#catching back up on the last few c3 eps rn and FUCK

[its-your-mind]

what the fuck ashton finally looking at the possibilities of his past for the first time and also actually confronting the outside world for the first time and as soon as they have two seconds to stop and think IMMEDIATELY going off and having a panic attack bc they have NO CLUE how any of this is happening and what the fuck they’re supposed to do about it and who the fuck they are now that they’re actually stepping back out of their shell they built around themselves when they decided that the whole world can fuck right off cuz he wants nothing to do with it but NOW now he has a stake in this game and he wants to fix things but everything is just too fucking big to fix by himself or even with this new family he’s found this is empires and century old elves and gods and primordials they’re just one fuckin rock that the world threw out and decided it didn’t want anymore and he has no fucking clue how to fucking fix a world that he thought didn’t want anything to do with him and now it feels like that whole world is relying on them when they’re just. An orphan. A failed experiment. A shattered piece of prehistory. A Nobody. And they want to be something new but they just don’t fucking know what that looks like or how to be a hero even though they want to be. More than anything they want to be enough, but they just don’t know how. They don’t know. They don’t. know.