#chance to get out of my system irl ig

[canislupusangelus]

Comic sketch thing I made. I need to make more comics this is so fun. I always think "man this would be a great comic" and I keep not writing it down even though I tried to start doing that like.... years ago...

[miusmusings]

So, I don't know how to begin this post. Let me start by saying that this is only a personal social observation (gotta use my major somewhere), based on what I've seen in the school shipping culture around me. (Pls keep me out of shipping discourse, ty.)

So, the entire ep was a kick in the gut, and it's tackling issues which are very, very personal to me, even rn when I'm in college. bullying, ragging, classism, institutional prestige... as if I'm not getting enough of drama, politics n media irl

But anyway, I'm not gonna go into those rn. Instead, I want to write a bit about this—shipping in schools.

I don't know how much this happens in the western school systems, but in the part of the world where I am, aka in South Asia, 'shipping' people (keeping it in quotes cause no one actually uses the particular term), starts at school.

No one teaches it to you, to be honest. But when two students of the opposite cisgender are close with each other, share their lunches/food/tiffin, then whispers start around the class. The reason for this closeness may be that they just vibe together, or their parents are friends, or sometimes they are actually in relationships/like each other.

From what I've seen in my (and a few other schools I had friends from), it usually starts as early as first grade? Back then even holding hands were scandalous And it doesn't really matter if the 'shipped' persons are popular or pretty or not, it can happen between any people who are a little close. Or if one side likes the other (which may be stated publicly or to friends).

Of course, it typically only happens with two people of the opposite cis genders, though as you go up in grades/classes, the scope of shipping friends/peers go into plenty other directions, too.

A lot of the times, it just turns out to be friendships, but I've personally seen people who are shipped get together too. And then there were a few instances where two people purposely promoted their 'ship' because they wanted to get close to the other person's friend in a very roundabout way. Is high school normally like this or is my school just????

So anyway, shipping people who are your friends/peers is considered normal around here. A thing to laugh and chat about with your friends (who can be the shipped ppl too), shout in the hallways, make silly doodles on etc. Of course, this can take a dangerous turn any second—many guardians do not approve of their children getting into relationships (real or otherwise) in schools, many people who are 'shipped' feel uncomfortable with the whole thing (though they in turn participate in shipping others), and of course there's the ever present chance of stalking, invasion of privacy, rivalry etc

School shipping is also a gradual process of socialisation involving love, romance, attraction, ig. Many institutes lack (or refuse to allow) talk of romance/attraction and sex ed. Many guardians would never touch the topic of talking to their wards/children about relationships, romantic and sexual love, some going as far as to forbid their wards from consuming any media about these things. In such a scenario, where love, romance etc is considered almost a taboo never to be associated with, shipping, ie love but without involving yourself into it, becomes a way to deal with them. Talking about your peers being in love starts a conversation about stuff that would not have taken place in any other way. Most times, this is not a self-narrative thing either, people 'shipping' friends/peers are aware they are not the 'shipped' people. But anyway. Most times is the keyword here

Of course, this shipping slowly goes into the areas of life when people *are* allowed to love, but most of it ends in high school (unless you're still in fandom, but that's a different thing altogether). People are too busy trying to eat, sleep and also study to continue shipping friends in college/uni.

I'm not going into the debate about whether this is healthy or not. As I stated at first, this is but a personal observation of things I've seen around, and things that are still happening, starting from when you are 5-6 years, ye.

(It's only been two years since I got out of hs, that's not a very long time. And my juniors tell me about the current school gossip XD)

This is just me seeing a drama and then rambling about something in it, so ye, Do Not get me into shipping drama.

[mc-slowwalker]

hahahahha that’s funny lol (saying that the author of the common enemy fics is c!dream) but yeah common enemy definitely won’t fix the issues cause it’s the cycle of violence that they have to break and that definitely will not be fixed easily

woooo syndicate supremacy (I’ve finally learned how to spell syndicate correctly through our conversation lol) they’re definitely doing better than other people on the server and I love that for them! oh yeah either or both c!tommy and c!dream definitely need to reflect on the fact that they’re both make eachother worse. I absolutely loved how that fic handled that aspect of it because closure and freedom is exactly what I want for c!dream and c!tommy more than anything. yeah exactly!! which is why I don’t like the idea of c!dream dying either cause it just leaves everything unresolved. I doubt that’ll happen in canon tho

yea!! can’t wait for the angst! cc!wilbur just posted on reddit about ghostbur so we’ve already got some more of it 😔✌️which also reminds me that I’m sooo interested to see how c!dream is like once he’s out of prison because so much of the fandom believes different thing and there’s no way that he’s gonna be better or changed cause he’s had no opportunity to plus he’s been through terrible torture for so long and I can’t wait to see the effect of that. which also reminds me that I’ve seen lately that a lot of the fandom seems to think that c!dream was put in the prison as a punishment when it was less about that and more about the fact that he could revive people and that his last canon life would have been taken if not for that fact. a lot of the fandom says he deserves the prison but not the torture as a punishment but that’s not why he was put in the prison and if that was the case literally every other character would deserve the same punishment as well as they’re all characters that have done bad things. I feel like my typing is just getting more and more rambly and less and less well punctuated lol sorry

oh yeah those fandom rules definitely make sense. especially as someone who has been in online fandom spaces for like a long time and has seen all the tumblr discourse lol. like yeah those rules were actually not bad and don’t send death threats or harass people shouldn’t have to be said as much as it is in mcyttwt. I really do wish that the young people in this fandom realise that they’re allowed to just have fun and do what they like in fandom

I think that taking into account the fact that a character is a minor is definitely important I just disagree with the way that a lot of people use it as such a final argument that doesn’t leave room for discussion. yeah I’m the same like when I was younger I used to think I was so grown up but like I’m 18 now and I realise that that’s still so young even though at 18 I’m an adult. basically like the “child” argument is not so black and white either like instead of a defence I think it’s more something that should be taken into account when discussing a characters actions and I definitely agree with the characters you’ve added as people who that can be extended to. and yeah like in real life the minors would face soo many more consequences it’s kind of funny like everyone would but with it being such a prominent topic of discussion it’s funnier applying real life rules to dsmp is often so funny. I agree c!tommy should 100% pay taxes that would be hilarious

ooh yeah the three life system interesting cause at first glance you’d think it makes them worth less but evidently not and I do wonder how the characters see it. like you said with c!foolish and c!puffy it was traumatic to take a first life but for some it just seems as chances and the last life is what actually matters. who it’s against and also circumstance I think matters. I also tend to brush off c!tommy taking two of c!dream’s lives but I also tend to brush off the canon lives lost during the first l’manburg war as it was war and c!dteam and co were just better. I suppose I’m an everything but l’manburg apologist because of its foundations ig although I can still understand and acknowledge it’s importance to the characters such as c!tommy. I’ve seen it said that c!dream deserves prison because he took two of c!tommy’s canon, amongst other reasons of course, but so many other characters have taken canon lives and how do you determine the consequence of that in the dsmp cause in irl it’s very different and in the dsmp so far there really is no consequence for murder. like for example c!punz took two of c!wilburs canon lives (I stan him for that I’m a punz simp what can I say) and other characters have taken canon lives too. hmm I wonder what determined the severity of crimes on the dsmp cause the one character that’s in prison wasn’t actually put in there for his crimes.

hahahaha yeah I just can’t wait till we finally don’t have to reach that much

ahaha fair enough I just sometimes type too fast and autocorrect never seems to know what I want to say and I do not have the brain power to proof read a single thing I write. also I type out the asks in notes and after I sent the last one I was like damn that was really long and pasted it into pages to check. and oh my god this one is over a thousand words that’s like longer than one of essays I wrote for my philosophy final exam😭😭 I am so sorry

I will say though that I am quite enjoying this discussion cause it’s the most in depth discussion I’ve been able to have about this

I saw the angst wilbur put on reddit that mother fucker (affectionate) I actually have a rewlly weird relationship with wilbur’s meta lore. Things I accept: sally is a salmon, fridge mom, all the characters being morally gray. Things I don’t accept: whatever he was trying to do with character ages, also saying revivebur was straight when c!tommy saw him and quackity making out like nice try king. One of my biggest issues with the sever is that I get so easily attached to mobs/npcs in dream smp and they die so easy so Im always sobbing,,,, if anything happens to shroud, yogurt, michael (notchill), or fran I’ll mcfucking lose it

For c!dream getting out of prison I see there being only two routes: 1. he’s worse by a lot more evil more fucked up or 2. He’ll be actually too fucked up/tired/traumatized to do shit. Either of which is gonna hurt the sever so I’m looking forward to it personally

Other real life things I think should be implemented into dream smp: jury duty, required 3 life insurance, dentsits, and OSHA

I do think the rebellion against c!dream (in the final control room) is really interrsting in that c!tommy/c!punz was about to organize a bunch of the server against dream? I know c!tommy has amazing puppy eyes tm but c!punz was able to organize a big group of people, half of them didn’t really have that much against dream (other than the l’manburg people) and were only there on more vague terms. Like c!hbomb and c!ponk really didn’t have shit against dream but still helped in getting him into prison

I feel like we’re always gonna have to reach a little bit and oh shit 1,000 words? Bruh half my classes require that and I have yet to actually right that much. it’s way easier with stuff you’re passionate about and with all the content dream smp has gives way more to analyze

[nikideaf]

Yeah ok all my stuff so far is a crosspost from IG but that’s ok, at least I have content. I’m not gonna change my username (even if I could, or could figure out how to do it) because my user is the same across all my socials so that keeps it nice and tidy. You want to find out who I am? My whole life is out there, baby. I’m on Tiktok, IG, Twitter, Reddit, Facebook (bleh, I never go on there anymore except when I have to. I’m in some groups related to upcoming stuff with friends and/or family so unfortunately I can’t delete my account.) But I’m the same IRL as I am online; no filter, real, occasionally clueless, sometimes snarky. Always, always, ALWAYS not feeling good in one way or the other. I’m cursed lol

So maybe I’ll use this as my place to shine and cry about the shit that I feel emotionally and physically because I got shit genes. Nobody has to read this. I’m just talking, you can scroll, this is for me. Not making it private unless I have to, just in case anyone is bored and needs to be even more bored...

Ok so the stuff I have is:

Mental illness (all sorts, that’s a whole separate category, I’ll get to that later)

Asthma

POTS

Allergies

Psoriasis

Chronic back pain (mostly due to herniated disc around L4/L5)

Sciatica

GERD

IBS

migraines

Fibromyalgia

Interstitial cystitis

ME/CFS (I am not sure about this one but then again I was sure I didn’t have fibromyalgia and I just did a damn blood test that said I had a very high chance of having it)

Gastroparesis (and a bunch of other GI things: hiatal hernia, the sliding kind, and gastritis, etc etc all of the associated shit)

Mitral valve regurgitation

BRCA II gene

Ok so there’s a lot of overlap here. Most of these things have something to do with something else. I tend to just group things by category. So, like, my GI system is fucked. My nervous system is fucked. My mental health is HUMONGOUSLY fucked. My circulatory system - fucked...and so on... my reproductive system, however, which I no longer require (or use 😢) WORKS JUST FINE!!!

Would really like to figure out how to cope with some of these better or which influence the other etc.

[kihyunspanda]

Astro Fan Meet Experience (LA)

So, I'm not sure how long this is gonna be... sorry if it's too long or too short.

OKAY, READY!

• The lines for each group were well organized and maintained. (Immensely better than for BTS)

• They started handing out wrist bands for P1 and P2 wayyy too late. (Only 2 people were doing it) this caused the show to run almost 45 minutes late.

• AXS double sold a ticket. Their whole system is whack anyway. But this guy couldn't sit with his daughter and had to wait in the lobby?? Wtf? Idek.

• The show started with a dance contest winner. He was quite good. He danced to Baby. (Video will be posted on IG later and shared here)

• Then JinJin and Rocky came out and started dancing. Which they did amazing. Then was joined by Moonbin and Eunwoo then MJ and Sanha. (Video later)

• Despite the late start the show was great. The MC and translator were able to be heard and AROHA in LA (unlike Ahgase in Chicago) were respectful enough when a member was speaking.

• They performed well. I think they performed 8? songs?

• They played a few games. Which were so cute. (Video later)

• It all seemed kind of rushed and it went by fast. But when they said goodbye on stage, I didn't feel the loss because I knew I was gonna get to see them again. (Which was missing in the other fan meets and concerts. Boo. Get Hi-Touch if you can afford it, y'all. It's worth it.)

Now to the part y'all really care about:

THE BOYS!

OT6

• They looked like they had so much fun on stage.

• They were smiling at each other during performances.

• Their voices were so good IRL.

• Watching them tease each other was so cute.

• They answered a few fan questions.

Eunwoo was asked what Animes he would recommend. He said Naruto and One Piece.

Rocky was asked what member he would choose for a sub unit and he picked Moonbin.

The Games:

• First they played "What's In The Box". Two teams Hyung line vs Maknae line. Hyung line went first. They had tapioca pearls. Seeing MJ freak out touching it was hilarious. Eunwoo was wearing a leather jacket and since they wanted the sleeves to be out of the way, he took off his jacket... as you might expect there was a ton of screaming. Lol.

I don't know what the Maknae line had, but Sanha screamed. A lot. It was cute. Rocky and Moonbin freaked a little, Rocky more than Bin.

Hyung Line won. The punishment was that the Maknae line had to be tickled for 10 seconds. JinJin complained because Bin isn't ticklish. Rocky really isn't either. But Sanha. Omg. Eunwoo had to chase him around the stage.

• Second they played "Guess The Song". It was 3 teams of two. They drew colored paper for teams.

They were:

MJ and JinJin

Eunwoo and Moonbin

Rocky and Sanha

The three main ships. Lol. What are the chances of that?

They had to guess the song by the choreography. Rocky and Sanha won. The punishment for the others was to do a sexy pose. The amount of screams for those was insane.

•Third game was "Dance the Choreography". They played two songs and they had to dance the choreography as a group. No punishments. Lol.

MJ

• His voice, y'all. Just. Wow. On the album is one thing. But irl? Holy crap.

• He wasn't super talkative. He was tired. They all seemed to be exhausted tbh.

JinJin

• JinJin spoke a lot of English.

• He was very energetic and happy.

• He talked a lot about AROHA and how happy he was to be there. (They all did, really.)

• He said "I love you" a lot.

Cha Eunwoo

• Eunwoo spoke a lot in English.

• He was kind of quiet, but that's his personality.

• He was very attentive to the crowd (they all were) and took a selfie with someone's phone at the end.

• He was dressed very sinfully in all black.

Moonbin

• THIS BOY. Omg. Such a baby. He's so cute... and RUDE. He must be stopped!!

• Moonbin was pretty lively and was excited to be there.

• He, like Eunwoo, wore all black... and it was rude.

Rocky

• My darling bias. Rocky.

• He danced his butt off and was a sweetie the whole time.

• He, like Eunwoo, took a selfie with someone's phone at the end. (I'm jelly)

• He was very attentive to AROHA.

Sanha

^ That's the jacket he wore. He looks so cute in it. Omg.

• Okay. This baby boy. He was so adorable.

• I really want to just adopt him and spoil him rotten. Even if he does tower over me. Lol.

• He was all smiles and looked like he was having a blast.

Ending Ment

• They talked about how they were worried no one would come.

• They all said they were ready to do a concert tour in the U.S.

(I'll be posting video of their speeches on IG and sharing them here.)

HI-TOUCH

• The order was: Rocky, Sanha, Moonbin, Eunwoo, JinJin then MJ.

• They all looked so tired.

• Especially Eunwoo. Poor baby looked like he was about to collapse.

• It was so amazing to see them up close. They're so beautiful.

• Their hands were so soft.

• Their smiles were bright and they looked so happy to see AROHA.

Final Thoughts

I would happily see them again. And if I am able, I want Photo Op.

[youremyalways]

aspire, alter, heal, memorize, and positive vibes!

Thank you sm ilysm

aspire: what are 3 things you want to achieve next year?

Become more open to my friends and willing to let them in, become better at the art things I do, understand my friends better and become even closer

alter: name 3 ways your life is going to positively change next year.

If tomorrow goes well then I’ll be able to drive, I’m working on better coping mechanisms and support systems, I am going to get a chance to shadow at an amazing place downtown which will help me decide if interior design is really what I want to do with my life

heal: name 5 ways you are going to make next year better.

Actually stand up for myself and not internalize everything, explore different creative ways to express my feelings, buy more blankets and candles and cute clothes and things that make me happy, share music with people (I find this an amazing way to connect and understand people), eat more in comfy clothes on my bed

memorize: describe in detail the happiest day you've had this year.

Oh my gosh, you guys are most likely so tired of hearing about Dylan, Matt and Kennedy, that sucks for yall cause they are amazing people but I am kinda sorry for talking about them all the time. Anyway, the happiest day this year is probably in the week where we went to DC but I can’t remember too much (so much has happened since then but I remember being so happy because most of my irl friends made sure depression stayed away) so I’′l tell you about what I can of that then about the more recent time. 

The entire week was amazing, the night we first arrived we played Monopoly at like 11 at night and we cleaned up at about 12:30. It was so fun, Kennedy pulled out her thick Russian accent that she get for some reason any time she is the dealer person??? It’s crazy. I’m pretty sure that was the night that I went over to the room where Dylan and Matt were sleeping, Matt was in the shower and I went in to watch some It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia with Dylan (apparently he and Matt have a tradition of watching it anytime they spend the night somewhere else like they did at band camp ig) and it was great, then Kennedy comes to ask me a question (she and Dylan have very close personalities and don’t always get along) and we have a short conversation and she leaves the room saying “don’t do anything you two”. We both shrugged and kept watching, then Dylan brought it up not long after Matt came back into the room and I said “idk why she said that cause she already knows I like this other girl” and the three of of talked about that and that is how I kinda came out (I had already came out to them but all I had ever said was Hey I’m pan, we had never talked about it). So that was cool and then I went back over to my room and went to sleep. I don’t remember much from most of the rest of the days (though I do have plenty of pictures) but I do know we watched Monty Python and The Holy Grail and Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, both of which Kennedy had never seen before and that was super fun. The last night we were there, we played uno and I have a picture that will forever represent that trip, it’s of Matt with Katie’s (friends in youth group who was on the trip with us) shower cap on, that night was so fun, all the nights were. We were so tired each night which made everything so much funnier. I know there was a night were the girls (Katie, Kennedy and I) stayed up an extra hour just talking/ gossiping about stuff at our schools and it was great.

Ok, I guess that was more than I thought so I’ll leave it there and maybe someone will send this again or something? idkpositive vibes: you've made it through another year! i'm so proud of you and my year wouldn't have been the same without you

Oh my gosh Kate!! I love you so much!! You have made this year so much better and I am so glad you are alive

[hybridthry]

Do all those questions!!! 😚

Hello Lacey! Thanks for the ask

Gonna put it under a read more so i don’t clog people’s dashes! 

Have you ever:

1. Skipped class? Ye2. Done drugs? Nope3. Self harmed? Ye4. Drank? Ye5. Shoplifted? Nope6. Gotten a tattoo? That’s pending 7. Broken up with someone? Nope 

What’s your favorite:

8. Show? Currently, Brooklyn 99 9. Movie? Spirited Away10. Song? Uhhhh atm it’s Pixie Oaks by Mutemath 11. Tumblr? beneathmysin12. Singer/Band? Chester bennington 13. Memory? Some of my memories from early foundation year are rlly happy and lovely, i laughed a lot 14. Book? idk 

This or that:

15. Invisibility or Ability to fly? Invisibility  16. Cookies or Cake? Cake17. Twitter or Facebook? Twitterrrr18. Movies or Books? Movies, no attention span to read anymore, sadly. 19. Coke or Sprite? Coke20. Blind or Deaf? This question stresses me heavily. If I’m deaf I can’t listen to music and I’m stuck with my thoughts, if I can’t see I can’t draw or play my favourite video games, or see my girlfriend. So. 21. Tea or Coffee? Coffee 

What’s your:

22. Age? 19 23. Sign? Sagittarius 24. Height? 5ft225. Sexual orientation? Idk. Not straight tho 26. Shoe size? UK 4/5 (small feet i know) 27. Religion? n/a28. Longest relationship? My current one 

Opinion on:

29. Gay rights? i’m obviously for them lmfao 30. Second chances? Depends on what the person did innit 31. Long distance relationships? I’m in one and as much as they suck bc of the pain both parties deal with I believe they create strength and a bond that irl relationships don’t get to experience much. But yeah i’m for them, go live your life and be happy 32. Abortion? pro-choice33. The death penalty? i’d say i’m for it but most of the cases in which the death penalty has been acted upon have had unfair trials, i also don’t know if i’m for this eye for an eye thing either as much as i hate ghandi and that overused quote. i think that the system would abuse it somehow but yeah idk. i’ll stop talking 34. Marijuana ? honestly do whatever i probably should smoke some myself to chill the fuck out 35. Love? i think it exists and i think it’s some kinda force that can’t be articulated into words, only through actions rlly. all the small things ig 

Do you:

36. Believe in ghost? sure37. Shower facing the shower head or turned away from it? facing away 38. Sleep with the door opened or closed? closed 39. Love someone? yes v much so 40. Still watch cartoons? i’m literally an animator my dude 41. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? girlfriendddddd 42. Like yourself? not even in the slightest my guy