#cause there’s a lot to unpack wtf!??!??!

[ramiliadoesstuff]

So today was my graduation ceremony, I came back tired.

I got lost trying to find the gathering area, and I tripped down and fell. Also cried a little because of my nerves.

I sat down, got my chair stolen, found another chair to sit on, and I sat from 6:30pm to 9:16pm on my ass while the dean talked on and on.

My mom and aunt came and got me flowers, I cried a little because they managed to make it on time (they actually came early, I’m surprised that my mother who has a tendency to be late to important family event actually came super early)

And now I found out the Black clover spoilers had dropped.

WHERE IS CHAPTER 370??? I CAN ONLY FIND MEREO’S CHAPTER

ALSO WHAT THE FUCK??? YOURE TELLING ME I GOT NOELLE AND LAVI CRUMBS IN THE SPAN OF TWO DAYS????

ALSO BUNNY SUIT NOELLE AND MIMOSA???

CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY!!

[camping-with-monsters]

I started playing Legends Arceus for the first last night and the game is pretty rad but can I be honest without being flamed.

Those are actually some of the worst controls in any video game I’ve ever played period. Frankly I don’t play a lot of diverse games, but the controls just make me mad. There’s a major use for every button. You think my ass is gonna remember this shit. Man I was throwing poke balls trying to switch Pokémon. They have the Y button set as the jump button. I think that alone is a major crime.

Also that Hisuian Braviary can’t turn for shit. Man

[fluffycalamari]

One Piece Relationship Headcannons Pt. 2!!

Part 1!

Contents: fluffy! A Lil suggestive for Kid

Characters in this part: Law, Kid,

Gender nuetral reader in mind!!

Law

You guys need to understand Law is my no.1 fav in One Piece; I've thought long and hard about him.

Very calm outside of his bed quarters

Like come on he's literally the definition of "affection behind closed doors"

It's the little things that makes him flustered!

Holding hands in public?! Sure he has that deadpanned face on; but MENTALLY! MY BRUVA IS FREAKING OUT.

Behind closed doors he's very vulnerable; he's got a lot of trauma to unpack.

Likes to be the little spoons idc what any of yall say!! It gives him comfort.

He really appreciates when you give him his space.

He also adores it when you're stubborn about him taking a break; it helps him to not overwork himself.

The type of boyfriend you can never catch sleeping unless you wake up 5 years before him.

Especially cause I know for a fact that Law is the type to work into the early mornings.

Your stir in your sleep, absent-mindedly searching for your lover. Throwing your arms across the bed, your eyes shoot open when you realize aside from you, it's empty. You force your heavy lids open and face a nearby window. It's dark, now that your senses are flooding in you hear scribbling. Through static vision you see Law hunched on his desk, going over and revising what you're assuming to be the agenda for the next island you guys were heading. "..Law, why the hell are you still awake?" Your voice is groggy; pulling yourself off the bed you approach him. "[Name]-ya, listen.." he yawns, inked hands covering his mouth to be polite. "I need to finish this before we get to the island." Law's voice is just as groggy as yours. "My guy," You state, grabbing his arm. "We're going the fuck to sleep, how are we gonna execute a plan if you're not in top shape?" Dragging him to the bed "i-" "I nothing Law, bed now," as you push him onto the bed; you join him, wrapping your arms around him. As you drifted back into your slumber you hear law mutter under his breath "I love you [name] ya". You don't even have the energy to say it back, so you hum the phrase in response.

Eustass Kidd

Where do I even start with this red headed slut.

I love kid, you love kid, we all love kid

He doesn't know how to express his feelings for you so it always comes out the best way he can...Aggressive.

You love that shit though cause why would you be with him otherwise!!!

Kid buys you flowers; he's lying right through his fucking teeth about how you were bitchin and moanin because you wanted these flowers so bad. While blushing his goofy ass blush.

(You just glanced at them while walking through the city with kid)

HE LEAVES LIPSTICK STAINS ON YOUR FACE IDC IDC IDC I DONT CAAAREEEEE!!!

Now this might be rinse and repeat but I don't care

He's nicer behind close doors, he can get vulnerable with you because he knows you won't utter a word to another soul.

Don't get me wrong he's still agressive/dominant; this is kid we're talking about. But he's still a human being so being able to express himself freely is nice.

This man is bold, gets jealous, and literally needs the world you two are together so other pirates won't try anything.

Will slap your ass whenever he pleases; you get him back too cause wtf not!

Like this man will full on make-out with you if someone tries to flirt with you.

You're in public with kid on a lil stroll, sanji is being sanji and he rushes towards you nose bleeding, calling you a bunch of pet names like "beautiful, darling, sweetheart!!" You look up at Kid as Sanji is literally on his hands and knees asking you to be his partner. "Sorry sanji, I'm not really interested in-" you're cut off by Kid, he grabs you by the collar of your shirt pulling you into a sloppy kiss. His tounge being shoved down your throat as you finally get into thw motions; throwing your arms around his neck, tounges intertwining while attempting to close the non existent gap between you both. Breaking away from the kiss, Kid smirks at sanji, "They're with me."

[polyamorousmood]

hey! I hope this isn't too non-traditional of a poly situation to be sending in, but this is the only place I think I'll be able to get good advice. As a pre-ask thing, to be clear, my best friend is the love of my life, I am aroace, we're very happily in love.

So, a while ago, we were dating, and it ended pretty quickly bc he came out as aroace. I asked him a lot whether or not that was the full reason he broke up with me and he insisted that it was and if it was going to be anyone it would have been me. I figured out that I was also aroace a couple months later. Recently (about a year after we first met and started dating) he got a boyfriend. I already set a firm boundary of no talking to me about his boyfriend bc it made me have a paranoid breakdown once and I don't want to do that to him, but even just the knowledge of him existing is pissing me off so much. I can't ask him to break up with him because I would never do thst to him and I love him more than anything even if this situation is hurting me like this, but I did recently ask him how the relationship was going with him being aroace, and he said that he isn't really aroace and he just wasn't ready for a relationship with me and thinking about that makes me want to cry. I don't want something romantic with him, I'm very much aroace and very sex and sensuality repulsed, I just hate that this random guy who I don't even know and never will (I don't want to bc I know I'd end up being a dick to him if I did meet him) is somehow more important to him than me, even if he insists thst isn't how it is. Since the situation isn't changing, I really need help with dealing with the jealousy. I've tried a ton of stuff and every single time I think about him I still want to kill him. I really don't know what to do, and my therapist isn't being particularly helpful (she isn't poly tho so she doesn't have experience with weird situations)

Hi. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this.

I'm curious how "he got a boyfriend" went down, and why you didn't bring up your concerns about his honestly to him when he was initially talking to you about it. Or if you did, why it still... doesn't seem resolved😬.

Not to put emotions in your mouth, but it sounds like a large proportion (though certainly not all) of your issue here stems from you feeling lied to about the breakup. This would damage anyone's trust and faith in the relationship, and I think having a formal talk about why he handled it the way he did and if that will continue in your refigured relationship will really help you. Maybe he didn't lie, maybe he was genuinely confused (for example, "if I can't make a relationship work with this person I feel a deep connection with, I must be aroace!" [one year later] "yo wtf I wanna fuck this other person?")! I think you should acknowledge -- with him, if possible -- that hurt. You feel like you want to cry? So cry. Giving the feeling full expression makes it easier to work through (and the only way out is through, darling).

Be prepared to explain why it hurts so much. The betrayal, your assumption that since he was aroace y'all were on the same page and he'd functionally be your life partner, or whatever the fuck.

Aside from the advice in this post (please read it in full📖, it is all applicable here), you have a LOT of legwork🦵 to do in unpacking and deconstructing your feelings. I think this worksheet outlines how to do that well (though, you know, tweak the wording in your head, because its aimed at a more traditional romance). If done right, it will be difficult and time consuming⌛. I recommend working through the worksheet slowly, in at least two separate sessions an hour or longer each. 'Cause shit takes time to sink in. In fact, you will have to remind yourself of the things you learn doing it for weeks to come, if not longer, so don't be afraid to revisit it! There is no shortcut, but I hope you and your best friend can be on the same page and you can have support while you navigate it.

Remember, the boyfriend didn't do anything wrong. He cares about this guy you care about. Try to see him as an extra support for him, rather than competition.

Good luck out there, space cowboy. There is hope 💛 <- its a yellow heart for friendship, get it?

[karniss-bg3]

I just want to add to the last ask, it's so hard to figure out Kar'niss actual alignment because he is given so little space for his own personality to show. He is being used for a cause and his mind was messed with to align with that cause. He was cast out by one horrible cult and before he could go through any phase of self discovery (cause, you know, a cult barely leaves space for that) he was snatched by another cult. It's pretty safe to say that there was no space in his life to ever figure out what HE wants.

Following the Absolute he pretty much has his sense of self entirely tied to that. And it's so tragic. There is no room for anything else and given that nobody bothers to interact with him on a normal level, it's truly all he has left.

I found it quite frustrating that upon meeting him we can't even talk to him in peace without being interrupted by someone else in almost every conversation choice.

He's not treated like a person by anyone really. They say horrible things either straight to him or so loudly that he'd definitely hear it. And those who don't simply are too afraid, like Kansif who can't even look him in the eyes.

And yet, if you talk to him in the few moments where you actually get to do so without being interrupted, there's not a single meanspirited thing coming from his side towards the player.

He's very very mentally ill and disturbed, but he's not a rabid animal that will attack unprovoked.

Every time he gets angry, there's a reason for it that could have been avoided. Like people not listening to what he told them and the 'compliments' you can give him as a Dark Urge aren't really compliments. You can't call someone beautiful and an abomination in the same sentence and expect them to be happy. And when you ask him if you can look at the lantern it's also so ... idk, it's icky. You do it in a way as if you already assume you can. It's like as if someone I just met wants to inspect my phone and assumes it's gonna be fine, I'd also be like wtf?? No?

If we had the option to interact more with him and overall be nicer and more considerate I'm sure some things would play out very differently.

And I think if given the chance he'd have one of the most interesting and emotionally intense romance routes in the game.

There is SO much to unpack. There is so much to work through, but also so much potential for an amazing outcome. Or something deeply tragic. Either way, I'm sure it would leave an impact and it could be great. But his story would need a lot of time to make it work, and it needs to be handled very delicately. He's not like a quick fling you can just write into the game, like for example the drow twins. I can barely imagine anything more cruel than giving him a bit of actual affection and a connection outside of the Absolute and then just leaving him behind and taking it away again.

So I personally think the most we can realistically hope for is a few interactions where we can at least NOT be rude or outright awful to him.

But maybe the devs will surprise us and figure out a way to let us bring him along. I'd honestly be so insanely happy. I really want something good for him. He is one of those characters who feels the least deserving of the fate and treatment he got and it's so heartbreaking.

I love this response, no notes to really add. This sums it up in a solid way. I'll always hope for better options in terms of Kar'niss, side character be damned. We love who we love, can't help that!

Thanks for the response!

[yarrowleef]

I thought I made a post about the Onestar's SE back in 2022 a couple months before it came out and I found it in my drafts, never posted for whatever reason

anyway, as a "pre-thoughts before reading (more of) it", how I felt was that I wasn't super excited about the idea of a Onestar book.

idk. warriors is funny for me in that even though I like messy morally gray characters in literally any other property i’m into, all of warriors (in)famous morally gray characters are just. annoying to me. in a not fun way.

Like with Clear Sky, narrative misogyny aside (bc I didn't really unpack All That until after finishing the arc) I found it completely impossible to enjoy any of his POV chapters, or...anything about him, really (I’m sure a lot of it has to do with an unwillingness to let him face lasting consequences for anything. I’ll never recover from the pure elation I felt at his mother roasting him and then the stark plummet into disappointment when five seconds later she back pedals into “it’s ok actually, what you REALLY need is to forgive yourself and move on uwu”)

the frustrating thing is, I wouldn't find this character horrible to read about in theory. I feel like nearly every action he took, how quickly he escalated things, how is ego manifests.....If I was just given a summary of Clear Sky and what he did, I could probly fill in the blanks for how he made (most of) those decisions, and I might think “that would be an interesting character to read about, especially as a POV"

and yet in practice it was Not Fun to read Ever

I think erin hunter is just... really bad at believably arguing for their characters

Sometimes it feels like someone got an outline saying “this character kicks a puppy” because that puppy needs to be kicked in order to motivate the plot. and instead of sitting down and thinking through what kind of mindset would lead to someone kicking this puppy, what kind of internal arguments are they making, how are they rationalizing it, instead they just. copy the instruction down in black and white with no expansion. Character thinks “I have to kick this puppy!”, someone else asks “why do you have to do that?? wtf is wrong with you?”, character responds with “they just don’t understand! I have to kick this puppy!” without really any delving into what made them come to this conclusion first, and every obstacle and bad consequence that comes up they just repeat some variation of that same line over and over “they just don't understand why I have to kick this puppy!!” like ok cool but do YOU even understand why you have to kick this puppy???? cause sometimes it doesn’t feel like your writers do, it feels like they are dispassionately following instructions.....y'know what i mean????

Anyway, that’s what it felt like reading Clear Sky’s POV chapters

and I suspect I'm going to feel similarly about Onestar once he enters his Bitchy Leader era. Not that he is anywhere near as bad as Clear Sky, he's not, but just that this particular feeling pops up any time the Erin's try to write from the perspective of someone acting aggressively for complicated reasons. I could envision how the things that happened to Onestar led him down the road he ended up on but I'm afraid seeing inside his head will only make the character way more brainless and shallow then he was as a sort-of background character that we had to piece together on our own

[irishmanwhore]

that was the most atrocious football i’ve ever watched in my life

- nothing was clicking

- red card not given to that bitch ass mallorca player who deliberately STOMPED on vini’s calf

- the front three were all on the fucking left side

- no one could defend

- no one could could complete a 1 inch pass

- no one wanted to fucking shoot the ball??!!? why are you passing it off to a player that isn’t open???

- idk wtf carva and rudiger were on

- why wasn’t anyone on the right side???? there was loads of free space

- why were they trying to dribble against 28277338 mallorca players

- still can’t defend corners for shit

- made substitutions at the 89th minute

- best player this match: NOBODY

this was a lot to fucking unpack here. what was the cause of this shit game? was it fatigue? was it nerves?? like i’m not understanding. dropping points for no damn reason. got my nerves UP

[clotpolesonly]

@morocorra BET YOU THOUGHT I FORGOT ABOUT THIS

well, i definitely did not, let's talk about Adam impersonating Gansey

so there's a lot to unpack here, obviously, and i am of two minds on the matter. well, ok, i'm of more than two minds. at least three or four minds. i'm conflicted, is what i'm saying here. there are pros and cons to this whole little sequence.

let's start out with the obvious: it was SO unnecessary. they literally didn't have to do this. it doesn't line up with anything in book canon and it didn't serve much of a practical purpose within the show canon that couldn't have been covered elsewhere.

if i recall correctly, in the books, the information about Whelk's father's embezzlement was given to the reader through the narration in Whelk's POV chapters. we don't get that kind of exposition handed to us on screen, we need to see and/or hear it more directly somehow, but it would've been fairly easy to either show it as part of the Noelk flashback sequence or to just have Noah or Whelk outright tell us/another character about it.

usually i'm all for showing and not telling, but sometimes it really is as simple as "my dad got arrested, the bank took all our money, i needed the glendower favor to get it back". instead of using up 20 minutes of screentime on having a main character sneak off, disguise himself as someone else, charm his way into city hall to illegally access police records that i don't think realistically would even be available at city hall in the first place, and then bring that same information back to his friends while refusing to provide them with any context on where or how he got it.

(honestly, he probably could've just fucking googled the Whelk name. was there no press coverage for this at all? come on, man)

so anyway, none of this needed to happen. like, i can see why they thought it might've been a more interesting way to convey that information, but really it just robbed us of a lot of their already very limited screentime. they crammed two whole books into 8 episodes and wasted our time with THIS??

on top of that, it's just........it's absolute UNHINGED behavior. i've seen some people say that it feels out of character for Adam and, yeah, honestly, i agree, at least to a degree.

it's not that book!Adam doesn't want to wear Gansey like a skinsuit. he absolutely does and he's really fucking weird about it. he gets to harvard and cosplays as Gansey so hard that even Ronan is like "dude wtf are you doing" but the thing is, book!Adam would never do it consciously and intentionally. that boy would rather chew his own arm off than recognize/acknowledge/admit how badly he wants to BE Richard Campbell Gansey III. he would literally rather die.

so for him to be on our screens, dying his hair dark and stealing Gansey's clothes and wallet and introducing himself as Dick Gansey to state employees is WILD and feels so so wrong. like, no offense to the writers, but Book!He Would Not Fucking Say That.

-sigh-

however. canon is canon, and he did, in fact, fucking say that on our screens. and i'm gonna be real here, it makes tv!Adam look even more like a complete fucking sociopath than book!Adam ever did adlkjfgh. like, what a batshit psychosexually charged immoral thing for him to do. especially because not only did he use Gansey's name while committing a crime, but he also used Gansey's influence, name-dropped his mother, and promised the county clerk a FAVOR from a US senatorial candidate if she broke the law for him. idk if that's ever gonna come back up again, if it's gonna be relevant and cause problems in later seasons, but even if it doesn't, dude, that's fucked up!!!! wtf lol

...........SO THERE'S ALL THAT

but then, on the other hand

i really enjoyed Adam being a conniving manipulative amoral little mastermind on my television screen, not gonna lie, adlkfjhg

and we know the real crowning glory of this whole ordeal!! hence the tags!!! we knew i was coming back around to this XD

when this show as first announced, i didn't have a lot of hope for the Adam/Declan parallels surviving to screen. many of them were purely textual, phrases and descriptions used for both of them that stand out starkly because of how they're written but wouldn't carry over as well to a visual medium (ie, they weren't born afraid but they learned). i was emotionally prepared to lose those and just make do.

AND THEN THE SHOW WENT OUT OF ITS WAY TO INVENT A WHOLE NEW PARALLEL THAT'S EVEN MORE UNHINGED THAN ANYTHING THE BOOKS COULD'VE GIVEN ME

i cannot believe that they made a big change to Declan's character and then also made a corresponding change to Adam's that matches Declan's deviation from canon, like did they do that one purpose?? is it a coincidence??? it can't be a coincidence, surely

okay i'll cop that it's not a perfect parallel. or, i'd say, it's both a parallel and a contrast.

we didn't get to see Declan going blond or making that decision, we don't know if it was a trauma-fueled impulse like him re-dying it dark was or if it was a choice made with a little more poise and composure, but either way it was something entirely intrinsically motivated. he did it for him, even though it caused him problems and he likely knew that it would, while Adam dying his hair dark (temporarily, it's only a level 1 dye, the kind that washes out pretty quickly, and we see that it's gone by the next episode and no one else is any the wiser about what he did) is externally motivated and for a practical purpose. it's part of a scheme rather than something that he feels emotionally driven to do as part of a coping process.

but even that says so much about them as people. Declan likes to claim that he's so rational and detached, but underneath the facade he wears, he's as impulsive and passionate as Ronan is. his emotions lead him far more often than he wants to admit even to himself. both instances of his hair fuckery are driven by emotional overwhelm, and both are permanent changes (for a given value). you can't unbleach hair that has been bleached, and level 3 dye takes weeks or months to fade. and he owns his choices in the aftermath because, as the books say, Lynches always want to be seen as deliberate, even if it's deliberately cruel or, in this case, deliberately with bad taste in aesthetic choices (lmao).

meanwhile, Adam truly is a much more rational thinker. even when he feels strong emotion, he examines it and picks it apart and makes a real effort toward not acting on it. regardless of his emotional state, on the whole, he is driven by thought and logic. he dyes his hair because his appearance is a tool to be utilized to achieve an end - in this case, accessing information that he wouldn't be able to if he presented as himself. Gansey has clout that he doesn't, and thus taking on Gansey's appearance and name allows him to leverage that clout for his own ends. and when that end is achieved, Adam takes off the disguise. he rinses the dye out of his hair. he is himself again.

through this whole metamorphosis, Adam never loses his sense of self. he is playing Gansey's role, yes, but it's a costume and he knows it is and he takes it off when he's done. but Declan doesn't have a solid sense of self. his identity is a fractured mess, and he has to go through another external process in an effort to regain what he'd stripped away from himself. he cannot unbleach his hair, he has to dye it dark again in an attempt to match his natural color. even when he's trying to be himself, he's still pretending.

if i were to read even more too much into this (😂) i would say this could also be representative of their stations in life and how they feel about themselves -- ie, Declan has the means to make whatever changes he wants, he can live any life he likes (in theory), but none of it means anything if he doesn't know who he is or how to be that person in an authentic way. and Adam feels like, as much as he can play at being better than his roots, in truth he will always be what he is and no amount of slapping paint on top is ever going to change him. from dust he came and to dust he will return. Declan cannot decide if he wants to look like his father or not, that association is fraught and complicated for him and the push-pull of it is tearing him apart, and Adam desperately aspires to distance himself from the father he resembles but believes, deep down, that there is no escaping their similarity.

it makes the monmouth gatekeeping scene spicy in its own weird way, at least for me. it's the only time these two are face to face on screen with nothing else going on around them, just the two of them going head to head. the natural blond and the fake. i have to wonder if that scene is where Adam got the idea for his own brunet adventure. after all, he learned how to flirt from observing and copying Declan, why shouldn't he get tips on pretending to be someone he's not from Declan too? he did it first and he does it best, after all.

[calliettes-posts]

And I with the second user cause what you mean pushing a door caused a mild concussion l, a broken collarbone, and now an internal bleeding like wtf? Next she's gonna get a disease or something. Also they need to wrap it up already with this hanne situation I feel is all the season has been focusing on hanne cousin, hanne feelings hanne accident.... we have a lot to unpack here

I mean, the season also focused heavily on Ada and Noah, and Bobbie, and her potential issues, so it's not just Hanne, and even then, Hanne is Anais' best friend, so of course we'll get to know her more too, and her issues directly relate to the plot with Bobbies issues, which, like I said, have also been heavily hinted at

And people have died from less, so Hannes conditions are easy to believe

I feel like your personal feelings towards Hanne are clouding your judgement tbh

[call-sign-shark]

Hello and welcome to my red talk.

Todays hot topic (for me that is) is that I felt very uncomfortable about auther being touched by the Russians and him taking his ring off as well as having to be made fun of by his brothers (also John WTF 🤬 i don’t care if that’s your brother you don’t make uncomfortable jokes at a man who was forced to ultimately made to have sex to forget the uncomfortable feeling of being victimized and laughed at idc if he’s the most attractive person I’ve ever met and how whenever he smiles he makes my legs tremble and a tear run down my thigh BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT!) anyways it just felt uncomfortable to me.

This was not what I wanted to talk about today speaking of which i was thinking about putting my head on heaven’s chest I mean I very much envy auther and the way he gets to put his head on her chest 😒 but I digress.

Oh another hot topic to think about for you shark when changretta had that discussion with Polly at the bar and at the end he says “what a shame your not dancing with anyone. Cause your dancing with me” holy moly shark let me tell you I felt my spine tingle when he said that pls just this once shark I can’t hide when you introduce heaven to changretta because that man is so handsome and man am I so glad I found this blog because you come up with soo many amazing ideas. I can’t wait for your next chapter and I can’t wait to feel utter happiness when you break heavens heart when she hears he is dead 😈

Pls make it soul crushing I’m talking about deep trauma induced pain that hits you in the gut and gives you a whiplash, a beautifully crafted knife made to twist and impossible to stop the bleeding type of pain that we’ve never seen before anyways thanks for coming to my red talk

Hi Jovin,

There's a lot to unpack here so we can talk about this point by point. My reply will be kind of short today 'cause I don't want to spoil anything for Heaven in Your Eyes' future chapters and twists.

• The Russian inspection and party

At first, the whole situation was fun, especially because of Arthur's reluctance to get naked and John's adorable chuckles. But as soon as Tatiana touches Arthur, it becomes uncomfortable and I think it was one of the aims of this scene. Also, the second goal was probably to show the dichotomy between Arthur's impulses and the moral codes he tries to follow now that he's married. Nevertheless, I've always thought that Arthur cheating on Linda was an unnecessary and pointless scene? Now, I don't think he was "forced" to have sex. In truth, I feel like he did it due to a combination of pressure (from both his brothers and the masculinity codes of that time) as well as a fear of being seen as weak/unmasculine/not gangster enough. Also, he numbed himself with a lot of vodka so it altered his judgment. But yeah, it was unnecessary and painful to watch. Moreover, John's nasty remarks were super mean.

• Changretta

That little scene between Polly and Luca lives rent-free in my mind. Especially with his little comment about making her dance. Now, I'm not going to expand on this topic 'cause Luca and Heaven will definitely meet in future chapters!

• Arthur's death

"I can’t wait to feel utter happiness when you break Heaven's heart when she hears he is dead" That was so cruel 😂 but I get it and I do already know what's going to happen. Pretty sure it will be painful to read, don't worry about it.

I Hope I answered properly to what you wanted to tell me. Thank you for your TED talks - they make me smile - and your endless support. It fuels my motivation and my dopamine level!

This is related to the ongoing Arthur Shelby x You series Heaven in Your Eyes. Basically, Heaven is you.

[tenrose]

My theory is that since Harrow conveniently forgetting about Gideon and can't access to her to protect her body, fight etc. , despite completing the lyctoral process in gtn, is that Gideon is obviously alive somehow. I mean so far it's not really gonna be a "omg she's alive" revelation when I get to the part that confirm that. Gtn made it very clear that Gideon is not an ordinary human and survived since childhood stuff she shouldn't have (including a literal genocide to give birth to Harrow wtf is this book) so obviously she is alive somehow. Also they conveniently didn't find her body, and every fiction enthusiast knows the rule: no body, no confirmed death (and I mean it's a necromancy book so even with a body I wouldn't be convinced lmao).

I think it has something to do with her soul... Which Harrow's parents couldn't sacrifice, Harrow can't access etc. But I can't begin to process how she's alive, where she is, and how exactly she is special. And especially I don't understand why Harrow would be falsifying her own memories, if she's doing this to herself which I believe because of the notes she left to herself. Like what is the purpose of all of this master plan? She already ascended and she got the promise from the Emperor to save the Ninth House. Let's just hope the day he learns she opened the not so well locked tomb he won't get too pissed because I can see several massive problems incoming lmfao. Also there's a lot to unpack here but right now it's not the main problem so I'll get to that later.

Also I'm starting to think the second person POV is Gideon. I'm not entirely sure, but sometimes some words or sentences just remind me of her. Especially when it comes to swords and fighting. The emphasis on the fact that Harrow knows nothing about it, but the narrator always has the right word and it seems a bit proud about it I guess? But also it severely lacks of snarky and smutty remarks so I'm not sure... But if she's supposedly somehow still connected to Harrow's body, which she should be after the lyctoral process... It would makes sense. But we're back to problem number one: if she's really into Harrow's head why can't Harrow reaches to her argghh???? It's hard to know cause we don't have other POVs but from the other Lyctors descriptions, it seems like Harrow really is alone in her brain and she doesn't have Gideon's eye colours, which seems to be the clear indicator of the lyctoral process being fully completed.

The whole problem imo really resolves around who the f is Gideon really or what is she? But how the fuck are we supposed to try and gather stuff about her to guess what the hell is happening when Harrow herself forgot about her? Like where do I start digging?

But anyway my main personal problem is that I want to see her alive, butch-y as ever, with a sword kicking ass, annoying and teasing Harrow 😭

[khorren]

have 1, 4, 5, and 8 from the gw2 human asks for whoever you want! :) @kerra-and-company

Thank you for the ask. Smooch. <3

Counted my humans (excluding Nat, Cosima, and Xunlai) at 11 and did a RNG number picker based off my character page and got 6. So that's….. Ruby! Haha oh god she's lived for yaknow, 300ish years so we've got a lot to unpack here!

1) How do they feel about charr? Big Feelings (tm) to say the least. So Ruby was involved in the GW1 storyline. She grew up in the middle of nowhere off in the Tarnished Coast with her witchy mama and her sister, Kiz. When the White Mantle were poking around looking for Bloodstones Ruby and Kiz went off to Lion's Arch to look for people to come help chase off the Mantle, only to run into the Ascalonian group. Realising they're half-related (same dad) the sisters joined the cause. Knowing their step-family were chased out of their homes by Charr they took a strong dislike to the beasts. Once the events of Prophecies was over, Kiz along with one of the Ascalonian lot, Cea, went back to Ascalon to help getting more people out of Ascalon and safely into the settlements in Kryta. Except the pair of them died to charr attacks. Ruby found out and was just absolutely devestated. Years passed and she still had a lot of hatred for the charr, even when the Ebonhawke Treaty was signed (which her daughter played a part in) she will not trust them and is very uneasy around them. There's about 4 charr in the whole world that she will be near / listen to and even then she is very very suspicious of them and cagey around them. She'd much rather they be rugs on her floors.

2) do they have any strong ties with their heritage? Her mother was into the Aggression and Denial schools of magic. So magic heritage is more her thing than cultural/family. While magic isn't considered these ways anymore, that's a lot of what Ruby picked up on, so her magic isn't strictly "Necromancer". Pressure, punishment, snaring, and shutdown she learned from her mother and prefers that over things like creating minions. The Ascalonian kids have much more of a connection to their heritage, but since Ruby was sort of just this weird jungle kid during her youth she didn't know much outside of her mother. Which is amusing as she became the de facto Fae Family genealogy expert, keeping track of hundreds of blood relatives after GW1 timeline stuff.

5) describe their childhood. So Ruby, Kiz and their mama lived in the Tarnished Coast keeping very much to themselves for the most part. An annual trip to Lion's Arch for seeds, grains, other stuff to grow, then back to the jungle. Their lives were simple and it was mostly magic training, survival training that sort of thing. Mama knew she'd be sending their kids off an adventure one day so she wanted to train them well. They knew from an early age who their father was and they met him once or twice, purely by luck, when he was passing through Lion's Arch (he was a traveling merchant and would dock in every port IYKWIM wink). Kiz thinks she met Zoe once, but she may have just been lying about that. But still, it helped the Tarnished Coast kids connect to the Ascalonian kids.

8) do you have an in-game location for their “home?” Yes! Ruby has two places and they're both in Divinity's Reach. She has a big fancy house in Rurikton, where she puts on the graces of a noble. I think it was this house, though it has a much more impressive front door (this house seriously has like one side door to it. wtf lol).

People generally think she's just some fancy noble with a lot of knowledge about human history and an interest in the Flameseeker Prophecies. A lot of people claim to have ancestors who were the heroes, but Ruby was yaknow, actually there. Still, she'll humour them and smile and go "Oh me too…."

Then she has a place in the East Commons where she actually keeps all her shit from the past 300 or so years.

Quiet little place, the nearby NPC "Alleyway lurker" is one of her people who just watches over the place and reports any suspicious activity. But on the inside it's a cozy little place, if a little run down. The hidden basement is just full of stuff about the family and human history. She'll make a copy of something and give it to the Priory once in a while to keep them sweet. But there's a lot of stuff down there relating to Ascalon, Kryta, Orr, Tarnished Coast, also a lot of information about the Charr, the legions, the Khan-Ur. Know your enemy and all that jazz.

[marshmallowloves]

@moumouart || @frankmillerturnonyourlocation

Oh whoa, two! Thank you! :D

I couldn't think of anyone specific to center these asks around, so I thought it'd be fun to answer them with the whole Brother Husbands AU! (or at least a handful of them dkjfg)

SO, I'm going to consolidate these two asks into one, but I'll give longer answers for the prompts with whatever f/os I think of~ it's kinda long but hey, you don't follow me for my brevity…I hope 😂

✈️ - where are you going?

To the Outer Banks in North Carolina! I dunno which area specifically, but somewhere close enough to the beach AND to all the little shops.

The household would take yearly vacations and I like to think we'd visit a place from most everyone's respective sources at some point (I think maybe some would be too dangerous or otherwise just…not ideal vacation spots fkdjgj). But this year I picked the place! There were only a few complaints because hey, wtf gives, aren't there several rich people living in this house? Why aren't we going to Fiji or some shit?? But eventually everyone would concede cause I love the place, so~

Also for the sake of convenience, I'm pretending that singular vacation homes exist that can house 30+ people who all get their own rooms fkdhfjd

🗓️- how long are you staying?

Alright everyone can quit their bitching (affectionate) because while we aren't spending all our money to vacation somewhere fancier, we WILL use it to extend the time we're staying there longer than a week like we usually do. Maybe like two weeks, or three. There, now we can make up for all the time spent unpacking the absolutely monstrous pile of luggage and groceries for everyone staying here gkdjgj

🎟️- what are you most excited to do?

Well I know I'm most excited to be swimming! I only got to swim in a pool a grand total of ONE TIME this ENTIRE SUMMER so damn it I'm gonna get my fill! 😂

Most everyone would be happy to join I'm sure, though how they spend their time in the water would probably vary a lot. Fenris or Aizawa would probably just hang out at the steps and be mildly bothered by someone like Midna or Yoshimitsu who are maybe (accidentally?) smacking people in the face with an inflatable ball a little too often (…it's Kohga, he's people KFHSJF) You won't catch Sir Dan swimming though, he'd sink like a rock fsjfg

Also everyone's gonna be subject to my summer playlist whether they like it or not fshdkjf (Actually I think some of them would recognize the summer-sounding music I handpicked from their source and be flattered or just happy to hear something familiar >u>)

The more high-energy ones like Pit and maybe Link would be down for all kinds of stuff - swimming, exploring the sand dunes, doing…I dunno, mini golf or whatever other kind of family activity places they have out there dkjfg. Link would maybe only cheat a LITTLE at mini golf by using Rewind on the ball when he overshoots but Mr. Hell catches him and almost goes demon-mode chewing him out over it…cause he's been losing badly cause he's too tall for everything. And then Pit calls HIM out because he's been getting his chimimoryo to screw everyone else up instead by diverting their ball or becoming extra obstacles and then they probably end up getting themselves kicked out cause they're all yelling and causing a disturbance kdsjfhg

Most everyone else would just be happy to finally have time to chill and do nothing, since ordinarily they've got a lot to take care of on the daily. Some of them would take a little more convincing to just let loose and not worry so much (Maxie, Miles, Raiden - none of them know how to fuckin relax kjsdfhg) but eventually they'd come around. Of those, I think Miles especially would be disappointed when it's time to go home because it means he's gotta go back to dealing with the antics of everyone who can't seem to keep themselves uninvolved with murder. (or hey, maybe one happens at the Golden Corral we all sit down at one night and I rave for a second time about how we can't have a nice dinner without someone fucking dying fjdhfj)

Then you have James who's trying to have some inkling of an itinerary for everyone, and dealing with the headache of Cortex insisting they squeeze in time for a casual little Turning Beachgoers Into Cinders till Sans steps in and yeets the lil fucker into the pool 👍🏻

💕- what’s something romantic (or just nice if they’re not a romantic f/o!!) that happens on the trip?

Not necessarily romantic (…??) but James and Cici visit a sex shop nearby and spend most of the time poking fun at all the cheap and badly-named BDSM gear based on 50 Shades (but they do eventually end up buying things… 👀)

Orbulon also somehow found his way there and has absolutely zero idea what kind of store it is or what any of the products are so you just hear him in the corner going "oooh, hmmm!" at all the vibrators or something. And then at some point he walks up to the counter and slaps a set of edible panties down and goes "How much for this oddly-shaped Earth confection? I'm quite famished from the trip here and I would like to eat it right away!" and the poor baffled cashier gets a new story to tell when they get off work (sorry that wasn't romantic at all, I lost the plot a lil bit KJHDFJD)

Something romantic I can think of that could happen is a candlelit midnight soak in the hot tub outside, but, uh… considering how many of my f/os would want to do that I guarantee there's (non-lethal) fighting over who gets to go in with Cici first. Catch James making a schedule of who gets which night and putting himself first for various reasons (he's the first one to ever join the house, he's basically the designated planner for this whole vacation, etc) and while Takumi is objecting because an incubus like James could literally seduce her into the hot tub whenever he wants so he doesn't NEED to be first, and Pit is trying to keep the peace by saying everyone will have time to relax in the hot tub, and Ghirahim is calling them BOTH out because they both get plenty of spa time at home… Midna's already in there holding Cici who's lost in the sauce and she's like "snooze, you lose, boys ✌🏻"

💟- freebie to write a scenario/blurb about your vacation!! (optional to do this if you get this one!!)

I wracked my brain but I couldn't think of any extra scenarios or blurbs at the moment so I just doodled this instead sorry KJHDFKGJF

[asphodel-flowers]

I reblogged something else in the last post and bitched about cultural Christianity.

I'm still unpacking my own and have plenty of work to do about that myself. It's not that I don't understand how hard it is to do. But it's necessary if you truly want to actually switch religions/ world views/ etc.

So. Example time.

My own religion (now) has very little if anything to do with morality. My gods really genuinely do not care if I'm nice to people or any of the other qualifiers, qualities, or actions that most people/ Christianity would say makes A Good Person tm. I don't believe there is morality carved into the bedrock of the universe.

If the universe or """karma""" (the western understanding of karma is as appropriated as chakras and white sage) or the Fates or gods judged us for the harm we cause, why don't they judge and punish dolphins? Or any of the other copious animals in the wild who rape one another, or otherwise cause harm to each other?

Are we better than them somehow? Science says cephalopods can dream. Dolphins and whales have complex languages. Corvids can use tools and hold burials/ have funerary practices for their dead. Elephants share information with each other about which humans will help and which humans to avoid. You know damn well your pets have feelings.

Many magic practitioners who work with spirits have encountered the aware spirits of individual animals (including pets) that have passed. Sometimes they become familiars and other similar protectors. So you can't tell me the difference between humans and animals is that the latter don't have a "soul."

I put soul in quotes because I'm not quite sure any of us knows what that means. There are certainly multiple parts to the noncorporeal aspects of our being. The mind is one such part, and I've felt the chi body part when learning kung fu. I've experienced the weird slipping of the etheric double resulting from psychic attack that Dion Fortune explains in Psychic Self-Defense. Many different cultures have documented different parts of the soul or spirit or soul complex or whatever you want to call it. I'm not sure any of us have it all figured out. Maybe one day someone will explain it with science and measure it all.

Speaking of science, Biology 101 and 102 in college actually influenced part of how I see what happens after death. In your biochemistry, stuff breaks down and is reformed right? The sugars and the proteins and the carbohydrates get broken down and repurposed. Cell parts break down and get recycled. ♻️

And in evolution, there's no End Goal, right? That's one of the first myths they try to dispel. Evolution is adapting to circumstances, to the environment around the organism. It's not trying to obtain some sort of Ultimate Perfect Being.

So I think reincarnation and whatever we go through after death works the same way. I don't know all of it, for sure. But I think... I don't think growth is to Become Some Perfect Ideal. I think we just... adapt and change to fit the circumstances. Parts of us slough off on our journey and get recycled.

Maybe there's a core part underneath it all, but is that really the same person anymore? What are we without our memories and feelings?

I don't think it's about punishment or reward at all. I think it just exists. I think it just is. The rest of nature is that way. Why would the rest of the universe and reality be different? Especially in such a limiting way where it's all a front to divide the Righteous tm from the Wicked tm. Wtf is the point of that?

I think that's just too complicated for most people though. It took me a lot of unpacking and small changes one after another to get here. It's like that meme with the dominoes that's like Stephanie Meyer publishing Twilight leading to 50 Shades of Grey leading to shit, I forgot what it ended up being but it was absolutely bonkers.

Anyways.

The point is that completely different-than-Christianity worldviews and beliefs do actually exist. I'm sure a Jewish person, or idk a real Buddhist, or Hindu or Muslim or Sikh or Shinto person could maybe explain their religion as a far better example of just Vastly-Different-Worldview. but I couldn't explain any of those as well as someone who follows or studies them could. I only have my own experiences as someone raised in American cultural Christianity who is trying to move away from it and believe and be different.

[shaww93]

My MIL is annoying the shit out of me right now and it hasn’t been a week yet.

I feel like… I usually don’t get annoyed with her but idk why but to me she feels entitled here. Is it cause the house is bigger? Is it cause it’s her territory? Idk

I just think…. It’s a lot of her way or just her way.

An example: I got a lot of baby stuff from my cousin to borrow while I’m here. Turns out the high chair we don’t really like. This I can understand because I think it’s old and dirty, but they have plenty, plenty! Of space here to just have it here for a week. Of course I would take it back eventually but she heard I was going back home yesterday so she told me, I don’t remember if she even asked but she was like since we’re not going to be using this can you take it back home because it’s just going to take up space here.

Dude…. And she was just telling me the other day they don’t want to get any furniture for the house (it’s really barebones) because they don’t know how long they’re gonna live here. So yeah they have the space. The living room downstair is literally a storage with boxes of stuff they haven’t unpacked since they move back last year.

But you know what I can’t say anything because it’s their house, their rules. So the high chair is just sitting in my car because I was too tired and it wasn’t in my plan yesterday to drop it off.

The other thing was… I woke up about an hour ago because my daughter woke up and I went down to make her formula.

I hear my MIL wake up and racing down to the kitchen to tell me to move my car. Like WTF you have two cars, I’m pretty sure she’s not going anywhere either tomorrow so I don’t get why my SIL can’t drive her car..?!?! So you know I’m fucking tired and she asked me for my key but then told me to move my car.

Just so and idk if this is something to get riled up about, but I just feel like I’m being bossed around.

She def judged the way my car was when we went shopping the other day. I mean I’m not proud of it either but damn… she’s not subtle about these things.

The other thing I honestly do not understand is why she constantly wants to go back to Taiwan… I can understand if it’s the health insurance stuff, but I feel like every time she goes back everyone is in high alert or walking on tiptoes and she also has to work at nights over there and isn’t getting much sleep so she’s in a bad mood. And like… why. Why do that to yourself??

Oh but then she also doesn’t want my SIL to be here by herself for too long and so she’ll try to tell her to go around the same time as her but SIL wants to go another time where the weather is much cooler.

Idk. Idfk. I’m just nodding my head and doing what I should do as a guest here. But man does my blood boil.

So this trip… I mean my family’s all here. I’m gonna get out of the house as much as I can and do as much things as I can while I’m still here cause idk when we’ll be back.

[sandyspaghettibag]

Monumental post

Idk how else I'm going to identify this post as the retelling of the biggest thing that's ever happened between me and my boy, but well… I'm about to get a whole lot more sane from here on out

I was talking to him this afternoon, he wanted to send me stuff of his body, so I gave him the whole "you don't have to unless YOU want to, I'm here for you not your body" ykyk, I react suuuuper weird to his belly and chest cause like… I've had a crush on this boy for three years, seeing him in the flesh is just wild to my mind… he jiggled it around in a very similar way to twitter chubbies but like… it was HIM, like I KNOW HIM.

Overall, because my sex drive has been basically gone at inconvenient times, all I had was the romance in my mind and like… with the amount of flirting we'd been doing in the past week, I ignored whatever customs exist between friends or whatever and started doing olympic jumps over that line separating friends and lovers. Called him beautiful, called him cute, said what came to my mind, which is that I wanted to sit on his lap. Never got to say I wanted to wrap my legs around his back…that came to mind too lol.

I don't even remember how it switched over to this but he asked me if I saw myself realistically being in a relationship with him despite everything he has going on. I was like "I've seen myself like that for about three years!!"

APPARENTLY HE LOVED ME THE ENTIRE TIME.

When I tell you I didn't expect that… like I literally still can't process it, and every time I truly think about it for just a second I'm jolted with this euphoria. Like… it COMPLETELY changes those three years and my perception of them.

Anyway I was listening to Doja Cat outside just pacing back and forth all afternoon like unpacking those three years very lightly, (God i wanna hear and say so much more about them but that's for later) and I basically asked him if we could wait until I'm ready before making it official, because the plan was to get a job first and really socialize myself so I can learn to read a fucking room or whatever, plus I still have booty buster to deal with but that's a non issue at this point. I felt kinda terrible because wtf, just wtf in general… I really was in what was basically shock and VERY much disbelief… But I asked about what the "goal" was, and he said he wanted to obviously take it into real life.

HIS GOAL IS TO LIVE WITH MEEEEEEE. WHAT THE FUCK.

So now I'm just writing this in the shower while he sleeps instead of using the shower thoughts to process it, cause absolutely no way am I not documenting this. I don't think I'll need to write much crazy stuff anymore…

I mean like… if only November 2021 me could see me now. I really got him.