice was calming, and soothing. You felt yourself settling again.

“Eddie I feel such a fool” you lean your head into his chest fitting perfectly under his chin, which he rested on your head.

He didn’t say anything, just held you tight while still moving with the music.

He lifted your head of face him, wrapping his arms tightly around you, leaned into the side of your head and sang long with the song to you,

“If we'd go again, All the way from the start, I would try to change,Things that killed our love. Yes, I've hurt your pride, And I know what you've been through, You should give me a chance, This can't be the end, I’m still loving you”

For a split moment you meet his large brown eyes seeing them full of all the emotions he was trying to express. the knot in your stomach had gone, you felt calm and in control.

Wrapping your arms quickly around his neck again you pulled him down to you crashing your lips together in a hungry kiss.

No one else mattered but you both. You felt like you were the only people in that room for a moment. It was peaceful. Eddie responds with the same hunger, grazing his tongue over your bottom lip asking for access. The kiss was more intense than the one you shared this afternoon, both of you fighting for dominance over the other.

Breaking away from the kiss for only a moment you stared intently at each other.

“I meant what I said this afternoon, I’m so sorry about what happened, but please let me show you how sorry I am” The tip of Eddie’s nose touches yours as he brings his face in closer again to capture your lips.

Letting your guard down you let out a small moan escape your mouth as he kissed you with more ferocity.

His hands moved from waist down to hips letting his thumbs graze your sides. You could feel his fingers slipping underneath your tee so his fingers could trace your skin.

The song was coming to an end, but you didn't want this to end. Eddie's hands still on your sides he pulls you closer, bringing your hips close against him.

He moves a hand up to tuck some of your hair behind your ear and whisper “follow me”

Your feet had a mind of its own to follow Eddie's command willingly. Passing the guests in the party you see a few faces looking at you with confusion, whispering to the person next to them. Your stomach sinks, and you abruptly stop, your arm stretching out, as Eddie still had hold of it.

Looking around he looks at your concern, slowly making his way abc to you.

“Are you ok doll?” His voice was full of concern.

“Everyone is staring Eds” you answer so quietly it was barely a whisper.

“It's ok, look at me” Eddie's hands are now on your shoulder, turning to face him. “Focus on me ok? Let's get out of here, get some air?”

You quickly nod your head and you allow him again to lead you out of the venue.

To your surprise you're standing outside beside Bertha. Eddies reach into his pocket and bring out a key unlocking the door.

“How do you have a key for Bertha?” you ask

“Bertha?” his head spins around looking at you amused.

“Yeah she's called Bertha, we thought it was a good name, she's sturdy, albeit a little unreliable”

Eddie just chuckles at this explanation going back to opening the bus doors.

“Lula gave me a spare key at the bar before just incase” he explains walking up the bus steps pulling you with him.

You’ll be having words with Lula later about that. Everyone seems to be talking about the pair of you, except to you.

“It's nice in here, homely” Eddie remarks looking around, touching the wooden panels on the walls and making his way to the bunks at the back, sitting down on the bottom.

“Yeah Lulas folks helped us set it all up, they're great” you say as you kick off your boots into the corner and grab your blanket wrapping it around you sitting next to him on the edge of the bed.

“Y/n?” Eddie's voice is quiet, his hands move back to your face, bringing it to meet his.

You could barely respond to him as he crashed his lips into yours again. You felt his tongue graze your bottom lip asking for entrance again and you oblige.

Your hands moved from their position in your lap wrapped in your blanket to rest on his jean clad thigh. Feeling your hand on him he pulled away from the kiss leaving you wanting more. He slowly moves so he's facing you ducking slightly so he doesnt hit his head on the bunk above. You move yourself from the edge of the bed moving in further as to give him more room next to you. Seeing what you were doing he dove across so he was now positioned above you.

“Is this ok?” he asks tenderly, looking at you for reassurance.

“Yes” you whisper to him, leaving all inhibitions behind you, reaching up, grabbing him around his neck, pulling him into you to kiss him once more.

Your both breathless moans, and messy wet heated kisses. He moves his lips from yours, moving his way to your neck, leaving hot kisses in places you didn't know could make you feel this good.

His hands started to roam your body, tracing down your arms and you tense up when he reaches your stomach. Feeling you he stops looking up at you.

“Are you ok y/n? I don't want us to do anything that you're uncomfortable with, we can stop and I can just walk away” Eddies says, looking at you reassuringly.

“No, no please dont stop, its just….. just , oh god, now I feel stupid” you shuffle form underneath him bring your knees up to your chest, hugging your arms around them.

“Sweetheart, I know what you're gonna say, and please, don't worry. I think you're beautiful and I want to show you how beautiful you are, will you let me?” Eddie inches back towards you, placing his ring clad hands on yours.

“You're not just saying that? You mean it? I've had people say these things to me, just because they can then brag they've been with a Fat girl, and, and” your starting to feel your body shake as tears start to form in your eyes.

Eddie's hand flew up to catch the tear before it fell, wiping it away.

“Please sweetheart, I'm not that type of person. I see you for you, nothing else. Like I said before, I see before me a beautiful, talented woman. A woman who can belt out a song like I've never heard before. You have no idea how long I've dreamt of kissing you, feeling you in my arms, holding you, I was an idiot in school, I wish I had told you sooner, helped protect you from those who would hurt you, will you let me?” You had waited for Eddie to say something like this to you all those years ago.

Unfolding your arms from your legs, you crawl your way closer to him. Leaning in to the side of his face you whisper in his ear “show me, please”

Without another word Eddie dove at you, pinning you beneath him to continue the assault on your neck. Hands roaming down your sides squeezing your hips making his way down grazing your thighs. His kisses become more heated on your neck, biting down slightly, making you moan at this touch.

His hands tugging at the bottom of your shirt, he makes his way under grazing his hands up your torso, the coldness of his rings causing goosebumps to form. He grazes the underside of your bra feeling the lace under his fingers.

“What's this?” he comments breathlessly from his position in your neck.

“Another gift from Lula, she said to me ‘you’ll never know’” you stifle a giggle.

“Can I see?” you nod as you lift your frame helping him raise the tee above your head revealing your ribbon and lace bra, your breasts heaving over the top threatening to spill.

“Oh my god doll, you're gorgeous” Eddie's mouth moves quickly from your neck to lick across the peaks of your breasts making you involuntarily hitch your hips up. Feeling this you feel him smirk upon your skin and move himself so he is positioned between your legs.

“If you want me to stop, you need to tell me ok? Do you know the traffic light code?” he asks you quickly, face flush, hair wild.

You nod, which he raised his eyebrows at.

“Don't forget, green is carry on, amber is slow down and red is stop ok?” he makes sure you remember, you nod again.

“I need you to use your words sweetheart”

“Yes, Eddie” you reply, raising your hips towards him again to reiterate your answer.

“Good girl” his voice was an almost growl as he dove back towards your chest, nipping and sucking at your skin causing you to throw your head back letting out a small moan.

Eddie would continue to ask you if it was ok for everything you did and you answered promptly gaining more praise from him.

Hands roaming each other, you reach down to the buttons on his shirt, opening them up and pushing the shirt off his shoulders.

Your hands stoke down his chest to one of his pierced nipples, asking him “when did you get these?”

“When I left Hawkins for California, you like them?” his answer muffled from between your breasts.

“Yeah I do, a lot” your fingers grazing over the bar, causing Eddie to let out a guttural moan, the feeling vibrating through you.

Moving his hand down lower to feel him undoing the buttons on your leather trousers, asking for entry. “This ok?” he asks.

“Green, please Eddie” you reply breathlessly looking down at his position now between your legs.

Eddie's hand pulls down the zip and gestures for you to lift your hips to help him pull down your leather pants.

“Oh wow, I'm gonna have to thank Lula when I see her next” he says, kissing his way across your inner thighs.

Before you could respond you feel him tracing his fingers across the frilly edge of your panties, continuing to kiss closer to your warm core making you squirm.

“Oh doll, keep still, you have no idea how long i've dreamt of this” Eddies voice is full of want

“Me to Eds, please… don't stop” you encourage him by tracing your arms up and down his bare arms.

“Don't forget, traffic lights” With that you feel eddies fingers move to rest above your clothed heat finding your small wanting bud beneath, rubbing slowly in small circles. This action caused you to cry out a small moan.

“Eddie please dont stop” you reached for his free hand beside you bringing it to your covered breasts helping him manoeuvre the fabric down exposing yourself to him.

“My god y/n your so beautiful” Eddie moans as his hand massages your large breast tracing over your nipples making you gasp.

His other hand doesn’t slow down rubbing tighter circles on your now swollen bud.

“You have no idea what you're doing to me doll, can I feel you?” Eddie looks up at you from under hooded eyes.

“Yes, yes please” your stutter your words out to him

“So polite for me” Eddie grins up at you as he moves his hand under the waistline of your black lace panties moving lover to your folds. Moving his body back up your body you feel his cold rings against your hot skin sending a jolting sensation up your body.

Eddie places kisses against your skin making his way to your now heaving breasts quickly taking your nipple into his mouth, swirling his tongue around it, as he pushes his fingers through your warm folds at the same time.

“You're so wet for me sweetheart, let me look after you, like you deserve” Eddie's voice was a low growl full of lust.

Your head feeling all fuzzy from the sensations you were feeling just nodded, making Eddie stop.

“Your words doll, don’t forget”

“Yes Eddie, please I want you too, I’ve been thinking about this for a long time too, please” you hurriedly said, thrusting your hips up into his waiting hand.

“Good girl, my good girl” Eddie growled as he continued his cruel pace on your swollen bud.

His girl. His words sent your head spinning, lifting your hips to match his movements, wanting more. You could feel a coil in your stomach getting tighter and tighter with every move he made.

Stopping suddenly, Eddie makes his way up your body capturing your lips with his, reaching for the straps of your bra to manoeuvre it down completely. He looks at you with a silent question, eyebrows raised.

“Green, please green” your voice breathless.

Eddie is quick to remove your bra completely, moving his lips down to capture your nipples in his mouth sucking and licking, making you make noises you never knew you could.

Your hands move around his neck pulling at the nape of his neck letting him know you want more, pulling him toward your face. Moving a hand back down to your soaked panties he pushes them to the side tracing a finger up and down you, causing you to mewl.

“Can I feel you? I want to feel you wrapped around my fingers” Eddie asks seductively, not leaving your gaze.

“Yes, please I want to feel you, I want to come around your fingers Eddie please” you are practically pleading him at this point.

This was all the encouragement he needed, slowly pushing a digit inside of you causing you to moan loudly, pressing your forehead against Eddies, rutting your hips upwards matching this pace.

Dragging his finger slowly in and out of you, teasing you was torture, you wanted more. He must be reading your mind as he inserted another digit, slightly curling upwards hitting the spongy spot deep inside, manoeuvring his thumb to rubbing your clit quite vigorously.

You shut your eyes tight leaning your head back at the feeling of him pumping his fingers in and out of you, the coil was starting to get tighter in your lower stomach and Eddie could tell.

“Are you close y/n?” Eddie asks as he feels you getting tighter around his fingers, the moans and whimpers coming from your mouth encouraging him in speeding his pace up a little, making your legs start to shake.

“Y.. ye…yes” you could barely speak, concentrating on the feeling in your lower stomach thinking you might explode. No one had ever made you feel like this before.

Eddie learns down capturing your lips in an open mouthed kiss, tongue fighting for possession once more. Moaning into the kiss you try to find your words.

“Eddie please, i'm gonna come” you were now panting holding onto his shoulders tightly.

“Let go sweetheart, come for me” Eddie's tone was desperate, encouraging you.

With that, you could see stars behind your eyes as you came with so much ferocity, your legs were trembling, making Eddie grab one with his free hand stroking your leg to calm your muscles down. Pressing his forehead against your you open your eyes to meet his large chocolate brown ones. A smile spread across his face, one which you shyly returned.

As he pulls his fingers out of your aching centre, you sigh at the empty feeling, clenching around nothing.

Sitting up to reposition himself next to you he suddenly hits the top of his head on the bunk above.

“Jesus H CHRIST!” his curses rubbing his head with his hand, squeezing his eyes closed tight at the sudden pain.

“Eds you ok?” you sit up moving close to him, taking his face in your hands checking him over.

“Yeah, yeah I'll be good” he chuckles look back at you.

“That was err, that was amazing y/n, are you ok?” he's looking at you with concern on his face.

“Yes Eddie im more than ok, i just never thought we would do anything like this” you now sitting pulling the blanket back around you feeling exposed sitting there in just your now ruined panties.

“Well I hope we can do this again and maybe more?” he asks shly rubbing the back of his neck.

“I'd like that yeah” you learn forward giving him a soft kiss on his soft lips.

“We should get back to the party, people will wonder where we’ve gone '' Eddie gets up, reaching out a hand to help you up, passing you your clothes.

“Eddie, can I ask you a favour? Can we not tell anyone what happened here? Maybe keep this quiet for a bit? I don't want to rush things too much” You felt foolish saying this considering only a few moments ago he had given you the best orgasam you've ever had.

“Of course doll, anything you need, just as long as I can kiss you at midnight?” wrapping his large arms around you pulling you close you giggled nodding at this request, leaning into his warm chest.

A/N - We finally got there, BUT how's Y/N gonna feel? Hope you enjoyed

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