#chachacha hyoseop SOLO

[lgchyoseop]

behind a solo

"and i wish us the best"

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styling for his hairstyle, he’ll have his bangs removed from his face, a rose flower on his right ear, he’ll have some longer earrings on, earrings that goes in a straight line vertically. his eyeshadow will be brown, with silver glitter on his eyebags and around his eyes. he’ll have a darker lip colour on, and he’ll be wearing both contour and highlight. clothing wise, he’ll wear a white shirt with buttons, flowers embroidered onto it and a flower peaking up from a pocket on his left chest. he’ll be wearing birkenstock shoes, and will have a belt formed as a bunny. 

stage there’ll be placed a bench with plushies formed as bunnies onto it which hyoseop will sit on in the beginning. around the scene there’ll be placed fake trees and fake flowers that hyoseop will walk along. there’ll be hanging a swing on one of the trees which hyoseop will momentarily be sitting on. the lighting will for most part be a bright light, except for the first chorus, where the light will be turned off except for a lamppost which hyoseop will be standing next to. at the end the light will be turned down except for a focus light on hyoseop, after a few seconds as the performance has ended, the light will once again be turned on and hyoseop will be sitting along the bunny plushies he sat along with in the beginning. for the second chorus there’ll be falling flower petals from the ceiling and a few actual flowers which hyoseop will be throwing out to the audience.

more hyoseop wishes to give a memorable performance, and wishes to partake in a lot of the performance, as doing his own make up and hair, helping to choose the plushies and such. the performance is another side of hyoseop, who usually does darker concepts, this will be a light change for the male.

[lgchyoseop]

first comeback

"got so far, all i can do is get futher"

...

a comeback… his very first. it still hasn’t fully sunk in yet that he has debuted, that he’s been an idol for months now. he’s been chasing this dream for so long, and he finally got there, he finally made his debut. now it was learning to be an idol, improving his skills constantly. hyoseop’s dance skills had been good enough for him to debut, but it was still a skill he needed to work on, so in preparation for his very first comeback. he stays late to practice dance by himself, he stays late almost every day.

his breath is heavy from practicing, he pours down a bottle of water his throat, finishing another water bottle, luckily he brought three along with him today. hyoseop has never felt very good at dance, and he’s not surprised that legacy asked him to improve his dance skills for the comeback. he’s grown a lot in dance from when he became a trainee, two left feet when he joined legacy, and though surely not type zero’s best dancer, he wasn’t all that bad anymore. he’d had a habit of only focusing on rap, luckily that habit has been broken. 

his body feels weak, he’s not sure how much more his body can take today, then he remembers, dance wasn’t the only skill legacy wanted him to improve in, he needed better singing skills too. so he lets his body get a rest while his mouth and throat will come to use. he remembers the warm-ups hes been taught in his time at legacy, and he starts with that, warming up his voice. he tries his best at hitting higher notes than he’s used to, his voice is a bit deep, so it’s a bit difficult, but he still tries his best.

the weeks go like that, he switches between practicing his singing and dancing, remembering not to forget his rap nor performance skills, he wishes to get better in what he wants to get better at, and what legacy wants him to get better at.

[lgchyoseop]

TYPE ZERO'S "cha hyoseop" STUDIO

studio design the theme of hyoseop’s studio is flowers, hyoseop is known for his knowledge and love for flowers, and wants to include that to the space he’ll use a lot of time in. the walls are painted a light pink (#f5e9eb). the floor will be decorated with big plants like aloe vera, potted bamboo, snake plant and such. his desk will be decorated with smaller colourful plants. majority of the walls will be decorated with drawings of flowers, painted or drawn by hyoseop himself. another part of his wall will be called ‘memory wall’ and have a big sign with the words ‘memory wall’ upon it. the memory wall will be filled with type zero and their adventures together, over time, there will be added more and more pictures to the memory wall. 

rules

only slippers will be worn inside the studios

hyoseop is lazy and doesn’t want to clean the studio too often, hence in the studio he has a couple of slippers he (and guests) can wear to not get dirt in the room from outside, so hyoseop can clean less often.

flowers are not allowed to touch

hyoseop values his flowers very highly, he doesn’t want them to be accidentally broken or have anything happened to him, hence he has made a rule that only he can touch them.

coffee is banned within the studio

hyoseop despises the smell of coffee, and he knows he won’t be able to work in the studio if the smell of coffee is bothering him too much.

food or snacks within the studio must be approved by hyoseop first

once again, hyoseop doesn’t want to clean too often. he’ll accept snacks within his studio that don’t smell too much nor leave crumbs or such. hyoseop will allow snacks that leave crumbs or messes when it’s close to cleaning day which is around once a week.

no more than three people in the studio at once

hyoseop fears that if there’ll be too many people in the studio at once then his flowers or paintings will accidentally be pushed or destroyed, valuing his items in the studio highly, he wishes for the safety of the things in his studio.

[lgchyoseop]

so small, and i'm scared

"i see you everywhere, when i wish to see you nowhere"

...

tw: mention of self-harm, diet, negative thoughts

hyoseop would like to think all of his problems would just vanish when he decided he’d had enough of them. he’d tried to get better, kinda, his dad had forced him into therapy, and though his therapist said he didn’t open up fully enough, and that he left too soon, it was still an attempt. hyoseop had lived with the pain his ex-girlfriend brought him for many years now, he felt like she shouldn’t affect him anymore, not when so much time had passed by. they got together when he went to high school, now it’d been more than five years since he left high school.

but truth was it, she was everywhere, haunting him like a ghost, there didn’t go a day without her affecting him. forced to wear long-sleeves because he didn’t want people to ask about the scar, looking in the mirror and feeling pretty, but not enough. and there it was, what haunted him most, how she made him feel like never enough, like he always could’ve been better.

“congrats on making it to type zero, i know we’re both busy, but i figured since i pass by the legacy building to work, i could quickly catch you” he smiles, a friend of hyoseop’s from high school, who he hasn’t talked to in a while, but the other still got his number, hyoseop hasn’t changed that number in years. “it’s nice to see you, what do you work as now?”, “i’m just a teacher” he shows a smile, “i hope to see again and really catch up, but i know right now we’re both a bit busy, i brought you a gift though” the other reaches into his backpack, getting something out… a box of chocolate, “thank you” hyoseop says with a smile, taking the box.

now he’s staring at the box, in his dorm, he hasn’t had chocolate in a while, or well, any sweet. he’s on a diet, and he’s strict about it, chicken, rice and vegetables, every now and then fruits, but preferably no fruits. but one can’t hurt, he’s been dieting so well lately, he deserves this. he opens the box, picks one up, and without realizing, he’s crying.

her words are on repeat. ‘you should think about what you eat’, ‘you’re easier to love if you’re pretty’, ‘success comes to pretty people’.

no matter how much he wants to eat that piece of chocolate, it’s fallen to the floor, he can’t eat it, he wipes away tears, this is embarrassing, crying over a piece of chocolate. he’ll just give it to his dormmates, award himself with fruit later, maybe. he knows it though, he’ll look at the box of chocolates and he’ll be reminded of her, like he’s always reminded of her, no matter where he goes, no matter what he does. can he ever get rid of her? even though they haven’t seen each other in more than seven years. or maybe he should find her, maybe that would put a stop to this never-ending pain, or maybe he should just continue pretending, like everything is okay, like he doesn’t care about her, like she doesn’t affect him. 

or maybe it’s for the best she’s haunting him, maybe it’s good, she’s helping with self-control, had she not been in his mind perhaps he’d eat the whole box of chocolate, or truth be it, maybe he’s not sure what he wants, it feels like this pain will continue staying, and he’ll just have to continue living with it.

he looks at his phone, two numbers he could call, two numbers who knows what’s going on, his best friend, his old therapist. but could he really get himself to talk to any of them? he doesn’t intend on seeing his therapist ever again, and he hasn’t spoken that much to his best friend since she moved to a whole other continent. but he clicks, calls the number, waits, and wait, and, it’s picked up. “hey hyoseop!”, “hey—“, “i haven’t heard your voice in so long! we usually just text, i didn’t watch the family concert, but i saw a post about the new members of type zero, congrats!” “tha—” “oh i’m having so much fun in the us! i hope you’ll come and hold a concert here sometime “i actu—” “i have a date soon though hyohyo, so i can’t really talk” “oh” “maybe we can call later?” “yeah” he hides his tears, “see you!”, well, seems like he’s continuing to hide these feelings. she’ll continue haunting him for probably a while.

[lgchyoseop]

big news

"i waited long, but i'm glad you waited with me"

...

tw: mention of diet

hyoseop had missed his family, and he was glad to be meeting them again finally, because he’d kept a secret. perhaps he could've told his sister before, but he wanted to tell it to them all at the same time. it took a lot of convincing to make sure it was all four of them, this was their first chuseok as four since his parents had been divorced. the original plan was for sori to be with their mother and hyoseop to be with their father, because it’d been opposite the year before. it wasn’t that difficult to convince their mother, he didn’t really ask his sister, but after the fainting, hyoseop’s dad seemed to care much more, so here they were, all three having traveled to the cha siblings’ mother. 

“it’s been a while since i’ve tasted your cooking” miso tells to jidam, and hyoseop can only wonder when they last spoke together. sori is looking down at her food, poking it, he’s not sure whether she’s happy or not about all of this. hyoseop is also mostly just poking his food, though it seems good, it doesn’t follow hyoseop’s diet. “you got to eat” miso says, and suddenly there’s a spoon right in front of hyoseop’s mouth and he can’t say no. after that though, hyoseop is quick to speak so there won’t be anymore feeding. 

“i’m thankful you’ve all supported me in my dream to become an idol, i know i didn’t pursue further education after high school, and that seemed dumb, i’m thankful that even though many of the choices i made seemed risky, you all continued to be by my side” deep breath “i’ll be debuting”. “what!” from his dad “congrats” from his mom, and silence from his sister. “i can’t believe this! it’s so good you changed over to legacy, that old company was no good, and i’m so happy i always trusted you, now my little boy is going to become famous” jidam is of course the happiest, her smile even bigger than hyoseop and miso’s combined. “congrats idiot” finally sori speaks, and she claps his back. “eat a lot! you’ve got a lot of dance practice to do!” and suddenly it’s her spoon in front of his mouth. “tonight we’ll have one of those nights sleeping in the same room talking all night, just like when we lived together” sori gives a smile.

what a wonderful and memorable chuseok to have.

[lgchyoseop]

create and go

“when i stand hear, i see it all clear”

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          hyoseop was a good painter and drawer, but that was as far as his creativity would go. hyoseop was not one who would come up with ideas, and when he did come up with ideas, they were around ninety-nine percent of the time either incredibly stupid, impossible or dangerous. luckily though, he’s pretty sure nothing can go wrong with creating a character, that should not be able to make something burn or someone get hurt. but it was, well, a difficult task they’d given him.

he stands there, tall, looking at the judge in front of him he’ll soon be describing the character to. “hello i am cha hyoseop” he bows a bit, they were probably already told who was coming in next, but he still seems it fit that he quickly introduces himself. “i’ve often realized things can be difficult, and that you can feel all alone in the world. i’d like for my public imagine when the time comes where i debut be that of a friend rather than an idol. i’d like to spread hope and smiles, and that’s why i’ve made my character’s top priority being to remain positive at all time. it can be difficult how to act in stressful situations, and if you’re sad you might not work as efficient as you could be. so that’s what my character would contribute to his fellow knights, to remain calm, be there as a leader and a friend.” he stops for a second before continuing on.

“as for the magical power… i’ve decided on mediumship, the power to communicate with ghost and spirits. the skill is useful in spying or helping people communicate with their deceased loved ones. it’s also a way for friends to never really be gone, to even in the afterlife be able to stand by someone’s side”.

[lgchyoseop]

CHA HYOSEOP CAFE PERFORMANCE Q1 2023

“it’s easy to look backwards, but let’s keep our eyes ahead”

setlist: - any song, zico (rap) - selfish, moonbyul+seulgi (rap/singing) - daydream, j-hope (rap) - hi high, loona (dance) - want it, kisum+bora (rap/singing)

...

          while the male did feel rather busy, it wasn’t actually that much fan interaction he had had. he’d been busy here in legacy for the past half year (a little more than that actually) doing gig after gig. and while the male hadn’t debuted yet (and his rank in season five of future dreams made it seem like there would be a while), he had gathered some fans. for someone so confident in his looks, selfies weren’t really his thing, and upon his joining in legacy, it was only an introduction video and a sole vlive that made him aware to the public. then he appeared in two variety shows, and straight on to future dreams after that, while flowers were still the main thing he would post on the instagram, his face was out there. and he had had his first fan meeting during future dreams, and he had seen the first netizen post about him ever, though it was just a post about his updated hair colour, and they did take pictures of him without asking, perhaps that was a taste to what idol life could potentially bring. but while debut bootcamp had been hard and hopefully learned him something, debut bootcamp had been a break from interacting with the public.

but upon the learning of the cafe performances, he pretty quickly decided he wanted to do it, of course the bootcamp stopped him the first round, but now he was back and ready. his first intention had been to rap, as that was his strongest skill, but while he still felt incredibly terrible at dancing, he’d been made aware that his dancing skills had surpassed his singing skills. for some reason he still felt more comfortable with singing, but while it had been difficult, the male had decided to showcase all three skills today, with of course a main focus on rap, but perhaps he wanted to be seen as a triple-treat to the public (though would this performance even go out to the public? maybe if someone filmed it…)

he walks onto the stage, another outfit than usual, as minami had helped update his wardrobe. he’d done his make-up, the eye make-up a little more bold and glitter-y than usual. there’d been a lot of thought going into which outfit he should wear, he wanted to seem bold, strong, but his song choices didn’t exactly vibe with that, maybe cuter was better? but the cute style didn’t fit him perfectly (yet). at last it had been decided on a bold blue pair of pants, and a cropped shirt (ref), it didn’t feel too strong, and he also got the chance to show a bit of his abs (which he had worked oh so hard on lately). 

he walks onto the stage, a small applause, nothing much, perhaps there’s a few faces recognizing him, he’s not sure, but he bows deeply and many times, he’s thankful to be able to perform here today, even if it’s just for a small crowd. ‘one, two, three’ he counts in his head as he’s reached the center of the scene, he bows deeply and has a big smile upon his lips as his back straightens back. “i am cha hyoseop, twenty-three years old and a legacy trainee” he’s not sure how much to talk, if he should go straight to starting, or try to talk a little, after all, he was known for his charming-ness. “i was on the last season of future dreams, perhaps someone recognizes my face from there, though the hair was another colour” he points to his hair who has now become orange. “i’m very thankful that i had the chance to join future dreams, especially since when i auditioned for the fifth season i hadn’t been a trainee for even a year yet. i do however feel like i lacked a lot, and there’s a lot i didn’t get to show, my dream is still to debut, and it’s a dream i’ll keep chasing” he smiles “i want to improve, and keep improving, and i’m very thankful to anyone supporting me in this dream, i’ve prepared some different songs today, and for people who watched future dreams you might be surprised”. during future dreams he showcased basically nothing but rap, even while he was the oldest he couldn’t be a leader, but while this isn’t being watched by as many, he still wants to put on a good performance. “i’ll be starting with any song by zico” he bows a little, the music then begins.

there’d been a lot of consideration as to which song he should begin with, at first he wanted something quite strong, something that would instantly gain everyone’s look at him. but he also wanted this to be comforting and nice for the viewers in the cafe, zico was like a legend to hyoseop, someone he looked rather much up to, it was a song everyone knew, and it was a song he felt he could do. the song comes to a finish and he only manages to get a quick sip of water before the next melody begins. it’s another rap song, but mixed together with some singing, while he far from feels completely confident in his singing, he wanted to include it today. he’s smiling, enjoying performing, and it doesn’t seem like the people in the cafe completely hate him. 

the song comes to an end, and he gets the chance to talk again, something he’s quite good at. “as i said, i haven’t been a trainee at legacy for long, i auditioned in the summer of 2021, and the song i just rapped and sung was selfish by moonbyul and seulgi. it’s actually the song i auditioned with, however when i auditioned i left out the singing part, upon joining legacy i was only focusing on rapping. i had two left feet and if i sang it basically broke windows” he lets out a quick chuckle “i’m still far from being as good as the trainees who has been here far longer, but i’ve come a far way”. “i often wish i had recorded my improvement along the way here in legacy, because sometimes people tell you they can see a difference, but it’s difficult to see it yourself”. he runs a hand through his hair, not thinking of the current shirt he’s wearing, hence more of his stomach being shown for a moment and he hears a few people letting out noises, he lets out a chuckle before returning the microphone to his lips “i’m trying to be emotional and say something cool and supportive, and all you’re focusing on is my body” he lets out a chuckle, in the crowd he hears someone half-shout ‘sorry’. “no! no! it’s fine!” he turns around, lifting and flexing his arms, showing both his muscular arms and back, there’s a few screams that sound fan-girl kind of and he turns around with a big smile on his lips, another chuckle escaping. “if people keep showing up when i get the chance to perform, i shall keep showing my muscles” there’s a few claps and giggles. “you’ve all distracted me from what i was going to say… but i think it’s okay, perhaps i should get to perform again” … “this time, i shall get around to show everything”.

like before, he decides to start with what he’s confident in, it’s not a song he’s very familiar with, but it’s quite popular, and often performing popular songs has it’s plus. he’s already sung a little, and even that felt difficult, he’s only confident in his rapping at the moment, and he’s prepared much (“much”) more than that this time. as the third song finishes he feels chills coming over him already, as this time he’s prepared a dance, not jikjin of course, that song will haunt him till the day he dies. with further thought, he did not think through about wearing a crop-top while performing this song, it has quite a lot of arm moves… at least before it didn’t seem to exactly bother the audience, but he very clearly notices those phones taking pictures of him, how come there weren’t that many phones up before? he finishes, not as out of breath as he thought he would be, maybe that’s because he works out so much. the other songs have been fairly well known, perhaps selfish and hi high less, but he finishes off with a song, an ost, not very familiar to most people. the song includes both singing and rapping, though the singing very low level singing (which is needed for hyoseop). it’s a good song, and he’s glad to finish off with it. 

before he begins his ending mc-ing he takes another sip of water, perhaps a little bigger than a sip this time. “when i joined legacy i thought there would be going at least five years before i’d feel confident dancing on a stage, but now i’ve both tried future dreams, the family concert and this, and performing always feels good, no matter which crowd or how big of a crowd” he bows a little. “i’m really glad to all of you who’ve been willing to watch me, and i hope you’ll consider me in the journey to debut, i promise with my whole heart that i will get to debut no matter what, i’ll make sure to be able to get to that point” a smile upon his lips, quite big of a smile. “rewinding just like the film, our starting point is still there” a reference to future dreams, if anybody watched that. 

“thank you for having me! again, i am cha hyoseop, trainee at legacy entertainment” he smiles and bows, then leaves, oh how nice.

[lgchyoseop]

just the thought of her

“pretend doesn’t last forever”

...

       he’d been more than just a little busy lately, he felt like he barely had time for anything. he didn’t think he would say it with how big of a coffee hater he is, but he missed his job as a barista, though the smell was terrible, it was a nice get-away from legacy, having him forced to move outside of the practice rooms in legacy and the dorm. lately his life had only been filled with legacy though, he hadn’t done anything outside of legacy for a while now. there’d been future dreams and now debut bootcamp, his whole schedule was filled pretty much completely up. he was only free on sundays at the moment, and he’d for the past sundays either spent it with sleeping the whole day or meeting with another legacy trainee. he figured he needed to do something new, to get his mind somewhere other than legacy, and as he realized he hadn’t bought gifts for christmas yet nor had the time to do it on another day than sunday, today was the day he was escaping legacy for a little.

it wasn’t like hyoseop was rich, especially not when he helped pay for his sister’s education and regularly sent money to his mother, he’d saved up money for christmas presents since january though, so he was sure he’d have money when the december month came around. he wasn’t completely sure how many gifts to give this year, he felt like he should definitely gift sori and his parents, and maybe if he could find something he’d buy nabom a gift too. he’d put on a christmas cardigan for the occasion, which was kind of big, because hyoseop wore the same outfit every day of the year, he had like ten tight white shirts, and then he changed his pants between grey, blue, white and black sweatpants. he wasn’t out to buy clothes for himself though, though he was considering maybe he should soon update his style.

both his sister and father were difficult to buy presents for, because even if he had asked both for a wishlist, neither of them had provided him with one. his father was so rich, so there’s probably not anything hyoseop could buy him that he couldn’t buy himself, yet he’d found a rather expensive knife for the man, well aware of that he’d have the same reaction for an expensive knife and a drawing of a circle, his father was always thankful when it came to presents. much like himself, his sister wasn’t someone who bought new clothes often, and though hyoseop had been on legacy style now, he still wasn’t very good at well… style. still the man had entered a clothing shop, in hopes of something that would catch his eyes he could buy for the younger sibling. 

he was looking through some clothes when he looked up, and his breath stopped quickly, his heartbeat turning a thousand times faster, his breath feeling tight, his eyes hurting, he recognized that back. he recognized that hair, he recognized that height. quickly, almost dropping his phone he takes up his phone to text someone.

*saeron is here* *share your location*

and he shares his location. he feels stupid, he feels weak, he feels like he’s about to cry, there’s so much going through his mind at once. all the memories he had tried to bury, everything he wanted to have pushed away, to just forget, it all came to him in a second, every word, every hurt. when she turns around he’s completely stiff, he feels scared, a grown man, a fit tall grown man, and he’s scared. but… that’s not saeron… he lets out a big breath, the female notices him staring and sends a smile, he quickly sends one back then looks away. that was stupid, did he really just scare himself by mistaking someone from the back. he’s about to text nabom that she doesn’t need to come anyway, but as he’s looking at his phone there’s suddenly someone next to him poking his shoulder. “hi i’m eunmi” she smiles to him, the woman he mistook for someone else before. “the name is hyoseop” he sends her a smile back “could i…?” she hands him her phone “want me to enter my number?” she nods. he’s not sure if he can still do that, now as he’s more out to the public as a legacy trainee, but he can’t get himself to say no to someone asking for his number, though he’s not sure he’d like to be their friend with how much they remind him of someone else, even if it’s only from the back.

his search for a gift to sori continues, and suddenly an out of breath girl is hugging him tightly, he’s confused for a second, then he realizes he forgot to text nabom, didn't he? “where is she? do we need to find somewhere more private” she’s so out of breath, obviously had been running, and hyoseop being feeling bad. “it… wasn’t her, i thought i saw her, but it was just someone else” he avoids her eyes. “you want to convince me you’re over her when you need to text me just when you think someone is her?” he’s quiet.

“what are you shopping in the women’s section for anyway” he’s thankful she switches topic “i need to buy a gift for my sister” … “oh you definitely need my help for that” she sends him a smile.

[lgchyoseop]

family con 2024

"nervous i am, nervous i will be"

...

type zero was opening for the second day of the legacy family concert, and hyoseop couldn’t help but be a bit nervous. november twelfth would be his one year as an idol, though he’d been added to type zero before that, he’d been an idol for less than a year, but soon he’d be opening for the second day of the legacy family concert, and he would be doing it along his members. hyoseop is sure he’d be more nervous without his members, the three other people in type zero meant a lot to him. parker had debuted before him, and knew a bunch of tips and tricks. kai and baekhyun were learning alongside him.

hyoseop had practiced hard for this, kick it wasn’t exactly an easy dance. and though hyoseop had come far when it came to dance, he still wasn’t the most confident in it. learning so many dances at once when joining type zero had been difficult for hyoseop when he joined type zero, he wasn’t exactly a quick learner when it came to dance. now it’d been around a year though, and hyoseop had practiced all of the dances a million times, he knew the dances. and hyoseop was lucky that a lot of type zero songs included rap, a skill hyoseop was confident in, a skill he loved showing off.

he takes out his phone, going to the camera and looking at his face through the app, they did his make-up well, even though he’s not sure if the fans will be able to see it, the close ones might? he puts down his phone somewhere, he feels like it’d be a stupid idea to perform with it. he can’t help but be curious about how many are excited to see type zero today, or if they just came to see fabula. it’s not all bad if more people are excited to see fabula, that just means his sister will get the attention she deserves. he takes a deep breath, and then it’s his turn to perform, to start off the second day of the legacy family concert.

[lgchyoseop]

chuseok 2024

"family you are, family i don't know if you are"

...

three days, a vacation for three days, though hyoseop wasn’t sure how much vacation there was over it. the first day of chuseok had been nice, hyoseop along with his sister had gone to their dad, and the three spent the day together, cooking food, chatting for hours, seeing a movie, feeling like a family again. they’d all been busy, hyoseop and his sister now both idols and their dad continuing his life as a popular model. it was only a single day they got to spend together though, because hyoseop along with his sister had other places to go.

growing up, chuseok had always just been hyoseop, his sister, his dad and his mom. when their parents split, it mixed between one sibling going to one parent each, or both siblings going to just one parent, last year had been an exception as they were all together again for the first time in years. this year though, they were celebrating big, meeting with a lot of the siblings’s mother’s family. hyoseop knew them, but he hadn’t spent particularly much time with them, truly the only family he spent time with was his parents and sister.

hyoseop and his sister was sleeping in the same room, and they’d helped each other get ready, they were standing by each other’s sides, even though they knew everyone here, they were far more comfortable being by each other’s side. but someone had captured sori, and someone had captured hyoseop, and now the siblings were separated and talking to different family members. 

“so you’ll be performing at legacy family concert?” the family member asks, and he simply gives a nod, sips on his soda. “do you think you could get tickets for my kids, they’re quite big fans of dbsd” she points at her kids. he shrugs, “i might be able to”. though hyoseop usually likes talking about himself, this chuseok he talked way too much about himself, what it was like being an idol, if he had met their favourite idols, if he could give them autographs from their favourtie idols, and the list goes on and on.

[lgchyoseop]

the fire that birthed me

"and you were there, and i'm thankful for that"

...

he had a dad, he had a mom, he had a sister, and eventually he would lose them all. living in the forest, a small house made of tree, the family lived together. they’re still not sure how it happened, if it was an accident, if someone did it on purpose, or what it was, but the house caught on fire. the dad grabbed the younger sister in his arms, running far far away and believing his wife would save their oldest son, but she had believed that he saved both of their children. when they met, they saw someone missing: hyoseop. when they returned to the house, it was burnt down and their son was nowhere to find, they assumed he was dead.

he was not.

while his family had left him behind, an elderly woman heard his screams, there was almost never visitors or by-passers in that house, but that day, she’d been there and saved him, bringing him back to where she lived, and raised him like he was her own son. she was rich, and she spoiled him, paying the best fighters to teach him how to fight, paying the best cooks to teach him how to cook, she payed to make sure he would have a great adulthood.

but nothing good lasts forever, she died when he was sixteen, she was an old woman, growing more fragile for each year. she left behind all of her money to him, he was the closest she had to family, and she loved nobody like she loved him. hyoseop had been used to live in a life of luxury, but upon her death he saved the money as best as he could, eating cheap food, barely buying anything, he figured he might need the money some day, so he saved as best as he could. he’d been a quiet child, only talkative around her, but when she died he figured he needed connections, so he attempted his best at befriending anyone he came across, valuing connections above the money he now had.

[lgchyoseop]

flowers and dreams

"for you, i shall and will"

...

he waves at the camera, a smile on his lips. “ah, hello everybody! it’s type zero’s cha hyoseop’s birthday” he runs a hand through his hair, “this is my birthday livestream, so thanks for checking in”. he hums “i usually don’t really care for my birthday, but i won’t say no to a livestream for my fans” he shows a smile. “are you curious as to what i’ll be doing for my livestream?” he tilts his head a bit to the side. “if you know me, you know i have a great love for flowers, so i’ll be making three flower boxes today, i’ll of course chat with you along as i make the flowers”.

“well for our first flower box, i was thinking a summer theme, though fall might not be that far away”. “we of course can’t create a summer themed flower box without sunflowers, so that’ll be our first flower. sunflowers is a very fast-growing plant actually” he takes up some flowers, pulls them apart, “it only requires about a hundred days to be fully matured”. “ah, i guess you’ll have to get ready for a lot of random flower facts”. “second flower who is joining us for this flower box is cosmos, the flower symbolizes harmony”. “and a very important flower for this flower box is of course red roses, one of the most beautiful flowers out there”. “and very last, but still important, one of my favorite flowers: lily”. “for the name of this flower box? let’s go with ‘summer feelings’.

“for our second one, i’d like for theme to be romance”. “and for that theme, we already have two flowers we can re-use, roses and lilies are actually connected to romance, and some people would call them ‘romantic flowers’, the lilies are pink, and the roses red, so i feel like we should continue in those colours”. “i got some pink peonies with me today, which i think we should add to this one”. “i feel like these three flowers would suit this theme well, and i don’t think we actually need more flowers for this one”. “i have a great idea for a name, and it’s: the smell of romance”.

“the last theme might be the most exciting one, or at least some people would think…”. “the theme is my favourtie flowers! i like this theme very much” he lets a chuckle escape his lips. “we got lilies, which i forgot to tell a random fact about before, so you’ll get it now, they symbolize innocence and purity, which i feel is a bizarre thing something can symbolize, but oh well” he shrugs. “roses of course have to be on the list, they are the best smelling flower anyways”. “last but definitely most important is the aster flower, who is surprisingly enough a member of the sunflower family, even though i’d say they don’t look too familiar”. “and this one? let’s name it ‘cha’s dreams’”.

the cake then arrives, and hyoseop gives an awkward smile. “ah, thank you for the cake and song, i can’t remember when someone last sang me happy birthday”.

[lgchyoseop]

make me a microphone

"create, make, wait"

...

getting his own customized microphone made being an idol feel even more real, and he still couldn’t quite get it into his brain that he was officially an idol now.

the microphone came in his assigned colour: green. hyoseop still wasn’t exactly the biggest fan of green, but he’d find a way to make the microphone feel like his. he brainstormed in his brain, tried his very best at coming up with ideas.

“well, my first and most important idea is definitely to include some flowers, in plastic perhaps, i think we could do it in some sort of vine style? like there's leaves and a stem and flowers of course”, “i think, if possible, i’d like the flowers to represent the group so some black, yellow and brown flowers, since that's my fellow members' assigned colour? the stem is already green, so i don’t think we need green flowers”. “i’d also like a hamster charm, since i use a hamster emoji as me representative emoji, the hamster charm would really shown that it’s mine, that it belongs to cha hyoseop” he lets out a chuckle. “if space for it, i’d like somewhere to have written type zero x zenith on it, to show that the microphone belongs to a type zero member”. 

“i think that’s what i can come up with to make it more personal, it includes my interests, refers to my members, and directly shows that this i the microphone of a type zero member. it uses a lot of things that i associate myself with, and i’m excited to be using my very own, personal microphone on stage”.

[lgchyoseop]

will we hold hands again

"honesty is hard, might get you far"

...

hyoseop sits down, runs a hand through his hair before he speaks.

“is the date really already over?” a chuckle escapes his lips. “i’ve never met yein before, so i went into the date basically knowing nothing about her, it didn’t bother me, just meant there was a lot to learn about her” he nods his head slightly. “yein seemed really sweet, i could see her being popular due to her personality and face, she’s very pretty” he hums, fiddling with the end of his sleeves. “i don’t think i have anything bad to say about yein”.

“but--”

“she was nice and sweet, but i don’t think we clicked amazingly… she definitely had her charms, and i think a lot of people would love to go on a date with her, personally, i don’t think we need a second date” he shrugs, “she’s very nice, and maybe i’d consider hanging out with her again, but not through date lottery i would say”. he hums “part of me wants a second date, just to be sure, but part of me knows there’s no need for a second date”. “i wouldn’t mind going on a date with her again, but i don’t think it would be much different from our first date…”.

“i suppose after giving it some thought, i’ll decide no to a second date with yein”.

[lgchyoseop]

fruits and sweets

"i'll create this for us"

...

since not living with his parents anymore, hyoseop hasn’t really celebrated his birthday, often almost forgetting it. during his trainee days he was often too busy to celebrate, and though he’s perhaps more busy now as an idol, his birthday will finally be celebrated again. it feels weird, but in a good way, that strangers will celebrate his birthday, wish him happy birthday, and creating a drink and a dessert for an event for them is truly the least he can do.

when the one behind the camera signals that they’re ready to film, hyoseop finally starts his introduction. “ah! hello everybody, this is type zero’s cha hyoseop, i’m here to prepare for my birthday event, and will try my best at coming up with a drink and a dessert, i want to say, thank you to anyone who joins my birthday event, i’ll promise to attempt taking good selfies for the photocards along with making a good dessert-drink combo”.

“should we start with the drink?” he says as he looks at the barista, and with a nod and a few steps, they’re by his side. “i was thinking i would like an iced-tea with a combination of some fruits, i love iced-tea, and it’s even better during the summer”. “my favourite iced tea flavour is peach, so i wanted to include that, but i want another fruit along with it too”. the bartender begins listing out fruits and hyoseop listens carefully. “wait! stop there! peach and mango iced tea, that sounds good, doesn’t it? i think that’s what i’ll choose for a drink!”. he hums “we need a name for it too though… what about ‘beach dreams’?, a mango-peach iced tea sounds like something i would dream for during a trip to the beach”.

“hmm, we have to think about the dessert now? one of my favourite desserts is churros, but… i think it would be boring to have just churros, how can we spice it up? we could serve it with soft-ice maybe? or marshmallows or… wait” he runs a hand through his hair “maybe this is a terrible idea, maybe it’s not, what about a churros cheesecake? we could call it ‘churr’e cheesy’ it sounds like ‘you’re cheesy’”. “i think we’re done then? i’ve created my drink and dessert”.

[lgchyoseop]

catch my face

"can't capture me"

...

though hyoseop was quite the confident one when it came to his looks, he’d never been a fan of pictures or videos of him. felt a bit like they couldn’t capture his face and body properly. so perhaps hyoseop could be a successful model with his pretty face, toned and tall body, but it just didn’t interest him that much. he wasn’t all against modeling, and though usually he’d prefer skipping it, sometimes he was fine with it. now that he’d become an idol, he wanted to get his name out there even more, he wanted to bring focus to him and the group. he especially felt lately like he had to work hard since he’d been added to an already existing group, he wanted to prove he deserved to be there, he wanted to be liked by the fans.

so he thanked yes to this modeling opportunity. it was nice getting his makeup done by someone else, though hyoseop was fairly good at doing his own makeup, he still didn’t hit the professional level. and these people were far better at doing his hair than he was, he always believed his hair didn’t need that much care, but getting his hair actually styled proved he could be better at doing his own hair. the filming goes smoothly, though hyoseop knows he most likely won’t be watching the content once it gets out, these cameras just won’t capture him well enough.

there’s a surprisingly amount of people asking for his autograph as he visits the shop to give out autographs. sometimes hyoseop forgets a bit that he’s not a nobody anymore. he gives his autograph to whoever asks, even the people who ask for multiple autographs. fans is one of hyoseop’s favourite part of being an idol, he’ll give an autograph to whoever asks for one.