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[sarcastiels]

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[xflower-childx]

The window

I've rather enjoyed having the walkup window, it reminds me of the food truck and I feel like in a way it gets people on there way quicker, as long as we have the right girls working. I've had a few cute moments with it from seeing some of my favorite customers since the start of the pandemic to when a regular mother and daughter come up to the window saying "We were so excited to see you working because you make the best lattes!" It made me so happy to hear that, especially since that was last week and that was one of the toughest weeks I had in a while.

It felt like I just couldn't get a handle on my depression, I felt like such a failure and like a kept messing up. It hit a point where boss lady took one look at me as I leaned on the oven waiting for a tray of cookies to finish baking and she told me to finish up and head home, that I looked drained and not all there. I was though, I was forgetting everything, I kept feeling sick, and I knew I wasn't performing at my best which just dragged me down further. Char and Ads would take one look at me and would keep checking in to make sure I was still functioning and I would give em a silly remark that I knew they knew I was just swerving to keep trucking through the day.

I know the family drama plays into most of the bad headspace, it felt so never ending and draining. Its not over of course, it's only just begun but it seemed to pop out of nowhere and then with the Corona threat in the house... My brain hit a wall, a really fucking hard one.

The week didn't stop with family shit, no no. It decided to add in the appearance of past... Connections. You see the fun of the window is that you never really know who is ringing the bell. At the strike of 7:59 AM, one minute before we open, closed sign still on the window, the bell rings, signaling a customer at the window. I was already feeling my head spinning since it was my first manager style open without boss lady and instead I had the (I hate to use this word because she's not entirely this, she's really freaking smart... Just not in this work field) dumbest girl on our team opening with me and I could not get her to do anything right (She spilled Nutella INSIDE the espresso machine... Like What. The. Actual. Fuck.). Anywho the bell rings and I pull myself together cursing the mofo ringing the damn bell with the closed sign in their friggin face... Only to discover I was cursing Sunni. How fitting. I open the window to give her the blankest, most unwelcoming face with a "What can I get you?" Bitch responds with a "Can I get a Café Olé?" I resist the urge to respond with a "No, get your French pretentious ass out of my fucking window." But instead I let the window slam in her face while calling Kace up to finish taking care of her. Boss lady, Ads and Char were all pissed they weren't there as they all wanted to be in the window to deal with her. Which I find pretty adorable honestly.

With every bad there is a good though, this good has gorgeous blue eyes. a few days after Sunni I heard the bell and went up to the window to see a pair of striking blue eyes above a black mask. I greeted him instantly along with who I later find out to be his father. Blue eyes and I started complimenting each other at the same time, I his jacket and he my birds tattoo. We fell into a small conversation talking about where he got the jacket in Asheville and a few random things before talking about what pastrys he wanted. After gathering his pastrys Boss lady had to send it out the window since I had to start a very particular regulars coffee.

As I was shaking the Oat milk blue eyes and I made eye contact through the front window as he and his father were heading to the car. I turn back to focus on my coffee and while I'm focused I heard BL say my name which leads me to creep around to look out to see Blue eyes back. I smile and say hey, and he pulls out his phone asking if I wanted to exchange social medias, I happily agree and give him my insta and then had to jump back to my steaming milk. BL and I are both trying to hold back our laughs till we see them drive off, she them goes "Oh my God I watched his father pushing back towards the window and him have to jump a few times to amp himself up to come back, it was so cute!" I felt myself get all flushed as I had such low self esteem that day, feeling and looking like shit. It definitely boosted me up afterward and we have a talked a bit which is fun, nothing wild, he seems really cool and definitely my vibe tribe. He could be something or nothing, either way I appreciated and definitely needed that confidence boost.

It seems the odd window interactions have continued as today Tonytail made an appearance. I didn't help him at first, Char did and she looked to us saying a guy came asking who was working and if any of us knew him. I went and peered through the window and could see a knee off to the side which I knew instantly was him, snorted and grabbed his shake to send out, he instantly asks me about my recent hike with pup and I tell him it was great, wet by great. He always seems to show up when I post about a hiking adventure on insta. I find that amusing as I stopped following him a while ago.

So with Tonytail being an odd interaction that means another good one should be next. Maybe blue eyes will return, or maybe sweet Abby or Wendy will show up. Either way, I enjoy the random window interactions, especially the doggo ones, I get so excited with every doggo guest. 🐶 It's a new week and I feel myself starting to get my mojo back more which is great, I'm trying to boost myself up more and focus on what's in front of me. I have a beach trip to look forward to which is definitely giving me the drive to keep pushing on ☺️🏖️