#ceedee lamb x black!reader

[bengals-barnesbabe]

Failed Sneaky Link

Pair: Husband!CeeDee Lamb x Wife!BlackReader

Des: I saw a girl ask a group of guys this question in one of those rating speed-dating videos.

TW: 18+ | language, situationships, mentions of unprotected sex and protected sex, married humor, they also have kids.

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A/N: product of actual brain rot also manz looked FIONE next to my other manz lol, enjoy

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cellular sentiment | ceedee lamb ꨄ iv

‘& shii took everything not to give yo lil ass exactly what you wanted. now call me and lemme see hear it forreal’

you stared at the message stomach in knots. part of you wanted to be excited knowing that it was something in him that yearned for you just as you did him, but the nervousness overpowered that feeling entirely.

you throw your phone on the bed in frustration.

he wants me- or at least it sounds like he does. what if its just a joke. no he’s grown and this isnt high school anymore guys dont just flirt with you as a dare anymore. but guys like him, guys that can have anybody they want, usually tend not to go for somebody whose status isnt similar to their own.

falling back onto the pillows your towel falls off of you leaving your bare body exposed to the air. nipples going frigid and you glance down at yourself- something you often try to avoid. you grab at the pudge of your stomach and sigh.

these moments tended to happen where youd find yourself being overly cautious about your body. usually itd be when you were shopping for clothes seeing as to how you didnt find yourself in a lot of situations that pertained men. you didnt seek out relationships, you never had, and whether it was due to your intense schedule or your subconscious fear of rejection you didnt take much time pondering on it. this for some reason really bothered you.

your phone began to vibrate throwing your train of thought out of the window. you stare at it as it rings body stiff and unmoving.

i cant do this right now.

declining the phone you turn on do not disturb.

you know ignoring the situation wont make it go away entirely but hopefully this will deter it for now.

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it had been 5 days since you had last talked to cedarian and you would be lying if you said this little escapade didnt hurt. a sea of emotion still clouded your better judgement but you knew you couldnt keep it up much longer.

the calls & messages from him did not cease after that night. he felt bad that much you could tell and it made you feel ten times worse.

im sorry i shouldnt have said that

can u please answer

i shouldnt have said that

fuck please answer i js wanna talk

answer me please

im sorry goodnight

hey js got out of practice i hope you have a good day at work im sorry again for ts

please answer me

hello

goodnight im so sorry

every single message from monday on was akin to one another. you wanted to respond but you felt bad for all the time you didnt so you continued till ignore him or that was until now.

you sat in your car outside of your house as the phone rang on carplay. you groaned and hit the wheel in frustration- not at cee but at your childish antics. you sighed and clicked the green button on the screen heart thumping as you did.

the other end of the line was silent at first then came the rasp of the voice you missed so much.

“hey.” a word so simple yet it felt so loaded with emotion.

“hi.” you say in response, internally kicking yourself.

“i-i um i dont know where to begin- im sorry for what i said. it was inappropriate- really inappropriate for our friendship and i-i dont know why i even sent that. fuck im sorry these few days have been hell without talking to you.” he says voice laced with emotions- sadness and regret being the most prominent.

it tugs at your heart strings and you feel worse than you did before seeing how you made him feel. “cee, you dont have to apologize. none of this is your fault. i freaked out when i read the message and started over analyzing shit because i couldnt process my own feelings towards the situation. fuck, im sorry none of this is your fault thought.”

the other side of the line is quiet and if not for the screen still displaying his contact you would have thought he hung up.

“over analyzing what?” he quizzes and you could all but picture him somewhere eyes wondering as he chews on his bottom lip.

“the fact that you could feel even remotely attracted to me. you are you and well im just me. i-i dont know cedarian i just kept thinking someone like him- someone who has the world at their disposal could even feel something as meaningful as desire or anything towards someone like me. it just made me relive all the times i was asked out as a dare or some stupid joke. i really do like you cedarian, you are one of the only people i still have with me and i-it all felt too good too be true to think that you actually liked me too.” you say the last part quietly.

the line is quiet again and you suddenly feel stupid. “see, i knew it was too good to be real.“ you say voice shaky as tears spill from your eyes.

“what, no, no. stop crying please god stop crying i feel the same way about you. no cruel jokes or anything. you dont see yourself like i do- you are beyond beautiful.” he says words beginning to soothe the ache of your heart.

“ you dont understand how your voice is my favorite thing to hear after a game- win or loss. you dont see how when im on long flights home i go through the album of screenshots i have of just of you. you dont even know how good it felt to finally hold you in my arms after wanting to do that for so fucking long. when i say it took every ounce of self restraint i had to just hold you and nothing more when i heard you call out for me i meant that. i dont ever want you to have to want for anything as long as there is breathe in me because you deserve everything.”

hearing this your heart skips a beat. you feel an immense sense of relief at the words and a new found yearning for him, something just short of primal.

“cee,” you say voice barely above a whisper.

“just say the words baby.”

“i need you.”

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Started: 15 April 2024

Last Updated: 13 February 2025

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things are changing ~ 🌸

princess ti ~ ❤️‍🩹🌸☀️

picture day ~ 🌸

busy for who? ~💛📱❤️‍🔥

there goes my baby ~📱❤️‍🔥🌸

cheater ~ 📱🌸❤️‍🩹

upcoming: looking for revenge feelings

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wyd? ~ 📱🌸

dream girl ~ 🌸❤️‍🩹

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CeeDee Lamb

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ex for a reason ~ 📱🌸💔

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new hair, who dis ~ 📱🌸

what i want | part 2 ~ ⭐️🌸

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Justin Jefferson

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James "Bucky" Barnes

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Welcome fellow readers to my blog! I'm Babe and I love writing, always have. I specialize in black!readers, but will always be open to writing for more POC. I do this for pleasure, but I love incorporating others' ideas and bringing someone's vision to life. My requests are always open but I don't follow an uploading schedule. I do this so I don't follow out of love with writing, but also because I'm a Junior in college.

Anyway, happy reading!

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Hey Girly

Pair: CeeDee Lamb x Black!FemReader

Des: Everything is set for you and your boyfriend’s trip to the islands until you get a fatal text.

TW: ‘hey girly’ text, language, hair insecurity, CeeDee is a green flag.

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~ requested by one of my anons ~

[bengals-barnesbabe]

ayyee!! I’m so happy I found your blog as it has fics for black readers! Idk if you take requests but as a ceedee girly I need something smutty 👀😭 loved your two other ones btw and as a bengals fan & ceedee enthusiast, keep up the great work!

Heyyyyy girly🥰

Welcome to my little corner of the world, thank you so much for the kind wishes. 🩷

I’m currently working on a CeeDee series/mini series based on ‘Failed Sneaky Link’ so it will include some fluff, angst and some of that smut you’re asking for.

If you’d like to request something specific, you’re so welcome to. I loved to hear would you’d like for me to include in the series or in stand alone fic🩷

- tysm love babe

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can you pls do more CeeDee Lamb?!🫶🏼🫶🏼

It’s coming I promiseeeee😇

[bengals-barnesbabe]

Write text images for CeeDee Lamb!!!!!

What should the next one be????

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cellular sentiment | ceedee lamb ꨄ iii

sowwy for the late update long chapter to make it up to yall🫶🏽

“right there mama, you like that?” he whispers in your ear voice like velvet.

“yes daddy, please.” you beg, words coming out choppy. a groan escapes his lips as he thrust into you and you begin to claw at the canvas on his back as you feel you finish nearing.

“ah yes, right there.” you encourage him wrapping your legs around his slender hips in hopes of keeping his body connected to yours. the groan that escapes his lips is music to your ears and your toes curl in ecstasy and you cry out in pleasure- a cry that sounds weird. really weird.

“wait, what the fuck.” you say eyes peaking open and spotting the alarm that is blaring right beside your ear.

you press the stop button in frustration and let your eyes flutter close in hopes to finish that dream. it felt so raw, so real. almost as real as the body pressed up against yours and the stiff arm that you were laying on.

your eyes shoot open as you realize just how real it was. how the man of your dreams quite literally showed up unannounced and was spooning you in your bed. you cant help but think of how easy it would be to make that dream into a reality.

you try to shake the thought from your head but you mind wonders back to the dream. you close your eyes and squeeze your thighs together in hopes to calm the constant throb between your legs.

you hold back a moan as you imagine him sliding the gown up and pulling your thighs apart to bury himself deep in you with no resistance your slickness acting in favor of his actions. you can all but feel his warm breath as he’d whisper soft praises to you soft kisses planting themselves on your neck.

the thought felt too real as you arched back into him and immediately felt his body tense up.

his grip tightened around your waist and his voice came to you as a surprise, “well goodmorning to you too.”

you bit back a moan and barely managed to find your voice, “sorry, i didnt mean to wake you. i was trying to get up to go shower.” the lie rolls off of your tongue with minimal effort and he seemingly believes it as his grip loosens and you are able to get free.

you rush in the bathroom quickly shutting the door behind you. you sigh as you turn the light on and finally catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror.

“lock the fuck in” you whisper to yourself turning the water on. you strip down contemplating a moment before grabbing the purple toy underneath your sink.

you place its suction cup on the wall before getting underneath the water. you sigh as you slide back onto it imagining the man in your bed is the one behind you. you slowly began to rock back on the toy hands bracing the wall and the side of the tub for support.

you imagine his big hands gripping your waist and the sound of lewd noises filling the steamed space. you quicken your pace to one you deem similar to what his own would be like and it takes no time for you to send yourself cascading over the edge.

you take deep breaths and regain your composure before you begin to cleanse your body.

the familiar sense of shame washed over you but it wasnt quite what it usually was. an unusual sen unfulfilment was mixed in as well. you needed more.

stop thinking like that he is a friend. a friend that came almost 2 hours to see you after a game, but still just a friend nonetheless.

thoughts swirled in your mind and complex emotions begin to swirl around your mind. you turned the shower off and stepped out grabbing a towel.

it wasnt like you hadnt thought about him in this light before- you did that quite often actually. maybe it was the fact that he wad there in the flesh that made the idea harder to shake.

of course. he’ll leave and the feelings wont be long to follow.

you smiled at the realization but there was still a feeling of uncertainty playing in the pit of your stomach. you chose to ignore it and get prepared for your day.

you did your usual morning rountine of brushing your teeth, slathering vaseline on your face and doing your hair which merely consisted of doing your edges and deciding if you wanted to wear a middle or side part today.

you replaced your towel with your robe and walked out of the bathroom.

“well dont you look refreshed.” he said smirk plastered across his face making your stomach drop.

did he hear me? fuck, no way he heard me.

“cant go teach the adults of tomorrow and not be.” you said voice almost breaking and showing your nervousness.

he said nothing just stared at you & you immediately got hot. “what?” you quiz turning to your closet as you begin searching for an outfit.

“oh nothing,” he mutters and you know he’s still smirking. “just found your dirty little secret.”

you whip around to look at him, ”what?!”you all but yell and he laughs pulling his jersey from under your pillows. the signed jersey he had sent you randomly that smelled exactly like him when you received it.

a sigh of relief escaped your lips, “oh, that wasnt no secret.” you laugh and turn back around pulling out a green sweater and and khaki jeans.

“i thought you said it wasnt for you.” he laughed.

“hmm i dont recall. wrong bitch.” you retorted and he suddenly wasnt laughing anymore causing you to laugh harder.

“man dont say that shit, aint no other girl.”he said tone suddenly serious. you roll your eyes and grab a pair of underwear out of your dresser sliding them on under the robe.

“right, well can you close your eyes or put a pillow over your head i need to change. you know some of us real people have to make a barely livable wage.” you sass and he is now rolling his eyes.

“ill do you one better.” he snaps and gets up going into the bathroom. you hurriedly remove the robe and throw on a bralette followed by the shirt and finally the pants.

as you carefully tuck the shirt in you hear the toilet flush followed by the sink turning on.

“you can come out, im decent.” you call to him pulling on a pair of socks.

he comes out smile beaming and you cant help but mock him, “well dont you look refreshed.”

he just shrugs at your words and begins making your bed. “thank you.” you smile sliding on your signature birkenstock clogs.

“of course, of course.”

“you want something to eat? i dont have long but i can whip you something up really quick.”you call back to him.

“no thanks its fine ill just eat at the facility.” he calls back and you roll your eyes. you check your watch, 5:47am, you have time and decide to make him a breakfast sandwich.

you turn the stove on high and throw a pan on it. you crack two eggs one for each of you seasoning them with red pepper flakes and then grab two slices of bacon throwing it on the same pan as well. as they are frying you throw two bagles in the toaster and wait. you grab your tote off the counter and check to be sure you have your ipad and such.

“ didnt i say i would get something at the facility.” the raspy voice caught you by surprise.

“dont really give a fuck what was said, food almost ready.” you still checking your bag. a tight hand grasp your forearm and you tense up making eye contact with the tattooed man.

he spoke no words his look said everything he needed. you snatched your arm away trying to ignore the tingling coming back between your legs.

“my bad shawty.” you try to play it cool,” just trynna do some nice for you, dont get all stern and shit.”

“yeah right” he rolls his eyes and sit down at the island.

“practice at 8 right?” you question flipping the bacon and pulling the bagel from the toaster.

“yep but gotta be on the field and stretched by 7:45”

“damn, you wasnt gone have no time to eat.” you say assembling the sandwich, “ill wrap it up so you can take it to go.”

“you really didnt have to do that, i know you never eat breakfast you gone be sick by second period.” he says and you can tell he is sincerely worried about you making you warm inside.

“im taking it for lunch, but i appreciate the concern.” you say wrapping the sandwich in parchment paper and tucking it into your bag.

“here.” you hand his to him, “now lets go, dont need mccarthy on yo ass.”

he just laughs as you both head out the door you jiggling the nob making sure it was locked.

“well i guess this is the part where we say goodbye.” you say standing in front of your car pushing a braid behind your ear, mimicking how the do on tv and he just smiles.

“shut up.” he laughs and wraps his arms around you pulling you in for a hug and boy does it feel nice. you let your body relax, and rest your head on his chest basking in the moment for as long as you can.

it is you who pulls away, “well alright ill see ya.” you smile looking up at him and he returns it.

“that you will.” he replied going to your door and opening it.

“well arent you a gentleman.”you say getting in and turning it on.

“that i am.” he says and you laugh closing it letting down the window.

“be safe.” he says as he bends down in the window.

“always, you the one need to be safe.” you reply. he gives you one final smile before turning and walking to his car.

you watch him through your rear view mirror as he gets in and turns it on. it doesnt take long before he back out of your driveway but he waits on you to follow. he drives behind you and as your light goes on to turn left you see his signal to turn right. you turn and honk a final goodbye and he replies with two of his own. you cant help the blush that comes to your face.

“what a great start to my day.”

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the school day flew by surpisingly fast as today was busy due to it being picture day which you had honestly forgot about. you had only checked your phone at lunch to see you had a message from cee saying that he had made it and to have a great day. you loved the message and told him to do the same.

by the time 5 oclock rolled around and you walked into your home you were utterly exhausted. you threw your bag on your bed and immediately stripped free of your clothes. as you walked in the bathroom and went to turn on the water your eyes widened in horror. the dildo was still stuck to the wall of your shower.

“nononono NO.” you yelled hurrying to remove it.

he seen it- HE FUCKING SEEN IT. theres no way he didnt see it.

you thought back to this morning to when he cane out of the bathroom all giddy and smiley.

“FUCK.” you cry sitting on the toilet your face turning red in embarrassment. you reached over turning on the water and hopped in not even giving the water an opportunity to heat up. you let the icy water attempt to wash the shame from you as you cleaned yourself.

he hadn’t said anything before he left so thats a good thing right, maybe there is some slim chance he didnt see it.

you pushed the thought to the back of your mind and washed yourself hopping out and grabbing a towel.

you immediately go to your room and sit on your bed picking up your phone and seeing two text from him from 10 minutes ago.

‘ see you js made it home call me when you get out the shower’

‘btw im way bigger than yo lil friend if its me its prepping you for’

your stomach does cartwheels as you read the messages and you stare at your phone in disbelief.

without second thought you respond

‘ and what if its not you.’

he immediately reads it.

‘oh it is, you couldnt stop begging for me in yo sleep.’

‘& shii took everything not to give yo lil ass exactly what you wanted. now call me and lemme see hear it forreal’

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cellular sentiment | ceedee lamb ꨄ ii

you sigh and unlock the door opening it only enough to peek out and low and behold its cedarian with a big goofy smile on his face and a bouquet of flowers in his hand.

your face is blank as you stand there processing the man in front of you.

“well i guess you know why i turned off my location.” he laughs nervously breaking the silence.

moments pass, your heart is beating a mile a minute and your brain cant form a proper sentence. you see his smile begin to fade and it suddenly brings all the words back into your being.

“yeah um its cool, im sorry um c-come in.” you stammer stepping out of the doorway so he can enter.

he cautiously steps inside the door closing it behind him once inside.

“i got these for you.” he says shyly reaching out to hand you a bouquet of pink lilies and you cant help but smile.

“thank you so much, howd you know lilies were my favorite?” you say happily accepting them.

“ you said you lilies were your favorite flowers because your mom always grew them.”

“oh my, no way you actually remember that God im about to cry.” grabbing an old vase you have sitting on your island. “please sit down, make yourself at home.”

you go into the kitchen and fill the vase with water, carefully unwrapping the flowers and a note falls out.

“when’d you get a coffee table?” you hear him call from the living room.

“uh, last week it was on market place for twenty bucks.” you call back opening the note.

‘ may these bring you the same joy that your friendship brings me - cee ‘

you smile and place the note in your pocket of your gown for later.

“damn only twenty dollars- i swear you always find the best stuff on there.” he says and youre brought back into reality.

“yeah, dumb luck i guess.” you said going to the stove and removing the steaks that were searing and placing them on a cutting board to rest. you open the oven and check the potatoes making sure they were still cooking as you wanted them to before closing it and heading into the living room.

he is sitting on the small velvet burnt orange love seat you have and you sit in the recliner diagonal to him. you cant help but stare. it feels like some sort of weird dream- him being there in the flesh.

this time it was you who broke the silence, “this is crazy.”

“im sorry, i knew i shouldn’t have just came here out of nowhere without warning. i just really wanted to see see you. in person you know. like with everything going on with the team and all. i-i dont know. i just thought this would be a good little escape, talking to you always feels like one i figured being with you here would actually be just that. i dont know i-im sorry, i can leave.” he rambles standing up.

“no, please stay.” you say getting up and grabbing his arm. he’s warm to the touch and you cant help let your hand linger there. “i didn’t mean it like that i just meant its crazy that im actually like meeting you finally. like it doesnt seem real- you dont seem real.”

his eyes bore down into your own and he suddenly places a large hand atop of yours, “it feel real though, right?” he quizzes and you nod.

“thats all that matters then.”he smiles.

and just as quickly as your nerves had came they vanished in an instant. he was right- it was real.

“yeah, youre right.” you say gently pulling your hand from under his and sitting back down and he follows in suit.

the silence is no longer awkward its akin to that of how you would sit on facetime when he was watching film and you were reading before bed.

“so did yall actually lose?” you question.

“what do you think?” he says flatly and you laugh.

“damn, sucks to suck.” you say getting up and going into the kitchen grabbing an oven mitt.

“wow, thanks for the sympathy.” he says sarcastically. you shrug and pull out the potatoes smiling at how crisp they were.

“perfection.” you mumble to yourself.

“what?” he says appearing behind you causing you to jump.

“nothing God dont sneak up on me like that, fuck.” you exclaim sitting the pan down and removing your mitt.

he ignores you, “hmm, looks burnt.”

your roll your eyes, “aint burnt and it aint for you, you sassy fuck.”

he laughs and sits at one of the stools by the island, “im just playing, looks good.”

you smile at the compliment and pull out your two nicest plates- thrifted of course and begin plating the meals.

“damn no paper plates tonight, i feel special.” he laughs.

“only the best for you lord lamb.” you say placing his plate in front of him.

he laughs and pops a potato into his mouth and you watch for any signs of disapproval, satisfied when you see none and take takes another.

as you begin eating your steak you hear him moan and your eyes shoot over to him.

“this good as fuck.” he says mouth still full and you giggle and nod chewing your own food. the rest of the dinner is silent aside from his occasional moans of approval.

“where you going?” you ask as he gets up grabbing your plate.

“to do the dishes.” he says as if you should have known that.

“thats sweet but no. i can do them just sit them in there.” you motion at the sink and to your dismay he continues on against your wishes.

you sit there and watch as he does it finally taking a moment to take him in. tall, lean and extremely handsome. his locs are pulled up in a sloppy bun and he donned a grey cowboys sweatshirt but his sleeves were rolled up. you admired the tattoos that dances up his wrist and disappeared into his clothes.

“i look good or sum?” he smirks and you do your best to keep a straight face but internally your screaming. “you look alright.”

“damn just alright?” he laughs and for your sake you just change the subject.

“so you wanna spend the night?”

he abruptly stops and glances at you and it feels like you may have said the wrong thing.

“im sorry, not like that or nothing like you can take my bed. you know its just late and you dont need to be driving on 20 right now.” you ramble trying to explain yourself.

“nah, yeah i get it i just aint expect you to offer. yeah ill spend the night!” he says turning off the water. “you can have your bed too, i know you got work in the morning.”

“boy you got practice tomorrow and you just literally played a game tonight i think ill be fine on the recliner.” you protest getting up from the stool and going over to the recliner.

“dont piss me off we been doing good, just get in the bed.” he say following right in suit behind you.

“cedarian you aint nobody damn daddy.” you huff sitting down in the chair.

he rolls his eyes before lifting you up and trudging to your bedroom.

“what the fuck cedarian put me down! im not playing put me down! ” you cry as he finally throws you onto your bed.

“hush, now go to sleep.” he says heading back towards the door.

“wait, come lay down at least. you can at least lay here till i go to sleep.” you say just wanting his presence near. he doesnt protest he just comes and plops down on the side opposite of you.

“thank you.” you mumble switching your lamp off and turning back to him.

you both lay in silence mere inches separating you and you cant help but yearn to close the gap and fall asleep in his arms. his smell is enticing and inviting. he is everything you thought he would be and more.

“goodnight cee.” you mumble shaking yourself of your thoughts.

“goodnight.” he says throwing an arm over you and pulling you into his chest.

you could only basked in the bliss of his body on yours momentarily before your subconscious fell into your state of rest.

some more lil fluff for yall💋 worry not smut will ensue soon!

[aradassbadass]

cellular sentiment | ceedee lamb ꨄ v

"i need you."

be there soon baby get ready'

your heart raced as you realized what was happening. you had been sitting in your car for five minutes since you had got off the phone and watched as cedarians location began to move rapidly in your direction. the response was one you could only hope would happen so why did you feel so anxious- so nervous.

you finally took heed to his message and got out of your car rushing inside as the rain pattered against your jacket. you hurriedly unlock the door sighing as you are inside and safe from the elements. you feel a deep sense of comfort in being home but that does nothing to keep the nervousness cedarians arrival at bay.

kicking off your shoes you beeline to your bathroom turning on the shower and tossing your clothes aside. a moan escapes your lips as you step in and the warm water floods your body. it feels good as it rushes down your bosom and onto your stomach. It was always a sensation that was welcomed after a long day and in your case an even longer week. you let the water wash away all of the worries that it can as you begin to cleanse yourself. you decide that the occasion warrants an everything shower. you double cleanse, exfoliate layering vanilla scents on top of one another. you silently thank yourself for getting your waxes this week as you only have to shave your legs.

by the time you finish you had honestly forgotten about the fact that you were doing this for a visit from cee so as you sat on the bed and say that his location said he was sixteen minutes away you got the rush all over again yet this time it went directly to your center. you rub your thighs together and proceed to lotion yourself down locking in the moisture with body oil.

you sit on the bed taking a moment to take deep breaths. you try not to let your mind wonder to much, but the effort is in vain.

what if put all my weight on him and hurt him. oh my God what if he see's me naked and doesn't get hard.

you do your best to push the negativity out remembering his words for earlier and the constant reassurance he had given you.

he feels the same as I do- or at least that's what he says. he probably lying, he just wants to let me down in person.

the excitement of the occasion begins to fade as quickly as it came and dread filled the though of his arrival. you took of the robe you had and layed back on the bed crawling underneath the covers pulling them above your head.

you felt tears begin to stream down your cheeks and you squeezed your eyes shut. you just wanted to go to sleep.

i should have never answered that call, im just continuing to set myself up to be hurt.

you sighed as you got up throwing the covers from your body and slipped back into your robe marching to the front door to lock it feeling bad that he would come all this way for well nothing but you couldnt face him.

as you go to lock the door you feel it begin to push open and you panic putting all your weight on it and forcing it closed.

"what the fuck- baby its me let me in." you hear him call from the other side of the door.

"no-im sorry i shouldnt have told you to come." you say voice faltering off tears still streaming down your face.

"man what? just let me in we can talk in there its raining hard as fuck." he said annoyance evident in his voice.

"cedarian i cant d-" he pushes on the door and sends you tumbling back. you lock eyes with him and the tears begin to fall harder.

"baby whats wrong?" he says rushing towards you. his voice is soft as he wraps his arms around you.

you sob at the touch- the last time you had felt another human was sunday when he was here and it just made you realize how starved you were for physicality.

"talk to me please." he says burying his head in your hair.

"i cant do this cee." you choke.

"thats fine we dont have to do anything." he coos rocking back and forth.

"no cee i cant so this. me and you."

you feel his body stiffen and you quickly add, "its me cee it not you. it just feels too good to be true and i cant wrap my head around the fact that you really want me." you say head still in his chest.

"well let me show you that i really do." with one fluid motion he scoops you up and goes to your bedroom, gently placing you on the bed and he crawls on top of you.

anticipation swells in you as removes his shirt. tears are still flowing as he leans down into you the moment feeling like an eternity as he finally places his lips against yours.

this kiss is soft, unsure even you can tell he's trying to be careful and your appreciative but you still crave more. you wrap your arms around his neck and pull him closer into you hoping that he takes the hint. unfortunately he does not and he pulls away momentarily eyes searching yours for any sign of hesitation but there is none.

this time he's more forceful making the moment all the more passionate. his hips begin to teasingly rut against your center and the all the uncertainty you had began to wear away.

a moan escapes you lips and flows between his as his skilled fingers go down and slip between your already slick fold massaging your now throbbing clit. you arch into his touch squeezing your eyes shut as he continues to massage your center and places kisses on your temple.

you whine as you bite back a moan when he finally slips a finger past your entrance.

"dont hold back mama let me hear you." he says voice heavy in your ear.

a soft moan escapes when he begins to thrust his fingers deeper. your toes curl at the sensation and you cant help but yearn for more. you slowly rock your hips to match the rhythm he was creating allowing ecstasy to swell within you.

"can we take this off?" he finally whispers tugging at your robe with his free hand, his lips peppering kisses along your neck.

you tense up and he senses it, "we dont have to mama, you can keep it on if it makes you comfortable."

"no, no we can take it off." you say voice barely above a whisper. he looks into your eyes for any hesitation but when he realizes there is none he makes quick work of maneuvering you out of the garment.

his motion pauses as he gazes down at your body eyes drinking you in and his lip goes between his teeth.

"fuck your perfect." he mumbles fingers sliding out of your sex and up your stomach to grip your breast. his other hand slips beneath the waistband of his sweat pants and you are able to see him stroking himself through the fabric. you probably would have felt extremely self conscious had not been for his reaction.

he bends down lips attaching themselves to your nipples as he twirls his tongue around the hardened flesh. a gentle nibble earns a sharp cry from you and you tangle your hands into his locs keeping his position locked. his large hand continues to play with the other one being sure that they were equally stimulated. he continues to nip, lick and suck on you until you had become a moaning needy mess rutting your hips agains the fabric of his sweats for any hope of a release.

he swiftly flips positions so you are now on his lap. his hands move you grab your ass earning yet another moan from you. you take the initiative to be the one to urge the kiss this time eagerly taking his bottom lip between your own.

his groans as you grind down on his length do nothing to help the aching at your center and you begin to whine, "can you take it out please- i need to feel you on me."

he obliges shuffling his pants off as you sit back on the bed. a blush washes over your face at the sheer size of him.

he was not playing when he said that toy wasnt prepping you for him.

he grins at your reaction, "come on, i know you wanna feel it in you."

you crawl back on top of him eyes fluttering shut as he grinds it up against your clit, your juices coating it.

his lips find yours once more and he continues sliding himself between your folds the feeling sending shivers down your spine.

you shift against him and your eyes shoot open as his tip inside of you.

"fuck." he groans wrapping his arms around your waist pulling you closer. "you ready?"

you cant even form words so you moan in approval. he slowly thrusts up into you and you peer down to see that he has his eyes squeezed shut. this in addition to the pleasure of him filling you makes everything that much better.

he halts as he bottoms out and you can feel his pubes as you grind down on him.

"fuck baby hollon, pussy too tight" he huffs into your chest, voice raspier than usual.

you whine at the request itching to be fucked silly. all insecurities were long gone and you finally realized that everything you wanted was here and you were not willing to let that slip away.

before he could give you the ok you began to bounce, his length stimulating all the right  nerves as you did so.

"fuck cee, i love this shit." you cry tilting your head back. his hand comes up and caresses your back and pulls you to him until your chest is flush against his. he begins to thrust upwards allowing a natural rhythm to take over as the two of you revel in the passion.

"see baby, this is how you deserve to be treated. your body deserves to be loved. you deserve only the best." he groans as your walls flutter at his words of reassurance.

"you need a man who knows how please you. how to make you moan, " he grunts slamming into you earning a loud moan in response.

" and cry" he growls taking your nipple into his mouth and sucking on it hard. you cry out as you feel yourself begin to feel your climax nearing.

"and most important you need a man who can make you cum.

he flips you over once again so you are now in missionary and he continues his assault on your g-spot. you claw at the art work on his back feelings of pleasure like you had never felt before washed over you. head tipped back, toes curling, eyes fluttering back into your skull you feel your body to go limp as you squirt on his length.

"ouu thats it baby squirt on this dick, let it all out mama just like that fuck." he talks you through your orgasm. "feels good dont it, a real man taking care of you- making love to you."

your mouth is agape but no words can form as he continues to brutalize your overstimulated pussy and you can tell he's chasing his own release. thrust sporadic, voice low and words lewd.

"i been waiting for this- fuck i needed this baby i needed you i fucking needed you so bad. this tight ass pussy, yo juicy tiddies, those big pretty eyes looking up at me fuck im finna nut all in you." he groans slamming into you once more hips bared against yours as he spills his seed inside you, dick jumping as it did so.

he falls on top of you all his body weight adding a feeling of comfort. your eyes are still shut and you try to process what exactly just happened but the feeling of bliss wont let that happen, so there you lay giddy as can be.

you glance down at cee and he is looking up at a wide grin plastered across his face.

"youre beautiful." he mumbles reaching up and planting a kiss on your lips.

you blush at the compliment and turn away, "thank you"

he laughs hand gripping your cheeks and forces you to look at him, "dont be shy now, i done seen it all."

you roll your eyes and he pushes himself up and struts into the bathroom, you hear the shower come on. he struts back out with a towel and wipes you down being gentle not to overstimulate your sex as he cleanses it. your eyes drift close as he does so- his touch so light its relaxing. you feel yourself being lifted and suddenly youre underneath the warm water.

"its ok baby you can sleep, ima take care of you." he mumbles placing a kiss atop your head and you smile.

so this is princess treatment.

ahhh an update finally 😁😁