#chaninicolas

[maxvalenti]

I know it's now May, but thought this April horoscope reading might still be aplicable or at the least a nice little entertaining ditraction while sheltering in place:)

[zebracandle]

[ramonaflowersflowers]

"Careful not to rush towards an ending just to get out of a feeling."

—@chaninicolas

Doesn't make sense but it's kind of intriguing and appealing. Does it mean that you should take it all in before you think it is not what you want? Or does it mean that you should just let things be, so you'll find out what's meant for you? I don't really know maybe it will unravel itself in my life.

Anyways, it was an ordinary day. Lazy work and going home. Except that it is a "mukmok" day. I get to walk and get indulge with music, the sad ones. And everytime I listen to sad ones I thought of her. I know I should not. For many times, I have promised myself I'll start to forget her. But my resolve is just going down the drain everytime. Maybe because I haven't turn her into a poem. She does not deserve it. To live in my memory forever. But maybe I should, so I can let off all the feeling and sooner I can let go of her. For my own good. And sad songs also make me think of the best one for me. I always wonder how to be loved back by someone. I wonder if he/she will fight for me, for us. Would he/she tolerate my musings and cravings? In time, I'll know. I just hope it'll come. ~0611