#chris evans gif hunt

[malavera]

I just had a random thought

it’s funny how we (or some of us) grew up watching these gents movie with our father / mother and how they used to be gushing over how talented they are and awesome the movie is and now as we got older…

we be gushing over them in a different way.. 😶🫢

notice how i use their old movie gifs? 😌

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Chris Evans in Red One

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    —   ⁺  𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒 𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐒  ,  1981  [ #967 GIFS ] GHOSTED ( 2023 )  /  chris evans is white, please cast accordingly and use appropriately. all of the gifs have been created from scratch by me. to access the gifs please click the source link. do not edit, claim as your own or add into your own hunts! time and effort were spent into making these gifs, a like or a reblog would be much appreciated!

[ ! ] content warning: kissing, drinking, eating, partial nudity, firearms

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FINISHED COMMISSION by clicking the source link, you will find 300 gifs of chris evans from defending jacob episodes 2 and 3. all these were made by me. do not repost, claim as your own, edit in any way, or include in gif hunts. this includes taking my gifs and making your own gif sets. were these useful to you? give this post a like or a reblog please.   want to support me? consider a commission or buy me a ko-fi!  

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🪶    /    in  the  source  link  below,  you’ll  gain  access  to  #656  gifs  of  chris  evans  in  defending  jacob,  s01e01-04  (2020).  he  was  born  in  the  year  1981  and  is  of  white  descent,  so  please  cast  appropriately  when  using  my  resources.  all  of  these  gifs  were  made  from  scratch,  so  you  may  edit  these  as  much  as  you’d  like,  but  please  don’t  redistribute  or  claim  as  your  own.  please  refer  to  my  rules  for  further  information.

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CS: Natalie Dormer and Chris Evans

[cherthegoddess]

Main Masterlist

Note: Hi everyone! Welcome to my Masterlist! I just wanted to let you all know that all of my works are written with a black reader in mind, but every story can be read by any reader!

Who I write for:

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Steve Rogers/Captian America

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Evan Buckley

ASK ARE OPEN!!!!!

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Then There Was You (Hiatus)

Summary: Y/n is a screenwriter for her first movie called Hurts so Bad where she meets Tom Holland who plays the male lead, William. The cast tries their best to push the two together. Will they be successful or will the two do the getting together on their own?

Pairing: Tom Holland x Screenwriter! Assistant Director! Reader

Myth (Ongoing)

Summary: This Supernatural and Marvel crossover follows Y/n, a mutant with the unique power of Cleanliness Manipulation, who uses her abilities both as a hunter of supernatural beings and as a cleanup specialist for SHIELD, tidying up the chaos left in the wake of battles. Y/n’s world takes an unexpected turn when she crosses paths with Dean Winchester during a hunt and later meets Bucky Barnes after the aftermath of one of his fights. As her connections with both men deepen, her two worlds collide when the Avengers face a threat unlike anything they've encountered before. Caught between her duties and her feelings, Y/n must navigate a dangerous path—and ultimately, make a choice between the two men who’ve captured her heart.

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Mutant! Reader Bucky Barnes x Mutant! Reader

✨One-shots✨

Evan Buckley - 911

Rejection

Request: Request for Evan Buckley, Y/N is a trainee paramedic doing her externship under Hen and Chimney at the 118 before she takes the paramedics exam and Buck is so smitten and has such an obvious crush but Y/N isn’t giving him the time of day and the whole crew finds it hilarious but she eventually agrees to go on a date with him

Pairing: Evan Buckley x Paramedic! Reader

Burning Love

Request: Request for an Evan Buckley imagine: y/n is also a firefighter at the 118, but she gets trapped in a fire while the building is partly collapsing and the 118 has to go in to save her 😎

Pairing: Evan Buckley x Firefighter! Reader

His Sunshine

Summary: Who knew a girl with such bright waves could catch the storminess of Bucky's eyes.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Superhero!Reader

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[pankowcrumbs]

How are you? I hope your doing well, I was wondering if you can do a Chris Evans x fem wife reader based on this ? The bright sunlight streams in through the hotel window, casting a warm glow on the room. You’re still nestled under the covers, the exhaustion from travel keeping you wrapped in a cocoon of sleep.

The kids are bouncing on the bed, eager for pool time. Chris, already up and dressed, is trying to keep it together. “Mum! Dad! Where are our swimsuits?” they ask, looking through drawers like it’s a treasure hunt.

Sofia-Elena your daughter who is 11 year old who has very curly hair and Vincent who is 8 year olds and has a broken wrist.

Chris looks at you with a grin. “Babe, I’ve checked everywhere. They’re convinced the swimsuits are in the fridge.”

You barely open an eye. “The big suitcase,” you mumble, pointing toward the corner.

Chris freezes. “There’s a big suitcase?”

He chuckles, shaking his head. “Alright, team. Let’s go see if Mom’s right… again.”

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AN: I am so sorry this took so long to get out to you!

The sunlight is too bright. One of those golden beams that pierces through the gap in the curtains and lands directly on your eyelid like it has a personal vendetta. I groan, shifting beneath the hotel duvet, the soft sheets tangled around my legs. My muscles ache in that satisfying way the kind that only comes from long-haul travel and hours of wrangling children through airports.

I’m just settling back into the warmth when the mattress dips violently.

“MUUUUUM!”

Then another bounce. And another.

“DAAAAD! Where are our swimsuits?!”

I don’t move, not really. Just enough to crack one eye open.

Chris is already up of course he is. Dressed, hair still damp from the shower, looking unfairly put together for someone with two sugar-fuelled kids and very little sleep. He’s rifling through drawers with a look of mild panic and long-suffering amusement.

Vincent our eight-year-old with his arm in a cast and zero sense of caution is hopping around like a caffeinated rabbit. His wrist is wrapped in a neon blue cast, and he’s using it to open drawers one-handed.

Sofia-Elena, all eleven years of determined curiosity and glorious curly hair, is already halfway inside the wardrobe, declaring loudly, “They’re not in here! What if they got stolen?”

Chris laughs under his breath. “Because nothing says high-value item like two slightly sandy swimsuits from Target.”

He turns and catches my eye.

“Babe,” he says, exasperated but grinning. “I’ve checked everywhere. They’re convinced the swimsuits are in the fridge.”

I squint at him, my voice barely audible through the croak of sleep. “The big suitcase,” I mumble, pointing in the vague direction of the corner where I very clearly said I packed everything yesterday.

Chris freezes, like I’ve just revealed the secret of the universe.

“There’s a big suitcase?”

I don’t dignify that with a response. I just close my eye again.

He chuckles, shaking his head as he walks toward the corner.

“Alright, team,” he calls, clapping his hands. “Let’s go see if Mum’s right… again.”

There’s a chorus of shouts and the sound of zippers being attacked like they’ve wronged someone. I smile into my pillow, warmth blooming in my chest.

Vincent yells, “MUM WAS RIGHT!”

Sofia adds, “She’s always right, Dad. You know that.”

Chris groans dramatically.

I sigh contentedly, pulling the covers up to my chin as the kids run off shouting about pool noodles and goggles.

Chris leans over to kiss my forehead before following them. “You’re magic,” he whispers.

I don’t answer just smile.

Because this right here the noise, the love, the mild chaos is everything I ever wanted.

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Chris Evans in Deadpool & Wolverine

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[ash5monster01]

yall don’t give What’s Your Number enough credit for being one of the funniest romcoms and I’m tired of it //

YES!!! Also I think she was soooo ahead of her time. I remember when I was a teenager and didn’t date anyone yet, I also thought about “omg, how I will wake up in the morning aside my bf without any makeup on”, and now I think what a garbage I had in my head.

In teenage years I read Elle (and Elle Girl) and Vogue, and I remember how everything revolved around men, their pleasure and their perception of you as a woman. You HAD to be with no grams of fat, cellulite, zero wrinkles. Most articles in those magazines were about either sex and what you need to do FOR men (so he won’t leave you) or 10 steps how to look like a model (otherwise hate your self and stay locked up). When I watched this movie in 2022 I had all those flashbacks from my teenage years in 2000s

If she would do this movie now, it would be BIG. I think back in the days people thought of her character as some sort of loser who got lucky in the end, when really she was mentally healthiest one 🙌🏼🙏🏻

Anna Faris just is that girl. I remember watching it for the first time in 2016, mainly for Chris Evans, but then actually being like this is an iconic movie.

Just the concept alone of her not wanting to go over her number and hunting down all her exes is entertainment itself. Pair that with Anna’s humor and the actors picked to play the exes! I mean we had Chris Pratt, Anthony Mackie, Andy Samberg, Martin Freeman, Thomas Lennon! That cast was stacked and they all played their characters so well.

Then the running jokes, like constantly bumping in Disgusting Donald unintentionally, amazing. The friend to lovers trope with her douchey neighbor who slowly becomes her best friend, and then the guy she falls for. It’s all so good.

She plays such a strong female lead and I adore all of the characters from her Mom to each of the exes, even Joel McHale as her gross ex boss. Even the sister’s best friends despite how annoying they can be sometimes. Also may I add it has one of the most clever chase scenes in a romcom that doesn’t include rushing an airport or the other normal cliches!

Anyways I could go on and on forever about this movie. If you’re interested in more of it, I actually read the book the movie was based on. It’s not as good but I still enjoyed the cleverness and spotting the differences between the two. If you’re interested I’ll attach the link here.

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FINISHED COMMISSION by clicking the source link, you will find 121 gifs of chris evans from defending jacob episode 7. all these were made by me. do not repost, claim as your own, edit in any way, or include in gif hunts. this includes taking my gifs and making your own gif sets. were these useful to you? give this post a like or a reblog please.   want to support me? consider a commission or buy me a ko-fi!    

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Hello! I am very interested in joining, but would like to know if there are any faceclaims you all would really like to see join the rp? There are just so many great faces that I wanted to ask before sending in an application. Thank you!

hi, thank you for your interest! here are some fcs that came to mind! mason gooding, harris dickinson, pedro pascal, oscar isaac, manny montana, rudy pankow, jonathan daviss, andrew garfield, lorenzo zurzolo, arón piper, manny jacinto, evan mock, aaron tveit, thomas doherty, archie renaux, brenton thwaites, casey deidrick, avan jogia, maxence danet fauvel, logan lerman, keith powers, raymond ablack, rahul kohli, andy samberg, joseph quinn, xolo maridueña, tanner buchanan, clayton cardenas, mario casas, bill skarsgard, zethpan smith gneist, bradley cooper, joseph morgan, alberto rosende, emilio sakraya, tom holland, manu rios, luke grimes, kedar williams stirling, regé jean page, andré lamoglia, henry zaga, chay suede, elias kacavas, josh heuston, nico tortorella, felix mallard, jamie dornan, chris wood, justice smith, luka sabbat, alex fitzalan, jeff satur, herman tømmeraas, carloto cotta, ander puig, froy gutierrez, charles michael davis, george sear, darren barnet, jon bernthal, ben barnes, anthony ramos, corey mylchreest, anthony keyvan, sinqua walls, cody christian, eddie redmayne, jaehyun, hugh dancy, michael evans behling, elliot fletcher, emre bey, joe keery, chance perdomo, ross lynch, gavin leatherwood, richard madden, alex aiono, shiloh fernandez, chris evans, chris wood, jacob elordi, danny ramirez, drew starkey, havana rose liu, davika hoorne, lalisa, lulu antariksa, christina hendricks, zion moreno, jennie kim, danielle rose russell, kaylee bryant, anya chalotra, simone ashley, charithra chandran, maia mitchell, cierra ramirez, melissa barrera, hailee steinfeld, diane guerrero, stephanie beatriz, melissa fumero, greta onieogou, maia reficco, alisha boe, paris berelc, camila mendes, bruna marquezine, camila queiroz, anne hathaway, lauren tsai, rachel hilson, inbar lavi, lesley ann brandt, giorgia whigham, antonia gentry, katie douglas, melisa asli pamuk, margot robbie, jenna coleman, halston sage, chelsea clark, brianne howey, cindy kimberly, chloe bennet, halle bailey, sara waisglass, jessica alexander, christian serratos, phoebe tonkin, claire holt, isabella gomez, courtney eaton, madelyn cline, madison bailey, abigail cowen, jessie mei li, blu hunt, auli’i cravalho, anya taylor joy, annie murphy, mila kunis, simary barlas, mimi keene, aimee lou wood, emma mackey, samantha logan, natalia dyer, megan suri, maya hawke, coco jones, jasmine tookes, ana de armas, chase sui wonders, priscilla quintana, maris rascal, keke palmer, angelique boyer, rachel sennott, benedetta porcaroli, valentina zenere, ludovica martino, joey king, fivel stewart, adeline rudolph, natasha liu bordizzo – hope these help!

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cs: Simone Ashley and Chris Evans

[siremasterlawrence]

Genie In My Bottle

“Ugh! WHAT THE FUCK?” I shout to the hell of a world all while accidentally tripping on a lamp. It hits the end ground rolling in to a alley way as I run in to it to see what it looks like with a golden lamp.The tip of it blows up with smoke filling up all of the alley way to its brim exploding in to my face. In my own surprise I see a strange form of a man appearing in the middle of the scene it is insane. He looks last to the world as the smoke is now clearing standing tall and he does a sexy pose. His red lips widen open revealing glistening white teeth shine brightly and blinding me in my eyes.

Ignoring him he took my side some how he is a exact copy of Chris Evans the famous actor who played Captain America. I am so confused simply do to the fact he is not him and he winks me with this sexy ass expression.He takes a few steps towards me as I back up in to the wall behind him and he checks me out. He leans on to me his breath forcefully blew in to my nose as I cough hardly and my eyes roll back. He feel backwards his head hit the wall shaking with the blood curling as it is pooling out. I fall unconsciously being taken to a new dimension with just him and me to stay forever.

The steam still ever flowing from his body as it hits the air leaving an inviting stench I cannot begin to describe. My body feels like it’s in autopilot mode being lifted off ofground and floating in mid air to meet himhalfway. He smirks leaning in to press his lips on mine a su firmly take control and kiss him slowly. Mind is in overdrive doing all my best effort to regain some semblanceof my own sanity and figure out what the hell is happening. He notices it instantly placing two fingers on my forehead as they glow making a mind link betweenus. Instantly, it is like magic because I know everything in existence, what’s to come and he melds in to me a mere toy.

“Who…who…who are you?”

“I am your Genie!”

“Genies are a fictional creation”

“Your movies and television lie”

“Why do you look like him?”

“Chris Evans?”

“Your DNA gave me in put”

“I know you crush on him”

“Yeah so!”

“He is your fantasy “

“You want him so bad”

“He is your craving needs”

“Oh My God! Ok ok”

“Do you prefer someone else “

“No! No! At All”

“I love you “

“Wait! What?”

“I am your Genie”

“How about we play some basketball? “

“I detest…”

“Sports I know “

“I’ll play for you “

“I love you “

“You have no idea who I am”

“I heard that”

“I hate your damn reality “

“Remake it then”

“Do you love me?”

“I love someone “

“I hate you “

“Will you be mine?”

“I am your Genie”

“Make a basket ball court “

“Voila! As you wish!”

“Entertain me!”

“Yes! My Master”

“You can call me Chris”

“Too weird “

“Oh! By the way”

“Wake up”

“It was dream?”

“Read the note”

“This can’t be real”

“Hell yeah!”

“I love you”

“Where is that voice coming from?”

“Read the note”

“Fuck off!”

“Yes Master”

“I pick it up”

“And?”

“What is this crap?”

“Just read!”

“Ugh!”

Dear Master Lawrence,

This will be a quick note letting you know I am all yours forever and the genie bottle onthe night stand next to you because you canbring me to life.

Pack your bags and head over to Boston to hunt Chris Evans and ensure him with the bottle.

See you soon

Yours truly

A day later I am landing in Boston tracking all of Chris movements to a supermarket easily I find him by the fruits.

“Sorry Chris”

“Enter the bottle “

Sssswwwwwwooooooooooppppppppp

BOP

“Master Lawrence, I have returned “

The end

[nowandajenn]

Blue Christmas- chapter 6 (denial)

Pairing: Chris Evans/OC Kelly

Summary: After almost three years of marriage, everyone would tell you that Chris and his wife Kelly are the most stable, solid couple they know. But behind closed doors, things are tense as they keep trying for a baby, to no avail. When a secret threatens to shake their solid marriage to it’s core, will they be able to pick up the pieces?

Warnings: language, angst, shitty moms, family drama.

Author’s Note: I do not consent to have my content, whether it be this story or anything else of my creation, posted by a third party on any other platform other than right here without my permission. This blog is 18+ and is not intended for minors. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Heed the warnings.

December 24th

I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this. 

The same thought runs through my head like a conga line as I stand in the bathroom of Connor’s house, finishing up my makeup. 

“Hey, you almost ready?” 

I jump at the sound of Connor’s voice and his sudden appearance behind me in the mirror and almost stab myself in the eyeball with my eyeliner pencil. 

“How pissed do you think they’d be if I just didn’t show up?” I ask him rhetorically, already knowing the answer. 

“Well, dad would be disappointed but he’d understand, and mom would probably come and hunt you down and never let you hear the end of it.”

“I could just never answer her calls again.” I shrug. 

As we stand in front of my parents’ front door, I run through a list in my head of things that I’d rather be doing than getting ready to face my parents. Or more specifically, my mother. 

Get stung by a jellyfish. Having to walk through a room full of Legos barefoot. Pulling my own fingernails out one by one. Okay, maybe I went too far with that one. 

“You ready?” Connor asks. 

“No.” I deadpan. 

Before we can stop her, Olivia reaches up and rings the doorbell. 

I heave out a sigh of relief when it’s my dad that answers the door, knowing that at least I’m not going to be insulted before I even step foot inside the house. 

We get ushered inside the house take off our coats before my dad wraps me in a hug. 

“Where’s Chris?” he asks. 

“He’s over at his dad’s house. You only get me tonight.” I say with a small smile. 

“I guess we’ll have to make do.” he huffs out dramatically. 

I make my way into the kitchen and my sister Colleen immediately hands me a glass of red wine. 

“Here, you might need this.” she tells me. I roll my eyes, knowing that there’s no other choice than to nut up and face the music. 

“Hey mom.”

My mom turns from the stove, her face completely devoid of any emotion. 

“I didn’t even know if you were coming tonight, since you haven’t returned any of my phone calls or anything.”

“I’m sorry. I should have called you back. Things have been a little…..” my emotions start to bubble up in my throat, threatening to choke me. “Things have been busy. I’ve been swamped with work and getting last minute things done for Christmas. I wasn’t actively trying to ignore you.” I tell her. 

“Why did you come with Connor and Olivia? Where’s Chris?” 

Here we go. 

“He’s at his dad’s house.” 

“Why didn’t you go with him?” 

“Because I knew I’d never hear the end of it if I didn’t show up here tonight. Chris will get let off the hook, though, right?” It takes everything in me not to roll my eyes. 

“Chris is a busy man. He has an excuse.” 

We’re all sitting around the living room opening presents when the doorbell rings. Since I’m closest to the door, I get up to answer it and nearly have a small stroke when I open the door. 

“Hey.” Chris says, standing on my parents’ porch with his hands stuffed in his pockets. 

I can only stand there and blink owlishly at him as my brain tries, and fails, to come up with something intelligent to say. 

I look over my shoulder into the house to see that everyone is thankfully not paying attention, and pull the front door closed behind me. 

“What are you doing here?” I ask, my breath puffing up in clouds in front of my face. 

“Listen, I know what you’re thinking, but listen to me. I know your parents don’t know about what’s going on with us, and I know that if they think something is wrong, they’re going to be all over you.” Chris tells me. 

I wrap my arms around myself and swallow hard. 

I hate that he’s right. 

“Can we just pretend that everything is okay? Just for tonight? We get through dinner with your parents and get you off the hook, and then, we can….” he trails off. 

Before I can either agree or tell him to get the fuck off the porch, the door opens and my dad steps out. 

“Chris! Hey, we thought you weren’t going to be able to make it!” my dad says, pulling him in for one of those man hug things. 

“Not a chance. Finished up early so I headed right over. Sorry I’m late.” 

My dad eyes me disapprovingly. “Get in the house before you catch pneumonia.”

Halfway through dinner, things are going about as well as can be expected, but I’m still ready for this night to just be over. Between Chris sitting next to me and having to act like we’re still the Chris and Kelly we used to be, the 13 passive aggressive digs my mom has thrown at me over the course of the evening, and the headache trying to hatch in my brain, I’m ready for this night to be over. 

“How are things going at the studio, sweetheart?” my dad asks me. 

“They’re fine. It’s always busy this time of year.” I tell him, pushing the food around on my plate.

“It must not be that busy if you can afford to be closed during the middle of the holiday season.” my mom sniffs. 

“Brenda-” my dad warns. 

“Mom, just let it go, okay? I needed a break. Things were a little hectic and I was getting burnt out. I needed some time off, and so did my staff.” I tell her. 

I reach for the bottle of wine to refill my glass, and my mom snatches it from my hand. 

“You’ve had enough. You’ve been drinking like a lush tonight, and I know you’re smoking again. I can smell it on you. You treat your body like shit; no wonder you can’t get pregnant.” 

The sound of several sets of silverware clattering against the fine China that’s only brought out for Christmas is deafening. 

My face burns with embarrassment and my heart lodges itself somewhere in the vicinity of my throat. Hot, angry tears spring to my eyes, and it takes me a minute before I can even move. 

Without a word, I push my chair back and stand up on shaky legs and leave the table and everyone hears the front door slam less than a minute later. 

When his brain can fully process what just happened, Chris gets up and runs out the door after me, just in time to hear 

When Chris comes outside, I’m leaning against the passenger side door of his car, trying and failing to light a cigarette through my sobs. 

“Hey, hey, stop. Come here. Give me that.” he says, taking the lighter from me. He flicks it once and holds the flame steady so I can light the cigarette and I take a deep drag in. He lights his own and leans against the car next to me. 

“I stopped being surprised by anything she said a long time ago, you know. I stopped being shocked when she would make shitty comments about my weight or my clothes or anything I did. She’s always been like that with me. Nothing was ever good enough. I was never going to be as good as Colleen or Connor because I was the mistake. I was the baby she never wanted. I never tried to let it bother me or let it get to me, but….” I sob quietly and sniffle in the cold air. “Man, she just fucking sucker punched me right in the face. I never should have even told her about it; about how I was having trouble getting pregnant……I should have known…….” my words trail off as more sobs shake my body. 

“Come here.” Chris whispers. He pulls me against his chest and wraps his arms around me and I hold onto him as tight as I can. 

“I’m so sorry.” he whispers against my hair. Over the sound of the wind blowing, I can hear raised voices inside and can only imagine what’s going on in there. And to think it had been a pretty decent night up until that point. 

“Will you take me home? I just….I don’t want to go back to Connor’s. I can’t be around any of them right now. I just want to go home and see Dodger and drink some more.” 

“Okay. Whatever you want.”